PunkStarChik's blog: "Book Of Shadows"

Moving went pretty smooth. Not even a drop of rain. It rained the day before and after I moved, which was nice. I had a few people helping me. Kari unpacked for me. Myke was there for a few hours until he had to go back to work. Turtle was there for a couple hours but wanted to go home early. Randy came and helped which was nice. My dad even helped and brought his good son over to help bring in a couch and help mount my tv onto the wall. I had bought a 32 inch flat screen tv. Yay..so I have a nice tv in the living room...a old tv in my bed room that was given to me.

I have the net and cable set up today. It's been way too quiet without anything and I been real bored. I am waiting for the ex to move his stuff out. I asked him when he planned on getting his crap out..he said he wasn't sure...either monday or tuesday. I told him, to get his stuff out by Tuesday night or I will be tossing it. He has all this time to be packing and moving shit over. I need time to clean up the place before I go back to work next week. The lease is up on the 30th and I will only have a couple days to clean...vaccum, shampoo the carpets...etc etc etc. I won't have time next weekend because I will be going back to work.

I just have a few more things to pick up at the other place. I decided to just give my wedding dress to goodwill along with other things. Him and his gf have been over at the other place. I really don't want to be there cleaning and picking up the rest of my stuff while they're there. There is still a lot of steam going between us.

He is a real dumbass for getting his chick a job where he used to work and where Myke works at...knowing that Myke and all them are not fond of rich now and his chick. Myke is some type of manager at that store...and I guess Kari and Michael are going to try to give his gf hell there. RIch had gotten one of his other friends a job there...and he was a poor worker. Who knows how well his gf will be but she better be on her best guards cause the others just want to give her hell. I will not be a part of that. But he is still taking a risk for getting her a job there.

I haven't been getting much sleep lately. not Because I'm in a new place. It will take me hours to fall asleep. Last night, It took me 3-4 hours to fall asleep and I was hella tired. Yesterday, it took me over 2 hours just to take a nap and I was real tired. I was looking up on the net on my phone why my sleeping has been so off the last couple weeks....I tihnk I might have some type of chronic insomnia.

It will take me hours to fall asleep. I will toss and turn a lot. I will wake up a lot of time during the night and have a hard time falling a sleep. I am tired throughout the day. My eyes would feel so heavey but I can't sleep. I actually started to cry last night because I just wanted to sleep and I couldn't.

No other sleeping pills out there have helped me sleep but the ones I had gotten from the doctor before. And I can't see the doctor until my benefits kick in, which won't be until Jan. It really sucks. I can't drink warm milk that people would suggest because milk upsets me. I have some Earl Grey and some teas but that hasn't been helping.

My eating habits has still been off. I haven't been able to weigh myself cause I left the scale at the other place. I"ll be picking that up today. I just don't want to deal with the ex and his chick. He's already been texting me where things are...."where's my skateboard?"...."look in the closet"....fucking look harder.

"where's my comb?" ...how the fuck would I know..maybe you left it at your gf's house. "where's my red leather tote bag?" You mean my DAD"s tote bag?? I tossed that...he tinks it was his but it wasn't and kept going on how it was red, leather, had two zippers, velcro on it...t was under the sink upstairs...blah blah..well this bag was BROWN..had one zipper with no velcro....

I had taken a lot of DVD's that weren't mine because I had told him before...that I wanted to know which dvd's were mine and his before I moved...did he? No....so I took what I wanted......same with the computer stuff....he didn't get back to me...so I took whatever. He was late again on giving me the money he owes me...he said he left it in the house for me to pick up...so it better be there.

I think ill grab something to eat in a bit...grab the other shit...stufff I still need to bring over...stuff to goodwill...dresses...wedding dress, some furnature, oriental rugs.....I am so sore still...I am tired too...I only slept a couple hours last night.

Well i got the moving part done pretty much....just have to finish up and clean up..I know he's not going to help clean so I have my mom to help me clean as much as we can from the stains he left in the living room. I just don't want to owe a  lot for that place....when he messed up a lot of it.

After a while....the divorce papers..

It's real lonely...i feel completely alone.