So this is going to be a ranting blog..so if you dont want to hear me rant...then dont read any farther...that was your warning =P
I dont know if you all knew, but i just recently got back together with and ex. We had dated for a bout 2 and a half years in highschool, and then we broke up in out senior year of highschool. We recently got back together, now we're both in our sophmore year in college.
Things are alright i suppose...he just makes me so frustrated. Now, im not looking to offend anyone who might do drugs or whatever...cause really, thats you're choice and whatever works for you. Now personally, they're not for me...just my thing i guess..and when it effects my life in a personal way it bothers me. And Adam he's just become drug crazy over the past year or so. It just drive me crazy when he complains to me that he has no money for things like books he needs for classes and such, yet he's got money to spend on pot and shrooms and all that.
I guess its just bothers me because he thinks he's a better, more fun person to be around when he's on them and thats not true. I went out to his college the other day cause we were going to go to the mall...and of course he has to smoke up before we go. Now, i don't drive down there to go spend time with someone who's high out of their mind...i like him the way he is with out it. And now he wants to try harder things like opium and start dealing...and blah. I dont think i can handle it.
But maybe its just me. maybe im just overreacting. i dunno, sometimes i think he loves his drugs more then he loves me. and that feeling sucks.
