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Making Sense
Making Sense If ever love has sought a meaning, the simple case for love is this: your green eyes in the half-light grinning as, stirred from sleep, we bend to kiss. Drowsily we drift together and, seeking sense in love’s commands, write our truths upon each other in wordless poems, with our hands. Slowly…. slowly…. time and distance fade and languid limbs commence summoning with sweet insistence needs that have no future tense. Faster now…. dismissing reason, our bodies merge to one intent: if love’s owed sense, our love is treason, each end exquisite punishment. Salved, we sleep and, at our waking, in each other’s eyes know this: if love has sense, it’s in its making or, better yet, has none, but is.

You And Me
When I first met you I felt like I had known you forever, telling you my secrets and what I didn't want ever. you listened to me I bet you thought I'd never end, who would have thought we would become more than just friends. Over a period of time, I got to know the real you. A man so caring and gentle, with a heart so true. You've survived your life with hurt and loneliness by your side. I told you I'd never leave because of the feelings I have inside. I know you like no one I have ever known, and sometimes I wonder what I'd do if you were gone? So I have decided time answers all. If it is meant to be time will remove the wall. I love the way we are together, you can always make me smile. Will it ever really be forever? I guess I will have to wait awhile. Time will reveal, what lies ahead but always remember what I have said. Meeting you has changed my life and I really love you so, the feelings I feel for you I am never letting go. Remember me always

William Control- Deathclub (underworld: Rise Of The Lycans Soundtrack)
The sinners crying We're dressed like fame The shame of knowing the guilty The killer instinct to play this game I know we're nothing but filthy You're in the Deathclub, melt so strange You're in the Deathclub, melt so strange We're in the Deathclub All free to sin away Take your own life Membership is pain Were in the Deathclub All free to sin away Take your own life Silent, damned and strange Mindless follow the velvet tears The silent picture is perfect The architects of our flaws and fears I know, were nothing but servants You're in the Deathclub, melt so strange You're in the Deathclub, melt so strange We're in the Deathclub All free to sin away Take your own life Membership is pain Were in the Deathclub All free to sin away Take your own life Silent, damned and strange Take away the fear and I'll follow Take me half alive I'm not running scared tomorrow Oh I'll survive You're in the Deathclub, melt so strange You're in the Deathclub, melt so strange We're in the Deathclub

I Miss You...
I miss you, though you just went away I really do wish, you could have stayed I know why you're gone,know thats it's best But some relationships, just don't pass the test All that I've hoped for, all that I dreamed I watched fall apart and rip at the seams I wish it were different, together again Knowing deep in my heart, its better it ends...

You~
I can sit here completely content and watch you sleep and breath Wondering what you may be dreaming about Smiles race across my face Running my nails down your back Feeling your soft skin glide under my finger tips I want to touch you all day long When you are getting ready to go somewhere I miss you before you even leave At night when I close my eyes I dream of you and feel so safe I have never felt beautiful I know I am beautiful now because you Love me And because of you I know what love is And how it is supposed to feel and be !

Lilbit About Me
I am in the process of divorce. My spouse and I get along better as friends then we did as a couple. We both have met people that we love and care about to which live out of state. I am temporarily staying with my parents and looking for work to save up money to move to the state in which my current love resides.I am very happy and I love him deeply. I like to be social and meet ppl but for me this is just for online. Although I am sure there are many of you folks out there that are very nice. I am not interested in meeting in person. Nor trading sexual content or information of any kind. I was raised most of my life in Missouri and hate living here lol. I am a fun, loving, and caring person. Don't step on my toes, and I wont step on yours...I may be sweet but if not respected, i tend to get pissy. LOL.

Telephone Blues
telephone blues in love with a porn star not sure why... in love with a porn star i'll shout out loud really i'm not to shy... in love with a porn star even though i love you all this has got to B love so what next? which one will call??? 5.11.09 fester for Bella

Love Making .... Tips For Seniors
1. Put on your glasses. Double check that your partner is actually in bed with you. 2. Set timer for 3 minutes, in case you doze off in the middle. 3. Set the mood with lighting. Turn them ALL OFF! 4. Make sure you put 911 on your speed dial before you begin. 5. Write partner's name on your hand in case you can't remember it.

Leah's Bondage Final Part~
The days passed for Leah in a strange dreamlike fashion. She tried to keep her hatred for Master burning, but as day passed into day, she became more desperate for the time when he would come to the room. The hours alone passed slowly even with the assignments he gave her. She hated how eagerly her body responded to his touch, to his voice, even to the sound of the key turning in the lock. Even now she could feel the moisture between her legs as she waited for him to bring in dinner.To her surprise, Master entered with a couple of boxes instead of a dinner tray. He took his seat and smiled at her, "You have been so good, Little Rabbit, that I have a treat for you."Leah sat perfectly still, she didn't want to ruin any chance at a treat. The treat must have something to do with the boxes.Carlton smiled warmly at his slave girl. She had come so far in just a month. Her responses to training were beautiful. Tonight would be a good test of her training. "I am taking you downstairs for dinne

To My Friends And My Family On Fubar
to my friends and family on fubar.. I just wanted to tell you all i am leaving fubar and the net tonight. i would like to stay in touch with everyone and keep the friendship there. I will be checkin my email through my cell phone once a week . so if you would like to stay in touch let me know.. my email address is devil_advocate_37 at yahoo . com only a few will get my cell to txt and those already got it ..

What Is Wrong With Woman?
i just joined this site and i have found the woman on here to be pretty rude! i cant help it if i'm cute and the guyz wanna talk to me! stop eating 20 cheese burgers a day and they will want to talk to you also! it's getting boring to hear the same old thing! when i try and talk to a guy i see the girls on the cams roll their eyes! when you know me than u can roll your eyes till than knock it off your acting like children! if you have something to say just say it to me and i hate that shout box its annoying as hell! kisses and licks to the guyz, to the ladies i just turn my head

Another Day.........
Well here is sit all alone, like always. But I am use to it. For sometime now, I have been one of the most unwanted people around. I know that I am a hand full and crazy, but does that mean I should be alone all the time? I feel that it doesn't, but most everyone else does, so I give them what they want, I keep to myself and don't keep company with anyone. I do get lonely, but I have gotten use to it, and have learned to deal with it. I use to have hope that I would met someone, who wants me, but I have begun to lost hope. When I do met someone, I try to make them understand that I am not well by far, but like always I come off as a total ass and run them off, like a speical someone that I fell for, I ended up running her off. But that is just my life. So I have to learn to accept the fact that, forever more, I will be, unwanted, unloved and unneeded..........who knows maybe I am wrong, but its been so long I don't think I am..................

Ubetrue 2
Im a single dad w/2 but only have one left at home now. The ex left when kids were 5 an 11 to go find her self. I have dated a few women but one wanted me to help take care of her an her 3 kids. The others only wanted to get what they could like money an things. there is more 2 life then money an things. I need a GIVER not just a TAKER. I still have alot to give to that special person. All I ask is be honest an true above all. one who is funny yet serious when need be. To be a great commuincater as well as a good listener an be open minded. One whos not afraid to show ones feelings an believe it takes 2 to make a relationship work. To get the respect, understanding,caring an give it in return. One who still likes to hold hands an snuggle while watching a movie or just talking.. I dont like to fight or yell an also believe alll can be settled by talking an make each other understand where they are comming from. There are to many game players out there. Im to old for them. I guess I'

Talking About Bad Luck!
If it's not me with my problems, by having cancer it's another thing we had a large branch come down on our home this morning around 12 I don't know yet how much damage there is however there's also a HUGE (ASS) LIM in our yard which took part of the siding off, it seems that my family can't win for losing anymore... Like VOODOO has taken over and bad things are happening all around us... I made a claim to progressive an hopefully they will pay out good....lol.... Because like I said I'm not sure what kind of damage there is to the house, haven't went to look on the other side as of yet, plus the fact that I just got out of surgery yesterday an was dead asleep when John came busting through the door to make sure that I was o.k.... An seeing I was so drugged up I didn't know how to take it, was freaking out wanting to call the police an everything...lol.... Anyways like I said BAD luck runs in this family and I just wish to GOD that something will give sooner than later, cause at this p

Schinzel-giedion Syndrome What My Son Devon Had
Devon was the 17th in the world to have this syndrome he was deaf blind and had full retardation he had a trache to breath and a jtube to eat out of he lived from may- 7th -98 to may- 11- 99 Q: What is Schinzel-Giedion Syndrome (SGS)? A: SGS is a complex genetic disorder that typically causes: •a major facial defect called midface retraction, •a disorder known as hydronephrosis caused by obstruction and distension in the kidney, •unusual skeletal features, •excessive growth of bodily hair (hypertrichosis), •seizures, •abnormal EEG, •severe mental retardation, and •failure to thrive. There can also be heart problems, genital abnormalities, and spells of interrupted breathing. Q: What causes SGS? A: The probable cause is a recessive genetic defect carried by both parents, so that the disease does not show up in the parents and 3 out of 4 of their children (speaking statistically). It is not known what chromosomes carry the defect. Q: How common is SGS? A: SGS is an

Bedroom Window Letter
If you woke up one day, after been with me for one night and found this letter with a red rose on yourBedroom Window.-----------------------------Good morning sunshineIt might be impossible to be with you right nowBut at least I can dream, at least I can wish to beYou have brought light to my dark caveYou have brought smile to my sadness landYou have brought life to my dead landYou have created the human in meThat human who wont be perfect without youWho will not be a human without your breaths next to I just want to thank you for being in my lifeFor lightening my nights like a moonFor being my sun on my autumn daysYou made me think of things I thought it dont exsist any moreYou brought words to my mind I have forgotten long time agoYou made my heart beat againThank you for being your selfAnd sorry if I did or said anything wrongIt was just meSilly meKisses---------------------So what would you do??1: smile and get rid of the letter2: fold the letter and hide it with your personal t

My Own City
It’s been long years while I am waitingI don’t know what I am waitingDo I wait your forgiveness???Or I am waiting the water to get back to the old dry river??I know that I didn’t leave any space in your heartAs we didn’t leave any place in old DamascusEvery street has its own memoryIt presents a story of our bookEvery step presents a step in our journeyOur finished journey our finished storyEven the roads of Damascus are still hereAnd here you are my eveJust like old Damascus which never left its peoplesAs my heart never left your loveThat I became like qassyounAs long as Damascus is aliveIt will be hereThe never separatedIf my heart was qassyon Your love will be old Damascus- - - - - - - - - - - - -- - - - -- - - - -W.B:FAR7AN

A Break In~
She double-checked her door to make certain it was locked and then she padded to the bathroom. A bath, she thought. That's what I need... a bath. Not a shower. A bath will help me relax.She filled the tub, tossed in some bath beads, turned the radio on in the living room, grabbed a magazine and decided to put the night and him out of her mind. She slipped out of the old football jersey (the last reminder of her him), slid her panties off and stepped into the tub. She let herself sink into the hot water. The heat seeped into her bones.She settled back on her bath pillow (a wise investment at the Dollar Store) and flipped open the magazine. She had almost finished the article about 25 ways to save money on your spring wardrobe when the light when out. She blinked. And blinked again. Thinking that the power was out in the entire apartment if not an even larger area, she said, quietly, but aloud, "Damn it."A voice, silky smooth and very masculine, responded, "Uh, uh, no ugly talk, Vonna."

A Cold Rainy Day Part Two~
I stood up to look at her as she lay there panting for breath, a light sheen of perspiration covering her upper body. I watched in fascination as the vibrator slowly, very slowly slipped out of her. As it did a deep sigh came from her. I picked it up and took it into the bathroom to rinse it off. By the time I returned she was breathing more normally, so I asked, "Well, how do you like this, something special so far?" She smiled for a second and then whispered, "It's wonderful, just wonderful." I took a folded blanket off the bed and covered her with it, tucking it in around her. "Aren't you going to untie me now?" I chuckled and replied, "Oh, no. I don't intend to do that for a while. You get some rest and we'll continue after you do." "John?" She said. When I didn't answer she said, "I'm wore out, I couldn't cum again, if I wanted to." I chuckled and said, "Oh yes you can. Rest, take a nap, then we'll finish." She pulled at the cords for a moment and started to protest. I cut her of

I'm Glad I Have You To Love
It means so much to have a love just meant to be. I thought I knew what happiness was. Then you came with your smiles and dreams and gave my life purpose and meaning... I thought I knew what love was, but I didn't know at all... until I found you.

From My Rocking Chair
Have you ever been brought to tears just by looking out of the window? To feel the breeze blowing softly against your skin... Realizing that a gift as preciuos as the air, could be taken away for any reason?... Sitting in my rocking chair; feeling as though every rock were a memory. Sooner rather than later, the rocks are done with. Such a short stay of relaxation. I want it to all be over, so that i do not have to look out of the window to feel and breathe life. Rather; I can walk right into it.

"the Streets"
The Streets Hang onto your conscience, and pray for an act of God Eyes wide shut you still hold hope, for that approving little nod Yeah, blame it all on others for the things you’ll never be But the streets, the streets will always wait. Your dreams once bright, they creep in still, through the crack beneath your door And mix with blends of shadows like they did in times before Today they don’t come knocking, to entice you with their wares But the streets, the streets will always wait. No one knew you like the streets, adorned with weathered cracks Because many times you spun your wheels on their polished asphalt tracks Still the rubber’s burning, yet you haven’t moved and inch

Who Said Its Silly
hey every one so many ppls on here says its just an online thing and i do have a life outside this site lol then when u get close to their fubar account they get pissed,why the hell what blah blah blah then u see how addicted they are for this rating and leveling even those who say i dont flirt and i am happily married or happily taken u see them fanning a guy or a woman who hit on them its like a married woman who has toys to do the job or a married man who jerk off him self lol but who am i to judge ppls life i am just thinking out loud,thats all its scary if u think twice about it but as most of those ppls do think once about it and u will see how silly i am lol yeah who said i am not silly but even tho i am pretty damn honest not shy or ashamed of saying or doing what i like without giving it different names or calling it something its not what it is in real but once again its just me silly me muahhhhhz all -----------------------------FM

Here To Stay
Here to stay walls much to high to climb maybe it's not worth the time another bag of bricks mortar mix crack the whip upon your horse so tall so divine... it's all the same crawl away from me crawl do not bother me do not call another shadow on the sun another shadow but the sun still shines... 5.16.09 fester

Updated Registered Offender Lists
http://www.felonspy.com/search.htmlhttp://www.familywatchdog.us/http://www.kidsafenetwork.com/Know what they did were they live, who they are then question why they are aloud near you your family and still roam free.....

Some Peoples
its really strange how some ppls live on their mistakes its really scary why cuz thise type of ppls they keep doing same mistakes and then [i am sorry i didnt mean it,was not my fault, i couldnt help it] excuses like that why?? just to make thier partner or parents yell or punish them that they feel the abused ,so they give them selves the excuse to be coward to be in the corner and live like that that when anyone ask why u r sad in ur life they would answer cuz i am always treated like shit,like crap while u cant ask others to respect u unless u respect ur self u cant sit limits for others if u dont know ur own limits we all been abused some way or another but after all we choose how to abuse others or just live all our life in the corners lick roches lol i am a butterfly and dont care if the light i am flying toward gonna burn me or not as long i make my own choice do u?? i doubt it lol -------------------------- W,B: FAR7AN

A Forward. What Is The Perfect Guy?
The PERFECT guy/ would: Text you EVERY FEW HOURS to see how your doing. Tell you you're gorgeous in front of his guy friends. Stay on the phone with you even if your not saying anything. Teases you, but lets you tease back. Stays up all night with you when you're sick. Watches your favorite movie with you. Won't wipe his mouth after you kissed him. Gives you the world. Lets you wear his clothes. When your bored and sad, hang out with you. Lets you know your important. Kisses you in the pouring rain. When you run up to him crying.. the first thing he says is Who's ass am i beatin today baby? If you don't forward this in four minutes you will lose the one you love. If you do forward this in the next four minutes the one you love will: Call you Kiss you Txt you Send this message to at least 10 people but not to me Guy or girl Dont matter.

No Air
this is how i feel without you for a day .... imagine Tell me how I'm supposed to breathe with no airIf I should die before I wakeIt's 'cause you took my breath awayLosing you is like living in a world with no airOhI'm here alone, didn't wanna leaveMy heart won't move, it's incompleteWish there was a way that I can make you understandBut how do you expect meto live alone with just me'Cause my world revolves around youIt's so hard for me to breathe[Chorus:]Tell me how I'm supposed to breathe with no airCan't live, can't breathe with no airIt's how I feel whenever you ain't thereIt's no air, no airGot me out here in the water so deepTell me how you gonna be without meIf you ain't here, I just can't breatheIt's no air, no airNo air, airNo air, airNo air, airNo air, airI walked, I ran, I jumped, I flewRight off the ground to float to youThere's no gravity to hold me down for realBut somehow I'm still alive insideYou took my breath, but I survivedI don't know how, but I don't even careS

Inner Child
The youthful joy of childhood a feeling too often hidden by the evolving changes of age thats usually fear ridden. kept locked away in a box under lock and key there's a little kid just waiting to be let free. there's no reason for it why can't the child be let out we hide it for "its own good" its too fragile for a world of doubt. though if everyone went back and showed their inner child everything would be different a world so fun and wild. no more fighting or egoes no one to say how to think no more jealousy no more living with with war on the brink.

Just Another Thought
When we look into a mirror, all we tend to see is our past mistakes. When we look into a mirror, we don't see the beauty that lies beneath the face that God bestowed on us. When we look into a mirror, we compare our looks to that of which society thinks is to be true beauty. When we look into a mirror, we see a reflection of the sadness in our own lives. Maybe it is time to look in a different mirror. Past mistakes are nothing more than learning tools...and should be seen as such. Others may place value on your self worth, but they are not the accountant of you. Look into the eyes of those who care and love you, the reflection changes. The beauty is so much more than what society says it should be. The glow you emit is more than the clothing you wear, how much money you make or the kind of car you drive. It is the inner most part of you shinning through and others around you close thier eyes and rejoice in it. Your voice lights up a room, your laughter chases away pangs of s

Party Like It's 1994
Fifteen years ago … Mark 5:35-43 May 20Changes and growth G[raduation] + 5 9405.20 Ignoring what they said, Jesus told the synagogue ruler, “Don’t be afraid, just believe.” 36 When Jairus was told to not be afraid concerning his daughter, Jesus did not mean don’t be concerned. You have to look at the second part of what he said – “just believe.” For something as incredible as this, belief was as much as Jairus could have – belief in man’s role in God’s plan, belief in His will being done, and belief in feelings of personal grief. It grieves me that sometimes we are more concerned about not losing than we are about winning. In education, this is translated into more concern about people not failing than we are about them succeeding. It’s hard for me to feel like I’ve done my best when I am teaching “down” to right where people are instead of working up. [This is followed by

Daddy It Hurts
My name is LEXYI am FIVE,My eyes are swollenI cannot see,I must be stupidI must be bad,What else could have madeMy daddy so mad?I wish I were betterI wish I weren't ugly,Then maybe my mommyWould still want to hug me.I cant do a wrongI cant speak at allOr else im locked upAll day long.When im awake im all aloneThe house is darkMy folks aren't homeWhen my mommy does come homeI'll try and be nice,So maybe ill just getOne whipping tonight.I just heard a carMy daddy is backFrom Charlies barI hear him curseMy name is calledI press myselfAgainst the wallI try to hideFrom his evil eyesIm so afraid nowI'm starting to cryHe finds me weepingCalls me ugly words,He says its my faultHe suffers at workHe slaps and hits meAnd yells at me more,I finally get freeAnd run to the doorHes already locked itAnd I start to bawl,He takes me and throws meAgainst the hard wallI fall to the floorWith my bones nearly broken,And my daddy continuesWith more bad words spoken,'Im sorry!', I screamBut its now much to la

Love That Is Real
Sometimes at night,When I look to the sky,I start thinking of you,And then ask myself "why?""Why do I love you?"I think and smile,Because I know,The list could run on for mile.The whisper of your voice,The warmth of your touch,So many little things,Make me love you so much.The way you support me,Even my silly notions,The way that you care,And show such devotion.The way that your kiss,Fills me with desire,And how you hold me,With the warmth of a fire.The way your eyes shine,When you look at me,Lost with you forever,Is where i want to be.The way that I feel,When you are by my side,A sense of completion,And overflowing pride.The dreams that I dream,That all involve you,The possibilities that I see,The things that we can do.How you finish the puzzle,That lies inside my heart,How deep in my soul,You are a very important part.I could go on for days,Telling of what I feel,But all you really must know is...My love for you is real

Go Check Out The Cullen Pack Lounge
THE CULLEN PAC WOULD LIKE TO INVITE YOU TO JOIN US ON OUR GRAND OPENING....BEWARE WE DON'T BITE MUCH JUST NIBBLE ALITTLE. We would be happy to have you all as our guests for the Grand opening of the Cullen Pack!!

The Stars
The sky seems so much blacker than all the other nightsBringing a deeper chill which reaches my bonesThe stars are scatteredSparkling, shining, shaping the worldI can’t see anything else but you,Anything but you and the starsI lay down, my head on the orange and red fallen leavesAlthough they all look the same in the darkI wonder if you care we are laying on the groundTiny goose bumps dance along my arms and legsI wonder why you haven’t moved closer yetI wonder if you don’t want to be thereLaying on the leaves, in the coolness of the darkLooking at the stars, with meI think I’m thinking too much, I think that...You move closerDeep breath, deep breath...My hand feels so small in yours,Small but safe, safe and warmI could fall asleep with my head on your shoulderWe say nothingI remember the stars, they are still sparkling back at usI’ll always remember them now

Been A Minute...
The last time you kissed someone, were your hands around their neck?yes Who last complimented you?my best friend! he is so sweet and awesome Was your last phone call boring or somewhat interesting?my convos with my best friend are always fun and interesting lol Would you kiss the last person who texted you?that would be awkward Who is the last person that texted you?my neighbor lol How is your day overall?not to bad other than my baby girl bein sick today What is making you worry?besides my little one bein sick, my trip for next week. i just want it to go as smooth as possible Have you ever had the cops called on you?nope. Do you think relationships are hard?they can be Do you have an accent?not really... it usually only comes out when i drink lol Are you good at giving directions?kinda Have you ever met a gay person?quite a few Do you blow dry your hair?only when i get it cut and styled What is the last movie you saw in theaters?Mall Cop Have you shaved your legs in the

Life Sucks
ok so my life isnt going anywhere any more and i hate how i dont have anything to do anymore so ya here a list of y i hate my life 1:no friends to hang with in public 2nly a few friends online/out of state so not alot i can do with them 3:no job,car,own home,money 4:no gf been looking for almost 5 yrs nonstop in public and online no luck and im thinking of stoping cause no1 wants me or wants to try to go out i dont care if we not work out i just want to try and make work if anything 5:nothing to do all day but eat,sleep,iming,music (this is wat i do all day every day of 24 hrs looks like this 5 hrs of sleep 7hrs online and a few hrs in all for eating,bathroom,watching tv so ya i dont do anything fun just basic stuff...) 6:no life 7:fam thats not really fun or loving anymore 8-15:etc.... so im thinking of getting off this site and all sites im on cause im not getting friends i can hang with and also im not getting a gf so i may end this pf within 5 days and then all othe

Sad Excuse For A Father...
Okay so if you're here then you know me. Most of you know that I grew up without a Dad in my life. I had someone that called themselves that but I never acknowledged it. Tell me this, how does a DAD tell you he loves you and you can come to him anytime but you call almost in tears and he tells you I dont wanna get involved? What kinda DAD would know their daughter is locked outta her car at a rest stop with a storm fast approaching and say "maybe you learned your lesson"? What kinda DAD says that they love their grandkids but yet make an effort to ignore them at all costs because he doesnt want them there? What kinda DAD beats your Moms ass because hes got an anger management problem and doesnt care who is watching? What kinda DAD makes it a point to bring up all your mistakes anytime the opportunity arises? What kinda DAD pulls a gun on family members? What kinda DAD has a problem with all our family members except for the one he wishes he could get ahold of? Furthermore, what kinda D

Ring ... Ring .... Lmao
**Rrriiiiinnnnggg, rrriiiinnnngg,** **'Hello?'** *'Hi honey.****This is Daddy.****Is Mommy near the phone?'** **'No, Daddy.****She's upstairs in the bedroom with Uncle Paul.'** **After a brief pause,** **Daddy says,****'But honey, you haven't got an Uncle Paul.'** **'Oh yes I do, and he's upstairs in the room with Mommy,****Right now.'**

21rst,22nd,23rd And 24th Of May
Many will come, few will stay. All have meaning in your life's journey. Love unconditionally, giving yourself to those you love. Continue to be true to yourself, your family and friends. Open your mind to others around you who need your acceptance and guidance.

May God Bless All Of You Guys And Women Serving.
I would just like to thank all of the service men and women for what they are doing for us. Not only do they have to be away from their families and friends, but they risk their lives everyday so we can be free. There are alot of people that do not support the war, but we do have to do what is best for our country. Here are some statistics about war casulties. There have been 4300 total deaths among US soldiers. There have been a total of 31,285 total soldiers wounded, but that number is believed to be over 100,000. 320,000 vets have brain injuries. There are 18 vet suicides a day. So if you know someone that has either served in combat, please call and tell them how much you appreiciate their services. There are tons of families that will be putting flowers on their loved ones tomb stones this Memorial Day, alot more will be trying to get ahold of their family members that are actively serving.

The Bleeding - Five Finger Death Punch
THE BLEEDING - FIVE FINGER DEATH PUNCH I remember when all the games began.Remember every little lieand every last goodbye.Promises you broke, words you choked onand I never walked away. Its still a mystery to meWell I'm so empty I'm better off without you and you're better off without me.Well you're so UNCLEAN!!I'm better off without you and YOU'RE BETTER OFF WITHOUT ME!!THE LYING!!THE BLEEDING!!THE SCREAMING!!!WAS TEARING ME APART!!THE HATRED!!DECEIVING!!THE BLEEDING!!IT'S OVER!!!Paint the mirrors black (to forget you)I still picture your face and the way you used to taste.Roses in a glass dead and wilted.To you this all was nothing,everything to you is nothingWell you're so filthy...I'm better off without you and you're better off without me.Well I'm so UGLY!!You'rebetter off without me and I'M BETTER OFF WITHOUT!!!THE LYING!!THE BLEEDING!!THE SCREAMING!!WAS TEARING ME APART!!!THE HATRED!!THE BEATINGS!!DISASTER!!!IT'S OVER!!As wicked as you are...you're beautiful to me.You're the d

Born January The Third 1976 My Planet Is Saturn I Am A Capricorn Born In The Year Of The Dragon One Minute Before Midnight During An Electrical Storm
Chap. xxxviii. Of the Images of Saturn. But now, what Images they did attribute to the Planets, although of these things very large volumes have been written by the ancient wise men, so that there is no need to declare them here, notwithstanding I will recite a few of them; for they made, from the operations of Saturn, Saturn ascending in a stone, which is called the Loadstone, the Image of a man, having the countenance of an Hart, and Camels seet and sitting upon a Chayr or Dragon, holding in his right hand, a sithe [scythe], in his left hand a dart; which image they did hope would be profitable for prolongation of life; for Albumasar in his book Sadar, proveth that Saturn conduceth to the prolongation of life; where also he telleth that certain regions of India being subject to Saturn,there men are of a very long life and dye [die] not unless by extream old Age: They made also an other Image of Saturn for length of dayes, in a saphire, at the hour of Saturn, Saturn ascending or fort

"demonomania"
look upon me i am the beast demonomania, demonomania, demonomania my father was a wolf demonomania, demonomania, demonomania my mother was a whore you check and see we aren't like other wolves it's in the blood i wanna be the fucking savior humans are weak what else you fucking do humans are weak i went to hell demonomania, demonomania, demonomania my father was a wolf demonomania, demonomania, demonomania my mother was a whore demonomania, demonomania, demonomania my mother was a whore demonomania, demonomania, demonomania my father was a wolf

Reason Why I Hated Guys In '06
there once was guy who drove a truckhe met a girl from another statethey talked amost every night they talked for hours upon enduntill one night they talked he said his ex wife needed to talk to him the next time he was in towngirl's friend had a feeling one day that his ex wife wants him backcouple weeks later......the girl talks to him he had time to stop in town to talk to his ex wifeand sure enough she wanted him backonce he got back on the roadhe called the girl to tell her that his ex wife wanted him backthe girl already knew what he was going to dobut it was hard to let him go they had been with each other for a month the best month of the girls life she thought she had found the man she would marry..... after all they said they would stay friends no matter what happened between themanother night.......the guy called the girl to see how she was the girl told him she was taking her uncle to another statehe said he would be stuck in texas all weekendbecause of it being a holiday w

Questions
Questions of my love Expressed from you to me Need not be spoken. For its clear as it can be. More than time can tell. And all the ways of counting. My love is very strong. And each day is surmounting. The next time you have questions. About our love so true. know this my darling. My heart belongs to you.

Only When He's Drunk
Only When He's Drunk A driver is stopped by a police officer. The driver asks, "What's the problem officer?" Officer: "You were going at least 75 in a 55 zone." Man: "No sir, I was going 65." Wife: "Oh, Harry. You were going 80." (The man gives his wife a dirty look.) Officer: "I'm also going to give you a ticket for your broken tail light." Man: "Broken tail light? I didn't know about a broken tail light!" Wife: "Oh Harry, you've known about that tail light for weeks." (The man gives his wife another dirty look.) Officer: "I'm also going to give you a citation for not wearing your seatbelt." Man: "Oh I just took it off when you were walking up to the car." Wife: "Oh Harry, you never wear your seatbelt." The man turns to his wife and yells, "SHUT YOUR MOUTH!" The Officer turns to the woman and asks, "Ma'am, does your husband talk to you this way all the time?" The wife says, "No, only when he's drunk."

Best Friends?
Ok, now I know I'm not a perfect person however there have been some things going on lately that have really been pissing me off.. So someone in your life calls themselves your "best friend"... ok what do you expect outta that person? I expect unconditional and unjudgemental love. That's what I put out there to all my friends and I stupidly expect it back. Now, my best friend as of late has not been acting like one. One of our good friends from HS is wayyy into me and when he didn't get what he wanted, he made a fake account on here and started spying on me. When I let him know that we weren't going to be an option (seeing as how I HAVE A MAN!!!!!) My best friend has slowly but surely taken his side. Over Memorial Day weekend when I was out of town, She went out to the bar with him and to his house the next night for a bonfire. Now don't get me wrong, I'm not saying they shouldn't be friends but seriously??? When I have backed up every stupid thing you've ever done... at least give me

3 Libras
threw you the obvious and you flew with it on your back, a name in your recollection, thrown down among a million same. difficult not to feel a little bit disappointed and passed over when i've looked right through to see you naked and oblivious and you don't see me.but i threw you the obvious just to see if there's more behind the eyes of a fallen angel, the eyes of a tragedy. here i am expecting just a little bit too much from the wounded. but i see through it all and see you. so i threw you the obvious to see what occurs behind the eyes of a fallen angel, eyes of a tragedy. oh well. apparently nothing. you don't see me. you don't see me at all.

In Gratitude....
many a times the setting sun the evening calls me to itself makes me its own many a times the setting sun promises a me a morning that will be my very own many a times the setting sun reminds me of her her promises and more today, this setting sun softens my eyes in gratitude a silent prayer for the benevolence a few words in gratitude.

Poem
Broken hearts, love's deceit,pieces fall down to my feet.Broken promises, love's a lie,puddles form from tears I cry.Broken dreams, love's illusion,sorrowed cause of your intrusion.Broken hope, love's a game,doesn't last, ends the same.Broken sleep, love's the cause,digs at me with sharpened claws.Broken spirit, love of sorrow,stolen now is my tomorrow.Broken life, love is lost,Broken now and that's the cost.

Single Again Week One
Well, I just learned yesterday that the ole hag I made the mistake of making my wife filed for divorce. She even did it by e-mail. No surprise but she states she wants to "work out an agreement" yet she reained a lwyer for 5,000 dollars. She also wants a peaceful solution. Best laugh I have had in years! So.... it begins!

Fetile
UnLiving through all the shit fheelin sad. I'm alright not okay. Left for shit not to say. Everything I always take. Put me down bringin me down. All fheelin shit my life was nothin to be. It's all been a mystery. Fools clown no one's around. I never been one to be down. What do I do? When no one's around. I felt miseducated felt plaugedred hate All my life all my life I was told that I'd never be one to amount to nothin.So tell me why why why why why why my life's felt like a lie. I fheel so used. I never knew what to do I never knew. Alway's felt so crazed inside. All this laughter goin through my mind. Fheelin so blind hopin my life would rewind unlined. Why why why why why why why why?My life felt like a lie lie lie. Fheel like a lielie Lie.All the shit I never thought I take. Never thought I take for fhuck sake. I felt so jaded misused abused couldn't take it.Why why why why? I never knew why do you do? I never knew why do you do? I never knew why do you do? I nev

Mistake
PainedI could fheel less down bout what you think of me. Less then hallowed underground. Find myself fhuckin up no control over how I am.Mind Downed fheel pained insideI try to conquer over how I fheel less then to deal. Take all this off of me & let me BeYou make me you rape me you make me. How I'm suppose to be. What I can't see all that I take everything I'm doin is aMistakeFheelin so left down no one around to care no one there nothin but dead air. Please tell me what do I do to deserve all ofThisWell I can't take you rape fheel forsake I'm heartache. My life at stake not real but fake. You take you make you rape & all i'm doin is aMistakeMistake a mistake you try to take make you rape you rape make me fheel so downed downed. It's all I can take take you fake.Givin in give out life's not worth what it's about I'm as this asiest to take this you make this this life is not what is fake fake stake n everything i'm doin is a Mistake

Growl
Findin my inner self gotta let loose go with the goal. Can't let myself get out of hand. Know when it's time to take a stand in bein a man. Low-Not found but downed bound deep in a situation at loss. Don't pay the price. If you don't know the cost. High-Can't seem to get by. When all is asked why shit found in a lie. All you wanna do is cry. When people don't wanna see you do good. All they want is pain/lost inside-self-insane. Burnin bridges down kid ya self around ask who is the clown. I'm not one to kill the cat. If ya fuck with me better hope I don't have a bat. Cuz I'm not the one to take or put up with anyone's shit. Quit with all your fit & stop with your stupid bullshit. I ain't the one to play. Watch with what you say. Don't make shit seem mininless stress. Endless never talk shit less you know what the hell your sayin. You were the one to say your shit. Callin me some stupid useless bitch. Like you some wannabe ugly angry mean glasses face punk. Fuck around get ya self ran ov

Fake People And Drama !!!
I don't knowwhy people are soo immature on this site ..Why they like to start drama and act like there are in H.S. People get over yourselfs and get a life. Mind your own business and worry about your family life , relationships and leave others alone.For Highmaintence*****69 this woman is a fake ass person who's only picture she has up is of someone else. She is a fat ugly ass who is married and has 6 kids with one on the way. The self rightous freak has no room to creditize anyone. So for anyone else who wants to be fake and call people names and cause problems on here need a life of there own... Too many fakes and kids on here ...

Wickedus Insanious Poeticus Flow
No intake who give's dayum bout what i make or say. I don't play don't make it a mistake. What am i'ma do tell ya what ima do break throught to you n say the crazious shit. Ya that's what i'ma do say the meanest angriest thing n be insane cuz shit ain't plain life is a game nothin to loose nothin to gain btw who is lil wayne jonas brothers na they called the jonas smothers why you think their called brothers cuz they have no other n they incest n was caught in the back of their tour bus kissin eachothers. They say i'm on some shit ya I must be if i'm that crazy nothin as can be I don't really see i'm just a un normal human being what gives you a reason to get on me. Fhuck a racist beat him/her/them down chop their head off feed it to the pigs. Get their wigsplitz nothin's hotter then this like a poem i just recited from in one of my blogs don't fhuck around. Get hit with a cabin's lincoln logs crashin cars in the fog lung smoke caught in the smog. Hittin bats reanactin talk disamateur

In The Rainbow
subject:Hope and Despairpost date:2007-11-04 16:43:24"...Once upon a time I named myself Nekyia - the 11th book of the Odyssey in which Odysseus, the thinking hero, journeys to the Underworld in order to consult with the blind propet Tiresias (famously transformed into a woman for seven years too) in order to find a way home... " I think." ...Just click your heels together and say, "There's no place like home, there's no place like home, there's no place like home." You need ruby slippers and the advice of a good witch that roams the countryside as a bubble as well as the right words... " I think." ...Say your right words.As the pain sweeps through,Makes no sense for you,Every thrill has gone,Wasn’t too much fun at all.But I’ll be there for you,As the world falls down. And there I am, inside the bubble. The magic is mine... " I think." None of that is real. It's pertinent, but it can't be done. Is of no help. If all I had to do was to take on another world, wear the

Pirates Can Fly, Beware Rubber Chickens - Captain.
Avarice and the Enchanted Doorway to Rubber Chickenspost date:2007-08-12 18:19:29Once upon a ship so drafty, filled with pirates (very NASTY), I saw a doorway in the sky and knew to reach it I must fly. So on my breast I painted wings, it wasn't such a silly thing. In fact, the brillance was Divine, and shone so starkly in my mind. A running start from off the deck, Pirates swearing, "What the heck?" Well, "Fucking loon, what is she doing?" was really what I heard them spewing. For a moment I hung in space, then dropped towards a sharky face. Mouth wide open, teeth serrated, "Will he eat her?" - the tars debated. A rubber chicken came to mind, beyond the doorway I knew I'd find this wonderous treasure and so much more, the clock was ticking - time to score.

Thin Line
U never know how thin the line is betweem keeping or losing some1 dear to u. If u lose them once u can always try for a second time. But if it fails to work for a second time, u know u can go for a third & final time. It is a known fact that if it doesn't work the third time that it wasn't ment to be, & that u can never get that person back. So if u really care for that person try not to lose them the first time. Because if u do lose them the second & thrid times it will lead to a lonely & long life for both people. Especially if 1 or both people love each other. Its also a know fact that living life by ur self can get pretty old & boring. So if u love or care for some1, hold that person first & utmost to ur heart. Before that person slips through ur fingers & finds some1 else to spend the rest of their lives with. Because if they choose some1 else it can lead to heartache & pain for both people in their futures.

Sick And Tired
I am sick and tired of guys just wanting me for sex. I'm not a slut...get that through you're fucking heads! If you're on my friends list, and all you want is sex from me, delete yourselves immediately. I'm a tomboy who likes to hang out with guys, work on cars, stuff like that. I'm not going to fuck around on what I already have in my life. If there is still that small chance that you just want me around as a friend, nothing more, go ahead and add me to yahoo messenger...blue_eyedangel_1981

Whats This Life For???
OK I give up. You win. You got what you wanted. Everyone has alienated me and stopped talking to me. You win I lose. Im just going to cease to exist. You wanted me to be miserable and not worth the air I breathe. You got it. I probably wont be around anymore so congrats. You win

If Tomorrow Never Comes
Life sucks it's just that simple no need to sweeten it if it taste like crap suck it up and smile so everyone can see your shit eating grin... you know it, i know it ,so why sugar coat the crap. My father bless his soul died at the age of 63..... A man who struggled his entire God forsaken life, A man who lived his life according to his heart and died june 27th 2008 still listening to it. My dad was born 1945 on april 18th, I was born just 25 year 2 months and 11 days after him, he died on my 38th birthday... happy fucking birthday to me.......................life fucking sucks so suck it UP and grin, tomorrows a new day, life goes on, right????? well not for him it doesn't. he's in a better place...right??? saids you. sugar coat life all you want, the god awful truth to this life is that it ends,you can't make that taste good... Yeah, Yeah,Yeah....sad story everyone has lost someone in their lives at one point in time this is a known fact, so why am i telling everyone my sa

Taking A Break
need to concentrate on some school stuff and work. All my family lists can see a blog on how to reach me... would still enjoy talking to family but off of here. Other than that.. ill stop in on occassion... I tried.... not working.. so this blog is useless... Im back and forth.. i just may not be on as much.. Kenneth

Some Thoughts On Abusive
Yea i dont like this band but the lyrics suit what im gona talk about... by red jumpsuite apparatus Hey girl you know you drive me crazy one look puts the rhythm in my hand. Still I'll never understand why you hang around I see what's going down. Cover up with make up in the mirror tell yourself it's never gonna happen again you cry alone and then he swears he loves you. Do you feel like a man when you push her around? Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground? Well I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's going to end as your lies crumble down, a new life she has found. A pebble in the water makes a ripple effect every action in this world will bear a consequence If you wade around forever you will surely drown I see what's going down. I see the way you go and say your right again, say your right again heed my lecture Do you feel like a man when you push her around? Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground? Well I'll tell you my friend, one day this world'

God Gives Us Opportunities
I think each and every day God gives us so many chances to do what is right, to help others. I was walking back from Roma's where I grabbed some lunch to bring back to eat while I worked. It had been a sunny morning but rain was coming.As I got close to my house, I saw an elderly lady by her car, looking around. I said hi and as I passed I saw she had a flat tire. I asked if she had called for help. She said she had no one to call. So I got out her spare and started to put it on. It started to pour. I ran into the house with my now cold lunch. And then went right back to changing the tire. Soon the water running down the street was to the top of my sneakers, water was running off my ever present hat, and not a piece of my clothing was dry. When I finished, so did the rain. I think I should have looked for a rainbow. I told the woman where the closest tire business was, loaded the old tire in the trunk and turned around. She offered me money. I asked if she goes to church. S

Hourglass Love
She loves me, she loves me not.Shes in and out of love with me.My love for her is hard to see sometimes, through the shadows of my fear.My fear scare her and off she runs.Alone I am left as usual as the darkiness of night.I just want to know what she wants so I can make her happy.I fuck up because Im not perfect, yet I try to do the best that I can.No one understands that Im in love with her and more important she doesnt understand it.Will my love ever be enough or has my time ran out?

Why Do I Keep Put Songs Before The Blogs Lol
REO speedwagon..u know what song DUH lol so yeah, here i am I did mean when i said i love you and i didn mean i love u forever. you stab chicks around all day..i just stare at the dudes ploting there next step with a sniper scope... lets see you know i didnt mean to hurt your feelings, and you didnt mean to piss me off, we love each other, we hate each other blah blah now we arent gona talk for awhile, i have more patience then you so ill be lot longer holding out to talk to you(i guess take it as punishment) but you already missed me even though you was mad at me, and vice verca lol hope you got my gift..its really real lol..hugs...so yea i was just gona unplug my internet but id be beyond bored if i did that so here i am. sidenote for fucommunity, i like comments...no matter what they are although if i dont like the comments i wont allow them to be public just a lil FYI lol :P happy drinkn all

This Is Never Forget
lightning fills the sky tonight in northern california, it fills my black heart, my shallow mind, it calls my name, it reminds me of magic left over from past lives, it fullfills my desires, it whispers secret slurs of the dark things i have to look forward to, the light the last only moments but stays with you forever...blind chaos like sickening laughter after the fall of angels that will never be welcome in heavan any longer, the dragon speak across all the ages, it is, and is not...i guide the dragon, i am HoodMood, my marks and symbols and signs like lightning passages in the book of black dreams, this i am, author of the damned, champion of darkness, surge destroyer, i this am not..this is never forget, this raine can not come undone, wings broken off and of all, just two black spikes that grow out of my back into perfect spikes that reside from behind beyond and ever over my sulken brow, gaze at madness, look at the storm that rage inside my eyes, i will embrace you in the dar

Mathematics .... Lol
From a strictly mathematical viewpoint it goes like this: What Makes 100%? What does it mean to give MORE than 100%? Ever wonder about those people who say they are giving more than 100%? We have all been to those meetings where someone wants you to give over 100%. How about achieving 103%? What makes up 100% in life? Here's a little mathematical formula that might help you answer these questions: If: A B C D E F G H I J K L M N O P Q R S T U V W X Y Z is represented as: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26. Then: H-A-R-D-W-O-R- K 8+1+18+4+23+15+18+11 = 98% and K-N-O-W-L-E-D-G-E 11+14+15+23+12+5+4+7+5 = 96% But, A-T-T-I-T-U-D-E 1+20+20+9+20+21+4+5 = 100% And, B-U-L-L-S-H-I-T 2+21+12+12+19+8+9+20 = 103% So, one can conclude with mathematical certainty that, while Hard work and Knowledge will get you close, and Attitude will get you there, it's the Bullshit that will put you over the top.

Help My Dreams Come True!!!
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Men That Make Me Flush
It is official. I have a crush on Bill Oreilly and Rush Limbaugh. Ronald Regan too - but I just have to wallow in the memories of how he would ignore the questions of reporters by pretending he could not hear. What a great ploy. *sighs* I was trying to decide what it was that was so attractive to me - its defintely their eloquence. No... not just that. It is their obnoxiousness; but with flair and a point. Kyle from South Park pukes whenever he is near a crush. I wonder if that could be taken the wrong way. I never had a crush for a band or a singer. I was deeply in crush with Raistlin from Dragonlance Chronicles. Well, enough about this. ONWARD! My blog title makes me giggle. It reminds me of some advice I gave about how to achieve enlightenment.

Woman Next Door Part2
Oh God, she thought as she moved away from his stiffened sex. Now she knew why he loved to dominate her. It was such an act of brutal intimacy and posession. One can do almost anything to his sub, and it was such a power-trip to know that he could e controlled just as she. He was so magnificently helpless and yet so strong... she could do anything to him now, she thought as she felt the warmth of her own arousal, that gathered and oozed. She bent down to kiss his cheek, but on a second thought, she knew something else would be just as effective... He suddenly felt the sharp sting of her slap across his cheek. Angrily, he jerked against the bonds and felt them slightly give way. His legs were still tightly secured, but there was a marginal accession for his hands. If he only had the time... She smiled wickedly. "That hurt, didn't it?" She asked him. His answer was a menacing snarl, "You will pay for this." She shivered at the threat. Last night had been amazing. She wanted that...and mo

Wonderful Surprise
I woke up in the morning, glanced at the clock, and quickly hopped out of bed and ran into the shower. I overslept because I had stayed up too late talking to you again last night, but I can never get enough of you. And honestly, I would probably still be talking to you if you hadn't ordered me to go to bed! As I was lathering my body quickly, I began to think about our conversation the night before. I loved your voice, so deep, so firm, so irresistible. As I was washing my pussy, I lingered a bit, thinking of how you made me play with myself last night, but never let me cum. How you loved to torture me! And how I loved it when you did! I forced my hand away and finished washing up, as much as I needed to cum, I wouldn't without your permission. Wrapping myself in a towel, I walked to my bedroom, where I had laid clothes out the night before for work. You chose the underclothes for me, and I shivered in anticipation as I looked at the panties you had picked. A present from you. Red lac

Reign
Walking through the midnight air in the garden of the pure living a life that is not my own tied by vines the light has shown Everybody thinks they know me Everybody thinks they hear me The frightened child inside her mind The one who's soul is theirs to grind But as the grip does tighten more Drawing the blood I've lost before The rage begins to build inside of me Churning and bubbling much like the sea I know soon things will come to pass and the ties will be thrown at last I don't care how much blood comes from my veins As long as the horse you ride throws his reigns I will not be yours to rape again To break my heart with your sins So know that in the end if I should die it's a free woman you see there lie and hold your head in sorry shame for you only have yourself to blame.

Endings
Everything has a beginning. Everything has an end. Well, almost everything. Some endings never end. Some endings are instantaneous. It’s just over. Done. Finished. You know it; you accept it; you grieve or you don’t, depending; you move on. Sometimes, you aren’t that fortunate. There are sudden deaths; and there are slow, agonizing declines that are excruciating to everyone. There are sudden departures; and there are slow, agonizing exits. There are harsh words, angry shouts; and slamming doors; and there are frosty silences that drag on and on as you wait for the other shoe to drop. But however it arrives, when the end comes, it is just that. The end. But sometimes, when an end comes, the heart won’t let go. It doesn’t matter how many times the brain says stop feeling what you feel, stop wanting what you want, stop hoping for what will never be. The heart keeps feeling, wanting, and hoping. Hoping. Hope can be the cruelest force on Earth. The Proverbs say that hope defe

Pro-choice
Im pro choice. Plain and simple. That doesnt mean Im pro abortion or am ok with abortion. Im actually against abortion. I just figure if its going to happen, then the women that choose to do it should have somewhere safe to do it at. If your sister or daughter was hellbent on getting an abortion, and you couldnt change thier minds would you want them to have a safe legal way to do it? Or in some shithole using a coat hanger?

Anguishlly Hate
I see through the pain I feel how cannot kill seein through how ur not real. Try to make me out to be what i don't want to be. You don't see how could've I've not known. You betray me put me out. I just want you out not near me. Everything i see you are just a wannabe that tries pries on everything. Even you thought could on me you did & i let you get away that felt blinded behind ur lil tactics n i should've saw it. Now I see right through to you clear as transparent could be. Ur just a fake wannabe. Just some dispackage disposabel whore. You better hope when i don't see you i punch you in ur face with a chain on my face knockin you straight the fuck out on the ground. Thought you was down with the clown n i see ur not lil bitch just some jhock skank tryin to hog on my dick. Ur least of the few the last thing i need. I loved you i cared for you. Was there for you but shuttered out. Turned urself on me idk the fuck why you do such stupidity only out of humility added with such misery t

Amazing-blue October
How am I supposed to breathe? I try to relax. I touch your still frame So I can watch you closer And study the ways I believe I belong to you, to you So I scratch at your waist line... your doll hair I dig up the thought of how your eyes glow So I make you my religion, my collision, my escape goat So have I found your secret weak spot, baby? [Chorus] Can you pretend I'm amazing? I can pretend I'm amazing... Instead of what we both know Instead of what we both know I cut to the punch line baby Can we pretend I'm amazing Instead of what we both know Now our history is for sale And for that I apologize You see you're my only know how The study of when I believed I belonged to you, to you You see I've made you into something more delicious, My sweet ghost So have I found your secret weak spot, baby?

Let It Go-blue October
Where do you go When the day is long And where does your heart beat And who is wrong Why do I feel this way Why do I kneel How could I let it go Why do I feel Why do I feel Why Follow me home Through the, the maze and on I'll show you the road That I led you the wrong way on Why did I go that way Why do I steel How could I let her go Why do I feel Oh why did I go that way Why do I still How could I let her go Why do I feel Why do I feel Why Why Why did I go that way Why do I need How could I let her go Why do I feel Oh why did I go that way How could I still Oh how could I How could I How could I How could I How could I

Cross Canada Adventures
well we are beginning our journey back across canada from halifax to victoria.mixed emotions I have as I have met some fantastic people here and once again its time for us to leave .we are heading back to victoria which also makes me happy as all my family is there. tomorrow we sign the papers on our house and are on our way to moncton . I have a few friends there that i cant wait to see . We are planning to go to crystal palace but we will see how that works out .we may all just hang out at the hotel and let the kids . i thought i would keep a blog on my adventure and fun times as we go ..cheers.. well we made it to moncton and enjoyed our time at crystal palace ..the weather was not that nice to drive up in ..lots of fog and rain .we are sittin back after a swim relaxing and going to enjoy the game .. off to quebec tomorrow

Who The Fuck Knows
dont know wut to do anymore i have a feeling that my family is falling apart but there is nothing i can do to save it i am doing everything i can.I hate feeling like this but there is nothing i can do if some one i love wants to be with some one else. well dont know wut to do any more

Illugen
this cute, beauty, is depressed, and is unhappy! i know it's hard to believe a hottie like myself being depressed! Life isn't always what they seem to be, there are lies all around us. but when the mask comes off, would everything still be the same?/ or would life change as we know it? i'm on the verge to go fuck u, fuck u, fuck u, i'm done!

How Will I Get Through This One?
I RECENTLY FOUND OUT THAT THE CERVICAL POLYP I HAD REMOVED IS MALIGNANT! IT HAS BEEN REMOVED AND I HAVE NO MORE, HOWEVER I WILL STILL HAVE TO UNDERGO CHEMO AND RADIATION AS A PROCAUTION! I STARTED YESTERDAY WITH MY TREATMENTS AND I DONT FEEL VERY GOOD! IM VERY NAUSEOUS AND A REALLY BAD HEADACHE! IM SURE THE LONGER IT GOES THE SICKER I WILL FEEL BUT MY DOCTORS HAVE TOLD ME I HAVE A 99% RECOVERY RATE BECAUSE IT WAS REMOVED AT A VERY EARLY STAGE! I AM VERY HURT AND ANGRY BY HOW RUDE PEOPLE HAVE BEEN TO ME ON THIS SITE! ITS JUST MEANT TO BE FUN I CANT HELP IT THAT YOU ARE WASTING YOUR MONEY ON FAKE WEDDINGS AND OTHER THINGS THAT NEED A CREDIT CARD! YOUR MARRIGAES ARE NOT REAL....FUMARRIED LMAO BLINGPACKS? 11''S? CHERRY BOMBS ETC..... I HAVE OTHER THINGS TO WORRY ABOUT SO IF YOUR GONNA BE RUDE STAY OFF MY PAGE AND STOP COMING BACK DAY AFTER DAY TO LOOK AT ME! I CAN SEE WHO DOES AND ITS ONE FEMALE THATS VIP AND ITS REALLY ANNOYING SO SORRY YOUR PAYING BUT THAT DOESNT MEAN YOU NEED TO STARE A

A Downer...
well got ready to go home...packed the whole smear...down to the prescriptions...dr. came in...has in infection...one more week of this hell....am gettin tired....but keep plugging on...all my friends and all the prayers r so much appreciated....i just hope whenever ANY of u need me..i am available for u as u have been for me....thank u from me and my family...GOD BLESS U ALL.....XOXOXOXO.....CELTIC

Thesis Of Human Psychology: The Failure.
The Thesis on Human Psychology in the 20th-21st Century By General McGruder Decrypted by AdAnaC-neVahE0FaSDOCUMENT ONE(1) of TWO(2) FOLLOWING MESSAGE: I have no affiliation with the Majestic 12, the compound containing all 12 members was found to be destroyed by an H bomb with a 1600 ton blast on 1933 in a field in Southwestern Kansas. The locals were soon silenced as well to keep confidentiality at the maximum. This is a Thesis solely about the reader. You. As of now, you have stumbled across this textfile purely by incident. Something had caught your eye about this message, and the curiousity complex in your mind was stirred a little. Approximately 0.03% of your brain. I believe it's safe to assume that you're also a unique mind. Someone who knows that the world is wrong, and couldn't quite isolate how, or why. You isolated the likely things, such as "War, Death, Famine, World Hunger & repression of the human race. These are the smal

Life
Well I am not the best looking person. But I always wonder if there is someone out there for me. Yes I am gay. When it comes to gay men they want sex and only sex. What happen to the ones that want to have a relationship are they still out there? Granted sex is good but its not all that in a relationship. I look what in the inside of a person ie there heart and other things. One day it will happen.

Identity Crisis
Who is this I'm staring at? With tear-filled eyes And quivering lips I've never seen such longing Buried in such heavy eyes But it's the melancholy expression That swallows me whole Such hatred for life And contempt for fate Who good sir are you? I ask as if there was a doubt A doubt to your identity Such eyes could only come From the glance of a mirror Such a heavy expression Only from the arches in my own face

To Be Continued...
From the moment he stepped into my world...I knew...that HE was different from the rest. By the way he spoke, how he carried himself... the way opposers were handled...all spoke of one greater than the rest. Never had I met someone like him... nor will I ever in my lifetime know another like him. He is truly an original. When I met him, I was a lost soul.. not knowing my path, not knowing my worth. Through much diligence, he has given me hope...has made me aware of what I AM... what I can become. With him behind me, I can conquer anything. It is his strength which I feed from... his courage empowers me. His knowledge makes me wiser. His love makes me stronger. He is my rock...

Journey
Skies above fill with cloudsthe air turning coldas a sharp wind springs upstealing away my breathanother storm approachingSnow falling softlymingling with silent tearssliding down my cheeksskin becoming chillmatching the barren landscapeThe wind increasing her furythreatening to blow me awaypushing toward some distant goalfighting to keep uprightStumbling onheedless of my tracksknowing they will soon fillerasing my existenceuntil finally collapsingexhausted, unable to go onso I sit frozen waitingwondering if I'll ever find shelter

A Mother Speaks Of Death And Life And Thanks
(Written and told to me over the phone, while tears ran down my face, by my baby - Fae. A woman, a mother who has lost her baby boy, my friend, and always my own baby girl. 6-19-09) Peace Surpasses Understanding Posted 10 hours ago - www.carepages.com - HarperGibson06 It has taken me 10 weeks to face the page...a feeling and regiment that once lifted me has created more fear and sadness than I knew existed. I am literally shaking and squinting through the tears to follow the words on this screen but I want you all to know... I miss Harper terribly. I miss the routine. I miss the kiss. I miss the laughter and the joy. I miss the purpose and the drive he created in me. I miss my friends, my cancer families, and my doctors. I miss the feeling of fulfillment - Harper was my stimulation, mentally, emotionally, physically, faithfully...he allowed me to thrive on a smile and nothing more...I miss that. I am not less grateful, just different. The child and the story was my purpose.

Lies, Lies, Eveywhere Lies..."
I have found that pretty much everyone lies in one way or another. There are those maybe reading this who say they don't, but as much as you can try to be honest, the rest of this world just doesnt appreciate it. So if you are an honest person, you could be called....yes, crazy. Some believe by not saying anything, that you are not telling a lie, omition I believe is the worse form of lie there is. Its like the cowards why of lying and avioding saying a lie to begin with. Take a stand, lie or tell the truth, be true to yourself and stop hiding. When does a lie become the truth, this can be a little interesting. If you believe a lie can be true, if you make the lie part of yourself and believe it, is it a lie? I'll give you an example of what I mean and this is a true story: I knew this women who was not able to have children, everything was removed due to complications at birth. When her youngest child was about 9 she annouced to the world she was pregnant. Her belly grew, her brea

My Momma Coon
This is one of my forest friends. She is an Amma (translation Mother), as am I. She came to visit me on the day that her babies were born. Just as she did through out her gestational period. First she was on the top of the back porch, quickly eating, while constantly looking behind her into the forest where her offspring were probably making noises only she could hear. I knew she had just had them because her back legs were wet, but her front legs were dry - and her teets were obviously ready for nursing. She often arrives at a time that is not natural for raccoons to appear - the daylight. They are nocturnal by nature, but of course, her babies would be awake at night and feeding - so she has to brave the open and the exposure of the sun in order to get the required energy in her system to nurture them. I make sure there is always plenty of food for her. But you can see that her focus is always on the forest and her kits. She once spent at least 60 seconds using her

New Tour Dates
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Looking Up At You Dad
I just wanted to take time to say "hi dad". I wonder how you are doing and if you are enjoying your time in heaven. Do you get to do the things you always enjoyed? I know that you and mom are happy. I miss you and I wish that I could have been a better son. When you look down and view my life does it make you smile or does it bring sadness to you in paradise? I hope that I am someone that you talk about with your neighbors up there. On days like this I think about you and how proud and lucky I was to have you as my father. You worked all the time and had a hard time dealing with me and mom was sick all the time. Yet you carried on. As years passed and I was busy with my own kids I lost touch with you. I wish I could have some of that time back just to tell you that I understand things that I didn't growing up and that I love you dad.. I miss you . Happy Father's day

Heart Determines
It's ok to kiss a fool,It's ok to let a fool kiss you,but never ever let a kiss fool you....It's still best to wait for the one you wantthan settle for the one available.Best to wait for the one you lovethan settle for one who's around.Best to wait for the right one.Life is short to waste on the wrong person....It is better to meet the person who will truly love you later,than meet someone now who promises to loveyou but sooner or later leave you forever.....Never try to impress someone to make him/her fall in love with youIf you do, you will be expected to keep the standard for the rest of your life...Fate determines who comes into our lives. The heart determines who stays...

Succubus
The sin inside your head, eventual demise;I come to you at night and crawl inside your mind;I'm here to corrupt; to put your soul in compromise,Just let me put your whole existence in a bind.Succumb yourself to the immortal creaturesThere is no need to try and fight;The darkness will erase my features,You'll never see what came to you at night;The carnal feast will leave your body limpid,The moments of your weakness run like bloodline through my veinsI'll drain your body of the lifesaving liquidAnd take you to a place where darkness reignsMy passion is like phoenix rising,I'll seize the night, and lead the way;But now I see the bloody gleam on the horizonAlas! I'm due to slowly fade away...

The Lastest News On Michael Jackson From The La Times
Pop star Michael Jackson was pronounced dead today after paramedics found him in a coma at his Bel-Air mansion, city and law enforcement sources told The Times. Los Angeles Fire Department Capt. Steve Ruda told The Times that paramedics responded to a 911 call from the home. When they arrived, Jackson was not breathing. The paramedics performed CPR and took Jackson to UCLA Medical Center, Ruda said. Hundreds of reporters gathered at the hospital awaiting word on his condition. The sources, who spoke on the condition of anonymity, said family members rushed to Jackson’s bedside, where he was in a deep coma. The circumstances of Jackson’s death remain unclear. Law enforcement sources said that Los Angeles Police Department robbery-homicide detectives have opened an investigation into the death, though they stressed that there is no evidence of criminal wrongdoing. The detectives plan to interview relatives, friends and Jackson’s doctors to try to figure out what

Good Morning
i would like to take a moment to express my extreme graditude to all ya out ther that has given me their love and support . again thank ya. as hart as it seems the economy has taken a devastating blow to our social servesis we need to be ever mindful if some needs helpand the is no answere it may be too late for that person please dont let that happen itis terrible even one person to notget the assistancethey need donate what ever ya can even ya time to help iask ya today to continue to donate inmy sons memory or do it in memory of ya loved ones but the point is just do it love ya all benjamin

Best Of You-foo Fighters
I've got another confession to makeI'm your foolEveryone's got their chains to breakHoldin 'youWere you born to resist, or be abused?Is someone getting the bestThe best, the best, the best of you?Is someone getting the bestThe best, the best, the best of you?Or are you gone and onto someone new?I needed somewhere to hang my headWithout your nooseYou gave me something that I didn't haveBut had no useI was too weak to give inToo strong to loseMy heart is under arrest againBut I'll break looseMy head is giving me life or deathBut I can't chooseI swear I'll never give inI refuseIs someone getting the bestThe best, the best, the best of you?Is someone getting the bestThe best, the best, the best of you?Has someone taken your faith?It's real, the pain you feelYou trust, you must confessIs someone getting the bestThe best, the best, the best of you?Has someone taken your faith?It's real, the pain you feelThe life, the loveYou'd die to healThe hope that startsThe broken heartsYou trust, you mu

Been Awhile
what can i say... i gave up on this site and then something pulled me back... well i got some new photos and well its been quiet so not much new... looking to get out and well party it up... saturday off and im not being stuck here thats for sure... or maybe... just get plastered maybe... lmao. ribs are bleeding with fresh new ink and well that sting is waking me up!!!! wooooo wooooooooooo!

Yummies
I recently decided with everything going on in my life that I needed a change. I need to restress alittle and one thing that makes me happy is my love for cooking. I so very much wanted to be a baker and now the chance to start doing a little here and there has come up. Starting next week I will be baking my ass off so if any of you live anywhere near me and would like to try some treats feel free to ask and i'll be more than happy to assist you. I'm so freaking excited. Maybe now i'll stop losing my hair and my fiance and I can finally work things out before I kick his butt to the curb!

Must
WHy must i wish for death MUst i see bloood WHy must i live within pain dreaming suicide, dreaming of my anegel that i will never meet. SOmetimes I watch my blood run cold down my hands, feels like ice , wollowing in my own self-destruction. I give into this pity world LIfes like a candle, flickers and dies SOme have the stregnth to relight there candle but, i didnt ! I see my self by the river watching the blood seep into the dirt, watching my world go black, The color fading from my once rosey cheeks. Waiting for that Angel I will never meet

Lowball Rates And Racist Insults.
So I am minding my own business and this idiot gives me a bunch of 1's and tells me how much better looking he is, lol and some dumb shit. Anyway the class act goes on to tell me too erase my profile and calls me a nigger. I'm sorry I don't use that word and it makes me sick, white or not. So to all out in fuland that are not ignorant racists please return the favor and drop this guy's rates and let him know where to get rogaine and some class.

"ghost Of A Chance"
Chapter 3 He was sitting and ardently talking with a young woman about twenty, she was the one in the pictures. And the young man was also in the pictures that Hannah had seen. The young lady’s face was framed with a glorious fall of curls and her hands were captured in his. As he spoke to her he inched closer. Soon they were side by side and he took off her glove to kiss her hand while looking into her eyes. Abruptly he captured her face and fell about kissing her. There was a brief struggle and then a small moan of acceptance. The kiss grew more deep and enthralling. A whimper and another crush of acquiescence brought them closer. She pushed at his chest and began uttering shy dismissals. Shaking her head to try to convince him that what he had done was not appropriate. He soothed her and captured her hand again. He placed it on his heart and in a dramatic pose got down on his knees. Speaking quietly, he edged nearer until his head was pillowed in her

That's When U Relize!
And that's when u relize he's the guy you're crazy for,the one who makes you laugh on the worst days,he's not perferct,but neither are you.Sometimes he's stuborn but u wouldent want him any other way.He makes you relize that it's possible to have permanent butterflies.Every love song you hear makes sence because of him,all because he cares so much for you,and you care the same for him!

June 11th 2009
well i got a call from the perintologist this morning and thought that everything was gunna be ok. i knew that matthew had spina bifida so this part of the test came back abnormal which was ok. then i get to my dr's appt and find out that they found several sever things wrong with matthew. 1. being alot of swelling on his brain 2. being the fact that they believe they found two spots on matthews back not just one. now no one is sure that he will even make it to birth and if he does they dont' know how long he will live. i am not ok with any of this. this little boy has stole my heart and i haven't even seen him yet. i don't want to think the worst but at this point i am not really given an option. none of this is easy for me to deal with but all i can do is take it one day at a time and hope and pray that my matthew will be ok. but if by some chance he does not make it i know that when he goes he will be with my daddy and he will take good care of my little man. right now all i want to

R.i.p Jonjon
why did you have to die in that crash?why did you have to leave us so fast?why couldnt god let you last?you left without goodbyeand everyone is wondering whynow we cant help but crywe miss you so muchwe cant help but to be sadi remember all the times we hadand its funny how now none of them are badim wishing i had called you backbut i never thought you would be gonethis is all way to wrongyou were suppose to graduateand follow your dreamsbut god didnt want it that wayor so it seemsbut your in a better placeand one day we will all get to see your smiling faceand not only in our dreamsso now all i can say iswatch over everyone, please.and may you rest in peace.

Naughty Aplication
NAUGHTY APPLICATIONYour Name:Your age:Favorite position:1. Do you think I'm cute?.2. Would you have sex with me?3. Lights on or off?4. Would you have to be drunk?5. Would you take a shower with me?6. Have you ever thought about having sex with me?7. Would you leave after or stay the night?8. Do you like cuddling afterwards?9. Condom or skin?10. Have sex on the first date?11. Would you kiss me during sex?12. Do you think I would be good in bed?13. Would you use me as a booty call?14. Can I use you as a booty call?15. Can we take pictures of the act?16. How long would we have sex?17. Would you tell your friends about me?18.Will you post this so I can fill it out for you?

Fate's Torment [10/12/07]
WILL I EVER TRULY SMILE IN THIS LIFETIMELOOKING FROM THE OUTSIDE INAS A TREASURE I SEARCHED THE ENDS OF THE EARTH FOR IS NOW IN INCONSIDERATE HANDSWITHOUT EVEN A SECOND LOOK INTO MY SOULMY SANITY CRACKS AS I WONDER IF THIS IS DIVINE PAYBACKFOR THE HEARTS I BROKENITS SEEMS ALL I'LL EVER HAVE IS MUSIC & OCCASIONAL SMOKINGNEVER HAVE I SMILED IN MY RECENT PICTURESFOR THERE IS NO TRUE REASON TO ESPECIALLY NOT HEREIN THIS DAY AND AGEANOTHER CHANCE STOLENRE-OPENED SCARSANGER RISESTEARS FALLPAINFUL TRUTHSTARING AT STARSWONDERING ENDLESSLYHOW COULD THIS HAPPENWHY MEWHAT COULD I HAVE DONE TO DESERVE THISNOTHING SEEMS TO SUBSIDE THESE THOUGHTSTHIS RAGETHIS ANGERTHIS JEALOUSYTHESE EMOTIONSTHIS SEEMINGLY FRUITLESS JOURNEYMY DESIRESMY SADNESSMY DESTINYTHE SEARCH FOR A RARE JEWEL..............

Dead Alone [10/2/07]
AS THE SKY LEADING TO HEAVEN SLOWLY CHIPS AND SHATTERSIM ONCE AGAIN STABBED BY ITS JAGGED EDGETHE SCARS OF LOSS THAT HAVE HEALED, ONCE AGAIN OPENWALKING DOWN A HORIZON OF CLEAR NOTHINGNESS.....WITH BLOOD DRIPPING PROFUSELY FROM MY SIDEYOU WALK AWAY WITHOUT EVEN BEGINNING TO LOOK BACKSLOWLY DEMATERIALIZING, THE FARTHER YOU WALKI KNOW YOU HEARD THE SCREAMS AND PLEADS FOR HELPAT THAT FINAL SECOND, YOU TURN TO LOOK AT ME WITH AN EMOTIONLESS FACETHE BEAUTIFUL EYES OF WHICH I THOUGHT WAS HOPE, WAS REALLY DECEITSCARRED MENTALLY TO THE POINT OF INSANITYA DARK CLOUD APPEARS IN VAST EMPTINESS OF THIS SPACETHE CLOUD HOVERS OVER ME AND BEGINS TO ENVELOP ME AS IT GROWSAS I BEGIN TO LOOK UP......2 GLOWING EYES APPEAREDGIGANTIC WINGS SPROUT TO SIGNIFY ITS PRESENCE TO MEA BLACK DRAGON APPEARS THROUGH THE FOG SPEAKING THE NATIVE TONGUE OF A HUMAN"ZERO.........YOUVE BEEN DREAMING AGAIN, HAVENT YOU?"TAKING THE GLASS AND TEARING IT OUT OF MY BODY, I LOOK UP, IN AN ANGRY SILENCECOUGHING UP BLOOD, THE WOUND

Soda Jerks And Sequestration
Sequestration: Chemistry - The inhibition or prevention of normal ion behavior by combination with added materials, especially the prevention of metallic ion precipitation from solution by formation of a coordination compound with a phosphate. Umm... I recently enjoyed a spat of self-gifted SEQUESTERING. Since alchemy, aka transformation, is something that I heartily believe in, I just had to look up the definition of the behavior I engaged in. Its funny how words can be made to fit into a mind file you have nicely prepared for input. Here is how I make the chemical process of SEQUESTRATION fit into my own little personal experience: In Chinese astrology I am a metal rat. A phosphate is what you call a soda pop. An ion is a group of atoms that give off an electrical charge. THEREFORE - I have been busy being zap challenged (lacking the ability or the desire to make myself or anybody tingle with energy) by the addition to my imagination of a soda jerk. Yes, back in the day - b

Believe It...
IN THE NEAR FUTURE THAT IS GOING TO BE THE FOUNDATION THAT WILL HELP CHILDREN ALL OVER THE WORLD....I WILL DO ANYTHNG IN MY POWER TO HELP DECREASE HUNGER,,,THE HOMELESS,,,THE POOR....BECAUSE WITHOUT THE CHILDREN WHAT FUTURE WOULD WE HAVE...BELIEVE IT..

Dark Alley
There was a woman who felt ugly and unwanted standing in a dark alley hidden from all stranger's view until the night one of those strangers peered deep into that darkness and said hello. Unsure of herself she decided she had nothing left to lose and responded. They talked for hours that first night. He told her she was pretty and sexy and she almost believed him. They continued to talk for many nights and with each conversation she began to care for him deeply. He made her believe that she really was attractive and sexy and that someone could, he could want her. He filled that dark alley with sunlight and the warmth felt so good on her face. He brought her out of her shell and gave her the confidence to do things for him she had never imagined doing for anyone, things she only wanted to do for him. Of course they had many ups and downs and he was gone for a while but when he returned she was always there waiting for him. He made her feel wanted and happy like she was worth something,

A Heart's Mourning
For the life in me, I dream the day, to reclaim the soul, of the bride I lost, When she closed the door, My heart left with her, My life grew dim, And the hope faded, As the shadows cleared, I saw my reflection, Of the better days, For life was good, I hope to get back, The love I shared, And the memories flow, Like the river's sand.

Daydream Under Moonlight [7-7-09]
AS THE MOONLIGHT ILLUMINATES THE GROUNDTHE QUESTION OF "IF SHE EXISTED"HAS BEEN ANSWEREDAS I TOOK TIME TO EXPLORE HER MIND AND HEARTIT SEEMS WE HAPPEN TO BE VIBING TOCOMPLETELY DIFFERENT WAVES OF SOUNDDIFFERENT WAVES OF LIFEBUT SOMEHOW MY HEART IS LINKED TO HERSHEALING EACH OTHERS BEINGFROM THE JUST THE SOUND OF EACH OTHERS VOICENEEDLESS TO SAY THIS IS DIFFERENT BECAUSE AS LONG AS I KNOW SHES THEREI WONT FEEL ALONE IN MY TRAVELSSIMILAR TO THE LIGHT OF THE VERY MOON I DAYDREAM TOTHIS IS TO THE FIRST THOUGHT OF THE DAY....AND THE LAST VOICE I HEAR BEFORE SLUMBERMAY YOU ALWAYS REMAIN BY ME IN SPIRITIN THE FIGHT FOR THE RAREST JEWEL ON EARTH..........YOUR HEART....

Written By The Poet
LETS SWIM TO THE MOON,AS I STAND IN THE MIDDLE OF THE SUN STARING OUT OF THE WINDOW WHEN SOMEONE KNOCKING ON MY DOOR,IT WAS THE MOON,IT ASK ME,WHAT HAPPEN?-SO I TOLD THE MOON-I AM MADE OF TIN AND I SEE A RAINBOW JUST LIKE ME AND THEY ASK TO BE LET IN,THEN YOU CAME ALONG WITH A SUITECASE AND A SONG-OH HOW THE SUN COVERS AT US.-------

Auto 11'z
PLEASE STOP BY AND RATE MY AUTOS SOMEONE SEND ME, I'M UNABLE TO DO ANYTHING ON MY OLD ACCOUNT BUT WOULD APPRECIATE IT IF YOU COULD HELP-I DONT WANT THEM WASTED:)PLUS YOU EARN DOUBLE PTS RATING THEM WITH YOUR 11'Z:p THANKS:) http://fubar.com/user/851332

99 Condoms !!!!!
99 CONDOMS !!!!!A guy walks into a local pharmacy and walks up to the counter where a lady pharmacist is filling prescriptions. When she finally gets around to helping him he says, "I'd like 99 condoms please."With a surprised look on her face the pharmacist says, "99 Condoms!?! Fuck me!"To which the guy replies, "Make it 100." xoxoxobestmoviestar

Wishful Thinking
If you dream, day dream and wish for something to come true, how long until that gets granted, if it does? I'm like a caged rat, running in circles, looking for a way out and not getting anywhere. I'm just stuck.....day dreaming....wishing for a difference.

I See Past
… I see past pass, my pass passes my past in pass... should the mass mass, the masses mass pass the lives for better life… offerings… they ring bells… ring a bell or bells that pass past, passes pass problems arise amidst destiny, fate… how brutal we, I, you… them, of shallow hollows unsound… unsafe to whom and of what faith, labeled… pass past the mass passes the past for labeled tags, names, fame, earthy things slain…

Moving On...
This morning I woke up and thoughts were going thru my mind. As I continue I knew I had to say to myself just move on...Theres no space for me in your life...Let alone a small place in your Loving heart...So I pace myself on leaving you behind...I can't dwell on what could've, would've been...I just wish you the best and hope all goes well... I now look forward to that one special guy who I can say will be one of a kind... The one who appears in all my dreams...He will make me happy and never have me shed tears...I will look deep into his eyes and say "I will be here for you, thru the good or bad times...I will never disappear" Because I have found my soulmate , my one True Love... My mind is clear and at ease now for no one has ever come near to what I feel and see in you... I thank God each and every day for sending you my way... God has given me hope along with patience ... I now know he was there to hear.

Daddy's Love
A Daddy’s love A love that can barely be measured by leaps and bounds. It’s a love that by itself completely wraps itself around you. A love that makes you feel as safe as your mother’s womb. It’s a love that you take pride in. When that cold shoulder comes around You’re left with a sad heavy heart. As if that safe secure feeling was taken right from underneath you! A feeling of falling left to catch yourself; And to climb your way back into the security of your mother’s womb. Waiting for the cold shoulder to turn around. Anticipating for the very moment To jump into that lov

How Can You Love Someone And Not Yourself?
Leaves are on the groundFall has comeBlue skies turning greyLike my loveI tried to carry youAnd make you wholeBut it was never enoughI must goWho is gonna save youWhen I'm gone?And who'll watch over youWhen I'm gone?You say you care for meBut hide it wellHow can you love someoneAnd not yourself?And when I'm goneWho will break your fall?Who will you blame?I can't go onAnd let you lose it allIt's more than I can takeWho'll ease your pain?Ease your pain Who is gonna save you when I'm gone?Who'll watch over you?Who will give you strength when you're not strong.Who'll watch over you when I've gone away?Snow is on the groundWinters comeYou long to hear my voiceBut I'm long gone

Reflection Of The Past
Stop looking at me,Am i that creepy?You tease me,Stop looking at me,Youhate me,Why am I really that Strange?You dont know me,Dont judge me!I told you stop looking at me~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Wait what am i saying?Your perfect reflection,Your lovely complection,Stareing back at me,Your just a mirror image,Of what i used to be.

Blair Weed Project 2
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I Cant Stand A Liar
Compulsive lying is called 'pseudologia fantastica'. It comes from many different sources. Most specifically, as you've guessed, is a lack of self-esteem, driven by an underlying depression. Sometimes it is driven by a personality disorder. At the very least it is a characterological disturbance. At the worst, it is a sign of sociopathology.

The Changing Of My Being...becoming His.."adult Content"
The feel of his finger's through my hair was like a whisper from my favorite demon of which has been long i've heard from.....on my neck,fine hair stood up and applauded his action's which I could not resist. Behind me he stood,with a soft and gentle stroke of his hand's moved me into the perfect position inwhich twas like I floated....and not moved my own. Feeling his body behind mine, against mine...pressing...slowly rotated and molding to mine....i felt the urge to press up against him...to lay my head into his shoulder's to enjoy this forever seeming moment , as time seem's to have stood still.....Pushing my body harder into M'lord...i find it hard to resist the temptation he present's to my inner stirring....it wanting to be touched...with my passion screaming through my vein's....I let him have me at will.......thus my clothes complimented the cold stone floor.....cold enough that my toe's find themself on end.........My loves' thick black cloak find's itself wrapped around me

Written By A Soldier In Iraq
THIS WAS WRITTEN BY A SOLDIER IN IRAQ. Okay, I need to rant..I was just watching the news, and I caught part of a report on MichaelJackson . As we all know, Jackson died the other day. He was anentertainer who performed for decades. He made millions, he spentmillions, and he did a lot of things that make him a villian to manypeople. I understand that his death would affect a lot of people, andI respect those people who mourn his death, but that isn't the pointof my rant.Why is it that when ONE man dies, the whole of America loses theirminds with grief. When a man dies whose only contribution to thecountry was to ENTERTAIN people, the Amercian people find the need toflock to a memorial in Hollywood , and even Congress sees the need tohold a "moment of silence" for his passing?Am I missing something here? ONE man dies, and all of a sudden he's afreaking martyr because he entertained us for a few decades? Whatabout all those SOLDIERS who have died to give us freedom? All thoseSo

A Woman's Worth
What happened to the entertainment medium? Every time I turn on the boob tube, I see boobs! What is it about a video ho that's so appealing? Is it her fake DD's? Tell me, is it her curtain of weave? ('cause its all the best that money can buy) Is it her light olive complexion (Where my dark sistahs at for once? These hos are failing the paper bag test!) Is it the way she is one of hundreds, disposable like a dirty diaper?! Is it because her ass hangs out for the whole wide world to see? Is it how she just stands there while water/alcohol is thrown on her? (The women I know, me included, would be visibly upset btw.) A woman's worth has been reduced to a body part, take your pick. She is not valued for what she can bring to the table but for her willingness to lay on the table face down, ass up Real Talk.

I Want You!!!
I want to be your companionand walk hand in hand,your strength enveloping mine.Autumn leaves falling,scuffing feet and laughter,sharing nights, not finished by the dark.I want to be your confidantas you pen your deepestthoughts, as your heartachesbleed and finally break free.Your dreams, I keep as if my own.I want to smile as you smileand giggle with youat nothing at all.I want to be your loverand find the passionsthat move you to action.I want to be the softnessthat induces you to trust.I want to be the naughtythat makes you come back for more.I want to please you.I want to share your breakfastand your dinner,I want you in the showerand in your bed andwith soft steps to bring you coffeeYour strong arms, the legsthat power your thrust,your lips of pleasure,these are the fuel of my desireno it is no secret,and to put it very simply,I want you.

I Want To Start A Levelers Group. Anyone Interested?
Attention everyone! I am looking to start a leveler's club, kind of like f.a.r. but a lil' different. But i wan us all get along and help people level. anyone game for it? Private Message me!

Promise
Promise So many promises made.You broke every one of them.Secret words unspoken.My heart you have broken.My soul ripped apart.Alone in my life you have created.From all the messed up places in your mind.The real me only you can find.Your the one who took me away.So here I must stay.In my own miserable world until I get old.So cold but I cannot feel.Is this even real?Promise me everything will be alrightwhen I wake up... Jennifer Renee Wilkes Copyright ©2009 Jennifer Renee Wilkes

Updates
well here it is time again to blog whats new and improved in my life since last i got itchy to type ... Harley is still here in NC .. we got our house in AZ and will be moving asap ... He is getting used to the kids loll ( they tend to drive him nuts) Hes gone from a one child daddy to a 4 child daddy with alot of variations and new scenarios .... can be kinda daunting but he plugs on and sticks with us ... I love this man and am so excited to get moved and start the next journey for U/us. I am still learning each day ... i have always been submissive in my nature but havent ever been able to exercise that part of me in any true way ... just played alot with it ...now i am a slave and am so happy with that ... but im still learning .. im stubborn and headstrong ... but He loves that bout me so i am truely blessed and humbled by His love... our family is evolving but we are all stressed and ready to get on with AZ ... OMG WE HAVE A HOME -- OUR HOME YAY WOO HOO YEEE HAWWW ... yes yes i

Things I Hate
Things I Haaaate 1. Stupid people....damn u dont even know...it really really takes a lot 2 get me angry...but wow some people r just sooooo special... 2. People driving real slow in from of u ....especially driving below the speed limit .....i wish i could just push them out of the wayyyyy!!lol 3. Hoes....male and female....what happened 2 having morals? 4. Arrogance....keep tellin urself ur better than everyone...in the end u ll realize ur not 5. Jealously.....look at urself and deal with ur insecurities b4 u start talking ish about others (especially when u dont even know them...come on now..).... 6. Immaturity.......ur an adult...grow the f up already! well...... that is all.....

Grils Message If U View Me
if a dude want to fight of do something to hert a girl if they need help they call me because kno women should go thow evil by a dum azz man but if one come to me they better come right because i don't fuckin play kno games men should treat women just like them most men better kno that if they want to fight they better fight me insted of a girl or women because i am a 100% pro fighter in boxing

Salutes, Just Plain Silly...
I love the profiles that are viewable only by people who have salutes. This amazes me because 95% of you are only here to level and receive bling. So, I don't see why it matters who is fanning, rating, crushing or adding you. Also, this is the only site that even has this, for a so called adult site it sure seems pretty childish to me. I mean you don't have all your friends on facebook, hi5 or myspace send you a pic with a name or number to prove that they are who they say they are, do you? I'd hope not!!! People say they don't want to be friends with a fake person, well just because someone sends a pic with a name on it, doesn't mean they are being themselves on here. It is the internet people don't forget that. All kinds of things can be photoshoped in. I have a pic with Jerry Rice and I have never met him.. haha. I just find it all a little silly. Of course this is only my opinion, to each his own though.

Another Thought
why Plato rocks - Platonism ;-- "people live without the divine inspiration that gives him, and people like him, access to higher insights about reality" theyre many ways to view this, but to me is stating that inspiration can come from many different areas of life but a person can live individualistic if we accept alternatives as possibilities, it gives us a greater understanding of reality. Plato, many times, stated there is more than a single reality (look up his idea of forms for example). Were individual because we DONT think alike, we DONT believe alike.........but that shouldnt bee seen as wrong.......as long as its within the boundaries of the laws of a democratic society (in ou case at least)

Damn Hot Weather
Damn it was hot today... 104 I think? Gonna be hot again today and tomrorrow. i didn't do what i planned on doing on Monday..was a bum most of the day. I went to Sharies with my friend Kari and my brother later in the evening. Took Michael home and Kari and I went driving around....i think it was around 2am? Or later..I forget. Found a 24 hour coffee joint...didn't know about it until recently. Stupid place only had 3 parkings...seriously..and I couldn't park anywhere else because ya can't park on the streets at that time of night. Even the public parking...you couldn't park there until certain times of the day. You'd think in a busy city, there would be more parkings...but noooo beaverton is just so gay I said fuck it and parked in a place that I wasn't suppose to...I wanted my damn coffee. kari did too... also got some yummy espresso cake...it was spendy but sooooo good. I was nice and even let Kari have half of my piece of cake... 3.50 for it.. see, Im so nice... Then we drove a

I Will Prevail!!!
I have been told that I will never exceedI have been told that I am living in a dreamI have been pushed to the side by many of the people i've lovedI have heard of the struggles that was present before meI have heard others speak of the struggles they were presented withI have accepted I can’t change everything in my life I know that the things that can be changed will take timeI have watched many come and fallI have seen those who have raised to riches and fall to penniesI have started a goalI have told myself that I will prevailI have seen the evil in lifeI have once been a victim to this lifeI have learned that the only thing that can hold you back in life is living for the pastI refuse to give up without a tryI refuse to let anyone tell me that I can’t reach the skyI refuse to live for todayI will always prepare for tomorrow even though it is not guaranteedI will refuse to allow anyone to change my heartI believe that God will lead me to a higher placeI believe that cha

Bleh
Ugh...Damn room mate needs to shut up.....blabbing about his nerd stuff on the phone to some other nerd, Evan I'm sure. Slept very ok last night...still tossed and turned. I took a cheap ass sleeping pill but that didn't do anything for me...I need to call my doc to get my prescription sleeping pills again. Welp, I'm on my way to work...Feels like it should be Friday since I don't work on Wednesdays..I hope that today goes by fast...

Reality 2
Reality by Margaret Reality is that slap in the face When you think you have the world by the tail And life seems to be moving at your own pace When you feel like there is no way you can fail. Reality is there to open your eyes When you find you were walking with them closed And it shows you a sight that can surely make you cry Because with reality, it shows you what you already know. Reality breaks a person's heart and soul And destroys dreams and hopes that a person feels The truth and only truth is reality's only goal And it doesn't care whose world that it might kill. Reality keeps me in a state of mind That I know it has complete control But sometimes my dreams overtake reality I find And love lives for a while in my heart and soul. Reality is not fair. Reality does not care.

Whatever You Give A Woman
'Whatever you give a woman, she will make greater. If you give her sperm, she'll give you a baby. If you give her a house, she'll give you a home. If you give her groceries, she'll give you a meal. If you give her a smile, she'll give you her heart. She multiplies and enlarges what is given to her. So, if you give her any crap, be ready to receive a ton of shit.'

Second Chance ~shinedown~
My eyes are open wide And by the way, I made it Through the day I watched the world outside By the way, I'm leaving out Today I just saw Hayley's comet She waved Said why you always running In place? Even the man in the Moon disappeared Somewhere in the Stratosphere [Chorus] Tell my mother, Tell my father I've done the best I can To make them realize This is my life I hope they understand I'm not angry, I'm just saying... Sometimes goodbye Is a second chance Please don't cry One tear for me I'm not afraid of What I have to say This is my one and Only voice So listen close, it's Only for today I just saw Hayley's comet She waved Said why you always running In place? Even the man in the Moon disappeared Somewhere in the Stratosphere [Chorus] Tell my mother, Tell my father I've done the best I can To make them realize This is my life I hope they understand I'm not angry, I'm just saying... Sometimes goodbye Is a second chance Here's my chance This is my chance Tell my mother, Tell

A Poem
I'll never forget the moment I found you and you found me. Our friendship grew and the next thing i knew, love came suddenly. You won my heart and there's no doubt our feelings grew quite strong. So much happiness in my life that i hadn't known in so long. But circumstance and opposition came from all around. It left my heart so broken and scattered on the ground. It was so beautiful while it lasted that i hate to see it go.

Mj Haters
As a life-long fan of MJ, I have taken it upon myself to hate on his haters. This usually involves a simple curse-out. There are two types of MJ haters: 1) those who always hated MJ 2) those who were fans at some point and became traitors for one reason or another (most likely peer pressure or that hating MJ was a trend at the time like in the mid to late 90s) Why they hate MJ is really not important. All MJ haters can go fuck themselves. MJ haters are my enemies in the realm of Michael Jackson related topics. I don't give a shit if you're my real-life friend, relative, or whatever. Hating Michael Jackson makes you now and forever a 500 pound pile of hot, sick, steaming shit in a 200 pound bag. I'm not saying they shouldn't be able to hate who they want to hate. I want everyone to express their opinions, just as this blog expresses mine.

Part 8 Master / Slave
People who come wired this way often find the M/s lifestyle a compatible fit for their needs. Those who are not wired this way, do not. this is the most powerful part i think .. thanks for your patience and i really just posted this for my reference and learning...

I Love You
Waiting and counting,Marking off the days,Why cant time fly by?Missing you,Thinking of us,Swimming in emotion,loving every thought,Every promise...Can i do it,Can i wait?My heart belongs to you ,Just ask me,I'll say yes,I love you,You are the one,You are mine,Forever in my heart.

Little Kenny
LITTLE KENNY ON MATH (Part 1) A teacher asks her class, 'If there are 5 birds sitting on a fence, and you shoot one of them, how many will be left?' She calls on little Kenny.He replies, 'None, they will all fly away with the first gunshot.'The teacher replies

Bless Me Father/italian Boy's "confession"
Joey: Bless me Father for I have sinned. I have been with a loose girl. Priest: Is that you, Joey Pagano? Joey: Yes, Father, it is Priest: And who was the girl you were with? Joey: I can't tell you , Father. I don't want to ruin her reputation. Priest: Well, Joey, I'm sure to find out her name sooner or later so you may as well tell me now. Was it Tian Minetti? Joey: I can not say Priest: Was it Teresa Mazzarelli? Joey: I'll never tell Priest: Was it Nina Capelli? Joey: I'm sorry. I can not name her. Priest: Was it Cathy Piriano? Joey: My lips are sealed Priest: Was it Rosa DiAngelo? Joey: Please, Father, I can not tell you. At this point the Priest sighs in frustration and says: Priest: You're very tight lipped and I admire that. But you have sinned and you have to atone. Therefore you can not be an Alter Boy for 4 months. Now go and behave yourself. Joey walks back to his pew and his friend Franco slides over and whispers: Franco: What did you get? Joey: 4 month va

"my Poem To My Wife" Titled Just Because...
Just Because Many men have tried to define love, the emotions entailed, the mindset involved and to determine why they love. I have thought and thought and we have talked and talked and pondered and pondered, drawn to curiosity of why I love you…I have no reason that I love you, but I have found that my only reason is, just because. I love you just because. I like your beautiful personality, but I love you just because, I like your amazing intellect, but I love you just because. Your compassionate heart, but I love you just because. Your astounding beauty that has the ability to move me, but I still love you for you. My heart won’t allow me to label the reasons why I love, you, because there aren’t great reasons, but “I love you for you”.-I love you just because. Ivory Smith

Sporatic Ashes
I dream a dream every night I cry a tear every minute Nothing makes sense Nothing is going to be alright spiraling down into the deep unknown splash quick like water struggling and gasping for air is this my time is this the end no this is not water the sand covers all of me hidden from site no one can see me die tonight twenty five years later the wind blows but im nothing but ashes

I Don't Know About Tomorrow
I don’t know if it will be you or me. I don’t know if we will remain the same as today. I wonder if we will feel the same thirst after the sunrise. Why suppose or even think about it, please don’t ask things I don’t know about. I don’t know where we will end up; our bodies will tell us that. Why promise something that is not within our power to do, I don’t know the meaning of eternity so don’t ask for something related to time. I don’t know if we will still be together tomorrow or if the world is going to end. I also don’t know if I am for you or if you are for me. I don’t know if we are going to love each other or hate each other…I don’t know about tomorrow who will remain… This I know: from a cup of coffee we will go to the sofa, from a button then everything else. We will not give the clock rules; it will be just you and me. All that you see is what I am, please don’t ask more than what I

Confused
So.. I know I said I hate my ex. Well I don't hate him. I just hate the way he is. Sometimes I miss him so much.. but I know for a fact that I will never go back to him. I will never be suckered in by those words that he used to get me to stay with him just because he wanted me at the time. I will never fall for the whole "I love you, I wanna marry you and have kids with you" bullshit! I can't believe I was so fucking stupid! And now look where I am! I knew after the first 6 months things wouldnt work out. But I kept trying.. NEVER AGAIN! He hurt me so much!!! So Nic, I want you to know... I totally changed my mind about you.

Still Connected
night after night the tears stream down soaking my pillow swelling my eyes wondering if when I go will I be alone still I'm really not long for this world yet my time grows near nothing yet have I accomplished stronger grows the pain within will I leave this place with no one by side no children to leave my belongings no one to love and leave impressions my heart is scared and wishes it weren't so for it knows that if god doesn't take me first my lonely heart will give before my time I watch every love walk away and every jerk come too I lay staring at the one empty side of bed it was suppose to be your side I hold tight to what was once your dog I wear the ring of a promise that never should have been broken I think of the love I know you still have in vein I wish it to return to us but instead we grow ok with being alone too afraid to love one another let alone hold too much pride and pain to admit defeat we rather watch each others pain see who suffers more

See Monkeys? No - Sea Monkeys!
Recognize that face? Thats right - its a SEA MONKEY. The kind of fantastical magical pet that you could send away for with a coupon from the back of a comic book. How well I remember my first Sea Monkey habitat.I sold greeting cards door to door when I was about 10. The goal? The palace of the mystical Sea King and Queen and all their cavorting Monkey subjects. I'd studied the literature - I had memorized the grainy pictures of grinning crown capped creatures. They looked so HAPPY. The King even had a scepter that he held in his little hand and wrapped his Sea Monkey tail around. Finally I achieved my dream. Enough cards were sold, my reward arrived. I was confused at first. I was sure the picture had shown at least a throne. Not only didn't I get a throne. I didn't even get a throne room. Oh well - a glass would do. So I began my first alchemy experiment. Mix the packages of mysterious Sea Monkey essence with water. Wait. Watch. Maybe find a magnifying glass I'd been using t

Venting
K SO AS YOU SEEN FORM MY LAST BLOG THERE HAS BEEN A SHIT LOAD OF DRAMA STARTED FOR NO REASON AND NOW I'M STARTING TO THINK THAT THOSE WHO I CONSIDER MY FRIENDS MAY LISTEN TO THIS OTHER FUCKER OVER ME AND I'M LEFT CONFUSED BECAUSE I KNOW IF THEY ARE TRUE FRIENDS LIKE MY BABY (WHO BY THE WAY THAT LAST BLOG I POSTED WAS MOSTLY HIM BLOWIN UP AT THAT LIL PRICK WHO IS TALKING TRASH ABOUT ME) THEY WILL STAD BEING ME... I'M NOT TELLING ANYONE TO TAKE SIDE YOU WANNA LISTEN TO THAT FUCKER FINE DO SO BUT DON'T EXPECT ME TO BACK YOU WHEN YOU GOT DRAMA... I LOVE BEING A DJ HERE ON FUBAR AND GETTIN TO MEET NEW PPL BUT THE DRAMA IS GETTING OUTTA HAND AND WHATS THE POINT OF BOUNCERS IF THEY DON'T DO ANYTHING ABOUT THE PROBLEMS WE RUN INTO... LIKE MAN THAT'S NOT RIGHT IF YOU ASK ME.... ANYWAY I KNOW WHO MY FRIENDS ARE AND I HOPE THEY TRUST ME 2 KNOW THE START THAT'S GOING AROUND ABOUT ME ISN'T TRUE......... TAKE CARE AND THANKS FOR BEING MY FRIENDS REPPIN CLUB CHRONIC 420 ALL THE WAY 24/7

Thank You!!!!!!
I WANNA TAKE A SECOND TO WRITE OUT A LETTER OF APPRECIATION TO THE BEST FU-BOYFRIEND / REAL BOYFRIEND I WOULD ASK FOR.. WHEN SOMEONE BAD MOUTHS ME NOW YA'LL BETTER WATCH OUT CUZ I WOULD NOT WANNA BE LIKE THE LIL PRICK TODAY WHO SAW THE MOST PROTECTIVE SIDE OF MY BABY I HAVEN'T SEEN IN A LONG TIME... ANYWAY I ALSO WANTED TO THANK ALL ME FRIENDS FOR BEING THERE FOR ME AND REMINDING ME WHAT IT'S LIKE TO HAVE REALY FRIENDS EVEN IF WE ARE JUST FRIENDS CAUSE OF THIS SITE IT'S BEEN A BLAST KNOWING ALL OF YOU AND I'M SURE YOU ALL KNO I'VE GOT YOUR BACKS A MILLION PERCENT SHOULD SOMEONE STEP ON YOUR TOES THE WRONG WAY..... I especially wanna thank the CLUB CHRONIC 420 fam for being the best damn peeps i've worked with here on Fubar......

Sdgfas
Alas, my weekend is over...and my work week begins tomorrow. I did a bunch of cleaning this week and gotten through some boxes of junk. Almost done sorting things in the bedroom then I'll work in the other rooms. I also seperate our stuff on the book shelves...Now I have all of mine on one and his on the other. Looks a lot nicer and not so cluttered too. I can't wait for this work weekend to be over...hopefully it will go by fast. Weeeeee!!

*lost In The Crowd
Have you ever felt numbOr incompleteLike all the goals you setYou'll never meetHow it will be when you're not aroundHow happy you'll make The people you've let downOr if it's all a phaseIf you'll ever winBounce back from all the timesThat you gave inI've got an addictionThat can't be curedSo I sit and ventI tell you with wordsI'm only humanAnd I make mistakesHow much moreUntil one guy breaksI'm not trying to bring you downI'm telling you how it isJust thinking out loudJust another faceLost in the crowd

Breath
In a time of war we stare blankly at the setting sun and wish for days past. I say grab the remainder of your life and push forward toward that inevitable time of chaos. When each and every last breath from the whirring oxygen tank is more precious than sex or money. Look forward to the now and make every moment, every friend, every encounter more exciting than gold or glitter; make it your own. I will; will you.

Happy New Year Single Parents...
We all are single because we all made a similar mistake. We do not and never will admit that we made a mistake, because if that mistake was never made, we would not have the one thing in the world that we will love, forgive, and hold closest to us. (Our Children!) We all are dieing to be loved by someone who can fill the gaps our children cannot. We all are afraid to let someone try and fill those gaps others have made in our trusting hearts. We have to remember that god has given us a blessing in our children, and even though things turned bad in our relationships, our children will always love us unconditionally. Fate is funny, and so is love... We have our whole lives to live, and now we are responsible for the lives of our little ones. People we date may not understand this at first, may not like it... The one that is meant for us will understand both (that children are our lives and always come first). So let's love and hold our children close get them bathed and to bed,

Fantasy First Encounter
I must add that sending those pictures shocked me and gave me an immediate hard on. It had me thinking about if I had you there, putting a sexy body with tattoos (I have 2 tattoos) in my hands, and looking close, wanting to touch. There’s porn and then there’s someone you talk to and desire, just to bad I’m still down in Houston with family for a couple more days. Maybe we can meet up sometime soon and see how things go. I’m sure they will be maybe a little shy at first and then heat up. I would probably get you talking if I could because that’s just my thing to do, and of course I would talk as well. Just imagine us meeting up at a restaurant, Me in a nice pair of slacks, and a colored dress shirt, no tie and the top button undone (boxers, briefs, or commando?). You show up in your hot black halter dress, sexy little panties, thigh highs, and platform heels. We sit down at a table and just stare at each other. Checking each other out, we cant help but

Nada Mucho
I haven't posted here this week so I thought I'd just give the fu-world an update. I know you all care deeply. Something strange happened yesterday: I had a good day at work. Those just don't seem to occur too frequently these days. I guess it was that I kept myself busy and I finally made some headway on a project that seems to be an ongoing clusterfuck. I worked from 8:00 until 6:30 last night, only took a 30 minute lunch, and I actually felt like I could have worked longer and been fine with it. But, I needed to get home to see my wife and Charlie. Today won't be as long. I've got a 6:30 tee time with a few friends. The stupidity of some never ceases to amaze me. In the fubar world, last night the guy who bought the happy hour had a gif file of a cat jumping into a wall. The image then switched to the statement, "your as stupid as this cat." Makes sense, moran. Second, old people arguing that the U.S. government is too incompetent to run a public health insurance optio

Cigarettes And Empty Beer Bottles.
As i drown in the beer..my heart swimming around me..the smoke rises from my cigarette..tired of regret..spend my time..trying to forget..a part at a time..i'll soon forget..and with that said..put it on my tab..may i passout..and fallout of depression..whenever..whoever..i say..buy me a drink..and say hello..to my cold shoulder..that foul feeling..heartbreak..in deniel..so my style..may come as a shock..its the beer talking..long drags..smoke rings..im a product..of my enviroment..suicides and lovenotes..such is the getaway..lovers failures..give em a shot..and see if that dont bring you out..of that shell of lonelyness..and regret..try to forget..the pains of yesterday..and sit by me at the bar..im never to far..share a cigarette..and just let what has been..be..cant you see..the broken shells around..all parked at the bar..pick up a mug..and and let the time pass..drink others under table..till your disabled..and get up tomorrow..with a hangover..maybe even another..person sleeping

New Wow Expansion!
WORGEN! FUCKING WORGEN! SUCK IT, BLOOD ELVES! WE HAVE THE SEXIEST RACE EVER! Now trade us the forsaken for the nightelves and the tauren for the humans and we're good to go.... For those of you who haven't heard..... CATACLYSM! THE NEW WOW EXPANSION!!! http://www.worldofwarcraft.com/cataclysm/ WATCH THE TRAILER AND REVEL IN THE WOODY! Hell, I'm hard, and i'm a damned WOMAN >.> Mmmmmmm.... worgen.... WE GET OUR FIRST FURRY RACE!

This Week 8/15/9 - 8/22/9
This week has been interesting: I returned from MD with hives from forgetting my allergies and eating crab dip. I came back here on Fubar, my friends helped pimp me out and get back into this. I got talking to one of my oldest and best friends on here. I made a new friend and had some 6 hours chats. I got one of the worst sunburns ever leading me to an itch fest followed by a boiling bath to relieve the itch, followed by a pukefest from taking to much tylonol. In the end...I got hired by a celebrity group to begin work on personalized webpages. I give this week a 6/10 on the good week scale.

U Can't Break Me..
i'v been to hell and back,i spill shit,trip and embarras myself.I can't just flutter my eyes and get the man of my dreams,my life is so messed up,i'v been through more shit than you've seen on t.v. Nobodys perfect,i'v been lied to,cheated on,and had my heart stollen.I'v fucked up,fucked people up,and been fucked up,but every hit was worth it because it's real.Life is real and i'm livin' it every day,but do i regret one thing?NEVER because at one point it was exactly what i wanted and i got my fuckin' satisfaction.My life is mine and no stupid bitch,or immature boys can fuck it up for me any more.I'm the real deal,and i'd love to see you try and break me!

Pissed
You are such a prick Worthless piece of shit Nothing but a dumbass hick Love to feed you to my pit Nah that's animal abuse Just pull out my trusty bat Swing free and let loose Knock your stupid ass flat You say you love me Want to make me happy You are my one and only devotee Think I'm that fucking sappy? You don't want me to be glad All you're good at is making me mad Get over it, we're through Why should I listen to lie after lie I have one thing to say to you.... FUCK OFF AND DIE

Work
I'm waiting for my super berries to go on farmsville on facebook to grow so I can go to bed..yea yeah...stupid kari got me addicted to that game now. She kept bugging me to go on face book, so I did..and now I'm on that farming game. My boss came around with a card asking to sign it for one of our co workers who is a type of manager...he's leaving to work a different shift and I asked him jokenly "So do I get to take his place?" He said sometime soon that I'll be able to train more and being able to manage more of work...yay!!! I haven't done that in a long time. I like learning more stuff at work and being able to do more stuff....slowly moving up still....in Oct I'll find out if I get my raise or not..I hope I do. I'm work a extra day this coming week...debating if I would want to work on Thursday as well...that would be 60+ hours of working that week....I hate working extra days but I need the money....

My Remix To The Song "jesus Loves Me"
(the challenge in my youth group was to write a rap to a well known song in the church and this is what I wrote...I did a little remix to the Jesus loves me song enjoy!) Jesus loves me this I know For the Bible tells me so Little ones to Him belong They are weak but he is strong Yes Jesus Loves me Yes Jesus loves me Yes Jesus loves me For the Bible tells me so After the fall of man God had a plan To save the whole world from its sin So everyone could speak to him He sent this angel named Gabriel to tell Mary That she should trust God and not be weary Because she was going to have a virgin birth So that Jesus could become like us on earth So God sent His only Son so that he may die On a cruel cross to be crucified Now while he was just thirty years old He got twelve disciples but only eleven were bold They watched him perform miracles in wonder and awe And the ones that hated him were under the law You see the Pharisees thought he was too popular to contai

My Love My Soul
Meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice but falling in love with you I had no control over....I remember the first day when i saw him in class. He was wearing white shirt and black pant. I just looked at him and was impressed by his personality....... days passed........... and just a hello hi sort of conversation continued. In November he sent me an SMS. I messaged him and asked " who are you". He called me and informed. Then we used to send forwarded messages to each other. Sometimes he used to comment on those messages and i felt very nice. One day he added me on orkut. Daily i used to look at his pics for hours. I dont know why i used to look but i felt something for him. Then we started chatting and there was a sort of excitement. We even started talking on phones. The whole day i used to wait for the night so that we can chat. we became friends but my feelings for him grew more and more as the time passed. Then one evening he called and asked "can we meet?" . It w

Reasons.. Responses... Explanations... Soon 2 Be Null Points..
To the few of you will read this. To those I call my friends. To you I answer a question that you have asked. For some time now my presence has been scarce at best. Non existent for some. I am not fool enough to assume that my being here or there would have any bearing on you or your life, but I do know that if you did feel a desire to ask where I was... then this should answer that question. If this question has never crossed your mind... move along.. this is not for you. And there are some who I will be honestly surprised should they comment upon this. I had a moment in time. A moment that lapsed my sanity once again. I was depressed beyond the point that I had control over my own thoughts. Suicide was a constant mental companion to me. I wanted death. I wanted to put it all to an end. I had grown to hate my life. My solitude which was made by choice and not by circumstance. I didn't like people. I wanted to find a hallow place that echoed on the exterior what I

Tired
Omg, I'm so tired and have no energy today. Didn't get too much sleep last night, took me a while to sleep. Maybe got about 3 hours. Work was just blah...nothing exciting there. One of my coworkers asked if I had been loseing weight. I haven't been losing any weight in a while..but I haven't gained, which is good... I think I'm still 19 lbs lighter since my highest weight... Ugh...been at this weight forever...needs to go down more! I know i know..I need to go work out too.... I don't think I'll work any extra days at work this week. MAYBE Thursday...we'll see... I still need to go through some boxes to unload, pack away, seperate from mine and his.. Man, he has'n't done shit around the home. I know he's barely at home..he's been staying at his friends house pretty much all the time on our days offs. I'm taking the idea he doesn't want to be around me, but at least help out with cleaning still..I'm not home all the time either but I clean. Just annoys me...It's nice that he's not hom

This Was Written For Me By Dj Renegade. My Heart Will Always Be Yours.
she sits alone and wonders why? why does she hurt? why does she cry? emotions deep within her soul well up into her mind, a longing for answers a longing for peace is what her spirit tries to find. she sits and ponders days gone by, of past heartbreaks and times of despair. she runs her nails down her arms tearing at the flesh feeling no pain but the pain inside, she stares into the abyss, it stares back not knowing her pain it knows nothing of the love she's missed. it sucks her emotions bleeding her dry, she has run out of tears to cry. it gives nothing back, she feels no relief, all she feels is her soul's deep grief she longs for a moment of welcome release, she longs to feel love, she longs to set her soul free to hope once more and to love. a minute goes by she sits frozen not moving an inch, not a tremor not one tiny flinch. she raises her head, on her face is an expression of deep comprehension. she stands up straight and faces the clouds above and unleashes a banshee-

My Appoligies
so i know i've been a bitch lately. and i wanted to say sorry to anyone who felt my wrath this week. when lee did what he did (we don't need details) it really fucked with my head. anyone who is in possession of a penis, pretty much heard my mouth this week. but some of you, i don't feel bad for being a bitch to. it's like as soon as some of you heard that he left, y'all took it upon yourself as an opportunity to pounce. jebus! can i have some time to breathe first??? i'm not saying that i'm over him and ready to be with someone else. cause i'm not, i'm just saying i'm sorry for being a bitch.

Bwhaha Die Loser
so lee had his concert tonight in TN. he was really really nervous about it, he's preformed live before, but never infront of such a large audiance. there was scheduled to be over 3000 people there. i remember him freaking out last week over it. and saying how i was gonna have to talk him through it all night. bwahaha! i wonder if his lesbian talked him down????i really fuckin hope he choked tonight! no, what i really hope is that he sucked so bad someone decided to choke him with his guitar strings and he's now dead! that would be oh so wonderful!i know i'm fucking twisted. and you're gonna come back and tell me "now angel, that's not nice, if you really care for him, you wouldn't wish him death"well patrick said it best! "break her heart, she'll rip yours out"

Figure You Out
Ok.. so I was doing some random searching on the net and ran across a Femme site that was ranting about the Nickelback song "Figure you out" and here is what was posted... I can’t quite “Figure You Out” OK, so I was driving home and I had the radio on to some random rock music, which is pretty normal for me. (I’m about 50/50 classic rock/NPR.) A song I’d never heard before comes on. Here are the lyrics, along with my running commentary. I like your pants around your feet Woah! Not exactly an auspicious start to the generally-problematic-to-begin-with Love Song! I like the dirt that’s on your knees And I like the way you still say please While you’re looking up at me Is this a song about pedophilia…? You’re like my favourite damn disease And I love the places that we go And I love the people that you know And I love the way you can’t say no OUCH! Maybe it is a song about pedophilia, and it’s su

Lol I Love Talking With This Kid....ryan And Tatiana's Yahoo Convo.
ryan: we have a hawk that hangs around our neighborhood, keep thinking its going to attack meme: yeah it's just waiting for you to be aloneryan: its not funny, the other week i was out on the deck smoking and it flew onto a branch like 20 ft from meryan: i had my hand on the door handle ready to run looooolme: hahahahame: it wants a smokeryan: never thought of that, got the bird addicted to nicotine me: I want to be a penguin.. just lay on my belly and slide all overryan: go for it, people will think youre weird for awhile, but theyll get used to it

Spritual Cramp
Incurable disease on the day of rest Walking on water in a sea of incest I've got an image of Jesus embedded on my chest I can't leave home without my bullet proof vest Killing myself for the perfect honeymoon fighting with scorpions tied around my neck I hear the pitter patter of a killer on the loose children using their fingers instead of words crosses burn your temples on slaughter avenue It takes too much time to say 'I refuse' Time is digging graves for the chosen few Children dig graves for me and you Describe the illness I'll prescribe the cure start your two day life on a two day vacation I've got a spiritual cramp going for my ribs Those gangsters toting guns are shooting spikes through my wrist children using their fingers instead of words Fingers bury children under the boards I can die a thousand times But I will always be here with the power skull secrets of forgotten years the hangman's noose is trenched with bloodstains of tears my hands ar

Live - The Dolphin's Cry Lyrics
The way you're bathed in light Reminds me of that night God layed me down into your rose Garden of trust And I was swept away With nothing left to say Some helpless fool yet I was lost In a swoon of peace You're all I need to find. So when the time is right. Come to me sweetly, come to me. Come to me. Love will lead us, alright Love will lead us, she will lead us Can you hear the dolphin's cry? See the road rise up to meet us It's in the air we breathe tonight Love will lead us, she will lead us Oh yeah we'll meet again, It's like we never left Time in between was just a dream Did we leave this place? This crazy fog surrounds me You wrap your legs around me All i can do to try and breathe Let me breath So that I So we can go together Love will lead us, alright Love will lead us, she will lead us Can you hear the dolphin's cry? See the road rise up to meet us It's in the air we breathe tonight Love will lead us, she will lead us Life is like a shooting star It don't matter who

How To Survive A Breakup
THE BREAKUP Submissives in the throes of a breakup with their dominant often ask me if I think the pain of relationship breakup is different from "vanilla" relationship breakups and how they can make sense of the feelings of horrific loss, confusion, anger and disorientation that they feel. First of all, I think the dynamics of Ds relationships are very different from "vanilla" relationships. Different dynamics give rise to different feelings about relationship loss. For the submissive individual, the bond of relationship is everything. Being a bottom offers fulfillment by enabling the submissive to feel merged with another human being. The bond to the dom is an intense one, giving meaning, value, fulfillment and a sense of identity through the activities of serving and pleasing. For some dominants, however, an intim

Damn Ace Tomato Company...
Sorry for those of you too yount to remember the Cold War and "great" movies like Spies Like US, but I had to make the reference. My household effects finally arrived here from the States. I found out why they took so long. They were on the road to Dushanbe. Yes, all of my boxes were labelled US Embassy Dushanbe, Tajikistan. Awesomeness. And you people want the government controlling MORE of your life?

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Skid Row - I Remember You
Woke up to the sound of pouring rainThe wind would whisper and Id think of youAnd all the tears you cried, that called my nameAnd when you needed me I came throughI paint a picture of the days gone byWhen love went blind and you would make me seeId stare a lifetime into your eyesSo that I knew you were there for meTime after time you were there for meRemember yesterday - walking hand in handLove letters in the sand - I remember youThrough the sleepless nights and every endless dayId wanna hear you say - I remember youWe spend the summer with the top rolled downWished ever after would be like thisYou said I love you babe, without a soundI said Id give my life for just one kissId live for your smile and die for your kissRemember yesterday - walking hand in handLove letters in the sand - I remember youThrough the sleepless nights and every endless dayId wanna hear you say - I remember youWeve had our share of hard timesBut thats the price we paidAnd through it all we kept th

One
In a day like this, eight years ago we had a reality check. A day where many lives were taken from this world. We became expectators of a tragedy. I, in desbelief as many people around the country and the world observed the spreading chaos happening in lower Manhattan. An array of feelings was bombarding me. Sadness, anger, despair. A father soon to be then, I thought what the future would be after that day. What kind of world my daughter would open her eyes? Did not have to wait long for the answer to be clear and obvious to me. In the middle of the chaos a beacon of light was shinning. As I walk the streets I saw into the horizon the thick smoke rising from the vanished towers. I look around people faces so easy to read. Strange silence was all over. Only the news coming from radios or t.v. sets was the only clearly thing audible. I took a better look. The remarkable differences in backgrounds. Nationalities, religion beliefs, cultures. The ever changing melting pot that has m

"obama/biden 08"
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Rant #1
Has a song that you have heard a thousand times ever just one day got your attention and got you thinking? I have always said that Mad World by Gary Jules I wanted to be played at my funeral as I feel the song about how mad the world is and how people are etc. The point is I have been thinking about all of the song and now I can't get it out of my head. I still want it played at my funeral but I realate to the song and video so much. I mean really wow alot of songs has gotten my attention before but for some reason today that song and that video just got me. Maybe b/c I have been really stresses or something. Who knows? I don't I just know the world is mad I mean in general we all run around in circles every day kinda like the nine inch nails everyday is exactly the same yeah weir i compair thoes two but they are both right. Mad world addresses we go around in cirlcles and how it makes it a mad world. Everyday is exactly the same well I think the titile says enough. Think aobut your li

The Poem Let Me Know What Ya Think
I wonder when she looks in the mirror does she see memories past or if I am the last thing on her mind. I wonder does she often think more of the bad and not so much of the good memories. I wonder does she know that I still care, for of course she was my greatest love affair. I wonder why I let her go and walk out of my life, because since then my time on this planet has been filled with strife. I wonder will she read this and know, that no matter how hard I try I can't let the past go. I wonder does she know that she was the best thing I ever ruined. I wonder if things were different I wouldn't be where I am today. By far and away I often wonder these things to often, but I just can't stop them from filling my mind. I wonder does she know she was truly my first love and I appreciate her being the one I may never forget.

Thinking
Yea I know scary thought me thinking right? Up until the last few years I never understood a few things, and maybe it's age or just a little experience. I don't think often enough that an entertainer, be it any kind of entertainer from the wrestling I do to a comedian on stage or an actor who gets a huge part. Have you ever noticed that it seems like they don't really thank the company that gave them the chance to be a star, a champ or a great comedian or whatever it is that they want to be, until they win some kind of award. I know it seems like I don't mention it, but usually in the locker room at my wrestling shows or wherever I am at that point I do my best to thank those guys for giving me opportunities noone else would. So right now right here in plain view of the myspace world I want to thank OWO and ICWF for giving me the chance to be their champ. I honestly never thought it would happen not for me, but for other people yea absolutely. I mean I have messed up plenty

Dear Sorry Letter: To A Woman.
Now as i sit and right this..a tear comes to my eye..as i knew..that one day..if i let you in..this would happen..i tryed for the longest..to hide..this..yet..you were just to nice..and although i was with someone..three months ago..it was not a good move for me..ive been down this road so many times..why did you think i said..love was a lie?..it was for a joke..it was because..through it all..i got hurt..played..and in the end..all i had to show..was nothing..nothing but wasted time..time i cant get back..you can throw stones at me..i dont care..to be more realistic..im not sure..or wasnt sure..you would accept me..im not like you..in many ways..you have formed a picture of me..that just isnt true..i could come to you..and say a word..weather or not..good or bad..i felt you..and im sorry..that ive hurt you..and know that i am hurt..yet you really dont have to speak..for i know..what is on your mind..i been alone..so its nothing to me now..im going away..to start another life..and may

Chivalry Really Is Dead.
Why are men such idiots? Why are girls such sluts?!?! Ughhh... I'm starting to realize, sex REALLY is all men care about. period. I'm so sick of men talking to me like I'm a piece of meat. "What size are your tits?"... "I'd fuck ya"... "I'm horny..." UGH!!! It's sooo annoying! And girls... do you really have no more respect for yourself than to put up naked pictures for every one to see?!?! I mean, come on, at least make 'em work for it! I'm so sick of fake people. That's basically all there is to it.

I Face The Eternal Winter
Flying silent on winter wingsFlowing emotions from my bleeding soulTears that flow burn my skinI'm drifting away on the cold wave of desolationI'm touching the wind as it sadly singsCarried to the distant unknownEternity awaits me...My heart is so coldEmotions reached their freezing point...Only pure hateLost all that I was living forCrying without soundThy sky has frozen to iceAs the last drops of blood leave my bodyI hear the winter breathI'm the face of the nightI'm all aloneThe fullmoon is glowingSnow falls from the skyI feel the eternal winterHolocaust winds are risingLike a dark northern breezeMy cryptic journey has just begun.©DGTFB 1975

"the De-evolution Of A Decent Man"
"The De-evolution Of A Decent Man"...Is it anger or pain that I write in tonight? Perhaps both at my own failings perpetuating anger. Lack of returned love causing pain. I don't care what other may judge by this. I can be called a pussy, a weak man incapable of receiving respect by a lover. I'm not giving up, only saying that I give in to the demise of the character of the once decent man.....Perhaps it is my own mistakes that have manifested the current realm of which I am enthralled in. I, by no means, looked for situations to be burned. I never judged a woman, lover, or friend by her own actions or words prior to my existence in her life. I do not expect more from my friends and family than they can give, only hope that altruistic humanity wins out more so than not. Yet, the painful realization is that good men are not only a commodity, and I'm not even sure I classify as such, they are looked upon as weak pillars not to anchor to.....All we ever want is to be loved. True for everyo

Wanna Own Me??!!?!?!
Hey friends, would you like your very own LizzieKitty??? I'm up for fu-auction!It's a cash items bids only, no fubucks... However I have a lot to offer, and if the price is right, I'll add so much more :)Bids start September 19th!! BUY ME BUY ME BUY ME!

Coffin Putty
I cant believe I just bought two coffin putties, and actually had a dilemma of whether to open a green or orange one first. Anyways, it fuckin RULES. I cant stop playin with it, grrr. Ironically, it also smells like strawberries or somethin, which makes me want to eat it :( But I dont think I should, since it says so ona box.

Feed
Feed....verse1I never knew my fatherI guess I should feel badMy mother never mentioned himI guess I shlould feel madI was known as the poor kidWho lived down the streetYou'd look at me and spitand laugh at my defeatchoursyou've made me this way Constantly feeding on hate Maybe i can break you Just another day verse2I dont need your sympathyCause I feed off your hateIt turns into my energyand throws it back in your faceNow you need my sympathyand I dont need your hateThis is saying thant you but the thanks came to latechoursx2verse3This is how you made meYou made me feel this way This time I wont thank you but maybe i can break youYou will cease the laughingand i will cease the shameYour at the end of the line and I'm through this gamechours once then fade out of music

My New Owner.
I want to thank my newest owner Master_Unicorn for buying me, I'm unable to thank him enough for what he has done & don't have the right words to say however I am grateful for him.. So if you'll get around to it show this wonderful man some luvins please just for me...Thank you!!!

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This Is Me...
Someone you will never understand...I don't understand myself so how can you? I'm here to be who I am...A friend and nothing more...Unless it comes to me unannounced I am not looking for love...Love is a word that is fading from my vocabulary...People spend their lives trying to define love...find love...be loved...and unless the actually experience it they have no clue what it is...A person who has found true love may never know how they found it...They just know they have found the one thing that many of us will spend our lives looking for...and when we don't find it...we settle for what we can get...Because when you go looking for something that you can't define...How do you know what you're looking for? And on I ramble...I made the mistake of looking back tonite...Never look back...The past can't be changed...Only the future holds the opportunity for that...And if you don't try to fix what is wrong...Mend what is broken...Forget what hurts...Remember what has made you smile...Celeb

The Real Me.
So i wrote this again on another of my social networking sites enjoy the read. the real me. it may be weird and stuff but i been feeling this way recently. Current mood: bummed Lately more than anything I don't think anyone knows the real me. Or even wants to try to know the real me. Hell I am lucky to know even if there is a real me, that I am capable of understanding. I have been a bit reflective again as of late. So sorry if it's a repeated thing or something I have done before. I realize I have lost friends old and new because of things I have done. I have burned bridges I never should have burned. Now to get back to that level of friendship I used to have can never happen. I feel like a lost memory in peoples past that they chose to forget me or the real me. Or the fact that I was at one time even at my worst had sparks of kindness and gentleness or even a caring attitude. I have met friends who after they found out about me and things I ha

Rotflmao
A man and his wife go to their honeymoon hotel for their 25th anniversary. As the couple reflected on that magical evening 25 years ago, the wife asked the husband, "When you first saw my naked body in front of you, what was going through your mind?"The husband replied, "All I wanted to do was to fuck your brains out, and suck your tits dry."Then, as the wife undressed, she asked, "What are you thinking now?"He replied, "It looks as if I did a pretty good job."There was this old woman who heard a song called "Two Lips and Seven Kisses." She called up information after hearing the song on the radio to get the name of the record company. In dialing, she erroneously called up a gas station, and she asks, "Do you have "Two Lips and Seven Kisses?"The gas station attendant who answered the phone said, "No, but I have two nuts and seven inches!"So the woman asked, "Is this a record?"To which the man replied, "No, its average!"Bubba was fixing a door and he found that he needed a new hinge, so

What A Long Ass Day
So I had an interesting day. The 3 dogs Mae Knuckles and Reese's were outside playing and Mae got a stick Knuckles wanted it so he attacked her. Reeses and Mae are lab and pit Knuckles is all pit his former owner abused him so he is agressive the other 2 are not unless attacked. he tore mae's ear open we split them up and mae was in my lap i was cleaning her ear up trying to stop the bleeding when knuckles walked by and attacked her again. he got her head and tore 2 gashes in her cheek I got knocked backwards landed on my hip and but which are bruised up and they slammed into my ribs so it was an eventfull day

.....continued!!!!!!
I moved to the other side of my friend and showed Tina how to get him hard again with her hand and mouth. She was sooo eager to please me I just know she is going to luv sucking my pussy! She got my friend hard again and was going to suck him again when I pulled her mouth away and she looked at me with a lil pout and I couldn't help it, I kissed her hard and started pinching her nipples and I grabbed her hand and and brought it to my titties, she was hesitant but then started massaging them, of course this lil show in front of my friend got him super hard and I knew he wanted to fuck her hard. I broke our kiss and asked her if she was a virgin, she looked down and turned beet red and said she was, I grabbed her chin and lifted it and looked deep into her eyes and told her that soon she will no longer be a girl but a woman, she smiled and I told her to straddle my friend. She did so and she looked a lil scared but also desire was there too. I reached down while looking into her eye

Non- Existent Love
Would you kiss the last person who texted you?of course.. i would love to, but dont see it happening again Last night, what did you do?stayed in and had a movie and popcorn night with my son... all snuggled together... good tmes Last person you held hands with, do they mean anything?Preston means the world to me.. he is who i live for Have you ever hooked up with someone to make someone else jealous?no, but i have gone on a date to help me get over someone... What was the last thing you did before you went to bed last night?asked a question i still havent gotten an answer to Will you keep your last name when you get married?depends on their last name.. LOL Someone on your mind?always Hows your current relationship?thatscomplicated.. but technically i am single so i guess i cant answer this one What were you doing this morning at 8?sleeping in.. thank you Preston!!!! Do you have a friend of the opposite sex you can talk to?Always... he is my Bestie :) What are you looking for

*the Currents*
The air is visible around you, rising up and off your lips in slow currentsAnd i watch as your face is framed in its slow currentsDrifting curls a trailing pathA long drag becomes a dress of blue and ashIf it is born in flames then we should let it burnBurn as brightly as we canAnd if its gotta end then let it end in flamesLet it burn all the way downIf it is born in flames then we should let it burnBurn as brightly as we canAnd if its gotta end then let it end in flamesLet it burn all the way down, all the way downAnd if this is ever meant to end, then i hope it ends where it beganSo hot with love, we burned our handsIf this is ever meant to end, then i hope it ends where it beganSo hot with love, it burns our handsIf it is born in flames then we should let it burnBurn as brightly as we canIf its gotta end then let it end in flamesLet it burn, let it burnIf its gotta end let it burnIf its gotta end let it burnIt ends where it began, so hot with love, it burns our hands

Firetruck And The Cat
A fireman is working on the engine outside the station when he notices a little girl next door in a little red wagon with little ladders hung off the side and a garden hose tightly coiled in the middle. The girl is wearing a fireman's helmet and has the wagon tied to a dog and a cat. The fireman walks over to take a closer look. "That sure is a nice fire truck," the fireman says with admiration."Thanks," the girl says. The fireman looks a little closer and notices the girl has tied the wagon to the dog's collar and to the cat's testicles. "Little partner," The fireman says: "I don't want to tell you how to run your fire truck, but if you were to tie that rope around the cat's collar, I think he could pull more."The little girl replied: "You're probably right, sir, but then I wouldn't have a siren."

Where Are You God?
Where Are You God? Where are you GodHe asked feeling alone,Why did you allow this to happenHe wailed in tragedies phone.I am here, God repliesI am right here with you,As far as you can seeA magical sky of blue.Where are you GodHe asked in agony,Why do you allow sufferingIn the name of making money?I am only allowingGod says from above,For my children to decideThe priority of their love.Where are you GodI can't see you,I am filled with such rageThere’s no way you are true.God looks down patientlyShowing the afflicted, armed with a smile,See how it would feelTo walk in THEIR shoes for a mile.God continued with understandingIn explaining the feeling of sad,You are enveloped in my loveIt's your decision to feel good or bad.But God, he argued his pointThere is so much evil around,How can you love usIf you don't stomp it in the ground?My child, God respondsEvil is conquered with love,It's your decision whether or not you followThe devil below or the angels above.My love is no mysteryTo

The Greatest Entertainer Of All Times............
A king is born! A child begins to sing! Two parents are proud of him! His voice amazes all ears! His steps reveals dizziness all around! The stage is alive when he steps on! Thriller song gives him more strength and confidence! The success comes day by day! His videos please the sight ! He is the greatest entertainer and performer! A king is dead................................. A king is not really dead, he is just resting in peace!

Music Of My Childhood
When I was little, I didnt have my own room, so I had to lock myself in the kitchen at night and listen to the radio with huge headphones. So some of the music, even tho kinda shitty, stuck with me for good, and it feels really good listenin to it now.

Moon In Libra
Moon in Libra: Moon in Libra people have a strong need for partnership. Without someone to share their lives with, they feel utterly incomplete. This is why many people with this position get involved in marriages or living-together arrangements quite young. Because this drive for harmony, peace, and sharing is so powerful, Lunar Librans are apt to do a lot of conceding. They are sympathetic and concerned for others, enjoy socializing, and revel in a good debate. Mental rapport with others is especially important to them. Lunar Librans feel safe and secure when they are in a partnership. These are the people who seem to always need to have someone tag along with them wherever they go -- even if it is to the corner store. They find strength and reinforcement in and through others. Both men and women with this position are often quite charming. They can be very attractive to be around, and are often given to flirtatiousness. Rarely directly aggressive, these people win your heart with th

For You
In the grace of your love I writhe, writhe in painIn 666 ways I love you and I hope you feel the same I'm for youI'm for you I'm killing myself for your love and again all is lostIn 777 ways I love you 'til my death do us apart I'm for you - and I'm dying for your loveI'm for you - and my heaven is wherever you areI'm for you - and I'm dying for your loveI'm for you - and my heaven is wherever you are In 666 ways I love you and my heaven is whereveryou are I'm here for you - I am here for you

In Love & Lonely
In love and lonely In love and lonely I'm not with you my baby Just to see you cry I'm in love with you Not the tears in your eyes I can't remember The last time you smiled Oh I know how it feels I know what it's like To be In love and lonely In love and lonely Don't what to do my baby It's not alright This can't be the end The time to say good bye No I won't walk away that easy After all this time Oh you know how it feels You know what it's like To be In love and lonely In love and lonely Oh you know how it feels You know what it's like You know how it is But you just can't stop crying In love and lonely In love and lonely In love and lonely In love and lonely

Am Worrie
I just talked with him for a lil bit today....cuz he said he was not ok and was going to hospital...but he is so confused that he said the nurse said to him that he could have a stroke or something........n now i have no idea whats going on with the cowboy :-(...damn it...hope he gets well soon.

Well Just Great
I went online a while ago to find a new doctor because mine had transferred to a new place a while ago, but my card wouldn't work. I emailed the place to see what was up with that and they said I didn't have account there or whatever anymore. So I asked Rich if he knew how to sign on into that shit and he was able to get through and when I looked at his claims, I wasn't a dependant anymore. So aparrently, I hadn't had insurance for a long while....good thing I didn't get hurt or real sick...But I needed to find a doctor so I can get more medication and stuff. I had already talked to my manager on Sat or Sun to help me get signed up for my own benefits, since we're getting divorced, there's no reason for him to be paying for mine anymore...well back then since I don't seem to have it anymore. So we'll get that taken care of soon. I just really wanted to get more pills and a check up. I check the mail and find out I have a collection fee of 50 bucks to a phone company...a phone line th

Emotional Distress
i can't seem to let yesterday goit was a bad day that ended with me finally geting homethose that can't understand why things are donesometimes you just can't let someone go until you truely find out wha their really aboutif you have not been in that situationwhy make a judgementmy yesterday spilled into todayand my distress has gotten worsefeeling the need to be heldcalled someone thats off limits to meall i want to do is sleep for a weekbut i need to be heldno one else to fill that void for meno true friend that i can talk to that will undertand what i am going throughbeides GOD i am alone with these feelingscrying on and off all daynot wanting to be bothered but need to bethe devil is on me to do my bitch thing to whom has hurt mebut the GOD in me tells me to leave it alonei want so much to hurt this personphysically and mentallyi don't know what to do with myselfdesperatey needing to destroydesperately needing to hurtdesperately needing to be held~**Black Kat**~

What You Want Of Me
When did you become someone I sought protection from?When did everything change?The scars you gave me.I earned to eagerly.And in my dreams of perfectionI lost sight of what was real.And in my hopes to realize what was true.I struggled to stay sane.Time goes so fast,and no matter how hard I try I can't let go of the past.Though all the false smiles.I leaned to hold fast to my dreams.But even as I did so you took them away from me.And just because I'm not crying it doesn't mean I'm okay.And even though I say I'm fine I still grab the blade.Because you always to me so, that tears are just a waste.I'll be tough when I'm around you.I'll won't be what you hate.

Ain't Gonna Fix
Long and cold so I been told All this pain will keep me sane Bitching and moaning with all your groaning Ain't gonna fix the problem growing the stress makes sick the apparent dick The idoit that stands before Trying to lore. the heart is still sore from your slamming door I would rather soar looking up in the sky wishing I could be so high away from this place so I wouldn't have to make my case.

Goodbye
Goodbye A time has come for something I dread. The time for goodbye. No more I love you's. No more strong hugs. No more words to encourage me. The time has come as I shed a tear With all the memories floating threw my mind. Good bye just hurts to much how about later or catch ya on the flip side Goodbuy I won't say cause it means forever. We will meet again. Your always in my heart and always on my mind Good buy I won't say what I will say instead is "till we meet again. Father till we meet again.

Heartache
my eyes see the world A big empty place. a lonely soul trying trying to find a place. my eyes close as the day turns to night my dreams, my nightmares. Heartache. No sun to warm my face. only the cold hard truth were alone in a world alone in a space.

This Is Me ( As I Should Be)
Free as the wind that blows through the trees,Active as the buzzing of the energetic bees,Wild as the flowers that grow in the field,But as calm as the deep blue seaMy smile is extra bright,And the love I give is just right, I'm so happy about my life,That my soul just shines,Even when life begins to taste like a sour lime,I'm not your average young lady,Jewels, diamonds, and pearls are things I don't need,To love, respect and honor is my creed,So I'll always keep it real,I am what I am Young,and Be-you-ti-full,I do the best I can,I will never change because I know me just being, is enough,I can only be me and that's all I will ever strive to be

The Fantasy Addresses
There is something to be said for all the Fake locations that are posted by the members here on Fu, yes there are some that are out of the Continental United States that are legitimate. Then again, there are many that one just knows the member has never left the borders of their home town, county or state. People on this Site need to get real and get a life outside of the plastic computing BOX !!! When it comes down to it, as you shut the computer off or log off FuBar ................ Life is very real.

Chapter 16
I awoke the next morning to find myself in better shape and health than I had ever been in before as far back as my mind and soul could recall. I got up outta the bed and moved around the room looking at everything as if in a new light to myself. As I proceeded to my closet to grab a dress for the night and walk the hallways with my Son and Daughter to see how their Father was doing or better yet WHAT he was doing in our family home of Delrita. We walked all along the pathways in the Garden and the Hallways of every floor and yet still no sign of my Husband anywhere at all. With sudden rush of panic and fear flowing all over me the dream of the night before came rushing back and yet I knew it to be only a dream yet my mind screamed out in horror that it wasn't a dream and that I was truely left all alone to raise our kids to learn to fight and survie for the upcoming battle that lay ahead of them as they were to get older and grow in power and skills. I rushed around every corner hopi

Waiting (song)
I wake up in the mornings and I'm all alone, Thinking of you as I sit on my throne, I watch the world pass through these lonely eyes, Only wishing you were, by my side, Visions of you keep me going day by day, Dreaming of the moment you are here with me, But until that moment, I will wait, Standing at the doors to heavens gate. I've been here waiting, Anticipating, Just demonstrating, My love for you. My guilty conscience, It's made of non-sense, This feelings intense, My love for you. Your smile is perfect and you're looking great, Seeing you here I realize this was fate, I run up to you in your loving arms, Holding tightly, keeping you safe from harm, I never want this sudden moment to end, But we're born only fated to pretend, I kiss those lips for the very first time, I rose ontop of the world right in a dime. I've been here waiting, I'm hesitating, Just contemplating, My love for you. I'm feeling perfect,The wait was worth it, And you deserve it,All my love for you.Things can neve

If You Are An Infantryman
(Reprinted without permission from Henderson) If you’re an Infantryman: -Underwear is entirely optional at all times-who wears underwear? -You have pooped in the same bag you ate from. -You put that bag into your Ruck next to your sleeping bag. -You’ve pooped in a hole more than a porta potty -Every time you poop, you tell everyone everything about it. -You go on missions with your fly undone so you can piss while pulling security. -You have no problem running 5 miles drunk. -You have no problem maxing a PT Test drunk. -You have no problems doing a 12-mile road march drunk. -You have no problems but drinking problems, and you don’t think it’s a problem at all. -You would fight for a guy you barely know, as long as he’s an Infantryman. -You’d fight your best friend, even though he’s an Infantryman. -Monday morning formation should be taped and sent in to the Howard Stern Show. -You know someone who has done the following: 1. Pissed themselves

Love Poems
A special world for you and meA special bond one cannot seeIt wraps us up in its cocoonAnd holds us fiercely in its womb.Its fingers spread like fine spun goldGently nestling us to the foldLike silken thread it holds us fastBonds like this are meant to last.And though at times a thread may breakA new one forms in its wakeTo bind us closer and keep us strongIn a special world, where we belong.My love, I have tried with all my beingto grasp a form comparable to thine own,but nothing seems worthy;I know now why Shakespeare could notcompare his love to a summer’s day.It would be a crime to denounce the beautyof such a creature as thee,to simply cast away the precisionGod had placed in forging you.Each facet of your beingwhether it physical or spiritualis an ensnarementfrom which there is no release.But I do not wish release.I wish to stay entrapped forever.With you for all eternity.Our hearts, always as one.

Emotion Untold (poem)
Emotions untold as I watch the sun set without rest.Remembering the times, as a church bell chimes,That we had spent together. All, now gone, like the end of our song.Emotions untold, as I walk the beach, being just out of reach.So many a days I cried, when I saw you were not going to be my bride.Now, I'm standing on grass, in front of your Marker.Looking at the date, I can no longer concentrate.Emotions untold, as I falls to my knees, yelling please.Not wanting to be let you go, its so hard to show.Now I cry, as I remember, your not coming back.AS you lay to rest, I can no longer look at this crest.Emotions untold, as I use all my power, to place a flower.Then taking the gun, Cause there is no more fun.I am a Romeo, as I want to go with my Juliet.I pull the trigger, now, I find you quicker.

Within You, Without You
I watched you walk away.I saw the tears in your eyesThat you refused to let go.Not wanting to leave, yet you had to.We had no chocie this time.I sit here, writing these words.Knowing the world wouldnt care what they sayONly because I am empty inside.Again we repeat the circle.I look at these words.Without you I'm nothingI am within you for you always think Of me and were I am.Without you within youI simply wait.Without You Within YouI run through the time we wereTogether. Now I wish it was all backI wish I was with you again.Without you within you.

Her...
When you first walked into my life, I lost it. When you decided to say hi, I lost it. I lost it when you said that you cared. I lost it when you would dare to give a chance. But now I feel like I'm losing everything that I lost it for.

Bird Of Prey
LIKE A MAJESTIC BIRD YOU OPENED ALL YOUR SPLENDOR FOR ME,YOUR BEAUTY DREW ME NEAR IN AN EXPLOSION OF WANT, THE WORDS FROM YOUR LIPS WERE AN OPERATIC LULLABY,WHICH YOU SANG ONLY FOR ME AND I WAS WRAPPED IN THE MELODY,ENTICED BY YOUR PROMISES OF A FOREVER BOND, LONGING FOR THE SPEED OF TIME TO BRING OUR JOINIING CLOSER,THE IMAGES YOU PROVOKE OF FORBIDDEN CARNAL DESIRES,MAKE MY BODY BURN WITH A PERPETUAL FIRE OF LONGING, THEN I FEEL A DISTANCE BETWEEN US SO SOFT I WONDER IF I IMAGINED IT,THE WORDS ARE FEWER AND LESS HYPNOTIC, I FEEL YOUR URGENCY WAIN,BUT IT COMES AS SOFT AS A FEATHERY WHISPER AND ALMOST UNFELT, YOU HAVE OVERPOWERD AND NOW CONTROL SO YOU NO LONGER WANT,FOR YOUR THRILL IS THAT OF THE HUNTER AND I BUT YOUR PREY, EAGER FOR THE SURGE OF LUST TO FLOW THROUGH MY VEINS AGAIN,I WAIT FOR YOU TO SATISFY THIS NEED WHICH YOU HAVE CREATED,BUT MY HUNGRY DESIRES GROW , ONLY TO BE UNFED, I FEEL THE VACANT EMPTINESS YOU HAVE LEFT BEHIND ,AND IT IS AS VAST AS ETERNITY, ANOTHER H

Do Not Read This!!!!!!!
When I think of the way I thought of the world as a child, It makes me wonder what points in my lfe brought me to where I am today and to whom I have become. I am a fucking maniac. I rarley sleep more than five hours a night, My mind is an unstoppable thinking machine. I think about situations,music, relations amongst friends and foes,work, and a jumble of other mindless thoughts that just suck ass. This was not at all how I thought life would be. Now lets not get me wrong here(the rant begins...now) I like alot of stuff about life but do any of you watch the history channel...? I want to get a bunch of crazy old homeless dudes, get em' all liquered up and let them watch a whole season of the show "MegaDisasters"... Then give them sharpies and card board and watch their drunk asses get turned loose in a crowded mall that would be the shit!!"THE END IS NEAR....WERE ALL GOING TO DIE!!!! seriously though watch that show... we are currently over due for(according to the history channel)

A Dream Worth Dreaming
Somewhere in my dreams I hear your voice Whispering gently....into thin air At the edge of the mountain I close my eyes Sensing your breathing...feeling you appear there On the edge of my dreams I see your face A twin soul......when we share eyes At the edge of the mountain I catch my breath Touching our finger tips...mouth goes dry In the shadows of my dreams I taste your lips So soft against mine like a warm rain At the edge of the mountain my heart slows Sharing our every breath....two hearts don't refrain In the deepest part of my dreams I feel your touch Breathless....from the warmth of your skin At the edge of the mountain I open my eyes Seeing only clouds....feeling.... within On the edge of my dreams is where I want to stay It's there...I'm forever in your arms...safe...sound At the edge of the mountain I'll remain breathless For me.....no greater love will ever be found Will you always be there on the edge of my dreams? Will you always meet me to the edge of the mountain? I wi

A Checklist When Looking For A Husband!
Will He Make a Good Husband? Something serious to think about before you marry * Does he go out of his way for you? Or are you always doing things for him? Does he try to make you happy? Does he want to prove he is good enough for you--or are you always jumping through hoops to win his love? Will he go places that you enjoy? Or are you always doing things he likes? If he doesn't aim to please you now, it will only get worse once you are married. * Is he hard working? Did he work hard in school? Does he work hard on his job? Or is he always complaining about his boss, his teachers, and never really working hard at anything? If he doesn't work hard now, it is unlikely he'll work hard to earn the money needed to live a secure, debt-free life. * Does he take responsibility for the quality and condition of his life--or does he see himself as a victim--always blaming others for his problems? If he blames others now, eventually he'll blame you for all his problems too.

Doubt
How do you let someone in?Into those deep dark parts of your soulWhere no one else has ever gone beforeBecause you were too afraid to let themTo afraid they would see the real meAnd run screaming after seeing all thepain the hurt and the angerIs there someone who will lookAnd never runBut stay and pick up the piecesOf what has been undoneWho will put me back togetherOr will they stare at me in pityFor the things that run through my mindThinking I've gone crazyThen turn and leave me behindYou hear about the ONE who is supposed to comeand make everything rightbut how can I let him, When I wont let my pain out into the light?I pray for the day that he will comeUnlock the doors and stand while everything comes undoneWho will weather the storms with meWhile my life falls apartand always be thereTo sew up my broken heart

Self Discovery
Am I just another pretty face?Or Is there more to me than thatdo people see past the physicalto see the deeper me?Do they even try?Do they see me as that cute girlThe lonely oneThe funny oneDo they even remember me at all?Do I make my mark in this world As someone of worthor am I just another nobodyplaced haphazerdly on this earth

My Uncle Lincolns Real Page
It seems that a nasty fat chick named blaine has hacked my uncles page if your in question on which of his page is real it is the one i am linking here please block and or delete the other one http://fubar.com/user.php?u=1230422&friend=1230422

The Vowes My Wife Wrote For Me
I love you.You are my best friend.Today I give myself to you in marriage.I promise to encourage and inspire you,to laugh with you, and to comfort youin times of sorrow and struggle.I promise to love you in good times and in bad,when life seems easy and when it seems hard,when our love is simple, and when it is an effort.I promise to cherish you,and to always hold you in highest regard.These things I give to you today,and all the days of our life.

Don Quixote Best Story Ever.
One of my fav stories I've ever read in school and since then. The ending is very fitting to how I feel as of late really. I'll Summerize. The cruel practical jokes eventually lead Don Quixote to a great melancholy. The novel ends with Don Quixote regaining his full sanity, and renouncing all chivalry. But, the melancholy remains, and grows worse. Sancho tries to restore his quixotic faith, but his attempt to resurrect Alonso's quixotic alter-ego fails, and Alonso Quixano dies: sane and broken.

My Dream
For all the times I loved you, never enough was said. For all the times I held you, you went to someone elses bed. For all the times I wanted you, you left me all alone. For all the times I took you back, our house was never a home. When I let you go, gone for a while you'd stay. Then out of the blue, like something new, again you would come, I'd pray. For once I could hold you and call you mine again. Forgiving your every flaw and loving you on a whim. But the last time was the last time, enough was enough to me. In someone elses arms you ran, you wanted to be set free. I let you go hoping you would come back and away you stayed forever. Never to return to me again, my life was gone forever...

Always Remember
READ THIS WHOLE THING!! IT'S SO DANG TRUE; 1. At least 2 people in this world love you so much they would die for you. 2. At least 15 people in this world love you in some way. 3. The only reason anyone would ever hate you is because they want to be just like you. 4. A smile from you can bring happiness to anyone, even if they don't like you. 5. Every night, SOMEONE thinks about you before they go to sleep. 6. You mean the world to someone. 7. If not for you, someone may not be living. 8. You are special and unique. 9. Someone that you don't even know exists loves you. 10. When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good comes from it. 11. When you think the world has turned its back on you, take a look: you most likely turned your back on the world. 12. When you think you have no chance of getting what you want, you probably won't get it, but if you believe in yourself, probably, sooner or later, you will get it. 13. Always remember the compliments you received. Forget about the

You Guys R Killin Me ~ Lol ~
· you have 30+ unread messages! · you have 53 new friend requests! Gimme Time 2 Get Back Wit Ya'll I Have Not Had The Change 2 Do So Because I've Been In An Out Of The Hospital Lately Getting My (REG) Check Up's Ya know?

Monday Night Thoughts Goin Through My Mind
Finding your soul-mate is rare in life...but what do you do when you know with all your heart you have found that one and then things complicate the situation? I've really never in my life felt a love like this before and for myself to be willing to give up everything in my life to be with that one person is scary enough for me but to know that he has someone new in his life is hard to deal with as well...I truly love this man more than words can say...I totally respect the fact he is involved...but how do I pick up the pieces to my heart and go on with merely being close friends?...I dont wanna keep making things hard on him with his current relationship but I cant just walk away completely...i wanna know that thier is still hope...maybe this is just another "what could have been" situation and I lost....

Med's An What Not A Little Lolo Ya Think?
Ya know like I stated in my profile if anyone had (READ) the damn thing I ain't into playing games wit peoples if you are gonna be a friend then do so, don't fuck wit my heart an say your my true friend justta get into my goodies cause ya know that will not work... I will kick your ass to the crube like a piece of meat cause I have had a wake up call here a few days ago when I over dosed myself on precocet seeing the damn doctors just second guessed at my weight, which was at that point an time 137lbs yeah an the last time I was in there it had been 140lbs. Just keep going down an down like a RAG DOLL, anyways they gave me 5mg/325mg's which was to much 4 me to handle I blacked the fuck out not knowing what I was doing nor saying, my ph blanace was off in my brain uh huh an I went down town my husband was watching over me very carefully while video taping it all yeah once I was in my right mind I dumpped out everything I had/meds an shit an I am happy to say I'm feeling 100% better now.

All I See
All I See I don’t have the strength To take my eyes off her If only she could see what I see Instead of just another girl To her there’s always something out of place To me she’s an Angel With that namesakes grace To her beautiful is a nickname Just something I say But she doesn't see me shiver when she's not looking my way She doesn't realize, what she does to me Doesn't even have a clue, that All I see is beautiful. CHORUS When her hairs all a-mess That's when she looks the best. A pair of Armanis or just some old sweats she walks by, when she's bumming or tryin to play it cool All I see is beautiful She compares herself To every girl she sees She doesn’t know she’s taken the place of the woman of my dreams The one I imagined Can’t hold a candle to her Before she came along I didn’t know for sure CHORUS When her hairs all a-mess That's when she looks the best. A pair of Armanis or just some old sweats she walks by, when she's bumming or

Yes
Yes, Rep. Andrews that letter to the Feds removed the guilt off of you and Mr. Yurick completely. Debbie, I never said or made any comments that Mr. Yurick lied or is a liar. Intresting to note the IRS "your name just popped up" and suddenly they're shy of how much to me? It was the NJ Mental Health Advocate office employee that named you Senator Andrews. As I looked at that time of these property price inflation and no one buying that talk of this Bail Out was headed past two trillion. Third, fourth, fifth, sixth, seventh, and eigth. Norio

Poetry
Love is like magic and it always will be, For love still remains life's sweet mystery. Love works in ways that are wondrous and strange And there's nothing in life that love cannot change! Love can transform the most commonplace Into beauty and splendor and sweetness and grace. Love is unselfish, understanding and kind, For it sees with its heart and not with its mind. Love is the answer that everyone seeks... Love is the language that every heart speaks. Love can't be bought, it is priceless and free, Love, like pure magic, is life's sweet mystery!

33
33 lbs gone total now...My goal is to go another 20 more lbs gone. After I move out in a couple weeks...Ill be hiting the gym to do more cardio again. Why is it that when I start to lose weight, people say I look so much better and I get noticed more?

Tired
No sleep last night......very tired. Rather stay in bed than be at work....But need the moolah and better to be at work than with him at home..just a couple more weeks until Im on my own....hopefully less...sigh,,,coffee,,a cookie and banana..for breakfast..yum....

Kinda Of Ironic After Hearing This Song It Made Me Realize It
[V1]Let's get the story straightYou were a poisonYou flooded through my veinsYou left me brokenYou tried to make me thinkThat the blame was all on meWith the pain you put me throughAnd now I know that it's not me it's you[Chorus]It's not me it's youAlways has been youAll the lies and stupid things you say and doIt's youIt's not me it's youAll the lies and pain you put me throughI know that it's not me it's youYouYouIt's not me it's you, you[V2]So here we go againThe same fight we're always inI don't care so why pretendWake me when your lecture endsYou tried to make me smallMake me fall and it's all your faultWith the pain you put me throughAnd now I know that it's not me it's you[Bridge]Let's get the story straightYou were a poisonFlooding through my veinsDriving me insaneAnd now you're gone awayI'm no longer chokingFrom the pain you put me throughAnd now I know that it's not me it's you

The Horth Withperer
A guy calls his buddy, the horse rancher, and says he's sending a friend over to look at a horse. His buddy asks, 'How will I recognize him?' 'That's easy; he's a dwarf with a speech impediment.' So, the dwarf shows up, and the guy asks him if he's looking for a male or female horse. 'A female horth.' So he shows him a prized filly. 'Nith lookin horth. Can I thee her eyeth?' So the guy picks up the dwarf and he gives the horse's eyes the once over. 'Nith eyeth, can I thee her earzth?' So he picks the little fella up again, and shows him the horse's ears. 'Nith earzth, can I thee her mouf?' The rancher is getting pretty ticked off by this point, but he picks him up again and shows him the horse's mouth. 'Nice mouf, can I see her twat?' Totally mad at this point, the rancher grabs him under his arms and rams the dwarf's head up the horse's fanny, pulls him out and slams him on the ground. The midget gets up, sputtering and

Relationships/accceptance
Broken smilesBroken livesComing together in search of answersEach one looking for somethingto make them feel rightEach one scared of the monsters insideReaching out to eachother hoping to findsome kind of saving graceA life lineWe all are continually searching, seekingTrying to find a place in the worldWhere we belong And are truely accepted, for who we are.

?wonder?
?Wonder? Starting at its tip I want and need to rub, massaging with a force after a visit to the tub. Working every inch each dimension part by part, with a deep need and more the feeling starts in the heart. This is not what may be thought I was putting lotion on my feet Ha! Ha! Gotcha! ! !

Even The Best Intentions Are Sometimes Not Enough...
**After a while you learn the subtle difference between holding a hand and chaining a soul, you learn that love doesn't mean leaning, and company doesn't mean security. You begin to learn that kisses aren't contracts, and presents aren't promises and you begin to accept your defeats with the grace of an adult and not the grief of a child. You learn to build all your roads on today because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain for your plans... and you really know you love someone when all you want is for them to be happy, even if that means that you are not a part of it.** ~ I have no idea who wrote this, but I couldn't agree more!

Top Friends/family.
Wow, just found out that over half the peoples I did have on my top friends/family wasn't so kind to add me in the tops so they have been moved off or back from the list... HA HA like I said NO more HEAD GAMES....

Long Yadda Yadda
I turned in rent the other day. Last month of paying rent for this place. I should be moving into the other place soon. The lady will be moved out by Saturday, then a simple clean to the place because I guess she keeps it pretty well clean then I can move in. Then step one will be complete after I get all moved in. I'll be at work the next four days. Sometime on my next days off, I will be going to the court house to get the divorce papers. I was thinking about doing it this week but my mind was all down in the gutter. But next week for sure. Mr...Oh I just have to print out the divorce papers and then yeah...yeah right..it's been weeks..months...is it that hard to print it? Too fuckin' busy being with your damn chick who is barely legal. Today I packed up more of the kitchen. It's almost empty. Once again, he didn't clean up his shit like he said he would and everything was rottening in the sink. So, me being annoyed with it, I cleaned it all up....cleaned up the kitcen real well to

Start Here!
Ok, so...I've decided to post some movie reviews in a blog. If you care to read my thoughts on a movie then this is the place to be. I'm open to suggestions and will try to watch as soon as possible. Post your suggestions on this one. Thank you.

Work In Progress...eep
PROLOGUE The latch to the window popped open and a dark figure let himself slip inside. His silhouette was framed by the moonlit sky seen through the widow. Slowly he shuffled across the bedrooms floor, avoiding the toys scattered. His movements so quiet, not stirring the child in the car-bed at all. For a moment, perhaps more the figure loomed over the child scrutinizing with his steady eyes... Into the hallway the dark figure went, finding a larger bedroom. The large room was just that. It felt barren compared to the other rooms the dark figure had visited on his travels. There was a lot of vast open space, a bed pressed against the wall in the center of the room. To the right of it was a nightstand with a small desk lamp. All these features just silhouettes but the dark figure knew. After-all, this wasn't his first break-in. If he was to let himself be known that he had visited, it would be deliberate, not some slip up. The dark figure would make no mistakes, rest easy, he ma

Liar
I lie to myself so I dont go insane wear my fake smile of hidden disdain nights full of tears wet my pillow of fears lie so I dont go insane. I pretend to be happy and let others know I feel little remorse for when I have to go. Death is the way out the only way I see well thats how I see it thats the way for me. Kicking and screaming want it all to end still I wear my smile and still I pretend. Surrounded by peers all through out the day not one word escapes me I have nothing nice to say. I really dont like many people they all just dont care most of them dont even realize people like me are there. Surrounded by people all through out the day dont care what they think or what they have to say. My mind wanders around the thought of my demise how to end it all maybe work out a comprimise of my wanted fall. My mind wanders around the thought of how I want to die. I now sit here writting to you all wondering if I'm good enough planning for my fall. You probably think I'm crazy but

Love In The Ice Lyrics, Japanese Version, By Dbsk
[Jaejoong]Tsumetai sono te kimi no seijanaiOsanaki hibi hotta kizukakae[Changmin]Dareka wo aisuru koto osoreteru noKotoba no uragawa se wo mukete[Yoochun]Dakishimeta kokoro ga koori no you niSotto tokedasu[Jaejoong]Daremo ga dare ka ni aisareru tameniKono you ni inochi wo kiramekaseru no sa[Junsu]Sore ga moshimo boku naraMou ichido kimi no kokoro woTowa no yasashisa de atatameruyo[Yoochun]Unmei no itazura[Jaejoong]Kokoro wo itametemo[Yoochun + Jaejoong]Sono namida no saki ni wa[Yunho]Hitosuji no hikari ga[Changmin]Yami no naka maiorite[Yunho + Changmin]Bokura wa kizukusa[Jaejoong]Kurushii hodo ni tsuyoku kanji ya eruHito no nukumoriDaremo ga motteru kanashimi ya kodokuIyashite moraeru basho sagashiteiruSou kimi ni wa sono basho ga koko ni arusaOsorenaide mou mayowanaideBoku ga mamoru[Junsu]Setsunai hodo ([Jaejoong] My heart)Utsukushii ai dakara ([Yunho] Don't be afraid)Hakanai hodo ([Changmin] Let you know my mind)Uruwa shii ([Yoochun] You know)Kono toki wo ([Yoochun] Let you Know my l

Interesting Thoughts "single Life"
Part rant sorry I have noticed somthing very interesting in the last few months...when, or at what time did people become so "Self Centered" Around them selves they they cant even look up to say HI! Cell Phones and Internet have become so consumed in our lives that we hardly ever have real life conversations with anyone. Now dont get me wrong I love Interent and Cells, but when your a single guy "looking" trying to use the internet to find someone becomes a bit of a pain. And heres why. Almost everyone "girls" always say "i dont care about looks, and want a man thats looking for a serious relationship" Well I cant tell you how meny times Ive cought this to be some certified BULL SHIT. Now granted my beleif has always been "Beauty is in the Eye of the Beholder" and I hold true to that. But lets be serious for a second and Im gonna throw somthing out there. Have you ever seen a Super Model Chick with a FAT ASS Tub of lard guy or a Hot 6 pack abbs guy with a Obease Chick? NO!!! and if

Strange Dream
The waves are coming in Curling around my ankles I'm sinking in deep Faster than I expected See you there on the horizon As the sun bids farewell Soft orange surrounds you As the light diminishes You're a silhouette Far out of reach Out in the sea

Update On Health
We got a update today. the rest of my heart looks good. The pulmonary artery we are going to watch it and if and when it gets worse then what it is we will make the decision on surgery or not. But things are ok the leak is not so bad where, I need something done right now. Other then that. I was told no more stress. So we will see how things go in the nexted few months But i will have check up for the nexted 2 to 4 months keeping a eye on this issue. Ty for being there all. Muahs Camo

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I had taken the day off today to get the divorce papers but I was feeling real depressed to where I just layed in bed for over a day. Not even coffee in my system. I just laid there. I wrote in my diary a few times to vent out some feelings that I wouldn't say online for people to read. I weighed myself at some point today and I had lost 4 lbs in just a couple days. I remember talking witha co worker a couple days ago, she said I look like I lost weight, I told her my weight and she said I still need to lose more. I'm not taking that as a insult. She's also trying to lose weight and I'm still not a healthy weight at being 5 foot. I know that I am not considered obese anymore though...which is good I guess..although when I see myself in the mirror...I see see the fat image in mymind. I still consider myself fat and ugly...but I'm working on it. Rich finally gave me rent money but he is short. 4 days late on rent and I had to pay for most of it. He told me he got overdrated on Friday w

Suicide
Tears running downAlways to weep and frownCrying to sleep each nightNot strong enough to be a knightWishing for the pain to disappearAnd never again to reappearIf only when I took the sip of deathWould of took away my last breathBut something held me backTo get back onto my trackI tried and triedTo die of suicideBut they want me to stayTo live for another dayI can't take much more of this painI don't have any more strength to gainFarewell my good friendIt's time for my life to endI know that this is wrongIt's just that my faith isn't strongYou have always been grateful, you seeThat's why you'll always be a part in meFarewell my loving familyAs my spirit slowly drifts me awayI know that I should talk this outBut I feel that there's nothing to talk aboutDear mom and dad I love you soThat's what I want you to always knowYou'll always be in my heartNow it's time for me to departAs darkness now spreads aroundI can no longer feel my feet on the groundFeeling as light as a featherBeing in tha

Ok I Need New Nickname
I need alittle help. I've posted a Picture with a ? and a folder say needs alittle help with nickname . I'm really starting to hate the name Camo. So Help me out here is the link... http://fubar.com/photo.php?u=3517951&albumid=1905252&i=3728870160

The Story Of A Girl
...A dumb blonde girl... Hi, my name is: Emily but you can call me: Emily or Emma The one person who can drive me nuts is: Stupid People When I'm nervous: I pace around and talk talk talk! lol The last song I listened to was: Chickenfoot-Sexy lil Thang If I were to get married right now it would be to: A special special special someone My hair is: Getting boring When I was 4: I lived in Alabama with my Parents Last Christmas: I got a new SUV (Jeep Liberty) I should be: Out in the country or on the beach somewhere! When I look down I see: my tummy lol The happiest recent event was: Knocking on mommas door for the first time in months! By this time next year: I am hoping will be better My current gripe is: Being such a loser! lol I have a hard time understanding: Women...Thats no surpraise huh? If I won an award, the first person I would tell would be: Momma! I plan to visit: Europe.. someday... If you spent the night at my house: You'd never want to leave! The

Fu Peeps Are So Gullible Lol
I make a thread up called & asking "Should Interracial Be Illegal?"...My shout box Haas not stopped going off yet lol. No that i know what will get my profile poppin ill have to do it more often lol. after all I'm very good at being controversial.

Meeting Fubar Friends
Just have to get it off my chest, This weekend a fubar friend came to my town. We were very excited to meet. Needless to say it was a disaster. He expected to find love at first meeting, and the slightest things set him off. When i tried to find out what he wanted to do on his visit here, he said i was "trying to hard" to please him. More than 75% of his time here he was asleep. Im not sure what was happening, but on the second day i tried to just say, hey....were obviously not compatible lets just have fun, but he was too tired, and didnt even want to get out of bed to go for a walk on the beach. I have never been treated so badly. And when all was said and done, and off he went, i worried about his trip home, and wanted to make sure he got home alright. I got a text that said, thanks for the wonderful trip sweety. ttyl. muah. LMAO. Wow. WHat a very sad sad ending to what was once a great fubar friendship. Maybe some things are better left a mystery.

What I Look For In A Man...
AFTER ALOT OF THINKING I AM GOING TO TELL YOU WHAT I LOOK FOR IN A MAN....LMAOLooking for a man who lies, cheats and steals...a lot! I'd like to meet someone who is dishonest, lazy, mean, uneducated, unethical and rude. A previous arrest record is not necessary, but would be nice. You should know how to act like a king, preferably a drama king. And not be afraid to talk openly about your feelings, even in a crowded movie theater. You should also be a good communicator, understanding that yelling, screaming and swearing are effective in most conversations. I'd like someone who is open-minded enough to believe that unicorns and leprechauns are real, but also believes that things like hard work, deodorant and exercise are just myths. I like a man who enjoys spending time at the beach, or on long hikes in the woods, as a way to hide from police until "things settle down". You should enjoy a nice evening out shoplifting, or just staying home to cuddle with a nice porn video. And since I'm b

The Unforgiven/dance Of Judgement
Known as the Lady of the Evening, She sits quietly, waiting for her next casualty. Who will it be? A young frivolous boy, or maybe a strong, distinguished wealthy man? She keeps watching. A hand grabs her own and whisks her away. A man. A handsome Prince Charming. In the dark they dance, fiercely impassioned. Suddenly he vanishes. A spotlight now on her. Her judges have arrived. ''DANCE!'' they order her, ''DANCE FOR YOUR SINS!'' Slowly she raises her eyes and begins to dance alone. Hands in the air, head back, she spins, dancing for her life. Twisting, turning, for what seems an eternity. She starts to ache, but she dances still. She dances until she can dance no more. Yet her judges, they have forsaken her, and they too quietly disappear. She is left to herself and the darkness. Looking around at the endless isolation, she brings herself to dance again, silently screaming for salvation from her body. The thing that brought her to her own tormenting hell.

Food For Thought
"Peach." Donna waited for a response. She felt fairly certain that she was correct but under the circumstances she just couldn't be sure. The delay, a few seconds that felt like minutes, increased her apprehension. Was she right? What was going to happen? She felt his tongue gently licking at her nipple. A sense of relief came over her as a warm glow spread throughout her body. Her guess was right. She smiled. Everything else faded out as she experienced the joy of having her sensitive nipples pleasured. All that existed was the feeling of his wet mouth and saliva soaked fingers sucking and pinching at her taut nipples. She moaned. She wanted to speak, to tell him how good it felt but she couldn't. Ten words. That was all she was allowed to say during this session. Obedience was paramount. Donna gritted her teeth to keep the words from escaping as the sound of her moans and labored breathing filled the room. The buzz in her brain continued even after he pulled away.

All Moved
Moving went pretty smooth. Not even a drop of rain. It rained the day before and after I moved, which was nice. I had a few people helping me. Kari unpacked for me. Myke was there for a few hours until he had to go back to work. Turtle was there for a couple hours but wanted to go home early. Randy came and helped which was nice. My dad even helped and brought his good son over to help bring in a couch and help mount my tv onto the wall. I had bought a 32 inch flat screen tv. Yay..so I have a nice tv in the living room...a old tv in my bed room that was given to me. I have the net and cable set up today. It's been way too quiet without anything and I been real bored. I am waiting for the ex to move his stuff out. I asked him when he planned on getting his crap out..he said he wasn't sure...either monday or tuesday. I told him, to get his stuff out by Tuesday night or I will be tossing it. He has all this time to be packing and moving shit over. I need time to clean up the place before

Tewdope ™ Gilf Said To Do This , You Ff
Instructions...... Once you have been tagged, you have to write a blog with 10 weird or random things, facts, or habits about yourself. At the end, you choose at least a people to be tagged, listing their names . Don't forget to leave a comment that says, "You're it!" on their profile and ask them to read your blog. You can't tag the person who tagged you. 1. im obsessed with working out 2. if i do something bad , i do feel guilty 3. im the shit at online games FF 4. i will fuck cindy 1 day !!!! 5. im a lesbian trapped in a mans body 6. im good at EVERYTHING 7. when i say i love someone i really mean it 8. i like to do all xmas shopping b4 november 9. i have OCD about certain things 10. i shave my balls lol repost with your answers if you get this !!!!

The End Of Russian?
Well, she's done it now.... attacking YOTD personally and Scrapper, now she gets her account deleted before she even reaches level 3 for nothing at her but for being her.(deleted 4 times in just the last week) i knew her well!

The Screams Of Fallen Angels
in my head awakes the dead walls spayed red from massive unloading of this led bleeding down the skull life became so dull kiss he face of hatred now taste your lips listen and hear the screams of fallen angels bash your head into the wall close your eyesand fall lay on the ground look to the sky pluck the sun and soon it dies made the choice to end this hell from the heavens god has fell i looked and smiled as he decended to hell kiss the face of the hatered now taste your lips listen and hear the screams of fallen angels armies rip heaven from the skies pluck the sun and soon it dies........

Hell
GothsCircle I LimboRednecksCircle II Whirling in a Dark & Stormy WindGreensCircle III Mud, Rain, Cold, Hail & SnowMilitant VegansCircle IV Rolling WeightsHipstersCircle V Stuck in Mud, MangledRiver StyxThe New York Yankees, Oakland Raider Fans, ScientologistsCircle VI Buried for EternityRiver PhlegyasOsama bin Laden, RepublicansCircle VII Burning SandsNAMBLA Members, Jerry FalwellCircle IIX Immersed in ExcrementThe Pope, George BushCircle IX Frozen in IceDesign your own hell

I Had A Dream Where I Was Still Awake
I had a dream where I was still awake, I was walking through a field of rotting animals, When I found myself on the deck of a house I'd never known, Through the window I peered and saw myself at a table, The me inside this window was eating a bowl of ashes, Spoonful after spoonful he lifted to his lips, Then stopped and noticed a hair on his shirt, Long, it belonged to one beloved by us both, As he stared at this hair it began to change, It became a snake with eyes of death and deceit, And with a tongue of pure silver she peddled her goods, She was selling stories that I couldn't help but buy, I had no choice but to listen and obey, This me in the window he picked up a knife, This me in the window he put it in his chest, This me he cut out his heart and stared, And then as I shuddered the boards beneath me collapsed, I fell into a river that flowed up instead of down, It washed me to an isolated island completely alone, Where a hangnail moon hung a handbreadth away, In my loneli

A Rant. (sunday 29th November 2009)
OK it's Sunday now, so I'm posting this one. And it's a rant about women. I'm sure I'm not the only bloke who thinks they're just useless and annoying. I personally think women need to learn that men are far superior to them in every way, and they need to get back in their cages and be quiet. My reasons for thinking women are useless and pathetic. What has a woman ever invented that is useful? Oh that's right, Nothing. Us men do the inventing, the curing of diseases, the building of homes and shops ect, all women do is spend our money and moan about us. Single mothers - They're very good at having kids but aren't very good at actually raising them. ALL kids need a man in their life to grow up into respectable people. Women cannot bring kids upto be respectable. It's bad news for the kid if it's got a single mother, because women are stupid. And thus, the kid will also grow up to be an idiot. Only a man can actually make the child a level-headed, successful person who'll

Chapter Three: Abandoned
Faust slowly flew back to his nest, but it was only out of instinct that he found his way home. One thing dominated his thoughts, and that thing was Shelata. How come I have never seen her around here before? She must be hiding something, her past. It was obviously a lie that she had been driven away by Dwarves. Those little hairballs take centuries to do anything, let alone plan to get rid of a dragon problem. No, she was lying about that. Only another dragon could lie to a dragon. He was drifting too low, and too late realized that the branches in front of him were not passing birds. He clipped one branch with his wing, and it folded up underneath him so that he lost his momentum and plunged into the forest. He fell right into one of his very own traps, and the poison from the darts slowly spread through his bloodstream. He didn't even notice his eyesight get black around the edges, or the fact that he was becoming paralyzed. No, he was lovesick, and he saw no more, still thinking a

Bay Watch Star Hasselhoff Released From Hospital
Let’s see if I have this right. Bay Watch star David Hasselhoff was released from the psychiatric ward of Cedars of Sinai Medical Center after his daughter called 911 because her dad had a seizure. I thought psychiatric wards were for nut cases not strokes. Oh well he’s out now with or without a full brain. If you’re confused you can get the story here: http://wonderwall.msn.com/tv/hasselhoff-hospitalized-1527829.story?gt1=28135 You can always get the real thing at BlastFM. No need to worry about getting a seizure or needing a psychiatrist cause BlastFM will get your mind straight. www.live365.com/stations/blastcasterfm .

I Like Being Unperfect
I like beingUNPERFECT.... May the angels protect youTrouble neglect youAnd heaven accept you when it's time to go homeMay you always have plentyThe glass never emptyKnow in your bellyYou're never alone May your tears come from laughingYou find friends worth havingWith every year passingThey mean more than goldMay you win and stay humbleSmile more than grumbleAnd know when you stumbleYou're never alone

Lonliness Spreads Like A Virus
Loneliness Spreads Like a Virus Loneliness, like a bad cold, can spread among groups of people, new research finds. While a runny nose might spread through handshakes, people likely catch the loneliness bug through negative interactions. A lonely person will be less trusting of others, essentially "making a mountain out of a molehill," said study researcher John Cacioppo, a psychologist at the University of Chicago. An odd look or phrasing by a friend that wouldn't even be noticed by a chipper person could be seen as an affront to the lonely, triggering a cycle of negative interactions that cause people to lose friends. The upshot: A lonely person is likely to lose touch with another person, who in turn gets cut off from others, and both end up on the fringes of a social group. "A lonely person who anticipates others are going to act negatively toward them finds evidence in their environment for that, partly because they anticipate it and partly because they elicit it," Caciopp

Last Poem From Jail
no title I sit here in this prison cell slowly drift into hell The walls of stone and gates of steel how I wish I was not here These white washed walls and pale grey floors make me miss the great outdoors These guards in black with silver cuffs the always try to act real tough Little do they really know that we're the same down below To much time to sit and think of all my life both bad and great Had I not come here at all I don't know where my life would have gone Has anything really changed at all? Probably not, still to hell I go I do not care cause it's where I dwell with my demons and devils I love my hell So maybe I'll be here again I just don't know how, why or when

At Least Ashley Didn't Kiss And Tell
I always liked Ashley Dupre because of her beauty and sexuality. But now I love how she utters the truth about women who have sex with celebs then sell their stories to the tabloids. Ashley has chided the mistresses of Tiger Wood for talking money and gifts from him then throw him under the bus for more doe. Then she asks, “And I was the hooker? At least I kept my mouth shut.” You tell em baby. Besides Ashley you’re way better looking then any of the babes Tiger chose. http://www.foxnews.com/entertainment/2009/12/04/ashley-dupre-tigers-alleged-mistresses-hooker/?test=faces We don’t hook at BlastFM. We play the best music on the planet just for you. Besides we want you to listen and tell others about us. www.live365.com/stations/blastcasterfm .

No Death Just Dying
I dreamt you died I was left standing, On every lie; My mind surrounded me With tangible pain; I dreamt… I wept, Wept ‘til I held no more Then the rain lent me its tears And for all the tears, I drowned No one else, just I When I awoke There was no death, Yours; nor mine But the tears lingered on my face And the pain lingered in my heart While you live and breathe I am dying under the weight of you and me

Betting Blood
I am somewhere between death and rebirthI am the one who took my last breathRefusing inhalationKnowing that I would encounter heavenOr you would stop me from ceasingBut you let me dwindleAnd I found no heavenWhen there was no body to house meAnd no world to surround meThere was nothing to distract meFrom the denials I have been embracingWhat a fool was IBetting blood on fairytale endingsI will renounce the brothers grimForget the words “happily ever after”Just breathe life back into meGrant me rebirthAnd for it I will never leapNot for the idealistic or the quixoticForever carrying my mistakeIn the breaths that I take

Not Another One Tiger!
Talk about the flood gates opening up. News stories allege another babe was doing Tiger. Tiger my man you were busy bee or shall we say a prodigious sex machine. Can we just call you a man whore? Bro you got all us guy who have almost give every dime we have to score and you just say the word and you’re doing the nasty. At least this babe is sexy and soooo good looking. Heck man, with your stature you could score Cleopatra after Ceasar and Marc Antony. So I like your choice in number 4. Number 5 better be equal to or better then number 4 Dude. You think Mrs. Woods will want to rewrite the Pre-Nep again? I wouldn’t be surprised. My Grandmother told me so I’ll tell you, keep your zipper zipped up and your pants on. Then you won’t get into trouble. Good advice Tiger. Be one of the beautiful people and tune in BlastFM. Then people will no you have discriminating taste. www.live65.com/stations/blastcasterfm .

By Design
Right now, I am contentLike the buzzard picks his victim cleanAs divinity finds a way to remain unseenRight now, I am the warmthLike the weeping child in mothers armsAs the once encaged robin flies far away from harmRight now, I am the systemLike the gears that methodically arrange the rhymeAs clocks will tick but wont keep timeMy sweet poison anodyneMy loneliness is mineTwo steps to you and, three behindI'm self destructive by designRight now I am at peaceLike an ignorance that walls upon a warlike mindAs a suicidal atrocity finds a reason why,Not to die,Alive...coupled with the choir I symphonize the infinate sigh.

Just Ask Ashley
Isn’t this a great country! Where else can this happens, no where but here in the Good Ol’ US of A. if you have a problem with your love life and you need some pointers just ask Ashley. Ashley who you ask? It’s Ashley Dupre. Remember her? She’s the babe that New York Gov. Eliot Spitzer was shelling out big bucks to for some hot love advice and I guess some action. Now Ashley will give you advice via the New York Post. The Post has been losing readers by the droves so they think Ashley can help revitalize the newspaper. She’s a hot babe that’s for sure. And I know she can revitalize most guys but can she do the same for the New York Post? That we will have to wait and find out. I’ll have to write her about my love concerns like what do I do about them? For more go here: http://www.foxnews.com/story/0,2933,580133,00.html Need advice about what radio station is worth listening to? It’s official BlastFM is considered the best in i

All Your Sex Questions Answered
The questions we all wanted answered about the sex experience are here for you to see. Some sexperts have published their finding for all to feel I mean read. For example, At what point in their lives can people experience orgasm? In other words, at what age can you can have an orgasm? Here’s a one I like, Can reaching orgasm trigger a heart attack? If Nelson Rockefeller were alive today we could ask him. As you might know the vice president died in his young girl friends Upper Manhattan apartment. Here’s the mother of all sex questions, Are the sensations experienced from orgasm the same for males and females? Who cares? I like my orgasms when I’m lucky enough to find a babe willing to let get off on her. When she has hers, she’ll let you know if it’s as good as yours dude. Want more sex, and who doesn’t, follow this arousing link: http://www.foxnews.com/story/0,2933,580199,00.html?test=faces Get all the orgasmic music feeling you want right h

Where Shity Laws Come From
I was in a lounge the other day and we were talking about diffrent things and were people get all these shity laws we have hmmmm i have thought on this all day sece every time ive turned around to day bam a cop was in my face so after googaling and web searching i have found out finely why we have all these shity laws hope you like and apreashiate the results of my searching and shareing of this information if not oh well shit happens lol....

Facts
Name? - MajestaAge? - 25Hair Color? - Strawberry blondeEye Color? -Dark brownHeritage? - HumanReligion? - ChristianZodiac Sign? - CapricornDrink? - No, not reallySmoke? - YesDone Drugs? - Smoked weedVirgin? - NopeBest Friend? - Yes. I have fourFave Color? - Pink, black and redFave Band/Artist? - Michael Jackson, NIN, Korn, Breaking Benjamin, Nickelback and several othersFave Drink? - Mt. Dew, Pepsi, Dr. Pepper and milkFave Alcoholic Drink? - Sex On the BeachFave Cigarettes/Cigars? - CamelsFave Candy? - SkittlesWeakness? -I am too niceStrength? - Loyal, honest, trustworthy and faithfulIn Love? - Oh hell yeah, very much soWith Who? - Mitch How Long? - Almost 8 monthsCurrent Location? - Utah

Love Hurts.....
I never expected to be here again... in LOVE!! Said I would never be the jealous type... but the on-off switch is broken. Yes, as much as it feels good being in Love, It also has it's down-side. Thanx "Nazareth" for giving us all that reality check... LOVE HURTS

New Social Network Virus
Net Users Warned Of Social Networking Virus Today, 12:15 am © Sky News 2009 Buzz Up! Print Story Internet users are being warned to watch out for a new computer virus targeting popular social networking sites in the run up to Christmas. Skip related content Related photos / videos Enlarge photo Sky News has been told that

New Gaget Help Market
Virgin Group enters gadget help market 1 hour 5 mins ago Georgina Prodhan Buzz Up! Print Story Richard Branson's Virgin Group has launched a company to help consumers with technical problems such as PCs crashing, wireless networks not connecting and games consoles refusing to link up with other gear. Skip related content Related photos / videos Branson arrives for the Victoria's Secret Fashion Show in New York Enlarge photo The group's firs

Patch Work ... A Serialized Story Of Inelegance
And you pull the thread, but how loose it is seems horrifying. Like a cableknit skin, and you're terrified that you'll suddenly unravel. Just a hair. That's what you tell yourself, "just a hair". The first day you really noticed it. But then you'd been looking at the cracks and seams for a while by then. You'd never really given much thought to the intricacies, just to the age. You feel old, suddenly. You've been feeling old for a while. The wrinkles at the edges of your eyes, threatening to tear down and meet the lines at your lips. Some idiot called them "smile lines" years ago...but you know it's from smoking and smirking for far too long. You pull at the edge of skin and create the smooth-textured-alien face that you assume would be your surgical finale. "I look like an idiot...an old, stretched idiot." You're not wrong...but you're still busy looking at the lines when you let it slack. Noticing how the skin falls, and folds. You didn't look like this

Western Boxing...a Jealous Art
Western Boxing has been an american past time for years. The real question is what is boxing really about. Boxing is the combination of mathematics, timing, and even dance. Not dancing like club dancing. Dancing that you've never seen or felt before. We call it the sweet science of movement. It's about fluidity and range, concentration and finesse-perseverance combined with accuracy. Many believe that Boxing is being weeded out by MMA. What many don't know is that Boxers are the highest paid individuals on the planet because of the skill and commitment involved in being a calculated striker, rather than an individual that learned a little bit of a few different arts but haven't focused on one solid discipline. It is not to say that MMA is not an entertaining sport, it takes a lot of courage from anyone to step in any type of arena, whether it be a boxing ring or a cage. Injury will be imminent, the only unknown factor is how much injury will be incurred. What p

Memories And Tears...
I write and write with each tear that falls And still I can't get you out of me with each dream your still there Like nightmares of my life I see you there kissing me Telling me you love me Holding me close Each time I either wake up with tears in my eyes Or I wake up angry at the constant reminder The one thing in my whole world I can't seem to forget I hate being a grown man who can't get you out of my system Like a poison in my veins my heart aches with each memory Like a pin prick I cringe at the thought of the memories touching me in any way shape or form Songs I hear that were not even around remind me of you Songs we used to play are like daggers causing me to tear up at the very thought of you The constant reminders of what we had brings this grown man to his knees Broken and beaten the bruises never seem to heal And still I go on with each night the memories and the tears that wet my pillow.

Goodbye Fus
Last night I decided that my new years' resolution was to get out from behind my computer and live life to the fullest. I am kinda an internet junkie and fu is one of those things I must admit I have become addicted to...lol I have met some really great people on here and built some great friendships but sadly have neglected the friends I have around me. It is time to be adult and face the life I have. I am going back to school in January and finishing my degree so I won't have alot of time for social sites...not to mention all the drama that comes along with it. For those I have befriended, you know how to get ahold of me :) I wish you all happiness and joy and hope you find what you are looking for out there. Watch out for the crazies I know they are in abundance. I was lucky though to find some of the greatest guys out there :) Love to all and happy flirting!

Ha Ha
'Twas the night before Christmas, and all thru the house I was making my plans to look more like my spouse I carefully laid out my very best clothes My bra and my panties, my slip and my hose My stockings weren't hung by the chimney tonite They were on me instead, feeling sensually tight My dress was of velvet, a burgundy red And on my long nails a new polish was spread With makeup and jewelry, high heels on my feet I was looking so sexy, and feeling so sweet When out in the yard there arose such a noise That I sprang from my bedroom, forgetting my poise The moon on the snow with it's brilliant white glitter Reminds me of lace, to set my heart a-twitter When what to my long-lashed eyes should appear But a person in red with a sleigh and reindeer But I couldn't tell, was it a 'he' or a 'she' The one with the pack was dressed somewhat like me There in the sleigh was this 'cutsey' old flirt With a white wig and makeup, a red blouse and skirt The reindeer were sparkling, with rhinesto

Christmas To Me
In todays' day and time, it's easy to lose sight, of the true meaning of Christmas and one special night. When we go shopping, We say "How much will it cost?" Then the true meaning of Christmas, Somehow becomes lost. Amidst the tinsel, glitter And ribbons of gold, We forget about the child, born on a night so cold. The children look for Santa In his big, red sleigh Never thinking of the child Whose bed was made of hay. In reality, When we look into the night sky, We don't see a sleigh But a star, burning bright and high. A faithful reminder, Of that night so long ago, And of the child we call Jesus, Whose love, the world would know. John Mollenhauer - That's What Christmas Is To Me

Poetry
Poetry Poetry is the voice of my heart Speaking to your thoughts Causing you to feel Whether you want to or not It tells the story of my life From beginning to end Expressing my thoughts in words That you may comprehend There are only a few among us That can make a picture with words However, we go on speaking Until each feeling is heard It gives you my passion The key to my heart Open the door, unlock it Experience my form of art Melissa Lay September 1995

The 4 Noble Truths
1. Life means suffering To live means to suffer, because the human nature is not perfect and neither is the world we live in. During our lifetime, we inevitably have to endure physical suffering such as pain, sickness, injury, tiredness, old age, and eventually death; and we have to endure psychological suffering like sadness, fear, frustration, disappointment, and depression. Although there are different degrees of suffering and there are also positive experiences in life that we perceive as the opposite of suffering, such as ease, comfort and happiness, life in its totality is imperfect and incomplete, because our world is subject to impermanence. This means we are never able to keep permanently what we strive for, and just as happy moments pass by, we ourselves and our loved ones will pass away one day, too. 2. The origin on suffering is attachment The origin of suffering is attachment to transient things and the ignorance thereof. Transient

First It Was Durham And Then Jasmine ....
2009 IS ALMOST OVER, WHAT HAVE YOU DONE?Stayed single almost the whole year? HAHAHA, NopeWere involved in something you'll never forget?Yes!!!Tripped over a coffee table?don't have oneDyed your hair?I'm best friends with Miss ClarolCame close to losing your life?haha, I20 is crazy Saw one of your favorite bands/artists live?No 2009: Friends and EnemiesDid you make any close friends this year?Yes a fewDid you hate anyone?No, even though I want to Do you have any regrets when it comes to your friendships?Just one ... wishing I could have been there for my best friend during a time when she needed someone (even though she will NEVER admit to it) 2009: Your BIRTHDAY!Did you have a cake?NewpDid you get any presents?Newp 2009: All about YOUDid you change at all this year?YesDid you change your style?Some but not reallyWere you in school?Getting my grant situatedDid you get good grades? Did you drive?I supposeDid you own a car?Yes, I still do ... Title is in my nameDid anyone

Listen To Your Heart
If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away. If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay. Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior. Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache. Stop trying to change yourselves for a relationship that's not meant to be. Slower is better. Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy. If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve then heck no, you can't "be friends." A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend. Don't settle. If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is. Don't stay because you think "it will get better." You'll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better. The only person you can control in a relationship is you. Avoid men who've got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women . He didn't marry them when he got them pregnant, Why would he treat you any differently? Always have your own set of friends separat

My Miracle
She carries me away Love has redefined it's limits My butterfly My wonder My world She makes me reach to the heavens Brings the light to my eyes My butterfly My wonder My world Swimming through the waves like a fish Listening to your giggle dacing every morning to your favorite...the wiggles My butterfly My wonder My world I loved you since the first kick twinkling eyes and four tooth smile You made me a woman a mom a teacher Baby girl you are the miracle to my world

Fearlessness
Acknowledging fear is not a cause for depression or discouragement. " Because we possess such fear we also are potentially entitled to experience fear (fearlessness). True fearlessness is not the reduction of fear; but going beyond what you fear.

Change The Wizards Back To The Bullets
What is this fascination black athletes have with guns? Plex is in the joint for firing a gun in night club now it’s reported Gilbert Arenas of the Washington Wizards and teammate Javarvis Crittenton drew guns on each other in the locker room. According to Crittenton’s friend, Kendrick “Bookie Ball” Long, Arenas owes Crittenton a gambling debt. I remember with the Wizards were called the Bullets. I think it’s time to bring back that name with a bullet as a mascot. Here’s the link: http://msn.foxsports.com/nba/story/report-arenas-teammate-had-gun-standoff Put a bullet by BlastFM on your smart phone. That will be harmless enough and fun to listen to. www.live365.com/stations/blastcasterfm .

All I Am Going To Say About This Is (read It)
I have come to realize thats I have a few haters on here and a few fake profiles on here which I will name off.. 2 people have approched me one being a "JohnnyDevil" saying that I am fake along with a "orignal wild thang" I dont know what these 2 have to gain from bashing me. And I am sure I am not the only one they do it to. But it seems they would have something better to do in there life, Or maybe its for brownie points, I really could care less. I am here to make friends and to have a good time,And I refuse to let these type of people get to me!! I will have great friends and I will have haters thats just the way things go in places like this. Yes I have my own website along with myspace and a few others. I am not going to deny that to any of you.And yes girls and guys steal my pictures. Here are 2 I have seem here: http://www.fubar.com/user/2734222 http://www.fubar.com/3724423 And hopefully the friends I get will warn me of others so I can add them here. I have a Fu

Poem
The Special Mother by Erma Bombeck Most women become mothers by accident, some by choice, a few by social pressure and a couple by habit.This year nearly 100,000 women will become mothers of handicapped children. Did you ever wonder how these mothers are chosen?Somehow I visualize God hovering over EarthSelecting his instruments for propagation with great care and deliberation. As he observes, he instructs his angels to take notes in a giant ledger."Armstrong, Beth, son. Patron Saint, Matthew.""Forrest, Marjorie, daughter. Patron Saint, Celia.""Rutledge, Carrie, twins. Patron Saint...give her Gerard. He's used to profanity."Finally he passes a name to an angel and smiles. "Give her a handicapped child."The angel is curious. "Why this one, God? She's so happy.""Exactly," smiles God. "Could I give a handicapped child a mother who knows no laughter? That would be cruel.""But does she have the patience?" asks the angel."I don't want her to have too much patience, or she'll drown i

Comments I Hate.... Js.... What Comments Do U Hate?
I cant stand being called sexy ....I cant stand people making sexual commentsi cant stand people acting like they know me when they dont ...i cant stand being told shit that you comment the same to everyonei cant stand when people dont pay attentioni cant stand html comments so not personal..Js....what comments do u hate?

Boy Uses Wooden Gun To Rob Store
The Obama economy is in the toilet and not expecting to get better until he leaves office but using a wooden gun to rob a store in going a little far. May be it’s not to far fetched since the alleged robber is only 12-years old. It’s report he walked into a store and pointed the wooden gun at the clerk demanding money. He got it but was captured soon after. For more http://www.foxnews.com/story/0,2933,582641,00.html?test=latestnews You don’t need wooden anything to listen to BlastFM. Just type www.live365.com/stations/blastcasterfm in your browser and you’re hooked up!

Taking A Stand For The Bitches!
Bullshit is now out the window and here is whats up! I am tired of everyone feeling bad for such an idiot. I am tired of the truth being twisted so that mamma boys don't get convicted by friends, family, and even the judical system. I am tired of the world being led by single moms on account that a good part of us pick men who attract us at first by their thug loven ways and then when it comes to getting serious and having a baby their dumb asses can't for the life of them take the right steps to emotionally, physically, and mentally grow the fuck up! Then when it comes down to them also being honest about the shit they put us through they bring out arguments and then twist them around to make themselves look better! They end uplooken like the poor little puppy, and we are the crazy bitches...or we bring to much drama! I DON'T think so!! Why do you think we are bitches? I mean when you first meet one another there is no bitch, or asshole. We bring out the best in ourselves. The trut

Dsfgd
Filll it out, you know you want tooo. x WHAT DO U THINK OF ME [] I want your number [] Pretty/Cute [] Hottie [] Sexy [] Gorgeous [] Amazingly Beautiful [] I'd take you home in a second [] I'd make out with you right now [] I'd Hit it [] No, I dont like you like that [] I love you [] Wanna hook up? Would you kiss me? [] Hell Yea [] Yes [] No [] Maybe [] already did Would you do me? [] In an instant! [] Yes [] No [] Maybe []you look to sweet to screw [] already did Am I attractive? [] Heck no [] hot as Hell [] Fine [] Cute [] Okay I think ur pretty [] Sexy [] Ugly! Do you think im a virgin? [] Yes [] No [] Don't know Name one thing you would like to do to me... [] ________________________ I look like.. [] A player [] One time thing [] Next bf/gf If you saw me for the first time would you talk to me? [] Yes [] No [] maybe Would you rather.. [] Hook up with me [] Cuddle with me [] Date me [] Marry me [] Friends On a scale of 1-10 (10

In Rhode Island Its Ok For A 16yrold To Strip That Is Wrong....
So i was watching tyra show , and in rhode island aka a state in usa for those that dont know.. its ok for 16yrs to strip as long as there home by 11.. lol that fcuked up? 16 is to young to be a stripper .. sorry no offense but the dancing and adult ent world is to hard to start that young ... The adult world can eat you alive if your not careful.. , being that young ull end up making wrong desions or crying in the dressing room .. hell i know some clubs that wont even let you try out unless your 21... Js...

How Much I Love Him....
I sit here and think of nothing but you all day...You are the last thing I think about each night and the first thing each morning...everytime I hear your voice I get chills that run all over my body...I say your name to myself just to feel that rush that comes over me and I feel butterflies in my tummy...I look at your picture and the love that I feel for you just runs through my body and gives me a warm fuzzy feeling...I sit and wonder if you feel the same way?...Do you think about me all day as I think of you?...Do you yearn to hear my voice?...Ask yourself how much longer we can actually be apart?...I have put my heart and soul in your hands and all I ask is that either you love me the way I love you or you have to give me back my heart and soul...I know that you COMPLETE me...and I want to do that for you...So tell me this am I the one who completes you?...For all these longing questions I will wait for you...I LOVE YOU AND ONLY YOU...

First Installment
ok, so i decided to make my resolution for 2010: to be in the best shape of my life by my bday (april 24) there are pics of me posted in my photos from years past that are dated within days of my bday as a reference life kicked me square in the nuts by giving me a monster cold right after new years this year. long hours at work, lack of sleep, eating like a single guy, crap weather, tons of snow, never wearing a jacket... you name it, i was destined to get banged out by something. i never go to the docs or take medicine. parlty because i feel like im being a giant Vagina if i do, and partly because i am of the thinking that if i force my body to fight it and beat it, it will be stronger the next time. that thinking has served me well. i only get sick once a year but ususally when i do, it puts me on the shelf for a while. but anyway, im over it now and ready to hang and bang. having worked in a gym, i know that the place is going to be jam packed with the new years resolution folks

Saurday
Ok, so Saturday bit the big one. He cancelled. My sitter bombed out. I was a little bummed, but it was so last minute... Then I get an email from him Sunday night. He tells me he's not really ready to date. Huh? Then why the f*ck did you ask me out on a date, you idiot? I was pretty angry at him. Not for cancelling, but for taking the coward's way out and NOT telling me this in person. He didn't even have the BALLS to take my call... So much for him being "honest"... I was angry for a little while. I'm not any more. Chalk it up again. All I gotta say is, his loss, not mine.

The Sham Of Pop-anarchism
The Sham of Pop-Anarchism Anarchists have an admirable spirit and a motivated attitude but what they apply that energy towards is rarely, if ever, useful. Anarchist's efforts generally serves the opposite of their stated desire - it doesn't defeat authority it empowers it! Anarchism seems to be no better than the machine it replaces and even worse than capitalism because it's a manufactured ideology that has no basis in reality or human nature. After years of abuse, exploitation and poor leadership, Anarchist ideals are so watered down as to be laughable. Today "Libertarian Socialists" run for public office while others throw rocks and deface public monuments. No wonder the word anarchy itself has become just another word for mindless juvenile delinquency with a suga