Fubar Blog Posts 3

Mornings First Yernings..."adult Content"
Mornings first yernings........might it be the feeling of first mornings touch your body aches for? The sensual sensations of gentle fingertips lightly grazed upon the skin. The longing for the body feeling another seeking it out till it finds a resting place against yours. Nestling and molding to yours with comfort,waiting for the great embrace it so searches for. The way your hands coddle her breast,and how the girl seemingly reacts at that moment by rising to them...waiting to feel the softened massage that speaks erotically to her chemistry. Might it be the feeling of her kisses you miss...watching her look upon you with her wanting stare, watching her trace the outter of her lips...moistening them for you...readying them for where ever she feels needs a place for her passionate hot beads that glisten from there. Can it be that the one lying infront of you has your Master of stirring ready for it's time. Making you feel you must softly nudge forward, hunting for her shallows to bat

All Done!
All done with that part of my life, she is history! As I wrote in the last blog, while my friend was unpacking breakfast I was stripping, he walked in to get me and saw me laying there naked with legs spread playing with my wet pussy, he got naked and straddled me and started fucking me, I started moaning real loud, which I never really do, he looked at me and I told him why, that I wanted my xgf to hear me having good time that she won't ever have again, he said he understood and then he turned me over and got me on knees and elbows and fucked me from behind, he likes doing me like that can pull my hair which i love! he then told me since i wanted to scream that he'll make me scream. He took out his cock and then inserted it in my ass OMG!!!! I never let anyone ever fuck me there, at first I was no way!!!!!! but then the pleasure took over the pain and i was like YESSSSSS!!!!!! Fuck Me Harder!!!!!!! I was screaming so LOUD!!!! gawd i am such a bad girl - I Love It!!!! After we b

The Call..
She called the usual list of people..Her sissy, her bestest friend, even taht bitch she dont really like...no one answered...A "BING!" rose her from her self-absorbed thoughts. She stared at her computer and noticed a blinking box that said "care to chat?". She looked for a sign of who it was, but none was forthcoming..she figured "oh hell,what do I have to lose" and clicked yes.. "hello love, Im Paul" is what she read, and her heart stopped..her breathing was the only sound in her ears, the rushing wind up and down her trachea resonating in her like a pebble in a hubcap. With shaking fingers she responded "hello Sir". His response was immediate and all she could hope for. "Hello NauteeMommee, I am glad I saw you online..I am intrigued and couldnt help but notice...you opened your heart and your soul in your profile...it is unusual and commendable. I was mesmerized by the authenticity and forwardness of your profile. As I said in my message, I dont seek one who is beaten, nor wishes t

Going Back To Roberta
Auntie Berta, Im writting this to let you know that i am thinking about you. Lately you have been on my mind. I just miss you so much. And i wish so badly that things were diffrent. I wish that you didnt leave us. I love you so much. You were the only person that was ever there for me. You helped me through so much. I could talk to you about anything and you never juged me. i feel lost with out you and gramms here with us. Our family is falling apart. Im just waiting for GOD to give me a sign that you are watching down on me. And that you are still there for me. You may not be here phsically, but i know that you are here in spirit.

Blah
Today was blah..work was just blah..im feeling like blah..blah a la... Had to work with someone that I dislike today and it wasnt' that one bitch... some dude that started to give me a attitude when I was semi training him on day. I was only suppose to shadow him, to make sure he was doing his training right...he basically got the job fine when he was being trained the day before and I was just around him as a shadow. I wasn't able to shadow him all the time though because I was needed in other places. So I had told him if he had any questions, just pull me away from the other place and I would help him. Few hour later, he told me that I was a real bad trainer and narked on my manager. Uhh hello, I'm only suppose to shadow you and help you when you needed help...you never asked for my help with anything. So how can I be a bad trainer when he didn't ask for help, I was busy working in other places and I was only suppose to shadow him? He also thinks he's one of those "Oh I know all an

Relationships
theres obviously something wrong with the way i look,my old fashoned, do things at the house,type of lifestyle, or maybe my bedroom things that women just dont want.im divorced twice raisin my 4 yr, old little boy on my own.his mom is with a guy she met on the damn internet, she lives 8 blocks from us and will not even make an attempt to come see my 4 yr old aint that sad?ive had hi since a 1 yr and 1/2 old and she may have had contact with him 6 months total.now im single again from datin another chic and my kid got attacted to her well i gotta go for now....rocky

The Wifey
I have a black and white male Fat Russell terrier named Jack. His favorite playmate is my white and black female rat, named Teddy. Teddy is smaller than she should be. She makes up for it in daring do. She is the first flying rat I have ever had. She escapes her cage through the most absurdly small openings and then leaps a good three or four feet to land on the nearest person (generally me, watching in amazement). She quickly was introduced to Jack - since Jack is a dog bred with a strong prey drive, especially for rodents. His perky ears and his intense brown eyes focus in on Teddy where ever she is running, and his body soon follows. Then Teddy jumps to the ground and starts to chase Jack. Have you ever seen an undersized black and white rat chase a fat Russell Terrier... Its amusing. Jack has learned to use his muzzle and lay it against Teddy so that he can stop running from her, and get to chase after her for a bit. She jumps on the chairs, he looks around confused at the groun

We'll C Whos Stronger
so, for the most of you all i'm just some random girl you would like to get to kno, or just use me for rating on the other hand there are a few of you that know a lot about my personal life or have a little knowing. Last night was the first time in my life i think i just randomly stood up on my own 2 feet and said what was on my mind. I'm sitting at home with my son while his dad is with another girl, up until 30 mins before he left me he wanted to be with me and have everything to do with me. He left because of a stupid fight... but needless to say. there is only a few things i can do, and i gave him 2 hours to get back to me on it. either he wants to be with me and work through everything or he needs to just let me go and stop saying he loves me cuz he has a pretty fucked up way of showing it. I have bent over backwards for this boy and yet it doesnt matter he still runs back to the bitch... i mean this girl isnt even cute.... shes freakin stupid... and it comes down to the fact i'll

Taco's Theory I
If a blonde and a brunette are dirving down the road, with the windows rolled up, and if the blonde is driving 65 mph, then the blonde rolls down her window...... how many brain cells are lost, by the brunette, due to the cross flow of wind from the blonde's brain?

Magic Works-the Weird Sisters
And dance your final danceThis is your final chanceTo hold the one you loveYou know you've waited long enoughSo, believeThat magic worksDon't be afraidOf being hurtDon't let this magic diesThe answer's thereOh, just look in her eyesAnd make your final moveDon't be scared, she want you tooYeah, it's hard, you must be braveDon't let this moment slip away...Now, believeThat magic worksDon't be afraidAfraid of being hurtDon't, don't let this magic diesThe answer's thereOh, just look in her eyesAnd don't believe that magic can dieNo, no, no, this magic can't dieSo dance your final dance'Cause this isYour final chance

Wow I Dint Know Tht Talking To An Ex Girlfriend Was Bad
so ne way i havent wrote a blog in a while so this one is gonna be kinda long but may be short. first thing DID YOU KNOW THAT TALKING TO A CO WORKERS WIFE ABOUT MUSIC IS OFFENDING? I SURE AS HELL DINT but i gues it is offending idk how but watever this world is getting stupider and stupider as time comes and goes and two did u know tht taking to an ex girlfriend jus having a friendly conversation nothing sexual or bad pisses ppl off all because they automaticaly assume tht you are being scandelous watever happend to its not about the past but about the present and future but iguess sum women jus hold grudges to damn long i forgot tht being frined with your ex girlfriend or boyfriend was a bad thing i mean wat the hell i am a very friendly guy i dont hold grudges why cause i know it was in the past and its not like i can go back and change the past the past is the past get over it and understand tht being friends isnt bad at all but oh wait i am wrong on tht to and finally the last th

How I Will Look At "friends" From Now On !!
There comes a time in life when you realize: Who Matters Who never did Who wont anymore And Who always will So, don't worry about people in your past, there is a reason why they didn't make it into you Future !!

Where Do I Go From Here?
What to do with my life,Where do I go from here?Which path will I take?The answers are so unclear.My life is leading me nowhere,I'm in a neverending rut.Stuck in this trap I dug,Searing pain deep in my gut.My body an empty shell,My mind no longer my own.Unable to make decisions,I can't even answer the phone.So where do I go from here?How do I get out of this place?Start thinking for myself,And put a smile back onto my face.

Hi Everyone!
im looking for some old fubar friends so if you remember me please shout at me or whatever.and also i'am not looking for love on here cuz i already found it.i just came on here to make friends and have a good time.just thought i would let ya all know that.peace out...

I Believe In Love
I believe in love, the type that comes without warning. I believe the power of the kiss we gave each other. I believe in the sensation that we shared every new night of pleasure. I’ve never felt what I feel with you, so that why I believe in love. I believe in the love that forgives all, I believe in that skin that makes you so beautiful, in the sensuality that is found in your lips, and in all there is that make you a woman.I believe in Love after being with you. I believe I found an undeserved paradise. I believe, and I am right when I say that I am fortunate. I believe and have faith that you will always be on my side. Please never leave me because I could go crazy, and never stop giving me your soul when we make love. I believe in love, the one that changed my life. I believe, and I know it is because you gave me the happiness of caressing you body each day and see what I’m able to see through your eyes.

Bleh
I slept in today, felt nice but wasn't planning sleeping in that long. Didn't get the chance to do some cleaning, laundry and test bake a cake. I want to try to bake a Mango flavored cake for my mom's birthday on monday. Went out to eat at Buffalo Wild wings with Rich's mom, her truck boyfriend...if that's what he still is, and even Rich..wow..actually got him to come out and off playing WoW. He said he was sorry for acussing me about the whole arguement a few days ago. Something he thought I did to ruien his nerd night or whatever...Like I want him home when I'm home. I'm working a extra day tomorrow....bleh.....but it's money...money in my bank and money to move out....yup yup

Well Crap!!!!
My girl and I were out running around doing errands, and I heard that noise we "men" are familiar with ... That annoying noise called the "Power Steering whinning"... Well I always carry extra fluids with me in the trunk such as oil, power sterring fluid, and of course cant be with out trans fluis, and brake fluid.. So I reached under the dash and "popped" the hood latch and walked around and opened the hood to check out the power steering reservior.. And it was fine but I noticed everywhere a slight film of oil, I looked at the oil dipstick still was about half a quart low well within the the safe level... I looked closer and I said to Joy, " WHAT THE FUCK?!?!?!" wheres the oil cap!? I looked around the engine comparment didnt see it anywhere, I looked at Joy and said What did you do with the oil cap, I further commented and said "I know I put it back, I'm to anal to forget it"... Joy said " I dont touch the oil cap, Master...laughing, then she added, infact I dont go anywhere

A Heart Warming Story
Here's a truly heartwarming story about the bond formed between a little 5-year-old girl and some construction workers that will make you believe that we all can make a difference when we give a child the gift of our time. A young family moved into a house, next to a vacant lot. One day, a construction crew turned up to start building a house on the empty lot.The young family's 5-year-old daughter naturally took an interest in all the activity going on next door and spent much of each day observing the workers. Eventually the construction crew, all of them 'gems-in-the-rough,’ more or less, adopted her as a kind of project mascot. They chatted with her, let her sit with them while they had coffee andlunch breaks, and gave her little jobs to do here and there to make her feel important.. At the end of the first week, they even presented her with a pay envelope containing ten dollars. The little girl took this home to her mother who suggested that she take her ten dollars 'pay' she

Say Your Prayers
Everyone was seated around the table as the food was being served. When little Logan received his plate, he started eating right away. "Logan, wait until we say our prayer," his mother reminded him. "I don't have to," the little boy replied. "Of course you do," his mother insisted, "we say a prayer before eating at our house." "That's at our house," Logan explained, "but this is Grandma's house and she knows how to cook."

The Kill (bury Me)
What if I wanted to break Laugh it all off in your face What would you do? What if I fell to the floor Couldn't take all this anymore What would you do, do, do? Kill Break me down Bury me, bury me I am finished with you What if I wanted to fight Beg for the rest of my life What would you do? You say you wanted more What are you waiting for I'm not running from you Kill Break me down Bury me, bury me I am finished with you Look in my eyes You're killing me, killing me All I wanted was you I tried to be someone else But nothing seemed to change I know now, this is who I really am inside Finally found myself Fighting for a chance I know now, this is who I really am Kill Break me down Bury me, bury me I am finished with you, you, you Look in my eyes You're killing me, killing me All I wanted was you Come, break me down Break me down Break me down What if I wanted to break...?

About Me You Should Read This !!!
I thought was time i tell my friends n family about me. I have very rear deases called Klienfelters Syndrome. I hope this helps you understand me lil better. DNA Women = xx Man = xy me = xxxy Out Of 6/8 people in the world have this deases, n know one can find anything about this deases i have there no info on the net. I was born premature i have learning disabilty. Am lil slower than most, Everyday i learn something new.

Weather In The News
One of the things that really aggravates the shit out of me about the news is when news stations treat everyday weather as news. The news comes on and what's the top story? It's hot out. No shit, it's fucking summertime. What the fuck else would it be in this geographic location in the middle of fucking summer? And they do the same shit in winter, like all of a sudden it's some profound mystery of nature that makes it cold out. What the fuck, they run out of news to report and all that's left to do is to give play by play on the fucking weather? There's already a segment on the news for that; you know, the weather! OMFG!

Ode To You Know Who You Are
6 yrs man, we've had our ups and our downs. I cant stand the downs anymore, they are starting to hurt more than the ups feel good. Please just help us both walk away, dont answer when I call. Yes I cant delete your number just as you cant delete mine. I wont answer yours, dont text me on those lonely nights when you know being together would be just right. Being in your arms, head resting on your chest, breathing as one has never been an desire with anyone else. I love you so much that its driving me insane trying to hold it in. Perhaps in our next lives it would work, bs if you would just admit it and stop trying to avoid caring for someone who was a friend before a lover we mighta had a chance. Stupid fucking me for letting it go on this far. Damn, being an emotional female is harder than trying to be faithful. Being as I know you'll never read this, it just feels good to get it off my chest! bye my love, youve always had my heart!!

Great Song Lyrics.
Cold - Gone Away Do you pray in the night? Can you appreciate the winds? And I won't care, or fight.I need you close to sing, it's the same beginning Gone away, It's the same old, same old song Gone away, It's my whole life in wordsAnd I can't breathe when you cry But I'll be there to hold you tight And I would kill, I would fight To keep you close, I keep singing the same way I won't live if you died If I could feel you in the wind And this is me, it's my life I need you close to sing, it's the same beginning Gone away, It's the same old, same old song Gone away, It's my whole life in wordsGone away, It's the same old, same old song Gone away, It's my whole life And I can't sing, And I don't know ,I'll fall,I'm gone,And I can't sing, And I don't know. I'll fall,I'm gone,Gone away, It's the same old, same old song Gone away, It's my whole life in wordsGone away, It's the same old, same old song Gone away, It's my whole life

Shits N Giggles
So apparently I did something extra special to warrant having a new stalker. Now I am completely floored by this. And this isn't just your everyday fu-stalker, this one is special. He's really butt-hurt about something (not quite sure what) and when I tried to talk to him and find out wtf was his issue, I found I was blocked. Anyway, I know he knows I know he's watching me like a fuckin hawk. I really don't give a crap about that because I'm not doing anything wrong. I just really want to know what bug crawled up his ass and parked there (although I have a fairly good idea). I'm about sick of the lies and bullshit being spread around about me by this little "clique" they have, and I hope they realize that Karma is not only a bitch, but the cards I hold are much more damning than anything they can do to me. So Mr Stalker (and I know you'll read this), How about you knock off the fucktarded highschool bullshit and come talk to me. You want to settle it away from here, my yahoo i

Without You
When you are not by my side,I feel very lonely. Without you being in my arms, I feel like I am missing something. When you are not around, I do everything to make it seem like you are. I could not live without youRight here by my side. You are so very special. Too much for me to sayIf I did not have your love, I wouldn't know what to do...When I look into your eyes, I cannot imagine living without you. When I see your beautiful smile, I cannot help but think of all the good times we have had. Without your love, and support, I could not make it in this world. Without your smile, and always happy face, I would always be sad. Everyday I am with you, You bring a smile to my face. And I just can't resist the joy you bring to my world. What would I do without you?

I Am The Mother Of A Marine, This Is My Daily Routine
Mentally calculating the time difference half way around the world Accepting that my son is now MY protector Reaching across the ocean with my love, hoping my son feels the extra boost In the dead of night, waking up and saying a prayer for his safety and peace of mind. Never letting my son see the tears in my eyes or hear the catch in my voice whenever he leaves home or ends a phone call Enduring those moments when I am not as strong as I think I should be Making it through each day by the grace of God Opting to work extra hours or volunteer more than I used to trying to keep my mind occupied Trying to smile even when I haven't heard from my son for days or weeks on end Holding onto the Marine Corps motto of "Semper Fi", hoping I can keep the faith Every second of every minute of every hour of every day, praying God is with my son and will bring him home to me safely Rejoicing and shouting so all my coworkers know it is my son who is on the telephone.

Audley
Cheers! The clock tolls five... Winters slumber within the den, arise fair folk for the day is end. Put down your paper and pen, to Audley pub we shall head. Cheers? To friends, foes, and jesters alike... Mistress of drink a Stella please, Merriment and laughter put all at ease. A Pint, a Pound, and a Crested Crown, as I order from the mistress another round.

Starting Out
This is the start of the adventures of Cor Lune. He is a gem cutter by trade, a bartender by choice, and a storyteller because it goes with the music he plays. He recently turned 19, and heard about this young noble that ran away from home being sent to the furthest point away from a major city on his family's lands. So, imagine a kid who grew up in New York, ran away to Los Angeles being sent to the middle of Kentucky as punishment...sounds like trouble, and will probably be funny along the way. So.....

Ouch...
Leaving a major city is usually not a major event. Catching a ship upstream to a smaller city is pretty easy. Especially when you are a bartender and musician. After showing my skills, badly as a bartender and skillfully on the pan pipe, I was able to travel down river free of charge. Getting to the smaller city, I found some a small band of travelers, who were accepting of my offer to travel with them. Staying at farmhouses along the way, we split company about 2 days from my intended goal. Starting out on my own the next day, I come upon a hill. There is a foul stench in the air, as I look around. I find a dead horse, with no rider. Fine cloth is under the horse, suggesting a noble was riding it. I decide to not go directly over the hill ahead, and to skirt it to the right. There is a sharp drop here, with rocks and brush leading me to believe I can find my way down. Starting down, I make it approximately 10 feet before a bush gives out. This causes me to fall, and trying to tumble,

How Not To Have Cybersex
How not to have cybersex How to succeed with women virtually. Online computer users often engage in what is affectionately known as "cybersex". Often the fantasies typed into keyboards and shared through Internet phone lines get pretty raunchy. However, as you'll see below, one of the two cyber-surfers in the following transcript of an online chat doesn't seem to quite get the point of cyber sex. Then again, maybe he does... Wellhung: Hello, Sweetheart. What do you look like? Sweetheart: I am wearing a red silk blouse, a miniskirt and high heels. I work out every day, I'm toned and perfect. My measurements are 36-24-36. What do you look like? Wellhung: I'm 6'3" and about 250 pounds.I wear glasses and I have on a pair of blue sweat pants I just bought from Walmart.I'm also wearing a T-shirt with a few spots of barbecue sauce on it from dinner...it smells funny. Sweetheart: I want you.Would you like to screw me? Wellhung: OK. Sweetheart: We're in my bedroom.There's soft music pl

As I've Seen In My Lifetime.
Myself, as to me from a child, was very much the fighter,,and do as I pleased,,But at a younger age I knew little. I at age 10 was abused by my 4rth grade teacher. Didn't know right from wrong back then as now parents are well taught than they were back then...Once there was a sayin if you cant trust ur parents or whatever to talk you your teacher. I fear these words now as teachers can be the most corrupt ones as Many,,,and here we do lie now in the media where much is brought to hype about those now but werent back then. I was Brutally beat upon by a punk I did not know or he did not know me, too I was supposed to be dead as my kin was awared of my hope for survival wasnt a chance.Or they were told If I lived I'd be a veggy for life. I'm called a miracle,,as I did live ,,am far from a veggy,,but do have numbness in my tongue,,and my left hand, also. Something ive had to live with the whole time ive been alive... My younger son was an allstar athlete in football, basketball an

Wow! Two Years!
WoW!!! It's been two years since I was pointed to this site and found the love of my life. Hiya babe! *waves* I came to this site having no idea what I was looking for, no clue what I was doing here, just a need to move on with my life. I found that special someone who took my journey with me. It's not because of what we've done together that I thank you for, it's that through you and because of you, I was even able to be here for them. Thanks love.

August 21st
Why. . . I find serenity/balance in the pain, in the pleasing, in the helplessness, and the surrender. There is a place inside myself that I come to when you use me. The helplessness I feel while you tease me, choke me, fuck me, even when you pull on my collar opens me up. It makes me feel whole. I feel peace and pleasure. I’ve never felt more loved than I did last night and this morning. Or more open to that love. The fear and the anger and the distrust was gone. Melted as if it had never been. I was finally me. Alone in a space that was of my choosing and not forced on me by some outside influence of what I should or should not be. I simply existed. The guidance, discipline, and the punishment curbs my penchant for self sabotage. It keeps me grounded and mentally fed. Alone I have a nature that is self-destructive and easily overwhelmed. I crave a strong hand to take the lead. On

August 21st #2
Mmmm everything is blurred. My brain dosen't want to focus on what I must write. I sat cuddled up by my master's chair, my head resting on his knee. Rough hands grabbed me and threw me to the bed, pulling my shirt and bra from me. "What do you want?" the question came repeated, again and again. I can't speak. I want to say "Take my holes. Use me, fuck me, take me. Give it to me until I have cum so many times that I beg you to stop" But I can't. I can only whimper. Again and again the same question "What do you want?" The slap falls across my breasts and I manage a faint "Use me" But this answer is wrong. Wonderful slaps fall across my breasts as he straddles me. They become harsher and I am pulled further from myself. Extacy begins its slow flow through my veins. My small breasts bounce heavily. Then comes the kiss of the whip. Made by my own hands, it is now used to slash across my already sensitive breasts, my theighs, and knees. Again and again it falls irregular in its frequency

Why Search For Truth?
The personal revolution of becoming a Christian has always been the only basis of true freedom and real change. Though the truths of God's Word and His kingdom are eternal and unchanginf, they are continually made new to every person who encounters them. Throughout history great change has only been made by the beliefs of others, but who instead demand the genuine revelation of coming to know God personally. Those who will accept no less that are the ones who become world changers. "But what about you?" he asked, "Who do you say I am?" Simon Peter answered, "You are the Christ, the Son of the Living God." Jesus replied, "Blessed are you, Simon son of Jonah, for this was not revealed to you by man, but by my Father in heaven. And I tell you that you are Peter, and on this rock I will build my church, and the gates of Hell will not overcome it." Jesus and Peter (Matthew 16:15-18) The rock Jesus spoke of here was the revelation of Jesus as the Christ that Peter expressed: Je

Men If You Want To Get Laid
Dear Gentlemen,Ahhh women. Enchanting and mysterious. No? Yes.. and we like it that way, don't we? Yes I think so. Still. You could use a heads up in certain areas. And your girlfriend isn’t going to tell you. She’s going to tell everyone BUT you. So just in case you share anything in common with my girlfriends’ boyfriends you might want to have a little look-see at the below advice.Truly Not Yours,DewContributors (in no particular order):Sister Scotchy McDrunkersonMoody PantsBuddha MamaOrigami Momi(A)Dew(Z)ChaibabysunmoonstarsBanana PantsLoree Harrell Writes and PaintsSalacious Bee“Let me direct your attention to an easily forgotten fact: The vaginal canal is NOT the Mecca of sensation in the female genitalia. That's right, it isn't packed with nerves that would make child birth even more of an unbearable hell. Nature is a mother, but she ain't THAT cruel. If you're planning on planting your face in her crotch, may I draw your attention to the little man in the

Your Life, Your Decisions
Thought of the Day:"The best day of your life is the one which you decide your life is your own. No apologies or excuses. No one to lean on, rely on, or blame. The gift is yours-it is an amazing journey-and you alon are responsible for the quality of it. This is the day your life rally begins."

You Think You Could Be Me
To all the Witches who think they can be me... to all who dont really even know me... to all the lies im so tiered of hearing.. to all the dead that may still be living...to all that i dont care to know about...to the life i work hard to keep you out... to the little ppl that live in the snow....to the little hoes that dont really even know... to you if your reading this page... stay away from my husband before you die from my rampage ...if you think im lieing then please test me out...im sure you grave will scream ... god help me out

Perfect Match ..cancer/ Capricorn
Cancer with CapricornWhen Cancer and Capricorn make a love match, it's a celestial pairing of great tenacity and determination. Capricorn, the Sea Goat, is focused on logic, on being down-to-earth and real; Cancer brings a charge of emotional intensity to the relationship. Both hold one another to high standards tempered by an abiding mutual respect. In a Capricorn mate, Cancer finds dedication, and in return Capricorn comes to love Cancer's persistence. These two Signs from opposite sides of the Zodiac can come together to create a very successful and secure connection. If you can give a Cancer emotional commitment and security, a loving home and some care for children, you have a better chance of getting their love and affection. If you can give a Capricorn respect, status, power, and authority then you have a better chance of getting their love and affection. Getting down and dirty with the old Goat, gives a natural high that can take you to the top of the mountain. Yo

Poem About My Ex Brad
You walked into my life like a Prince out of a dream You became my heart and soul, you were my everything I guess I was stupid for letting you in my heart I never thought you would hurt me so much this literally tore me apart My heart was fragile I didn’t want it to break But I guess loving you was my biggest mistake I had plans for us and I saw us happy I saw us growing old together and being a Grandma and Pappy I wanted to show u all that love I had to offer But now we will never even make it to an alter I am sorry if I wasted your time and energy I guess you couldn’t handle being with me Now I am trying to move on It’s hard because every time I turn on the radio I hear a love song I need to forget about you and put you in my past But every memory of you still wants to last I beg and plead every single day For God to take your memory away You haunt my heart and my mind I hope one day I will forget you for all time.

Broken Promises
I only have myself to blameFor these tears and the pain.I was the one who let you inAfter I promised myself never again.But I didn’t knowThat one day, you would go.You said I could trust youAnd that you would always be there to help me through.You promised you’d never goBut I guess now I know.Promises don’t mean anythingBecause promises can be broken and hope can sink.Proving that all good things do come to an endAnd life-long journeys of friendship can turn into dead ends. Nangula Nafuka

...you & Your Healthcare
The American Medical Association has weighed in on the new Obama health care proposals ..The Allergists voted to scratch it, but the Dermatologists advised not to make any rash moves. The Gastroenterologists had sort of a gut feeling about it, but the Neurologists thought the Administration had a lot of nerve.The Obstetricians felt they were all laboring under a misconception. Ophthalmologists considered the idea shortsighted. Pathologists yelled, "Over my dead body!" while the Pediatricians said, "Oh, Grow up!"The Psychiatrists thought the whole idea was madness, while the Radiologists could see right through it. Surgeons decided to wash their hands of the whole thing,while the Internists thought it was a bitter pill to swallow.Plastic Surgeons say "This puts a whole new face on the matter.."The Podiatrists thought it was a step forward, but the Urologists were pissed off at the whole idea. The Anesthesiologists thought the whole idea was a total gas,and

Miss Smilla's Feeling For Snow
The number system is like human life. First you have the natural numbers. The ones that are whole and positive. The numbers of the small child. But human consciousness expands. The child discovers longing, and do you know what the mathematical expression is for longing? The negative numbers. The formalization of the feeling that you are missing something. And human consciousness expands and grows even more, and the child discovers the in-between spaces. Between stones, between pieces of moss on the stones, between people. And between numbers. And do you know what that leads to? It leads to fractions. Whole numbers plus fractions produce the rational numbers. And human consciousness doesn't stop there. It wants to go beyond reason. It adds an operation as absurd as the extraction of roots. And produces irrational numbers.It's a form of madness. Because the irrational numbers are infinite. They can't be written down. They force human consciousness out beyond limits. And by adding irratio

Im Really Sexy
Sexy Test... created @ 2009-04-07 16:29:59 HOW SEXY ARE YOU?GET A PIECE OF PAPER AND PENCIL... BE HONESTNUMBER IT 1-11 (NO CHEATING)SEE YOUR RESULTS AT THE END OF THE TEST.WHEN YOU SEND IT ON PUT YOUR SCORE IN THE SUBJECT BAR.1. WHAT COLOR HAIR DO YOU HAVE?A Brownb Redc Blonded Blacke Other2. OUT ON A DATE WOULD YOU WANT TO:a Go to a partyB Go out to eat3. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE COLOR OUT OF:a Baby-Pinkb Yellowc Baby-BlueD Turquoise4. PICK YOUR FAVOURITE HOBBY OUT OF:a Talkingb DancingC Taking Long Walks5. IF YOU COULD PICK A STORE OUT OF THE FOLLOWING, WHICH WOULD IT BE?A Hollisterb Old Navyc Abercrombie6. WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE PLACE OUT OF THE FOLLOWING?a Hawaiib LondonC Florida7. IN THE SUMMER WOULD YOU RATHER GO TO:A The Beachb Somewhere Cooler8. WHAT IS YOUR BIRTHDAY MONTH?a Januaryb Februaryc Marchd AprilE Mayf Juneg Julyh Augusti Septemberj Octoberk Novemberl December9. WOULD YOU RATHER:a Chill at homeB Go out with friends10. WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE INS

Owy
I slept wrong last night so my shoulders really ache. I hurt my shoulder muscles years ago when I was working out at the gym, and they haven't completely healed and I guess I repullled them, Sometimes it happens.. I was real tired last night and started to fall asleep in a position where it wasn't too comfortable but I was too lazy to adjust myself. I remember telling myself last night that I was gonna be sore in the morning, but I was way too tired. And now here I am sore muscles...This is going to really suck working today....and I am still real tired....

Phun Time Wit Drow...we Got This
GangstaRock Bizznotchezz..can u digg it ^-^ said: these niggas got problems.dont think there is a head doctor out thee that could solve em. and i dont care if i was ballin.get outta line wit me and the paremedics are callin.you know shit about us.we'll flip a fuckin bust and its straight to fists and cuffs.stage you with an upper cut.we aint playin.we fukkin nuts.so gangin all up on us will leave ya'll niggas in the dust.haha i got rhymes for you to ...thats pretty neat eh -Each1 Teach1-BrassKnucklePoet said: ashes to ashes and dust to dust, im smashin lookin in my rearview at the butts of sluts, how they gon look at me nuts?..hittem with a biiiiatch whuddup? im gon follow it up, till they cant swallow enough, put some jizzm on the belly if they keep hollerin stuff.... GangstaRock Bizznotchezz..can u digg it ^-^ said: got this gat on my waist and this look up on my eye-these demons are along for the ride-i get high.then im fine.no i aint.shit im lyin.i got this fight goin

Dont Sleep With Your Husband
The phone rings and the lady of the house answers."Hello?""Mrs. Sanders, please.""Speaking.""Mrs. Sanders, this is Dr. Jones at St. Agnes Laboratory. When yourhusband's doctor sent his biopsy to the lab last week, a biopsy from anotherMr. Sanders arrived at about the same time. We are now uncertain which onebelongs to your husband. Frankly, either way the results are not too good.""What do you mean?" Mrs. Sanders asks nervously."Well, one of the specimens tested positive for Alzheimer's and theother one tested positive for HIV. We can't tell which is which.""That's dreadful! Can you do the test again?"questioned Mrs. Sanders."Normally we can, but the new health care system will only pay for theseexpensive tests just one time."''Well, what am I supposed to do now? ""The folks at Obama health care recommend that you drop your husband offsomewhere in the middle of town. If he finds his way home, don't sleep withhim."

"how Would You Fix The Economy?"
The Business Section asked readers for ideas on "How Would You Fix the Economy?" I think this guy nailed it! Dear Mr. President: Please find below my suggestion for fixing America 's economy. Instead of giving billions of dollars to companies that will squander the money on lavish parties and unearned bonuses, use the following plan. You can call it the Patriotic Retirement Plan: There are about 40 million people over 50 in the work force. Pay them $1 million apiece severance for early retirement with the following stipulations: 1) They MUST retire. Forty million job openings - Unemployment fixed. 2) They MUST buy a new American CAR. Forty million cars ordered- Auto Industry fixed. 3) They MUST either buy a house or pay off their mortgage- Housing Crisis fixed. It can't get any easier than that! If more money is needed, have all members of Congress and their constituents pay their taxes... If you think this would work, please forward to everyone you know. If not, please disregard. Then

Fear ....pt 1 (story)
"Where are we going?" Tammie asked as they turned down the dirt road. "Alittle patience Tammie," Larry chuckled as he looked over at the redhead beside him, "and you will see soon enough." Tammie pouted alittle but sat back in her seat and looked at the landscape thru the window. Uneasiness started setting in as the woods grew thicker around them and she looked over at her boyfriend. Larry merely smiled and reached over and ran a hand up her thigh. Soon their destination came into sight and if anything her uneasiness grew. "What are we doing here?" she asked with a wary look in her eye, as she read the sign in front of them. Welcome to Milestown, we hope you enjoy your stay, is what the sign read and it was easy to see that this small town was clearly deserted. "YOU BROUGHT ME TO A DESERTED TOWN???" Tammie screamed at Larry. The man visibly flinched, but recovered quickly as he explained that it was not the town that he brought her to see but a certain building. Tammie sat up

Fold
Back to the oriaginal rhyme at stand. Uninsane hallowed fast part kickin off with shit to start. Throwin darts unperfect insanity. How's my life made out to be. G ever wonder why i feel so down. 2 loose let fit clown fuck with this play urself to go against kriss. You ain't shit wicked rhymes i spit. True at what's know to kickin this & i'm just so serious you delerious fuck this. Everybody & the god dayum world. All in it's fucked up society. Never thought i was anything to be. G what does that make me. All fine sweet & sexy but kriss ain't bout take none of ur shit. Step down you don't like it try urself hide & fight it. Never it myself toothless bitter a quitter aquite of i'm rid of. All rhymes in times you shit. Ain't nothin but a whole bunch of mimes. Gimmicks stick to where urself's at bite off at that bat hit the bone get gone. Everything i've shown hope you urself not alone. Kick step in with how i'm runnin in gunnin blast. You ain't shit to last. All in ah i ever wanted was so

Liars And Fiction
Follow your heart when you need it don't let yourself be betrayed friends can turn to enemies enemies to friends tell then will the madness never end ticking ticking ticking the clock counts away resisting the darkness insomnia abounds can't eat or sleep or hardly motivate depression is like a black shroud tearing and shredding all hope in its path fighting this maddness everyday never gonna give in anyway

For Bret.
Thank you poem By: Susan Horne I often dream about what it would be like to have you by my side To have someone to stand by me so I dont have to run and hide With you I feel braver, like a lion on the prowl Even though my roar is only that of a cat's meow When I dont feel like I can do anything not even the smallest task You give me encouragement for the whole day to last Forgive me when I am a little crazy I cant help but brag on you For you are the one that made me see the light so I can shine anew You give me a peace and comfort so I have to thank God above For giving me a precious partner to have and to love So now I will put in perspective what I am trying to say Thank you for all the things below that you put up with each day For all the times you make me laugh and all the times you have heard me cry For all the times I came to you and asked you questions and wondered why For all the times I needed a shoulder just to cry and let it all out For all the times I

Welcome To Hell
Don't come to me with your problems I don't need them.Your conscience is a weight that I won't hold. You'd rather ne the only who pretends. Is it cause you've been bought and sold so young? Don't ask me questions cause I don't got the answers. If you only knew what time will tell. It's all a test and lessons that you can't learn. You'll know when you spend your time in hell. As your bloods running thin your times running out. No one will be listening not even when you shout. When your angels turn to devils you'll finally figure out that no one will be with you in the end. As hypocrite you're just a contradiction rapped up in your lie who knows whats real. Well this is it your loely life of fiction. Do you even know how to feel? As your bloods running thin your times running out. No one will be listening not even when you shout. When your angels turn to devils you'll finally figure out that no one will be with you in the end.

Stuck
dont explain and please dont call still got your panties hanging on my wall still got your blood stains on my sheets still can taste you on my teeth still can fuck you in my mind never know just what ill find when i talk with you in my head conversations that we said this is real now how exactly do you feel past life experiances come to mind are you missing imortant data are you fucking blind oh yeah, thats right you dont see well myself this vision twenty fifteen that means i can see into the future clear as night a scope of things to come seem so obscene but i can block shit out two capricorns are stuborn arrogant numb as fuck not really though its just dumb luck when we crumple appart inside and then were stuck

Letter Of Appreciation
This is the letter our supervisor sent out.......... I just wanted to take a moment to say how proud I am of the actions taking by the Court Operations Deputies on September 10, 2009. This afternoon a woman sitting in the gallery in Court #18 fell unconscious. The deputies in the courtroom responded immediately and communicated to the supervisors what they had and what they needed. Several deputies responded to assist and also retrieved the AED on the floor. Upon the deputies arriving, the woman was on the floor, had stopped breathing and had no pulse. Deputies jumped in and started CPR, mouth to mouth resuscitation and also had to use the AED twice in attempt to revive the woman. With everyone’s efforts, the woman started breathing and responding. All of these things occurred prior to the medics arriving. These deputies brought this woman back to life. If not for all of your quick actions, this woman would not have regained consciousness. They are all heroes and deserve

Tuesday.
This tuesday, I have my ultrasound. To find out how far along i am. I'm terrified. I'm not vomiting anymore, but now I'm always ravenous. I hate it. *sigh* I hope I'm not too far along... Because I know the father won't want anything to do with our son. The pain in my stomach's insane; it's hard for me to sit upright because of the pressure.' It's also affecting my bladder. grumble. Every night, I have dreams about Brad. Nightmares. I'm sick of them.

Making Love Vs. Fucking
Making love versus fuckinghow funny just to utter those wordswhen you're home aloneand down and outsex is just a simple wordbut involved with it our complex emotionsthere is always one person who feels deeper than anotherone who longs for more, while the other wants lessi've made love to some, and i've fucked othersbut none can compare to how i feel when i'm with youthe feelings that are just above the surfacethat need not be spoken to be understoodits so clichebut i am having the best time of my lifemy unhappiness has found another homeand i'm left to shiver in awei can't describe what it feels like to make love to youto feel vulnerable, yet unafraid to face the consequencesto wake up in the morningknowing with all my heart that the feelings will remainfucking is so cold, callous, and uncaringits rough and fastlike a race to the finishwith only one winneri've never wonnor will i ever run that marathon againfucking isn't always by choicesometimes what you feel is making love is another

Twelve Tips For A Great Relationship
Twelve tips for a great relationshipTalk to each other. Your partner cannot read your mind, no matter how much they love you. Be clear about what you want to say and listen carefully to your partner. Spend time together. Love is time, the time you invest in each other. Make your relationship a priority. Balance the time you spend at work with the time you spend working on your relationship. To feel good about your relationship you need to feel good about yourself; work on it. Make room in your relationship for differences and value those differences. Relationships are flexible; let yours grow and adapt with you. Set goals for your relationship and plan for your future life together. Try not to judge, criticise or blame each other. After all, we're only human. No one is perfect, arguments happen; resolve them with respect. Be sexually considerate of each other. Be affectionate and have fun. Remember your sex drives may be different. Be attentive and romantic. Remember how it was when yo

People Who Died
According to the sources, Jim Carroll, the renowned poet and the punk rocker who is best known for writing “The Basketball Diaries”, took his last breathe on Friday. He was 60. Sources reveal that Carroll died after succumbing to a heart attack at his home in Manhattan. The report was confirmed by Carroll’s ex-wife, Rosemary Carroll. Carroll, a teenage basketball star at Trinity had a chaotic life that was marred with drugs. Carroll extensively wrote about his drug abuse, which is witnessed in his autobiographical tale, “The Basketball Diaries”. Carroll published several poetry collections of his and his album “Catholic Boy” is regarded as a landmark punk record. Carroll’s stint at the New York art scene as a teenager opened the windows for the creative genius, although drugs kept crawling into his life. His gradual inclination to writing poems and his flair already had earned him the reputation as “The new Bob Dylan” during

Love Me Or Hate Me: Heartless.
Am i not the cold..heartless basterd you made me..so enjoy..my slow fall from grace..i care less..of anothers heart..ive been burnt enough times..to know..love is truely a joke..ive been at the edge of sanity..with one person..let them get so close..like that of kin..and yet..there was the moment..that i didnt expect..a sharp pain in my back..a long knife handle sticking out..yeah..it hurt..but let me go..for i have no longer..a heart to care..weather your here..are gone..im just alone..and i think its time for me to except..reality..that no one is perfect..although..i have tryed to please..plea..and to point..almost blead out all my blood..nothing i do..will bring me peace..i laying in the wake of lies..all gathering like flies..and im here..head hung low..waiting for it all to end..i could kiss you a thousand times..write some of the sweetist letters..and make you feel like the hand of god had touch you..yet..for all of that..in the end..what are we..nothing but lies..and so i end th

Ive Been Tagged Ohh Boy!
Instructions......Once you have been tagged, you have to write a blog with 10 weird or random things, facts, or habits about yourself. At the end, you choose at least 5 people to be tagged, listing their names . Don't forget to leave a comment that says, "You're it!" on their profile and ask them to read your blog. You can't tag the person who tagged you. 1... I wear my heart on my sleeve.....gets hurt a lot but I always come out on top:) I can be your best friend or your worst enemy your choice 2... I have a horrible chocolate nipple craving! mm nipples!!! 3... I love to sing and dance in the shower 4... i have long toes lol i hate them so if anyone wants too hook me up with some plastic sugery i would appriciate it lol 5... yes my name is April no i was not born in April i was born in September my mom did have half a brain! 6... I pee in the shower. hey i do too LOL!!!!!! (its gotta be the hot water)! 7... I love sex in nat

Justice In Buffalo, Ny
Buffalo NY (AP) - A seven-year old boy was at the center of a Erie County courtroom drama yesterday when he challenged a court ruling over who should have custody of him. The boy has a history of being beaten by his parents and the judge initially awarded custody to his aunt, in keeping with child custody law and regulation requiring that family unity be maintained to the highest degree possible..The boy surprised the court when he proclaimed that his aunt beat him more than his parents and he adamantly refused to live with her. When the judge then suggested that he live with his grandparents, the boy cried and said that they also beat him.After considering the remainder of the immediate family and learning that domestic violence was apparently a way of life among them, the judge took the unprecedented step of allowing the boy to propose who should have custody of him.After two recesses to check legal references and confer with the child welfare officials, the judge granted temporary

-revolution Is Eminent-
"Our World Order"-Revolution is eminent-The government is fake, hear me out, no one person stands for us. It is a tightly nit community of:MilitaryThe PressHigh Ranking OrganizationsBanks!Most importantly the Banks! I'm someone you know and I'm telling you to take a look in to it! "Our World Order" Needs To Come Before The New World Order" (A One World GOVERNMENT)!YOUTUBE:JFK's Last SpeechNew World OrderCodexZeitgeistThe Union BankersI. G. FarbinJ. D. Rockafler's U.S. Stander Oil

The Games People Play...is There Ever A Winner?
minutes fade into hours...words are coming to mind faster than you can type...and then it stops...and when it begins again...it's as if you are talking to someone you haven't heard from in ages the same questions...the small talk...like nothing was shared before that moment...leaving you wondering who you were talking to just a few minutes or hours before you've laughed...cried...shared secrets...bared your soul...and you wonder how many people were also having that same conversation...wonder if what you said was just part of some automatic rambling and if the other person was even reading what you wrote wondering if you have once again made a mistake and trusted someone who has no true feelings of honor...respect...or if it's just another game...and you are the pawn...a willing one no doubt...but still just a gamepiece that will be sacrificed in the end to get to the more important player in the game called internet friendship

Longer Than Long Day
I believe I just had the longest day ever! And I'm not 100% sure if it is over. This morning started off by waking up at 6 AM to get ready to go to the doctor, and go there by 7:20 AM. When I got called back, I thought I could do it, I was going to go in and be cool. Well the doctor came in judging me due to the letter I wrote to the head of the board that I was told was not going to go outside of the board. I think the only thing the doctor did for me that was good was to start me on the Gardasil vaccination, due to the fact that I have a lot of family members who have had all sorts of cancers. Needless to say I will not be going back to him unless it is for another Gardasil vaccination, UNLESS I go into my OB/GYN on the 8th of October and he tells me he can finish the vaccination up for me. After the doctor I went over to my grandma's to talk to her about all of it, and then she made me breakfast. From there I came home and started going through boxes for the yard sale to

Words Tolive By
WORDS TO LIVE BY Please remember this everyday:F A M I L YI ran into a stranger as he passed by,"Oh excuse me please" was my reply.He said, "Please excuse me too;I wasn't watching for you."We were very polite, this stranger and I.We went on our way and we said good-bye.But at home a different story is told,How we treat our loved ones, young and old.Later that day, cooking the evening meal,My son stood beside me very still.When I turned, I nearly knocked him down."Move out of the way," I said with a frown.He walked away, his little heart broken.I didn't realize how harshly I'd spoken.While I lay awake in bed,God's still small voice came to me and said,"While dealing with a stranger,common courtesy you use,but the family you love, you seem to abuse.Go and look on the kitchen floor,You'll find some flowers there by the door.Those are the flowers he brought for you.He picked them himself: pink, yellow and blue.He stood very quietly not to spoil the surprise,you never saw the tears that fil

Oh What A Night!
I pushed Tina to the floor and laid on top of her in a 69, wanted her below me so I could shove my pussy into her face! i am so mean hehehehe!!! She was very tenative at first, barely even flicking her tongue over my lips, but she got better real quick when I started licking her lil cunt, the next half hour or so was a blur of me and Tina taking turns cumming, OMFGGG IT WAS FUCKING AWESOME!!!!!!! She wasn't that good with her tongue but my god she made up for it with enthusiam, I didn't just had a few cums it was like one continuous cum! We were like all sweaty and breathing so heavy and our tongues worn out! hehehehe!!! we got off the floor and sat down on the couch next to my friend. His cock was hard again from watching us, like OMG who wouldn't be hehehehe!!!! Anyway, I got up and went to the bathroom, I wanted to shave her lil cunt so I grabbed my razor and cream and went back to the living room. And like OMG what a lil slut we have made, she was between his legs sucking h

Fuck You Fuck Photobucket, Fuck This Bitch Right Here..fuck You Too
fuck photobucket what the fuckthey get to decide what i can have in therewhen i can access it where i can put itfuck you motherfucking photo nazi kunts EVERYTHING SHOULD BE FREEEVERYONE SHOULD BE CONTENTEVERYONE SHOULD ACCESS THEIR PHOTOS AND NO ONESHOULD EVERtell you what to do with your camera the pics, your panties, your unborn child which you are going to abort so that you can continue to drink, and fuck, and and spread herpes and bad digital pics of you with a shot of tequila in your hand , making that bathing suite from target which you got one BIG SIZE too small, cause your gonna go to the gym and do yoga.....with two ($*!:}) guys..you met at.....they work for potobucket.....they must...because i cant find my photos, and it is making me LOOSE MY FUCKING MIND YOU WHORE! if this message offends in any way, we at the MOODring would just like to reiterate FUCK YOU MOTHER FUCKERS...KUNTSHOOD MOOD

State Of The Union
I'll be honest with you, it sux living in Ohio. Our economy sucks. Traffic is over policed. Crime is under policed. Cost of living shot up 30% in five years. We are a political oxymoron. We claim to be true blue conservative but we are pushing some very left winged social economic programs down our throats. The other day I get a call from my daughte's school complaining that I did not fill out the free lunch forms. The form has become mandatory in the state. You must reveal your income. Then if you make less than what they expect they force your child on the free lunch program. I told them that I pay for her lunch and what I make is none of theor damn business. yet they are still pushing for this form. So I sent it in saying I made 400k a year. Why the hell is it their business if I pay for her lunches?

Rants And Raves
Before I start I figure Ill let people know that I use blogs as a place to get my feelings out, I normally tend to delete some rants a little while later once Ive calmed down. Oh and Im a terrible speller, and i suck at grammer and puncuation and paragrahs, ect. Anyway...... K well he appoligized and the doctor gave him some valums lol so hopefully alls good now. *crosses fingers*

Bleh
Today was just a blah day...didn't have much energy to do much and was thinking a lot. Packed one box and got bored with it...I already packed quite a few boxes...I still have time..the kitchen is the last place to pack. Hung out with Kari, Michael and Matt....Been forever since Matt would come out of his room. Grabbed some food and went to a few stores. Rich texted me asking when i was done with the car so he could do his food shopping for the weekend, I was out doing mine and he doesn't usually do his until real late at night because he would always bitch about having to be aroudn customers in the afternoon and he said he was hungry and wanted to get food. I told him that if he was that hungry, he could walk down the street to the fast food joitns there and do his shopping at the grocery store there if he was in such a hurry. I know he just wanted to go out with his gf so I told him he's going to have to wait until I got back home and done with what i was doing. When I got home,

Salvation
ARE YOU GOING TO HEAVEN WHEN YOU DIE?1 John 5:13These things have I written unto you that believe on the name of the Son of God; that ye may KNOW that ye have eternal life...YOU MUST REALIZE:1.You are a sinner.Romans 3:23For all have sinned, and come short of the glory of God;2.The Penalty for Sin is Death and Hell.Romans 6:23For the wages of sin is death;...Revelation 20:15And whosoever was not found written in the book of life was cast into the lake of fire.3.Jesus Paid Our Sin Debt.Romans 5:8But Ggod commendeth his love toward us, in that, while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us.Romans 6:23...but the gift of God is eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord.4.You Must Receive Jesus Christ as Your Saviour.Romans 10:9That if thou shalt confess with thy mouth the Lord Jesus, and shalt believe in thine heart that God hath raised him from the dead, thou shalt be saved.Romans 10:13For whosoever shall call upon the name of the Lord shall be saved.THE FIRST STEP OF OBEDIENCE AFTER SAL

Reason,season Or Lifetime
People come into your life for a REASON, a SEASON or a LIFETIME. When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person.When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be. Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow or learn. They bring you an experienc

Eternal Love
how can i describe,The feelings locked insidethe hurt and pain im feelinginsides all twisted and grindingoutside a normal facenot being able to show weaknessgrieving, not knowing what to domy love for you out of control,knowing it is forever,yet also knowing the feelings are no longer returnedtransporting myself backi remember a time long agowhere love notes existed, cuddled togetherus against the worldbut now that is gonemy eternal love no longer returnedonce you promised me foreverhow could you take that backwhen i need you the most, no longer hereunable to handle itthe pain wracking my bodynow only a shadow of my formor selfas i sit here hurtingi only wait for your love to returnand warm my cold away

Don't Say A Thing
The days are getting shorter. The warm sometimes breezy summer nights are slowly being deposited in a chest full of memories. One morning, perhaps in the middle of a quiet day, or when the moon is supreme in the sky. A thought might cross your mind. A memory will overtake you. A reaction you will have. Does it anger you? Does it saddens you? Does it steal a smile off your face and brighten your eyes? Your heart will surely change the rythm of its beat. But "don't say a thing". Whatever your feelings might be "don't say a thing". You might opt to dig more into your memories. You might want to allow your feelings to bloom. You might question the reason behind it. Hey! do you feel like making that phone call? Do you feel like writing that letter? Are you adventurous and bold enough to have a face to face? But, hey! "don't say a thing" Keep it to yourself. Is yours to keep is yours to nurture, is yours to throw it away. You and only you will know when to yell it to the four corners of

Bleh
Just went through a bunch of boxes in the shed. Emptied 7 boxes, divided stuff into my boxes and his crap...4 bags of trash. Ill try to get the rest of it tomorrow...starting to get dark. I checked the mail today and saw I had another fucking bill...dated 2 years ago. What the hell? Why is it all of a sudden I'm getting all these late bills and I never seen them before. It was a doctors bill...okay..So I called them up asking what it was about. I saw the date on it and figured it was because i got hurt at work...so I asked them didn't my insurance cover some of it? When I had insurnace...... she said it did..okay...so I paid the 163 dollar bill. Grrr...Get that off my chest. Then I look at my phone bill...and see that Rich had bought games on his phone...I had told him before to ask or TELL me when he does that so I know since I'm paying for that bill.. GRRRR....so instead of talking to him about it...I rented a movie from his comcast bill. I rented My Bloody Valentine. Never seen it

What I Need To Let Go!
Where to start? I am finally trying to get my life together once and for all. I have done a lot of what I feel to be wrong things in my life so its time to clean out the skeletons my closet, forgive everyone else and most importantly myself, so I can finally be happy. I battle with many things and I many truly battle with them. I have done things that I was taught it was wrong and in my heart it really was. There is many that don't have faith in me and don't believe I will ever change. Everyone has their demons and down falls, it is time that I mine. It is not gonna be easy....it plays over and over in my head. I am not gonna plaster all over the internet what my demon is that I constantly battle with, but the ones that are close to me know what it is and hopefully can encourage me and help me stay strong. I am really trying to get my life straight with God so I can truly be happy something I haven't been in a really long time. So, I am asking all that know me not to tease me as far w

Hgahgaer
What a boring day. I didn't do much today...watched a movie at home, played on the net a bti, did a bunch of cleaning, more packing and tossing stuff away. I've thrown and packed so much and doens't seem like I've done much. But I know that I've done a lot and he's gonna have a fun time packing up his junk since he barely started and I'm not helping him. Just one more day off....bleh....then back to work

Home
I AM BACK WITH MY FAMILY AFTER A YEAR AWAY, MY KIDS HAVE GROWN IN SO MANY WAYS AS I LOOK AT THEM IT MAKES ME SAD,CAUSE I MISSED A YEAR AS THIER DAD DOING MY JOB IN A FAR AWAY LAND I HAVE CHANGED TO THEM AS WELL, I AM NOT THE SAME MAN AS I WAS WHEN I LEFT BUT AS WE SPEND TIME TOGETHER WE NOTICE LITTLE THINGS WHICH MEAN SO MUCH TO ME AS I LOOK BACK AT THE TIME I SPENT IN THAT FAR AWAY LAND I REAIZE THAT I HAD SO MUCH FREE TIME ON MY HANDS WITH TIME TO THINK ABOUT MY LIFE I HAD LEFT MY WIFE MY KIDS AND FAMLIY AND FRIENDS SO NOW THAT I AM BACK IN THE BEST LAND A MAN CAN DEFEND, I LOOK BACK AND WOULD DO IT ALL OVER AGIAN FOR THERE IS NO GREATER FEELING THEN DEFENDING OUR FREEDOM...JRO LOVE ALL MY FU FRIENDS

A Lovers Prayer
The love I feel for you is like no other every moment i am awake you are on my mind every time i lay down my head and close my eyes you are there beside me longing for the moment when i can be in your arms again holding you close, feeling your heart beat next to mine feeling your warm lips pressed against me in my heart, you are my husband no one else in this world holds a candle to you missing the smell of your skin the feel of your touch wishing you were here right now but thankful for what i do still have hoping and praying we will make it through these tough times we are facing but i know as long as we face them together there is nothing in this world that can stop us for true love is hard to find and even harder to throw away when two souls are meant to be nothing can bring them down so i sit here and wait for the day you come back to me and i will be right here for you hoping and praying you see as i do once again

Just The Girl In The Mirror
I look in the mirror and see a girl, Who is staring back at me. I don't know who she is, Because she's not the girl I wana be. She puts a smile on, While inside she is falling apart. She says, "I'm okay", As pain fills her heart. She pretends not to care, As everyone slowly walks away. She hides behind her mask, And pretends to be okay. She is scared to open up, And call someone her best friend. They all turn out the same, And never really care in the end. She is scared to let people close, It always ends up as heartache. She decides to trust someone, But it always ends up as a big mistake. She feels like a stranger in her own home, Like she doesn't even belong. She tries the best she can, But it always seems to be wrong. She freezes up at the word "love", People throw it around too much. Her muscles constrict, As she is afraid to be touched. She has ideas for the future, Hopes and dreams of her own. But she doesn't hold her breath, Because disappointment is all she has ever known. She

The Old Couple
There's an old couple, both in their 70's, on a sentimental holiday back to the place where they first met. They're sitting in a pub and he says to her, "Do you remember the first time we had sex together over fifty years ago? We went behind the barn. You leaned against the fence and I made love to you from behind.""Yes, she says, I remember it well." she replies."OK, he says, How about taking a stroll round there again and we can do it for old times sake?" Smiling his wife responds, "Oh Henry, you devil, that sounds like a good idea, she answers."There's a man sitting at the next table listening to all this, having a chuckle to himself. He thinks, I've got to see this, two old timers having sex against a fence. So he follows them. They walk haltingly along, leaning on each other for support, aided by walking sticks. Finally they get to the back of the barn and make their way to the fence. The old lady lifts her skirt, takes her knickers

Chapter 19
Was I losing my mind standing here hearing the voice of my dead lover ? The Father to my oldest Son the same one that I watched die before my very eyes in front of my old home when he'd come to kill myself and my own child not caring what the cost to himself was gonna be ? I was losing my mind that's all there was to it that's all nothing more just my mind playing tricks on me from being so worried about my Daughter and Husband that it was shouting things out loud enough for me to think that they were real voices that's all it was. I'll go back to the Castle and take the kids out for some fresh air and see if my Daughter would drink anything while we were in the Garden. It'll be better once I'm back around the kids,it has to get better being around them I'm always happy and have a smile on my despite my Daughters illness I'm always smiling with her to keep her happy. " She's never gonna trust me once she knows it truely is me and not just her mind playing tricks on her from all she's

Inspiration
She's my never ending inspiration,Everyday I wake she is my first thought,The first image in my head,The first thing I want to touch,The first person I want to wish a good morning,I want to be there to show her love,I need her next to me in all the rough moments of life,She is perfect,Strike that last word, perfect is jealous of her,Beautiful looks at her in the magazines and dreams,Envy is itself just inverted when it sees her,Awesome is what she is in every fragment of the word,Loving doesn't mean enough for the amount of love between us,People always say "Life ain't fair",People don't know me and how unfair it is,Life's strongest emotion is witheld in me,Dieing to get out and wrap itself around her,If love were a sickness, I'm terminal,The cure is 2900 miles away,But time is standing still with thoughts of her,One day we'll be together and paint the town red,But until that day I'll be here waiting.

Three Times Three
Wind in the north, run through the treesThree times three, let them see, let them seeSands of the east, rich soils beneathThree times three, set them free, set them freeFires in the south, awaken from sleepThree times three, let them see, let them seeWater of the west, flow to the seasThree times three, set them free, set them free

The Devil's Tears
He use to be so strong.Nothing could bring him down.NO matter how hard anyone tried.He continued to smile and laugh.Then he met someone.He started to become tame.Looking into the eyes of.What could have been the opposite ofWhat he called him self to be.The eyes of an Angel.Then he made his mistakes.He let that angel go.Out of fear and stupidity.He walked away.Not wanting to deal with the change.He sat by the waters edge. With the moon full and pale.Shake his head sadlyThe Devil has finally fallen.The devil yell out in pain for everything has died.The devils sits aloneWriting these words.In hopes that the angel seesThat of the Devils Tears.Coursing in blood.He tries everyday to pick himself back upPutting on a show to all around.He shows that nothing has happened.Inside though, people knowHe has finally found a defeat.The devils tears continue to stream.You can see them even in the darknessOf the night which he yields.There is nothing left to himBesides the Devil's Tears

Counting The Days
Counting the days Until I dieWaiting for almost enternaty The pain is growing with every passing timeAs I count down.Counting the daysUntil I findSomething that was taken from meSo long ago that it seems forgettenBy everyone.Counting the daysWere I can Bring everything intoYour opened eyes, as prepare to die.As time itself stopsCounting the days Were I willBe there alwaysIn your mind tormenting youJust like you did me.Counting the daysWere I finallyBreak these changesAnd unmask the true nature of myselfAnd Counting the days until I die.

Heart Over Mind
"Give us not to her.", he cries. My mind not fooled by the tongue that spreadeth lies. "This one is true." , he says. My heart wanting to believe already forgetting past heartbroken days. "The pleasure. Not worth the pain.", he laments. My mind does beg that pointless portent. "This one will be different, I can tell.", he does defend. And with that my heart leads us away breast bared once again.

All The More Reason To Live Like Today Is Your Last
I disapprove of both and let me tell you why. Gods are created to suite the needs of people at a certain time and place given enviromental surroundings. Case and point, Zeus was king of the gods and beneath him were the numerous demi-gods of the time, one of love, one of harvest, one of the sea, one of the sun and so on. Ancient greeks, with infinite philosophy and ideals knew, not thought but KNEW that the greeks were the chosen people. decendants of the gods lust on human women and therefore men women and children were subject to the wrath of the gods. They punished pride and strength but adhored in sexuality and "sin". Reproduction is ideal and necessary in any civilzation as it is in any society before the 15th century as more sons mean more hands to work the fields. More young men to send and die to defend lands from foreign intrusion. And more young men and women to provide more and more generations. But the Greeks KNEW the gods lived upon olympus and controlled the underworld, e

Dark Betrayal
Around, all around, the shadows gather.My dread grows as the dagger of your words falls against my heart.It mutilates me, and darkly mylife's blood dripsto the fallen despairing leaves.In my madness I call your namewhile Death's shadow surrounds me.Now alone, my love falls upon uncaring eyes.This is because of you©DS 1975

Desire You
DON`T SAY A WORD DON`T STAY AWAKEREST FOR A WHILE, FOR A LIFESLEEP QUIET MY HEART, I DON`T NEED YOU NOWAND IT MAKES ME WANTWANT TO FALLDARKNESS CALLING, COME TO REAP ME FROM MY LOVEI DESIRE YOU, FOR ALL MY HEART I`VE COME TO THISI WANT YOU TO COME, COME FADE MY SUNCOME AS YOU WANT, TONIGHTBURN SLOW MY HEART, I WON`T WEEP YOU NOWAND IT MAKES ME WANTWANT TO DIESAY ONE MORE PRAYER TO FALL DESIRESAVE ONE MORE HEARTBEAT TO CRY ©DS 1975

Waiting
The sun rises on a cool crisp morning My body aches for want of yearning I want your caress, your touch For I need your love oh so much You are my presence in my mind I am lucky to find a man so kind To hold in awe at your passion and need Your want for me is not of greed To languish for hours within your arms Your wit, your humour and that impeccable charm Enlightens within me a new desire each day One I hope is there forever to stay I love you lover, my friend and desire My loins ache for you as though on fire My breasts harden at your thought Nipples grow hard, sensitive and taut The door to my inner depths opens for you The passion, the fire, the need to endure Caressing you, touching you, kissing you My love has been waiting so long for you I love you with all my heart and soul! Not just your being but you as a whole!

Halloween
So, now I have two ideas for Halloween: A Russian mail order bride: wedding dress, a big tag that says "Looking for Green Card", envelopes attached to the dress, and White trash: Bud light shirt, Nascar edition (check), black eye(check), preggo stomach, two diff colored baby dolls hangin off my stomach by umbilical cords, Dc Martens boots (check), black tooth cap

Windows
I have a house- my windows are barred, nailed shutOccasional light seeps through, and makes you wonderWhat hides inside, but I won't open upDon't try and pry, the iron nails are strongTo hold the curious afarBut wonderment is even strongerYou lean in to try and bend that barYou put your ear and listen to the soundsAnd left to ponder what those moving shadows areAnd where the light you see is coming fromAnd whats hidden behind it allBut after all those tries, you looked aroundAnd found a lock: it was unlocked all alongYou opened windows wide and found the place completely dark and vacantMy eyes, the windows to my soul

Bullshit
BULLSHIT I know how it feels to dream dreams and have them ripped from your heart, I know what it means to love someone so much you would give your life up for them. I know what pain feels like physically and mentally and I've learned how to endure. I know what it feels like to be angry and how life sometimes seems like an endless vicious cycle and you long to want out. I know what it feels like to shine and to be adored when you are on top of the world. I know what it feels like to be alone when your down and out and don't have a pot to piss in or a window to throw it out. I know the difference in being in lust and being in love and sometimes I fucking just want both. I know what it feels like to like to cry to just wash away the pains within and relieve the tenseness of the bitterness that lyes inside. I know what it feels like to receive the death sentence but not knowing when the day your going to die shall come but know your life has just been shortened. I know what it

A Few More I Wrote
you said you was in love with me and would always be. i ended up saying thing one night that i didnt mean out of anger and hurt. I fell to rock buttom when you left and said you didnt love me anymore. My love for you is still strong and always will be my love. poem #2 I look back at the life we had together. the way we would just hold each other in the dark and talk abou tour future together. Then one morning i awake and your gone. I lay here and wish that one day that you will be in my arms again. I miss the feel of your soft lips on mine. I long for the soft gental touch of yours that you always used to assure me things would be ok. I love you very much my love and will be awaiting for you poem #3 As i walk in the valley of the drakness. i carry the memories of you in my heart. I now stay in the darkness to keep from getting burnt by the light again. I look back to only watch you walk away. when i look forward now all i see is darkness. I h

Let It Go!
Thanks =Hollywood= There are people who can walk away from you.And hear me when I tell you this! When people can walk away from you: let them walk.I don't want you to try to talk another person into staying with you, loving you, calling you, caring about you, coming to see you, staying attached to you.I mean hang up the phone.When people can walk away from you let them walk.Your destiny is never tied to anybody that left.The bible said that, they came out from us that it might be made manifest that they were not for us. For had they been of us, no doubt they would have continued with us. [1 John 2:19]People leave you because they are not joined to you. And if they are not joined to you, you can't make them stay.LET THEM GOAnd it doesn't mean that they are a bad person it just means that their part in the story is over. And you've got to know when people's part in your story is over so that you don't keep trying to raise the dead. You've got to know when it's dead. You've got to kno

Old Woman
This is one my hubby told me today, and I about pee'd myself Granny is in the nursing home zooming around her hoover chair ... heads on down the way and sees Krazy Karl. Karl pulls her over and asks to see her drivers license .... she looks in her purse and finds a skittles wrapper, and hands it to him. He lets her go. She turns the corner and zooms down the hallway, sees Sucide Sam. Sam pulls her over and asks to see her proof of insurance. Granny looks in her purse and finds a Dr Pepper can and shows it to Sam. He lets her go. She zooms off and around another corner, and notices Perving Peter. Peter has his "peter" in his hands ... Granny looks up and says, "Great a breath alyzer test" LMAO

Wut Good Am I Now
don't look at me this wayor I won't talk to you anymoreAnd I like lonelinessI don't want to see youYou just want to persistwith this bad complexes of yoursAnd you like it and you don't moveYou don't want to see meButAnd you go lost/disorientated, aware, my friendAnd you went over thereAnd you stay fallen there, coveredDestinies which won't give youa dream once again DearMy life/dearYou are needing/missing your batteriesPut them in yourself becausePut them in yourself because nowI want youI love youYou are kidding on mePut them in yourself becausePut them in yourself because now i'm going away don't look at me this wayor I won't love you anymore

Oboma Wants To Take Our Right To Own Fire Arms Away
Now 'all Guns' must be listed on your next (2010) tax return!If you have a gun, I hope it isn't registered!Senate Bill SB-2099 will require us to put on our 2009 1040 federal tax form all guns that you have or own... It will require fingerprints and a tax of $50 per gun. This bill was introduced on Feb.. 24, 2009, by the Omama staff. BUT . . this bill will only become public knowledge 30 days after the new law becomes effective ! This is an amendment to the Internal Revenue Act o f 1986. This means that the Finance Committee has passed this without the Senate voting on it at all. Trust Obama ? ..... you must be kidding ! The full text of the IRS amendment is on the U.S. Senate homepage,U.S. Senate

Wrong Side Of The Bed
Wrong Side Of The Bed I used to hold you as I fell asleep Your arms around me Your head on my chest Is what made my day complete Since the day you left me Sleep comes harder every night And every morning when I wake up I know something isn’t right CHORUS I woke up on the wrong side of the bed My arm draped over where you used to lay Holding the pillow where you rested your head My mood ain’t getting any better And won’t in the days ahead This happens every time I wake up On the wrong side of the bed No one ever doubted when they saw us together The looks we exchanged The smiles we shared That our love would last forever Now when my friends see me It’s the same question every day They all wanna’ know what’s wrong The only thing I can say, is CHORUS to fade

Who Was That Nasty Woman?
I almost did something very cruel just now. Cruelty isn’t like me, and this would have been beyond cruel. I almost forwarded an email to someone I had known for a while, dated briefly a couple of times, got jerked around by a couple of times and finally told to “go attempt the anatomically impossible with the incredibly inadequate”. (Yeah, I really did say exactly that) It was an email poking fun at the aging male and the loss of virility. And I know he would have gotten the point. It was pure meaness. Pure, unadulterated meaness. And I contemplated the act with impish glee. I don’t like hurting people. I don’t even like hurting people who have wounded me. I’ve been a lot more deeply wounded by other than this slightly pathetic person, even though he is a narcissistic, sadistic jerk. He tried mightily, but I didn’t care enough to be all that hurt. Yet here I was, contemplating committing virtual mayhem with absolute delight. I’ve never met that side of me before; and I do

Late At Night- A Poem By Margaret Bergeron
LATE AT NIGHT Quiet as a feather bed... No sounds around at all... Only the easy purring... Your cat's sleeping in a ball... The whole city is fast asleep... Unless they are like you... Not really resting, not awake... But not knowing what to do... Think you'll have a glass of milk... Or a piece of buttered toast... Watch a little late T.V. ... (An hour at the most) Pretty soon the sky gets light... And it is nearly dawn... Now you're sleepy, tired too... And you begin to yawn... Off to bed for just a bit... Must rest to keep your charm... Just as soon as you drift off... You hear your clock alarm... Hit the button labeled, "SNOOZE"... Three or four times more... Can't ignore the time by now... You're tired to the core... Guess this day will have to have... A little nap or rest... Or all the things that must be done... Will not get done the best... So I say to all my party animals out there in fubarland; Work hard and play harder, but let's not forget

Love Vs Used
While a man was polishing his new car, his 4 yr old son picked up stone and scratched lines on the side of the car. In anger, the man took the child's hand and hit it many times; not realizing he was using a wrench. At the hospital, the child lost all his fingers due to multiple fractures. When the child saw his father.....with painful eyes he asked, 'Dad when will my fingers grow back?' The man was so hurt and speechless; he went back to his car and kicked it a lot of times. Devastated by his own actions......sitting in front of that car he looked at the scratches; the child had written 'LOVE YOU DAD'. The next day that man committed suicide. . . Anger and Love have no limits; choose the latter to have a beautiful, lovely life..... Things are to be used and people are to be loved, But the problem in today's world is that, People are used and things are loved... Watch your thoughts; they become words. Watch your words; they become actions. Watch your actions; they become habits. Watch

Someday...
Some Day… Someday I will be happy with myself. Someday I will have pride in myself. Someday I will find that special someone to make me smile. Someday I will have the family I’ve always dreamt of. Someday… The things I desire I shall receive; May not come all at once, But gradually is fine for me. Many sacrifices I made to get what I want Many more I will go through. The broken hearts, The wounded minds; The games played destroyed me. The “I love you” that makes a person get butterflies inside Or the “I miss you” that gave you gentle chills down your spine. Even the kisses that sent shivers racing through your body. Someday I will have it again. Someday it will be a happy place for me. Someday when all the problems are gone, I will find that someone to make all this happen again. Until that day I will dream, And hope for a better day. Someday.. I will be in heaven again, Hoping for your arms around me; Wrapped so tight I can hardly breathe. My happiness will

Masks I Wear
I'm not complicated...I'm complex...There are many facets to me...Some of which I do keep hidden...It depends on the mask I'm wearing at the time...We all have them...We all wear them... I've often been told I wear my emotions on my sleeve...Truly..it should be more like my face...When I was younger...My uncle was watching a movie with me....At one point he started to chuckle...The movie wasn't funny...So I asked him what was so funny...and his reply was..."You"....Me? I asked him...."Yes, You"....He said that he'd never seen someone with such emotion on their face....That when something was funny...a smile would be there....That if it was in anger....I would scowl....That if sad....tears would form....I didn't like it....I didn't want everyone to know what I was feeling all the time...So the masks appeared.... Growing up I'd realized that my masks were there whenever I needed them....Showing a sign of weakness is something that I have a fear of doing.....I mean come on...if I show t

What's It Like
What's it like?To be able to wake With the sun, as it begins to riseWith no sadness, pain and tear drops in my eyesSitting up from my bed, From my shell that covers itself in darknessNot wanting to move, to breath or to smileBut to feel just hopelessI push myself and I rise out of my shellAnd out into the cruel lifeThat seems to burn like hellWhat's it like?To be able to smileAs I see myself in the reflectionOf a mirror that smiles back to meThat forms without any satisfactionHow could I smile back at that dreadful creatureIt disgusts me and tears me apartFor this creature that's so devastatingThat bears a sad dark lonely heartWhat's it like?To feel beautiful for just one dayLike a rose that grows so beautifulInstead of a dying rose of decayAs my pedals fall off, one by oneTearing me apart until I am noneI shed my tear till my eyes go dryI ask myself and wonder "What's it like?"For I will never know why - writen by me

Fury
Anger burning inside of you, You try not to let it show. You keep your anger bottled up, No one will ever know. Always avoiding others, You try not to explode. Next thing you know, Your lashing out. You've hurt someone. You can't take it back, Everyone turns away as you walk by in the hall. And now you've lost it all....

Finding Your Soul Mate
Here’s a little trivia for the babes. Most of you girls are looking for a guy that will give you some security, right? Well now, where do you go to find this working stiff? Bars, not hardly. At work, could be. How about your church, good choice but not always effective. I have a suggestion. Look for a guy that listens to internet radio. According to the rating company Nielson “those with incomes above $100,000 were most likely to listen to streamed audio (16.3%). Streaming audio had its highest reach among 35-54-year-olds (13.5%).” There you go ladies. The most important question you can ask a potential mate is “Do you listen to internet radio. For more info go to http://textpattern.kurthanson.com/ Better yet ask him if he listens to BlastFM. www.live365.com/stations/blastcasterfm

Snakes Can Fly, Snakes Can Fuck
Can Snakes Fly? There are five different species of "flying" snakes. These venomous, tree-dwelling snakes are found in Sri Lanka and Southeast Asia. They hang from a high branch and swing themselves into the air. They then flatten their bodies by widening their many ribs and use side-to-side, S-shaped motions to keep themselves in the air. These snakes cannot fly upward but can glide for a good distance. Snake Sex One might think having no limbs would put a damper on the love life, but not for snakes. When a female snake is ready to mate, she begins to release a special scent (pheromones) from skin glands on her back. As she goes about her daily routine, she leaves an odor trail as she pushes off resistance points on the ground . If a sexually mature male catches her scent, he will follow her trail until he finds her. The male snake begins to court the female by bumping his chin on the back of her head and crawling over her. When she is willing, she raises her tail. At that po

For My Friend With The Vampire Heart
the experience is a personal one, your path is your own, your discoveries will be deeply personal, your growth will be your very own manifestation i can however make many resources in the form of rare literature available and try to offer insight in the way of sharing from my own revelations, but you see the embodiment of what you are to and wish to become can only be misconstrued and perverted by others claiming to be teachers, the era of the master/apprentice is over, we are all becoming gods now magic is the very technology of all things known and not, you can use it to become whatever you want to, so start by looking inside yourself, your magical platform in the form of the wiccan system is just an ancient form of organized religion and simple magical spirituality tied hard and fast to mostly this planet, its moon, and spirits named and renamed from the summarian times of the necronomicon through the present abomination of the vatican catholic stranglehold and on past into new-ag

Defining Moment
Stepping out into the unknownOne foot off the cliffReady to leapWaiting for the change to hit meThe moment of completionThe moment I knowAll is right againPausing to take a breath Before I fall into the abyssWill it swallow me wholeor hold me safe and unharmedPraying I will live to see another dayThat my choices wont be my endClosing my eyes, one last prayerI leap into darkness..

Hysterical...
WHY WOMEN SHOULDN'T TAKE MEN SHOPPINGAfter I retired, my wife insisted that I accompany her on her trips toTarget.Unfortunately, like most men, I found shopping boring and preferred to getin and get out. Equally unfortunate, my wife is like most women - sheloves to browse. Yesterday my dear wife received the following letter fromthe local Target.Dear Mrs. Samuel,Over the past six months, your husband has caused quite a commotion in our store. We cannot tolerate this behavior and have been forced to ban both of you from the store. Our complaints against your husband, Mr. Samuel, are listed below and are documented by our video surveillance cameras.1. June 15: Took 24 boxes of condoms and randomly put them in other people's carts when they weren't looking.2. July 2: Set all the alarm clocks in House wares to go off at 5-minute intervals.3. July 7: He made a trail of tomato juice on the floor leading to thewomen's restroom.4. July 19: Walked up to an employee and told her in an official v

Promote
THIS IS TO PROMOTE AND NOMINATE TO WRITE LOVE ON HER ARMS A NON-PROFIT MOVMENT Go to the website below and type in "To Write Love On Her Arms" in the Nominate Box. Then for the category select "Best Nonprofit use of Social Media." http://mashable.com/owa/

Note
I got a note on the door when I got home from work. Short note saying to go to Irene whenever I can. It's going to have to wait until Monday because I work all day the next two days. I'm hoping that it will be the paper work that I could do for the other apartment. I had seen that the people that were living in the one I'm suppose to move into are finally out. So, I'm looking foward until Monday. I thought she was going to call me, but maybe she lost my number. Just hoping it's good news. Was talking with a coworker a bit today. He was asking how I was doing and if I needed help moving, him and Judha could probably help me out. I don't really want them to know where I live, especially Judah, but since we have the same work schedules, they might be some help if I can't get Michael and Matt to help. Dad and his little "adopted" son said they could help. I just need some man muscles to help carry the furniture. I'll probably end up moving the boxes on my own first. Yesterday I met the e

Sleep
And now i lay myself to sleep, wondering if I will actually sleep. Will I just lay there awake? Just gonna do a few things before bed like usual....it takes me 1-2 hours to actually fall asleep. I hate it. And knowing that I have to be up at a certain time doesn't help cause I'm waking up almost every hour still. Wish I had something to say good night to, other than my cats.

Arrogance
Our European arrogance in alphabetical order 1. The American Cemetery at Aisne-Marne, France. A total of 2289 of our military dead. 2. The American Cemetery at Ardennes, Belgium. A total of 5329 of our dead. 3. The American Cemetery at Brittany, France. A total of 4410 of our military dead. Excuse us.

New Song I Wrote What Do Ya Think????
People, I don't know whatcha who ya think you arebut this has gone too farsometimes I think that you care at allI wanna letcha know that I'm not gonna be a slaveto another person's namewhat I believe is my right to claim This game is like Monopolyit never ends til someone cheats I'm passing go with Boardwalk in my handsI don't live in a fantasy of lollipops and jellybeanstake me home or take me as I amWhy can't you understand?We're not in Candyland

Life Is Crazy
Between my family; my jobs (one in retail and my Avon business) and everything I have been feeling overwhelmed. Bear with me. Add to that the fact my eldest turns 21 on Friday and I am feeling a bit blue. I'll be fine, just not feeling all that social.

Throwin Heart Into It.
Thoughts At this point and time in my life, I have been talking to God a lot!! When you don't understand your own circumstance its hard not to want to take it into your own hands...the thing is...the IMPORTANT thing is ... you can take it in your hands ... take it in your hands and hand it to the One who makes sense. Praying in times like these I have found can almost be as awkward as a blind date. Its like ... well, uh...so....hey...I uh....don't really understand this all that much and uh.... hmm..... help? But I have also found that its okay to do that. Because even a help with a question mark, God hears. And the fact that there's prayer in the first place means you are opening your heart and extending FAITH! Which I believe God acknowledges. I have also been catching myself cursing lately... I am just bein real... yes...those who follow Jesus slip... but I am being ministered to, to watch my mouth... even if its only every so often foul things slip. Because I will never know if th

Dog Days
What you cannot anticipate, you cannot dread. How true is that? I was sitting in my car when I thought of that. I was almost hit by a woman who was dropping her kid off at school. When she pulled out infront of me. Who could have anticipated that?

Just An Idea
Starbucks Charges 9/11 Rescue Workers $130 for Water Guess I won't be drinking Starbucks anymore! ! ! Recently Marines in Iraq wrote to Starbucks because they wanted to let them know how much they liked their coffees and request that they send some of it to the troops there.Starbucks replied, telling the Marines thank you for their support of their business, BUT that Starbucks does not support the war, nor anyone in it, and that they would NOT send the troops their brand of coffee. Maybe we should not support Starbucks by buying any of their products! I know this war might not be very popular with some folks, but that doesn't mean we don't support the boys on the ground fighting .... Also, don't forget that when the Twin Towers were hit the fire fighters and rescue workers went to Starbucks because it was close by for water for the survivors and workers and Starbucks CHARGED THEM! ! ! JUST

Mental Heath Hot Line: Dial 55-imsad...
"Hello, and welcome to the mental health hotline.If you are obsessive-compulsive, press 1 repeatedly.If you are codependent, please ask someone to press 2 for you.If you have multiple personalities, press 3, 4, 5, and 6.If you are paranoid, we know who you are and what you want. Stay on the line so we can trace your call.If you are delusional, press 7 and your call will be transferred to the mother ship.If you are schizophrenic, listen carefully and a small voice will tell you which number to press.If you are a manic-depressive, it doesn't matter which number you press, no one will answer.If you are dyslexic, press 9696969696969696.If you have a nervous disorder, please fidget with the pound key until a representative comes on the line.If you have amnesia, press 8 and state your name, address, telephone number, date of birth, social security number, and your mother's maiden name.If you have post-traumatic stress disorder, s-l-o-w-l-y & c-a-r-e-f-u-l-l-y press 0 0 0.If you have bi-pola

I'm So Horny
Ive been so horny lately, and just cant find a man to keep up with me. I really like older guys, but at this point any age will do. As long as he has a penis.I just cant wait to get rammed by pretty much anyone.

Dreaming Of Being A Rose
You are everything I ever wanted to be, Like the simple daisy who dreamed of being a rose. You are but a rose, and like every rose you have thorns. I worked so hard to accomplish what came so easily for you. Jealous of your perfect being. Your perfect love and life. How can a rose tell a daisy they themselves are not perfect? They circle around you and praise over your elegant beauty, They smile and tell you how wonderful you are, but you obviously deny it. They look at me and think, “ah how cute” then simply turn away. A daisy is limited to being only cute. I could never bring myself to tell you though, Too afraid of losing such a perfect flower, Like you. I wish I were more like a rose, Or that you were more like a daisy Maybe then all the joy wouldn’t be one sided Maybe there could finally be some understanding between us After all, A rose can’t complain to a daisy whose ideal of being perfect is you. So please, Don’t stab this little daisy with yo

Life!
to live a life without fear would be amazing to me,to live a life without any problems of my own would be heaven! to be able to do whatever the hell i want to would be awsome! to be able to love fully honestly and completely would be the best thing ever but its just not gonna happen! it never works out its the same old pattern everytime! im the one who ends up in the tears and pain because i let you love me and what did you do!.you have posined my heart and now i have none! i have an emptiness inside me the wrost part about this all is that you didn't even know any of this cuz you never cared to ask me not even once!so fuck you and everything that you have ever ment to me! cuz thanks to you i live in fear! fear of life and everything around it and in it.so fuck you!!!!

Tagged.
Ty tagged me. Instructions......Once you have been tagged, you have to write a blog with 10 weird or random things, facts, or habits about yourself. At the end, you choose at least 5 people to be tagged, listing their names. You can't tag the person who tagged you. 1. As much as I hate me ex, and he makes me want to throw up in my mouth, I love him for giving me my son Noah. 2. I can pick things up with my toes. 3. I use to be a porn star - paid for my college 4. I love the color pink 5. I am a sucker for pit bulls 6. I can't stand when people chew loudly 7. I feel like sometimes I am one huge mistake 8. I have awful A.D.D 9. I also have O.C.D 10. I love being an Army Wife!

The Right Moment
Some male enhancement drugsSay "When the moment is right"I assume they are implyingA romantic intimate momentI prefer to thinkThe right moment Is anytime I want herAnd under any conditionShe knows thisSo when I sayNow, over the couchIn front of an open picture windowOr on the floorThe moment is right

Alone And The Holidays.....
Well the holidays are here once again and I am again all alone. This last year has been the costliest year of my life. I lost my family, friends and home. The people whom I thought had my back actually just wanted an excuse to run away from me. For you see, I was their life line whenever they needed money, favors and help. When it was my turn to get some help they bolted. The job I took a year ago not only didn't hold up their end of the agreement but by not doing so cost me my house, dogs and 90% of all my belongings. Needless to say, I have absolutely nothing to hold on to any more. With this said, I am still going to give to help the needy kids who without it will not have a Christmas. Its the least I can do and continue to do.

The Metamorphosis
This poem was written for me by my bff!! =) The Metamorphosis I had never seen anything like it. It was almost regal the way it hung there. There was undeniable strength in the cord that kept it connected to the tree And somehow I sensed it was not just a simple cord, but a lifeline. I had to look twice at the complexity of this amazing structure. A cocoon of sorts I assumed, but it was so thick As if there was layer after layer that made up its walls. It was as if the layers were acting as an armor… a shelter. I could not help but to stop and take a second look. There was a beauty that mesmerized the eye. There was a strength that defied reason. Yet at the same time there was an undeniable sadness That overwhelmed me as I stepped closer and examined its composition. Day after day others went by. Nobody could simply pass though Without lingering for a moment to watch this cocoon in amazement. There was life in this shell, But day after day the layers remained u

The Lessons Of Love.....
“THE LESSONS OF LOVE” We as people always ponder the question…. Will love find me? Here are just a few thoughts of my own, I could be wrong, I may be right but what I do know for sure is that im not the only one who thinks this way and wonders.. So hopefully this will help shed a little light onto our everyday thoughts or as we call them dealing with “The Lessons of Love” Why can’t love be simply?? Answer, because most of us won’t let it be….. I can’t remember how many times I have sat up listening to my friends problems about relationships and giving them advice on what I think… Don’t get it twisted…. I love the fact that my friends come to me and I will FOREVER be here for them, and in return I THANK my friends that have been there for me in my times of sorrow! Often times I hear woman say I want a man that opens doors, treats me with respect, buys me flowers for no reason, cooks, clean, rubs my feet,

Wonder Why
i say shit like this? cause i have a job interview today..what day is today..i actually have been doing a lot of really good crank...as a treat for being so good....recently...is anyone on fubar not on crank..and if so can you please put your camera down...no not your dick..you can use that to pee in a cup for me.....and if you have a pussy...then just put it in my mouth..for a taste test i am dying of thirst

Bleh
Bah, gotta go back to work tomorrow. Noooo!! So got the old apartment completely cleaned out. It looks real good. I asked the landlord how the deposit thing wil work and she said some will go to me and probably some to Rich. I really hope that he doesn't get anything out of it because he doesn't deserve one penny for leaving me all that crap to clean up and he didn't even help clean. That would be real unfair. My parents helped clean the place which I'm real thankful for because I didn't have much time to clean cause I had to go back to work last weekend, since Rich took forever to move his crap out. I treated them to dinner at some Italian place a couple nights ago. Now my goal is to find myself a car. I did go car shopping the other night with my dad, just to get an idea. I'm not too picky with a car, just one that's manual, reliable and whatever..and most of all, something that I will be able to afford. It's going to be hard to tell what I can afford since I just moved out on my ow

Rate And Re Rate Please
Morning everyone can ya all help out my Fu Owner he could use it!! All you gota do is rate this pic for him and re rate it if you have already done so!!!! Thanks in advance http://fubar.com/photo.php?u=2183445&albumid=1924716&i=4200997077&idx=0

Iam Me Deal With It
I Am NOT NEW, I AM NOT OLD, I AM JUST WHO I AM, NOTHING MORE & NOTHING LESS I AM ME I am a force of nature. I am a mystery of life. I am a bright light filled with fire, love, passion and compassion - and I wont play any smaller part than that! "I am a 8Th Dan Ninjitsu expert as well as a philosopher of life I'm not here for DRAMA.. no I'm not into playing games . I am a eclectic practitioner of Ninjitsu and the teachings of Zen and have been for many years. If you don't like this or understand this then DON'T judge something you know nothing about. I take my faith seriously and will not tolerate prejudice against my choice. I respect all religions and would never try to force my views on anyone and in return i expect the same... I rally aint in to all that drama or confusion im a person that has past the point of no return the final thrash hold,the bridge is crossed, so I stand and watch it burn,I have passed the point of no return.. I think of all the things, I,ve seen and done a

Back To The Gym
I started going back to the gym yesterday. It felt good to be able to work out again. I can't recall the last time I been at the gym. Maybe my weight loss will go faster with me working out lol since I haven't been working out at all with all the weight I lost. Yesterday, I was putting on some old clothes I had. Jeans that are way too big for me..more clothes for goodwill. I was finally able to wear the pair of pants that my mother in law got me many years ago. Yay!! I texted her and told her that I was finally able to wear them...they're not even tight. I think sometime soon I'll be going down another pant size. I would look at myself in these certain pant size and be just amazed. I never thought I'd be able to lose the weight that I have and I'm still going. DId some christmas shopping. I think I might try to hit the mall again tomorrow or next week. I even decorated my place with some xmas stuff. Wish I was tall enough to put christmas lights out, but I can't even reach what i want

What I Fed My Buddah Belly Today
4:30am....coffee and banana8:00am....Coffee and Fiber bar11:30am... Salad with beets, olives, eggs with ranch dressing, 1/4 wheat roll, Vitamin water. (no java after lunch...sob)6:30pm...Coffee and 6 slices of turkey bacon

Something Random Tht Came To Me
you are you and i am i,oh why, why, why, must i lie, i feel this way because i do, i feel this way, what about you? what do you feel when i pass by, do you question me is that why, we only talk and nothing more,i do not set foot outside my door, to see this girl that i kno, to pick her up and go go go.

Fubarland
WELL I THINKING AFTER FIRST OF THE YEAR I MIGHT LEAVE FU, IT'S CHANGE WHOLE LOT... SOME PART'S ARE STILL FUN SOME ARE NOT...DEC 13 WAS 3 YEAR'S I'VE BEEN ON FU SINCE IT WAS CHERRY TAP. ALL DUE TO GREAT FRIEND THAT INVITED ME WELL I INVITED LOT PEOPLE TO... BUT ITS JUST NOT THE SAME ANY MORE SO IF U WANT ME TO STAY LET ME KNOW IF NOT IM OUT HERE AFTER 1ST YEAR JUST TO MUCH KEEP MY PAGE ETC GOING WITH WORK ETC TO. SO TO ALL MY FAMILY FRIENDS LET ME KNOW SHOULD I STAY OR GO.... LOVE TO ALL RAIN.

Recall Of High Chairs
Ikea recalls children's high chair 5 hours 35 mins ago Buzz Up! Print Story Furniture giant Ikea has confirmed it is recalling a children's high chair following safety concerns. Skip related content Related photos / videos Ikea recalls children's high chair The recall comes after reports that locks securing the seat to the frame of the "Leopard" children's high chair may break, which could result in children dropping through the frame. One child suffered bruised legs after falling through the chair. There are also concerns that youngsters could choke on the detached snap locks. The company is calling for customers with the chairs to stop using them immediately and return the seat and frame to Ikea where they will receive a full refund. A spokesman for the Swedish retailer said: "Ikea has received 11 reports of broken snap locks, including one incident where the seat with child dropped

Random Thing About Me!
My favorite words are indubitably, unique, and lovely. My biggest turn off is stupidity. The most orgasmic thing in the world is rinsing shampoo from your hair on ecstasy. My favorite scents are vanilla and cotton candy. I've been let down more than you can imagine, but I just can't stop giving away all my trust. I regret one thing and one thing only. I'm the biggest hypocrite you'll ever meet. I love having my hips/waist touched. The most attractive part of anyone is their eyes. I love to write. I love sunrises. I love sarcasm. I love life. I hate lying. The first time I fell in love, it was with a girl. A girl who happened to be my best friend. Who had a boyfriend. Who was straight. I love being tickled.

Thank You.
Thank you mother, thank you father Thank you brother, thank you daughter. Thank you family, thank you friends Thank you passion, thank you happiness. Thank you silence, thank you tears Thank you courage, thank you fears. Thank you consequence, thank you drugs Thank you forgiveness, thank you hugs. Thank you moments, thank you acceptance Thank you love, thank you patience. Thank you beauty, thank you hate Thank you music, thank you fate. Thank you tradgedy, thank you death Thank you history, thank you breath. Thank you addictions, thank you emotion, Thank you sympathy, thank you devotion. Thank you help, thank you stride Thank you poverty, thank you pride. Thank you children, thank you trouble, Thank yourself. Thank your struggle.

In The Mail
after so many years and all , I got card from the family and they sent me $15 gift card and note tellin me to enjoy the card and also ask me not to come home this year again there will be NO room for me to stay where they have other family members stayin and wont be enough room for me to stay , what a family I have ... oh well nothin new with that ... I will use the gift card to go to the movie and see whats playin ...

Ah Hah
The Magus As a master of magic the Adept has some abilty to change himself and the reality which surrounds him at will. The mark of a Magus however is that he is able to show other people how to change themselves into whatever they desire through the discipline of magic. There are two main types of genuine Magus, the Apotheosis Magus and the Nemesis Magus. Additionally there is the Hierophant or pseudo-magus. Each is recognizable by the debris left in his wake. The Apotheosis Magus, sometimes known as the Harlequin, is typically a master of internal disguise and often external disguise also. Frequently a person of fallstaffian tastes and grand gestures, he often distinguishes himself in a variety of human endeavors precisely because he has attained the freedom to be anything at all. Such freedom is often won only after a tremendous personal struggle to repair the effects of a difficult start in life. The Apotheosis Magus teaches by encouraging emulation and then often f

Simply The Best And The Biggest Hairy Site I've Ever Seen! - Jean, Madison
what,,,no shit/// i am totally hearing about shit through my stereo speakers right now....shhhh....omg brittney murphy is dead from crank...i wonder if theres any left...these speakers are on crank...no really they are..talking real soft...all jibberish... no wait this is a toaster oven....where in the fuck is my record player....i got MOTLEY CRUE TOO FAST FOR LOVE from my gay roomate BRIAN for christmas...i bet he picked it cause the guy on the cover is all leather POLK ST./GOT SPANKED TOO MUCH FOR LOVE.....looks sorta light in the loafers....why does this peace of shit say i am spelling wrong...wait..whos fucking computer is this??? you mother fuckers better not be switching out comp shit on me......they have porn sites now devoted to girls with really hairy pussy can you believe that,,,and i look at the shit check this out... Well, I'm member since the start of the site, i guess this says enough. They definitely have the best hairy collection - James, Bristol Definitely th

When Will Your Number Be Up?
So I was at my brothers house on Christmas day and was sitting there talking to someone that out of respect, I call “Pop”. We were talking about life itself. He looked at me and told me this story. With it being the end of one year, and almost the start of the next, it’s fitting to write this now. “My wife and I have been married for 58 years, and in the past seven or eight months, we’ve been closer then ever. We go to bed at night and hug and kiss each other goodnight, wake up in the morning an hug and kiss. Neither one of us know if when we go to bed, we’ll wake up in the morning. When you get to be my age you realize that every day is a gift. We’re both in our 80s. Hell, I went out the other day and before I did I made sure that I gave her a hug and a kiss and told her that I love her. You just don’t know when your time is up.” I know that may sound pointless but it’s really not. Every day should be th

Befor I Let You Go
When we were still together,I truly loved you,but what’s happening right now,I guess we are through,it’s really hard for me,to get off with you.but I know this might be goodfor both me and you. I love you but i have toset you free,I’ve come to realized thatyou’re no longer happy with me.Even tho’ it hurts, I haveto say “good bye”It’s really hard for me tolive without you, butpromise i would try to move on. It hurts me so much but i haveto let you go.But before letting you go,there’s one thing i want you to know….I just want you to know that“I am always here for you,whenever you need a friend,to lean on en shoulder to cry on”Before i let you go, i want to saythat someday…soon…You gonna MISS ME…..

2009
Looking back to 2008 we were a happy family even though we did have to say goodbye to my great-grandpa, but we had a party for him the way he wanted it. My sister found a guy she was friends with in high school and they fell in love and moved into his house to become a happy little family. Which lead to my mom and I making plans on remodeling the downstairs so her and my dad could move down there, then I could turn the upstairs bedrooms into my own place! But all of that changed and changed fast, with 2009.2009 had to be the worst year ever!Back in January the family went to Cali to say our last goodbyes to my grandma. Even though it was nice getting out of snowy cold Utah to go to the beaches of Arroyo Grande and Grover Beach, but it was so hard to be in my grandma's house without her. Even harder coming back to Utah and flunking out of my French class due to not being able to wrap my mind around anything other then losing my grandma and what I knew was coming in February. Plus

Gimini Me
Your Daily Horoscope: January 3, 2010 Gemini May. 21 - Jun 20 (Wrong Sign?) Today can be one of opportunities for you, Gemini. Something you have been waiting for a long time is within reach, but you have to make the first move. It is a situation in which you can have what you want if you just make the call or step forward to claim it. Timing is a serious issue here, because there is a narrow window during which you have a window of success. You also need to look before you leap; unforeseen obstacles will be easier to overcome if you deal with them right away.

My Dream
I DREAM OF SITTING BY A CALMING RIVER,WRAPPED IN HIS ARMS WATCHING A BEAUTIFUL SUNSET OFF IN THE DISTANCE. NO NEED FOR WORDS AS OUR 2 HEARTS BEAT TOGETHER AS IF THERE WAS ONLY ONE BETWEEN US. I LOOK DEEP INTO YOUR EYES AND SEE A LOVE THAT STIRS A FLAME DEEP DOWN INSIDE ME THAT I HAD LONG AGO FORGOTTEN. I WANT TO STAY IN YOUR ARMS FOREVER CLOSING OUT THE CRUEL WORLD THAT TOOK YOU AWAY FROM ME SO LONG AGO.

Thankyou All Who Helped...
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First Meeting
The first guy I ever met from a dating site was a good person. We hit it off immediately. We ended up spending the day together. Unfortunately, we were not a match for each other. He preferred petite, waif-like women. I am far from that... lol. We became really good friends, and still are to this day. I went to visit him one day, and he showed me the type of women he goes after. Nothing wrong with his perferences, and I didn't take offense to it, but man, when he showed me the type of women he goes after, I just wanted to FEED them all! HAHA! He has a girlfriend now, but we still talk almost daily. He spent a lot of time mentoring me in the ways of online dating. He got very upset with me when I didn't tell him I as going on a meeting with the guy I pushed out of my car, and chastised me for not being safe. I've since learned my lesson, and I call him every time I go on a meeting to let him know exactly when and where where I will be. If he doesn't hear from me within two hours, he

Happieness
For once in my life I am finally happy. I'm with a very beautiful woman named Kelly. She makes me feel alive. She accepts me for who I am and has been what has driven me and inspired me to be the man I am. We have so much in common and we're feeling closer each day. Most of all what I love about her is she has fought for me like no one else has. She has gone through the worst 3 months of her life and it's all because her family made her choose. Them or me and guess who she chose? You'd think a normal family could get over it but not them. They didn't and they made her feel like shit for choosing me but she never gave up and yesterday she has made the decision to leave home and be with me. Her parents FLIPPED and it has been like fucking world war 3 ever since but she still loves me with all her heart and THATS what makes her so special. She's unlike any other woman I've been with and she has my love FOREVER!!!

To My X Wife Who Doesnt Know Any Better
Christine, sorry for saying "shut up slut" i didnt know i was on facebook or that facebook has chat i thought i was on fubar. and to find out you blocked me on facebook really breaks my heart cause my own mother wont accept my friends request and the other night on my b-day cause i am at my folks right now with Cameron (thats our son) i was sleeping in the guest house with this choice peace of fubar trim that came up for my b day and in the middle of the night, you know those blue lights on the front the of the direct tv boxes that are bright as fuck, yah its aliens are in your room and you wake up and your like who is this girl, and then your like oh yeah sweet, but then your like why is she blue like smurfet and then you realize you need to get that blue light to turn off so you stand up and spill beer everywhere and then walk straight into the wall and then try to turn the computer off and stumble outside and get attacked by wild animals (i am not shitting you, maybe a little about

End
Pain shrouded so deep Memories long forgotten, buried A life without you is neverending My soul screams without mercy I am the shattered being Wanbdering the surface in agony Love was in your every move Yet I was ever empty of life In this lonely world of suffering Alone, I stand before you Your judgement sending a shrill scream down my spine Life drains, pain continues, love is swallowed In the end, you are all I want In the end, I am all you despise In the end, I hurt for eternity

Day 1
ok so day 1. heres the scoop: im disappointed to find that being sick took more of a toll on me than i thought. im not 220, im actuall down to 210. FUCK ME so 25 pounds in 10 weeks i feel defeated already. i dont think its possible to put on the kind of size i want to put on in the time frame i have alotted myself. my body doesnt want to be that big. i hover around 215 when i dont work out. thats where my body wants to be. i have to really work hard to stay big. and im thinking now that it wont happen. anyway, the gym was more packed than i thought. tons of new faces but i did see alot of old friends. they all said the same thing... "holy shit, what happened? you used to be HUGE" thanks man. wanna stab me in the eye with a stick or maybe pour some lemon juice in a paper cut while youre at it? FUCK that SUCKED but i did my thing. i stopped myself from overdoing it and being too sore to go back tomorrow. hit up a quick total body workout and will probably do it a few more times

Forget
The taste of your lips still lingers on my tongue like the taste of a sentance that hasnt had a chance to begun I can't take this silence i cant seem to keep quiet any more I cant hide the fact that i know i loved you more I love u then and i love still The feeling of you is the only thing thats ever been real now that your gone theres nothing left to feel i lack the incentive to indulge in the idea of forget I hold on to a past that lacks chance of a future i hold tight to u even though your not real to me any longer How do i start over when i have nothing left how do i even begin to forget a love so real to me a love like yours and everything youve ment to me how do begin to forget the fact that your the one addiction i lacked strength to forget all i've ever had the ambition to do is spend my days growing old with you I loved you then and i loved you still I miss the only thing thats ever felt real

Blood
Sometimes it sets my teeth on edge, other times it helps control the chaos. The code of Harry my father is satisfied, and so am I. Harry was a great cop here in Miami, he taught me how to think like a cop, how to cover my tracks. I'm a very neat monster

Rand0m
SUBJECT ONE- THE OUTSIDE What's your name? TRACILYN How tall are you? 5'10" What color are your eyes? Blue What color is your hair? Brown Are you Male or Female? Female What is your best physical feature? Eyes & TaTas Glasses, yes or no? No Did you ever have braces? No On a typical day you are wearing? Scrubs When you go to bed you're wearing? tshirt & pjpants How often do you exercize? walk everynight SUBJECT TWO- MUSIC Name two of your favorite bands. Eli Young Band Breaking Benjiman Name two songs you currently love. Daughtry-Life After You Eli Young Band-Always The Love Songs What are the preset stations in your car? Kase 101-100.7 KVET-98.1 What's the last CD you bought? I don't buy cds Was the last CD you burned an actual CD or a mix? Mix Name one band you're embarrassed to like but do? I'm not embarrassed by any that I like If you could only attend 1 concert ever again, it would be? Merle Haggard

Eternity's Eyes
Moments in the labyrinth with life constantly spinning, the plan was damned from the very begining. With a soul bled dry an wings clipped short, I begged and pleaded and made my retort. Searching for my guardian and a means to an end, I look for my One and Only true friend. Loyal, faithful but most of all true, I swear only his blood runs pure blue. I look to the rafters and I search the skies, I'll know its him.... When Eternity lies within his eyes!

Engagement
Friday, January 22nd, 2010 Zack offically proposed to me! We had been joking around about it for a while but did not have a definite plan of what we were going to do.The way he did was simple and amazing. That is just the way I like it.Friday I decided that it was going to be "his night" because he has been helping me a lot over the past month because I was out of work for a while and helping me with my mom and such.When he arrived here around 4 on Friday I had turkey bacon and a protein shake waiting for him. We hung out for a while and got ready then did some shopping at the new Friendly Center. Afterwards, I wanted to take him to PF Changs because it is so freaking amazing and delicious and he has never been! So I get him dinner and this delicious banana dessert and we go home. When we get home we were just kind of laying around and talking and playing and he wraps his arms around me and says: "Do you promise to love me forever?" and me being the silly ass I am, I was like "HELL YES

Wat/wats
I am getting so sick of people and not using the English their High School English teach taught them, or tried to teach them. The word "Wat" is a noun, the definition is as followed: A Buddhist temple or monastery in Thailand or Cambodia. Source: dictionary.com Another word "Wats" is another noun, and it's definition is: Bulk-rate telephone service that enables a subscriber to make an unlimited number of long-distance telephone calls within a given service area for a fixed monthly charge or to receive calls from given areas with no charge to the caller. Source: dictionary.com (again)

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The Best Letter I Have Ever Recieved!!!!!! Ever!!!!
from: michelangelo64 The beauty of a woman is not in the clothes she wears, t... Stone Mountain, GA subject: You are off the chart Beautiful! received: 01/30/2010 05:46 pm replied: 01/30/2010 05:47 pm block this member Flag as spam Hey Beautiful, How are you doing? You are just like the angel that was too fragile to walk the earth yet too beautiful to stay within Heaven's gates! When God created you, my Princess, it was perfection without a flaw. Light can be defined without sun. Sweetness can be defined without honey. Fragrance can be defined without a rose, but beauty cannot be defined without you. You are what defines beauty.

Dirt Roads
I came across a dirt road, And thought I heard it say, I know you’ve driven asphalt, But please turn down this way. And so I answered the dirt road, And walked down its first mile, The things I saw as I trudged on, Caused me to slow and smile. The dust that played beneath my feet, And swirled so gently round, Brought a smile unto my weary face, And chased away my frown. It brought back memories I had forgotten, Of days so long ago, When mostly there were dirt roads, And driving was so slow. I saw the butterflies long side, On flowers that grew tall, And saw a rabbit dart across, And heard an eagle‘s call. I saw great trees that furnished shade, Tall, reaching for blue sky, They gave needed cooling from hot sun, To all those who passed by. And then I passed a rundown house, And felt a twinge of alarm, It won’t be long till nothing’s left, Where once there was a farm. And then I thought of its future, When the dirt road too is gone, Encroaching grass along th

A Cowboys Dream
Last night, as I lay on the prairie, And looked at the stars in the sky, I wondered if ever a cowboy Would drift to that sweet by and by.I hear there's to be a grand round-up Where cowboys with others must stand, To be cut out by the riders of judgment Who are posted and know all the brands.The trail to that great mystic regionIs narrow and dim, so they say;While the one that leads down to perditionIs posted and blazed all the way.Whose fault is it, then, that so many Go astray, on this wild range fail, Who might have been rich and had plenty Had they known of the dim, narrow trail?I wonder if at the last day some cowboy Unbranded and unclaimed should stand, Would he be mavericked by those riders of judgmentWho are posted and know all the brands?I wonder if ever a cowboy Stood ready for that Judgment Day, And could say to the Boss of the Riders, "I'm ready, come, drive me away"?For they, like the cows that are locoed,Stampede at the sight of a hand,Are dragged with a rope to the round-

Acceptance
acceptance means that you can find the serenity within to let go of the past. acceptance is the road to peace, letting go of the worst, holding on to the best. acceptance is the hearts best defense, love's greatest asset, and the easiest way to keep believing in yourself and other's. accept what comes to you totally and completely so that you can appreciate it, learn from it, and then let it go.

Disrespect 2 Wreck Fuck A Subject
Say i'm all talk but i ain't. I say what the fuck i gotta say. & you ain't gotta like what it is i don't care or give a shit. I'm all about me & thats all it is. I'ma 5 star fine wicked killa g. Sticks & ax's throwing them jabbing them in backs. Inactive facts go ahead while i sniff into some ass cracks (sniff). Taking a whiff on a smell of ass. Throw hard lyrics fast. While taking handy to doing my task. Relaxative mixed with chewed tablets. Not putting up with ya antics. I'm into hard core wicked shit. I'm into that resident evil silent hill shit. Love ghosts haunted houses asylums & monsters like cloverfield. So who's the fairest wickedest of 'em all. It be the i.w.s fivestar avatar mr. motherfucker. Yes i love to fuck mothers bitch. Really just give me a nice thick curvy bbw. That's into anal & loves footjobs. & likes to wear fishnets, bodystockings & skimpy outfits. I'll come around & rip up ya whole vocabulary of alphabets. Ya wanna bet snatch up rabbits. Like you thought you had

So Taco Bell Is Making Real Tacos.. Along With A Fuckin Taco Bell Diet?
So, Taco Bell is making real fucking tacos? wtf.. i swear, if taco bell wanted customers to be eating and stuffing their faces then, like they do now, they should've put their real taco idea in play a LONGGGGG fucking time ago. OH and the real tacos? there like a fucking buck each, with a crap load of tin foil, with one lime.. i spent more money on a tiny ass taco, and didnt realize that the "real taco" was made for kids or midgets.. or someshit. Wow, now its like there trying to say, "now that you ate my taco, lose some weight"... wtf? Now they got a diet menu. Apparently some lady lossed weight by eating food from taco bell, FIRST OF ALL, you would have to be doing crack, to lose weight from eating that, SECOND, is taco bell going to get a mexican JARED FOGLE? So, the taco bell is gonna be getting some dude named Jorge to become the dude who supposedly lost 300 pounds from eating taco bell right? ! Oh and the fucking mint ? I ordered a grilled stuffed burrito, and a st

Homophobia: A Weapon Of Sexism
HOMOPHOBIA—the irrational fear and hatred of those who love and sexually desire those of the same sex. Though I intimately knew its meaning, the word homophobia was unknown to me until the late 1970s, and when I first heard it, I was struck by how difficult it is to say, what an ugly word it is, equally as ugly as its meaning.Like racism and anti-Semitism, it is a word that calls up images ofloss of freedom, verbal and physical violence, death.In my life I have experienced the effects of homophobia through rejection by friends, threats of loss of employment, and threats upon my life; and I have witnessed far worse things happening to other lesbian and gay people: loss of children,beatings, rape, death. Its power is great enough to keep ten to twenty percent of the population living lives of fear (if their sexual identity is hidden) or lives of danger (if their sexual identity is visible)or both. And its power is great enough to keep the remaining eighty to ninety percent of the p

My Good Deed For The Day
I've always wanted to coin a new word, to create a simple sound that so completely captures a universal human experience, it quickly becomes part of the fabric of our culture. That would be something. People everywhere using my word to express a feeling they had hitherto been unable to articulate. Here are a few of my word ideas, and an example of their proper usage, for your consideration. I hope you use them. doorgasm - The feeling of relief and pleasure when the person you had casual sex with finally goes home. I feigned a bittersweet smile as she walked out of the bedroom, then was rocked by a powerful doorgasm the second I heard her car start. gridlove - A delusional fantasy that occurs when you glance at the person in the car next to you in a traffic jam and are momentarily convinced that they are the answer to all your hopes and dreams. Were her feelings real, or were they just gridlove? She didn't care. She just prayed that her lane would catch up to his lane. homortified

Into The Dark
INTO THE DARKTears roll onto her pillowAs she stares into the darkNot sure why, they just comeOverflowing from her eyesThe night reveals her true heartIts then she sheds her days disguiseShe goes through the motionsSometimes she even smiles through her dayBut when the day is done and night comesThe façade gets put awayWhen she’s alone shes forced to thinkHer reality becomes clearAnd all that she can do is lay thereTrapped in her own fearsIts her burden, its her lifeSo she keeps it all insideShed rather not bring others downShed rather put on a smile..and hideTonight she cries a lot hardera lot longer than beforeBecause she wonders if she wants to go onAnd live this life anymoreAnd the thought that she could…..It makes her feel so lowShe feels selfish and not worthyShe feels lost and so aloneShe feels trapped and wants a way outShe feels cold and hard like stone…Noone ever knows all the tears she criedThere wasn’t much of a sign….But her kind of pain d

Lounge
Come To This Lounge Asap Like Right Now Subscribe Buy Drinks Make Friends.. Fu wedding saturday at 9PM and also march 2nd another fu wedding i dj in here and would like you two come in and listen tell me what u thinks. Dragons Lair Come on in http://fubar.com/lounge/hellsdesires

Physical Training And Diet
I really want to learn Capoeira and maybe Bazaugaa. But I'm in no pyshical condition to even take the classes. So I decied I should work on somethings beforehand... *Kettlebells to get my muscles toned and my shiloette more svelt and efficient. It also improves the endurance, cooridination, and flexibility which are essentail for any martial art form. *Yoga to improve my flexability and to work on strethening the hara while learning to exert as little as possible while maintaining a good amount of breathing. *Belly dancing to stregnthen my core and to help me get a better understanding of rythms. Capoiera is more then just a martial art form it takes the music and beat into itself and is a physical expressesion of that. *Gymnastics to get a better understanding of the more acrobatic moves. *Afro-Brazilan dance to understand the motions in capoiera. Every martial art form is connected to one type of dance or another. I really need to get into shape my BMI is a 29 which means

Superficial Holiday
yep u guessed it! once again society is sucked in by corporations trying to make money.. the so called "holiday" actually makes me sick. I love to be loved on like any other women but there is something about valentines day that doest work for me. how can one person justify love but buying gifts from a store?? to me that isn't an I love u. if one is to celebrate the "holiday" of love then one must show it from the heart. that means men get off ur asses and show ur women u care enough other then to buy her stuff and women get off ur asses as well and show ur men how it feels to truely love em. if u have shitty opinions for reading this keep em to urself. cuz honestly i dont really care just my feelings on the crappy holiday.

Romeo And Juliet
A tradjec tale of two that were not allowed to be together, but there love was stronger then there families rules to keep them apart so Juliet staged her death, but sent a letter to romeo but he never got it and when he saw her her dead he killed himself. After that Juliet woke up and saw he had killed him self so she killed her self to be with him in the afterlife, because there love was true to each other. I love this, because I would kill my self to be with my one true love. True love knows no bounds, and prevails through fire, but false love kills the soul and bleeds the heart of life.

People Still Say Ni@@a? Effing Stop Racist Sh!t
εṃøвαɾвïε O_o said: ARE YOU FOR REAL ? wow you couldnt be more lame that seriously the best you can come up with since where using 3rd grade insluts , do u have hbo? omg u have horrible body Oder.. ohhhhhhhhhhh MY GOD LOL GEEZZ O_^ CraZy D1Am0nD said: yeah hooked on ebonics worked for you. ghetto trash εṃøвαɾвïε O_o said: LOL ANOTHER 3RD GRADE INSULT ...here u go call sings 1-800-97-jenny hows that for oldschool insults lol CraZy D1Am0nD said: what is this reference to old school? i thought they tore down schools that were old? εṃøвαɾвïε O_o said: lol are u that retarded? CraZy D1Am0nD said: i may be retarded but that is better than being a nigger

I Do Not Know What The Hell Is Going On
I do not know whats going on my list of status messages has been removed was Liz Vicious Right when she told me that FUBAR cenors what people say? I was scared cuz of what happen to Liz Vicious so after i made my first photo Album I asked a bouncer to look at ALL the photos and let m know if they were a problem But now another bouncer seems to me marking them NSFW. Oddly enough after i had writen some stuff about Liz Vicious. It seems odd that both my status messages and my photos would come under attack like that at the same time right after talking about Liz Vicious. I am kind of scared to even post this BLOG I mean is FUBAR rally going to be upset at me for wondering why these things seem to be connected? am I not allowed to talk about my friend Liz Vicious? I know one thing for sure I went out of my way to ask a bouncer to look at my photos after i sent them and she said I should be OK and let her know if there was a problem. I have done that so i hope this works out ok.

Empty Soul
My heart is openMy heart is bleedingI feel the pulse I can hear the beating But the emptiness insideSwallows me wholeFeeling lost inside myselfWith no where to go Hating what I've becomePushing the pain awayMore like a quiet monsterI become each day Wishing I could tear into myselfPull out my own heartWould I feel any differentIf I were farther apart? Wanting to remove myselffrom the source of my feelingHating the emotionsthe pain leaving me reeling I scream out within myselfCovering my ears from the noiseThe pain breaking apart my insidesTearing me from the inside out I claw myself to try and ease the painScratches cover meI'm bleeding outEmptying my heart in vain

Special Thoughts
Why, Why, Why,Why do we press harder on a remote control when we know the batteries arealmost dead?Why do banks charge a fee on 'insufficient funds' when they already knowthere is not enough moneyWhy does someoneBelieve you when you say there are four billion stars; but have to checkwhen you say the paint is still wet?Why doesn't Tarzan have a beard?Why does Superman stop bullets with his chest, but ducks when you throw arevolver at him?Why do Kamikaze pilots wear helmets?Whose idea was it to put an 'S' in the word 'lisp'?If people evolved from apes,Why are there still apes?Why is it that no matter what color bubble bath you use the bubbles arealways white?Is there ever a day that mattressesAre not on sale?Why do people constantly return to the refrigerator with hopes thatsomething new to eat will have materialized?Why do people keep running over a string a dozen times with their vacuumcleaner, then reach down, pick it up, examine it, then put it down to giv

The Classroom
Class starts out rather tame as I start to teach a rather touchy subject and I notice as students around the room start to blush as I talk about masturbation, though in a very detached and clinical way. Then I spot you in the front row in that very short plaid miniskirt and white short sleeve shirt, half unbuttoned so your black, lacy pushup bra is clearly visible. When you catch me looking, you part your sexy legs, your knee high socks and heels forming a V that makes me look at your smooth pussy and my words catch for a moment and you see me get hard instantly. Your two loose braids hanging down over your shoulders giving you a look of innocence while your smile says you're a very bad girl. After a few more minutes of teasing me like this, I have no choice but to sit behind my desk and have the class continue on their own with their text books. You can tell I'm trying hard to not look at you, but my eyes keep coming back so you decide to tease me further next time I look. I glance u

Lame Poems I Have Just Pop Into My Head From Long Long Ago..
Once a day , Sometimes more , You knock upon my day dream door. I say warmly, Come right in I'm glad you're here once again Then we sit and have a chat, Recalling this , discussing that Until some task that I must do Foces me away from you Relucktantly I say goodbye Smiling with a little sigh For what reality can't ever bring I have but only to close my eyes and see you again.

When I
When I When i take a sharp razor blad against my bare skins,I can feel the blood rushing Like it wanting to escapefrom the painwhen i take a sharp razor blade against my neck,I can feel my scream when i feel my scream,i just wanna scream to letout my fear when I scream i let out all my pain as i take a sharp razor blade against my bare skin slowlyslicing my wristletting the blood rush outas i kept slicing my wrist till the blood became a puddle as i lay there soaked in my own blood as i kept on slicing my wristtill i passed outtill i loose alot of my blood.

What Is Wrong With Me
I sit here looking back at how much you meant to me. I could not tell you or show you what was in my heart for fear of your reaction. You where the first to show me love and to hold me when I was down in the dumps. I feel your loving touch even to this day wishing it was not just my mind playing tricks on me. I now know you were the best thing that ever happened to me. But now it is to late for me to know what happiness truly is now that I have lost you my love. I will now just wonder in the darkness deep in the woods watching and protecting my land. howling out for your return. I miss your soft touch of your lips on mine and the feeling of warmth of your hugs as I lay down for sleep at night.

Dj Antaeus Rising ... Raj's Poem
She holds the golden key within her hand, she places it within his palm like a band. Glowing brightly, it melts and fades. Their eyes lock and their soul's walls eroded away. No longer a need for words like, I; myself; me or mine.She no longer needs a trinket or a key, he's stolen the darkness and set her free, their dreams have become their reality. No longer lost or all alone, she once vowed she'd carve her love for him in stone.She reaches for the iron that's searing white hot, he needs to only pick his spot. For upon her heart he had tattooed his name, but now it's her soul that's his to claim!

Thoughts & Prayers
You have no idea what our troops have given up so u can come in here have fun-meet people & share the Love-I am a retired Marine-I have 2 sons & a grandson in the Marine Corps,this Aug. my youngest will be going in to Boot Camp @ Parris Island S.C- he will be the 8th generation Marine in OUR family-I did 22.5 yrs active duty- Please remember them in your thoughts & PRAYERS (if u PRAY)-no politics- just AMERCANS doing what most could not-SEMPER-FIDILIS-Marine Motto-it is Latin 4; ALWAYS FAITHFUL- THAT IS WHAT IS MISS IN THE U.S.A. "FAITH"

I Jacked This From Mel (but She Doesn't Know It)
You Are Cooking You are a very generous and caring person. You love to make other people happy, and you love to give. You are content when you are busy with projects. You enjoy working with your hands. You are both intuitive and creative. You are good at figuring out how to make things work, and you love to experiment. You may be only following recipes for now, but eventually you'll be creating your own amazing, original meals. What Hobby Are You? Blogthings: We Have a Quiz for Almost Everything

Survey #1
Does the last person you shared a bed with mean anything to you?Yeah she does, but its looking more like that time is long gone now. Tears are falling from your eyes, what's the reason?I don't cry, I write blogs that no one can see and rage on the inside. If you got paid 5,000 dollars would you stick your hand in an elephants ass?Would anyone really say no to that? Its not like you can't wash your hand afterwards.Has anyone ever promised you forever?No. Do you get high? No one has ever asked. Something bothering you?Yup.Has someone told you they'd always love you then went for someone else?I'm not that lucky.When was the last time you cried?Idk, when I was a child.What color shirt are you wearing?BlackWhere did you sleep last night?My bed, my laptop streaming something, me dreaming something about being in Japan and asking them if they played Starcraft.Are you happy right now?No.Who/what do you hate/dislike currently?Girls of all kinds. Jay Leno.What's something your wanting right

Behind The Mask
When I smile my eyes seem to sparkle If you saw me inside you'd know the truth It's really the pain shining through. I say I'm an open book; but honestly no one can read me. I say what's on my mind, but not the state of it. I give my heart and soul to those around me; 99% of those people have broken at least one of them at some point. I stay silent to spare them the pain of guilt. I've been strong so long but without a foundation, I never know which blow will send me crumbling down. I'm worried I'm running out of pieces to pick up again. Nevertheless I love my life for the sake of those in it; for the moments between the blows that make it all bearable; and for the love I give but seems to elude me.

Pyschoonline Southern Women..lol
scarlettan...: Wow, you don't know me at all. I stabbed my moms ex through the chest with his own damn knife for beating her when I was 14, I threw my own dad threw a solid wooden door for hitting me so what makes you think I wouldn't fuck up some random hooker for hurting the most important things in my life?

Forbidden
No fix for the lust of flesh in her most primal state.Chemicals are spoken.For there are no more words left.No more will she accept your conformity.Traveling through you much like electricity.Moving,Taking,Loving so freely.You're pulled to her eager hands extended.Wanting with all your being.The taste of breathe inside you.The animalistic hunt.For as many as she'll have with hunger sustained.The ritual fire has left you as ash.Her memory soaring like a storm.You weren't the only one you know.A haunting wind keeps her memory with you.And with the damage done she'll live her life fast,Fierce,Like the wolves in her mind.An individual freedom you search to find.What she gives you is a gift.What she reveals is a nipple of the truth in the drift of time

Poetry
Thoughts racing No end in sightTurmoil destined To DestroyComfortable?UnknownSafe?UnknownAm I where I belong?Is there more than what I see?Is there places that hold my future?LostHello?Is there anyone there?Where are you?Who are you?VoicesEchosVisionsUnclearAm I really hearing people?Do my ears deceive me?Are my eyes playing tricks?Am I seeing what is before me?Turning within one circleNo beginning No endFollowing never leadingEyes please don't fail meEars listen carefullyHeart don't lie to meSoul be trueNothing makes senseEverything jumbled within meTricks and games is what I feelAre these feelings true?Have I failed?Did I lose?Is this my fate?What do I do?I know questions are only answered by the one that holds themBut how do I know what the answer is?Will I find it?Will it elude me as it always has?Confusion is not what I have known before nowLost is not what I am use toUnsure is not what needs to beI just don't knowI am feeling feelings of despairFeelings of confusionOf lostOf unsa

Mystical
Maidens, Wizards, Dragons. They all exist whether most want to admit it or not. I see them as vividly as I see the sky on a warm winter's day. The day of sorcery is returning. The time has come to gather. To gather back to once we all came. Is it true you ask. Yes my friend it is. Come let me show you. Look upon the gray sky. Do you see that? The movement that is not of the clouds? Do you feel that brush of air amongst your skin when there is no wind? Do you feel the change of energy around you? That my friend is the time of magic. Of believing before you see. Of experience of the unknown. The tails of dragons whipping across the sky miles away. The darkness that comes when there is no storm rising. Come and take the hand of thou that will show you the way. One day all that you know will no longer exist. It will cease to be. There will be no electric. Nothing man made will work. Technology will no longer be. It is coming and you will see. When it happens will you then believe me and no

Thoughts
thoughts racing with no where to goquestions of uncertaintyhow r things to bewhere am i goingwho will i beam i always going to be lost without a soulwithout regardhave i spent to muchof my life worryingabout othersabout medoing for otherswith no regard to me or minewill i always be lost will i never find my wayis this the way it shall beis this where i belongis this who i amwill my journey continue along a pathof uncertaintyof questionswith no answersdo i have the answersdo i askthe right questionswhere will this path and journeytake mewill there besomeone waitinga hand to take and holdor will ialways bealonei don't knowno cluedefenseless to thatwhich ishopeless to be damnedi worry abouteverythingthe wind i know is my answerbut whereis it taking mewhen i think i knowi realize i knownothing of what isi need to knowwhere i am goingwhere this journey is taking mewhere it willleadi know the destinyyet i am afraidof iti am confusedconfused like neverbeforei am becoming selfishi know not why

Our Moon
There are many eyes in the nights black sky, The day it has but one.With the dawn of day those eyes fade away,The moon being the largest one. The day's sun shines bright and brings us light,Giving the warmth that we need.But the darkness of night searches our soul,While the moon see's all that we dream. So as we hustle through the day we hope and we pray,That darkness returns again soon.Where our hearts and our minds rejoice as they find,True love......UNDER THE SAME MOON.

"to Every Guy"
To every guy that's said, "Sex CAN wait"To every guy that's said, "You're beautiful."To every guy that was never too busy to drive across town to see her.To every guy that gives her flowers and a card when she is sick or down.To every guy who has given her flowers just because thats how he rolls.To every guy that said he would die for her.To every guy that really would.To every guy that did what she wanted to do.To every guy that cried in front of her. ....To every guy that she cried in front of...To every guy that holds hands with her.To every guy that kisses her with meaning.To every guy that hugs her when she's sad.To every guy that hugs her for no reason at all.To every guy who would give their jacket up for her.To every guy that calls to make sure she got home safe.To every guy that would sit and wait for her for hours just to see her for ten minutes.....To every guy that would give his seat up...To every guy that just wants to cuddle.To every guy that reassured her that she was b

A Soldier Remembers
"A Soldier Remembers" I look around me, all I can see is sand. My mouth is dry, my mind is numb; I hear a scream--- "OH, GOD!!"as I turn my head I see; my brother, my friend, we have been side by side since bootcamp.I try to move, but the pain tries to keep me down. As I reach him, he says; "don't leave, I'm s c a r e d." Then,in my mind I think of:others who have come to pass, those who protest what we do, and say "Why? WHY? Should he die for YOU?" He is young and full of pride. He volunteered to fight; and now is scared and cries. You watch T.V. and curse us. You make remarks about what we do.Yet, how the HELL do you know what we go through. His Mom and Dad I'll soon face; to give them a necklace he wore til he died.Can I look into their face? He is gone, but you are still here. The pride he had, you'll never have near. You may look down on me, but love for some; I have no more. Yet, I still fight for. Remember this: The Few -- that fight for YOUR freedom,The Proud -- prou

Story????
A child found on the battle field, robbed of family, stripped of home, is found by a warrior king. Thrust into the care of the kings spy, a boy begins his lessons at the knees of a master. Will this new found tool grow to fight for the man who destroyed his home or, will he turn in his masters hand?

Club Bounce!
Club Bounce party people made it a great weekend to be at the club! We hit capacity with a line of people waiting each night! Join us this Friday, March 19th for our new theme of Denim and Diamonds! Wear denim and some bling to get in for $5 before 10 p.m.Then Saturday, 3/20/10 is a regular club night filled with the best music and a packed house! We are filling up faster and faster each week so be sure to get there early to avoid standing in line! Dress code is strictly enforced so remember, NO white on your tennis shoes and collared shirts are a must for the guys. _________________________________________________________________Join us next Friday, March 26th for our popular Singles Mingle night! It is one of our most requested themes...and with all the love found in the club, we know why! Come down and find your perfect match!We have a new anti-size discrimination petition, the last petition was accidentally closed early by the petition site, so we had to create a new one, your sign

The Path
watching my life run on a course that I don't quite follow. My cup is full but my soul feels so hollow walking the path that leads to where i want to be down the road. but its hard with such a heavy load. no one walks with me to help haul the pack. there is to much behind me for me to look back. no one to pass the time with as I journey ahead. no one to hold when I lay in my bed. walking on blindly scared of whats up the way. I have to keep going for there is no safe place to stay. what the future holds for me is so very unclear. Continue on i must there is no time for fear. Emotions hang on and constantly shadow me. but i cant be consumed if i wish to be free.

Anais Nin
“I do not want to be the leader. I refuse to be the leader. I want to live darkly and richly in my femaleness. I want a man lying over me, always over me. His will, his pleasure, his desire, his life, his work, his sexuality the touchstone, the command, my pivot. I don’t mind working, holding my ground intellectually,artistically; but as a woman, oh, God, as a woman I want to be dominated. I don’t mind being told to stand on my own feet, not to cling, be all that I am capable of doing, but I am going to be pursued, fucked, possessed by the will of a male at his time, his bidding.”~Anais Nin

My Love
My love Your skin glows o so beautiful in the sun light.Our love blossoms as the Tulips in the purest hope of spring.My heart follows your soft voice. It leaps like a kitten at the whisper of your name.The evening floats in with a calm steady wind.I am comforted by your pictures.I carry them into the twilight of the moon light. Holding your heart next to mine. I am filled with hope. May I dry your tears?As my Lips kiss your forehead.It reminds me of your love for me. In a quiet lonely room.I listen for the Music that reminds me of you through the day.My heart and hands scream out for you. I waited in the moonlight with hope.So that we may become one.Your hand in mine.In search of that feeling.That Magnificent and mystical energy I know we have.So that we may strive together. In life and hold each other close. Threw the good times and bad.

For Lisa
people come people go but every now and than theres ones u dont want to let go u will do anything to keep them close to show how u feel u give them ur heart u give them ur soul just to keep them from going but if they go u really cant stop them but u can always hold them with in ur heart for love is what i give and ask u not to go but its all up to u

My Logic Was Not At Fault, But I Was
The closest I remember “Star Trek: Voyager” chief of security Tuvok receiving a dressing-down from Captain Janeway in the whole series ends with this admission on his part. (For full detail, it’s in the first season “Prime Factors” … the funny thing is, I know more about Voyager from the Internet reading about it than from actually watching it.) But it’s just as well, as I made the point on yesterday’s broadcast of “Making Life Work” with Pastors Mark and Steve; I quoted Henry Jones Senior (Sean Connery’s character) saying at one point in the movie “Indiana Jones and the Last Crusade” that “I wrote [what I wanted to remember] down in the diary so I wouldn’t HAVE to remember.” I’ve got a lot I need to remember too; yesterday was my day off so I took the opportunity to bring Sarah and Jeffrey to the Depot Museum on north Main Street. I had originally intended to bring them Saturd

Too Much
Can you count all the times That you've mended my heart Just so you could again Crush it, Break it apart? Yet, you've got no idea That I'm hurt all the while Cause I hide all my pain With a laugh and a smile All my rage and frustration They are secrets to you I'm a pretty good actor Cause you don't have a clue I have made it an art It's greatest learned skill Hiding all of this damn Fuckin pain that I feel Yet sometimes it leaks through Sometimes I botch my act Sometimes you see my pain Sometimes I can't hold back I regret if you noticed I didn't wanna seem shallow But sometimes it's too much It's more than I can swallow

Written By A U.s. Soldier
Hope Rides Alone By Eddie Jeffers I stare out into the darkness from my post, and I watch the city burn to the ground. I smell the familiar smells, I walk through the familiar rubble, and I look at the frightened faces that watch me pass down the streets of their neighborhoods. My nerves hardly rest; my hands are steady on a device that has been given to me from my government for the purpose of taking the lives of others. I sweat, and I am tired. My back aches from the loads I carry. Young American boys look to me to direct them in a manner that will someday allow them to see their families again...and yet, I too, am just a boy....my age not but a few years more than that of the ones I lead. I am stressed, I am scared, and I am paranoid...because death is everywhere. It waits for me, it calls to me from around street corners and windows, and it is always there. There are the demons that follow me, and tempt me into thoughts and actions that are not my own...but that are n

False Friends
False friends with lies and betrayals. Nothing true in a world spinning out of control. Head spinning out of control. There’s no where to turn and no where to go. Learning that I’m in a world of lies, sorrow, and despair. A place that I have never belonged. The days drag into nights like cars on a drag strip. Nothing making sense in a world of loneliness.

Dark Death Of My Inner Soul !
(As I Sit Here With Black Tear's Silently Falling...) (I Feel All The Hatred For This Life Well Up Inside Me And I Feel The Need To Drain Myself Of This Pain...) (But Alas I Bask In The Depth Of This Pain...) (I Will Slowly Wrap All Of My Being Soul And Body Around My Inner Darkness...) (As I Draw A Silver Blade Across My Wrist The Pain Of The Cut Would Feel So Good As My Black Blood Flowed Free...) (Then Maybe I Could Overcome The Visious Light Of Happiness That All Other's Dwell Within...) (Written By: "XvSilverLeafvX") (October, 24,2009)

When Life Spins Out Of Control
Swirling in a mist of confusion, Never quite able to finally reach the absolute solution. Everywhere I look is instability, Yet, I keep seeking for others to reach down to me and to show compassion and humility. I may not be what this world finds as ideal, But I wish people could see what I'm faced with is horrifically surreal. Even if a soul can't empathize with my reality, Can't they take the time to try to understand the cause of my complicated mentality? It's easy to judge and easy to shun, The only thing not so easy is when you feel trapped with nowhere to run. I can't find any peace with all of this pain, And I can't understand why I can't find a way out of the rain. Others find their days of sun, All I find is that I wake up to is a body that leaves me feeling drained and done. They all live in a different world with what they believe to be true, Meanwhile, I'm being mainstreamed when my color has a completely different hue. Can I be who I am without bein

Dreamer
youre always in my dreams at night, youre always in my thoughts, i dream about you day and night even though youre not around. i cant wait to be in your arms again. you make me a lot stronger everytime youre around me but when i feel weak youre there to pick me up and make me strong again. i couldnt have asked for a better best friend and you mean the world to me and nothing can change that. i love to see you in my dreams day or night and its only you i dream about. sometimes when i look in the mirror i see you in it with me but when i look again youre not there. now that i know youre a marine i feel alot safer and more protected and i want to thank you for that. i will always support you and you will always be in my heart

Why I Don't Go To The Gym...
This is dedicated to everyone who ever attempted to get into a regular workout routine Dear Diary,For my birthday this year, my husband purchased a week of personal training at the local health club.Although I am still in great shape since being a high school football cheerleader 43 years ago, I decided it would be a good idea to go ahead and give it a try.I called the club and made my reservations with a personal trainer named Christo, who identified himself as a 26-year-old aerobics instructor and model for athletic clothing and swim wear.Friends seemed pleased with my enthusiasm to get started! The club encouraged me to keep a diary to chart my progress.________________________________MONDAY:Started my day at 6:00 a.m. Tough to get out of bed, but found it was well worth it when I arrived at the health club to find Christo waiting for me. He is something of a Greek god-- with blond hair, dancing eyes, and a dazzling white smile. Woo Hoo!!Christo gave me a tour and showed me t

Yesterdays Tears~
I wrote this what seems like a lifetime ago Yesterdays Tears Wish I could say, wish i knew how much longer, i'm to be without you Cold dreary days wreck my mind wandering around so lost, so blind Trying to lose myself, another place and time Looking around for some reason or rhyme Make the days faster, make life pass me by, let tomorrow be the last day without you by my side Let yesterdays tears of sadness be todays tears of happiness Lets walk through forever, starting today Take my heart, my hand, lead the way.

Can You See The Light
Can you see the light, or are you still just blind,or can you be lost,in the shadows of your mind,open up your eyes,and together we will start,we will star to walk,and never be apart,and together, we'll run....take a look at me,and open up your heart,see the light i feel,and we'll never be apart,is your mind still dark,or is the daybreak nearing,is it my love you fear,or the love for me your feeling,and together, we'll run....open up your eyes, and let your fears rush out,feel the love I give,and they'll never be a doubt,oprn up your heart,and we will start as one,we will start to walk,and together we will run,and together, we'll run....

A Whoda Ma Whada!
A Whoda Ma Whata!?!A whisper not yet heard in the wind.....A smile not yet seen threw distance.A soft touch not yet known from some kind of childhood abuse.A cry for help so weak and unoticed to them.A person I confide in always leaving me behind!A person is out thier for everybody!A question always in the back of mind..... "Will we, they or i find that special somebody?"A persiut for you somedy don't be suprised if it comes to be!A feeling at first glance I never felt but seen on tv!A voice of gental nature out yander whispers to the person ment to be!Do you know what a chance with you would mean to me!?!A moment the world around me would fade away.A hand out reached never to pull it'self away.A journey started hand in hand, step by step, together you and I!A bond of trust and exceptance no one shall ever truely understand! "Unconditionaly mine!"

Doll
Won't you come play with your pretty doll? Hold me and twirl me, but don't let me fall Glassy eyes and flowing hair to style a painted mouth and a plastic smile I can be what you want, I can be what you need Just take my hand and I will follow your lead I won't ever tell you "no", or say that you're bad I'll laugh when you laugh and cry when you're sad I'm the perfect plaything and I think you'll agree The thing you've been looking for has always been me Maybe one day you'll forget me and go on your way But I will always be waiting here ready to play ~me

Six Paragraphs In Search Of A Title
My son Jeffrey came to work with me Thursday for “Take Your Child to Work Day” and he survived it! So did I, but that’s negligible … I had no customer come in the store for all day and Jeffrey, as two-year-olds will, got restless! Nothing too serious, of course; he got to be my official flyswatter and killed three of them. We had a “picnic” lunch from Taco John’s in the office and I fought the urge when he said he wanted to go – sorry son, I don’t get to do that when it’s slow – to take him back to the house with Mary and Sarah once or twice. Of course, the fact I forgot to bring a DVD for him to watch there might have been a factor, but he has a hard time sitting still for that anyway. We spent more time outdoors than we usually do, evidently enough that when we left to pick up Sarah at my in-laws’ that he was sound asleep! I did not want to wake him, but I had to feed Sarah and Jeffrey might have resent

Youve Been Fucked!!!!! Hahaha
YOU HAVE BEEN FUCKED!Spread the legs and go at it! Pick any of your friends and FUCK THEM! This is for any one you think is hot!RULES:1- You can fuck the person who fucked you, of course.2- You can fuck the same person as many times as you can (c'mon, ENDURANCE)! Be creative!*3- You -MUST- spread the sex! At least 1 fuck is fine and dandy!4- You should fuck in public! Be adventurous, damn it. Paste it on their user page so they feel slutty!5- Random sex is perfectly okay!6- Please, don't worry about same gender fucking, it's HOT.7- You should most definitely get started fuckin' right away!This is about showing everyone how much you care for them and HOW BAD YOU WANT THEIR ASS! Make everyone feel a little loved (and roughed up!). Please don't take this too personally, BUT I JUST FUCKED YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!F.U.C.K. Stands For:Friends U Can Keep.So promise me we'll F.U.C.K. forever! Send this to 10 people & 1 back to me. To know who your true F. U. C.Ks are. 9,675,000,000 people

It Is Not The End
Do not cry...For I am not lostI have just taken a different path;In my journeyDeath has not become of me;For I am not deadI am only contemplating lifeNo tears will be shedFor there is no sadnessOnly through joy;Will these tears be acceptedSo, don't see my death as a goodbye;But a message that life comes and goesFor life has come for me;But I am not goneI am merely waiting and watching...For...the unexpected

My New One
The new man in my life is the best thing to happen to me... I know I have said that before but man this one is everything I was looking for... He hasn't faltered once since the day he popped into my life... He makes me smile everday and reminds me at least 100 times a day how much i mean to him... He has knocked me flat on my ass... I wasn't looking for anything after Dean left and refused to let anyone in yet somehow this crazy redneck found his way through my defenses and has stolen my heart...He is so amazing and I have no idea what i did to deserve him... I know that this one is the one I will spend my life with... The one who will stand by my side no matter what I do or we go through... He is my soulmate... My best friend and the love of my life... I hope he knows that no matter what I am his and always will be...

It Was All A Joke
I came to have a good time and spend time with someone that seemed to have wanted me around for my birthday. The first 3 days were great and since Monday everything seems to have been a joke. Everything he told me has been a lie. He wonders why I don't love on him or show affection and it's because that damn phone is his life. I gave mine up to be here. He seems to think that it was alright to make me choose between him and my best friend and seems to think my best friends words are what is coming between us and in all reality what's doing it is him. He is allowing someone's words and protective manner affect how and what he does with me. I have told him I can't do this and that it is too much. I am hopefully back on a bus Monday to return home. Some birthday huh?

Poetry
Dedicated to my sons Logan And Steven Whispers in the night calling for the fight, Freedom is what they say Blessed freedom will come our way, That is what they pray Too many wars and too many battles, No with true just cause. Harboring grudges, Like a kitten with viscous claws Innocents dieing on either side, Tell me where this is right What right do we have as mortal men to carry the weight of the world within? To create hate were we should love? To believe in no God of any kind above, To lose ourselves within this hate True sorrow is what should fill our plates, We are all humans with the same ended fate It matters not what we believe in, Nor how we look within our skin We all long for the same freedom A world without war, Now that would be something to see, Somewhat of a dream to me I do no clam to understand it all, But I know in time with war we will be our own down fall Brothers killing brothers all because of differences in faith

Golf
Two lesbians were out playing golf. They tee off, one drive goes to the right, and one drive goes to the left. One of them finds her ball in a patch of buttercups. She grabs a club and takes a mighty swing at the ball. She hits a beautiful second shot, but in the process, she hacks the hell out of the buttercups.Suddenly a woman appears out of nowhere. She blocks her path to her golf bag, looks at her, and says:"I am Mother Nature, and I do not like the way you treated my buttercups. From now on, you won't be able to stand the taste of butter. Each time you eat butter you will become physically ill to the point of total nausea."The mystery woman then disappears as quickly as she appeared.Shaken, the woman calls out to her partner, "Hey, where's your ball?""It's over here in the pussy willows."She screams back, "WHATEVER YOU DO, DON'T HIT THE BALL! DON'T HIT THE BALL!"

Death Within
The rain pours upon the windows like a river of blood. My heart aching not feeling your touch. To be apart is torture upon my soul. Death is a blessing if I'd never see you again. Love soaring upon the eagle filled sky while inside I'm dying without you by my side.

Even More
Just a few random ass thoughts..... Current mood: confused Category: Romance and Relationships What is the deal with some guys? I have a few friends that are dealing with these fucked up individuals. These guys are, apparently, so unhappy with their lives, or have such low self-esteem that thet feel that the only way to be happy is to act like a fucking tyrant at home.Guys.....get a fucking grip on reality, ok? You should be fucking ecstatic that you found a woman willing to put up with the mere fact that you are a man. Most of you assholes are NOT THAT FUCKING CUTE! You should thank whatever invisible father figure in the sky you choose that she is happy (for the most part) taking your pitiful attempt at fucking them and bearing your demon-spawn. I know some other women that will cut off your fucking balls if you even attempted to pull that "I'm the king in this castle" bullshit........others feel like they have no other option. M

Still More
commercials Current mood: pissed off Category: Movies, TV, Celebrities Time for another installment of the garbage floating around my head. Have any of you seen the new anti-smoking commercial? A dreadlocked goofball goes into a gun store and asks about, get this, light bullets. He says that he saw on another package, a cigarette package, that they were offering lights, ultra lights, low tar, etc. He then proceeds to ask the clerk if they offer low lead bullets, bullets that hit the intended target but do no damage, really stupid fucking questions. Look, truth.com and whatdafxisup.com, those of us that do smoke, we know that ALL CIGARETTES ARE HARMFUL. We are not completely stupid, but your commercials are. These commercials are getting awful close to the anti-abortion shit shingles that you used to see out front of clinics in the '80's and '90's, you know the ones I mean, with the severed head of an aborted baby, jsut gr

Nucking Futs!
Some people go together like salt n pepperSome people are meant to be like bread n butterBeing a part for any time is like jam missing peanut butterWhen you find your dip to your chipHold on tightI will bring the whip, you bring the creamPaint me with honey and chocolate syrupLickity splitBanana splitI got a lovely set of coconuts................Or maybe i should just go get some lunch

My Chat With Madcurves
MadCurves: bye cheater i hate liarsMadCurves: ive never done anything like and would NEVER do itTo MadCurves: But you do't mind it from them, Gail.MadCurves: as u said IM not a member and I KNOW i was NEVER a memberTo MadCurves: I believe you are the psycho!To MadCurves: You're confused and can't even admit to being a Threesome group. LOLMadCurves: shows you what i said is correctTo MadCurves: Well, having self respect is a part of growing up. Half of the men who commented on your breasts and ass are married!MadCurves: stating the truth is NOT being bitter but cheaters cant understand that i hope you grow up one day for your WIFE --laterTo MadCurves: We can be cool and chat or not.MadCurves: coolTo MadCurves: OK, so that explains your bitterness. Listen, if you want to be online acquaintances, cool. If not, cool. But don't use me as your punching bag. My profile is straight forward - you didn't have to accept my request.MadCurves: because he to was a married man and i got a phone call

Ignoring Yourself
I believe that I suffer from two fundamental forms of fear: fear of not getting what I want, and fear of losing what I have. In that both stem from actual or "perceived" threats to my actual or "perceived" survival, I also believe that both aspects of fear are derived from my underlying fear of my actual or "perceived" death. It would then follow that a good deal of my daily anxiety is a result of my faulty perception. And by faulty perception I mean, "wow, am I a whack job or what?" Which leaves me with only two possible solutions regarding fear -- change my perception, or, failing that, ignore my perception. The reason I bring this up is that in the ever-widening world of self-improvement, I never see "ignoring yourself" offered up as a viable solution to problems of the mind. And yet, it works! Next time your head is filled with anxious thoughts, simply take note of it, thank your mind for trying to ensure your survival, then act as if you just got a stock tip from a homeless pe

My Babi Wrote Me This!!!!!!!!!!!!
baby when i see or talk to u its like the problems in the world just melts away i have never fallin in luv with a girl this quick exspecially from the internet but with u its different babe honestly u mean everything to me a luv u alot and hope that i never lose u in my life i dont know wat i would withou u in my life baby i luv u because u put up with my shit u know when i play around and i hope we never have a fight at all i luv u sweetheart and i always will forever and always no matter wat happens between us baby

Recent Update On Me And Melanie!!!
Well everyone has been aware that i'm a high risk bring pregnant, as of now things are changes...it is true that they aren't gonna let me have any more kids after my daughter is born they made it clear in Morgantown today and also their is more than just that when I go back in 3 months after my daughter is born they are still wanting to fix the murmur but not only that they are possibly fixing the valve the reason it is preventing me from having kids is that they are gonna put a metal tube where my defective right valve is to fix the blood flow also I will have to get shots about once month or more. So yes pretty much i'm a mother with more complications than I was ever prepared for. But all in the good news is Melanie is healthy as can be and they see no problems with her heart in the future, she is getting everything she is needing but she is weighing 2lbs they said she is growing well and is blessed to see that she is good. Now they are planning on seeing me in Morganto

Stress Free!!!
I've learned to let go of stupid things that has happen. Trying to stop the stress and just enjoy what I have. Keeping my words....like what I tell others when they are stressing, etc. Let things go and let it be. I hate stressing over things and I need to stop it fully. I'm going to enjoy my life with all the people I care about :-).

Morning Fubar
my first official morning here at fubar....upon joining last night, everyone was so nice to me. there is a lot to this site, so today i am going to be exploring it a bit to see how it works, what all is involved here. was checking out the blings and saw the cherry bong....lol...so i have fired my personal one up and will begin my day. later this morning i will be going out shopping, a girl can never have enough outfits now can she? lol.....but i have walked holes in all my flipflops now, so i gotta go get me some more. i also need a new swimsuit for laying out in, which i will be doing this afternoon. hope to see you around the bar, and stay safe! kisses.... muffins

Difference Between Men And Women
Difference Between Men and Women 1. A man will pay $2 for a $1 item he wants. A woman will pay $1 for a $2 item that she doesn't want. 2. A woman worries about the future until she gets a husband. A man never worries about the future until he gets a wife. 3. A successful man is one who makes more money than his wife can spend. A successful woman is one who can find such a man. 4. To be happy with a man you must understand him a lot & love him a little. To be happy with a woman you must love her a lot & not try to understand her at all. 5. Married men live longer than single men - but married men are a lot more willing to die. 6. Any married man should forget his mistakes - there's no use in two people remembering the same thing. 7. Men wake up as good-looking as they went to bed. Women somehow deteriorate during the night. 8. A woman marries a man expecting he will change, but he doesn't. A man marries a woman expecting that she won't change & she does. 9. A woman has the last

Losing My Mind
Running to every corner Trying to find my escape But I end up chasing an empty space My only friend is misery I get psyched back up when I see your face Then I remember it's only temporary Why does happiness have to be a short story? How much longer til I pass this phase? Tying to beat the sorrow everyday When I know, in the the end it's there to win I can no longer see my life's worth Caught in the wrath of others Making this pain feel comfortable, like it's right at home (Chorus) Losing my mind Letting those words sink in Becoming so gullible and ashamed Taking every word to heart It's hard to not care Trying to convince myself as much as I can But I can't help to think, if they are right I'm screaming inside, wondering if anyone could see it through my eyes I've been on my own far too long Dying to feel, to be held once again Feeling sorry for myself, cause no one else shows sympathy Just goes to show it's better off to be alone, gotta watch my own bac

"you"
Your so mendacious so tasteless you got no style you fake a smile all the while your lies add to a pile very vile and you have no verity your very viable yet, still a child you got no sympathy and you don't sympathize you lack supremacy and you synchronize follow up with all those lies where's the truth inside I've been searchin for a long time, tell me the truth you left behind.

To That Certain Someone I Haven't Found Yet!
Darkness fades and turns to day but, my love will always Stay It'll never be far away It will always be here Just like it is today It'll never be far away Like the moon and stars are far you are my heart and my star that captured me from afar Remember we'll never be far apart cause two hearts are better off as one than none.

Cinderella's Dreamin
A little cinderella lost her glass slipper a sweet kiss she won't miss from a guy she won't find she's alright tonight she keeps the beauty inside where her lonely heart can't die this is where her heart is tonight, even after midnight She wonders her castle inside she's asleep now and dreamin of him of that guy she won't find But, she still misses him the sweet kiss, he gave her sent her heart to the sky far beyond the heavens where her lonely heart

Happy Father Day All
My step dad, Charlie was a good guy....he became my dad shortly after i was born. He treated my two older sisters and brother like his own. So, i only knew him as my dad. We did alot of things as a family. One particuliar summer, i was 3 and just as curious to explore everything around me. i love the water. We had a pond the size of a football field. Unfortunately i fell in and drown. My little sister seen me fall in and rush to get my mom then went to get my dad. My mom pulled me out as my dad came flying out of the house. He was a navy man and did alot of water rescues. Dad started cpr on me immediately. I wasnt breathing and my heart had stopped for over a minute. Finailly, by the grace of God, he pounded on my chest one more time and it started to beat again. He continued to give me mouth to mouth til the ambulance arrived. The firemen worked on me and we re able to get the water out of my lungs and breathing again. So, i stayed overnight in the hospital and there was no da

I Will Let This Angel Fall....................
as i sit hereand try to dry the tearsi am once again remindedof all the little fearsi feel my strength fadeinga little more each dayand i pray for the peaceto find me some wayi close my eyesbut no dreams to seenothing but blacknessin front of meyou ask how i ami will tell you just finebecause this pain i carrywill last beyond timei will wear a smile for all to seewishing just onewould look and seethat my soul is dyinggrows colder every dayGod please help memake the hurt go awayi drop to my kneesand surrender it alli will walk in the shadowsi will let this angel fall........................ Daddyzlostangel

The Death Of My Best Freind My Brother
I just found out that my best freind, My homie, My brother was killed tonight. All i can do is site here and cry and wounder why the best ones have to die. He was the only person in this world that i could talk to. He was the only one that was realy true. When i know that things are bad you will be there to get me thorugh. With out you my world is gone. With out you I have no one left. You had 2 beautifull boys That dont have a father any more because you was whereing the wrong colors in the wrong place. And a 23 year old ife that is now a widow. But dont worry my brother your wife and children are going to be taken care of i dont care if i have to sleep in a box on the street and steal to provide every thing they need. You are my brother and i have your back Rest in peace brother i will love you always and i will see you agine when the good lord dicieds its my time. R.I.P Mi AMOR

Wicked
thouw these blury blood shot eyes, I see your dark intinsoins, With these scared hands I still grip to the false hopes and brooken dreams, that you so joyfuly left me. My loungs are suffacating from your intoxi ecents of dark bueaty. These scare that cover me from head to toe are a sad shallow reminder to any who fall to your dar and timting precents. You lower any lonly fool with your evil stair, promising unimaginable pleaser and dark desires with every wink, your devlish grin teases to come back for more. You drain thim till nothing is left then cast thim to the side and move on to your next fivtom. Now I see you for who are you are the wicked and i m slowly but shurly make my way back to my feet hoping some day my angle will come to save me but on till then i will be a live sine to all of what ur dark powers will do to a person.............. the scared

Pakistan No 1 In Internet Sex Searches
I don’t consider myself a prude but I certainly don’t condone sex with animals. Google has published a report that ranks Pakistan as the world’s No. 1 country for searches of pornographic terms. Most of what the people there search for is sex with animals. That in its self is nutty but what is ironic is Pakistan is a Muslim country. And you how strict those people are when it comes to Western Culture. I understand this is not new in the world but it’s still unnerving. I’m comforted that America is no the leader in this category. Here is the details http://www.foxnews.com/world/2010/07/12/data-shows-pakistan-googling-pornographic-material/ BlastFM is a musical diversion from the cares of the day. 24/7 hear some of the great music, past and present. Dig it baby! www.live365.com/stations/blastcasterfm

What You Should Know About Your State.
A Fun Fact for Each State ALABAMA.................. Was the first place to have 9-1-1, started in 1968. ALASKA..................... One out of every 64 people has a pilot's license. ARIZONA................... Is the only state in the continental U.S. that doesn't follow Daylight Savings Time. ARKANSAS................ Has the only active diamond mine in the U.S. CALIFORNIA.............. Its economy is so large that if it were a country, it would rank seventh in the entire world. COLORADO................ In 1976 it became the only state to turn down the Olympics. CONNECTICUT........... The Frisbee was invented here at Yale University. DELAWARE............... Has more scientists and engineers than any other state. FLORIDA................... At 759 square miles, Jacksonville is the U.S. 's largest city. GEORGIA................... It was here, in 1886, that pharmacist John Pemberton made the first vat of Coca-Cola. HAWAII..................... Hawaiians live, on average, five years longer th

Suck It In Dude
If you are married do you remember the things that turned you on about your spouse? Was it the physical? Maybe the brain. Or will you say, I don’t remember what turned me on about my spouse. As time takes its toll on our youth we have a tendency to let our bodies deteriorate. Most of the time the focus is on women. But, the guys are just as guilty as their wives. Well, Jasmine Leigh of AskMen.com has some suggestions for you dude. You better listen up. http://www.foxnews.com/story/0,2933,597023,00.htmlBlastFM takes care to bring you the best of the best in music. Hit us up 24/7 and it’s free to you www.live365.com/stations/blastcasterfm

Want A Fake Butt?
Fake boobs are a favorite body enhancement for the babes. Other things are done to the face. Now a new phenomenon is happening with you babes. I’m told you babes are now buying panties that give you a more rounded butt. The flat look is no longer acceptable. Personally I like a nice round butt. The only problem I see for the butt panties is when a guy cops a feel. That will be awkward. Check it out http://www.foxnews.com/entertainment/2010/07/22/bootylicious-stars-spark-sales-padded-panties/BlastFm for the naturally minded music lover. Hit us up 24/7 www.live365.com/stations/blastcasterfm

Army Of One
You aren’t issued with the uniform, boots and weapon,But you are one lady no one should step on.It usually goes “With this ring, I thee wed,”But add in “Even if it means me in an empty bed.”“and the weeks in the field with many late nights,”“which will at some point lead to fights.”Yes, a military wife is courageous and strong,Even when the days seem so long.When you feel like you’re at your wits end,You “Suck it up” and start to mend.You learn the Army language,All those acronyms, “How can I manage.”PX, AAFES, LES, MOS - the list goes on and on,All those letters would make an ordinary woman yawn.But those letters are part of your life,The life of a proud military wife.You move too much and decorate too little,Because you always seem to leave in the middle.Don’t get too settled and make lots of friendsBecause home is wherever the Army sends.And then one day the orders come down,Your husband soon w

If You're Not In Love With A Soldier
If you're not in love with a soldier, you can't know adventure. You don't know smelly gray PT uniforms that require a daily washing. You can't understand green and brown camouflaged bags flooding your bedroom floor. If you're not in love with a soldier, you can't understand the meaning of the phrase "going to the field" and the weeks you spend away from each other.If you're not in love with a soldier, you can never imagine the hole in your heart when that phone call comes? "Honey, I am leaving tomorrow to go overseas. I don't know how long I will be gone or exactly where I am going, but I want you to know that I love you - always!"If you're not in love with a soldier, you don't know what it's like to say that final good-bye. You don't know what it really means to be glued to the television. You don't understand fear and you can't possibly understand the sleepless nights of endless crying wondering if you will ever see the love of your life alive again. If you're not in love with a sold

Amazing
Ann, has access to my PC's because I have nothing to hide and she found it amazing that I had Porn and Ladies of The Night in my Favorites. She said anyone coming across this will have the Perception of you being something your not. Perception are easily created. She was floored by me the other day. She never expected it nor others. Unfortunately, not many thihngs are clear as it may seem. Perception of me is based on the actions of others and not me. Who has the most to gain? How many gained and whe really lost it all, meaning wife, animal (friends), house, dignity, and respect? Anyone paying attention to this, beside The Roman Catholic Church, The Oder, TEMPLER, and friends? Glory to God N

Why Did I Do What I Did
WHY DID I JUST THROW AWAY 3 YEARS OF FRIENDSHIP, BECAUSE I AM A JERK!!! WHY DO PEOPLE DO THE STUPID THINGS THEY DO WHEN THEY KNOW IT WILL CAUSE THEM PAIN IN THE FUTURE THIS SHOULD ACTUALLY BE IN GREEN BECAUE I LOST THE CLOSEST FRIEND I HAVE EVER HAD BECAUSE OF MY OWN JEALOUSY. I KNOW I WILL NEVER GET THIS WONDERFUL PERSON BACK IN MY LIFE AND WOULD GIVE ANYTHING TO ERASE THE PAST 72 HOURS, i CAN ONLY HOPE THAT WHEN I AM JUDGED I AM GRANTED MERCY FOR THE AWFUL THINGS I SAID AND DID. I PROBABLEY WON'T BE ON HERE FOR VERY MUCH LONGER AND DESERVE ALL THE PAIN I AM FEELING NOW. LEARN FROM YOUR MISTAKES AND THE MISTAKES OF OTHERS

Grrrr Piss Off
Why the hell when ya go to the store and ya get in line...does the person right behind ya have to stand so bloody close to ya that you can feel their breath on the back of your neck .....What the foock is up with that? Like dude back up a foot would ya....ya dont need to be standing on the heels of my shoes

Church
So i was late to church today and as soon as i walked in the door the preacher got on my case with that whole 'we have a sinner among us" act, as i started to walk away one of this litte fricken thoughts popped into my head as i caught him off guard "HEY!! i was running errands for satan you know he's under house arrest" and naturally i got the evil eye as i left just as quick as i came. sadly enough this isnt the first time i ever had a mishap at church, when my dad told me i was half hebrew i was like thats cool, so later on in the week me and my friend were at his grandmother catholic church, some other kid pissed me off and then i had my first stupid thought in the front row just before everybody started to pray i hollared "do you want us to cruxify his ass again?!", as everyone turned around and looked at me, i just looked up and smiled "what it's not like he didn't deserve it, he's a prick" (the screwed up part is i was talking about the kid who pissed me off). needless to say i

Muslim Suicide Bombers On Strike
Muslim suicide bombers in Britain are set to begin a three-day strike on Monday in a dispute over the number of virgins they are entitled to in the afterlife. Emergency talks with Al Qaeda have so far failed to produce an agreement. The unrest began last Tuesday when Al Qaeda announced that the number of virgins a suicide bomber would receive after his death would be cut by 25% this July from 72 to 54. A company spokesman said increases in recent years in the number of suicide bombings has resulted in a shortage of virgins in the afterlife. The suicide bombers' union, the British Organization of Occupational Martyrs (B.O.O.M.) responded with a statement saying the move was unacceptable to its members and called for strike vote. General Secretary Abdullah Amir told the press "Our members are literally working themselves to death in the cause of Jihad. We don't ask for much in return but to be treated like this is a real kick in the teeth". Speaking from his shed in Tipton in the West Mi

I Will Let This Angel Fall
as i sit hereand try to dry the tearsi am once again remindedof all the little fearsi feel my strength fadeinga little more each daypraying for the peaceto find me some wayi close my eyesbut no dreams to seenothing but darknessis in front of meyou ask how i ami will tell you just finebecause this pain i carrywill last beyond timei will wear a smilefor all to seewishing just onewould really look at memy soul is dyinggrows colder every dayGod please help memake the hurt go awayi drop to my kneesand surrender it alli will walk in the shadowsi will let this angel fall......... lostprincezz

Thru The Ages
Tonyte as the moon shines across the sky, lighting up the black velvet night, I long to be with my soulmate and lover, I long to hold him so tight.. Long ago, ages past, I remember the battles side by side, always protecting one another, on our horses we would swiftly ride.. I can still smell the outdoors on every piece of his armor, when he'd reach out to me with his arm, I can still hear his words as he pulled me against him, vowing to keep me from harm..As the wind blows across my body, It reminds me of his hands, always they would caress me ever so passionately, as we lived our life throughout the lands..I can still feel his lips over my body as he rained his kisses upon me, I can still remember the look in his eyes, so passionate like the stormy sea..I can still feel all of his strength and hear his amorous words that he always said, I can remember all the fierce desire, as he'd take me upon our bed..A bond thru the ages we've always had, our eternal love has lasted this long, For

We Don't Die
We ain't underground by accidentThere's only a select few that can handle thisFreek shitApparition of a poltergeistBlessed with heartBut is cold as ice and broken twiceNow I walk with an axeDressed in all jet black with contactsStraight maniacWarlock, Samhain and Salem's LotSand through the hour glass ticking of the clockIf you don't know by now it's too lateWe the most serious thing on the market since date rapeWe the deadWe don't explain or feel pain, beserkoKeep it underground to maintainBitch you better checknutsI'm doing voodoo in 66 in 6 monthsRidin' in a digged out hearse with gold spokesPuffin' on 2 ton blunt with dead folks and it's like thatAxe Murderers, we don't dieSerial Killas, we don't dieFreeks of the Night, we don't dieWe get high, we don't dieComing up outta the groundFrom the underground tunnel of dirtKeep away from the mainstream loverJust want somebody to move and get hurtGot your hole dug deep in the dirtCan't hurt?What bitch muthafuckas makin' love to the press?W

Hm,.
I'm currently looking for new friends. I don't care if you're not a Juggalo or Juggalette, but I do care if you fucking hate my family. Sorry, but I don't want haters on my friend's list. NEED/LIKE: Juggalos (in a non-gay way, of course..) Juggalettes Friendly people Funny Nice HATE/DISLIKE: Haters People wants to start trouble for no damn reason Spammers Hackers Glitchers WHOOP WHOOP!

Miss
I miss the way you touched me.I miss the way you used to hold me.I miss the time we shared,but why do I have to miss you so much.The way you cared.The times you just talked to melike I was yours.But why do I have to miss it all.If I dont miss what do Ihave to look forward toseeing or doing again.So why do I miss you all the time.I miss your smell.I miss your voice.I wish i did nothave to miss you so much.So why do I have to miss.

It Happens
What a woman says ; this place is a mess! c'mon! you and i need to clean up ! your stuff is lying on the floor and you'll have no clothes to wear if we don't do laundry right now! What a man hears ; blah blah blah blah C'MON ! YOU AND I blah blah blah! blah ON THE FLOOR blah blah NO CLOTHES blah blah RIGHT NOW!

The Raven, Part Ii
Just because I enjoy writing I thought I'd add something to my page. I enjoy Edgar Poe and thought that his story "The Raven" could use a little more so I wrote the following: A year has past and he sits so daunting , the depths of my soul I find him haunting. This foul winged beast of night that stays perched above my door. The fire I stoke ever so lightly, it's warm embers burning brightly, Warming the room ever so slightly, as I cast my gaze upon the floor. Seeking some comfort in my sorrow, though I know not what for. Avoiding sight of this Raven whom I abhor. With the passing days my mind has wandered, fleeting memories that I have pondered, pondered the reasons and purpose of all that has been before. Madness inside slowly brewing, insipid remarks I find myself spewing, Aware now of my very undoing, but not yet sure of what is in store. I struggle in vain to clear my mind so my situation I may explore. Knowing he is watching, perched silently for ever more. "Sentinel of the da

The Hangman Suicide
Running towards our third demise Blackened hearts and blackened souls No one watching our blood rise These highways all have deadly tolls But we travel on them nonetheless Recalling the cures we swallowed down Searching for a god to bless Punishing a tarnished crown These things that ferment in my mind The pain I know so very well Sometimes I wonder if God is blind Is he watching when I'm in hell

Lets See
I feel like writing but I'm not sure what to say. I feel like rambling on about mindless bullshit but not in fear that no one will read. I feel like standing on top of the highest mountain to see what I've been missing and if I jumped, who would miss me. I feel like screaming Fuck You All but who would hear me, my voice would go horse because there's a long list of people who need my wrath. I feel like running for my life but not for a good cause, only to get away, far away from it all. I feel like shutting up now because this sounds like a pitiful cry but its not, its the truth, the freak that lives inside. I feel like ending it all but who would stop me, why would you want to if you knew my history. We all cant be perfect but some of us damn sure try. I cant be your mother figure, that job is already set aside. Aside for the 2 people in the world that are the ONLY reason why I haven't end this all. The only people I can truly call my own. The only people who look like me, the only pe

My Day.. So Far.
Spent the night at the motel last night, all by myself. Got up and walked 6 miles. Last night my friend steve visited and talked a while and he took some photos for me (and for you guys on Fubar ;) ) and NO we didnt have sex. here is one of the pics he took.. do you think I look sexy?? I think he did a pretty good job. well Catch ya later!

My Likes
i like to take long walks in all sorts of weather.i like the feel of the pounding rain on my skin. i like walking in the woods. i like the feel of soft touches on my skin. i like the feel of a soft breath on the back of my neck. i like the way my body tingles at just the thought of You touching me. i like the thought of me giving You total control over me. i like being tied up and feeling helpless. i like the little shiver of fear i feel when i think of You having complete control over me. i like being blindfolded and not knowing what is coming next. i like how i feel in the morning when i see Your first email or text. i like being tied to the bed, the soft sound of Enigma MCMXC a.D., and the soft glow of candles lighting our room. i like my hair being pulled hard. i like to be bitten. i like to be forced. i like to be tied up and made to obey.

Day 1
Day 1 Probley the hardest day of anyone who sees someone they care about go into the Navy, Army, Airforce.. 8 weeks till he comes back from bootcamp. 8 weeks till I feel like I have a friend again. How long is 8 weeks...too long? Yes that's it...too long.

Need To Make A Road Trip With My Best Friend Soon!!
So I finally am graduating with my Associate's Degree...yea it's only the first step to a much longer road ahead of me to get where I"m going in life, but still...after quitting school so many times,I'm finally happy to be at this point! Since I graduate in a week and a half from today, I decided what better way to celebrate than with an awesome road trip with my best friend, we need to take a vacation!! Where to go...beach even though it should be cold, or to the mountains? I love Tennessee, have family in Alabama, or should I just go to Florida for an out of season beach getaway? Help me decide!!

A Touch Unfelt
How can you ache and crave for someone's touchWhen you have never felt it?I do this for yours, though,And the yearning grows more each dayI have never wanted anything in my lifeAs much as I want youWhen you whisper such sweet loveIn my ear when we talkYou make me melt into a puddleOf complete helplessnessYou have become my every waking thoughtAnd my every dream at nightI breathe in so hardTrying to catch my breath when we can't talkI close my eyes so tightHoping when I open them you will be thereBut I know I have to waitUntil the time is rightIt seems so far awayThat I think I am losing my mindI want to breathe in your scentAnd keep it with me all day longI want to taste your love for meBy kissing your sweet lipsI want to feel your body next to meSo when you leave for awhile I can hold onI just want you to knowThat I really do love youWhen the day comes and we are togetherYou will always know and feel thisI will always hug, kiss and love youEvery moment of the day and nightYou will nev

Excess Baggage - Staind
Well I know the words, but I can't really speak themTo youAnd I hide all the pain that I've gained with my wisdomFrom youAnd I'm eaten alive, by what I hold insideAll the things that I live with I can't easily hideAnd I'm left here with nothing, nothing to live forBut youIt’s not easy to hideAll this damage insideI'll carry you with meUntil I'm not aliveWhen you look at my face, does it seem just as ugly?To you?I can't seem to erase all the scars I have lived withFrom youI'm so sick of this placeThis taste in my mouthCause of you I can't figure what I'm all aboutAnd I'm left here with nothing, nothing to live forBut youIt’s not easy to hideAll this damage insideI'll carry you with me‘Til I'm not alive

Everything Dies - Type O Negative
Everything Dies Well I loved my auntBut she diedAnd my uncle LouThen he diedI'm searching for something which can't be foundBut I'm hopingI still dream of dadThough he diedEverything diesEverything diesMy ma's so sick she might dieThough my girl's quite fit she will dieStill looking for someone who was aroundBarely copingNow I hate myselfWish I'd dieEverything diesEverything diesEverything diesEverything(No why)Oh god I miss you(No why)Oh god I miss youI really miss you(no no no no)Everything diesEverything diesEverything diesEverything

Decked Hall Skid Mark
It is not Depression You are in A bad Mood That may be Insensitive But is hardly Rude Life has parts That hurt Like hell But plenty Of good stuff To cling to As well We never Allow credence Of our weakness We confront it And deliver A fatal shot My people are Warriors Whether they Know it Or not

Love
Hello world how are you me im fine i have found one that can make me feel the way no one has befor she is my love i would be nothing with out here my love for her is strong my love for here is un dieing my love for her is un bindabel my love for her is not changeable Mistress i love you

Hollow Ground.
Once again I've lost my way. Going nowhere fast, I dread the return. Spend my days in this self-made cage. Where my soul can dwell, and my loneliness is thriven far to well. All and none of the answers I've found. Alone I stand on hollow ground. Too many years have passed. Too much blood has been spilt. I realize it's my destiny, my will. Things aren't always what they seem As the scars on my skin will show On hollow ground I stand On hollow ground repent The sins were mine. I'm gone, I know. Dazed and weakened by the haze. Went nowhere fast, I dread the return. I've lost my ways, am I losing my mind? Maybe then my redemtion's there to find.

Do You Wonder
Do you ever wonder what a blog really is? I mean people blog so to say about what's happening to them and what's happening in thier lives. I guess a blog is a good place to put your thoughts down so whoever wants to read can. So I guess I will start mine. I'm the youngest of three kids and always wondered what would have happened if I had took the other road in life. Sometimes I'm glad I didn't but then there's sometimes where I wish I had. Then I think of all these popular girls with thier sexy bodies and mine...will normal I guess. I was so jealous of them. Now it's just a normal thing. You should just live your life as it is and hope for the best. The best family,friends and all that. So I hope somewhere out there I have more friends waiting to find me.

I'll Carry On
I’ll Carry On Maggi Smith 10/16/10 I’m tough, I’m strong. No matter what I’ll carry on. I listen, I advise. For my age I’m fairly wise. I’m always there to help a friend. I’m loyal, protective until the end. I’ve been through hell, more hell than most. I came out stronger, this is my boast. I’ve walked through fire, my feet ablaze, I’ve cheated death in many ways. Don’t disrespect me to my face, I will always put you in your place. I’ll make you cry, I’ll make you mad, I’ll make you see what you’ve done bad. I’ve loved and lost and loved some more. I’ve fought hard for what’s worth fighting for. I’ve given all I had to give. I’ve almost lost the will to live. At times I’ve felt weak but knew I was strong, No matter what I’ll carry on!

Friend Requests...
If you'r going to add me to your friendlist, the following requirements are a prerequisit... 1) You're female and were born that way. 2) You write something in the friend request so I know you're not just looking for people to add and give you points. 3) You're not a member/owner of a lounge I've been banned/ejected from. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- The 3 requirements listed above are the requirements for me to add you. I'm not being conceited or trying to make myself sound cool or whatever else you may try to accuse me of trying to be, I'm just being honest about my preferences. That's all. Bye =)

Help My Lil Girl Reach Her Goal
Heey there My lil girl Needs Help With donations in rasin money for the American Heart Association if youd like to help please click here THANX http://honor.americanheart.org/site/TR/HoopsforHeart/SCA-SouthCentralAffiliate?px=2413713&pg=personal&fr_id=1436 Help Kinleigh Make a Difference! I'm joining millions of others to help save lives with the American Heart Association's Hoops For Heart Program! I'm doing Hoops For Heart at my school and learning how I can help make a difference by raising lifesaving donations to help kids with heart disease. I'm also learning about my own heart, and how to keep it healthy. And I'm getting active playing basketball! I'm excited about raising money for other kids - kids with hearts that don't exactly work right and to help fund new medicines and treatments to be discovered. Please help me make a difference! Thank you!

Burning Attractions
Burning Attractions When you look into my heart Tell me What do you see Am I just a shadow from your light A fluttering flame Turned to smoke by your glance Tell me Why do I flicker People ask of me Why do you seek the light Am I a moth That I cannot fly my own way Do I posses the strength To carry me away

Hanging
The oaks stand strong against the winds and the beeches hold through the cold, but the maples falter. Amongst them, gold and crimson are carried away, in flocks, like black birds grouping before the migration. The air is stained red from their gathering. The floor a crimson blanket, huddled together they stay until time brings them to their fate and the calm returns. Yet in the distance movement appears. A flicker in the breeze and all alone. Clinging to the limbs and hanging in the light of the horizon. Blinding, the morning dew adorns it. A dark shadow by itself in the sunset. Tenaciously it hangs on to its source. Waiting for spring when the new buds will open and crowd. The small groups of beeches will whisper. The oaks will quietly watch and the green will consume. Possibly a gentle drift to the ground where the sun warms or blown to be carried away by torrents. Beautifully hanging and waiting.

Robert Chrisley | The Keeper
Robert Chrisley | ÄRÇ ÄÑGΣL ÇRØWΣ "The Keeper" The Third Ai Starving Artisan | World Crafter 2010 Consequence Fumbling towards what I Believe is Evidence A crumbling society and Preconceived By the evils of no consciousness Allowed to be All because they Tube stun-gun us Take away this pain and misery Not mine or yours but theirs to keep Choking zombies of conformity Killing the Illuminati demon seed This how; this is how we Pray Our Souls to keep Bullet magazine Loaded into cold, black metal, but Fast asleep Flower children picking pedals Like slaves without chains Fucked Eloi prepped for Morlock eugenics Take away these broken pleas from me Bullet the Rothschild masonic spree Revolution to crush their anarchy Don't you fucking dare tread on me This is how; this is how we Pray His cup of wrath down on thee I don't need, no, I don't need your Sandman I'm awake, yeah, I'm awake And part of The Master's plan To blind the cap sto

Robert Chrisley "saigon Shangri~la"
ROBERT CHRISLEY|ÄRÇ ÄÑGΣL ÇRØWΣ "Saigon Shangri-la" Raven's Lament Starving Artisan 2009 Oh, how I am overcome Skin as gold as the sun Oh, how I am overwhelmed Your Jade Garden blossoms Eden's river run Worlds forgotten beneath your Far East Star Comparison obsolete to the Goddess on thy knees you are Sands of time flee when I'm within your angel wings Entwined F.or U.nlawful C.arnal K. nowledge of your Vine ANH YEU EM; ANH YEU EM One taste; one kiss of you, my Shanghai Valentine I am mortal under my Asian Sky Madonna One touch; reason flees as my soul renders itself sold For you, my Saigon Shangri-la Oh, Desire courses through my veins To strike my bow across your sweet Violin And as you sing erotic suggestion upon unworldy chords Your Siren Song is the Saphiric Mantra that births your Holy Temple within ANH MUON EM; ANH MUON EM S

Robert Chrisley: "the Reason"
ROBERT CHRISLEY "The Reason" The Season Empire 1994 Twas the night before Christmas when all through the shed Not a creature was stirring except the Babe in the straw bed An Angel appeared to shepherds afar The King of Kings was Born under the Eastern Star And all of Heaven's Angels begin to sing He is the One; The Newborn King Joy to the world The Savior is Born Soon He'll wear a crown of thorns But on the third day The stone will roll away He has Won; He has Won He has Won; God's only begotten Son You are the reason I'm Born again You are the reason I'm free from sin You are the reason for the season You are the reason............ e s t a r r | f o u r | r i n g | f i v e ©MCMXCIV 1994 Chrisley Music® (ASCAP) 1994 Imperial Alliance Corporation® ARC® Original additional music and lyrics by Chrisley Referenced "Twas The Night Before Christmas" and "Joy To The World" used with permission. Unauthorized use prohibited.

My Very First Song At Age Six.....my Own Words Come Back To Haunt Me
Joel 2:1 Blow ye the trumpet in Zion, and sound an alarm in my holy mountain: let all the inhabitants of the land tremble: for the day of the LORD cometh, for it is nigh at hand; ROBERT CHRISLEY "Set The Trumpet" Under The Watchtower Empire | Starving Artisan 1987 Dropping out of school Smokin up a joint No respect for authority Tryin to make a point Gettin high with friends Party with the world Aftermath hangovers Got you in a whirl Guys and gals sending out charms Next thing you know, there's a baby in their arms Or committing crimes with the abortion machine The picture coulda been a different scene Jesus needed to be in the situation Eyes on the Creator and not His creation Set the trumpet to thy mouth All harken to the sound Like an Eagle souring over storms When the trumpet sounds be ready for war! Trusting in crystals for your salvation Avoiding the Lord's humble invitation Sacrifice for blood here and there Conjuring up demon forces e

The Deeper Vileness - Dir En Grey
I have fun listening to your lies...I shout out joy and you shout for helpFuck! I hate you!Dear God, You're a MOTHERFUCKERDeath for All - Death for AllI'm your worst nightmare,Fuck off!I wanna die!I don't even think of you as my friendI don't even think of you as my friendYou deceived me and sold me outTake off that mask of rectitude!Pretender that hurts one's eyes, voice that jars on one's earFuck 'em all without a careFake rock wannables...just dieI don't even think of you as my friendI don't even think of you as my friendThe maze, it's so coldI'll die in a world of lies and deceitsBy tomorrow I'll be in despairIt was destinedI have fun listening to your lies...I shout out joy and you shout for helpFuck!I hate you!Dear God, You're a MOTHERFUCKERDeath for All - Death for AllI'm your worst nightmare,Fuck off!I wanna die!I don't even think of you as my friendI don't even think of you as my friendThe maze, it's so coldI'll die in a world of lies and deceitsI'll die in a world of lies and

I Am Asphyxia Monroe.
No I'm not a complete bondage freak. And being choked out isn't a preference or favorite past time. In fact I like making love, real love. Not the freak kind of love. But I am not going into specifics about my sex life. This is more of an explanation of why I go by Asphyxia. Here is the definition. as·phyx·i·a /æsˈfɪksiə/ Show Spelled[as-fik-see-uh] Show IPA –noun Pathology . the extreme condition caused by lack of oxygen and excess of carbon dioxide in

Ss
sb code Welcome To Fubar Just Stopping By Your SB To Invite You To The Newest Country Lounge Called Southern Nights Where We Play The Hottest Country Music Both Old & New Swing By And Give Us A Listen Hope To See You There http://www.fubar.com/lounge/76863 ~*~Southern Nights~*~ Live Music & DJ’s We Play A Variety Of Country Hits & Also Take Requests The Most Friendliest Staff You'll Ever Meet ~Totally Drama Free~ Just Copy N Paste The Link In Your Browser And There You Shall Be http://www.fubar.com/lounge/76863 So Go Ahead Come On And Have A (d) Or 10 (b) ~We Are Hiring All Positions~ ~So Stop On By N Give Us A Listen~ ~*~Hope To See You There~*~ profile

I Cant Wait Til Tomorrow... This Song Says It All!! - Why Is Life To Fxxxing Complex!
Babee - you introduced me to their music, and my god!!! how appropriate is this song to me. Everytime I see your face My heart takes off on a high speed chase Now don't be scared, it's only love Baby, that we're falling in I can't wait to tomorrow This feeling has swallowed me whole And know that I've lost control This heart that I've followed Has left me so hollow That was then, this is now, yeah you have changed everything Everytime I see your face My heart takes off on a high speed chase Now don't be scared, it's only love That we're falling in I would never do you wrong Or let you down or lead you on Don't look down, it's only love Baby, that we're falling in I'm standing in your driveway It's midnight and I'm sideways To find out if you feel the same Won't be easy, have my doubts too But it's over, without you I'm just lost, incomplete Yeah you feel like home, home to me Everytime I see your face My heart takes off on a high speed chase Now don't

Battling My Own Demons
I’m not proud of the person I have become. I look in the mirror and see myself, but on the inside I’m not that same person I seem to be looking at. I’ve become someone I can’t stand to be around. Jealous and insecure, two things I have always hated about others. I have managed to push those who care away. I’m going to change, that is a promise I have made to myself. I’ve been thinking to myself maybe blogging is the way to go… Not necessarily for others to read, but for myself. I want to get myself back. The person I know I once was: Happy, secure, confident, and independent. I’ve noticed that I have been this person who expects way too much of some people. I expect them to know how I am feeling without letting them know. I have put pressure of the people I love the most; making them feel like they can no longer come to me with anything. I’m trying to find my way home, not just for me, but for them. Someone once told me that

My Stories
so i was thinking about it and i just might start posting some stories i wrote on here in a blog for those who enjoy reading if you have any type of story you like (horror,scifi,action, ect.) let me know i might just come up with something pretty fuckin fantastical :D

Broken Pieces
a heart beats inside that a certain person tries to find...but nothing is there....nothing but broken pieces and scars are left to share....how can you tell if something is real we all need something to lean against....don't bother attaching the pieces....they will be back together one day

Warning!!!!!
Everyone be warned there is a pro stalker and fake on fubar she is the owner of naughty playground and is posing as a 26 year old blonde but she is really 65 she says she is a teacher but in fact she is a lunch lady she says her name is Ashley but in fact her name is Debora she steals pics from other members on fu posing as herself which it is not she has taking girls at her school to take pics to pose as herself and has been investigated by the law her in the United States and in England Be WARNED she is a pro con and has to be stopped don't be fooled her and the naughty play ground lounge is full of her cons she has several accounts as cutie and as love ....YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED!!!

Hot X Love
Walk on over to me baby come and hold me tight, Push me up against the wall make me shiver in delight..Feel your breath hot on my neck as your hand runs up my thigh, Your rock hard cock pushes against me as I say your name with a sigh..Feel my nipples getting oh so hard as you whisper in my ear, Feel my pussy getting oh so wet as you tell me what I like to hear..Rip our clothes off body to body, against each other so tight..Pick me up throw me on the bed rock me all thru the night..Kiss you deep run my tongue all across your lips..Feel the heat from my pussy as I grind against you with my hips..Run your tongue across my nipples begin to suck and bite.. Hear me moan your name out loud baby take me thru the night..Move on down with your tongue as I place my legs over your back..Grab my hips taste my sweetness running from my pussy to my crack..Drive me crazy let me come all over your tongue and lips..Grab your head with both my hands begin to roll my hips.. Arch my back as you pull me cl

Dreams
Wind blowing across the hills so green, In my dreams, I am with my love, a soft wind blows across me as I stand upon the hills.. I walk thru the gardens of many flowers, stopping to admire the rich colors that are ablaze with the setting sun. Walking up into the castle, I feel the coolness of the stone floor beneath my bare feet as I walk through the home that I so love. Seeing my love at the top of the stairs, he takes my hand as he leads me to our large bed, while many candles light up the evening dusk that falls down upon us.. Much passion envelops us as we wrap ourselves tightly against each other, and i feel the warmth of his chest as i lay my head down upon it. My heart and soul is filled with much desire as I breathe in the scent of him..Always will I long for him, Always will I dream of the highlands, Always will I love him...

Article V: Amendment Notes
The Constitution of the United States Article V - Amendment Note1 - Note2 - Note3 The Congress, whenever two thirds of both Houses shall deem it necessary, shall propose Amendments to this Constitution, or, on the Application of the Legislatures of two thirds of the several States, shall call a Convention for proposing Amendments, which, in either Case, shall be valid to all Intents and Purposes, as part of this Constitution, when ratified by the Legislatures of three fourths of the several States, or by Conventions in three fourths thereof, as the one or the other Mode of Ratification may be proposed by the Congress; Provided that no Amendment which may be made prior to the Year One thousand eight hundred and eight shall in any Manner affect the first and fourth Clauses in the Ninth Section of the first Article; and that no State, without its Consent, shall be deprived of its equal Suffrage in the Senate.

The Life Philosophy Of King David
Compliments of THE GREAT PURSUIT: The Message for Those In Search of God, by Eugene H. Peterson and Randall Niles (NavPress 2007). Life of King David – The Philosopher Many remember David as the fair-haired shepherd boy who defeated a giant named Goliath. Others recall David as the wise Jewish ruler who brought the tribes of Israel together as a united nation. The ancient texts also present David as a powerful warrior, cunning diplomat, and talented musician. However, with all these tremendous accolades, the foundation of David’s fame and faith can be traced to a period of severe trial and doubting in his life. Indeed, David was a true philosopher. Early in his journey, David was chosen to succeed Saul as the king of Judah. Although Saul was initially impressed by David’s skills as a soldier, politician, and musician, Saul became wary of his successor, so he put out a contract on David’s life. David was forced to live on the run, often spending weeks hidi

When I Look At U
Everybody needs insperation,and everybody needs a song,when the night are always long,cuz there is no gerintee that this life is at all easy. and when my world is fallen apart.and theres no light to brake up the dark.thats when i look at u.and when the the aves r flooding the shore,and i cant find my way home anymore,thats when i look at u. when i look at u i see forgiveness,i see the truth,you love me for who i am,like the stars hold the moon,right there were they belong,and i know im not alone,when i look at u.u sometimes feel like A DREAM TO ME THATS WHY I ALWAYS TOUCH U. thats why i look at u. Marryjane cain luvs nick1982 4 ever

What We Need
Our love needs no words, but so many words we say each day Just a reminder that in our hearts, our love will forever stay With our words we do convey, about a love so lucky that we share About a love we call special, a love that follows us everywhere Our love needs no actions, but each day our actions say so much About the way our love has grown, the way we crave each other's touch With our actions so much we show, about a love so blessed to know About a love so honest and real, a love we will never let go Our love needs no questions, but so many answers we both found Answers to a wish of long ago, to find a love to make our hearts pound With our answers so much we did learn, a lesson to never forget About a love that turned our life around, a love so happy we met Our love needs no finish, but in many ways our love has yet to start For we find ourselves all alone, so many miles that keep us apart With our start so many years ago, such a tiny seed now so grown About a love so incred

Gettin' Squirrelly
Sometimes you feel like a nut, sometimes you don't. Around here the squirrels can often be fairly entertaining. I have a bird feeder that hangs on the front porch so we can watch the birds. A lot of times however, I get to watch the acrobatics of the local squirrels as they raid the feeders too. These are red squirrels and not the grey ones I used to hunt as a boy. These look too scrawny to eat.... probably take a whole bunch of them to make a decent pot of stew. But they're fun to watch. We have to be careful of what we leave outside. Sometimes when I'm out splitting firewood or working around the farm, I will bring me a snack. I'll sit on a treestump or log and take a break. If I turn my back for even an instant the food disappears. In this case I discovered that squirrels like ice cream cones. Sometimes they'll steal the bread off the top of my sandwiches. Crackers or tater chips disappear too. Danged little crumb snatchers.

As Moments End
It's 24:49 as sitting watching the the vintage clock sitting across on a neatly arranged shelf of my son and daughter-in-laws home. I remember the hour well 2 years back as Madison (my grand-daughter) was about to arrive as laying on a cot shared by son and his mother-in law Patty in the recliner waiting. That very moment she came and my heart burst with joy at the site of her. Tonight she lays so still compared to the hours before. I watch her so precious and innocent and keep her near. Trauma to mommy and daddy, confusion and fear had her small being still trembling. A tear falls as I look above thanking God for his mercy of her life. On their life....a driver under the influence of alcohol and drugs could have taking them away. Still an unborn life is clinging to survive the next moments end.

Wtf Is Wrong With People?
This is just a rant: WTF is wrong with people at work that refuse to flush the damn toilets? I swear it's like they act like they're paying the 'effing water bill. FLUSH THE F*CKING THING!!! Really? How old are you now? End rant.

Handsome
I dont think its fair that some people are born more attractive physically than others. I myself have been blessed with great looks but i feel bad for less attractive people than myself. You can't fix it either. I don't look at physical beauty as the most important thing but it has become so in todays society. Im just glad that im not ugly and that either way im fine.(sarcasm)

Advice?..
i dont know what to do with myself anymore. i have a good job, and stable living situation. but i never get to keep the write person. i'm bisexual, so i like either women or men, but i need a strong person in my life who can fulfill all my passions. i love sexxiness and being sexxi and i wish i could further expand my circle..

Loneliness As A Starseed - Ashtar Command - Spiritual Community Network
Special note: Personally I seem to only see the love that my spirit friends, E.T. friends, elemental friends, Divine Beings, and nature (animals, trees, oceans etc. etc.) show me. I can't seem to believe that another human being could possible like me much less love me. Loneliness as a Starseed - Ashtar Command - Spiritual Community Network"anyone else experiencing intense loneliness no matter how many people you have around that love and care for you? i have family, a husband and a child and i cannot seem to shake that lonely feeling."For the full article visit: http://www.ashtarcommandcrew.net/forum/topics/loneliness-as-a-starseed

Vision East Coast-nov 29, 2010 Of Crys
this is a vision my friend had last year. I am forwarding it to you and as he says go within and see what direction each is to take. Date Dec 13, 2010 With all due respect I share this strange but seemingly important vision with youI feel that I should let you know about this matter. I am not certain altogether of its meaning but I am knowing that it is important enough to share with many- especially who are on or near the eastern coastal areas. I should say that the date that was presented in this vision of Dec 21st of 2010 did not necessarily mean to me that the crisis would hit on that date. I am just not certain as to why this very date was given in this vision. But it was. I feel that you and all others with whom this is shared will know as much if not more about this as I do. Peace and love, Crys Just this morning I felt it was time to print the vision out at least in its main parts and then share it via email with certain ones in the east

Leaving
I just want to let you all know that in 5 days, when my current ownership expires, I'll be permanently deleting my account. This isn't a 'cry me a river' blog or a call for attention. No one hurt my feelerz or made me butthurt. I need to move on and get some things done. Life has, once again, gotten so busy around me. Opportunities have come to me and I really need to focus on work, family, and volunteering. With Fubar as an option, I do very little writing, creating, communicating, organizing, and other STUFF. So I'll be getting rid of the distraction. Life will be different without all of you to run to when I'm bored! Send me a message if you want to keep in touch in the real world and I'll exchange emails if that seems like the right thing to do. God bless all of you! Lisa Ann

Gold!
My husband just called me from the ranch. He found a Glory Hole in the river and is pulling out a lot of gold right now. Oh, I wish I was with him right now! Dang. I had to come home to be within am hour of home for jury duty. Jury duty was canceled so I could turn around and head up there NOW but....grr! I JUST came home last night.

Love Is
Love is imeasurable , its bigger than the universe, yet can fit inside your heart.Love is unstopable, it can overcome any obstacleLove is always willing to forgive, no matter the circumstanceLove is tirelessLove is the essence of 2 people.Love is one, love is all, love is not singularLove is a gift from God, God gave me the gift off your love. I cherish that gift, I cannot think of life without that gift.

Why!
Why do I allow myself to let guys get close to me!??? All they do is hurt you over and over again... I dunno what I do to deserve such treatment! Its starts off so well and then I hear nothing from them at all. What do I do wrong? is there something WRONG with ME! I think I'am done for a while. And you ask me why I have major trust issue's! I don't think I'll ever let another guy get too close to me ever again. I'am just gunna stay away from men I think I'am done. I have been left to cry here too many major times this MONTH! this Year alone.BYEEEE

P. Niss Vs V. Gina
I, the Penis, hereby request a raise in salary for the following reasons:I do physical labor. I work at great depths. I plunge headfirst into everything I do. I do not get weekends or public holidays off. I work in a damp environment. I work in a dark workplace that has poor ventilation. I work in high temperatures. My work exposes me to contagious diseases. Sincerely,P. Niss **The Response** Dear Penis:After assessing your request, and considering the arguments you have raised, the administration rejects your request for the following reasons:You do not work 8 hours straight. You fall asleep after brief work periods. You do not always follow the orders of the management team. You do not stay in your designated area and are often seen visiting other locations. You do not take initiative - you need to be pressured and stimulated in order to start working. You leave the workplace rather messy at the end of your shift. You don't always observe necessary safety regulations, such as weari

Miracle Of Mother Nature!
Let it rain, Let it Fucking storm, Sit's on the dock of the bay watching the show, Upon the fast paced passing spectacle before his eye's, Neon blue skie's break slowly through, Bursting overhead an Auora of colour's envelop his soul, A multitude of fiery colour's spread like autumn leave's, Dancing delicately like Angel's ahead, Wipe's a Tear drop gentlyy from his eye at the beauty, River's flow so very slow, Hitting the rock's, Nature weave's it's web into my Soul & heart, Let's the depression slip gently away, Into the water, Watche's flower's bloom on new greener pasture's, That may come his way!

This Chili Is Sooo Dope!!!
I stopped in my favorite pretzel joint in town; their chili was highly recommended. I had it with just a lil bit of chedder and a lil bit of onions. I didnt want to mask the flavor with anything else....and WOW! AMAZING! It was like extacy in a bowl! Totally awesome! It wasn't too soupy or too mushy, just the right consistancy. It didn't have too many beans or too much meat, but just the right proportins of both. It was a lil spicy and a lil sweet, which was PERFECT! Hit the nail right on the head! And it wasnt like a baby serving either, it filled me up almost til "Coma Time," it was beastmode! It was so good I felt euphoric while eating it and watch the "Mighty Ducks" crush the caps. lol. I've been watching them play since they were lil. haha

5 Ways To Raise A Happy Child.
I thought that this article was pretty interesting & thought Id share it~ 5 ways to raise a happy child. Providing our children with short bursts of ecstasy is easy – simply hand over a chocolate bar or the latest must-have toy. But eventually, that joy bubble pops. The chocolate is eaten, the toy becomes not so cool, boredom ensues. And then we realize that true happiness – the ability to maintain a love of life, to weather challenges with grace, to feel good about one's own essential being – can seem as elusive as a 3-year-old's mid-afternoon nap. How can we help our children achieve genuine happiness? According to BabyCenter, the answer lies in helping them build up their inner resources. Here, five ways to do just that. Make time for free play You've heard it before: Free play – that is, unstructured time for a child to use his imagination without a coach or teacher breathing down his neck – is in

Cold
Woke up to the coldness this morning and felt like I hadn't slept, even though I don't remember being awake, I am not sure I remember being asleep. I am not sure my mind allowed sleep to come. But how I can I explain the 8 hours of unconsciousness? I even laid down to rest and still felt the heavy cold blanket surround me.

Going Fufree On Facebook
HowTo Fu: Blocking Fu From Posting Everything You Do To Facebook What? This is a quick HowTo Fu for those not adept at managing their Facebook permissions but who nevertheless wish that Fubar wouldn't constantly takeover their feeds with news items. This quick fix will stop fubar from posting to your facebook feed with all of those FuMafia Ranks and Fubar Level Updates and all of the other crap that it seems to think your friends want to hear (they don't). Why? I know that I, like I'm sure many of you, discovered Fubar when we started seeing a constant stream of messages from Fu appear on one of our friend's Facebook Feeds. It was a good to find Fu, but now its getting a little annoying, right? I mean to say that after a certain point the constant stream of messages Fubar posts to each of our Facebook Feeds is not really good advertising for us. If we want to invite our friends to Fubar - we will. Constantly posting to our feeds just makes it LESS LIKELY THAT THEY WILL - because

Miles Away
Tho your many miles away I can still feel you in my dreams is where we meet and for now that will have to do and when I hear your voice my heart longs for you for your touch, for your kiss, for a glimpse of that sparkle in your eye Tho your many miles away I can still feel you in my dreams is where we meet and for now that will have to do and when I see your face my heart skips a beat for your touch, for your kiss, for a glimpse of that sparkle in your eye

A Very Naughty Thanksgiving, Nickolas Style!
Nickolas was having Thanksgiving brought in this year, sweetness deserved some pampering. Sheri had been extra good, and Nickolas loved to reward. The House, Dungeon , and garage were all cleaned and spiffy, so Nickolas sat inside, in his big chair, and waited for the delivery. Sheri busied herself, curling her hair, and making sure kitty was smooth as southern whiskey. Her nipple piercings were almost totally healed, and she was sure Nickolas would test them tonight. After all, it WAS a Holiday! The doorbell rang, and Nickolas jumped up, wiping a little sleep out of his eyes. A nap sure did him good! There were 4 delivery people, bringing in plateload after plateload, pans filled with dressing and gravies. Nickolas maybe had overdid it...just a little...but He always ate well in the Holidays. He wanted Sheri to eat well also. The turkey was at least a 22 pounder, with mashed taters, corn, carrots, and sweet potatoes...or yams...both the same thing, Nickolas always thought. A

Nothing For Christmas
I don't want anything for Christmas. I do have a few wishes though. What I'm about to say will probably piss a few of you off. Make others think, which is probably a good thing. For the rest of you, stop reading now. This day isnt about you and what you got for Christmas. This day isnt about how much shit you were about to buy before your credit card is maxed out. This day isnt about large amounts of food you were able consume in one sitting and go back for 2nds and 3rds. Oh and then bitch about the "holiday weight gain" please..get the fuck over yourself. This day isnt about some internet popular party..."who can I impress today, who will be jealous of me today" believe me when I say this..after you cut the computer off..you are nothing more than a waste of space. ~~~~~Now..on to the nicer side of why I decided to write this in the first place~~~~~ I simply want to say Happy Birthday Jesus. You have always been there when I needed a lift up. You told me a long time ago that I

Its Him
It doesn't matter how many times I try to pull away, feel nothing, hate you even. I come back. It doesn't matter how many times I try to get you out of my head because I don't want to think about you anymore, I come back. It doesnt matter how many times I tell you to fuck off because your an asshole. My heart cries because I want you back. No one could ever be you. No one could ever come close to comparing to you. As I sit here, I think to myself, what is it about you that has me so damn strung out? Why has it been 2 years and I still cant mentally get it right with you? The mere presence of you makes me melt. Ive told you to go away, come back, stay, leave, try again, we're done...but I crave you. I feel like I'm going crazy, with or without you. You are my personal drug and the poison in my veins. But its you, always has been, always will be......just you. I'm cross between heart broke and happy because of you. But I love you.

So Now We All Rejoice (a Poem)
So Now We All Rejoice by Poet93 So now we all rejoice Heaven singing and the choir sinning the bells of time wandering rhyme sky glances in apple rose moments crushed the song in blissful satiation some godly moment but no religion here fall on your knees but the god laughs solitary is the road that emerges your last smile the bread has finally risen yea though I sing in the absence of god my apple my apple above and beyond the bread is my clarity with you on your knees rejoice in solitude and believe in me.

Sb Tomfoolery
was mucking about with a friend of mine while up late one night not feeling great raging fever but yet i still managed to smile and laugh .. the conversation went a lil like this... Me: i have a fever want to rub ice on me? Friend: ill rub ice on you alright ;) Me: i have a girly boner now... thanks... roflmao Friend: let me suck on it 4 u ;) Me: your ever so charming lmao Friend: lmao

Bone Rider - 654
Rockin'-n-rollin' with you is the best, we have been together fifteen minutes and we're already undressed. Can't hold back, we need eachother so much, its easier to sleep at night with your touch. Gaining altitude, why ever calm down, excitement rulz, use to be said alls the same but everyone has different tools. A climax is an understatement that means, the last few movements are so great its like the sun desending in beams. The cock nice and wet between two lips, feels good even if it isn't between the hips. A vagina is a many kind of holder, only one or two matter between the knees and the shoulder. To fully fill this job you need an understood word, need to make sure every plead is felt and heard. Move into position to commit the deed, it isn't a sin unless one of you bleed. Course sitting on top gives both bodies joy, it just is less work and more fun for the boy. A ready and willing bone rider, needs to be the lover and not the fighter.

Erotic Nothingness
Nothing can take away fromwhat we hold as amplifiedwritten in the sanguine inkedthat I can still taste on my tongue,To have swallowed of your essenceas you have swallowed of mineunfurling the petaled hymenbleeding the white in higher virtue,We escape this frugal worldwhen you enter me in wild abandonin a hazy mist of the carnalthat pulls me deeply into you,Frozen in the momentwe become one in the frenziedthen slip into the abyssof erotic nothingnessnever looking backwith a trace of regret.

Done (post Could Not Be Found)
Hell is a fingertip trapped between my lips.Like a buttefly crushed on a vagrant cigarette butt.I forgot the real. Under some blur of flesh and scintillation.Foreign but familiar. Fragrant and coy.Lingering laps of dreams and visions.There I was, happy.If only for a moment in the poppies, on damp pillowsand sweaty, itchy sheets of linen.The gentle pull of teeth and bare skin.The hold.The swirl.The fade.And the flatly alert cigarette after.Sore spots. Pops and swells.Wet messes and lumpy puddles.But for one brief victorious momentvalidated.There.And of some minute use.

The Land Of Beauty Bestowed With Peace And Religion Blended With The Sophisticated Modern World
Enchanted temples resonating with the chanting of monks, the lush green tropical forests brimming with life, picturesque beaches giving way to the mighty seas, the vast paddy fields with small simple villages tending to it and the contrasting fast moving city life, colorful lights lighting up the night, people in discos and pubs with wide smiles. Thailand has two contrasting sides to it just like the white elephants have tusks to show and another set of teeth within to chew. With Thailand Tour Packages experience all that this enigmatic land of the white elephants has to offer. On one hand enjoy the fast moving city life that comes alive in the night with all its flashy coloured lights and one the other enjoy the calm, serene and sanctified peacefulness of the temples and forests. A honeymoon holiday to Thailand opens up numerous possibilities of striking the flames of romance and fill vigor into a couple. With the beauty of the spectacular beaches and the freshness of

Hurt
I know every ones heart gets broken,but wish it away,You hold her love as a token,Often dreading the new day,Passing by your angel, leads to a hole in your heart,from when you were together, then quickly fell apart,You look to the stars for an answer, the answer is never clear,maybe it was for the best, so often you have to hear,some questions never get answered, silently folded and stashed,like two cars all bent, broken, and crashed,crazy as it may be, its always hard to let go,Only holding onto, the memories you know,The first is always perfect,till it comes to an end,Then no one compares to her, you cant even be friends,She has no sympathy for the wounded,you have fallen to the ground,You try to call to her, but no voice can be found,She walks away slowly, she wants you to watch her walk away,only you remember what you both had to say,reaching through your chest and grabs your soul,Rips it out without mercy, and sticks it in the coal,Burning the remains of what you had for her,Only

Never Click Her Links!!!!
Hellyion: fubar.com... 2:55pm Suga Lips: FUCK YOU! 2:56pm Hellyion: I love you too princess 2:57pm Suga Lips: No you don't, liar! 2:58pm Hellyion: (h0 2:58pm Hellyion: ooops 2:59pm Suga Lips: Your failed emote speaks volumes. 3:00pm Hellyion: