was feeling kinda down today but it got better. i had said something to rochelle on here and she hadn't responded and hadn't replied to ne of my messeges or ne thing so i thought that she was avoiding me or something, then we talked later so i felt better. though thinking about things while talking to her made me rather sad cuz i still had that feeling tat it was just a game or something. i donno when we talk especially on the phone i know she cares about me, and each night we talk on the phone i can hear the emotion in her voice even more but then when she's not there it seems to make me not sure it was ever there or something.
it sort of makes me feel that i need her to always be there. i want the feeling to last when she isn't there because now especially she can't always be there and compared to what i'm used to she can't be there that often and not even really there only talking to me. ive been singing a song obsessively that has to do with what is going on in my mind and such it started of as just a random jam, but i have been playing it so much it has now turned into a structured song and i think is pretty much finished. i am going to make rochelle a cd of some songs ive sort of made recently, though first im going to polish them up a little more so they have some structure. perhaps posting the lyrics will be more explanitory of my feelings then ne thing else..
FOREVER
before this goes on anymore
i need to know the truth
i need to know your feelings
i need to know the truth
if i promise you forever
will you be there in the end
if i promise you forever
will you still love me then
i want to taste your lips girl
and breathe you in my heart
i want to make you mine girl
say we'll never part
before this goes on anymore
i need to know the truth
i need to know your feelings
do you love me too?
if i promise you forever
will you be there in the end
if i promise you forever
will you still love me then
will you still love me then
i want to make forever
in your arms tonight
i want to live forever
if you love me too
if you love me too
