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Blogs...
So apparently one of my blogs has been deleted because apparently it was NSFW. And I have no idea which one it was. I'm pretty sure none of my blogs were hating on other people and extremely bad so now I don't even know why it was deleted. I hardly ever do blogs and when I do, it's to speak my mind. And I'm pretty sure that's allowed because of the Freedom of Speech amendment. People are retarded. And it seems the more retarded people get, the more shit I get. So now I have to mark every blog NSFW when this is clearly safe work.

Jus Another Poem By Me
tears of joy tears of pain i have nothing left to gain just a life full of pain and whatever remains cuz nothing ever stay the same u should be ashamed playin all them head games are u really gonna point the blame ooohhh please god let it rain and make him feel an oz of pain by:JENNiiFER

We Will Not Turn Into Aliens!
I was joking with Sarah and Jeffrey as we were headed out the door this morning to take their aunt Mary to work (my wife Martha had already left for McDonald’s; our son Jeffrey called it “Donald’s”) that having some of the Ben 10 stickers they got at Xavier’s birthday party last night would let them be aliens today. Today’s title is Sarah’s response. As I write this Sarah and Jeffrey are at their grandma’s house and I had to rush out after bringing them there before work to get diapers for Jeffrey and pull-ups for Sarah because I’d forgotten the diaper bag we usually bring. Rather than bring that and inevitably misplace it (it’s happened), my mother-in-law Sharon suggested bringing a supply of diapers, pull-ups, and wipes to the house. It made sense to me, so I picked those up at home and brought them before I left for work. Yesterday was my day home from the office, but until ten that morning I wasn’t sure whether I’d be called in or not because my usual relief person called in

Protection
As the snow falls gently, & Darkness sets it, Upun ones eye's, Time to eat & Be merry, It feels like Christmass, All over again, So please enjoy your food, Healer to the body & soul, Eat your greens, Be happy, To live another day, Under the sun or the stars, Wheels keep turning, On Gravel or in dirt, Your safe in the seat, Secure & Safe, Free from blindess, Free from hurt!

Life
Who knows what life has in store for us. I believe that everything happens for a reason we cannot change it but we can contort it to fit our needs. I also believe that living the past is a waste of time. Live life to the fullest and don't miss out on anything. Don't give up because things aren't going your way change the situation. Love life and embrace all that makes you happy. written by: Dale Wesley Jr.

Nominate Me For Free Photoshoot!
I all of you may or may not know I am trying my damnest to grow in the modeling industry.Well I have been so strapped for cash to even move forward in it lately to even get a photoshoot.Well I just found out theres this contest for a free photoshoot.This has to be a sign!I need all of your help.Please nominate me at info@taitboudoir.com tell them you like Lashanta aka Kitty Vixen to get the free photoshoot.For more details the official site is www.taitboudoir.com I beleive you can vote more than once so please keep it coming with your nominations.I greatly appreciate it!

Indirect Appology
WE WERE AT ONE POINT IN TIME SO CLOSE THAT WE COULD FINISH EACH OTHERS SENTENCES... THERE WAS A POINT IN TIME WE COULDN'T GO 24 HOURS WITH OUT TALKING AND NOW IT'S LIKE WE CAN GO DAYS WITHOUT TWO WORDS TO EACH OTHER... I MISS THE OLD DAYS AND THE BROTHER-SISTER BOND WE SHARE.. YOU KNOW MORE ABOUT ME THEN ANYONE ELSE I KNOW AND I'M GREATFUL YOUR IN MY LIFE... I GUESS YOU COULD SAY THIS IS MY WAY OF TRYING TO APPOLOGISE FOR EVERYTHING I'VE DONE WRONG AND I KNOW THAT SAYING I'M SORRY MEANS NOTHING TO YOU AND THAT ACTIONS SPEAK LOUDER THEN WORDS BUT IT'S HARD TO SHOW SOMEONE HOW SORRY YOU ARE WHEN THEY DON'T CONTACT YOU OR GIVE YOU THE CHANCE TO APPOLOGISE SO I REALLY HOPE YOU UNDERSTANDS THAT I AM FULLY SORRY FOR EVERY THING I'VE EVER DONE WRONG AND THAT THE FREIENDSHIP WE ONCE SHARED MEANS THE WORLD TO ME AND I PRAY TO GOD THAT YOU KNOW THAT I WOULD GIVE ALMOST ANYTHING TO SPEND TIME HANGINF OUT LIKE THE OLD DAYS... YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE AND I'M NOT SAYING YOUR NAME BUT YOU KNOW WHA

And...
This poem won me an editors choice award. and... and, when you're hidden from all the people and, your soul is sorrowful and, your eyes are full of tears and, you're waiting for someone to come near you and, to lay their hand on you and, you would like to hear a sweet voice... but, with your soul full of sorrow you don't have anybody in this world, there's no one to tell your pain to, you're a stranger of your own and, by people you're forgotten. Dan Ursoi Copyright ©2009 Danny Ursoi

I Could Be A Vampire
You Could Be a Vampire... If You Had To Like most people, the thought of being a vampire has crossed your mind. But you're not sure if you'd do it, even if you could. Living forever doesn't sound half bad, if you could live forever with the people you love the most. But do vampires even love? And would the vampire version of you even be you? It's all too much to contemplate. Luckily, the chances of you ever becoming a vampire are astronomically low. What you would like best about being a vampire: Living forever What you would like least about being a vampire: Blood stained teeth Could You Be a Vampire?

'in Love'-fear Of Pop Lyrics
i love this song!!!!!!!!!!!!! song is on my profile playlist I remember the night we met that night we sat entwined under summer skies I looked into your eyes and you looked into mine you said, "you're not like the rest" (Oleander holly) and I nodded (Crimson feet of Collie) "no one understands me", you said and I nodded once again, (Beautiful and lovely) as if to agree that all men are indeed the same (my baby) somehow, you said, (the only one) I was different (who really understands me) (Floating hand in hand we) (whisper in the moonlight) (and say that I'm) (the things you want to see) (Coda and her star child) for months on end I maintained (Goddess of the moonlight) a veneer of sincere interest (hold me in the morning) as if I were listening as you relived every page (and tell me I'm) of self-help and new age (the only one alive) that you had read and I went in for the kill (who really understands you) I'd read the same books

Almost A Grandma
Not something I thought I would say at the age of 39. But I found out today that I was almost a grandma. My eldest daughter had a miscarriage. She hadn't told anyone that she was pregnant, except of course, her husband. I'm unsure of these emotions I am feeling, they are unfamiliar to me. Is it grief? Do you grieve for an unborn child? I never had any issues when I got pregnant, every time a child was born. I want to help her, tell her it will all be alright. But, will it? She is the one that wants children, lots of them, and she is the one that is best suited to be a mother. Why is she the one having a miscarriage? So today, I was told I was almost a grandma, and I am sad.

Bleh
Not in a good mood. When I came home, my overhead light was on. The light itself was off, but when I flipped the switch, the light came on. I don't use that light, because I use the fan at night. That means my roommate has been in my room, again. I've gotten in the habit of locking my computer so he can't get on there. He may just be trying to use the internet, but the last time he did that he closed a few of my IM windows and people got pissed at me because I never answered their questions or spoke back. I just don't like people going through my stuff when I am not around. A talk must be had.

My Yahoo First Love"those Were The Days" A Repost
[Glitterfy.com - *Glitter Photos*] While I was reviewing my page , I came across to my previous blogs, those first attempts of writing blogs, when I was very new here in 360, and haven’t much friends on my list then, and found this one , unique and funny, so I decided to post it again , and add some more to that oh! whew! wow!....it seems to be a brokenheart week".........oh yahoo! what have you done? cupids here in yahoo seems to be very naughty..... lol..making everybody fall in love, then, just leaving them...oh,internet relationship, is so complicated, exciting, and distracting too...i received some comments from last blogs from men who believes that we women also break thier hearts... well i didnt say that we dont, we do break hearts too, thats true....... but i read so many women falling in love here then the men they just disappeared without goodbye... hey men! be man enough to at least say goodbye, so women will not hope and keep waiting for you". you know .... yahoo is a n

Beauty Q's For The Gals And Gals At Heart!
Lately after touching up a set a pictures that I took in October I realized my skin is aging hard and fast (probably due to alcohol abuse) and I decided to make some changes from my usual wash with water only and moisturize, make-up and never washing it off at night routine. Let it be known that my beauty routine is now as follows: 1. Exfoliate with a facial scrub 2. Tone with witch hazel 3. Rub in StriVectin-SD thoroughly (This is new! I just bought this nearly $200 wrinkle cream last week!) I let this settle in 4. Apply vitamin E oil under eyes, lips, forehead, and smile lines first then rub in all over. Let sink in. 5. Apply moisturizer in the form of jergens natural glow firming formula and let sink in. 6. I apply a very heavy off brand facial moisturizer that is supposedly brightening with the help of pearl extract under my eyes liberally. Like you can still see it and I let is sink in all the way. This stuff has horse fat in it. I have no idea where i

Fragile
Few of you understand the meaning of this song. I`ve been walking around all day, thinking I think i have a problem, I think I think too much I`ve been tought to hold back my tears and avoid them But you`ve made pain into something I could touch I`ve been walking around all day, laughing Think I`d be better off without you here And I bet you are sweet and hard to get over So I`ll cry and people will stop and stare Now thats ok, let them stop and stare... Coz I am fragile I am hopeless I'm not perfect But I am free... I`ve been walking around all day, waiting And waiting is all I seem to do ´cause I never get it unless I`m fed it But this time I'll just have to Yeah this time I'll just have to... And I am fragile I am hopeless I'm not perfect But I am free... Say you're not around... am I finished? If you`re not around that's too bad Hope you´re safe and sound, not alone now ´cause you know I belive in you... I am so fragile I am so hopeless

Even I Have To Laugh!
Subject: FW: How a fight starts? My wife sat down on the couch next to me as I was flipping channels. She asked, 'What's on TV?' I said, 'Dust.' And then the fight started... ------------ --------- --------- --------- --------- --------- --------- --------- ----- My wife and I were sitting at a table at my high school reunion, and I kept staring at a drunken lady swigging her drink as she sat alone at a nearby table. My wife asked, 'Do you know her?' 'Yes,' I sighed, 'She's my old girlfriend. I understand she took to drinking right after we split up those many years ago, and I hear she hasn't been sober since.' 'My God!' says my wife, 'who would think a person could go on celebrating that long?' And then the fight started... ------------ --------- --------- --------- --------- --------- --------- --------- ----- I took my wife to a restaurant. The waiter, for some reason, took my order first. "I'll have the strip steak, medium rare,

1000 Times For 1
If I have kissed you once, I have kissed you 1000 times. Each morning as I arise. Each night as I drift to sleep. Each hour of every day. Each moment before it goes away. The kisses shared between you and I, Have many times reached the sky. As your lips part and anxiousness increases, Your heart pounds and breathing ceases. My lips leap to yours hungry for the taste. Sweetness drips from you to me As desire grows, my heart races. Inches apart seem as miles waiting. The miles increase as space shortens. Time appears to stand still. So close yet so far. When? Now, please now? Once more, 1001. Make it 2, so many more. Caressing ever caressing those Tender lips, each time as the first. If I have kissed you 1000 times, I would give them all away To make the dream a reality, And kiss you once.

Court Today.
Well now I can talk about it more to everyone. My hubby got in a car accident last month, hes ok but it was all a sceme cause the original driver of the other vehicle ran the scene and a van full of mexicans took over the other vehicle, the original driver was also mexicans. Total damage done to our vehicle is well over 6 grand and the other vehicle was totaled. The other vehicle at the time of the accident had no bumper, the brakes were not working whats so ever, the right passenger brake was bungee strapped to the rear spoiler and the license plate was zip tied to the bungee cord. It apparently had been in a previous rear end accident prior. Went to court today and the other driver who wasn't the original driver to begin with showed up but could not answer the judge so they threw it out of court. We also may get to pick up our vehicle tomorrow, we found that out today from Ford. The original ticket was for $237, we did not have to pay a thing. We only have to pay the deductible to ge

Name Change
so i was just talking to someone about the mumm that got removed. I was thinking with all the rules and guidelines we have to follow. why don't they change the name from fubar the online bar. to fubar the highschool playground. I mean the keyword in this site is adult not minors. so what do you think? let me know if its just me.

You Make My Heart...
Written .. Now - to the woman who is not in my life..Yet ha ha You make my heart sing You make me smile with joy Everyday I wake with happiness Knowing the joy you love brings Today I want you to know That your my heart and I love you so Without you in my life True love my life would never know The years together have brought us closer I love you more today than the first day my eyes saw you You amaze me with that smile of yours You amaza me with the love you show So many times I look at you And wonder how someone must love me so to give into my life a gift such as you You are all I could ever dream To kiss your lips and hold you close My love just bursting from me I am always amazed that you even love me I promise you ever day I will always love you in this way Until the spark leaves your eyes And we ascend into the skys You make my heart sing You make me smile with joy Everyday I wake with happiness Knowing the joy you love brings Happy Va

A Hobo's Parody
I could wash my dirty t-shirt, And suc-cess-fully flirt, Any maybe get a date. I could smell just lik a flower, And not like something sour, Like milk gone out of date. I could get a new hair cut and I could wash my stinky butt oh if I only had a job! I could get me a ve-hicle, And be hy-po-cri-ticle, And nobody would care. I could get me an apartment, And get out of the cardboard, That box right over there. Not be a begger just a chooser, I would not be such a loser if I only had a Job!

Been Asked
If I thought you could fall in love on here...funny how who asked couldnt do it out right..but it does not matter... I think that you can fall for a person that treats you good on the net, in love no, you would have to know him or her, see if you click face to face and then see if you still click months down the road... come on people this is a site for people to hang out... have fun and just release from the real world. if you work out with someone on here in person more power to you , it is possiable, if not don't freak out when they tell you ,you are friends, or less than friends...your not a home wrecker if you work and they don't your not a tramp if you call someone baby on here and you don't own them just cause added up numbers on here say you do! love to the friends that laugh with me on the drama created for the others that try to keep the game going stop, make it real or deal already...

Wtf
Just read this...I couldn't believe my eyes. "Sorry, size 24 is not the new 12. Stop thinking that's attractive. All the brainwashing you try to do to fool everyone (and really let's admit it's actually to brainwash yourself) isn't working. You're just fat. Men are visual creatures. It's biological. Sorry but that's the way it is. Call us shallow." Why, after reading that, do I feel like I've lost valuable time I'll never get back? I honestly do not feel like most men feel this way...but the fact that even one does? Sad.

Making A Baby - This Is Hilarious
The Smiths were unable to conceive children and decided to use a surrogate father to start their family. On the day the proxy father was to arrive, Mr. Smith kissed his wife goodbye and said, 'Well, I'm off now. The man should be here soon.' Half an hour later, just by chance, a door-to-door baby photographer happened to ring the doorbell, hoping to make a sale. 'Good morning, Ma'am', he said, 'I've come to...' 'Oh, no need to explain,' Mrs. Smith cut in, embarrassed, 'I've been expecting you.' 'Have you really?' said the photographer. 'Well, that's good. Did you know babies are my specialty?' 'Well that's what my husband and I had hoped. Please come in and have a seat !. After a moment she asked, blushing, 'Well, where do we start?' 'Leave everything to me. I usually try two in the bathtub, one on the couch, and perhaps a couple on the bed. And sometimes the living room floor is fun. You can really spread out there.' 'Bathtub, living room floor? No

Give The People Straw To Make Brick
“And afterward Moses and Aaron went in, and told Pharaoh, Thus saith the LORD God of Israel, Let my people go, that they may hold a feast unto me in the wilderness.” The fifth chapter of Exodus opens with Moses returned from self-imposed exile in Midian and his brother Aaron who met him on the way to Egypt appearing before Pharaoh. This was AFTER they had already appeared before the elders of Israel and then the people of Israel to establish their credentials as the ones the LORD would use to lead them out of Egypt where they and their ancestors had been slaves for centuries. Just as Pharaoh certainly could not have been ignorant of Moses before he appeared before him, so Moses it seems still knew enough of the ins and outs of the Egyptian court since he’d been raised as an Egyptian to get escorted before the throne of Egypt’s ruler and not cast there in chains. Moses and Aaron completed the first part of their commission by delivering their message in verse one. Verse two gives

*you're Such A Joke
Once again someone believed your lies,and won't be long til they realize. That nothing you say ever holds any truth,but the longer you cry wolf,the more it's just no use. I'm tired of suffering for all the things that you've done,I want this to be over but I'm seeing it's just begun. You're only human,and I understand I suppose. But you've got legs and a mouth,I suggest you keep them closed. You may be supplied to fight this fight,but the ammo that you're using just ain't right. Because you insist on dragging people in who just have no clue,meanwhile everyone has become so disgusted in you. It amazes me how much people buy your shit,and the pain you've caused I'll never forget. You see,I thought we were done,grown up and moved on. But once again,your immaturity has proved me wrong. You insist on playing childlike games,and instead of taking credit you point me to blame. I tried to save some bridges,you know,the ones that you burned. But once again you've only proven to me that idiots w

For My Baby
too many ideas flowing therough the channels of the mind to dictate just one would never suffice, two or three seem better to me but then the words are theirs not mine. By theirs I mean the many muses that live in the vast reaches of the void. Their thoughts and desires seek out the word smith and bombard us until we have no choice but to surrender thought and perhaps even reason to the myriad of impulses flowing along the synapses making the fingers work to produce the words the muses wish to spew forth upon the page. I myself must admit that at times the words are not mine, and in fact sometimes I cannot even claim to know where they come from or who as the case may be. I sit and I write never really knowing what will come next, this is bot a joy and a curese. For to type without foreknoweledge is to sometimes put fporth things one would not normally say....And now on with the show yes? yes. I sat down to write tonight with the thought of but one person in my mind, My gorl Kat. A wom

Something For My True Friends To Read
last night i was bored so i sat and kinda chilled and i started thinking about all the fu-drama that is around me over the past 2 years and 3 diff accounts.. well yeah i have made tons of poor choices and i dont always think before i speak but i would get upset and sad and hurt and have such envy at the ppl that got so much fu-love (blings blasts ect.) and i thought that they were all stuck up ppl. well i came to relize last night that 90% of the problem is me... i do do and say things that bring most of the drama on myself and i and i alone am to blame... (save for the crap that fat sonny and FTW pull) so i guess to my TRUE friends i have this to say.... i love all of you very much... and i am aware that most times i am a hard person to stay friends with....but now that i see its mostly me.. i am gonna work overtime to fix the stuff i need to.... in short....THANK YOU, AZ

The News I'm Making Good
“As much as we complain about being busy, the typical American has more free time than ever – more than five hours per day, according to time surveys by the U.S. Census Bureau and researchers at the University of Maryland and Penn State. That’s a gain of nearly an hour since 1965 and a gain of about four hours since the 19th century. In Victorian England, when life expectancy was only about 50, workers put in 60-hour weeks, from age ten until they died. If you feel too busy, it’s probably only because you’re doing so many other things than work. Over the course of a lifetime, you typically spend no more than 20 percent of your waking hours on the job, and experts say there’ll be even more free time in the future as life expectancy keeps increasing and work hours keep shrinking. By 2050 in the industrialized world, others project, the average workweek will be just 27 hours.” I need some good news. Outside of the Word of God, at least for me, there isn’t a lot of it. So when

-----schwaches GedÄchtnis-----(faint Memory)
ist es o.k., dass ich sage, dass ich Sie liebe? ist es o.k., erschrockenen im zu sagen? manchmal wünsche ich, dass Sie hier waren mich durch meinen gebrochenen Traum zu halten zu helfen, meine Flügel zu heilen ich bin so hart gefallen ich weiß nicht, was folgend ist ich wünsche, dass Sie hier waren mir zu sagen, dass Sie mich lieben mir zu sagen, dass Sie sich sorgen. wenn Zeiten hart wachsen, weiß ich, dass Sie dort sein werden weil ich rechtzeitig weiß Sie werden derjenige sein es ist erschrocken ich werde Sie bis zum Ende lieben ich werde Sie für die ganze Ewigkeit lieben und wenn mein Tag bitte oh bitte kommt, schreien Sie nach mir nicht am Ende war das es wert die Rauschgifte hatten mich verbraucht das Bilden von mir nichts als ein schwaches Gedächtnis halten Sie an mir jetzt fest meine Flügel werden so gebrochen ich bin bis jetzt gefallen gerade genommen zu werden Dinge könnten nicht dasselbe sein aber ich weiß, dass ich Sie noch liebe vergessen Sie mich

Poem
Put our Love Quotes on your Site or Blog for free! A red, red rose O my Luve's like a red, red rose That's newly sprung in June; O my Luve's like the melodie That's sweetly played in tune. As fair art thou, my bonnie lass, So deep in luve am I; And I will luve thee still, my dear, Till a' the seas gang dry: Till a' the seas gang dry, my dear, And the rocks melt wi' the sun; I will luve thee still, my dear, While the sands o' life shall run. And fare thee weel, my only Luve, And fare thee weel awhile! And I will come again, my Luve, Tho' it ware ten thousand mile.

Wear A Face
Wear a face Sometimes late at night No-one's here But breathing sounds Standing small Sleeping on empty dreams Move as one Memories A blanket of stars Can't keep you warm When all you love is gone And only one heart Can hug you home A river of stars Can't wash the rain Emotions drowned in pain For sorrow has no home Shadows wave As you shake your fears Nobody's here But clouting trees Question more Absorb the bitter truth Move as one It won't let you be A river of stars Can't wash the rain Emotions drowned in pain For sorrow has no home.....

Happy Birthday Remix..(i Wrote It When I Turned 17)
Happy Birthday to me i wish i was dead I'm nothing I'm sorry for it all the smell of suicide is in the air tonight it's in the wind Happy Birthday to me i wish i could turn back time regain innocence fallow my intention through this time Happy Birthday to me, Alyssa happy is gone darkness and depression has sunk through anger is here I'm broken way more than you think Happy Birthday to me..... what happened to the life i had i can't find who i used to be Happy Birthday.....I'm now 17.

Help Wanted Apply Within
The FBI had an opening for an assassin. After all the background checks, interviews and testing were done, there were 3 finalists; two men and a woman. For the final test, the FBI agents took one of the men to a large metal door and handed him a gun. "We must know that you will follow your instructions no matter what the circumstances. Inside the room you will find your wife sitting in a chair . Kill her!!" The man said,"You can't be serious. I could ne ver shoot my wife." The agent said,"Then you're not the right man for this job. Take your wife and go home." The second man was given the same instructions. He took the gun and went into the room. All was quiet for about 5 minutes. The man came out with tears in his eyes, "I tried, but I can't kill my wife." The agent said, "You don't have what it takes. Take your wife home." Finally, it was the woman's turn. She was given the same instructions,to kill her husband. She took the gun and went into the room. Shots were heard, o

Yep
A few days ago, I joined a work out joint called Curves. Been curious about it and so far I'm liking it. My legs are hella sore though...ha ha ha.. I changed my sleeping schedule on my days off so that I'll be working out there early in the mornings. Instead of sleeping in on my days off, I wake up at 8am, work out for at least 45-60 mins, do whatever else and maybe take a nap in the day. Just 3 days a week there. Not bad. Went out with Shirley, Rich's grandma, took her to her doctors appointment. Her heart rate is still kinda off but she's doing good. They have her carrying around some heart rate monitor for two days to get an idea how her heart rate goes. Will be returning back to the doctor on Monday....that's my birthday!! Yesterday, I went out with Kari for a bit. It's been a while since we've hung out. Grabbed some food at Wendy's, grabbed some coffee at Peets Coffee and Tea that I introduced her to a ways back, then we went to the tattoo parlor to set up a appointment for

Eleven
My body matured Hard Fast and Strong It was different long before it should have been She just didn’t respond the same way she did before It/I was foreign I was eleven years young and Those nasty ill willed men could smell my new “gifts” And I reveled in this I used my new power to my advantage And thus continue to do so www.myspace.com/clubmix1996

I Have Been Gone
I have been gone cause my old computer finally decided that life was not worth the fuss anymore. She slowly went into heaven and I was upset but happy cause my mom and dad bought me a new computer. So I am back like an asthma attack!!!

10 Random Things
Once you have been tagged, you have to write a blog with 10 weird or random things, facts, or habits about yourself. At the end, you choose at least 5 people to be tagged, listing their names . Don't forget to leave a comment that says, "You're it!" on their profile and ask them to read your blog. You can't tag the person who tagged you. 1. i'm irish , blackfoot indian and jamaican. 2. i'm a highly analytical person. something i'm just a lil o.c.d about. 3. i'm drunk as hell right now and can't believe i'm doing this right now. 4.i have a son. 7 yrs old. 5. a cheese steak is the best food even invented. period. 6.i fell asleep on the toilet on sunday after church when i was extremely young. my mother took a pic. 7, i'm big on mutual respect and respect in public. disrespect me in public and you'll know the half in private. 8.i'm better rememvering faces rather than names. take tonight for example... 9i'm really an extroverted person who likes to go

The Truth About Working In The Bpo / Call Center Industry:
1. We work weird (night) shifts... Just like prostitutes. 2. They pay you to make the client happy... Just like a prostitute. 3. The client pays a lot of money, but your employer keeps almost every penny... Just like a prostitute. 4. You are rewarded for fulfilling the client's dreams... Just like a prostitute. 5. Your friends fall apart and you end up hanging out with people in the same profession as you... Just like a prostitute. 6. When you have to meet the client you always have to be perfectly groomed... Just like a prostitute. 7. But when you go back home it seems like you are coming back from hell... Just like a prostitute. 8. The client always wants to pay less but expects incredible things from you... Just like a prostitute. 9. When people ask you about your job, you have difficulties to explain it... Just like a prostitute. 10. Everyday when you wake up, you say: "I'm not going to spend the rest of my life doin

Mini Bio On Jensen Ackles
Birth Name: Jensen Ross Ackles Date Of Birth: 1st March, 1978 Place Of Birth: Dallas, Texas, USA Height: 6'1'' (1.85mm) Mini Biography: Jensen Ackles was born in Dallas, Texas to Roger Alan Ackles and Donna Joan Shaffer. After modeling as a young child, he began to concentrate on a acting career in 1996 upon his graduation from Lloyd V. Berkner High School in Richardson, Texas. In 1997 he received a role on the NBC soap opera Days of Our Lives as Eric Brady, for which he won a 1998 Soap Opera Digest Award for Best Male Newcomer. After leaving Days in 2000, Ackles went to Vancouver, joining the cast of the James Cameron television series Dark Angel. His first appearance on the show was in 2001 as Max's (played by Jessica Alba) disturbed brother Ben/X5-493. After Ben died, Ackles returned to the series in the second season as Ben's clone, Alec/X5-494, who eventually teamed up with Max and stayed until the show's demise in 2002. In 2003, he made several guest appearances a

.why Me.
Yeah so I look today and figure out I only have 2 weeks of unemployment left... I'm fucking screwed! Finding a job right now is almost impossible. I've applied every where it seems like! Something has to give seriously. I don't want to have to move back down to Mobile. I really don't *cries*

.he's Just Not That Into You.
He says: Oh sure, they say they're busy. They say that they didn't have even a moment in their insanely busy day to pick up the phone. It was just that crazy. All lies. With the advent of cell phones and speed dialing, it is almost impossible not to call you. Sometimes I call people from my pants pocket when I don't even mean to. If I were into you, you would be the bright spot in my horribly busy day. Which would be a day that I would never be too busy to call you. She says: There is something great about knowing that my only job is to be as happy as I can be about my life, and feel as good as I can about myself, and to lead as full and eventful a life as I can, so that it doesn't ever feel like I'm just waiting around for some guy to ask me out. And most importantly, it's good for us all to remember that we don't need to scheme and plot, or beg anyone to ask us out. We're fantastic. **I liked the movie :) I'm a girl. And of course it makes me want to read the book no

Humbled And Honored...thanks!
THANKS for stopping by my page! If you are reading this blog then YES I finally made spotlight....but it's NOT all about me! Check out my lovely friends VIVI, REEKA, & QUEEN COBRA....we are the true reasons for breast cancer awareness. These ladies are my friends ~ truly loved and admired for their strength and beauty while fighting this horrible disease. They are so beautiful and I am so honored to know them as friends. THANKS again to ALL who donated your fubux to me....I know I probably missed a few but I did try my best to remember all my friends...new and old!! You have no idea what this spotlight means to me. It means for ONE day ~ breast cancer survivors ~ can shine ~ stand tall ~ and be proud!! We have been through so much....having a mammogram (OUCH!?), biopsies (huge bruises), endless doctor appointments, countless blood draws for lab work and blood counts, surgery (enough said in that word), chemo that made us sick and loose our hair, radiation that burned our ski

Stars In The Sky
I watched her move about the room wondering what secrets she had hidden inside her sweet head...playing like she was just a normal girl laughing with her family and friends...but i knew better i knew her heart...and whenever there was a chance she would sneak a glance my way just to let me know i was on her mind...and through out the day we snuck glances and quiet moments talking like old friends but knowing how much deeper it ran...between us there was a whole world of secrets that only we knew and the few friends that we shared...we had been dating in secret for over a year now...it was better to keep the secret we had both decided from the start because most people dont understand two women being together much less being in love. i stole away into the bathroom when i saw her comming dont the hallway i grabbed her wrist and pulled her into the bathroom and shut the door and before she could say a word i kissed her deeply she giggled "what was that for?" "i just wanted to let you kn

Jealous And Tears
I just found out my grandma is taking my sister to Hawaii. She got 1 free companion ticket and she chose Melissa. My Uncle asked my Grandma how I would feel about that but Grandma said she only gets one ticket and Melissa is it. I hate being born second. I know that Melissa is the oldest and first grandchild but why does it always have to be her. She is first in everything. I want to go to Hawaii. I called my mom and I won't lie I started to cry. I have had a shitty year and now my sister gets to go to Hawaii. The last time I went to Hawaii I got dumped and threatened to throw myself off a building. My mom was like maybe she'll bring you a Hawaiian. I have had a hawaiian and it wasn't that great. I just want to be on the beach and see my Whitney. Im just jealous.

Random Shit
Ever wonder what it would be like to have all the answers? To be able to say I know, never say I think, never assume, Never be in doubt. I’ve wished for that feeling, I’ve sought answers. But with every answer comes another question, greater than the last. I’m starting to realize, just now in fact, the answers aren’t really what I am hoping to find. It’s the questions that keep me going, a certain beauty in not knowing. To know it all might be a bore, no mystery, nothing to explore. I think though perhaps, I’ve found my question, the one I’ve sought. Without knowing, while looking for answers, it has come to me. A mystery so great, filled with intrigue, wonderment I want to dive in I want to explore, I want to work on this mystery forever. Never finding all the answers Hoping to never come to an end

Hair To Be, Or Not To Be That Is The Question
i try and keep up with the times, and the one thing that is still amazing to me is the female pubic area,don't laugh. me being a old school type of person, and being able to remember my first sexual encounter is female pubic hair, yes i know it has been many moons ago, but, trends seem to follow porn. here is where i'm going with this, as time has past and porn has became more popular womens pubic regions have changed, yes some will say that they, have been shaving since they were 14, lol that might be true if they started yesterday. not to brag but i have seen my share over the years, from a {kojak, being bald}, a {hitler,a little 1 inch, by 1 inch, patch of hair,}to a {landing strip a 1 inch wide to a 3 inch long up and down patch}to a {traditional triangle}, to what ever your imagination you can come up with. for years now, the magarity of women have slaved to a kojak, which is great, but for me i like to see a little bit of hair. why is this you may ask, well it lets me know

A Night To Remember
May I ask you a question please, why do you always joke and tease??? I try to allow people to take me serious, and they wind up laughing and think I'm delirious. That really hurts me inside my heart, cuz I figure no one likes me whole or part. Every night before I go to sleep, I wish for someone to care that I weep. But for thirty seven years no one has shown, that they even know that I have learned and grown. Seeing how today could be the end your my last, don't run or turn away and forget so fast. You and I together really close, would be a dream and this is how it goes.... I softly touch it is all so real, your driving rhythm has had its meal. With a wild push and soft tug hear, don't forget its not forever dry my tear. All I have wanted to give you, is a night to remember it'd be so true.

Advice For The Faint Of Heart
i have come often to points of confusion in situations that easily bored me...one of those very things seems to be the never ending cycle of players vs. true hearts...players have a bad rep but they do because they are sucessful at their craft and they take people and ruin them for those who could serve to be a great thing...once you have dealt with a player your mind turns everyone into a player sometimes you yourself play the game to avoid the pain of being on the recieveing end...but as they say every dog has their day in much the same way every player at some point will get played...now i myself am not a player far from it i am a true old times romantic to deliver all the world to the deserving heart delivered to my hands but alas i dont live in the times of marriage till death... relationships for a couple months is as good as good as it seems to get these days even for the best intentioned ppl...so when being the person i am left to pick up the scraps of those left in the wake of

Angels Among Us
you know that place you get where you see everything is wrong because of you? couldnt admit that before, coulden even see it just new things were not the way thy should be. it's not every day you get a chance to start over an at the same time see the light for once in your life. takes grit to own up an face yourself in that thankful way that after the hurt an tears are less you can make better of the blessings you got handed. time to do some soul searching an pruning. what is a flower bed with out someone to tend it an make the ground soft an full of good earth an seed? what you build anything on has to be solid, or it will fall short of it's perpose, this is true with what ever your doing. having pride can be hard when you see that your fall was all your doing and how great a fall it is, but when an angel comes an picks you up, saves you from yourself an your given the gift of seeing it all a new person is born... sure hope no one has to go thrue a life time before

My Pain Has A Beautiful Face
she holds me like she never wants to let go she looks at me like I am someone special she kisses me with a hunger that I can taste and my pain has a beautiful face she wont let me in or share her secrets she pulls away when she starts to care she drives me crazy and needs her space my pain has a beautiful face do i push her away or hold her close? she's been through a lot cursed with a sorry lot she's confused and torn another's her thorn buy my God my pain has a beautiful face i've never been so confused or scared to lose she's my desire what my life can use if only our souls could find a comfortable place my pain has a beautiful face if she'd let me in to touch her soul her heart of hearts; to share control through turmoil and lies i'd suffer that place because my pain has a beautiful face but he's buying control and envies my taste so forever my pain shall have a beaut

More Survey Fun!
How long have you likedâ€‹ the persoâ€‹n you curreâ€‹ntly like?â€‹â€‹ define like When is your birthâ€‹day?â€‹â€‹ April 11th What'â€‹â€‹s your favorâ€‹ite colorâ€‹?â€‹â€‹ anything different Do you like your firstâ€‹ name?â€‹â€‹ not usually no Whereâ€‹ do you want to live?â€‹â€‹ where ever i end up Did you cry todayâ€‹?â€‹â€‹ nope What were you doingâ€‹ at 8 this morniâ€‹ng?â€‹â€‹ sleepin What were you doingâ€‹ 30 minutâ€‹es ago? other stupid surveys What are you listeâ€‹ning to? papa roach What are you curreâ€‹ntly doingâ€‹?â€‹â€‹ multi tasking like i so suck at that!@! Who last sent you a text messaâ€‹ge?â€‹â€‹ julio Do you miss anyboâ€‹dy?â€‹â€‹ yes Any plansâ€‹ for tomorâ€‹row?â€‹â€‹ getting stuff done What was the reasoâ€‹n behinâ€‹d the last time you criedâ€‹?â€‹â€‹ no comment Is thereâ€‹ anyonâ€‹e you want to be with rightâ€‹ now? yup Are you goingâ€‹ to be home aloneâ€‹ tonigâ€‹ht?â€‹â€‹ yup Ha

Ohemgee It's Poetry :o
Tossed off recently. (s'what SHE said.) --- Crow caw, owl hoot Fox scramble, farmer shoot Thunder rumble, raindrops tumble Nature nurture, Man stumble. Ice melt, hail pelt, Tanner slice, butcher dice, Hunter capture, dinner table rapture Nature stumble, Man mumble. Rubbish rustle, trash to stash Diggers dig, miners mine Rape the soil for a glass more wine Corn grow, stocks low Sky grey, Far off thunder rumble. No man listens, While silver glistens: Dig, dig, dig, Bury head; Garden shed, garden gnome, Replace the place where pretty things grow. Dust billow, storm grow Shake your fist At fortunes slow No man may plant where nothing grow.

Death Race
Death Race Within four years from 2008 the economy of the United States has fallen into disaster, Unemployment and crime rises, and private corporations run most prisons across the nation for profit. The movie focuses on the Terminal Island Prison, which broadcast "Death Race" to the world via a popular paysite on internet. Death Race is not only a race to the finish line, but a battle pitting car against car. It was full of action and the cars were great, if you like Jason Statham in Transporter then you'll like this too.

Can Kitty Get A Cherry Bomb Pwease!
I'd love a Cherry Bomb! Here's the deal. If you get me the Cherry Bomb I will; Give you my YIM, give you full access to my NSFW folder, Make you 2 NSFW salutes, If a DJ I'll make you a HOT Drop! Pretty Pwease teehee, Mwahzzzzz Kitty

News From The Road
well its ben really busy. left thursday..have been to palm springs to san diego to los angeles. now i'm in portland and heading for seattle tomorrow. after that back to eureka calif an then to Albuquerque new mexico. the new job is really keeping me going. staying in portland tonight getting some rest. using the computer at the motel. typical oregon..raining like hell. so i will be home next weekend before heading to Albuquerque. will get caught up on all my lovin then. your all very special to me or you wouldn't be reading this anyway. take care and miss you all..big hugs and kiss...marty

27 Days And Counting,blah!
Well its here its almost here.Good bye 20's here comes the 30's...Yeah i know this rant is a bit early but im having one of those fucked up, overly emotional, nothing but nonsense, bullshit kinda days...I have nothing to show for this past 10 years,at least in my own mind.I settled to early i wanted a house some kids a rock solid marriage a career....I have none of that,had it,but now its gone..still no kids that really hurts some days, but hey i guess its just not meant to be,thats what i tell myself when it makes me crazy...enough of that shit,ill make myself cry...when is my luck going to turn around...Is there that right person for me out there, is there anything out there for me i just dont know anymore..i hope so, but thats all i got is hopes and dreams that fade more and more everyday it seems....I sit here everyday and think about the days im losing and the time that ive lost over these past few years....knowing all to well that its never coming back...what ever im sure this w

New Song!
We all stick together cuz' the flock is obsessed. Blue bird flying out in front of the rest. Red birds are carrying a song in their breast. No way of ever knowing which is the best, so lets Cut them into pieces and we'll rub those pieces in. What you get is a purple mess and no one ever wins I thnk you knew. When they cut me in 2. That my blood would be blue. That I belong in front right next to you.

Feeling Lost...
so I went to clean my hard drive off, got a virus on it... thought I had everything backed up properly... decided to step down from vista to xp in hopes of having a few more gig's of hard drive space... installation went as normal... xp installed, had to spend an hour getting all my driver's loaded, then went to go reinstall my graphix program's from the cd's I just burned not even three hours prior... redundancy error's start flying up, I get the program to install finally, go to slam my plugin's into the folder, double click the familiar icon I have come to love, I even have it set in the same place as it was on vista... I know the movements to that icon by heart... my virus scan goes off, one of the preset filter's in now a virus... I dump the install, try it again with out the plugin's... run's fine... time to put the plugin's back in... double click... virus warning again... maybe I should of just left it all alone, stayed on vista, cleaned the virus out, but I needed the few extr

I Don’t Wanna Miss A Thing
I don't wanna miss a thing I just wanna close my eyes An dream of you so peacefully I don't wanna miss a thing Your gentle touch The sound of your heart beat I don't wanna miss a thing By listening to your voice Day to day I don't wanna miss a thing When we make love To feel your skin I don't wanna miss a thing At all When I dream of you As I lay awake watch you sleeping I don't wanna miss a thing... The song by Aerosmith-I Don't Wanna Miss A Thing just with my lyrics Made by: Amber M. Kestner

Buzz! Buzz! Buzz!
[Yahoo Message Archive] BUZZ! BUZZ! BUZZ! BUZZ! BUZZ! BUZZ! R U THERE???? BUZZ! BUZZ! MESSAGE ME WHEN YOU BAK Some time later.... Me: Why in gods name did you Buzz me that many tines? Her: I THOUGHT YOU WER SLEEPIN Me: And if I was it's okay to wake me? Her: I NEED YOUR HELP Me: The key you seemed to have lost is located between your TAB and SHIFT keys Her: Sorry Me: Now, again, you thought it okay to wake me up out of bed so that I could work on your machine? Dont _ever_ do that again. On top of that I hate being buzzed anyway. If I don't respond I'm not at my PC. Her: sorry. Me: Whatever is wrong with you box, I dont care, You know where I live, Bring me the damned machine Not the monitor, keyboard, or any of the wires, I have that crap, just bring me the tower and I'll do it myself, my way. Her: OK Me: Im me when your leaving. I am not a happy fucking camper. Aparently now Im not only

The Modern Automobile And Other Reasons To Count Our Blessings
“Granted, cars emit greenhouse gases and create maddening traffic jams, but consider what else they do. Compared with the models on the road in 1970, today’s cars burn less gasoline per mile and emit 98 percent fewer pollutants. That’s why, despite the doubling of the number of cars, there’s much less smog in the air. The basic sedan today offers more creature comforts and safety than the luxury cars of old. The fatality rate has declined sharply, and cars have become so reliable that it’s rare to come upon that once-routine sight on the shoulder of the road: a driver forlornly staring under the hood.” For the last week, I’ve been quoting an article by John Tierney that I found in the February 2009 “Reader’s Digest” called “It’s a Wonderful Life”. If you want to look it up, it’s on pages 122-125. All of us need some good news, and the last couple of weeks with my daughter Sarah sick, my sister Bonita gone, issues in Washington (I’m not going there), and the actual spring cle

Love
Every day that dawns I love you so much more. Every moment that comes brings me such joy. So many scars to heal from the past, Make our love that much stronger because our love will last. You are my heartbeat, each & everyday. You are the love that makes it all be ok. My todays are so much better and my tomorrows are usually to. The best part is you love me to. Simplicity & trust is what you crave. For without these factors, love dwindles away. And I have found that in my heart..... Our love is true & that you are my ever after, you are all my dreams come true. Not because we have everything, or because I expect to. But because its just so easy this love I have for you. My heart still skips when I know your there. I smile when I know you will be there. Love does crazy things to us, Some good some bad. In this case my love, Our love is all but grand. We have our battles and troubles we will cross. But we are together & our love will not be lost. I will

Kitty Wants A Bling Pack Plz!!!
Okay depending on the size of the bling pack you get me will depend on how much ya get . With Any bling pack you will get access to my NSFW folder. For 12 bling credits you will also get 1 NSFW Salute. For 25 bling credits you will get the 1 nsfw salute & my yim. For 65 Bling credits you will get 2 nsfw salutes & my yim. For 135 bling credits you will get 3 nsfw salutes/pics of your choice, and my yim. For 350 bling credits you will get 5 nsfw salutes/pics of your choice, my yim & my cell number. For 1,000 bling credits you will get 10 nsfw salutes/pics of your choice, my yim & my cell number. Plz help a kitty out! MWAHZZZZZZZZZZZZZ

Aisle 19 Industry Information
Industry Information Perfect Positioning Escape will provide you with your own business in the center of the booming Online Shopping Industry. Perfect Timing The online shopping industry is already large with over $200 billion in revenues per year and the momentum is picking up as more and more consumers make it their favored approach to shopping. This migration will only happen one time in history and it has already started, but the biggest shift is yet to come, and the time is now. Give Away A Saving’s Portal - Aisle19.com You simply share a FREE savings portal that offers your customers CASH BACK and other specials from their favorite stores, and then you get paid. Get Your Share Of The Pie When your customers use Aisle19 to shop at their favorite stores, you earn a percent of what they spend - up to 50% - and they are saving money by using it. Create a Ripple Effect Just like with other social networks, people will share the secret of Aisle19. As they

How Long?
Not sure what day it is Not sure that I care Lost all desire to move or be part of life The hole is black and has no side At least none that I can feel Tears flow from me like blood Leaving streaks of me where ever they fall How long has it been now Since you left me like this To lie in my own pool of blood pouring freely from my eyes I loved you the first time our eyes met Now your eyes look upon another And yet my eyes see only you and blackness Oh for the courage to jump The courage to take a thousand pills or to slice my wrists But I know I will not. I'll just lie here, as tears flow like blood Feeling the flood from my heart dying You have to come back to me I can't move, I can hardly breath I've not eaten for days Lying here, wasting away. How Long has it been now. How many hours how many days Days seem like years Lying here in a puddling of my own tears.

A Woman Whom I Never Met..
A woman whom I never met, Lived in a land I never knew. How could I know what love is? Yet, I do, I do, I do! The woman I never met, Was real and proud and strong; Her eyes were deeply set, And she could sing a song. And she could make a joke, And laugh when in the mood; But long before she spoke, I guessed her solitude. The woman I never met, A shadow in my mind; I saw her silhouette, But will I ever find, That shadows can come alive, Making my dream complete? But then will she arrive, The woman I've yet to meet? All my days alone, And all my nights it seems; I have known a woman unknown, Who shares my secret dreams. But still my dream one seems to hide, When really she should be at my side. The woman I never met Is half a world away; She may not find me, yet I'm waiting for the day. The day I go out to meet The woman I've never met. -Dominic Zingale

The Power Of...
The Power of Thought Love begins with our thoughts. We become what we think about. Loving thoughts create loving experiences and loving relationships. Affirmations can change our beliefs and thoughts about ourselves and others. If we want to love someone, we need to consider their needs and desires. Thinking about your ideal partner will help you recognize her when you meet her. The Power of Respect You cannot love anyone or anything unless you first respect them. The first person you need to respect is yourself. To begin to gain self-respect ask yourself, "What do I respect about myself?" To gain respect for other, even those you may dislike, ask yourself "What do I respect about them?" The Power of Giving If you want to receive love, all you have to do is give it! The more love you give, the more you will receive. To love is to give of yourself, freely and unconditionally. Practice random acts of kindness. Before committing to a relationship ask not what the other person wi

Hold Fast ~ For Nina~
Hold fast your dreams, they shelter you through lonely nights, gently they become the pillow, that puts destination in your sights. Hold tight the memories, the heart ach that burns, for the one who wins, is the one who remembers and learns. Nurture the moments, handle with care, for destiny states, for each heart there`s a pair. Cast off the anger, and its deep rooted seed, remember t'was anger , that caused your heart to bleed, Snuggle each memory, a warm blanket held tight, bringing you vision, guidance, sunlight. Push away despair, nurture the hope, so impossible it seems, but the only way out, is to hold fast to dreams.

Hate
i hate ppl that stare for no reason,i hate ppl that change with the season,i hate ppl who hate everything new,i hate ppl that dont like the color blue,i hate ppl who wont laugh at a joke,i hate ppl that hate me because i smoke,i hate ppl who wont even take a toke,i hate ppl who order eggs with no yolk,i hate ppl that stop when we say go,i hate ppl who dont understand the word NO,i hate ppl who act like life is grand,i hate ppl who never lend a hand,i hate the ppl that roam this native land,i hate ppl that sit while we stand,yes i hate ppl this much is true,but i dont hate all ppl, i dont hate you..

I Got ...
LOL, I got taken for a "ride" ... I'm trolling through the mumms, and I see a RIP posting for David Bowie, and then a mumm on the subject. Yeah, when I saw the pic I spent about 10 min running through Ask.com looking for any entertainment link that would tell me he died. Well, all I found is .... he's still kicking and living. But I do admit, I am a goof that fell for it. and to the ASSHATS that started this stress for me, since I don't hate ... I WUB YOU ALL!!! even though you are ASSHATS and made me do something that I really didn't want to do.

My Feelings
These are my fears These are my tears I will fail I know I will Will I fail at this too? Or will I win this time? This is my blood This is my soul I will die I will be reborn Can I wont make it through the day? Or Can I make it through the night? Here is my broken heart Here is my fucked up mind Could you heal me? Or Could you just kill me? All of this is just a dream they say All of this is just will disappear I am nothing more than a dying star I am nothing more than a lost soul I am nothing more than a forgotten lover I am nothing more than a injuried soldier

My Revange
Let me light you on fire Watch you burn from the inside out I will let you die Just like you did to me You think this is the end This is only the beginning I won't give up without a fight Unlike you I am not here just for games I am here to make your life living hell I am the last soldier angel god sent To kill those who have killed another You I won't let go so easy Look what you did to me This is only half of what you will get back Scars all over your body Blood all over your clothes This is my revange This is my art work I will hang you up on a cross upside down Now I am nothing but evil because of you Thanks for the memories of pain Thanks for the scars of meaning Thanks for the blood of sorrow

Myself....
I am not as pretty as those girls in magazines I am not as beautifull as those womans that walk in streets and whom men keep on whatching I am not as smart as those guys who get best grades I am not as wise as those who keep on loving the whole world I am not as perfect as those who write bestsellers and books which no-one can understand I am not as good as my friends who I say they are my friends but they know as well as I do that they are not I am not as strong as those whom no-one can hurt who never cry I am black and white I am cute and cruel I am beauty and beast I am rock and sand I am nothing and everything I am happiness and pain I am right and I am wrong I am the girl who are dependent on everyone who hurt her I am that who laughs with others and cries when it seems to be time to cry I am the best actress ever the biggest temptress mistress I am the girl who pretend she is breathing while she is dead I am the performer of myself but myself never exists I am the goddess o

Getting Closer!
I've got 3 more days to find out whats going on with the tests an CT scan, I just hope that it's not more bad news not sure I can handle anymore at this point, my mother is still in the hospital & everytime I go to call shes talking off the wall shit an it's sad because I have to let her go do to the fact that I can't understand a word shes saying, but anyways guys (((please))) pray for us both. I know ya'll have been there for me and I thank you for that.... Much love always from your friend Jaime!

A Poem
A Modern Man I'm a modern man, Digital and smoke free; a man for the millennium. A diversified, multi-cultural, post-modern deconstructionist; politically, anatomically and ecologically incorrect. I've been uplinked and downloaded, I've been inputted and outsourced. I know the upside of downsizing, I know the downside of upgrading. I'm a high-tech low-life. A cutting-edge, state-of-the-art, bi-coastal multi-tasker, and I can give you a gigabyte in a nanosecond. I'm new wave, but I'm old school; and my inner child is outward-bound. I'm a hot-wired, heat-seeking, warm-hearted cool customer; voice-activated and bio-degradable. I interface with my database; my database is in cyberspace; so I'm interactive, I'm hyperactive, and from time to time I'm radioactive. Behind the eight ball, ahead of the curve, ridin' the wave, dodgin' the bullet, pushin' the envelope. I'm on point, on task, on message, and off drugs. I've got no need for c

Chaotic World
I am angry with this chaotic world, this existance is like a feral twirl its a flaming all consuming life its entertaining my disdain and strife right now a small with inside my self I could mawl those who challenge this space i carved out and bleed at times and it helps to define myself a place a trace of me no surrender not with breath in my body I ache to comprehend this chaotic world then to ammend the cycle it breaths life from then rescend any invitation of its existance

It's My Turn...insatiable Girls Wanted Apply Within...
Many of you have seen my face before, I am a rabid flirt,I love to meet NEW people always! Today I am thinking of starting my own ALL girl clique on here! I am single and always looking and after being on FUBAR for over 2 years, I have become quite the connasuer of the finer things in life! I thought to myself: I am single, sexy, and just can't possibly be tied down right now! I need some insatiable girls on my team? So if Sarge can have his Bad Girls and Dylon can have his Divas...I am going to have my Insatiable Selection!!!! Sure there are a lot of them girl cliques on here claiming to have the Baddest of the Bad on FUBAR, I wanna have the most absolute, bonafide, HOTTIES on here! I am not looking to make this the Tropicana Beauty Contest, Women come in various shapes, sizes, and flavors. I am looking for you to be apart of my Stable...Details coming soon! Ladies drop me a line...I am looking to start recruiting. Love, *Kisses to you all* Marko Aleksandar

Iraq The Rain Of Mud..
OK SO THERE WAS THIS SAND BOX !! WAY DONT THERE .. IT WAS HOT AND SOME TIMES COLD AND SOME TIMES IT WOULD RAIN MUD .. YEAH THATS RITE MUD.. AS I WAS WALKING ON PATROL A SAND STORM CAME IN AND THE WORLD TURNED FORM THE ONE WE KNOW TO THE ORANGE TINT THAT U WOULD THINK U WOULD FIND ON MARZ.. THATS RITE I SPELLED IT WITH A Z .. SO THERE I WAS NO BULL SH*T AND THE ORANGE SKY STARTED TO RAIN MUD .. WHAT THE F**K.. TRU STORY !!

The Heart Of Rock & Roll
New york, new york, is everything they say And no place that Id rather be Where else can you do a half a million things All at a quarter to three When they palt their music, ooh that modern music They like it with a lot of style But ts still that same old back beat rhythm That really drives em wild They say the heart of rock and roll is still beating And from what Ive seen I believe em Now the old boy may be barely breathing But the heart of rock and roll is still beating La, hollywood, and the sunset strip Is something everyone should see Neon lights and the pretty pretty girls All dressed so scantily When they play their music That hard rock music They like it with a lot of flash But its still that same old back beat rhythm That really kicks em in the They say the heart of rock and roll is still beating And from what Ive seen I believe em Now the old boy may be barely breathing But the heart of rock and roll is still beating Dc, san antone and the lib

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On Mind (part 8 - Putting It All Together)
This would be the end of this series. I would appreciate any feedback =D. wild.. I went into christiandebate expecting to argue with Christians Aeloi, go ahead. Don't quit on me. oh, sorry anyway, I found myself arguing with materialists - and they assumed I was defending christianity it was bizarre even though I admitted not being a Christian the Christian minded folk in the room were agreeing with me I basically asserted that mind begat matter, I did my best to construct a model for the existance of "something" from "nothing" but could not even get the materialists to accept a well understood definition of "mind" even within materialistic views they were more stuck in their faith like assertions than the Christians they looked down upon and despised I suppose that if I got nothing to do, you can share thy knowledge with them. you got* the christian view is more something from nothing than the non-religious view that's because "mind" is an extremely

The Logic Of Love
love what exactly is it can anyone really answer this question well yes and no yes as in we can answer it for ourselves but to give an educated guess on something like love for someone else well that would be foolish to give love a definition when we cant touch hear smell or feel love other than as an emotion that would be like define clear......well its clear there ya go but as i was saying love for me is that mouth drying heart racing hell of a rollercoaster emotional right its pefrict as in its a balance of happy and sad cause a wise person once told me you cant help but hurt you ones the love its in the small acts we do everyday like kiss that special one on the cheek or lips or the big acts like jewelry or having will you marry me put on at the sporting event of your choice big screen i dunno what love really is i have felt it before i think i feel i lost it as well but in all reality love.....its something we all beg for and all hate at the same time cause when you love you accep

Punishment Or Pleasure?
I sat in the bonus room of our home, logged into my favorite on-line game, intently playing while also aware of the dog sleeping at my feet. Daniel was in the shower, I was supposed to be checking the e-mail for anything important that may have come, but I trusted the dog to alert me when she heard him head up the stairs. At the first wag of a tail, I was prepared to shut down the game and bring up the mail file. "Is that what I sent you up here to do?" His voice from the doorway was the first indication I had that he was done in the shower. My big dog lifted her head and wagged her tail – a little too late to do me any good. "Let's go" was all he said. I logged out of the game without saying good bye to the other players, something I never did, and reached to shut the computer off. "Leave it," he said. "I'll be back up to finish." I got up from my chair, walked past him to the head of the stairs, I knew there was nothing I could say to change what was going to happen. I had been ca

Revenge For Violence????
Ok so I had a roomate who was a person of violent nature. He assaulted my other roomate based on the circumstances he is black. This person went to jail and has been released. Now he is staying at the mission. One of my good friends who is down on his luck is staying there as well. My friend came to me about 20 minutes ago and stated that my old roomate is staying at the mission. He also stated that this old roomate has a revenge plot against me. Why? Because he is a racist peice of shit who cant control himself around small children?? This roomate of mine, was a bad decision and i know that now. He lies to every woman he talks to on here. He tells them that he works with the mentally handicapped and in fact he works at wendys. He gets women to send him money so he can survive. His name on here is moose and he is a 35 year old bum. He hails from rockford illinois. Please check him out and block him. If you do not i can gaurentee you, all you will end up with is a broken he

Pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
Hey everyone! I'm asking a huge favor of you! I have this awesome friend named Mike and he's decided to enter Michigan Idol. It's our tiny little version of American Idol where the winner has a chance to travel to the real American Idol if they win! Well my little favor is I'd appreciate it if you could go to this link and simply give him a thumbs up! That is it! No down voting for the other videos (please because a vote is a vote in this contest. So if you give them a negative vote it still counts. We want Mike to blow them out of the water!!!) Feel free to leave Mike encouraging comments! Just a simple vote for him! Daily would be appreciated but even ONE would help him! I really think he could do well given the chance! Mike is such a busy, devoted man and I'd love to see him win this. Mike exceeds in everything he does from being in the Air Force to being a new dad (of a gorgeous baby boy) to being on a bowling league to going to college to be a radiologist to doing THIS!

Nightmare Of Tomorrow
Look into my eyes All you see are blood shot eyes I say my prays' every night As the night turns into day ANgels cry out to us in pain Look at this world of today Cuasing the Divide Comedy to come to life Men, women, and children won't rise above Drowning in a pool of blood Look into my eyes of darkness Never ending pain I cry out for a hero Then I see myself with many others We stand above the pools As out mothers and fathers scream in pain Little brothers and sisters taken by angels Is this the end or a new beginnning? Then I awake with blood shot eyes As my heart beats louder than any drum

This Person May Start Trouble
people going to hate so let them have fun.@ fubar her profile says this MY NAME IS HAYLEY I AM MARRIED AND HAVE A SON I LOVE TO DEATH.IM A FUN EASY GOING PERSON MY PROFILE IS OPEN TO ALL TO SEE I DONT HIDE SHIT FROM PEOPLE MY EX AND HIS GIRLFREIND ARE TWO PEOPLE EVERYONE NEEDS TO STAY AWAY FROM THERE BOTH PISSED AT ME BECAUSE I MOVED ON FROM THE PAST AND THEY CANT.ONE THING I WILL NOT GO FOR IS PEOPLE TALKING ABOUT MY SON YOU DONT ME OR MY FAMILY SO YOU DONT NEED TO MAKE COMMENTS ABOUT MY SON.YES I AM A BITCH AND ITS FOR A REASON I GREW UP IN FOSTER CARE MY MOM WAS UNABLE TO CARE FOR ME AND MY SISTER AND MY MOM ENDED UP KILLING HER SELF WITH DEPRESSION AND NOT EATING I TALK TO MY SISTER EVERY MONTH MY DAD WAS NEVER AROUND DUE TO HIM BEING IN THE AIR FORCE WE DID SEE MY DAD ON HOLIDAYS I WAS ABUSED AS A KID AND WHEN I MET MY EX BOYFRIEND DAN HE ALSO ABUSED ME IT TOOK ME 9 YEARS TO LEAVE THE RELATIONSHIP AND THANKS TO MY HUBBY NOW FOR TALKING ME THREW IT I W

Every Military Man Should Know This....
What Every Military Man Should Know! 1.) If she wasn't emotional before, that is all about to change. 2.) You getting a higher rank could just mean an automatic free lay. 3.) Get her a pair of dog tags, ASAP, This is crucial, she will never take them off. 4.) Most of the time, you losing reception during training is your fault. (Though, she will eventually understand) 5.) Most of the time, everything is your fault. (This especially goes for when she is pregnant) 6.) She WILL start talking like your guys and you talk, including using your last names. 7.) Her patriotism could out-do most of your men... she will be proud... VERY proud. 8.) Be Ready: your car will end up with a yellow ribbon magnet or an "I LOVE MY _____" sticker eventually. (if you have seperate cars, hers will DEFINITLY have these) 9.) She will most likely need a pair of dog tags to hang from the car's rear view mirror. (see 3) 10.) Every week she'll have "another song" that makes her thin

In My Second Auction!
I AM IN MY 2ND AUCTION! THE FIRST ONE WAS AWESOME! & I MADE AN AMAZING FRIEND! SO PLEASE FEEL FREE TO COME BID ON ME! U WON'T REGRET IT, I PROMISE! THE LINK TO THE PAGE IS: VAMP MORTICIA~RL Girl & Fu-wife 2 JDHUNT~PUCKERZ WIFEY~Miah the Mack's Pimpette~CindaFella Owns@ fubar AND THE LINK TO ACTUALLY BID IS: THE AUCTION JUST OPENED TODAY(03-16-09) & RUNS UNTIL 03-30-09 WHICH IS IRONIC BECAUSE THAT'S MY 32ND B-DAY! SO PLEASE COME BID! & SHOW BOTH LINKS LOVE! THANKS 2 EVERYONE FOR ALWAYS BEING SO SUPER! LUV ALWAYS, APRIL

Irish Drinking
A Texan walks into a pub in Galway, Ireland and raises his voice to the crowd of drinkers. He shouts, 'I hear you Irish are a bunch of drinkin' fools. I'll give $500 American dollars to anybody in here who can drink 10 pints of Guinness back to back.' The room is quiet and no one takes of the Texan's offer. Paddy Murphy gets up and leaves the bar. Thirty minutes later, he shows back up and taps the Texan on the shoulder. Is your bet still good?' asks Paddy. The Texan answers, 'Yes', and he orders the barman to line up 10 pints of Guinness. Immediately, Paddy downs all 10 pints of beer, drinking them all back to back. The other pub patrons cheer and the Texan sits down in amazement. The Texan gives the Irishman the $500 and asks, 'If ya don't mind me askin', where did you go for that 30 minutes you were gone?' Paddy Murphy replies, 'Oh................... I had to go to the pub down the street to see if I could do it first.' Judgement The local District Judge had

Hilarious Convo With A Camgirl
ill create some back story she sent me a message on my shout box so i simply added her on yahoo cause her display name was her yahoo. come to find out shes common run of the mill cam girl. so i decided to have some fun. ill post the convo. so yeah comment and discuss? i want some responses? or am i just that much of a douchebag? jadex900: hello angel4u Mc Cain: hi asl jadex900: hey its ketzah from fubar so jadex900: lol 21/m/ok angel4u Mc Cain: im 20 f ca angel4u Mc Cain: how r u? jadex900: tired and cant sleep and you? angel4u Mc Cain: kinda bored right now....wanna have some fun and get naughty right now? jadex900: depends on what you mean angel4u Mc Cain: wanna see me pleasuring myself on c.am..fingerin..beads and dildos in my pussy and ass...its FREE coz u dont need to log in or enter the site to watch me...ill do my cam show on msn or yahoo and aim.... jadex900: its up to you angel4u Mc Cain: but im only giving a free show for those who willing to help me or give

Responses For Telemarketers
1. If they want to loan you money, tell them you just filed for bankruptcy and you could sure use some money. 2. If they start out with, "How are you today?" say, "I'm so glad you asked, because no one these days seems to care, and I have all these problems. My arthritis is acting up, my eyelashes are sore, my dog just died . . . " 3. If they say they're John Doe from XYZ Company, ask them to spell their name. Then ask them to spell the company name. Then ask them where it is located, how long it has been in business, how many people work there, how they got into this line of work if they are married, how many kids they have, etc. Continue asking them personal questions or questions about their company for as long as necessary. 4. This works great if you are male. Telemarketer: "Hi, my name is Judy and I'm with XYZ Company. " You: Wait for a second and with a real husky voice ask, "What are you wearing?" 5. Cry out in surprise, "Judy? Is that you? Oh my God! Judy, how h

I Love You But I'm Not In Love With You !
WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT SUPPOSED TO MEAN ANYWAYS ? IF YOU LOVE SOMEONE THEN YOU'RE IN LOVE WITH THEM ! YOU ARE ENGAGED IN THE ACT OF LOVING THERE FORE YOU ARE IN LOVE ! HONESTLY I THINK IT'S A COP OUT FOR SOMEONE TO USE SO THEY CAN WEASEL THEIR WAY OUT OF A RELATIONSHIP THEY NO LONGER ARE WILLING TO WORK ON ! COME ON W.T.F. IF IT'S WORTH HAVING IT'S WORTH WORKING ON ! NOT JUST SOMETHING YOU TOSS ASIDE AND LEAVE TO ROT. SO ALL THOSE WHO LIKE TO USE THAT TERM DO US ALL A FAVOR AND TAKE A FUCKING STAND EITHER LOVE US OR DON'T BUT FOR GODS SAKE STOP PLAYING WITH OUR HEARTS !

I Dont Understand
YES YOU GOT IT, TODAY IS A CRANKY DAY MUST BE MY BI-POLER SETTING IN! I THINK I DISCOVERED WHY AT TIME I WANT TO LEAVE THIS PLACE! I THOUGHT IT WAS ME REACHING OUT FOR HELP ON LEVL BUT GUESS WHAT THATS NOT THE REASON! THE REASON IS HERE>>> I RATE EVERYONES FOLDERS AND PICTURES BOTH MALE/FEMALES OK IVE NOTICED ALOT OF WOMEN ON HERE ARE SO SLUTTY LOOKING IT MAKES ME SICK TO SEE THEY ARE GETTING MAD LOVENS! THEIR TITS HANGING OUT THEIR ASS CRACKS SHOWING JUST FUCKING GROSS! WHY CANT WOMEN SHOW SOME SELF RESPECT ? FUCK I GOT THE ANSWER FOR THAT ! WHORES!!!!!! STUCK UP BITCHES ! MAKES ME SICK RATEING THEIR PICTURES! AND I HOPE ALL THE WHORES READ THIS BLOG IVE SAID WHATS ON MY MIND FOR TODAY HAVE A GREAT DAY FUBAR

Eid Or New Year'
yes today is our new year' it also symbolizes the coming of spring here... we all greet each other.. eid-e shome mubarak.." exactly how obama say it on tv'lol am too tired to explain the tradition.. just blogging'.. if christian has christmas decor, like christmas, we have what we call 7 s'... on our table... see the photo below.. and lots of fruits and tradiotional cookies and sweets, nuts.... candies... and dinner for family..

Toilet Paper
Here's a question that bugs me. Well, not much. I could've MUMMed it but then I'd have had to start with "This isn't a MUMM" and there would have been righteous smackdowns. So... Why is it that when toilet paper is on the roll, it's generally (unless it's low quality cheap crap) soft... But if you tear it off and leave it on the side for like half an hour, it goes harder?

Faktor 2- Lirika
в твоих глазах я утонул сначала захлебнувшись красотой души твоей скажи мне сколько ты ночей не спала задыхаясь от влечения и любви своей ты не устала когда в любовь сk

What Street Sign Are You?
You Are CURVES AHEAD When you're confronted with a problem, you take it on immediately - but with your eyes wide open. You deal with stress well. You take things as they come, and you don't panic. In fact, you often enjoy challenging situations. Difficulty makes you feel alive. You are alert and observant. You notice every twist and turn in the road. What Street Sign Are You?

I Could Not Finish My Bout Me
I was born moon. I am all that embodies that.I am interested in Music first and foremost.I tell it like it is and make it a point not to lie...but sometimes we all lie in the sound...but that's another day. i have the super power of being liked by many but few staying around for the whole show.I did not live a conventional life but i have stories.. stories i would like to tell because deep inside I am a writer waiting to change your life with a tell tale heart. I was crossed between the lights of the city and the country all my life which also makes for a two sided tale.I was thinking about my interests and while the list is very long i may start it.I do not fall into a genre I am just me.So because i like leopard print, old cars, and wanna have all of Mike Ness on a plate.. I am not a rockabilly chick. While all the loves of my life listened to metal as did I ,does not make me a metal head either. There is nothing better than the country.. bad weather.. bonfires.. tail gate parties..m

Love
iwanna i wanna be the man you come home to at night i wanna be that man that holds you through the night i wanna be the man that scares away your fears i wanna be the man that tells you everything will be alright i wanna be the man that will alwasy have your back(even in a chick fight) i wanna be the man that makes you tea when you are sick i wanna be the man who makes love to you all throu the night i wanna be the man who may not always be right but will love you for the rest of his life i wanna be the man that makes you laugh and dry your tears when you cry i wanna be the man that makes you smile and dream of the day we say "I do". i wanna be the man that does all these things but i need you to make them real.

I'm Back
I left Fubar about the middle of last summer I think it was. I'd gotten fed up of the drama here at home and some with a few friends I had on here. Now I've changed quite a bit, not a hell of a lot bothers me anymore. I can cope and handle things in a much better manner and besides I have two jobs so it isn't going to be a boring home life for me like it was. I've grown to be the type of person who really doesn't care what anyone things of me, just so long as I know I'm at ease and comfortable. I live in a 3 bedroom house around the Denton TX area in the boonies and I love it. Country life is excellent. I have 2 ankle biting dogs and one large Shepherd/Blk Wolf mix. I love them like they were my kids. However, they behave in such a manner at times. My life has changed for the better since I been gone. I now have a life. I come from a rural city in Northern Ontario, yep Farm girl, been through the military for 9 yrs of my life and then worked for the government of C

When Will I
When will i be the one that gets the peace that i need, just want serenity When will i be the girl who can hurt everyone like they hurt her When will i understand why things happen like this When will i be able to feel secure knowing that every day it isn't another competition that i wasn't aware i was competing in When will i feel like i'm not stabbed in the back by the ones i love so much and have done good things for When will i be able to say that it really doesn't matter When will i be allowed to feel pissed off at every guy that kicked me to the curb and went for one of my girls When will i never smile and laugh even though deep inside i'm crying out my eyes When will i rise above all your bullshit and realize that you are just a figment of my imagination When will i get the respect and honor that i know i deserve When will i learn that the person i am is a dead breed, we don't belong in this society When will i be able to open up my mouth and spit the shit that you al

Tommy Needs U Now!!!!! Autos On
Tommy ~ TOMMY~ PRINCE OF PIRATES AKA SLASH married to LIFES A BEACH AND MONICA THE GREAT@ fubar He Has Autos on He is also Fu-Married to the best women on fubar. So show this wonderful man some real fubar love So go rate him hard F/R/A/C/B & Bomb him.... AddictedBy Saving AbelBest Video Codes

A Glimpse In My Heart
Whereever you are right now I've been thinking of you all day Thoughts of you won't go away Been missing you so much more Than you will ever know Been listening to music And writing a lot Whereever you are right now My heart you took with you I found a song today It explained quite clear What I fear and what I long for I wonder if you even miss me When we are not together When I cannot hear your voice Or feel your touch Your kisses and hugs I remember how they feel in my dreams When I wake up and cannot see your face When I look around and your not here When all I feel next to me is empty space I miss you more than words can expess Thoughts of you won't stray from my mind Wherever you are is where I wish to be Although we are apart The smile in my heart continues strong It is that burning flame That open door That every second Makes me love you more

The Sound Of Abuse
The sound of abuse Dishes breaking, his fists are shaking. The children are crying, but mother's denying. Father's yelling, but no one is telling about the sound of abuse from behind the door. The baby is sleeping, mother is weeping. Brother is screaming while father is gleaming. Sister is crying as father is trying to force her into sex once more. You hear the screams, you hear the shouts, you hear the abuse, now there is no doubt. You hear the yelling and are finally telling about the sound of abuse from behind the door. Now brother's crying while testifying, sister's in the loony bin. Baby's dead and mothers head feels as if it's caving in. But the sound of abuse from behind the door will not be heard there anymore.

Unexplained Anger
Have you ever woken up with a busting head? You know theres gonna be a fight and you haven't even gotten out of bed? Have you ever walked out the door just wanting to fuck someone up? It doesnt matter who or when, why or over what? Have you ever been so pissed that your anger was undeniable? So fuckin mad that hitting a stranger felt completely justifiable? Have you ever wished someone would start running their fucking mouth? It doesnt matter what they say as long as it ends with you knocking their teeth out? Why am I so angry? Why am I so mad? Why am I so aggravated? I guess its just the night I had. Why do I feel so aggressive? Why do I feel so red? Why do I feel so violent? I guess I should go back to bed.

Life
I believe that life is only truly lived if one chooses to live it one day at a time. Thats not to say we shouldnt think of the future, but that we MUST embrace the moment, for if we spend all our time looking towards tomorrow we tend to lose today. This is how we miss out on life, how we lose sight of whats important, the little things that matter. This is how we miss out on memories in the making. What we need to do is slow down, take a nice long look at our lives, our children and ourselves... let it all soak in and start living. I mean, how many people do you know that REALLY know themselves? We only get one chance to live, and we don't exactly get a long time to get it right, so make it count. Tell your loved ones every day how much you love and care for them. Hold your friends close and your family closer. Make every day new and exciting. Play basketball, or a board or card game with your kids. Sit down at the table for a family dinner every night and just talk about a

Pissed
this is insencire when i look arround all i see is cock sucking queers queers, beers, peers ? i look at all of that and think of myself as a paul revere taking on the world with a battle rage i can put this all down on a page as i am speaking my mind your world is in a bind and you dont have time to come up with a ryme so dam!! im at a loss fuck it your the boss you like a randy moss scoring a touchdown but watchout because soon you will be in a bound to life... but ssshhhh... heres a secret ill tell it to you only once... if your lost and dont know the cost of life heres a lesson dont get involved early in your years with the opposite sex unless you know what your getting into cause if not youll be that paul revere takin on all thinking your 10 feet tall but thats not the way to go thats not the way of the flow go to school and get a degree dont be like me but what pisses me off most of all is when some one trying to be big and bad and coul

Us Roadtrip In June
things have been a bit on the down side here, im still jobless! ugh... and i still havent gotten that guinea pig...lol but im ultra excited, a friend and i are going cross country for a whole month. finally get to visit family/peeps in cali, mi, and well...everywhere else! but im not doing too much partying just need to get this gypsy bug out of my system and spend time with a good friend. it feels like its the only thing im looking forward to right now

My B-day Gift Collections.. Things Tht I Like'
this corner is absolutely hand off!! these are my gifts collections, those things that i received from friends over the years during my birthdays.. i love crystal , aside from bags and blouses and jeans... i love collecting stuff made of glass and small figurines... so one one is allowed to even get closer to this,,, lol'..

Thoughts For Today........................
Advice for the day: If you have a lot of tension and you get a headache, do what it says on the aspirin bottle: "Take two aspirin" and "Keep away from children." Oh, you hate your job? Why didn't you say so? There's a support group for that. It's called EVERYBODY, and they meet at the bar. The problem with the designated driver program, it's not a desirable job, but if you ever get sucked into doing it, have fun with it. At the end of the night, drop them off at the wrong house. Relationships are hard. It's like a full time job, and we should treat it like one. If your boyfriend or girlfriend wants to leave you, they should give you two weeks' notice. There should be severance pay, the day before they leave you, they should have to find you a temp. My Mom said she learned how to swim when someone took her out in the lake and threw her off the boat. I said, "Mom, they weren't trying to teach you how to swim." A study in the Washington Post says that women have bet

This Is What Marriage Is Really All About . . . . ..
This is what marriage is really all about . . . . .. He ordered one hamburger, one order of French fries and one drink. The old man unwrapped the plain hamburger and carefully cut it in half. He placed one half in front of his wife. He then carefully counted out the French fries, dividing them into two piles and neatly placed one pile in front of his wife. He took a sip of the drink, his wife took a sip and then set the cup down between them. As he began to eat his few bites of hamburger, the people around them kept looking over and whispering. You could tell they were thinking, 'That poor old couple - all they c an afford is one meal for the two of them.' As the man began to eat his fries a young man came to the table. He politely offered to buy another meal for the old couple. The old man said they were just fine - They were used to sharing everything. The surrounding people noticed the little old lady hadn't eaten a bite. She sat there watching her husband eat and occasionally t

Inside Of You
Infant Sorrow "Inside of You Lyrics" Old as ancient skies, I've had these wandering eyes, but you took me by surprise, when you let me Inside of You. Inside of You, Inside of You, There's got to be, some part of me Inside of You. Inside of You, I could cross this desert plain, Inside of You, I can hear you scream my name, Inside of You, While the stars unfold, I've crossed me heart and I've crossed the world, and I need you here and I need to be Inside of You. Now the flowers bloom, I feel you creep into my room, and if this should be our tune, I'll die here, Inside of You. And the world explodes, I've never been down this road, Teach me how to grow, While I'm movin' Inside of You. Inside of You, The restless find their dreams, Inside of You, This King has found his Queen, Inside of You, While the stars unfold, I've crossed me heart and I've crossed the world, and I need you here and I need to be Ins

Thinking Of Leavin Fubar For Good
I THINK THE DRAMA HAS GOTTEN OUT OF CONTROL ON HERE AND NOW I AM SERIOUSLY THINKING OF DELETING THIS ACCOUNT AN SAYING GOOD BYE TO FUBAR FOR GOOD EVER HAVE THOSE DAYS WHERE YOUR HAVING A GOOD ONE THEN ALL OF A SUDDEN SHIT GOES SOUTH? AND THE PAST THAT YOU THOUGHT YOU LEFT BEHIND CAME BACK TO HAUNT YOU WELL THAT SHIT HAPPENS TO ME ALL THE TIME....THERES A REASON WHY THINGS HAPPEN IN LIFE AND ALWAYS A REASON FOR MOVING ON I THINK I JUST NEED TO GO MIA FOR GOOD!

To Put It Simply..i Want You
I want to be your companion and walk hand in hand, your strength enveloping mine. Autumn leaves falling, scuffing feet and laughter, sharing nights, not finished by the dark. I want to be your confidant as you pen your deepest thoughts, as your heartaches bleed and finally break free. Your dreams, I keep as if my own. I want to smile as you smile and giggle with you at nothing at all. I want to be your lover and find the passions that move you to action. I want to be the softness that induces you to trust. I want to be the naughty that makes you come back for more. I want to please you. I want to share your breakfast and your dinner, I want you in the shower and in your bed and with soft steps to bring you coffee (I take mine black) Your strong arms, the legs that power your thrust, your lips of pleasure, these are the fuel of my desire no it is no secret, my love, and to put it very simply, I want you.

A Mother Of A Job
Oh, I have been writing from the depths of my soul and off the top of my head for quite awhile now. I have had a number of complaints - WE DUNT WANNA HEAR BOUT YER BEING A MOTHER N BEING RESPENSIBAL IN LIFE!! But also some thanks for sharing the reality of my life, and the fantastic voyage of my mind. None of it would change my quest, regardless. I write because someday I will be gone from the place where I can speak my words to my kith and kin, but they will know me and their ancestors from what I write now. My own grandmother gave that gift to me. I only wish I had the resources of all my ancestors memories and experiences - verbatim, without the gloss of revised history. Someday I will print out all the many pages of the life experiences and mind adventures that I have accrued, and the resounding message is this: I LOVE YOU, MY CHILDREN, FOREVER AND ALWAYS. NO MATTER WHAT. MOMMA LOVES YOU. Today it is especially important for me to write that, and it has been spoken. So

Heres One For The "oldies"
CONGRATULATIONS TO ALL MY FRIENDS WHO WERE BORN IN THE 1930's 1940's, 50's, 60's and early 70's ! First, we survived being born to mothers who smoked and/or drank while they carried us and lived in houses made of asbestos. They took aspirin, ate blue cheese, raw egg products, loads of bacon and processed meat, tuna from a can, and didn't get tested for diabetes or cervical cancer. Then after that trauma, our baby cots were covered with bright coloured lead-based paints. We had no childproof lids on medicine bottles, doors or cabinets and when we rode our bikes, we had no helmets or shoes, not to mention, the risks we took hitchhiking. As children, we would ride in cars with no seat belts or air bags. We drank water from the garden hose and NOT from a bottle. Take away food was limited to fish and chips, no pizza shops, McDonalds , KFC, Subway or Nandos. Even though all the shops closed at 6.00pm and didn't open on the weekends, somehow we didn't

Tear Is Frozen
Like every hope I’ve ever had Like every dream I’ve ever known It was washed away in the tears Tears for better tomorrow From my will to the river To the sea Wash away,fade away Every tear is frozen All the laughter is gone away All life shall end in death When the ice cold snow Has come This time Eternal All has blackened All light has fade away In purity we enter to the light Remembering only what was left For I cannot enslave myself With imaginary words of resurrection For my sins I will ask no forgiveness For my sins They are not to forgive I woke up bathing in the pale silver light Everything was frozen around me All has blackened All light has fade away Sky were covered with black curtain Every tear is frozen which i cry......

Toads What
EAT A LIVE TOAD IN THE MORNING AND NOTHING WORSE CAN HAPPEN TO YA ALL DAY.... Accept that some days you're the pigeon, and some days you're the statue Forgive your enemies. It messes with their heads What happens if you get scared half to death twice? Vegetarian - that's an old Indian word meaning "lousy hunter" ok now u have some eroneous shit to think about-- keep the cheer ya'll

Face To Face~ Part2
I was a nervous, but I was prepared. In a new tuxedo with two dozen red roses, I rang the doorbell. Shela answered the door with shock written allover her face, "Jerry, wha..." "Excuse me Miss, I know it may seem forward but I would like to ask if you would care to accompany me to dinner some evening," I asked as I presented the flowers to her. She could barely see over the bouquet, "Jerry," she said questioningly. "Shela," I questioned back. We did have dinner, that night and every night thereafter. I found that she was everything a woman should be, sweet, kind, loving and most of all, we could talk. I found a best friend first, we were and are so compatible. I think the love was there from the start, but I let Shela set the pace. She had some trust issues with men, but we jumped that hurdle together. Shela finally opened up and bloomed like a flower. She no longer tries to hide her beauty behind those frumpy clothes. As for me, there is only so much that success or mon

Demise Of A Fairy Tale *c1*
words float upon autumn breeze the looks upon our faces ask why there are days where the feeling we embrace the sun is on my back as i make my move i've given you the best i have of me the way my heart bleeds for you leaves dry my once brilliant greenish brown eyes could you fake it so well i couldn't tell as you wiped the tears from my face the love you say you have for me i ask you to prove ignorance and avoidance, you play those cards my hand dealt, i'm holding back my queen of hearts to you its merely a fear to me its real love my dear it's always scary when the feeling starts but the way you've come to treat me gives this demise of a fairy tale romance my best regards

How About You *c2*
speak to me what you are speak to you what i have become day starts I do what I do then there come the what about you? stories are missing pieces just speak to me the truth what you do is just what you do ask me what be of my fantasies to you I tell everything in this life is a possibility why fantasize when I can go and do I learned to live outside my shell and how about you? realm of fantasies untold you won't just go live because you think the world is cold and what color or colors do I fancy bright greens, red or crimson, pink and perhaps a brilliant eye color of blue how about you colorless black, a void you hold onto

It's So Important :`(
On february 15th at 2am we lost a son, brother, and friend. John Fullmer IV was killed because of a drunk driving accident. Alcohol-related accidents are the leading cause of deaths among young people On average someone is killed by a drunk driver every 40 minutes Deaths from alcohol are 100% preventable PLEASE PROMISE NOT TO DRINK AND DRIVE. IF YOU DO DRINK HAVE A DESIGNATED DRIVER. AND NEVER LET A FRIEND GET IN A CAR WITH A DRUNK DRIVER DONT FORGET TO REMEBER JOHN and OTHERS WHO HAVE DIED BEACUSE OF ALCOHOL WHEN YOU MAKE A DESISION TO GET IN A CAR WITH A DRUNK DRIVER

Beliefs
Childhood grandmother. Her writing raised others Claiming: Poor marriage endeavors! Marriage extended, married, Respect of husband. Yet, she too, is she that is! The volunteer forgot. Want, claims to know. Marriage became home. After house, and before you,Unleashed me my switch. She that is! Easygoing females. Alcohol leaving. Religious flipped. She that is. Beliefs, I many allowed. And who doesnt reflect? Is she unreasonable? No. She too, is.

The Weep Of Silent Heart
The Weep of Silent Heart No small tears can amount, to promises made with a lot of doubt. Saddened eyes like crystal glass, A broken shatter ment to last. A broken heart with a cut so deep, Now a silent heart will forever weep

Today.
Im sick. I have being sick. Its possibly to the fact that I havent slept all weekend, but who knows. Tomorrows the day I finally move into my apartment. Im pretty excited about that. Ive also decided that Im ready to share some of my poetry. I dont show them to many people cause poetry was my way of expressing my feelings. This one is titled Lifeless. Her face was blank like an eraser had come and taken her emotion away Her body was still no movement nor pulse no tremble nor twitch Her hair was black as black as the winter nights sky with no stars Her blood was glowing red as the holy heart oozing and dripping from her body I was frozen could not move could not breathe watching her lay there Lifeless. Thanks for reading.

Pain.
Pain can be pain It can be love It can be hate But it cant be pain Hurt can hurt Hurt can bleed Hurt can see But it cant be pain Love can be real Love can be happy Love can be joy But it cant be pain Tears can be happy Tears can be sad Tears can be wet But it cant be pain Blood can be red Blood can be black Blood can leak But it cant be pain Pain can be real Pain can be fake Pain can be me But it cant be pain Thanks for reading

Who Was Ur Last???
RULE 1: You opened this; you GOTTA take it RULE 2: You are NOT ALLOWED to explain ANYTHING unless someone messages you and asks! LAST PERSON YOU.... [1] Who was the last person you texted? JENNY [2] You were in the car with? My brother [3] Went to the mall with? Myself [4] Person you talked on the phone with? slave princess [5] You messaged/commented on Fubar? GLORIA T/F Only answer with True or False Q:Kissed some one on your fu-family? False Q: Been searched By Cops? True Q: Been suspended from school? True Q: Sat on a roof top? True Q: Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? True Q: Broken a bone? True Q: Have shaved your head? False Q: Played a prank on someone? True Q: Had/have a gym membership? True Q: Shot a gun? True Q: Donated Blood? True WOULD YOU RATHER: [1] Eat or drink? drink [2] Be serious or be funny? Funny [3] Go to the beach or mountains? beach

The Plan
You gotta love Robin Williams.......Even if he's nuts! Leave it to Robin Williams to come up with the perfect plan. What we need now is for our UN Ambassador to stand up and repeat this message. Robin Williams' plan...(Hard to argue with this logic!) 'I see a lot of people yelling for peace but I have not heard of a plan for peace. So, here's one plan.' 1) 'The US will apologize to the world for our 'interference' in their affairs, past & present. You know, Hitler, Mussolini, Stalin, Tojo, Noriega, Milosevic, Hussein, and the rest of those 'good 'ole' boys', we will never 'interfere' again. 2) We will withdraw our troops from all over the world, starting with Germany , South Korea , the Middle East , and the Philippines . They don't want us there. We would station troops at our borders. No one allowed sneaking through holes in the fence. 3) All illegal aliens have 90 days to get their affairs together and leave We'll give them a free trip home. After 90 days the remainde

Me
Sitting here in the dark. Listening to music. Feeling the tears forming behind my eyes. Trying to grasp the reasons for those tears. Not sure why or where they are coming from, just knowing that they are there. Afraid of the changes to come. Not sure if I'm strong enough to handle them. Wishing for things that can't happen. Knowing that this isn't how I had my life planned out. Smiling slightly because I've been told over and over that you can make plans.. But God is the one that has the final say in a majority of those plans. Knowing that I wouldn't change certain things that have happened. Knowing that I'm a better person for the things that have happened. Even if no one else understands or even respects it. I am me. For all of my faults and promises. For all of my mistakes. For all of the good things I've done. This is me.

From My E-diary
Want to know how to save a life? Be an organ donor!!! Today I was VERY fortunate and had a very RARE oppurtunity as a nursing student to scrub in on a liver transplant. I can honestly say it was THE most amazing thing I've ever seen! From ONE person donating their organs, 4 lives were saved today at this hospital alone! Not only is it rare for a student nurse, or any nurse that doesn't work in the OR for that matter, to see a surgery like this but also thankfully the surgeon was so nice to us and he let us stand beside him at the operating table and see pretty much everything he did! He was very involved and concerned about teaching students, even if they weren't medical students, which is another rare thing in itself! I was able to see a diseased liver taken out, a new donated liver put in, and be there to witness this gray, lifeless liver come to life and turn pink as the patient's blood filled it with life. What an AMAZING thing to witness! After seeing a person give

Yes We Can!!!
Yes we can was the chant of 08, And it appears this man possess qualities needed to become great, So many challenges such a daunting task, After 8 years of suffering from the neo-cons wrath, His promises raise hopes to levels unknown, Lets start by ensuring our jobs will stay here at home, Build more schools less bombs and tanks, Please President Obama, protect us from the predatory banks, Lets start to reform corporations, Especially the part that gives them the rights of a person, War crimes were committed by those before you, Love to see them in there own cells in Guantanamo, Oh yeah our environment is in dire shape, And with you can be the start of a new age, Where people do come first, But not at the expense of our Mother Earth!!! truthsquad 09

Im No Different Than Most!!!
See i'm no different than most, Substance abusing parents are the ones I chose, Makes no difference if the kids can read & write, So long as the parents got their fix at the end of the night, Yeah these the parents and life I chose, Hunger pains and ass whoopins with extension cords, I envision pops in the stands as I hit a game winner, Or moms waiting for us with one of those specially cooked dinners, Poof, that dreams up in smoke, Moms lungs cant handle that big a toke, Bed, tv, and xbox all sold for some crack, Hope this shit ends here before she ends up on smack, 33yrs, I got these same lie filled tears streakin my face, Where'd ya go, The've taken my moms and put you in her place, 3 different step dads trying to make me their own, Yeah these the parents and life I chose, As a young seed alone pushed out the

I'm Just Tired.....
This is the place where I sit This is the part where I love you too much This is as hard as it gets Cause I'm getting tired of pretending I'm tough I'm here if you want me I'm yours, you can hold me I'm empty and achin' And tumblin' and breakin' Cause you don't see me And you don't need me And you don't love me The way I wish you would The way I know you could I dream a world where you understand That I dream a million sleepless nights Well I dream a fire when you're touching my hand But it twists into smoke when I turn on the lights I'm speechless and faded It's too complicated Is this how the book ends, Nothing but good friends? Cause you don't see me And you don't need me And you don't love me The way I wish you would The way I wish you would This is the place in my heart This is the place where I'm falling apart Isn't this just where we met And is this the last chance that I'll ever get I wish I was lonely Instead of just only Crystal

Razor Bed
Sleepless nights under the stormy clouds Fading to the sea of tears The stream of the time Flows through my mind Drowning to my burning cradle Sinking into the grave Falling to the depths Sleeping on the razor bed Million razors draws onto me Painting me red by my blood The rain pours all the fears away Im falling to the eversleep Give me the good dream Secure my way towards the light Open the gates Wake me up In the other side...

The Dance
The Dance Author: SirWolfr1 © To view more of SirWolfr1's poetry visit A True Rose Used With Author's Permission A lonely submissive slowly climbed the stairs And unto her computer did go Her movements were slow and filled with pain Her limbs were stiff and slow She eased herself into the chair And tried wisely not to cry out As her abused flesh did protest and rage From this latest D/s bout He had claimed to be a Master She knew him now to be nothing of the kind He had weaved his lies so skillfully, And she wondered, "Could time ease this pain of heart and mind?" Not just the pain of battered flesh She knew, in a few days that would fade But the pain in her soul, the shattered trust The mockery of everything she held dear that he had made. She remembered her ex-husbands words How he had told her that she was sick And how she had trusted once her dearest frie

Just Die....
Shut your mouth darling you are always moaning I'm so sick of you Your touch makes me wanna throw up; I wish you could just leave and grow up and please don't ever again show up You are like a disease you don't ever release So could you just please please, please, please, die....... >

Lessons
I must remember to put on my list the importance of learning that sometimes I have to stop fooling myself into believing things will be/are different. I'm approaching a point in my life where it will be very important for me to be aware of the situations in my life, be aware of how things really are, and to see the writing on the wall. The truth is, I allow myself to be delusional because it is comforting to get what you want, even if getting what you want only occurs in some imagined way. I've dealt with disappointment before, felt the sting of knowing that while what I wanted was one thing, the reality was that the one thing I really wanted was not only improbable, but I was dumb for thinking it was attainable. Why now, is it so hard for me to accept that while on the surface, my world has the trappings of the design in which I truly wish? The truth is shown to me in the simplest of ways, but it seems that the simplest of truths hurt the most. Is it not so that a paper-cut, whi

Sometimes It's Gonna Rain...
I wish everyone would stop trying (and succeeding) in trying to make me feel like a failure. I mean, seriously...I'm not. I know I'm not. But everyone seems to look down on me because I'm not persuing a college degree...you know what? Screw all of you. I'm not wasting money on schooling that my heart's not into. I can't help that my true calling in life, what I want to do more than anything- does not wield a profit. I'm not looking for a degree to get some high paying job like 90%, probably more, college students. They don't teach you how to successfully fund and open a nonprofit, free clinic for less-priviledged people. I want to open a center that serves a variety of purposes=Soup kitchen, homeless shelter, free clinic for those without health insurance or money, a safe haven for rape/abuse victims and children...That is want I want to do. I was always told that you can do anything you set your mind to. Well, this is what I want to do. Sure it's not going to happen anytime soon, a

Divorcing Parents
your children have come into this world because of the two of you. perhaps you two made lousy choices as to whom you decided to be other parent if so that is your problem and your fault no matter wat you think of the other party or wat yalls families thnk of the other party the children are one half of you member tht cuz when you talk bad about the other person or call them names in front of the kids tht affects the kids cuz you are saying tht they are bad in case yall dint know tht is a unforgivable thing and it will destroy the children in away tht you wouldnt believe especially tht will toy with there emotions i hope people these days think more bout there children thasn bout them selves so make your kid a good kid not a foolish one who has no self esteem wat so ever and they wont have ne friends i know cuz i have been there but other than tht i hope yall understand wat this means

Death Makes Angels Of Us All
And gives us wings, where we had sholders smooth as ravens claws" -jdm- My grandmother died last night while I was on my way up to Denver. The funeral is on friday. But I don't know how I will spin that one at work. I came home early today cos I felt sick. But I wasn't about to tell my boss that I really don't think its the flu, I think its that I'm so terribly worried about you. And that I'm stressed out about my Grandma dieing. That in a few months it will be the aniversary of my friends suicide. I'm so sick of death. And of people talking about it. Sick of friends that call me up in the middle of the night telling me that they are going to kill themselvs. Sick to death that the people I love don't want to live anymore. Sick that the person my friend is in love with just OD'd on heroine and is lucky to have his life. Tired of staying up for years and years holding someones head up. Stoping you from jumpin. Being responsible. Being the adult. Being the mother figure. I just can't ha

Put Her In Her Place~ Part4
Rubbing her mound had progressed to two fingers inside her sweet little hole. Now she was protesting to her new owner that she shouldn't be a slave. She was of noble birth and he should release her to take her rightful place in the monarchy of her home country. He laughed at her and told her to accept her fate and her life would be better. She screamed at him to let her go. Taking her by the arm, he pulled her across his lap, pinned her there with one arm while raising her skimpy loincloth with the other He slapped her exposed bottom hard and asked if she wanted to cease her protestations. She refused. He slapped her again and again. Always on her bottom. He never strayed to other areas. He was punishing her for misbehavior and to let her know where she stood. She was his to do with as he pleased and she had better believe it. The more he spanked her, the more she squirmed. June's fingers were now moving in and out of her pussy rapidly. The speed increased as the fantasy continued.Her

Last Words
Last WordsWe could sail away through this desert,just grab my handand close your eyes.Maybe, if we believed-(No, it's too hard,magic ain't real)-and held on a little tighter,I could fall into your lyricsand we could wrap you in my verse.I'm gettin' a little tiredfrom standing wearyalldaylong.I hold my guardand my tonguejust so that I may be smacked downin a defiant act.This is me surviving.This is you running scared.Here's to youwith your dancing memories..I gasp down the poisonand you soothe the fire with yourwords.The hour glass keeps swallowing me;it devours my dreams and hopes.You always said that we couldfly away.Where are your angel wings now?

Bestmoviestar Calendar
Welcome To bestmoviestar calendar blogI'm Jackeline Dalton a 26yr italian girl from Nevada, hosting a single room in my -best-moviestar video live session, most of the time online, around afternoons and evenings.And if that time isn't good for you. Don't be sad, book a private session with me for the next 24 hours so than I will be able to bring back your lost naughty smiles.*wink/wink*Join my fan Club now and have fun with me in free fanclub shows. News* Comming in soon my personal calendar with HD quality of picture.Fresh HD Movies with amazing outfits with hollyday of month. Check here my scheadule for free fan club shows.first week of : Mar/2009 Sunday's = 2PM TO 2:30PMMonday's = 2:30PM TO 3:30PMTuesday's =3:30PM TO 4:00PMWednesday's = 4:00PM TO 4:30PMThursday's = 4:30PM TO 5:30PMFriday's = 5"30PM TO 6:00PMSaturday's= 6:30PM TO 7:00PM Ps: Every week the time will change so keep an eye on here so you won't missed a thing.*wink* Register your Free Membership Now & Join M

Brother & Sisters Of The Earth
As the sun rises over our heads into the blue skys,We sit upon that mountain of golden sands eyes looking up,Watching upon the mystery that is nature & life whisking bye,Paws shall climb & grasp at everything avaiable to keep whatevers there.From the highest peaks to the depths off the ocean,The wind wisps slowly bye in pales shades as ripples develop,Watching reflections form off love & hate develop around the head,The leaves grow & drop as nature so intended, the circle of life.The moss grows over solid rocks consuming the dew off the morning,Sitting under gushing fountains passing warmth unto all underneath,The foialage grows true & green creating a vast jungle of green,Those who tread through these paths & seasons know they have lived.Whatever weather falls from up above we'll keep growing,Strong & Proud at all we have achieved in life & Love,Gently blowing in the cool warm breeze we spread our seed's,To be reborn somewhere new & continue our growth somewhere new.Wipe away those te

Endlessly (for You)
The essence of living is life, the essence of day is light, our very purpose for existance is love much in the way that I love you.Thru clouds shadowed with doubt and fearThru and beyond all the things I hold forever nearThru rain and sun and all these thingsMy love for you remains as beautiful as the springThru height and depth and far off placeFar beyond the dark outer spaceFar from any place that man's eyes have never seenBeyond all of our very own understandingMy love for you shall carry onOn and on til all existance is far goneAnd it shall be stronger in that dayThan it was in the beginning this wayWhen I tell you forever my love is trueIt is more pure than the bluest of blueIt is more lovely than the blue bird songAgain I remind you, my love goes on and onEach night when you lay your head down upon your bedAnd the day has passed and you think of all that was saidI hope you hear these sweet words mine Playing over and over in your dear mindAnd in that moment, I hope you findGreat

Second 24 Hours~
I stripped off what was left of my clothing, seeing how rumpled and dishevelled I looked after he had used me. Still, when I looked in the bathroom mirror, I noticed a healthy-looking blush on my cheeks. It would be hard to convince anyone that I hadn’t enjoyed the rough treatment he’d given me, because truthfully, I had. I started the shower, and then decided to use the toilet while the water warmed. When I finished, I decided not to flush it right away, because it would affect the temperature of the water. I figured I could flush it when I got out of the shower, and I really wanted to clean up. I glanced around to see if there was something I could use to pin my hair out of the way while I washed. Snatching a comb off of the counter, I scooped my hair up and stuck the comb in it to fix it out of my face while I scrubbed the sweat of our encounter off of my body. I stepped into the shower, and began lathering my body, beginning with my neck and working my way down, being

The Rules Of Chocolate.....mmmmmmmmmmm!
If you get melted chocolate all over your hands, you're eating it too slowly.Chocolate covered raisins, cherries, orange slices and strawberries all count as fruit, so eat as many as you want.The problem: How to get two pounds of chocolate home from the store in a hot car. The solution: Eat it in the parking lot.Diet tip: Eat a chocolate bar before each meal.It'll take the edge off your appetite and you'll eat less.A nice box of chocolates can provide your total daily intake of calories in one place. Isn't that handy?If you can't eat all your chocolate, it will keep in the freezer. But if you can't eat all your chocolate, what's wrong with you?If calories are an issue, store your chocolate on top of the fridge. Calories are afraid of heights, and they will jump out of the chocolate to protect themselves.Money talks. Chocolate sings.Chocolate has many preservatives. Preservatives make you look younger.Why is there no such organization as Chocoholics Anonymous?Because no one wants to qu

Show Some Love
HEY PLEASE SHOW SOME LOVE FOR A REALLY GOOD FRIEND THAT PASSED AWAY SATURDAY. HE WAS A BROTHER I ALWAYS WANTED. GIVE MUCH LOVE PLEASESCREEN NAME DOPEYREAL NAME NICK LATHORPR.I.P. WE MISS YOU SO MUCH AND WILL NEVER BE FORGOTTENhttp://fubar.com/user/1683073

Rob Pattinson-never Think
I should never thinkWhat's in your heartWhat's in our homeSo I won't You'll learn to hate meBut still call me babyOh loveSo call me by my name And save your soulSave your soulBefore your to far goneBefore nothing can be done I'll try to decide whenShe'll lie in the endI ain't got no fight in meIn this whole damn worldSo hold offShe should hold offIt's the one thing that I've known Once I put my coat onI coming out in this all wrongShe standing outside holding meSaying oh pleaseI'm in loveI'm in love Girl save your soulGo on save your soulBefore it's to far goneAnd before nothing can be done Cause without meYou got it allSo hold onWithout me you got it allSo hold onWithout me you got it allWithout me you got it allSo hold onWithout me you got it allWithout me you got it allSo hold on

Funny Newspaper Ads
As the following classified classics will demonstrate, there are often more laughs on the advertising and classified pages than you can find in the cartoons and comic strips: Lost: small apricot poodle. Reward. Neutered. Like one of the family. A superb and inexpensive restaurant. Fine food expertly served by waitresses in appetizing forms. Dinner Special -- Turkey $2.35; Chicken or Beef $2.25; Children $2.00. For sale: an antique desk suitable for lady with thick legs and large drawers. For sale: a quilted high chair that can be made into a table, pottie chair, rocking horse, refrigerator, spring coat, size 8 and fur collar. Four-poster bed, 101 years old. Perfect for antique lover. Now is your chance to have your ears pierced and get an extra pair to take home, too. Wanted: 50 girls for stripping machine operators in factory. Wanted: Unmarried girls to pick fresh fruit and produce at night. We do not tear your clothing with machinery. We do it carefully by hand.

My Response To The Teaparty Thing That Got Deleted
poll asked if we supported left-wing extremist or the grass roots movement lame government crap non-mumm poll...yay left wing extremist were communists Lenin being the most famous but communism doesn't work cause people are lazy and humans being the greedy little shits they are have a lust for more then they need or deserve grassroots movement refers to getting local people involved like mini societies... now while self govenment is a good idea but people as a whole are uninformed and easily swayed so there is no such thing as a democracy and self governing parties don't work i support neither... i was a little disappointed that i didn't get to throw in my 2 cents but sho assured me this crap would be posted again by some idiot soon enough... so now i don't have to write it out again

A Dog Named Sex
Everybody I know who has a dog usually calls him "Rover" or "Spot". I call mine Sex. Now, Sex has been very embarrassing to me. When I went to the City Hall to renew the dog's license, I told the clerk that I would like a license for Sex. He said, "I would like to have one too!" Then I said, "But she is a dog!" He said he didn't care what she looked like. I said, "You don't understand. ... I have had Sex since I was nine years old." He replied, "You must have been quite a strong boy." When I decided to get married, I told the minister that I would like to have Sex at the wedding. He told me to wait until after the wedding was over. I said, "But Sex has played a big part in my life and my whole world revolves around Sex." He said he didn't want to hear about my personal life and would not marry us in his church. I told him everyone would enjoy having Sex at the wedding. The next day we were married at the Justice of the Peace. My family is barred from the church from then on.When my wif

Fake Ass Rating
oh damm my philosophy was to rate others pics with no less than 10 but i came across a pic i just cant give a ten damm tits hanging out like sauages hair never seen conditioner in its life then bags under her eyes tat the airline will charge extra to board tat face neva seen makeup but maybe foundation wont stick falls into da giant pores so to my philosophy i guess its no rating at all so i dont break ma word

Repost
This was a repost of a blog a friend of a friend posted. I just wanted everybody to see what the government REALLY thinks of us.......... The Department of Homeland security has black listed Vets. as possible domestic terrorist. They have informed law enforcement to be on the look out for vets as possible terrorist. So now I have to worry about driving around with my Vet plates I am a target. This morning I wrote a post about a Homeland Security paper that warned about “right wing extremists” and the threat that they may pose to the government. This paper basically lumped in people who are either pro second amendment, anti abortion, anti illegal immigration, or pro smaller government (or more than one or all of the above) with white supremacists and domestic terrorists. As maddening as I found that paper there was one aspect to the paper that I missed this morning and to me it is much more egregious. This is what the Department of Homeland Security thinks about our m

Is This The Way The World Is?
Is this the way the world isIs this the way the world isA billion lines drawn in the sandBorders jealously retainedRight by might cruelly definesThe boundaries and the battle linesThe rich exploit the destituteAbandon the unfortunateWhen is it said ‘I have enough’To share and give in charityHow many die in want and needIn the shadow of excess and greedIs this the way the world isHungry children sadly smileHere for just a little whileFar too oppressed to wonder whyJust waiting for their turn to dieWhat few care for the helpless poorThe broken ones- outcast, uncleanThe ailing ones in with’ring throesWho cares for plight and needs of thoseAre they lifted up to rise againOr forgotten by their fellow menIs this the way the world isClans and tribes of angry menHate for nothing more than skinPeaceful ideologyDistorted into calumnyChildren of the aftermathRaped of the little that they haveWhen men-their bloody standards raiseTo play their games of death and powerThe innocent

All About Me"
This is all about me” It’s me, mylene and things about me. 15 questions: 1. My two best physical characters Well, according to people, friends, relatives and other people, they said that, I have a cute face, don’t say hmmm, and nice boobs and body, although am lacking in height, but whatever, I simply being love being me” 2. My two best personal characteristic. I think, I am very flexible, very easy and funny to get along with, and “sincere to the max..” 3. Most of my friend describes me as

Ok Here We Go
I have never written in a blog before. I am Jamesie not very good looking and dont have many friends. But I am a happy person who spends a lot of time with my collection of postage stamps and chocloate wrappers. I think collecting chocolare wrappers is really fun, and if you are reading this and you also collect let me know and maybe we can swap some. Thats it for now. I might do some more tommorow

If I
If I could whisper in your earI'd know just what to say,If I could hold you close my dearI'd do this everyday,If in your eyes I could take one glanceI know with your love I'd take no chance,If ever one day I were to lose your lovemy mind could not erasethe love, joy, and smiles you'veput on my face,Not one day do I want to live without you,Not one moment are you off my mind,Be with me forever,until the end of time

Distraction......
Describe your relationship status:married What were you doing at 10am this morning?finishing up doing stuff around the house Is there someone you wish you were still close with?yes... but shit happens How was your Valentine’s Day?it was ok How much older/younger is the person you're currently interested in?does age really matter? Remember the first time you kissed the last person you kissed?yes Has anyone said they love you in the last week?of course!! Do you usually have weird dreams?sometimes Have you ever made anyone cry?i have. i sorry...... How long do you have until your birthday?about 10 months Have you ever slept in a bed with a member of the same sex?yes... i have 2 daughters.... so dont get gross on me Who did you last talk to in person?my BFF Stefanya!!! Will the next person you kiss be the same person you last kissed?always! Do you want your tongue pierced?ewww... Are there any bruises on your body?nope Last awkward moment?a couple weeks ago in a very

The Booger Man!
THE BOOGER MAN Current mood: amusedI am that shit stain on your sheets I am that queef that blows out your fuckin kneesI am that ring around your toiletI am that damn plastic bag stuck to your spoilerI am a fart that lingers...that remainder booger thats stuck to your fingerI am that asshole staring at your assI am the pleasure when you pass gasI am the booger man... oh no not the boogy manI got the masterplan so come and take my handI am the booger man, oh no no Im not your friendI am the booger man!

I Believe...
I BELIEVE... Current mood: contentI believe there is sweetness where theres nothing but sour bitternessI believe happiness is best achieved through unconsciousnessI believe in counting minutes backwards towards the hour because time is not foreverI believe sexy is a naked man standing erect in a heated shower not noticing my stare I believe love to be a bandit who robbed my 3rd eye blindI believe ignorant bliss is closing your eyes and taking a piss while sitting in the midst of your own aromatic shit, and enjoying itI believe a fist can be a loving relationship between your lips and my fingertips, or sometimes your anusI believe true love is when sweat drips from my chest down to the nest where I lay my eggs that rest with all intents of one day being blessed with the process of procreation...I believe sex to be a mutual dance of two dead souls reuniting in the flesh where they awaken refreshed from death to find happiness... sacred bliss, synergistic nothingness captures my insi

The Penis Asks For A Raise
The Day the Penis asked for a Raise I, the Penis, hereby request a raise in salary for the following reasons: I do physical labor.I work at great de pths. I plunge headfirst into everything I do.I do not get weekends or public holidays off.I work in a damp environment.I work in a dark workplace that has poor ventilation. I work in high temperatures.My work exposes me to contagious diseases. Sincerely,P. NissThe Response Dear Penis:After assessing your request, and considering the arguments you have raised, the administration rejects your request for the following reasons: You do not work 8 hours straight.You fall asleep after brief work periods.You do not always follow the orders of the management team. You do not stay in your designated area and are often seen visiting other locations. You do not take initiative - you need to be pressured and stimulated in order to start working.You leave the workplace rather messy at the end of your shift.You don't always observe necessary safety

Total Destruction With Total Deliverance
“And the LORD spake unto Moses, saying, Speak unto the children of Israel, that they turn and encamp before Pi-hahiroth, between Migdol and the sea, over against Baal-zephon: before it ye shall encamp by the sea.” Just when you thought the LORD would be done dealing with Egypt where the Israelites had ended their four hundred thirty year slavery, we see the LORD once more hardening Pharaoh’s heart (and I expect acting on his frustration at his will being defied by another god – how he’d think, since Pharaoh was supposed to be a living god himself – who spoke through a fugitive from Egyptian justice and a former slave) as Moses leads the children of Israel in the beginning of the fourteenth chapter of Exodus. Understand that hardening Pharaoh’s or anyone’s heart doesn’t mean that the LORD takes away a person’s free will; He’ll never do that. Verse five begins with Pharaoh “the king of Egypt” being told that

Hmmm
i was thinking that most social networking sites like this one represent a true cross section of what american's dating/social scene is like. i see lots of men joining. i see lots of women unsingle. and the men may not be on the up and up because women usually are honest about their relationship status. so...does that mean more men are single on here than the women? and if so, what's wrong with the men and as far as the women unsingle, y go to a meat market when u got it offline? or does it make u feel more sexy if others admire u?

Back On Earth!!!!
So I'm Back on Earth! just an update on things in my life. Well so i have been doing Chemo Still its going good the tumors in my stomach are starting to shrink witch is pretty good. they have me doing this new type of Chemo its a chamber it seams to be working. Also i have got back together with my Childhood Sweetheart and we are now going on 11 Years we are Engaged i will be getting married on September 5, 2009!!! ill keep ya'll posted xoxo

The Movie...
The MOVIE... THe movie will begin in 5 moments..the mindless voice announced... THose who are not seated will await the next show.. As we are seated and darkend the voice continued... "The program for this evening is not new, weve seen this entertainment through and through.. Weve seen your birth..your life and death..you might recall of the rest..did you have a good world when you died?.enough to base the movie on? jm

Things Men Have Said To Me:
Guy 1: 1a. "Hmmm. Well I've got $300 burnin a hole in my pocket. Its yours if you let me get with ya. "- Yes I'm a prositute...uh no. 1b. "Okay fine. $400. That would be cool with me." 1c. Ok I can understand. How about $600 for your time. That's more than fair. 1d. "so what would be agreeable. perhaps i can give you $700 and we can be together and go to dinner as well" This weekend okay with you?-Seriously can a man take rejection? I'll continue to add as time goes on.....

Broken Heart
When you realize that the life that you believed was real was all just a lie you are broken. When you think that you are safe, that the person that you love and trusted the most has betrayed you, then you are broken hearted. The hard part to all of this is figuring out how to pick up the shattered pieces of what is left of your heart and move on.

Exposed~
The sun shone through the curtains as slave sue woke. she opened her eyes to find Master watching her. He was sitting on the bed in His robe and He bent forward to kiss her. 'Good morning, my pet,' He said. 'I have a surprise for you this morning'. slave sue smiled sleepily. Master's surprises might be fun, or embarrassing, or erotic, but she loved them all.The door bell rang, and Master was clearly expecting someone. 'Wait here,' He said. slave sue lay back in bed and tried to listen as He answered the door, but Master was speaking too softly. she could hear a man talking to Him. The door was closed and Master returned to the bedroom. He picked up a blindfold from the bedside table and told slave to put it on. When her eyes were covered, He pulled back the covers and told her to step out of bed. she stood beside the bed as He tidied it, then He helped her back onto it, so she lay naked across it, on top of the covers. 'Put your feet on either side of the window pet,' He said. slave di

Where I Am At In Life
As of this moment I made it through trouble at school and I will be graducating with my class. I am so tired of homework it makes me sick but I am happy to know I am getting it done. My boyfriend and I are understanding each other better and we are both working on things with ourselves so we are happier. I changed my room around to give it a different feel. I been getting my health in check and working on my personal development. In school I only have three chapters of Civic, five chapters in economics, finally on my sr project, one field trip, and seven chapters of math. Hopefully by may 1st I will be all done. Then when my boyfriend returns home I can spin my time with him with no worries.

Under My Mask
Imperfection is only a mask hiding what really is the ultimate beauty. You just have to go throught hell to take off that mask. Can you do it? Or are you scared of what you'd find?Did you know?I love rainstorms.Did you know?Even though i wear black a lot, i love bright colors.Did you know?Even i watched Pokemon because my son took over the TV.Did you know?I'm quiet, but that doesn't mean i'm never loud.Did you know?I like to play chess.Did you know?I'm not good at it.Did you know?I try so hard to be perfect, even if i look like i could care less.Did you know?Sometimes i feel like my friends are only my friends because they feel sorry for me?Did you know?I'm afraid of bugs. Mostly spiders.Did you know?I don't really trust anyone.Did you know?Before i've thought that my family would be happier if i wasn't born.Did you know?I draw.Did you know?I love fantasy stories like Magyk, Flyte, and Phsik.Did you know?I'm good at Scene It? Disney version.Did you know?I feel like i'm only in the way

Watch Over You
Watch Over YouLeaves are on the groundFall has comeBlue skies turning greyLike my loveI tried to carry youAnd make you wholeBut it was never enoughI must go Who is gonna save youWhen I'm gone?And who'll watch over youWhen I'm gone?You say you care for meBut hide it wellHow can you love someoneAnd not yourself?And when I'm goneWho will break your fall?Who will you blame?I can't go onAnd let you lose it allIt's more than I can takeWho'll ease your pain?Ease your painWho is gonna save you when I'm gone?Who'll watch over you?Who will give you strength when you're not strong.Who'll watch over you when I've gone away?Snow is on the groundWinters comeYou long to hear my voiceBut I'm long gone

New Rule
New Rules For 2009 New Rule : Stop giving me that pop-up ad for classmates.com! There's a reason you don't talk to people for 25 years. Because you don't particularly like them!? Besides, I already know what the captain of the football team is doing these days--mowing my lawn. New Rule : Don't eat anything that's served to you out a window unless you're a seagull. People are acting all shocked that a human finger was found in a bowl of Wendy's chili. Hey, it cost less than a dollar. What did you expect it to contain? Trout?

Well
I am going to be deleting my Fubar account its just because I really dont have alot of time any more. but if you value are friendship leave me an e mail and i will give you my e mail Phone # so we can still keep in touch. it has been a blast I enjoyed our time you guys are great. Much Love to you all Don Dago

The Awakening
"The Awakening" A time comes in your life when you finally get it... when, in the midst of all your fears and insanity, you stop dead in your tracks and somewhere the voice inside your head cries out...ENOUGH! Enough fighting and crying and blaming and struggling to hold on. Then, like a child quieting down after a tantrum, you blink back your tears and begin to look at the world through new eyes. This is your awakening. You realize it's time to stop hoping and waiting for something to change, or for happiness, safety and

Definition Of Love According To A 10 Year !!!
While walking one day with my 10 year old daughter she said to me Mommy will you ever get married again. Looking into her innocent blue eyes with concern in my heart as to why she was asking this question I said well I'm not sure honey why do you ask? Then she simply says I want you to be happy. Daddy was so mean to you. I want you to marry a boy (yes a boy she is 10 after all ) who gives you lots of hugs and kisses and makes you smile because your very pretty when you smile. Then just like any 10 year old she was distracted by a snail inching its way along the side walk and the conversation was over. The simplicity and honesty that we often hear from our children makes you wonder why do we make it so complicated. I learned something from my 10 year old daughter that day. I learned I cant punish all for one. That I did make the right decision to leave my husband because as much as I tried to protect her from the cruelty I endured she saw it. That I'm pretty when I smile lol. Tha

Troll Brain Patterns
Im going to plant a garden with the trolls this weekend. I ased them what they wanted to plant this morning. Manboy troll said peas. Girl troll said cabbage and carrots. He does not like peas, she does not like cabbage WTH gives here???

End Of The Road
When at the end of the road We find that we can no longer function We all face the same dilemma. What is there left to do? There seems to be this alternative: Either go on as best we can to the bitter ends Or find a new way to live.

For Nevaeh!
You were our little angel we loved to hold so close the softness of your baby skin like petals of a rose. We loved it when we cuddled you in our arms You were our little angel with sweet angelic arms. We think back to memories so precious and so few. For God had chosen you to be one of His little angels too. For NEvaeh Rose Roush born: July 27, 2008 sadly taken: July 27, 2008 I love you Nevaeh!

Lovers Dance
Glistening bodies entwined in an ageless erotic dance,seeking pleasures from each other,seeking wonder and romance.She touches his face with tenderness.He draws her body near.Aching, needing hunger will make their destiny clear. Their lips meet in soft kisses,their tongues begin passion's war.Forgotten now, the outside world. All is here, behind this door. He strokes her body tenderly,she arches up for his caress.He finds her silken portal and her womanly wetness.She moans in fiery desire and pulls his hand away,wishing to end this exquisite torture and get on with passion's play. She straddles his waiting body,eases him into her feminine hollow.She leads him on a rhythmic dance,his thrusting hips must follow. She rides him faster, even then,to hear his wondrous sighs.She shows him all the delights she has between her womanly thighs. They stare into each other's eyes and gasp as ecstasy unreels,and tangles them in a lover's knot that every answer reveals. Sated, they lie side by side,s

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did you ever notice things aroud you that seem to be a coinicedencemay be there were songs on the radio that you and your lover had...hay is this, yet may seem strange to some maybe no one pays attetion.ive notice sometimes that life can bring back a lot form the past. it may seem werid but it can come true. the past was yesterday and yars and a second ago, if anyone pasys attetion they may see the past come back. ny hypothasis is maybe karma erworking backwords may be its just a coincidense no one knows, it doeshave a reason and its a good one to prevebt mistakes over and over. i know ive seen things life may or maynot restart itself. but what do we all know

Loving, Learning,her...
I head off to the restroom to well hey Im a dude, I had to go potty! I return still no Joy, Im like well shit! Im standing near the flight board get a call, "Hey Baby!", where are you, Im right here, I started to discribe to her whats shes wearing, teasing her, laughing as I did, she said "hey baby thats not fair!"... I said turn around...we locked eyes well kinda...we both wearing sunglasses... she walked to me...I took her into my arms, softly kissed her, whispered into her ear... "Welcome Home baby girl" We gathered her baggage, good lord what is it with females?, why so much shit.... We arrived at the hotel, and we barely made it to the room, and Im serious..Barely! we spent time loving one another, learning one another, we talked about our past relationships, how we felt how they ended up, and both thankful that they did, or we wouldnt have found US... I watched her sleep, she watched me sleep, its hard to explain, I mean I can honestly say, I found the

Thanks Fubar But I Have To Go...
Well first of all I want to say thank you FUBAR. I met my soon to be husband on this site. We will be married at the end of this month. He is everything I have ever dreamed about. I was seriously in the worst relationship right before i met him. Like I was being beaten on a daily basis. Then after about 6 months of not getting online *I wasnt allowed to.* I got online and came to my page here on FUBAR and seen that this very hot man had said "hi" to me and I took a chance and said "HI" back. From that day forward Brandon and I have been together. About 4 months after we started dating he asked me to marry him And yes I know its very quick but I KNEW HE WAS THE ONE FOR ME! and I said yes. So at the end of MAY BRANDON and I will be saying "I DO" all thanks to you FUBAR. I have never trusted the internet to meet guys. But for some reason I trusted him and trusted this site. Probably because I have been on this site for a long long time. He is truelly the best man I couldd have ever dreame

Fake
I still get called a fake, like I steal my photos or something. OK, I have a salute. I have Youtube videos. If you're trying to get me on cam, it won't happen. I have the proof. I have so-called "potential clients." Guys that say they're thinking of buying my sets. Um you either do or you don't. Simple. One thing that annoys me also is my fans saying they're going to buy me "something expensive." It's like waving a dog treat in the air. "What will you give me, girl? HUH HUH?" Look, I'm not a hooker. Gifts are supposed to be friendship, not a bartering system. If you want to bang a chick for money, go to escorts.com

Stuck To The Manna
“And they took their journey from Elim, and all the congregation of the children of Israel came unto the wilderness of Sin, which is between Elim and Sinai, on the fifteenth day of the second month after their departing out of the land of Egypt.” Chapter sixteen of Exodus sets up how long the events of chapter thirteen through fifteen – the time between the children of Israel leaving Egypt and arriving at the oasis of Elim. In just over six weeks, the children of Israel have followed Moses to the end of Egypt and the pillar of cloud during the day as well as the pillar of fire by night send by the LORD from Egypt to the Red Sea and through the wilderness of Shur. Emerging from the wilderness, the Israelites come to the waters of Marah and then to Elim and camp there while recharging for the next leg of their journey to the Promised Land. It’s foreshadowed in verse one that the people will arrive at Sinai (referring here to Mount Sinai at the base of the pre

Rideride
RIDE CUM TAKE A RIDE TWISTING AND TURNING HONEY DRIPPING SUGAR SWEET CUM THIS WAY LOVE CUM LET'S FLY... CUM PLEASE CUM LOVE AS I SINK DEEP INTO YOU EYES CUM UNITED AS ONE MY LOVE CUM I BECKON YOU LET'S RIDE... 5.1.09 FESTER to all the girls

Attention The Cullens Need You
> OKAY FIRST OFF A BIG THANK YOU ALL OF YOU WHO HAVE ADDED US AND FANNED US WE ADORE OUR FANS AND FRIENDS...SECONDLY WE HAVE NEARLY COMPELETED THE CULLENS WE NOW HAVE 4 SPOTS LEFT AND WE ARE ASKING ANYONE THAT KNOWS THE TWILIGHT SAGA TO JOIN US WE HAVE THE FOLLOWING LEFT...> > > CARLISE CULLEN> ESME CULLEN> JASPER HALE> JACOB BLACK> > THESE SPOTS ARE FIRST COME FIRST SERVE PLEASE CONTACT ME OR ANYONE OF THE CULLENS FOR MORE INFO> SPEAK WITH ROSEALIE IF YOU CANT FIND ME OR ANY OF THE OTHERS...> > THANKS MUCH LOVE> BELLA> >

No Title
Completely consumed by emotions and a thought Mind and spirit together working a vision that comes to naught a shadow of happiness lurking somewhere in the room cannot stay long as its swept away with a nice straw broom thoughts come and go just as the seconds tick tock things change at every level just like the hands on the clock never the same time for more than the moment never the same person for more than the same moment.....

Shit Like That . Com...
Q: What to do when elderly people tend to think you are ripping them off at the cash register? A: Smile and don't try to expalin anything...they still don't get it. Q: You work in a kitchen wares store and someone comes in and asks if you sell pot? A: Tell them to come back at 4:20 and ask again. Q: A man walks in with seven children and smiles big at you. Tries to ask you overly obvious answered questions to keep you talking to him. As he is ready to leave, walks up to you and says...his name and he has a 13 1/2 inch dick...how do you respond? A: Hi call me sit-n-spin, now where's your car parked at? Q: A male customer walks into your store, smells like heaven and looks like a god. What do you do? A: Go to the back room, apply your bib to catch the drool and when his back is turned....make all kinda goofy and sexual gestures while your boss is standing there talking to him. Always good for a laugh! Q: A bunch of tenny boopers come in your store completely unattended and trash

How Do You Define Yourself?
A friend of mine asked me the other day "How do you define yourself?". After thinking about the question for a while I have come to the conclusion, I don't define myself. Of course, I am sure I do define myself on some subconscience level based on my past, what I have done, what has been said of me, how people have acted around me... there is a sea of suggestions all around us trying to define who we are. But, I don't think one should define themselves. I am not going to define myself based on my actions and achievements, because by doing so I also have to define myself by my mistakes and failures. If I fail more times than I achieve does that make me a failure? What about thoughts and beliefs? Should someone define themselves by their views on life? I don't believe so because we are all wrong on one level or another. We are all ignorant. If we define ourselves by our beliefs or our "morals" and turn out to be wrong, what does that say about us? Does that mean we have been living a li

Happiness
I have always wondered what happiness truly is and I think I have figured it out. Happiness is what you feel when you find someone you can connect with on some intellectual level that becomes emotional. That emotion leads to either happiness or sadness depending on whether or not you both move in the same direction.

Erratic Rantings
I remember when Britney Spears was losing her mind and everyone took the oppertunity to take shots, I admit I took a couple myself but deep down I totaly understood. It's a lonely place to be fucked in the head and have no where to go. I hesitate to say I had post partum with both of my kids, I don't want to say had because I'm never really sure I'm over it. Their is a general misconception about us that we don't want our kids, I don't think their could be anything further from the truth. I love my kids dearly ... they just make me unbareably sad sometimes. I can't say it's just them, I'm still bipolar ... I still have ptsd, I'm still horribly depressed. I'm just an all around fucked up person. Some days I just don't see the point of putting myself through all this....not that I'm suicidal, I'm just not very hopeful of the future. I'm really resisting the urge to go down the "whoa is me" road with this but you'll have to excuse me if I'm a bit self-loathing. This is about the only out

#3
Lost in random thoughts, seeking things usually not sought Wondering where do I draw the line, separating space & time Wondering if I should stake my claim, on what's his name Imagining where did yesterday go, and then wondering if I really wanna know Asking what makes wrong right & right wrong, then asking "seriously how long???" Questioning what is true insanity, then concluding its just pure creativity Knowing there's so many people to do and places to see, and knowing there's a place just for doing me No consistent measures of thinking, thoughts changing like eyes blinking Constantly seeking things not usually sought, always lost in Random Thoughts........

Mothers Day
Happy Mothers day to all the kick ass moms out there! Now I know that I'm a kick ass mom and there is no one that is going to tell me that I'm not. Mothers Day to me is like a heartache because of my situation, which will change really soon. I have NEVER gotten anything from anyone on Mothers Day not one fucking thing from anyone. Now like I said I know that I am a fucking kick ass mom but it would be fucking nice for someone to show that they think so as well (never ever going to happen) you know if not a gift then at least a saying like "Happy Mothers Day!". Now check this out my daugher must know that I am feeling down or something becuse she just ran in my room handed me a paper heart that says (For YOu!!! Mom) and ran off which made my heart jump. heh WOW! Oh wow she came in here and handed me yet another paper heart with her name on it....fucking great man I tell you. Anyway so Mothers Day to me is meh ~Uzza~

Diamonds Shine Brighter Than The Ocean If You Look Hard Enough
I know this cute girl shes so cute other girls make me hurl when I see her she makes my day she's my shining light all the way I'd do anything to see her smile even if I got beaten to death for a while you sweep me off my feet if I got you the brightest diamond it'll be yours to keep Now I'll end this poem with one last word I'll be nothing without you I give you my word

#7
Connecting to server... Looking for someone you can chat with. Hang on. You're now chatting with a random stranger. Say hi! Stranger: RP? You: Raep? You: lmmfao You: buahahahahaha Stranger: Is there something wrong with you? You: Which diagnosis you want? You: The one given to me by my psyciatrist, or the one given to me by myself. You: ? You: ? You: ? Stranger: yourself. You: Yes, there is definately something wrong with me. You: I'm going to kill myself tonight. You: I want someone to talk to me through it. You: Just to be there for me while I fade away... You: But I don't want them to know me, or who I am. Stranger: Oh, that's cool. Stranger: go kill yourself then. ;D You: You'll sit here and talk to me till I fall asleep? You: I just don't want to be alone, but I don't want some fag trying to stop me. You: I figure you're safe. Strange

Plz Show Me A Little Love On My Fubar Salute Pic
hi everyone, I need a favor to ask...Will you love on me? I would like my fubar salute photo to make the Hottest photo in the Top members area on fubar so will you help me by Rating and commenting my photo. I greatly appreciate it...hugs n kisses Italian Princess ps..Thanks for all ur help:) Love yall /xoxoxox

~my Mother~
You are my best friendYou keep me safe and in your armsYou keep things in line, when things go wrongMy mom is the best to ever loveShe love's every kid even if they are bad, she calls them her ownMom is the best you can ever wish forShe smiles with joy and laughter with her family an friendsMom love's to be called "Mom" by other kids cause it makes her smileYou put her down she will show her southern side of herselfMom you are number one in spirit and loveI love calling you my mommy when someone asks who is that beside you in that pictureYou are a lover,caring,faithful,and true friend of a mother any son/daughter could ask forMy mom is the best to have and be aroundMy one true best friend in the world is you Made By:Amber Marie Kestner I made this for my mom when I was about 16 on Mother's Day.

Being Better Then You Are.
I haven’t blogged in a while, so I decided that I would share one with you folks. Lately, I’ve noticed that life really black and white. There are shades of grey in every facet of life, whether it is work, love, or friendship. I’ve been introduced into to way too many of these shades of grey lately as you’d imagine. So what to do? What do you do when find out your best friends has been looking down at you for over two years? What do you do when you find out work is bullshit and some of your co-workers have it out for you? What do you do when relationships fail due to cheaters? You endure. I’ve noticed that in life that weakness comes from an inability to handle the cards that were dealt to you. Character is created when you take those cards, take them and play accordingly instead of folding. You are supposed to be able to handle anything that comes at you, not give up… and then wit your way to victory. Folding is the same thing as staying

Life
Its funny. I sit here day after day watching the world go round. Isit in my corner in lonely life watching people have everything and some nothing. I always felt like i had nothing even when i had something. For the first time in my life i feel like i have the world. Idont know how to explain it but for the first time i have somethign inside me saying i succeeded. My angel and savior of life has come to me and idk how it happened. I still sit in my dark corner with my hood up..but she is there next to me. She has felt the pain and torment of life like i have and now i want her to feel happiness in every way i can give it to her.

Yes, To All The Point Whores!
Let me make my place here clear to all the point whores. If you look at my page, and say nothing or show no love at all. Do NOT think for a moment i am going to go to your page and rate you up the ass! Its not going to happen, not once! If your not here to make connectios, friends... PLEASE do not add me! If i wanted to surround myself with complete tramps looking for attention... Id cut up a playboy and hang pictures all around my bedroom! I dont care if you want bling, i dont care if your trying to level... I just dont... At all... As in ZERO! Would i care if you were someone i had a connection with? Sure... But for a point whore? Yeaaaahhhhh no... Enough said... I know i sound like an ass, but in all reality, i am just forward... Take it or leave it... I will always tell you what i think, with complete honesty...

Whatcha Think- Vip???
Ok- so I am officially addicted to FuBar. Now I'm thinking that I need a VIP. THe idea has been growing on me. I can post alot more pics, I have alot more perks with a VIP- so whatcha think? Is it worth it??? Lemme know what you think. Lovin to my fu family and friends.

To: Joy-with Love~
A gentle word like a spark of light, Illuminates my soul And as each sound goes deeper, It's YOU that makes me whole There is no corner, no dark place, YOUR LOVE cannot fill And if the world starts causing waves, It's your devotion that makes them still And yes you always speak to me, In sweet honesty and truth Your caring heart keeps out the rain, YOUR LOVE, the ultimate roof So thank you my Love for being there, For supporting me, my life I'll do the same for you, you know, My Beautiful, Darling Joy I love you, Joy Again, Thank you! ~W.H. 2009~

My Love
I have been married two years to the sexiest man around. I never thought I'd find someone that matched up with me as close as my husband. We finsh each other's sentences, read each others minds, I think we have seriously connected. I hope I stay connected with my husband and we grow old together. ~Tony I love Sweety~ Vicky!!!!

"i Came."
“I Came.” I came with the best of intentions, I came with a fistful of facts Not a man who stands in the shadows, who haunts the wrong side of the tracks I came with a bag full of magic, I came fully armed with the truth Things that are born out of wisdom, not the wavering wants of the youth. I came with a true sense of purpose, I came with a gleam in my eye So unlike those who came here before me, only willing to lie down and die I came with my kit, to patch up your wounds, I came with my needle and thread And whispered my words of healing, for you to keep in your head. I came with a strong canvas net, to catch you when you lost your grip And perfectly worded instructions, when the parts they just wouldn’t fit I came with a fire to warm yo

I Miss You ,,, God Knows I Do
To see you when I wake up is a gift I didn't think could be real. To know that you feel the same as I do is a three-fold, utopian dream. You do something to me that I can't explain. So would I be out of line if I said, I miss you. I see your picture, I smell your skin on the empty pillow next to mine. You have only been gone ten days, but already I'm wasting away. I know I'll see you again whether far or soon. But I need you to know that I care and I miss you.

When Love Finds You
Love sure is something no one can explain It can bring you such joy, it can bring you pain And with every emotion, love puts us through There's nothing you can say, when love finds you Love is the power that makes your heart beat It can make you move mountains, make you drop to your knees When it finally, hits you, you won't know what to do There's nothin' you can say when love finds you Chorus: Give it all you can give it, when your love comes around It you put your heart in it, then it won't let you down You'll find out it's true, baby, someday when love finds you And when you least expect it, it will finally come true There's nothing you can say when love finds you Chorus You'll find out it's true, baby, someday when love finds you Howard -- I love you so much lovie ...you have given me the greatest gift of all ...your heart ...

*mad*
i REALLY HATE WHEN PPL TELL YOU ONE THiNG, AND DO ANOTHER, OR WHEN PPL SAY THiNGS THAT THEY DON'T MEAN, SERiOUSLY, iF YOU DON'T MEAN iT DON'T SAY iT.........HOW HARD iS THAT.........SAY WHAT YOU MEAN............AND MEAN WHAT YOU SAY............AND JUST BE HONEST...........WOW THAT'S A LOT TO ASK FOR HUH, WELL i GUESS iT iS, OH WELL ONCE AGAiN i GET SCREWED AND EVERYBODY ELSE iS HAPPY, THE WORLD iS A MESSED UP PLACE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Candidate For Suicide
well i'm a candidate for suicide the more that i get oldi'm a candidate for suicide the drugs have taken their tolli'm a candidate for suicide i was raped at 8 yrs old (NOT REALLY)well i'm a candidate for suicide cause i'm a CHEAP LIAR AND A WHOREwell i been busted up and beaten down NO SELF ESTEAM to make me proudanti social DEPRESSED and CURSED well i hope i feel better when i'm ridin in that hearseand all my emotions have left me and i no longer hurt.well i'm a candidate for suicide cause i'm burned out from too far gonewell i'm a candidate for suicide no matter what i do it seems wrongwell i'm a candidate for suicide cause i hurt the ones i lovewell i'm a candidate for suicide cause i never laugh that muchi been busted up and beaten down no self esteem to make me proudanti social depressed and cursedwell i hope i feel better when i'm ridin in that hearseand all my emotions have left me and i no longer hurtwell all my emotions have left me and i no longer hurt

Whisper Of A Ghost
TIS BUT A WHISPER OF A GHOST STANDING BEFORE ME, NOTHING BUT A LOST LOVE GONEWISHING TO BE... CALLING FORTH PAST MEMORIES BETTER OFF DEAD, REMINDING ME OF THINGS THAT ONCE WAS SAID... AWAY, I SAY, PLEASE FADE FROM MY EYES, WHY BRING BACK THESE FORGOTTEN TEARS I CRY... MUST YOU STAND THERE WITHOUT A WORD SPOKEN, CAN YOU NOT SEE THAT MY HEART IS STILL BROKEN... I STILL YEARN FOR THE FEEL OF YOUR LOVING TOUCH, THE SADNESS OF YOUR LOSS STILL HURTS SO MUCH... TORTURE ME NOT BY BEING HERE IN MY SIGHT, APPEARING ONLY TO ME NIGHT AFTER NIGHT... YOUR GHOST BRINGS TO ME NOTHING BUT A CURSE, CAUSING MY EMOTIONS AND STRESS TO GET WORSE... I BEG OF THEE, MY GHOST OF MY LOVE NOW GONE, SEE THAT THIS PLACE IS NO LONGER YOUR HOME... GO BACK TO YOUR GRAVE AND FIND EVERLASTING SLEEP, AND KNOW THAT OUR LOVE IS STILL VERY DEEP... NEVER AGAIN TO RISE SO THAT PEACE WILL COME TO ME, GO NOW, MY LOVE, SO THAT I CAN FINALLY BE FREE

Random Chaos.
Imagine one thing, if you canJust close your eyes and seeThat in a wasteland meadowThere lies a little seedAnd in this parched grasslandWhere nothing pleasant can growThis little seed burrowsTil it finds fertile soil belowNow where did the seed come from?If this land is so forsaken?It is actually a pieceFrom a dying tree shakenBecause that tree was strickenTaken for granted and left for deadIt made one last effortAnd so the seed was shedThen days go by and byAnd slowly turn into weeksThe storm rages in the skyAnd soon a thunder head leaksThe blessed rain caressesThe tortured and parched landIt gently stirs to wakenAnd thus gives the seed a chanceMore days go by, then weeksAnd slowly but surely, trueThat little tiny seed seeksThe sunlight poking throughWhen the tree had diedA bit of knowledge it did impartThat seed knew what lied ahead,For that tree it was a heartAnd now the drought was overThe rains came and fellSunny skies now prevailedThe seed began to swellIt rose up from the ashen

Why Do U Care?
i have found through friends and myself that because some of you pay for this site or things on this site that you make such a huge deal over pictures and salutes! i have looked at many many a fake profile picture on here and the person has no salute and they have leveled up and up!!!!!!! ok here u go to so you can see some of that pichunter.com there is one picture on particular of a blonde girl in a mirror that so many woman have used so everybody sit down shut up and go about your lives! quite frankly i wanna know how people say they are working and sitting on this site, my boss would fire me! kissessssss

Fubar And Its Vip As I See It
I treat fu with simplicity. I look at pics, rate em, like em and in some cases love em. I chat, I waste time, not chasing cars though - thats a nice song. Anyways, the reality is, they get nothing from me except my wasted time spent here. As for the rest I really simply don't care! Thats my choice, I choose to do what I want. And I choose to please me, not literally buy into the costly stupidity of the unfree stuff available here. There's no worth or merit to me by giving fu money so why the fook would I do that. Some would say yes there is worth in giving them money. Like What? You have a lil VIP on yer page, change the colour of yer name? You can shit face people in one click? Seriously? That and all the other stupid things are worth payin money for? Are you mentally unstable? Look at all the cool things I can do as a VIP. Riiiiiiight, OK, well whatever makes you feel special cos thats what selling and shopping is all about. Being made to feel special by paying for something. But wha

This Morning - New -
this morning, i began again the dew, the bees, the birds they sang anew this morning, hope crossed my mind the sun, the breeze i felt them anew this morning, i look forward to life offering all that is mine hoping for one smile anew, all over again this morning, life, new. FOR A DAILY UPDATE ON THE SUBTLE OF LIFE, MAKE ME A FRIEND - read NEGLIGIBLE NOTIONS, my closer to heart blog, just for friends

I Have No Clue
Lost in my thoughts in search of my paradise i have no clue my time used up my prime behind me i have no clue that there will not be another that she is gone forever i have no clue i still wait, at time patient at times in anger as - i have no clue that my destiny was to be alone i have always been alone how could i have missed that clue at times a dying wish sometimes a death wish take it all away give me her but does she know does she have - a clue?

And Here I Write
and here i write endless, aimless for you unending wait, relentless regrets a failed attempt to explain where are my words what do i say what tells you i am true how do i tell you - i am true a moment of of pause a few baby steps a silent prayer here, i am again untouchable, ugh, ugly my mirror hates me hands folded in prayer hope on my lips the horizon barren endless, aimless horizon barren....

Liquid Embroidery
Prayers exude tired eyes.I hold my ribs and cry.The rapid rise and fallof my chest chokes me.- these breaths arebarely audible -I've a damp cloth sewnto my skull. It's rung out;wrinkled. Fibres fall...from crimson tear ducts.[While blue threadsembroider my face.]Moonlight won't touch me--- it's as lonely as I am,but, it will blanket my skinand I'll clutch my knees...As prayers exude exhaustedlungs, take me away.

What Is Her Name
what is her name that makes me smile reminds me of flowers the sunlight dazzle the morning calm the evening solitute the glow of full moon what is the name that is sweet as the winter sun alive as colors hope, in waves like music plays like life itself is walking my way...... i ask the peace of the lonely lamp, glowing in the dark... what is in a name....

Please Read
Too Busy for a Friend... One day a teacher asked her students to list the names of the other students in the room on two sheets of paper, leaving a space between each name. Then she told them to think of the nicest thing they could say about each of their classmates and write it down. It took the remainder of the class period to finish their assignment, and as the students left the room, each one handed in the papers. That Saturday, the teacher wrote down the name of each student on a separate sheet of paper, and listed what everyone else had said about that individual. On Monday she gave each student his or her list. Before long, the entire class was smiling. 'Really?' she heard whispered. 'I never knew that I meant anything to anyone!' and, 'I didn't know others liked me so much,' were most of the comments. No one ever mentioned those papers in class again. She never knew if they discussed them after class or with their parents, but it didn't matter. The

Today 5.25.09
Well, I am single again and just trying to get used to it. Taking care of my girls helps me not think about it. Working on getting back to school... I plan on becoming a nurse!!! I am ready for new adventures and traveling. First stop - Ireland in 2010. I am still not used to fubar and unsure what it is supposed to be... there are no games like myspace. So I am assuming it is a place to hook up with people. Me - I am just looking to find people to hang out with and nothing else at the moment. Oh, should mention that I got my gym membership and have joined the Biggest Losers Club online!! Anyone want to hit the gym with me (24 hour fitness) let me know. It is time for change and loving myself. I will keep everyone posted on how I do and will learn to take more pictures of me. I need to post some new ones... no not kinky ones! So This is me just giving a heads up on what is going on. If you want to know anything about me... ask. Hugs, Me

First Thoughts
So weird to have a place to be social in. Well, we all live in social places but rarely participate in them. We wander to the bright glow of others attention like the old moth to the flame. So many desperate things going on today, people losing jobs, losing houses. Damn. Far as I figure If it makes you happy, it can’t be that bad...

How To Get Hired~
Leticia had found the firm right out of law school.The firm's strategy was simple. Focus on governments where corruption is most rampant and the most dollars are at stake. Hire smart, capable and super hot women who were prepared to whore themselves out for money and power.At the top of the game the money was huge, the power was huge and the demands were huge. So they had to be women who liked the work too. Who could reconcile their abilities with their whorish desires.Leticia had been identified at the age of sixteen. The firm had waited patiently, as they do for all of their prospects.....and provided a nudge if possible and required. None was required for her. She excelled in all fields academic, athletic and womanly. By the time she was seventeen she was a modestly petite, curvy 36D Latina who could make grown men bend to her will with a smile on their face. And by the time she was seventeen it was clear she wanted them around and knew how to get what she wanted....a cock tease get

Why Does It Matter
wonder why it matters what makes me tick aspire for the unknown aspire for she how does it matter if i am left behind the race was never mine the race was never mine how does it matter if she will look away why can i not be happy in the her looking away !! how does it matter if she has set me aside one look at the mirror and the race was never mine... the colour is skin deep the dept of difference unpenetrable wake up to the real world wake up, this is how it will be....

My Memorial Day
I spent most of the day with my parents. We had breakfast at some Pancake place. It was very okay. Then we drove all they way down by Olympia WA to a casino called Little Creek. Spent a few hours there and ate at the buffet. I didn't win much...but mroe enough money for my next piercings.....weeeee Drove all the way back to town. Went to the store to grab some memorial stuff for my little friend and visited her grave stone. She would of been 22 if she was still alive. Came home for a bit, woke up Rich....went out and grabbed some food. Met up with one of his coworkers, his wife and their new baby. Damn, she's got big titties...lol I'm sure it's cause she's breast feeding but still! Damn!! Went to the piercing place cause I had called earlier to see if they were open, since it was a holiday...yeah, they were open until 8pm. I got there a little after 7pm and they told me they were closing early because of the holiday and no one was coming in...bah!! So I couldn't get my piercings...b

Life And Pain
Life is such a MYSTERY... Sometimes things turn out differently than what you expect... The best thing to do is ENJOY LIFE, counter the flow and have a lot of FAITH! Sometimes the best things in life are the ones we take for granted. It is so great to be In Love!!! Makes You Complete and inspires you A lot... NEVER lose the TRUST given to you by the person you LOVE since it would be impossible to earn it back and you would be left behind with nothing but HEARTACHES. The PAIN of REMINISCING is HARD enough but the GUILT is just incredibly UNBEARABLE... Life's full of mysteries and surprises, you just never know that the person you let walk by you could be the greatest thing that can happen to you...We were given two hands to hold two eyes to see two ears to listen but why only one heart? Because the other one was given to someone for us to find Our greatest glory is not in never falling but in rising every time we fall Who you are now is not always who you will become in life.

See It In My Eye's For One Time
The thing that are in are mind that past and now and the one thing in life and all the thing we do in it we cant take back all the thing we say all the thing we do the only think we can do is that we don’t do it again and there thing that we wish we never did like me I did a lot of bad thing vary bad thing in the past but in my mind there were a reason why I did that in my family eye’s may be not and in the acts I did I got two of my family member’s killed I did not want the to happen but it did and what maid me do all this buy losing the big part of my life my x girlfriend and unborn baby all in one night that will change any one but to change in to something that don’t care about any one or me safe that we hard but I get past it with me family help but this is for u all to thing about and that is take life slow in joy that woman or man u are with life can change in a blink of a eye in joy all the little thing in life thing that u would not think of and see

Speechless
as i stand there right in front of you with a million and one things to say i suddenly become speechless i try to talk but nothing comes out its like im choking only on my own words thoughts are racing through my head going a hundred miles an hour still nothing silence is the only sound

I Can't Take It!
Well, ladies and gentlemen, I think I've reached my breaking pointFor those of you who know me, you know I live with my parents in Chandler. Things were all fine and dandy. Well, to rewind a bit, my mom and I have never had a regular relationship. You know how some people can go to their mom and tell them absolutely everything, how they're like best friends with their mom, yeah...it's NEVER been like that with me and my mother. I wouldn't know what it was like, or what to do if our relationship even turned into something like that. Today, I was sittin' on the computer, lookin' at car insurance quotes, because my policy is about to expire with Liberty Mutual and they want to double my monthly payments. I'm minding my own business, when I hear my mom vaugely mention me to Steven's therapist. She starts laughing as my mom is telling this story, so I stop what I'm doing and listen in... Now, I knew she was talking about something I've done, because she always tries to talk in thi

Coldest Winter Night (another Poem)
I look up to see that someone But my sight deceives me... Looking still I try to find that one The one who is pure beauty "Why is this a cold winters night? To watch alone, to die alone?" I did not know... The cold rain felt like ice to my skin Searching out for no one. I reach out to feel that someone But their touch is not there... Reaching still I try to find that one That one who keeps me warm "Why is this a cold winters night? To feel alone, to die alone?" I still did not know... The rain felt like ice to my skin Reaching out for no one. I listen to hear that someone But their voices echo is not there... Listening still I try to hear that one That one who's voice is like nectar "Why is this a cold winters night? To listen alone, to die alone?" Again I did not know... The rain felt like ice to my skin Listening out for no one. I say to speak to that someone But my words are not heard... Speaking still to that one That one who sits and listens "Why is this a cold winters night? T

The Lighthouse
The descending orange sun was just settling on the ocean waves. Looking back, our footprints were the only blemishes on a near perfect carpet of white sand. His hand was permantly interlocked in mine. Finally we were all alone. We walked on the oceans edge, as the waves crashed on the shoreline. Talking of trivial things, yet each of us hanging on every word the other had to say. Then without warning, he released his grip from my hand, and began to run down the shoreline. he began to laugh while shouting.."Beat me to the lighthouse, and I'm yours!!!" The words he said hit home. I was soon on a dead run also, towards him, as he dissapeared down the beach. His feet kicking up tiny white granules of sand, as he sprinted away.. He was panting as he reached the base of the lighthouse, and began to descend the stairs. And I was gaining quickly, but was I quick enough? he was agile as he hit every step, circling the staircase, moments away from reaching the top. With me only a step behind

Yeah....
Last day of work for this work weekend. I'm hoping that today goes by fast at work. I didn't want to get up this morning...well I guess I never want to get out of bed this early and going to work. I found out yesterday that one of my work buddies got fired. Even though the huge lay off is finished, I still think they're out to get rid of anyone still... I see this huge big ass black spider in the kitchen......Hate spiders and I know I couldn't reach to kill him.... I hope the cats don't see him, they always go crazy when they see one....bleh.. yeah Anyways... I know that it's going to be another one of those days at work where I"m just thinking and thinking.... I wish I could just put my heart and brain on pause or whatever...I need to get more medication, I've been out for over a week now....But I'm not going to pay the actual price if my benifit thing is fucking up. I need to get new battery for my scale also. I weighed myself and it gave me two number before it said "lo"...

The Stars Above
Orange and Pink shoot across the sky,I can see it from where I lie,The sun is setting, going to sleep,The dark surrounds, like the ocean deep,The stars come, twinkling lights,Glittering diamonds, What a sight,I lie in the grass and up I stare,My body goes numb as I forget all my caresI like to gaze up at the stars,So I can forget my cares and all my scars,I have no one to look after me,The real me is someone no one can see,So I'll wait until I find some sort of love,And until then it's just me and the stars above

What To Do?
http://www.fubar.com/user/2674960 I think the older we get the more we know how to enjoy life. I want to celebrate my birthday this year and have fun. I am thinking about going to City Streets, a club here in Fort Worth, or Rick's Cabaret, a strip club here in Fort Worth, or taking a trip to Galveston. Any suggestions or thoughts? http://www.fubar.com/user/2674960

Pleased
I am quite pleased, with myself. I have been keeping the house clean, the yard mowed, which for me is someething in an of its self! No really, I usally wait until its knee deep before I cut, just lazy that way. But here of late I have keep it nice and neat. Was standing outside a little while ago, looking at what I have done, and I realize how much I let my yard go, these past couple of years. Tomorrow I am going to trim the bushes and weedeat, can't do all of this at one time cause of my illness. But one thing, where in the hell did all of this posion ivy come from?? Serouis, this shit is every where! Is it because I just haven't been keeping up the yard? I think that has to be it. I mean I have never had this problem on this scale!!

When We Want And Want, But Just Don’t Receive
I've had a bit of a rough day and although I'm not sure that posting my feelings about anything will really make me feel better, I sometimes need to remind myself about gratitude. Hope you enjoy it. ~Mari When We Want and Want, But Just Don't Receive "Want is a growing giant whom the coat of have was never large enough to cover..." ~Ralph Waldo Emerson Recently, I have been thinking and talking a lot about gratitude. It seems that so many of us want more than what we have. It's not that we aren't happy with what we already have in our lives, we just want more. We want a better relationship, we want more money, we want a bigger house, we want, we want, we want. But what about being thankful for what we already have? A few months ago, I received a Gratitude Journal as a gift from The Secret. The journal is encased in a beautiful heavy leather, tri-fold binder. I really liked it because it had a private, secret feel to it. Like what I wrote would be just betwe

Ranting For First Blog
start this with lyrics, by coal chamber ----------------------------------- All dressed in black Eyes of attack Coming with one hand in pocket To take from me Sin in the eyes I see Sin is nice of me Nothing left for me Reality Forget it You have messed up Can't do anything And I have messed up Can't do anything You're just a fuckup I'm just a fuckup We're just two fuckups At least we're fucked Up together So sad to see you go I said to myself you Know So sad to see a mind Disappear through Time Lunacy's an argued Taste I guess there's no time To waste Oh passing times it's a Passing phase Reality Forget it You have messed up Can't do anything And I have messed up Can't do anything You're just a fuckup I'm just a fuckup We're just two fuckups At least we're fucked Up together We are two fuckups You have messed up Can't do anything And I have messed up Can't do anything You're just a fuckup I'm just a fuckup We're just two fuckups At least we're fucked Up together Together, toget

The One
She's an angel for the blessed soula beauty like never before seenher hair flows like a natural springher eyes glow with a special gleamshe can glide without soundleaving traces of her spirither voice so majestically soothing to the chosen who hear itshe'll make you feel so tallwith her heart so pureher perfect smile telling youtheres nothing you can't endureshe's a beacon of hopea ray of forgiving lightguiding you through every daycomforting you through every night

It Has Been A While
i have had many mails telling me...it has been a while since i wrote a few words since i made a few people cry.... well tears are precious and i would take those i have seen for myself that flowers wither feelings are dime a dozen words now fail to ferry my thoughts at times i wish i had not said a single 'word' i wait for a thought that will make me feel alive i look at the stars so much still to 'do' i look at myself so little 'done' walk towards me 'life' give me a thought something to write about.... it has been a while since i did a blog

Dead Beat Moms
In a few weeks my son turns 4 . He is the most amazing kid. Every day he does something new that just blows me away. most parents feel this way about thier children.My wife met us when he was a little more than 1, and he quickly became her everything. She has never treated him less than her own. In action and deed. She is the only MOM he really has. Through her he now has 3 brothers, 3 sister-in-laws l, and a niece. All of whom feel that he is as much a part of their family as each other. I told you all that so no one feels like he is missing out on the joys of the family unit. Now about his EGG DONOR . Like most incubators . She carried him for 9 months, gave birth, and breast fed for a few days . After her maternity leave was up she went back to work , and i quit my job to stay home with him. We split up . My son and I moved to Colo. She moved to a different part of Colo. 2 months later.It took a little time , but she started to see him on the odd week ends. Cool i encourag

My Vip?
Will be ending on the 10TH of this month, at least I believe anyways. May not have another one for sometime although I did get my cam back from John's dads house so I'll be able to take newer pictures hopefully if the battery hasn't died on my ass...lol.... Much love to you all mostly DEB for getting the VIP for me to begin with.... Licks & Nibbles!

Scam Artist... Begs For Money From A Single Mom!
Be careful all u girls on this site. Rhino... aka Lil Devil aka Gone... or whatever he has changed his name to. This man is a scam artist. he will start out by sending you his poetry, his love letters and be very romantic. Then he will say that he is going to lose his internet if its not paid and will have no way of contacting u. He will ask for a little money at first, then more and more. I have sent him $1800 before I realized he is scammimg me and i'll never see my money again. I am a single Mom of 3 and he promised me to send me $300 by the end of May so I didnt get evicted from my home. I have sent him everything I own. I have got nothing from him and since been evicted. He has a few different profiles on Fubar. He has dumped me now after threatening me over the phone a few times. PLEASE DO NOT SEND ANY MONEY TO THIS MAN!!!!! He seems so sad and honest and hard done by with life. DONT FALL FOR IT LIKE I DID! I WAS STUPID... dont be the same way!!!

The Purest Spirit.
I've been putting off watching a certain movie for quite a while now. When my family decided to watch it a few months ago, I left the room until it was over. Judging by the mountain of tissues on the armchair and tear-reddened eyes belonging to both my parents, I knew that I really couldn't watch it. I get angry when I hear people talk about animals as inferior beings. Not a "Hey, don't say that..." angry. A furious "How DARE you..." angry. Especially when it comes to dogs. I may have three cats right now, but I've been a dog person all my life. I grew up with huskies, then irish setters, then an overprotective doberman pinscher, a big ol' gordon setter who was with me from the time I was three til I was a freshman in high school, and then... an Irish setter named Rusty. He went with me everywhere. We played soccer together. We went running at the Ledges alongside the river. We went to Lincoln Brick Memorial Park and swam in the quarry. He was there for me when I'd lost

Picture Ratings
Ok so I've belonged to this site for less than a week now and I can't figure out why people cannot accept honest criticism of photo's that they place on this site for others to view. So far I've managed to piss off two people on their pictures that I have commented on. Honestly I have nothing against these people and have rated their photos as I felt that they should be rated. The funny thing is that the replies I received from them make me out to be the worst person in the world and capable of stepping on puppies and killing little kittens. Of course then these character assassins then have the guts to block me from their areas and not giving me the opportunity to reply why their photos didn't rate a 10. Heck I even got blasted for rating a photo a 9. Why can't people take criticism anymore???

Broken Wings
It was many many years ago I was green and young in life I didn't know that there were guys with hearts of ice I never could have imagined the harm that they could do to well meaning girls and their lives But like a hailstorm from hell he rained down upon this bird broke her wing and left her for dead Though the storm passed quickly and the sun came out again the little bird never healed just kept crying in the sand because she could never fly again But you can't tell me that it was meant to be for me to stand here now with my feet in the sand Because I was meant to soar to kiss the clouds while riding a gentle breeze Yet here I am after all these years just a bird with a broken wing crying in the sand

I've Known
I've known pain Digging, scratching, scraping pain splitting my soul in two like a knife thrust into my chest a pain washed in tears gone dry and sprinkled in pieces of shattered dreams Yes, I've known that pain I've known loss Empty, gaping, expansive loss turning beautiful memories into a painful black hole standing by in awe as the wrecking ball of life tears down what the heart has built Yes, I've known that loss too I've known hate Writhing, seething, burning hate the sight of nails digging into pillows wishing it was human flesh the growing lust for blood and suffering flowers as thoughts of torture fill your mind Yes, I've known that hate as well I've known love glorious, total, unconditional love the clearing of the skies and the coming of a new age the thing that makes the pain and loss worthwhile and takes the hate away Yes, I've known love

Pisces
-P I S C E S: The Piece of good ass Caring and kind, Smart, Center of attention, Too Sexy, Very high SEX appeal, Has the last word, The nicest ass everr, The best to find, hardest to keep, Fun to be around, Freak in the sheets, Extremely weird but in a good way, Super good in bed, Good Sense of Humor, Thoughtful, A partner for life, Always gets what he or she wants, Loves to joke, Very popular, Silly, fun and sweet!!!!

Learning To Love
sometimes its hard to remember that the person you love,also loves you as much or more. you just have to remember that theres two of you sharing feelings now.some times i forget . thankfully my woman is the best,and she still loves me even tho i fuk up love is not a game,its a gift,and shouldnt be taken for granted it should be in your heart and soul,and cherrished forever,never being forgotten.i will never forget that i love my woman. love is about sacrifices and comprimises,and god the feeling of bliss just makes me wanna explode with happiness. well till next time,peace to my fam,homies and all who read these rantings\,,/\,,/

Love Is To Not Support The Act
Not my own words, but follows along thoughts I've had. Meko Love is to not support the ACT http://www.leapoffaith.com.au/2005/05/love-is-to-not-support-the-act/ I believe that love is not about money, status, convenience, height , weight, or even gender or personality. It is all about what is real..that feeling .. that energy.. the heart and soul. When someone allows us to see who they really are underneath all of the walls of fear and illusion - this is love. The most testing is the romantic love but all love is real and once fate allows us to see a glimpse of this reality we must work to believe in it. So many of us confuse love and become chained to it or to the fear of losing it. Underneath.. deep down in our souls we are all perfectly at peace. In this place we have no fear.. no restrictions..In this place we love ourselves and everyone and everything. We feel pure joy and never feel like needing control of anything. For most of us this place is hidden to others and in our m

Life
I've dreamed many dreams that never came true I've seen them vanish at dawn but I've realized enough dreams thank God to make want to dream on. I've prayed many prayers when no answers came though I've waited patient and long. But answers have come to enough of my prayers to make me keep praying on. I've trusted many friends that failed and left me to cry alone. But I've found enough of my friends true blue to make me keep trusting on. I've drained the cup of disappointed and pain and gone many days with trillions of tears shed. But I've sipped enough nectar from the roses of life to make me want to live on.

Where I've Been
For all who actually care to know where I've been the past 2 or 3 days....I was out sunday evening hanging with some friends and we got into a car accident....another car had hit us from behind and another on the side....I'm alright,not too messed up but I do have a broken rib and I'm just sore all over...so yeah I spent a day and a half in the hospital getting looked over and shit to be sure nothing else was wrong with me...they gave me meds for my pain....right now I'm numb on my side...pretty sure I'll start feeling it again soon but just wanted to let y'all know what was going on with me much love to all my friends and family

Pain
Nobody sees deep down Down Inside were the pain is The pain that has caused so much hurt The pain that has caused so much grief The pain for those lost in the months past The pain that everyone thinks is over The pain that stays day after day They ask are you ok?

Letting Out Frustration
Just a Rant about relationships and life. There has been many times that I have wondered about finding just that right person to have the perfect relationship with. Many people think that having a relationship with someone means sharing everything with one another, or not sharing a damn thing with each other. I seriously doubt that has anything to do with it. I have been through many relationships in my time. Granted, I'm only 28 years old, but I think that I have the perfect idea for having a perfect relationship with that special someone. Heart break comes at a price, but it also has it's reward. Yes, the heart is broken for a time, but the momeries that are had are either good or bad, depending on how you look at them. The relationship I had gotten out of was like a 20 marriage ending violently with divorce with one side winning over the other person. The person I fell in love with was taken advantage of from me. I was also taken advantage of from her. S

Sins
This is my attempt at encapsulating the 7 Deadly Sins in a single poem. The woman is in no way, metaphorical of my character. Sins Delicate fingers graze the ample multitude of linens and pelts hung neatly. Shades of indigo, ebony, crimson she paints intricately over the fair features of her pallid skin. Her gaze constant, confident as the reflection before her returns with carnal glances, Emerald orbs scanning every inch of her exquisite form. She walks the streets, nose held high as it very well should be, For none merely grazes the height of her beauty…and she knows it. Snickers and white noise of back talk sling from every direction The seemingly dull piercing of blunt edged daggers from women who long to be her. To her, their words are simple child’s play. Eyes of men devour her with every effortless step she leaves. As she continues, not a care crosses her mind That she destroys their every desire with a poised turn of cheek. With a graceful flip of go

Wow She Can See Through The Phone
While having a converstation with my future mother-in-law and fiance about calling an Insurace company my future mother-in-law said something that only the most ignorant can say. She acutally said that you can tell they are Black when you call them. They sound black she says. WTF did she realy say that????? Now normally I am a resrved quite person and bite my tounge with older people but this particular day I hadnt slept and was in a lot of pain. So my mouth just instantly flew open. The woman that you can never shut up was stunted like I slapped her when I said with out missing a beat......... "That is Just Plain Ignorant" and proceeded to ask her if she could see throuh the phone? Then told her that her making that statment was like someone saying all short red head women drink wine out of a box and have been on house arrest. In shock she stood up and walked away and I just sat back looked at my fiance and said Wow is that what it takes to shut her up....

There Are No Words For A Title On This One....
There are no words for a title here..... Category: Life I took a psychology class at school...it was not of a very high interest to me for several reasons, but it did come with some benefits that I have found through gained knowledge to be useful. Greif!..One thing we will all eventually go through. There are many factors in life that can cause us to commence into the grieving process. One... is the loss of a loved one. Today reality has really sunk in for me, I knew this day was coming, but it finally happening has hit me with a shock. I am going to loose my Grandma, as is..the rest of my family. She is currently at Kaiser hospital and most likely will not be realeased because of her weak condition. She also came down with pnemonia ( don't mind my spelling, don't feel like correcting it at the moment. ) and she also now has C.O.D which is a condition brought on from exposure to hazardous wastes!Yeah! good job Kaiser! I have never liked that hospital and have alsways preferred Loma

Life Can Be So Stressful
At some point our life u almost just want wish the things away, its almost as if you are stuck in a whirl wind and your never going to get out. at some point in your life you wounderful if it'll get any better but then you relize that you made that thought at 23 and your almost 35 12 years later and your still stuck in that whirl wind, Sometimes i sit back and kinda enve people. only because i wish i could have what they have or seen what they've seen, or even been where they've been, hell look at the multi-millionare's out there. they make alot of money but yet they are bitching because they might have to paly more on taxes.. well hello share the wealth, i mean yea they might work for thier money but we work just as hard to give them the money right? payin for concerts and movie tickets and all that crap...dont u think we dereve alittle in return.. u dont mind givin to chirty but onces your told you have to give some back now you want to bitch lol kinda double stander isn't it??

A Moment With Miguel Pinero
Miguel Pinero is widely considered the king of the Nuyorican poets. This is a scene from the biographical movie "Pinero" starring Benjamin Bratt as Pinero. He recites "seekin the cause" probably Pinero greatest poem. Enjoy and listen with an open mind.

Me And My Husband
As a lot of you have probably noticed my husband and i are going through a very rough spot in our marriage. We are currently seperated in terms of physically. We are however working onour marriage because we love each other so very much and know that what we have is very special. There are just somethings that need to be worked out. At this time I feel that working on my marriage is the most important thing, therefore I ask there be no more flirty comments, I will be making my nsfw pics private, and I ask that those of you that are my friends please do not try and make our friendships into anything more. I am not single, I am not looking please repsect that. Thank you all that have been there.

Songs...
I never needed you to be strongI never needed you for pointing out my wrongsI never needed pain, I never needed strainMy love for you was strong enough you should have knownI never needed you for judgmentI never needed you to question what I spentI never ask for help, I take care of myself,I don't know why you think you've got a hold on meAnd it's a little late for conversationsThere isn't anything for you to sayAnd my eyes hurt, hands shiver,So look at me and listen to me becauseI don't want to, stay another minuteI don't want you, to say a single wordHush, hush, hush, hushThere is no other way, I get the final say because,I don't want to, do this any longerI don't want you, there's nothing left to sayHush, hush, hush, hushI've already spoken, our love is brokenBaby hush, hushI never needed your correctionsOn everything from how I act to what I sayI never needed wordsI never needed hurtsI never needed you to be there everydayI'm sorry for the way I let goOf everything I wanted when yo

F-love
Without warning, like a tidal wave unable to drown you The days like wrecks without them The race of time, The Deepest ravine, full of emotion With them. You don’t know what to do, far out in a frantic sea Unable to think, The echoes of existence between us Can reveal nothing, Belief in reason has gone. Unable to communicate helpless, alive, dead Unable to run from it Unable to fight it Undying love, tumultuous feelings hands in face, tears, panicking What to do? Way to turn? All sacred, reeling Must find a way of knowing Must find spirit Claustrophobic, hurt, hurt, The deepest of the unknown

Biker Festival
The Angel City Spring Rally is usually held the third week of April. It starts on Thursday and ends on Sunday. It is held at a camp site off of Interstate I-75 Exit 122 in Unadilla, Georgia. This year is Thunder Roads 10th Anniversary and they are have parties thought the year in celebration of it. http://www.thunderroadsmagazine.com We had a great time and look foreward to the fall rally on October 8th - 11th, 2009. Come on out and join us this fall, you won't be disapointed. Check out the Angel City info at: http://www,angelcityrally.com

Dixie Bike Fest (dbf)
The Dixie Bike Fest (DBF) is being held on June 26th - 28th 2009 at Elko, GA on Hwy 26 behind S&E Cycles. For info you can call: 478-988-8297 If you come in on I-75, get off at Exit 127 onto Hwy. 26 and go East 5 miles and the DBF is on the right. $30.00 WeekendFriday / Saturday / Sunday - $20.00 Saturday / Sunday. Live music by: Bradley Junction Band, Mr. Gudfoot and The Eddie James Gang. Primitive Camping and RV parking available but there are no-hookups. Must be 18 to enter. I will be there and I hope you are too.

Fist Of Dreams
As time goes by I've found myself gripping my life tighter and tighter clinching my dreams in the palm of my hand protecting them from the winds that howl around me Like grains of sand they slip through my fingertips first one then another then another each of them crawling out of my tight embrace before finding a trail of wind and floating into distant oblivion I feel my fist of dreams get lighter and lighter I watch my smiles and hopes get carried off in the breeze and I smell the vapour of a thousand broken promises drifting away it's as if the grains of my life are marching marching away to the meter of a quickening clock Hours pass like minutes minutes pass like seconds and soon my hand feels empty so hollow and betrayed With a heavy heart and tear-streaked eyes I slowly open my fist and there, in the middle of my palm rested the last dream I held It was an unimportant, meaningless dream forgotten so long ago With it's brothers and sisters all gone it seemed so petty and trite lik

Please Remember Me-tim Mcgraw
When all our tears have reached the seaPart of you will live in meWay down deep inside my heartThe days keep coming without failA new wind is gonna find your sailYou'll find better love strong as it ever wasDeep as the river runs, warm as the morning sunPlease remember meJust like the waves down by the shoreWe're gonna keep on coming back for more'Cause we don't ever wanna stopOut in this brave new world you seekOver the valleys and the peaksAnd I can see you on the topYou'll find better love strong as it ever wasDeep as the river runs, warm as the morning sunPlease remember meRemember me when you're out walkin 'When the snow falls high outside your doorLate at night when you're not sleepin 'And moonlight falls across your floorWhen I can't hurt you anymoreYou'll find better love strong as it ever wasDeep as the river runs, warm as the morning sunPlease remember mePlease remember me

From Erik
You may think that I'm lying, But I'm afraid of not trying. For the one that pleases me the most; Is a beautiful little Ghost. The monster has died; Along with the tears I have cried. It was a smile on the wind; To finally find my hearts twin. To search for so long; And have been so wrong. So many times it seemed; Happiness was only a dream. Tattered and torn; Weary and bone worn. To find the one I've wanted the most; Is a beautiful little Ghost.

Best Friends
A simple friend, when visiting, acts like a guest. A real friend opens YourRefrigerator and helps himself (and doesn't feel even the least bit WeirdShutting your 'beer/Pepsi drawer' with her foot!)A simple friend has never seen you cryA real friend has shoulders soggy from your tears..A simple friend doesn't know your parents' first names.A real friend has their phone numbers in his address book.A simple friend brings a bottle of wine to your party.A real friend comes early to help you cook and stays late to help you clean.A simple friend hates it when you call after they've gone to bed.A real friend asks you why you took so long to call.A simple friend seeks to talk with you about your problems.A real friend seeks to help you with your problems.A simple friend wonders about your romantic history.A real friend could blackmail you with it.A simple friend thinks the friendship is over when you have an argument.A real friend calls you after you had a fight.A simple friend expects you to a

Wonders And Blessings
Well I finally got moved, Loving my new place, it took a lil longer than I thought it would, do to some unexspected events.. I went into preterm labor and ended up spending two days in ICU at Methodist Hosptial ( they almost killed me) but the baby and me are doing good, they got my labor stopped and I was put on bed rest which was a pain in the ass since I was moving so I had to rely on people to help me move, Im not use to relying on anyone ( no one ever stays that long anyways lmao) .... On the bright side the baby is growing like a weed she is a beauty.. And in a couple short weeks I will deliver her and life will be perfect. The pine trees and country air is wonderful, its keeping the stress down. My son absolutely loves it.. Life throws blessings with every curve ball.. This is one of them:) Anyways Im now 34 weeks pregnant going on 35 and having a beautiful baby girl that I can not wait to hold... Life sometimes does the strangest thing and something good comes out of some

Scented Sheets And Stinky Dog
ToolStinkfist Music Video Codes By Music Jesus.com Last night, I went over and above the call of duty for a pet owner. There is no medal. No celebratory parade. However, in my heart - I soothed the neurotic little Fat Russel Terrier named Jack, whose only job in the entire world is guarding me (at least that is what he thinks his job is.). He went for a late, late night walk and he discovered a skunk. The skunk did not enjoy being sniffed, and so did what skunks do - he sprayed my surprised doggy - black and white fluffy tail proudly held high so the full amount of oily stink could saturate the one who disturbed him. I was exhausted. My dog always sleeps under the covers, its how he knows when I move, which makes him growl, because obviously I am too stupid to know that movement attracts predators. I already do not spin around three times to make my bed secure - I have no idea how he works with what little sense I have.

Thank God For The Congressional Black Caucus!
Obama signed a bill today banning ALL flavored tobacco. All flavors, except menthol. According to the Associated Press, menthol flavor was allowed to remain, since members of the black congressional caucus spoke in favor of menthol flavored cigarettes. The caucus stated that 75% of African Americans who smoke -smoke menthol cigarettes. Menthols are my fave -Thank You Black Congressional Caucus!!!

For All U Fufuckers
Night at the Beach with a glass of sex on the beach I spread the blanket out carefully knowing that the sand will soon engulf it anyways... I sit with my sex on the beach in hand carefully not to spill any.. I pat the spot next to me inviting you to sit... You oblige and sit quickly... I take a deep breath the air smells of the salt water but the breeze against my bare arms and legs feels like gentle silk hands massaging me... I dont know if it is the drinks or the look in your eyes that has my cunt dripping wet... I rub my thighs together just a bit... I whisper in your ear "I need you... Touch me" You take my almost empty glass, down what is left and throw it to the side into the sand... You wrap your arm around my waist and press your chest against mine. We are so close and I can smell the liquor on your breath, I go to kiss your lips but you turn your head and move to my neck.. you nuzzle me and slowly slide the straps down on my tank top... revealing my flesh.. Goose bumps invad

Just In Case
hi every one if ya havent heard my son carl dennis banghart is dead he died may 23 2009with a heavy hart i say this ya all please help keep my sons memory alive donate ya time or money to a batterdwomens center near youlets stop the vilence NOW thaks for all ya love and support benjamin

The Loneliest Fellin In The World Is To Be Crying And No One Is There 4 U!
she talks too loud,she says things she should keep to her self,she's shy and silly,she can be thickheaded and rude,she wants to much,she stays hidden' behind a fake smile,she cries at night to sad songs on the radio,she runs away from the truth,she dosent want to do any thing but hold you in her arms...

My Own Apocalypse
My Own Apocalypse Category: Writing and Poetry Ringing in my ears, my worlds a blurHoping for sweet kisses tonightSinging in my head, placing all trust in youDreaming of bubble gum kisses tonightVoices from the past singing my demiseAngelic tears fall from heaven aboveWhat is right I no longer knowHere comes my own ApocalypseTime passes by, forever seems like yesterday One day with a future unclearOne year with many roads to chooseOne life with a milkyway of memoriesFate locked in chains, cursed destinies without hopeDemons set ablaze in the hells belowForget the past and live for todayJust one more day in my own apocalypse Bum me a buck to play my song The jukebox is kicking tonight Eighteen shots way past sober I feel like dancing tonight Breath falling short as I lay in silent slumber Hearts racing faster with every single beat Who cares about tomorrow live for today Let's hear it for my own apocalypse Lonely swirls around pale moon light Bitter sweet darkne

The Birch
birch tree, I see you stand all aloneIn a clearing, so far removed from others.You strive to belong in the woods with them,To be among your sisters and your brothersBut strong roots keep holding you down to the ground,All you can do is tilt your head and flail your armsHoping they will see your struggle, come to you,But they are attached as well, and can't abandon their realmsAs days and nights go by, you hear them whisper in the wind.You want to share your dreams at night, and celebrate beginnings of each day;But distance is too big, and they can't hear;You look at them with tired eyes, and quietly wonder what they sayThe day is coming to an end,The clearing and the forest stand in the darkYour green head is tilted down, you feel defeat,And clear bitter sap is running down your bark.You fall asleep and see the dreamsOf standing in the woods, with theirs your branches intertwine.You feel the wind caress your leaves,And bring your soul a little closer to divine.At night the clouds gathe

Point Whores
I'm sittin in my basement,I've never had a lifeI have 11 babiesWith my fatass welfare wifeI troll for nudie pics;My cock is all the rageWith unsuspected chicksThat stumble on my pageThe only thing I doIs eat and masturbateSo please check out my pageAnd Add, Fan, Rate

My Life Is Mine!
And i'v been to hell and back,i spill shit,trip and embarras my self.I can't just flutter my eyes and get the man of my dreams,my life is so messed up.I'v been through more shit than you'v seen on t.v. nobody's perefect,i'v been lied to,cheated on,and had my heart stolen,i'v fucked up,fucked people up,and been fucked up,but every hit was worth it because i telt it,i knew it was real and i'm livin' it wrong every day.I'v fucked up royally and do everything opposite,but do i regret one thing,NEVER because at some point it was what i wanted,and i got my own fucking satisfaction!

She- A Work In Progress
photos captured in her mindreflect a world fragmented filtered through her soul, reconstructed,surgically incised, revealing her heartbeating, raw and bruisedawaiting the critique of her peersnot knowing of her chaotic journeydamning her for the stark lighting,crying commercial and bland the antics of her mistaken visual artilleryand yet..watercolors trickle off her sketchbooktainting her fingertips in epicspainting the sand stories she's yet to tell the oxford dictionary can't even contain her definitionmarathoning talents; eagerly assaulting conventions she dances only for her phantoms.her fear, her sourceembracing it, esoteric borrowing doubts in lieu of dreams interest rates at an all time lowfavoring a high yield for the risk taker,she, unrelenting…backs downand yet...watercolors trickle off her cheekbonestainting her lips in imperfectionskissing the zealots stories she's yet to livebeauty is capricious -and her's, rooted in bewilderment searching out contrasts, she crafts vibrati

Sleep
Didn't sleep too well last night...had bunch of stuff in my head like usual...made me sad. Cried myself to sleep. Woke up with a sore throat...yay..... Today I'm giong to be wearing a white shirt to work....Ohhh white wow...I tihnk it's been like a year and half since I've worn white to work. This would be my second time of working there wearing white...worn red and blue before....but I mostly wear black. I think it makes me look fatter...ugh..Even though another coworker asked if I been losing weight and she said it's pretty noticable... still need to lose more. I hope that I don' thave eto work with that cunt that I had to work with yesterday...little Miss...Oh I'm so much better than you and all the other girls that aren' barbie dolls like me. She thinks she's the african version of Paris Hilton and all the fuckin' dudes just love her. Not that I'm jealous of her looks, it just pisses me off that guys fall for her while she's a total bitch to other girls, making fun of them becau

Dont Judge
I will walk through every shadow and all darkness through life will my head held up high but screaming inside nothin will nock me down so intense i feel so much pain that makes me numb to what if nothin to me i push so hard but struggle free so contradicting life i live so ironic some people laugh some people cry but nothing from you matters nothing from anyone matters at all im like at book dont just look at the cover and jus judge it from it look inside look past the few pages look deep inside read till the end dont judge a book by its cover

The Big Party! Night 4
I will be out enjoying the big party! Back on 7/6. Those of you in Skee- town - I might see ya there. But if I don't have a blast! Night 1- Burn Halo -- Pop Evil -- Saving Abel................................ I got an Autographed CD, and drum stick! Night 2- Loverboy -- Joan Jett & the Blackhearts hung out with a great friend! Night 3- Vaughn Anthony -- John Legend It was so HOT as in SEXY -- I thought people were goin' to get it ON!!!!!! Me is tipsy! Night 4- Need to Breathe -- Bare Naked Ladies

Attn: Ladies
Women are one of my favorite subjects for flyers. I’m looking for interested ladies who would like to submit photos for use on flyers. Check my folders to see some of my previous works including the CAUSTIC folder and the FLYERS FEATURING BLUE EYED SOUL folder. D4D is getting ready to start a new set of flyers for the bands TYRADE and CLINCH. These bands are really well known and really great dudes. Just send me a message with a link to one or more photos you would like to submit. Thanks, L.A. Moore Drink 4 Designs

Why
Why is it ppl are so afraid of whats diffrent? It's not like im going to do something bad to you cuz i look wierd or strange. To me you are strange for looking normal and being afraid of whats diffrent. I just think it's silly that ppl would act like that...

Lust
Cougar by mysticgirl38Chew me up and spit me out you thought you knew what a cougar is about.Passion and heat, you know she has it now tell her you gotta have it. Nails down your back you moaned like you were on fire. This cougar bit you and now your the prey. Was this part of your dream you had? Like a fool your ace was high and she took it without a sigh. Free from all inhabitions inside. Now laying there this feels rite. The cougar didn't have the foresight. The cougar could no longer fight trying to be cool and tight. What a bitch, I fucked this up thinking I was riteous and could win. This joker took me for a spin and damn it, I let him win. The lesson here big and small, is to not think you know it all. The cougar loved you after all

It Was A Time I Decided To Fubar.
Haven't been on here in awhile. I decided to check back after a long journey away from this website. I am more of a myspace person I guess. So I suppose I will play here until I probably get sick of it after a couple months.

Pride And Disgust..
I am currently reading a book...."An Ordinary Soldier" by Major Doug Beattie MC .....on particular part of the book has sparked deep emotions in me tonight...page 161, footnote....and I quote... "For his actions Tim was awarded the Conspicuous Gallentry Cross. This is his citation: 'On 10th September 2006, Lieutenat Tim Illingworth deployed with a small team in support of a joint Afgan Police and Army operation to recapture Garmsir District Center. During two days of heavy fighting, Lieutenant Illingworth and his team were constantly under fire while motivating, directing and advising their Afgan colleagues who successfully re-took Garmsir. Later that week an Afgan Police patrol supported by Illingworth's team was ambushed. One British casulaty resulted. In an effort to relieve the pressure on the Afgan Police, he led his Afgan company commander and a foot patrol to neutralise the enemy position. This inspired his Afgan Army colleagues who were reticent to advance on the heavily d

Queen Of The Voodoos
Marie Laveau New Orleans Historic Voodoo Museum Marie Laveau lived in New Orleans and became the Queen of the Voodoos. "The beautiful Marie Laveau, and yes she was beautiful, was born a Free Woman of Color in 1794 and died an old woman in 1881. She became the most famous and powerful Voodoo Queen of New Orleans. She was respected and feared by all. Voodoo in New Orleans was a blend of West African religion and Catholicism. Voodoo deities are called Loahs and they are closely paired with the Catholic Saints. All people in New Orleans were Catholic and slaves were baptized. Marie was a devout Catholic and attended Mass daily. Marie began as a hairdresser and later became a nurse during the Yellow Fever epidemics. She was skilled in the practice of medicine and knew the healing qualities of indigenous herbs. Concerned about the soul too, she would sit with the condemned in their last moments sometimes serving them their last meal. She was the first commerc

Survey # 4
Are you a fan of PDA's? (Public Display of Affection) yes Have you ever been caught making out? yes How many "bases" have you been to? all of them lol Have you had sex on the 1st date? yes How many different people have you had sex with? 6 Have you ever had a three-some? no Do you kiss and tell? yes Lights on or off? depends Have you ever tried 69? yes Do you have hair down there? no What about your mate? yes What's your favorite position? doggie When did you lose your virginity? my dads house

Thursday, November 13, 2008
Title in the works. (This one might be sappy, i dont want a million emails.) I will never forget the girl...who told me it will be okwho showed me the waywho loved me for meso unconditionally I will never forget the girlwho told me it was overwho showed me regretwho broke my heartso painfully I will never forget the girlswho told me the truthswho showed me the realitieswho i let get awayso regretfully So heres to the girl who showed me what it was to be loved. She showed me the joys of simple things. Of little notes left around the house. Found in the pockets of my favorite jeans. The simple texts, when i was feeling blue. A simple, "I love you." So heres to the girl whos heart I broke. My foolishness knows no ends. My blame fall upon myself. I took for granted what could have been. I know now that you truly never know how much something means untill you lose it forever. So heres to the girls who got away. My own stupidty never let them have a chance. No turning back the cloc

Ive Got A Golden Ticket
This is an excerpt from an article online about the Michael Jackson memorial service... Meanwhile, lucky fans celebrated when they got an e-mail saying they had scored the hottest ticket in town. "Congratulations, your application was successful," said the message sent to Deka Motanya, 27, of San Francisco. She immediately Twittered: "OMG OMG OMG OMG i got tickets to the michael jackson memorial service!!!" It was a real-life version of Willy Wonka's golden tickets. Each selected person gets a pair of free tickets, with the odds of being chosen about 1 in 183. Dozens of police officers and a fire truck were parked outside Dodger Stadium on Monday, where ticket winners could start picking up their coveted passes. Nancy Kothari, 31, drove all night from Yuma, Arizona, to be at the stadium before the gates opened. "I grew up with Michael Jackson, with his music," Kothari said. "'Thriller' was the first album I ever had." Kothari said she expected the service to be "extremely sad

Beautiful Cowboy Lady
This romeo is bleeding But you can't see his blood It's nothing but some feelings That this old dog kicked up It's been raining since you left me Now I'm drowning in the flood You see I've always been a fighter But without you I give up Now I can't sing a love song Like the way it's meant to be Well, I guess I'm not that good anymore But baby, that's just me And I will love you, baby - Always And I'll be there forever and a day - Always I'll be there till the stars don't shine Till the heavens burst and The words don't rhyme And I know when I die, you'll be on my mind And I'll love you - Always Now your pictures that you left behind Are just memories of a different life Some that made us laugh, some that made us cry One that made you have to say goodbye What I'd give to run my fingers through your hair To touch your lips, to hold you near When you say your prayers try to understand I've made mistakes, I'm just a man When he holds you close, when he pulls you near When he says the words

Things We Do Not Understand
If we truly were ment to undetstand all things. Do you really think we would call this life? For life as I know it, is beyond our understanding. If we truly understood all things There would be no need for confusion, heartache, and pain. We are human made up of many emotions. And left with no true understanding For one thing can mean something different from the next. We may THINK we understand But truly we get a glimps of the whole understanding. Happiness, pride, and joy something we all think we understand. For we may understand what feelings do to us. But do we truly understand what it does to us all? ~Jes

My Place Is In The Stars
So very many nights I gaze at the sky above me. And it fills me with a peace that nothing else can give. I know that as long as I have my night sky, I will keep the little sanity I have left. So many nights I wish to be a star in the so peaceful night sky. To take me home where I know I belong. I always know that my place is in the stars. ~Jes

Respect For Others And Threr Others
well let see here , thiis my first one so here it goes, To start off I dont want people to take this the wrong way but some of these muder fudgers on here dont respect the fact that some people on here are in a relationship and that a lil flirting is just that , A LIL FLIRTING ! It eats me alive to think that azzhole dont seem to respect the sanctaty of a relationship, I here some guys say "I bet I can do you better ! " , Get a clue ass-clowns , If you could do it better then why are you on here trying to get some ? HMMM ? If you are sooo good then go get your own and dont be a lil assjack and mess up someones relationship just so you can get off . I know that this is the web but come on people , If your "GAME" is so good then why the f-ck are you on here trying to get somthing ? you can't do it in person ? WEAK ASS PUNKS Now there are a whole lot of us on here to just have a good time and have fun , not trying to see how many booty calls we c

Love
how can you really tell when your in love. How can you tell when a person loves you back. Why do the people that you love hurts you. Do you some times feel that love is not real? Do you feel that maybe love is just a word? Love is real. Some times when you try to tell some one how u feel for a person that sometimes it makes no since at all to them but it make since to you. Well I think when your in love with some one your heart fells different its like ur heart has a glow to it and u cant stop thinking about that person at all even if you really try really hard to forget about them but you just cant. You want to hold them all day and all night and you want to kiss them every time you see them and when you do see that person you just want to jump up in down just because your really happy to see them. So is love real or is it just a word?

You Broke My Hreat-
'm sitting here whilst writing this song ,Thinking of how it all went wrong, I can't quite make out, what i said to you, To make you act like your starting to, You're breaking my heart, With the pain you put me through, I'm tearing up the letters, That i got from you, I'm looking out my window, And guess what i see? ,A newly married couple, That's what we were meant to be.,Stop breaking my heart,With those words you say to me,I not gonna listen,I'll throw away the key,I'm running away from the madness in my head ,Trying to find a reason why,You did what you did and said what you said,I think it's time thatwe said goodbye,You're breaking my heart,Over and over again,Why cant i make you see,That i ain't like other men, hope your happy now, To see me in this state, Now you're saying sorry, Well tuff it's too late, You've broken my heart, And what you see is true, I'm living like a tramp, This is all down to you,....... Love forever no more Rhino

Pronosis
NOT GOOD....HAS NODULES IN CHEST AND BELLY AREA...6MONTHS TO A YEAR ...WE SHALL SEE..NO ONE REALLY KNOWS...AND ANYTHING COULD HAPPEN...ONE DAY AT A TIME IS ALL I KNOW ANYMORE..HE IS GETTING MORE COMFORTABLE WITH TRACHE..MAKES LIFE A BIT EZIER. A NIGHTMARE ON ONE HAND AND A BLESSING TO B ABLE TO SPEND SOME TIME AND MEMORIES AND SAY OUR GOODBYES..BUT FOR NOW...LIFE AS USUAL...THINK THE WORST, HOPE FOR THE BEST...TY FOR ALL THAT HAVE LISTENED TO MY WANKING...BUT SOMETIMES...U GOTTA DO WHAT U GOTTA DO TO SURVIVE...THANK U AGAIN..I REMEMBER MY TRUE FRIENDS...MUCH LOVE..XO LISA MAY GOD BLESS EACH AND EVERY ONE OF YOU....;)

Sometimes
Sometimes we see things that aren’t meant to be seen.Sometimes things aren’t always as they seem.Sometimes we need someone to call our own,Especially when we’re alone.Sometimes people just can’t understand,Why things get out of hand.Sometimes life just isn’t fair,Especially when people just don’t care.And sometimes it's hard to say,Why things have to be this way.Sometimes it’s all you can do to get by,Especially when dreams continue to die.Sometimes it’s nice to sit in the rain.Even to just relieve the pain.And when we’ve had a really bad day,Sometimes we just need to get away.We never know what’s wrong with out pain.Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same.And sometimes when people get hurt, Even the strongest ones may need comfort