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A Racist Maddie Hater
my friend the bag lady sent me this in IM I think this has to be the worst I have heard of yet .... I don't believe some people this one is a real jerk I asked him nice why a one rate n basically its because Maddie is a white girl even when I pointed out I'd support any family pink black grey or purple he still wouldn't rerate I am so cross people can think like this. I went n got the link here it is home_247@ CherryTAP

What Cartoon Character Do You Most Resemble?
Which cartoon character do you most resemble?SnoopyYou are Snoopy: You are fun, you are very cool and popular. You always know what's in and you are never are out of style You are good at knowing how to satisfy everyone else. You have probably disappeared for a few days more than once but you always come home with the family values that you learned Being married and having children are important to you, but only after you have had your share of fun times How do you compare? Take this test! | Tests from Testriffic

Walking A Lane Of Unfullfilled Dreams.
I cling to every scenic moment in my life. The lustruous glow of day, the haze of a foggy night, the ethereal glow of twilight. I become lost in ancient beauty long forgotten in the bustle of city life, fast cars, and unfullfilled dreams. Where has my thrive for life and excitement gone? Have I become so trapped within this motherly course that I cannot tear away from it to find myself? There is an opportunity out there that I must grasp in order to completely find myself again. I just need to go out and find it.

The 2008 Presidential Election
Click Here to Visit the Mike Gravel 2008 Official Site Full name: Maurice Robert Gravel. Family: Wife Whitney Stewart Gravel. Two children, four grandchildren. Education: B.S. in economics, Columbia University, 1956. Career highlights: U.S. Army, 1951-4, special adjutant, Communication Intelligence Services, special agent, Counter Intelligence Corps; Alaska state representative, 1962-6, Speaker, 1965-6; author, Jobs and More Jobs, 1968; Senator from Alaska, 1969-81, served on Senate Finance, Interior and Environmental and Public Works Committees; author, Citizen Power: A People's Platform, 1972; author, speaker, 1981-present; founder of nonprofit corporations the Democracy Foundation, Philadelphia II and Direct Democracy, advocating the National Initiative for Democracy, a national public initiative process. Political pluses and minuses: Gravel '08 falls under the category of most of the Harold Stassen campaigns, or Gene McCarthy '92: a quixotic campaign by

Violence
More people find themselves locked by cops for minor crimes. There's a long way from the patrol car to the cell and a lot of things can and will happen. when the eyes of others than the police froce are kepy closed. We must react against the police states we're all part of !!!

Scorpions "still Loving You"
Still Loving You Lyrics Artist(Band): Scorpions Music: Rudolf Schenker Lyrics: Klaus Meine Time, it needs time To win back your love again I will be there, I will be there Love, only love Can bring back your love someday I will be there, I will be there I'll fight, babe, I'll fight To win back your love again I will be there, I will be there Love, only love Can break down the wall someday I will be there, I will be there If we'd go again All the way from the start I would try to change The things that killed our love Your pride has built a wall, so strong That I can't get through Is there really no chance To start once again I'm loving you Try, baby try To trust in my love again I will be there, I will be there Love, our love Just shouldn't be thrown away I will be there, I will be there If we'd go again All the way from the start I would try to change The things that killed our love Your pride has built a wall, so strong That I can't get

Rules Regarding Maintenance Discipline
MAINTENANCE DISCIPLINE HAS CHANGED BECAUSE OUR LIVES HAVE CHANGED. THIS IS SUBJECT TO CHANGING SITUATIONS AS THEY OCCUR. Maintenance discipline must be asked for any time our child will be away from our presence for at least 1/2 hour, including any time we will be in public. Failure to ask for discipline will result in punishment after discipline is administered. If possible, if discipline is asked for while in public a secluded area will be found and discipline will be administered. Maintenance discipline is administered at HOH discretion in severity, length, where and when, etc, however; HOH will keep in mind limitations in public settings where children might see or someone may report activities to law enforcement. Questioning discipline will result in punishment. I must thank HOH for discipline immediately afterwards. Failure to thank will result in lengthening the discipline.

While I'm Thinking About It...
This place (CT) is a lot of fun, but not so much that I can't do without it. a couple of things around here, call them CT cultural dynamics, are really starting to bother me and I'm wondering if the fellowship with some I have come to enjoy is worth the hassle of the rest. maybe it is, maybe not, I dunno... but i'm thinking about it... I'm never one to take the easy way out just because it's 'easy'... but again, I'm thinking about it...

My Wedding Song:)
I DEDICATE THIS SONG TO MY HUSBAND MASTER CHEVYMAN....IT'S OUR WEDDING SONG BABY BOY I LOVE YOU SO MUCH...LOVE YOUR WIFE MISTRESS REENI..KISSES I HOPE YOU SEE THIS MASTER CHEVYMANN I'M HONORED TO BE YOUR WIFE. I LOVE U SO DEEPLY...

Another Old Peom Untittled
The taste of blood fills my mouth, Your life essense flows over my lips and into my mouth, The small insencen apon your skin, As I lick the blood that is pooring from your wound, I stick the blade into my self and I guide your lips to my skin, The taste of blood fuels the wolf in me and the animal insticts take over my body, No longer do I have control over my body or my actions only pure animal instincts I ravge your body, My lips all over your my tounge tasting every inch of your skin my body covering your body, The wolf is incontroll of me as you lay there in ectasy, you can only help to think is this realty or some kind of fantasy, Then you relize it's both neither one is real or false, You say you love this feeling and that you love me and you know your words are true and not false, You tell me you want me and never want me to let you go, But you still wonder if what we are doing is right but you no longer care all you want is for this night to stay forever and n

Sorry
You say you’re sorry To her starry lit eyes Underneath the blue, blue skies You say you’re sorry But sorry doesn’t help No matter what you do It will all come back to you The happy The sad The fun The bad You say you’re sorry But she still cries For she knows she won’t be able to look into your eyes You say you’re sorry But sorry won’t cure a broken heart You’ll still be friends if she agrees But she doesn’t want to She won’t be able to handle it She says she’s sorry It doesn’t help You’ll miss her and you know that But you move on And take whatever life gives You think you’ll never forget that bad night You’re both sorry But you won’t see each other the way you use to You’ll be sorry for the rest of your life But life moves on And you forget Until one day when you meet again You’ll be happy, you both will Then you say those two words The same words that got you into this mess “I’m sorry” This time it’s different though You can’t let each other be

24 May 2006
Dear Alexa, Here is your single's love horoscope for Thursday, May 24: That feeling that you're forgetting something is only natural, given how busy life is. The paradox is that you'll have to fit in yet more activity -- meditation, exercise, whatever centers you -- to uncover its source.

Birthdays
Well, my Sweet Mom died March 11 this year, and today would have been her 76th Birthday. She now is no longer burdened with worrying about her 3 daughters and one son and hubby with Alzheimers. She can finally have peace and no more pain that she has suffered for the last 20 years. So very many times I almost called her to let her know about what is happening around here, she loved it out here where I live in the country. She would have adored this tiny baby that currently resides here named Bambi. But, she knows all this already, and now can have a few laughs as she watches this crazy house!!( a 10 pound dog that thinks she is the deers' Mommy ) Please, all of you that still are Blessed with your Mom's still alive. NEVER ever take them for Granted! They will not be here forever!

Blue
THE EYES BLUE LIKE WATER SADDEND BECAUSE THE RAIN IS FALLING THIS LITTLE GIRL IS LOCK AWAY NEVER GOING TO BE SET FREE THE DEMON THAT HAUNT HER WHISPER HER SINS TO ME I TRY TO SCREAM TO EXPLAIN WHAT IT IS SHE HAS DONE MY MOUTH IS SOWN SHUT WITH WIRE THE SECRET THAT I KNOW IS LOCKED INSIDE ME HER SINS BECOME MY ETERINAL HELL RELIVING EVERYTHING NOT BEING ABLE TO TELL BLUE RUNS FROM MY EYES AND NOW MY EYES ARE BLACK I AM FILLED WITH HATERED BECAUSE OF EVERYTHING THAT SHE HAS FORSAKE THE BLOOD IN MY VAYNES SEEPS THREW MY POURS I AM SLOWLY DYING NOW WITH OUT A REMOURSE ALL THE SINS THAT HAVE BEEN LOCKED AWAY INSIDE ME THEY WERE MINE ALL ALONG I WAS TO STUPID TO SEE I DIDN'T CARE ABOUT ANYTHING I JUST WAN'T TO DIE NOT CARRYING WHO I STEPPED ON OR SHOULD I SAY DROWND ALONG THE WAY AS LONG AS I GOT WHAT I WANTED IT WAS OK

Lost
I keep a knife in my desk to remind me of how close I once came to showing what kind of cross I carried with me My pink walls turned into my personal hell my very own prison there was no yard time for me in my mind having a voice was my crime, I got sentenced life without parol. No one knew WHO I was anymore the time I spent with people they didn’t seem so normal I was normal they were fucked up not me. I found a cure for my disease when I took my knife popped the blade open and wrote LOST ON MY BODY I was a lost girl trying to stand out in a big, big world when I feel lost I look at my knife and remind myself how human I really am that one day this LOST GIRL WILL BE FOUND!

Not Feeling Well Today
think i may be coming down with cold or something ...... kinda been in bed all day tryin 2 sweat out a fever with a scratchy throat ...... good thing the fellowship meeting 4 2nite was postphoned so i wont have 2 miss that ...... bring brinking extra fluids to see if i can head it off b4 it gets worst

This Is Me...... I Will Have Some Pics Later
hey everyone, well i am new to this so dont mind me if i do some odd ball shit, i will have some pics of me and my family soon and my new addition to the family... baby joey! 9 days old...and my lexi she's 3 years old.... anyways just wanted to drop by and say what's up and will have more to look at when i get my pics up

My Innocence
I lost my innocence. Not once not twice but more times than I can count. It was becuase of bastards. Bastards who wanted to hurt. I lost my innocence and gained pain. On the day you raped me. I lost everything. Lost my innocence. Lost my life. Lost my happiness. Lost my way of being. You raped me. You didnt lose anything. You gained the power. I lost every thing that day. All I was to gain was pain. I lost more than one thing. I lost my innocence. But gained the pain

A Lost Friend..
I have just read the news that a artist and writer that I have followed for 13 years has passed... I feel as if I have lost a friend that I can never thank for his words and art. I am honestly in a state of shock...my wife...ex-wife...damn it,Stevie used to say we were brothers from different mothers...and now I have lost my "brother"...I would get excited when the new issue came out and I would rush home and read it cover to cover ignoring all around me. That joy and excitment is now lost and that saddens my soul, to find someone who could create a piece of art and words that I related to....R.I.P. my the gods relize what a smart ass and artist they have brought to their table and may they pay you the respect you deserve..

No Toilet Paper
Two women friends had gone for a girl's night out. Both were very faithful and loving wives. However, they had gotten over-enthusiastic on the Bacardi Breezers. Incredibly drunk, and walking home, they needed to pee, so they stopped in the cemetery. One of them had nothing to wipe with, so she thought she would take off her panties and use them. Her friend, however, was wearing a rather expensive pair of panties and did not want to ruin them. She was lucky enough to squat down next to a grave that had a wreath with a ribbon on it, so she proceeded to wipe with that. After the girls did their business, they proceeded to go home. The next day one of the women's husbands was concerned that his normally sweet and innocent wife was still in bed -- hung over, so he phoned the other husband and said, "These girl nights out have got to stop! I'm starting to suspect the worst.. My wife came home with no panties!!" "That's nothing" said the other husband, "Mine came back with a card stuck

Bring Back The Glory Days
It sickens me to see how many white people have stopped caring about their people and their heritage, just to appear as what Jewish society deems as normal these days. What ever happened to the men and women who would stand up and speak out when such atrocities are being committed against our people, what happened to the leaders we once had, men of character and honor? We are now living in a time where our very own leaders are themselves draft dodgers, Jewish puppets or desk jockeys. We no longer are able to look to our leaders for guidance, we are no longer able to do what is right for our people and we are no longer able to keep our borders safe and secure without a group set up for the civil rights of people who have no right to be in this country as it is. It is far past due that we elect a leader who has the balls to stand up and break up the media, it is time we no longer sit back and allow the Kikes the rule they have rightfully stolen from our people, it is time we take a st

Would You?
Answer this and send it back 2 me in my inbox. You can add more to these if you want. Post it on ur bulletin w/ out the answers. You might be surprised w/ the results y = Yes n = No m=Maybe Would you? Will you? [_] give me your number? (_ _ _) _ _ _- _ _ _ _ [_] kiss me? [_] let me kiss you? [_] watch a porn movie with me? [_] take me out to dinner? [_] let me drive you somewhere? [_] take a shower with me? [_] buy me a drink? [_] take me home for the night? [_] let me sleep in your bed? [_] Sing car karaoke w/ me? [_] re-post this for me to answer your questions? [_] Come pick me up at 3 am because my car ran out of gas in the middle of nowhere? [_] Lock me in your room and take advantage of me? [_] let me make you breakfast? [_] help me with homework? [_] tickle me? [_] let me tickle you? [_] stick up for me if i was being put down? [_] get wasted with me? [_] instant message me? [_] greet me in public? [_] hang out with me? [_] bring me around your friends?

Why????
Some of you may know that my 5 year old son is Autistic. I also have a 7 year old daughter. On any given day my daughter will torture my son just for fun.....and I suspect, to drive me INSANE!!!!!!!! My son has a tendency to SCREAM when he is upset and his voice is high enough normally. WHY OH WHY does she do this to him and to me????? I can't imagine that she enjoys the screaming anymore than I do!! Today has already been one of those days.....it's only 11:40am!!! TGIF is all that I can say right now. I needed to vent cause they are driving me insane today!! Thanks for listening. Any advise will be greatly appreciated! LOL!

My Love For You
It was magic when we first meet in person, the fireworks were awesome. the more we got to know each other the more i wanted to be with you. my love for you grows each day, the more we are together the more i love you. Then we were apart for a week, and then i knew that you were the one for me for all time, the love i was lookin for, the real man i needed in my life, my rock, my life, my soulmate. And since we have been together, we have had some tough times, but we all ways got threw them together, and i know we may have tough times ahead but our love will see us threw, and keep us together, no matter what life may bring, i will love you for all time my love.

Will You Give This To My Daddy?
Will you give this to my Daddy? As a Company, Southwest Airlines is going to support "Red Fridays." Last week I was in Atlanta , Georgia attending a conference. While I was in the airport, returning home, I heard several people behind me beginning to clap and cheer. I immediately turned around and witnessed one of the greatest acts of patriotism I have ever seen. Moving thru the terminal was a group of soldiers in their camos. As they began heading to their gate, everyone (well almost everyone) was abruptly to their feet with their hands waving and cheering. When I saw the soldiers, probably 30-40 of them, being applauded and cheered for, it hit me. I'm not alone. I'm not the only red-blooded American who still loves this country and supports our troops and their families. Of course I immediately stopped and began clapping for these young unsung heroes who are putting their lives on the line everyday for us so we can go to school, work and home without fear or repr

Update On My Brothers' Condition
OK BETTER NEWS FOR ALL.... THE DOCOTORS HAVE DECIDED TO MOVE JEFF TO THE HOSPITAL IN SASKATOON FOR WHATEVER REASON....IT WAS UNCLEAR AS TOO WHY... HE IS STILL UNCONSCIOUS AND BARELY HANGIN ON SO THEY ARE GOING TO WAIT UNTIL SOMETIME TONIGHT AND HAVE HIM AIR-LIFTED TO SASKATOON.... I HOPE THAT ALL GOES WELL.....

I Need A Morph
So I'm jealous...I see a lot of cherries with Morphs and I dig all of them....But I need one of my own. If only I cld figure out how to use the Morph software then I'd be in business. Until then, I'll just be patient!

Happy Friendship Week
I like you because of who you are to me... A true friend . And if I don't get this back I'll take the hint Tonight at midnight your true love will realize they like you. Something good will happen to you at 1:00-4:00 PM tomorrow. It could be anywhere -- AOL, Yahoo, outside of school, anywhere. Get ready for the biggest shock of your life. Please send to 5 people in 5 minutes . Remember: "A good friend will come bail you out of jail.... But a true friend will be sitting next to you saying WE screwed up, but we had fun! " Proud to be your Friend! Make sure you read all the way down to the last sentence, and don't skip ahead . I've learned...that life is like a roll of toilet paper. The closer it gets to the end, the faster it goes. I've learned...that we should be glad God doesn't give us everything we ask for. I've learned..that money doesn't buy class. I've learned...that it's those small daily happenings that make life so spectacular.

Surrender
Drink my friend from my distress Take from me this shattered soul There is no will to see the dawn No earthly reason to live on Wrap me in your arms of death Lead me to your darken shores There is no fear or no regret Your kiss is truth My trust in you is now complete Eyes do flutter Pulse grows slow Peace at last from all Ive known Nixy

A Memorial Day Poem
Memorial Day by Michelle R. Christman As we stand here looking At the flags upon these graves Know these flags represent A few of the true American brave They fought for their Country As man has through all of time Except that these soldiers lying here Fought for your country and mine As we all are gathered here To pay them our respect Let's pass this word to others It's what they would expect I'm sure that they would do it If it were me or you To show we did not die in vein But for the red, white and blue. Let's pass on to our children And to those who never knew What these soldiers died for It's the least we can do Let's not forget their families Great pain they had to bear Losing a son, father or husband They need to know we still care No matter which war was fought On the day that they died I stand here looking at these flags Filled with American pride. So as the bugler plays out Taps With its sweet and eerie sound Pray for these sold

Dealing With Abuse (in Bdsm) And Other Damage
DEALING WITH ABUSE and other forms of Damage... (Please note - If you have a serious mental illness relating to abuse in any form that you should immediately seek out excellent professional assistance and work through, process or otherwise reach a point of mental stability. This should occur prior to seeking out or engaging in a D/s relationship. A D/s relationship requires mental health or competence as part of it's fundamental ideal of consent! You should not look for a relationship to rescue or heal your abuse!) This article is written about 'some' submissives who are mentally healthy yet who continue to maintain or use their past as part of habits created in the past and thoughts about what those habits might be and possibly how to deal with them! Damage occurs. Each us carries a history forward from the moment of birth that is a compilation of our life experiences. Some of these experiences are good and some are bad. Both can actually damage. I will describe damage her

Have A Great Weekend
Hope everyone has a great holiday weekend. David is here so I won't be on much. Just finished up making waffles. :) Later we are heading out to play minature golf and then to a movie. Tommorrow is church and time with the family. Monday he has a parade and I have to take him home. But he has soccer on Tues and Wed nights so I will be driving out again. I am feeling MUCH better about myself and things in general. I am still gonna struggle with this concept of putting myself first. But its best for me. In the end when I accept it I will be a happier person. I felt really guilty this week for doing that. But today, I feel much better about it. I took some steps this week I really hated doing, but it was best for me. And though 2 people really won't be a part of my life now, It is not my fault. I am off for now to play with David :) Have fun, and stay safe.

Horray For Me
Wow lucky me... another site with another blog. I never even use these have the time so why the heck do i keep making them!? haha... *to self* grab a brain genius. Anyway... i'm still fairly new to cherry tap... figureing things out.. its a cool site though definitly like it. moving on with life....

Tonight On Wrr
Click banner to enter lounge ROCKING YOU NOW!! UNTIL 10PM EST Click banner to enter lounge 10:00PM EST Click banner to enter lounge 12:00AM EST (Midnight) Click banner to enter lounge 2:00AM EST Click banner to enter lounge

We Need More Kool Bombers
WE NEED MORE KOOL ELITE BOMBERS...IF YOU ENJOY BOMBING THEN SEND REQUEST TO JOIN THE ELITE BOMBERS TO THIS LINK.. NO TRY OUTS OR PROBATION TIME...JUST SEND A REQUEST TO THE LINK BELOW AND TELL THEM YOU ENJOY BOMBING AND WANT TO BE A PART OF A KOOL BOMBING TEAM... Scotty's And Angels Elite Bombers@ CherryTAP

Cyberspace Dueling
Heres to all that shit you talk Heres me laughing at the shit you cant back up Mother fucker I think its time for you to just shut up. What makes you think, that you can talk to me. silly bitch we arnt even on the same page and we never will be. Take all your words, take all your poetry, shove it up your ass its nothin anyone wants to read. Look how tough you are, a thousand miles away, bring it face to face and then we will see who is tough now. Go ahead and take all you hate out on me, I can take it. Im bringing my fists to a gunfight. ----this needs more-----

Rippling As A Sail Would
Rippling as a sail would --- cutting through the air --- The flaping Red-White-And Blue; She rises and sets by the hands who keep her As she stands tall and embraces her colors Upon the sleeping warriors underneath her watch, Proud is the tone and the thunder of their memory Proud are the ones whom saw them fall Proud are the ones whom remember their deeds Proud are the ones who took the torch they gave It is the torch of liberty and freedom --- thats what it is Seen from the glaze of a yeong child's eye As the dressed men pass on a folded flag To a silently sobbing mother --- given the folds of a warrior's grace It is the melodic jingle of Dog tags Swinging in the wind as its draped over a rifle --- pointed down, As one's peers take a bow and show of gratitude and silence With a pair of empty boots and a kevlar helmet But do not be sad men of the ranks --- he did not leave In a quit fashion --- but he left with a strait eye towards his mission I

Salutes
Okay... ummm.. So I am supposed to do some sort of take a pic of myself with my CT ID#? WTF For? I made the profile.. I got a pic or 2 of myself.. and for fuck sakes I even have a pic of my son's memoriam tat.. But in order to be looked at as a real person I have to take a frickin pic of myself... WTF? I pot some up...lol Guess what I am trying to say.. is that I'm not going to go out of my way just to take a pic that will make people realize that I am a real person and not some fucktard that makes up shit for shits and giggles. Take care and be safe my Friends.

Naughty Application"
NAUGHTY APPLiCATiON" ***Best one will get a reply*** 1. Your Name: 2. Age: 3. Favorite position (s)? 4. Do you think I'm hot? 5. Would you have sex with me? 6. lights on or off? 7. Would you have to be drunk? 8. Would you take a shower with me? 9. Have you ever thought about having sex with me? 10. Would you leave after or stay the night? 11. Do you like cuddling afterwards? 12. Condom or skin? 13. Do you give Oral pleasures? 14. Do you like to receive Oral Pleasures? 15. Have sex on the first date? 16. Would you kiss me during sex? 17. Do you think I would be good in bed? 18. Threesome? 20. How many times would you like to cum? 21. Would you use me as a booty call? 21. Can I use you as a booty call? 22. Do you like foreplay? 23. What is foreplay to you? 24. Can we take pictures of the act? 25. Will you post this so I can fill it out for you? fill out and reply

Kiss "reason To Live"
REASON TO LIVE Lyrics Artist(Band):Kiss Review The Song (0) Print the Lyrics Send Kiss polyphonic ringtone to your cell phone Out of love, there's nobody around, all I hear is the sound of a broken heart Out of time, no more waitin' for you Now the hurtin's through, and a new day starts And I feel a change in my life, I sailed into dark and endless nights And made it alive Chorus: Everybody's got a reason to live, baby Everybody's got a dream and a hunger inside Everybody's got a reason to live, but it can't be your love Out of touch, with myself for so long, now a feelin' so strong comin' over me Down the line, there's a lesson I've learned You can love and get burned, if it has to be And I see a change in my life, and I'm not alone when I'm strong inside And I realize chorus And I feel a change in my life And I'm not alone when I'm strong inside and I realize chorus repeats 2x No it can't be your love, no it can't be your love No it can't be y

Eons
I gave you my heart And I gave you up my Soul that came inside of it.. Though we're more or less become strangers through each others eyes Our voices distant like the carried wind of time, to a far away place and dream.. I'd die, just to reach out and touch you again and feel the warmth your heart had felt for me.. I'd close my eyes for good, if it helped me escape this world I see.. I'd forfeit my life for you If I had to truly do.. For you were the one I loved so much before. I'd die..As many times it'd take to see.. through broken wings of coppered ash, you're no longer in love with me.. With each passing dream before my sight each passing day that enters night I visualize all that I had, and realize that now I'm sad without you..so, without you in my life.. -qique-

Cute And Funny
The first grade school teacher had twenty-five students in her class and she presented each child in her class the first half of a well known proverb and asked them to come up with the remainder of the proverb. It's hard to believe these were actually done by first graders. Their insight may surprise you. While reading, keep in mind that these are first graders, 6-year-olds, because the last one is a classic! 1. Don't change horses.........................until they stop running. 2. Strike while the...............................bug is close. 3. It's always darkest before...................Daylight Saving Time. 4. Never under estimate the power of .........termites. 5. You can lead a horse to water............. but, how? 6. Don't bite the hand that ,,,,,,,,,,,,.looks dirty. 7. No news is..........impossible. 8. A miss is as good as a.............Mr. 9. You can't teach an old dog new .,,,,,,,, math. 10. If you lie down with dogs, you'll ......stink in the mo

Places I've Never Been
I've never seen the sun set at Montigo Bay But my heart melts when you look at me that way And I've never seen the snow fall From a rocky mountain sky But I get a chill just by lookin' in your eyes 'Cause you take me places I've never been I travel the world in your arms and back again I have no need to wander or go chasing those four winds 'Cause you take me places I've never been I may never see the wonders on this earth I may never hold treasures of great worth I could search the whole world over But I don't have to go that far I've got it all right here in my arms 'Cause you take me places that I've never been I travel the world in your arms and back again I have no need to wander or go chasing those four winds 'Cause you take me places I've never been 'Cause you take me places I've never been

Lounge/ambient/experimental Mixtape
right click - save as... to download playing time: 45:05 filesize: 62.0 Mb encoding: 192Kbps track listing: Ken Nordine - You're Getting Better UNKLE - Unreal Thievery Corporation (w/The Flaming Lips) - Marching the Hate Machines Solarus - Malignant Soul Punisher Earth - Land of Some Other Order sunn0))) & Boris - Blood Swamp Material (w/William S. Burroughs) - Soul Killer

Hey There Cherry Friends
Sexy & Romantic glitter graphics from Sexi Luv.com Sexy & Romantic glitter graphics from Sexi Luv.com Sexy & Romantic glitter graphics from Sexi Luv.com Hey sweeties, I got my car back so happy!! I am heading out for camping for a week at the lake. So if you dont hear from me thats why. I already sent in my updates for southern-charms and my clips stores. updates for sc are tuesday and thursday this week. and on my clip store I have one going on each day. have a good one sweeties..Lorie http://www.southern-charms4.com/lorie my group- http://groups.yahoo.com/group/loriesc4/ my e-mail loriesc4@yahoo.com

Sunday 5/27/07
I didn't do much yesterday, just sat in LooneyTuneHangout all day, and The Lobby for a little while, since that room isn't very talkative lol. Other than that I just chatted in messenger, messed in here and Myspace and litened to music all day. I'm trying to work on not being so shy, and it's harder than I thought it would be, unless I'm in LooneyTunes or messenger, no one really talks to me much in the Lobby, but oh well lol, I'll keep trying. Well, not much else happened yesterday, so this is all I'm going to write for now, and I'll write more later.

I Dun Even Remember What I Called This One
It's been 13 hours since I saw you, It feels like an eternity to be truthful, Looking back at the pictures we made, Wondering how I could have let this all fade. I should have said what wanted to, I shoulda been more bold, Like the song goes, I never meant to be so cold. But now your gone baby and I'm left here alone Wondering if I will ever feel like I'm home, The days that we spent in each others arms, The silent vow I made to do you no harm. I shoulda been more open, that's what you said, I'm sitting here broken feeling like part of me is dead. My failure to act was stupid, there's no doubting that, Hoping and praying there's some way to get you back, Back to the way that things used to be, Back to the days when it was just you and me. I'm tied down and helpless, not much I can do, But utter those four precious words "baby I love you".

Holiday
Hello ladies. I have the day off for the holiday, and looking to have some fun. Any ladies interested in chat, cyber, pic swap, cam, phone, etc... please contact me here, or on yahoo msgr at co_bigfoot, or if you are feeling daring call me at 720-229-3174, or if you are in my area lets see about getting together. Drop me a line with anything you want to do and lets see what happens. Mike

Expiration Date?
So, I have to be out of my house by this Friday. And I guess i'm going to go live with Julia, even though we fight constantly. It isn't as bad now because I don't hang out with her ex bf/boy toy. I mean, me and her mother get along great, and it's the same with her brother. He calls me his sister because we're always together. It's just that me and Julia always used to talk about living together, and when I lived with her before, it was basically a nightmare. And i'm just afraid something's going to go wrong. I just have to stay there until I go to JobCorp. And then i'm free. I'm just ready to get the fuck out of Michigan. There is NOTHING here. Especially when you live in a town that's only a mile in diameter. I mean c'mon. Wtf are you going to do with a Mile? Drive around and waste gas? No way. Unless you have a nice ass system in your car then FUCK YES. Anyways, that was so off subject. Most of my shit is already packed from the last time I got kicked out. So I guess i'm ready. Woo

Facts Of Loving Someone
what every kiss means" Body: what every kiss means Body: ?Kiss on the stomach = Im ready ?Kiss on the Forehead = "i hope we're together forever" ?Kiss on the Ear = Your my everything ?Kiss on the Cheek = "We're friends" ?Kiss on the Hand = "I adore you" ?Kiss on the Neck = "we belong together" ?Kiss on the Shoulder = "I want you" ?Kiss on the Lips = I love you" **************************************************** ?What the gesture means? ?Holding Hands = "we definitely love each other" ?Slap on the Butt = "That's mine" ?Holding on tight = "i don't want to let go" ?Looking into each other's Eyes = "i just plain love you" ?Playing with Hair = "Tell me you love me" ?Arms around the Waist = "I love you too much to let go" ?Laughing while Kissing = "I am completely comfortable with you" **************************************************** ?Advice? Dont ask for a kiss, take one. If you were thinking about someone while reading this, you're definitely in Love. ****

Darkness
Darkness ~Tony Martinez Darkness I can smell you Your stench makes me retch You can fool others But your grotesque appearance Sickens me But I remember my angel I have to save my angel That means being enveloped In the nasty muck that is you Each day you whisper poison to my angel And everyone else But I see and know you for what you really are I'll save my angel I'll never give up I'll always fight you Darkness

Monday 5/28/07
I hope everyone reading this had a great Memorial Day weekend. We didn't do anything but decorate a few graves around here, I thought we were going to go to Ohio to decorate more but we decided not to this year. Other than that, it's been a pretty average day, chatting in Phreik, messing in here and on MySpace and listening to music. Well, that was pretty much the extent of my day, so I guess I'll end this here and go chat and listen to music some more before I get off and go to bed for the night. Have a great night all.

Zen Poetry-orange
Orange Do you see this orange? Large and round and ripe Harvested from her emerald womb Surrounded by many siblings--just waiting for their birth Her skin silky yet dimpled The color of the golden sun from which her nourishment came Can you feel her mothers love as you peel back the layers of her flesh? Pulling apart her sections Buldging and juicy Stickey sweet from the water which she drank Licking your fingers can you taste the sun, the rain, the earth from which she came?

Life
Life is to short to wake up in the morning with regrets. So love the people who treat you right, forget about the ones who don't, and believe that everything happens for a reason. If u get a chance, take it. If it changes ur life , let it. Nobody said it would be easy, they just promised it would be worth it.... But always think of others around u, because the choices u make affect others...

A Song A Few Friends Say Reminds Them Of Me
On a lonely walk this morning A light mist in the air Dark clouds laughing at me in silence Casting shadows through my hair In the distance I saw a woman Dressed in black with eyes of grey She wore her pain like a shackled spirit Eternal life was her debt to pay The lady wore black It's the sign of the prisoners lives The lady wore black See the years through the tears in her eyes The lady wore black Her mystic power calls to me The lady wore black Her love can set me free The wind song whispered a warning Telling me to beware Of the quiet shadowed woman And of the sadness I would share We sat together for sometime together in silence Never speaking in words Of all her thoughts she spoke with her eyes And I listened remembering all I heard The lady wore black It's the sign of the prisoners lives The lady wore black See the years through the tears in her eyes The lady wore black Her mystic power calls to me The lady wore black Her love can set

For Me And My Bf
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About To Go To Work...
I found out yesterday that my Grandma is sick again talk about feeling helpless like their isnt anything you can do she had cancer last year WE BEAT IT I dropped out of school (college) in NYC to take care of her in iowa they think its back.. If it is you can bet I am packing my stuff and moving up there AGAIN to help her.. she is the closest thing I have to a mom... and losing her would be hard... I dont know... yesterday at work I made a list of things that I want to do and want to happen in my life, and then I get that phone call.. I dunno.. I havent been sleeping well either and I have the weirdest dreams... dreams I think my dad and brother might be having, but not ones I think I should.. things like IED bombs blowing up my apartment.. only the bombs are from Japan.. crazy stuff... maybe I am about to have a nervous breakdown> or i dunno... well I work today and then I am off wednesday and thursday... and then I work the weekend... My memorial day weekend consisted of

Blah!
Well the holiday was a regular day. Not much happened and it slowed down my job hunt being as everyone was off. I am going to give this place two weeks and decide if I am staying or not. I know it has been a while but when yo live inthe middle of BFE and you have no internet access it is hard to keep up. It is so friggen silly. It is like, "pack up the car ma! we're going to town!" This is the 21st century. Do people still pack up the car to go to town? Why would they do that? Why the hell am I doing that? Late.

A Brand New Me!!
I said I'd never drop another tear But today I'm feeling blue All these tears I drop are for me And no longer for you You played your part in my life And took so much away The day you broke my heart I thought I'd never see the day When I could smile without you And see my days shine bright I thought my life was over The day we said good-bye I sit here and cry for me And the fool I was with you How could I've been so stupid And lived for loving you? Someone who was a liar And didn't care at all Someone who betrayed me And crushed my honest love But today I'm over your love And here is a brand new me A woman who has fought To heal the wounds so deep I'm free and it's all over You're finally out my life I found a brand new me The day you broke my heart

Coming Up....
Well, this sunday I will be seeing my new nephew "Talan" aka Baby Cartman...my younger sister first and only child...cause I know she aint having any more..lol..it will be good seeing my kid sister..I haven't seen her in a year....we have some things to talk about, mother-hood changed her for the better....Next Monday tho...I will be writing something special...so if you are reading this please read the next one I will be posting up.

Work And Rayna Marie
I love my job. How many people can really say that? They are bringing another person over for "temp" help for the summer for us. They are going to be putting a new desk in next to Emmy. Now that I have this job everyone wants to be doing what I am doing. I mean it is great. I can check my email and my myspace all day from here. If only I could figure out how to get around having to use a proxy all the time to get to myspace. If you have any ideas let me know. The proxy kinda messes up my CherryTap page. I cant see anything on there. And my darling beloved Rayna. Well her last day of school is Wednesday. I can't believe it. She brought her journals home from school. I was shocked. According to her I am a very very very mean mommy. Am I really? Or maybe this is just the writting of a 6 year old. I dont know. Ofcourse it would explain this little attitude that she has had lately. She has been a little brat at points in time. If she cant have it her way well then sh

Brett Dennen-there Is So Much More
When I heard the news, my heart fell on the floor. I was on a plane on my way to Baltimore. In these troubled times it's hard enough as it is. My soul has a known a better life than this. I wonder how so many can be in so much pain, while others don't seem to feel a thing. Then I curse my whiteness and I get so damn depressed. In a world of suffering, why should I be so blessed? I heard about a women who lives in Colorado. She built a monoment of sorts behind the garage door, where everyday she prays for all whom are born and all whose souls have passed on. Sometimes my trouble gets so thick, I can't see how I'm gonna get through it. But, then I'd rather be stuck up in a tree then be tied to it. There is so much more. I don't feel comfortable with the way my clothes fit. I cant get used to my bodys limits. I got some fancy shoes to try and kick away these blues. They cost a lot of money but they arent worth a thing. I wanna free my feet from the broken g

One Chance
Life is about taking chances sometimes, and doing something you may not normally do, even when youre not ready. You should never look back on a decision you have made, you should just go with it, no regrets. I find so much fulfillment in doing something new and finding out it isnt always what it seemed. Life is all about experience and along with that comes happiness, sadness, anger, love, and so many other emotions. There is always options in life , but there is no RIGHT decision. Dont keep doing the same thing all the time by taking the safe way, take a turn somewhere, take a chance. Just live, learn,love, laugh and enjoy being alive every second of the day, because we only get one chance at life...

I Believe
{I believe the sun should never set upon an argument}{I believe we place our happiness in other people's hands} {I believe that junk food tastes so good because it's bad for you}{I believe your parents did the best job they knew how to do} {I believe that beauty magazines promote low self esteem} {I believe I'm loved even when I'm completely alone!} {I believe in karma... what you give is what you get} {I believe you can't appreciate real love until you've been burned} {I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side} {I believe you don't know what you've got until its gone} {I believe that trust is more important than monogamy} {I believe your most attractive features are your heart and soul} {I believe that family is worth more than money or gold} {I believe the struggle for financial freedom is unfair} {I believe the only ones who disagree are millionaires} {I believe forgiveness is the key to your happiness} {I believe that wedded bliss negates the need to be undressed} {I

Fergie - Big Girls Dont Cry
Da Da Da Da The smell of your skin lingers on me now Your probably on your flight back to your home town I need some shelter of my own protection baby To be with myself instead of calamity Peace, Serenity [CHORUS] I hope you know, I hope you know That this has nothing to do with you It's personal, Myself and I We've got some straightenin' out to do And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket But Ive got to get a move on with my life Its time to be a big girl now And big girls don't cry Don't cry Don't cry Don't cry The path that I'm walking I must go alone I must take the baby steps until I'm full grown Fairytales don't always have a happy ending, do they And I foresee the dark ahead if I stay [CHORUS] I hope you know, I hope you know That this has nothing to with you It's personal, Myself and I We've got some straightenin' out to do And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket But I've got to get a move on with my life Its

My Eyes
Stefani, your eyes say you're Sincerely Sweet Kind and genuine, you're the sort of gal who's always looking out for others and being a great friend. You have a big heart and can't help but open it up to those you're close with. When you're that pretty on the inside, you can't help but be beautiful on the outside, too. When it comes to makeup, you like to keep things light and low-key. But that doesn't mean you don't enjoy getting dolled up on special occasions. And when you do, we'd guess you only add to your already sparkling and sweet self. You glow girl!

Grrrrrr
I usually don't bother responding to downraters. I think they are childish. But this time I did. Some dolt who goes by the handle "The International Conspiracy of Malcolms" took the time and trouble to rate my photo a 3. I'm not the best looking guy in the world, and everyone is entitled to an opinion, but when I asked why he bothered, he responded by saying, and I quote "It's out of 10 moron. Only Cindy Crawford in the buff gets my 10". Well, I doubt she has a profile here, so I wonder why he is bothering to search through and rate photos. Perhaps downrating people makes him feel empowered somehow. You, like beating weaker people makes some guys feel empowered. I believe that if you don't find something positive to say, don't say anything. But who knows? Perhaps I am not so insecure that I need to build up my rating by glomming points in any way I can, particulalrly if it means being mean unnecessarily. I don't know. This place is really getting me down lately.

My Grandchildren
well as most of my friends here know my grandchildren from s.c.are here for a visit for 10 whole days...and lets just say after 1 1/2 days i am pooped but pooped in a wonderful way...i have 4 of my grandchildren here and friday i will have them all together for the first time in 3 years so expect lots of pictures ok guys.....today thopught it was going to be relaxing day but daughter just called wants to spend the day here need to baby proof so ill talk to you guys soon

People Come Into You Life For A Reason
People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime. When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person. When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be. Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on. Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow or learn. They bring you an

Punishment
Today Kay had an attitude, she woke up that way, and once she got to work it just got worse, on five different occasions I heard her scream "F@#*" one of the words she is not allowed to use as it is very un-lady like, each time she said it I gave her a look to remind her of what she said. The last time she said it I informed her that later I would correct her behavior. Ten minutes ago I got an e-mail from her, saying that she was very very sorry and that she understands she did wrong, in her letter she requested to be disciplined for her language, and that after the first she should have watched her mouth. She finished the letter by saying that she was wrong and that for her actions she would expect her ass to be very, very sore and very red, she made a new switch which she left in my office, it is a two pole switch that is 3' long, the thin poles 1/4" were taped together to form a handle. After a warm up she requested that she be made to bend over the break table and get a v

And They Keep Coming!
->kk chain: down where south carolina......i'm in texas sweetheart i don't take shit either ->kk chain: if you can't handle the comments don't post the mumm kk chain: if you wernt so far away in tx runin your domn ass mouth i would wope your god damn ass and then we'll see whos a bitch!!!!!!!!!!...dipshit...oh and you dont know me bi the way so i segest hiley you shut you mouth befor it runs away!!!! kk chain: yah southcarolina and if you got a problem with that you can just keep runnin your mouth but one day it will come back to ya sweetheart...

Just A Quicky For Now
Just wanted to saHI and thank you to those who have helped me level up. Also wanna say wuts up to all my sexi close friends,u guys kno who u r.Without you i dunno wut i would do. You keep me laughing and happy and most of all you show me love. Be sure to rate me on CT PinUps!!! *muah* Love You

Inner Termoil
Inner Termoil Random thoughts perspire, cannot cease this raging inner fire, screams of innocence disapate through my tears, falling before my innescapeable fears, confessing my lies that are trapped so deep, haunting my every dream while i sleep, unwillingly i lie beyong what i cannot see, all the unrelinquished ghosts lingering inside of me, untouchable feelings wanting to be released, taunting all of my inner peace, frail lines along my entiredy, surpassing what the eyes can only see, taking the chance that risks it all, i predestine my death before i fall, all along im reluctant to see, i'm defying all my reality, wanting to turn it all around, but realizing i'll never be found. I wrote this a while back but its one of my favorites, hope you like :)

Feelings
I am feeling pretty blah today. I guess that I am really wearing myself too thin. I am stressed about my job and just really tired of it not to mention my home life. I am grateful that my friend let me move in with her and all but I just can't take it anymore. There is just too much going on and I really don't know what to do anymore. I really feel like I am heading towards a nervous breakdown if things don't start changing soon. Maybe things will start looking better for me soon. Well, I am done complaining for now. Have fun everyone!

Pff.....
today was spent doing "stuff" not "fun stuff"....just "stuff" got my car into the shop where they told me it would be about 3 days..then as we are headed out the door turns out they may need more time because they have to blend the fender to the door or some crap like that. went to a few uniform shops for hubby to do some pricing, he need some new gear for work. I don't really understand all of that so I just sat and was quiet on it all. tomorrow I am helping move some stuff for my sister. I am lacking inspiration today. yesterday it was as if I truly felt my muse returning to my side. today..blah, maybe I am just very tired. it's a little warm in here and I have a full tummy... I will blame it on that. I am giving up a few vices. soda and sugar. junk food. I need more energy and I should probably meditate more often. I guess thats it for now

Blackened Redfish
1 1/2 tsp. cayenne pepper 1 1/2 tsp. paprika powder 3 tsp. salt 1 tsp. onion powder 1 tsp. garlic powder 1/2 tsp. white pepper 1/2 tsp. black pepper 1/2 tsp. oregano 1/2 tsp. thyme olive oil 1/4 lb butter (1 stick) Mix all the dry ingredients thoroughly to form the blackening mix. Rub 3 or 4 single/serving redfish fillets with the olive oil and dust with the blackening mix. Heat a cast iron skillet to nearly red hot. Drop one-half of the stick of butter into the pan. Immediately place the redfish fillets in the pan which should be cooked for no more than 2 minutes per side. Add additional butter after turning if needed. It is recommended to cook blackened fish outside because of the amount of smoke that is generated. Alternate method for inside cooking. It will still generate quite a bit of smoke. Use any type of skillet, preferably with a non-stick finish. Place the pan on the burner set on high and add one-fourth of the stick of butter. Wait until the butter turns

Fried Turkey
1 (10-pound) turkey 2 tablespoons seasoning of choice 2 tablespoons of your favorite dry rub 3 to 5 gallons peanut oil Cooks Note: To measure the amount of oil needed to fry the turkey, place turkey in fryer, add water to top of turkey, remove the turkey and the water line will indicate how much oil will be needed to fry your turkey. Having too much oil can cause a fire. The pot should not be more than 3/4 full or the oil could overflow when the turkey is added. Wash bird inside and out, and allow to drain. Rub turkey all over with seasoning. Coat turkey with dry rub. Allow the bird to sit until it reaches room temperature. Heat peanut oil in a turkey fryer or a very, very large stockpot to 350 degrees F. Lower turkey into hot oil, very carefully, making sure it is fully submerged. Fry turkey for 3 minutes per pound plus 5 minutes per bird. Remove turkey from oil and drain on paper towels.

In The Locker Room
In the locker room We have a coed locker room at the gym and I invite you to the gym to join me for a work out. Little did I know we would work up a sweat before we hit even the first machine? But I am getting ahead of myself. Let me start at the beginning. It is a beautiful fall day and the sun is shining and the air is crisp. We meet at gym and I see your car pull in. I quickly park and walk over to you as you struggle to get your gym bag out of the back seat. I come up behind you and give you a quick hug and a kiss that startles you and makes you jump. I grab your bag from the back seat and we walk to the entrance of the club, we check in and head to the locker room and instead of giving you your bag to allow you to head into the ladies locker room I continue holding your bag as I head into the coed locker room. You get a puzzled look on your face as I enter and look around at you but you are right behind me. I decided we should just change in hear as after

My Virtuous Curse
Standing here I think of my life the curse that I live alone and secluded cut off from my longing The darkness surrounding as I watch them from this tower kept prisoner by the night Preying on the life wishing to be what they are free to play with whoever’s in sight I wish to feel them to break this curse that binds me here within these walls waiting for touch My curse it comes every night I hear their moans within each breeze as it caresses my skin Forbidden to join for I must stay pure a state of torture is this my virtue in my darkened tower

The First Law Of Thermodynamics
"You are my courage, as I am your conscience. You are my heart and I your compassion. We are neither of us whole alone. So long as my body lives, and yours -we are one flesh. And when my body shall cease, my soul will still be yours -I swear on my hope of heaven, I will not be parted from you. Nothing is lost, only changed." Diana Gabaldon Drums of Autumn That was what I had, with him. I will settle for no less in anyone else. I want it all.

Poem " Princess & Her Knight"
Sitting on the hilltop letting the gentle spring breeze blow through my hair pulling the petals from the wild flowers to see if my knight loves me or loves me not. As the last petal falls a thrill goes through me as I quickly grasp the petal that says he loves me. Just as I see my knight climbing the hilltop towards me. Seems silly that I still grasp the tiny little petal but as I look into his blue eyes it sends a shiver down my spine feeling how deep his love is for me. He smiles at me as he bends down to brush his lips against the side of my cheek as he whispers in my ear my princess with words of love. I gently caress the side of his face with my hand as he leans in and our lips touch sending electricity through my spine as our kiss turns passionate. He cradles me in his arms as our passion sweeps us away in a bed of wild flowers. JAK(poisonivy)

Letting Go
So, at the end of last summer, I met a girl. Kristi. She was so hot, so attractive, and so amazing. I fell hard for this girl, gave her my heart completely as I always do when I fall in love. My closest friend here anc certainly vouch for that. We dated for about 2-3 months, then something happen, as we were having sex, I told her I loved her and I really ment it. She asked me about it after and I told her again. Well, she pretty much walked away. She wasn't looking for someone to love, just someone to frack. Seems like a commen theme in my life. In anycase, the song in this blog is dedicated to her. We were so close to something special and she didn't want it. Well, to this day, she still owns a special place in my heart. Foolishly, I'm sure, I still love her. And foolishly, I'ld probably take her back if she asked me to. But, I know, that will never happen. Girls like her never really date guys like me. I'm just not country enough or something. Still,

Sick Of It All-just Look Around
The question they keep asking me how can one so young be so bitter and angry well, the answer is plain to see maybe if they wern't so blind they'd see what i see i see the homeless livin' out on the street on every corner they're asking for money i try to help them whenever i can but sometimes i can't afford to help myself i see diseases and modern plagues of our times the greed of our leaders has made them blind to our problems they spend millions overseas, people right here are fightin' wars everyday I see the whites that hate the blacks blacks against the jews, race against religion and the're all too blind to see When we fight each other it puts all of them at ease it keeps us so busy, so they can do what they please election time comes and they're out for votes that's when you see and hear from them the most this is what they're calling a democracy that's just another word for hypocrisy we keep fallin' for the bait when we realize, it's always too late

Rewind!
Have you ever wished life had a rewind button,where u could rewind back through the good parts?Fast forward through the bad ones and even get back to the best part.Or the wonderful pause button to freeze that great moment in time.Just think if life was like that......where would we all be right now?Although,I sometimes wished I could do this..there are very few things I would change.The way my life has gone from the time I was born till now is meant to be.It has made me the person I am today.Just think if I had been born with a silver spoon in mouth..I would probably not be the person I am today.I have been hurt in several ways in my life from physically,mentally and emotionally but these things just made me a stronger person.Sometimes even when it seems that I am strong I still need that reassuring hug or touch.My smile does not mean that everything is ok..it just means that I have put everything bad aside for now and went through my day.When I go to work.. Only when I am alone,when t

Daily Horoscope: Libra For May 31,2007
Is someone accusing you (of all things) of being too nice? Is that even possible? Okay, you want to dismiss this, but sit down and think about it. Could it be that there's a kernel of truth in this person's supposition?

The Immigrant Issue......cheap Labor...cheap Tomatoes...
Ask your respective legislator about this and ask that person that you want to vote for......how is he or she going to address this? I doubt if they will address it. Most of the candidates belong to one another's board of directors of corporations that have them in their pockets and their decisions add to their coffers.....like follow the money! The only way to change what we have today is to start at birth and imprint the children much like animals do. First thing they see.....they become. And the first thing they should see is the endangered specie of today......you and me....the middle class which is shyte now! Subject: From a California school teacher Cheap Labor . . . Cheap Tomatoes . .. . This should make everyone think, be you Democrat, Republican or Independent ! >From a California school teacher - - -"As you listen to the news about the student protests over illegal immigration, there are some things that you should be aware of: I am in charge of the E

My Wish
What I want Is what I need Not price tag items that mean nothing Not strong held arms Not fashions name Not diamonds,cars, or selfish things I wish to be loved To be cared for till the end Wish they not just be a lover but also my best friend One I know wont break my heart in two That they will live by their word Be faithfully true Oh what I'd give To have what I need So I will continue to carry on with this dream In hopes that someday it may come true Or maybe these dreams I'm wishing for Are somehow meant for you

A Perfect Circle-passive
“Dead as dead can be,” my doctor tells me But I just can’t believe him, ever the optimistic one I’m sure of your ability to become my perfect enemy Wake up and face me, don’t play dead cause maybe Someday I will walk away and say, “You disappoint me,” Maybe you’re better off this way Leaning over you here, cold and catatonic I catch a brief reflection of what you could and might have been It's your right and your ability To become…my perfect enemy… Wake up (we'll catch you) and face me (come one now), Don’t play dead (don't play dead) Cause maybe (because maybe) Someday I’ll (someday I'll) walk away and say, “You disappoint me,” Maybe you’re better off this way Maybe you’re better off this way Maybe you’re better off this way Maybe you’re better off this way You’re better of this; you’re better off this; Maybe you’re better off! Wake up (can't you) and face me (come on now), Don’t play dead (don't play dead) Cause maybe (because maybe) Someday I’ll (somed

I Have A Crush
I have a big crush on you, A super-dinosaur! It sits upon my chest and throat And yet I beg for more. When you're away I miss you so My heart is full of sand. Yet when you're here my stupid fear Won't let me touch your hand. I cannot sleep, I cannot eat, I'm so wrapped up in you. My thoughts drift up, away from words, And fade into the blue. I know this crush is not your fault; The dinosaur is mine. Yet if you could, please rescue me, And put your arms around me, and hold me, and say you want me, and Oh! Would that be good!

4 Questions
Here is a very simple little test comprised of four questions to determine the level of your intellect. Your replies must be spontaneous and immediate, with no deliberating or wasting time. And NO CHEATING. On your mark, set....GO!!! 1: You are competing in a race, and overtake the runner in second place. In which position are you now? Answer: If you answered that you're now coming first then you're completely wrong. You overtook the second runner and took their place, therefore you're coming second. For the next question try not to be so dumb. 2 : If you overtake the last runner, what position are you now in? Answer: If you answered second-last, once again you're completely wrong. Think about it...How can you over take the person coming last? If you're behind them then they can't be last. The answer is impossible!! It would appear that thinking is not one of your strong points. You would make a good door-stop!!! Anyway, here's another to try, don't take any

The Beginning
A long time ago in a galaxy far, far away... Oops, wrong mindset. For longer than I've been messing with computers, this guy named Simon Travaglia has been posting as series called the "Bastard Operator From Hell." Being a person with at least MODERATE interest in computing, I have found the series hilarious. I've even managed to find some of the first ones he ever did. For some time to come, I will be posting this remarkable series for all here to enjoy. The first ones deal with a time when 5 Megs was a LOT of space and most computing at large universities and businesses were done on unix style mainframes. I hope you will enjoy this series as much as I have.

Bofh #8
I'm at my desk as usual, and a user calls. "Hello Computer Room, Simon here, How can I help?" I answer "I can't get into my account!" A user mumbles at me. "What was your username please?" I say They give me their username. No worries. I look in their account. "No worries, it was just a badly made login file. I've fixed it, you should be able to login." "Thanks!" "No worries. Have a nice day!" WHAT IS THIS? you're asking yourself. Has the Bastard Operator from Hell turned over a new leaf? Sold out?! GONE INSANE?!!! Nope. The Bastard Operator from Hell is being LOGFILED. And if that's happen- ing, I'm being bugged as well. So I'm being nice till I can find the bugs. It shouldn't be long - bear with me. Ah. One in the phone handpeice. Basic. But then the boss is a sneaky sort, so there's probably a couple more. Ah! And another in the base of the phone and one inside my keyboard. Time for a mad coffee-spilling frenzy. This is a big job, so I bring the whole jug

Bofh #9
I'm driving to work and I'm stuck behind this old guy, the classic slow driver from hell, whose car red-lines at 20 mph and can't take corners at more than 5. I honk my horn but his hearing aid's probably turned way down to "whisper", so I'm stuck. I make a mental note of his license plate. In fact, I did that 60 times a minute for 15 and a half minutes. Oh dear.. oh dear.... Looks like another call to the DMV Database to register a vehicle as stolen by out of town arms dealers... I get to work, flick the excuse page over. "ELECTROMAGNETIC RADIATION FROM SATTELLITE DEBRIS". Fair enough, it looks like it's going to be a good day. I log into "FUCKYOU", (the help-desk enquiries username) and go into mail. There's 3 new messages, the first of which is 117 lines long, so it's obviously a storyteller. Shit, I hate that. Instead of saying "My account needs more disk space" they tell you about how they're doing this bit of research for a lecturer and how it's got to be in yesterday, a

The Dash
~ The Dash ~ by Linda Ellis I read of a man who stood to speak At the funeral of a friend. He referred to the dates on her tombstone From the beginning to the end. He noted that first came the date of her birth And spoke of the following date with tears, But he said what mattered most of all Was the dash between those years. For that dash represents all the time That she spent alive on earth An now only those who loved her Know what that little line is worth. For it matters not, how much we own, The cars, the house, the cash, What matters is how we live and love And how we spend our dash. So think about this long and hard; Are there things you'd like to change? For you never know how much time is left That can still be rearranged. If we could just slow down enough To consider what's true and real And always try to understand The way other people feel. And be less quick to anger And show appreciation more And love the

My Angel
Who will catch me if I fall Who will be my gaurdian angel Who will save me if I'm on the edge Is that you? The one I love The girl I adore Are you my angel? I think you are because you give me light in the dark You talk to me when I'm down You rock my world You are the sun in my life

Why?
This is my heart it crys night after night in pain not for anyone more for everyone. I feel everyones pain i cant tall what it is but i know that there is a pain everyone has a pain but i can feel it how deep it goes or wide it is. I cry because this is my pain. I love so many and so many say they love me but yet i dont feel it. Why Why does everyone have to hurt. This is my question and i will live on intell i find the answer.

Dungeon
Dungeon (BDSM) This page is about BDSM play; for other topics see Dungeon (disambiguation). In BDSM (bondage/discipline, Dominance/submission, sadism/masochism) play, a dungeon is any space set aside for scene activities. It may or may not be underground and may or may not resemble a stereotypical dungeon from a Robin Hood film. Private dungeons are often fabricated in residential basements or spare rooms. BDSM organizations sometimes secure space for their members to play, old warehouses and factory spaces are popular for this. Some dungeons are open to the public on a membership basis or as a nightclub. These are called "public dungeons" even if they are only open to members. A professional dominant or dominatrix will often maintain their own dungeon, or several ProDoms may join together in a common facility often called a ProDom house, where they may share staff such as receptionists or cleaning staff. More recently, since the BDSM community has become more established

Survey...hmmmm
[i]Do you like it rough or sensual?:[/i] sensual [i]Do you prefer to be with the opposite sex or the same sex? or both?:[/i] opposite [i]How often do you like to have sex?:[/i] Ha, as often as possible! [i]Is sex a top priority for you?:[/i] Yes [i]Do you have sex face to face with your partner?:[/i] yes [i]How often do you get drunk and have wild, crazy sexy with a complete stranger?:[/i] never [i]How do you feel about one night stands?:[/i] I don't dislike them [i]How many one night stands have you had?:[/i] just a few [i]What's your favorite position?:[/i] any [i]Where's your favorite place to have sex?:[/i] almost anywhere [i]Do you prefer to make love or f*uck?:[/i] make love [i]Have you ever watched porn while having sex?:[/i] yes [i]How long do you usually fore-play b4 doing the deed?:[/i] not very long [i]Do you get off first or do they?:[/i] depends, it's a huge turn on when they do first, for me anyway [i]Do you like kissing during sex?:[/i] yes [i]Do you moan

I Have A Heart Problem..
I went to work today and thought that everything was going to be okay.. the went by kinda slow, then when I took my lunch at 12:30 I started feeling really light headed and shitty.. I didnt know what it could be.. I thought it was just because it was hot.. So I kept working on my machine and as time went on I got dizzier and dizzier.. then finally, I fell over onto my machine... some one got pooter and they got me up and took me to the office// my sister in law came and took me to the emergency room.. I was there for 4 hours./.. they did an EKG a chest x ray and blood work.. and they said that I have an abnormally slow heart beat... so I have to have it checked out next week by a cardiologist... :P what made me pass out was my blood pressure was too low/// so.. now there is something else for me to worry about... I dunno sometimes... other than that Im alive and thankful for it

Aphrodities And Devilish Dd Is Looking For You
CLICK PIC TO JOIN ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ Also the lounge is looking for help if your willing to help on positions in the lounge please join the lounge and reply to the help wanted section in the discussions. We Need The Fallowing so far 2 Bartenders 2 Greeters 2 female dancers 1 male dancer 3 promoters Enforcers 2 between midnight central time to 6am central time 1 from 6am till w/e ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ Also check out this other lounge of ours as well ( under construction) The Devils Playground Click the Pic to Join PLEASE JOIN NEED PEOPLE AND TY AS WELL JUST COPY AND PASTE THE CODE IN A NEW WINDOW Both are Proud members of The New and Improved Excalibur Radio (Old name was Daves Hideaway Radio)

Innocence
Innocence stolen without my permission Innocence gone without my submission Innocence lost through another's plan Innocence no longer for another man Innocence turned to hatred and fear Innocence gone, no man can come near Innocence taken from a little girls heart Innocence replaced by mistrust, you thought you were smart Innocence dissapears like dew in the sun Innocence faded before it's begun Innocence obscured like a cloud over the moon Innocence ripped away too soon

Voice Of Innocence
The eye of the sunflower Stares into the clear skies; Acres of bright, yellow effluence Mimic The voice of innocence. Red earth Weaves a dissolving silence Into the wilderness of the valley. The phantoms are exiled to meditation By the voice of innocence. In the chosen web, Stirs a fly, vanquished to submission. The pastures of winged worlds are closed And the prey trembles With the voice of innocence.

Gone
Dance with me to the last song Hold me tight like there is nothing wrong Kiss me an look in to my eyes Cause this time tomrrow we shall say goodbye For this place is much to cruel And in my heart and mind I never got over you Now time keeps going on and on And my heart wont let me move on So hold me close now and dont let let go For I am already gone you just dont know ......

Whispers
A labyrinth of whispers For a blissful love As I Long for the touch A sense I will feel as you Whisper to my heart Comforting my stoned soul For our love burns within me But I am lost in the shadows As this entity of dreams Forever killing me Our love is eternal So this flame will not relinquish As it is forever circling me keeping our hearts as one As I await for you to rescue me

Monday Links: Opie And Anthony Live, Frank Vincent, New Boobs On Ratemywow, Traveling Virus Tickets And Myspace
Happy Monday, ladies and gents... it's raining and sloppy in the New York area, but it might be just dandy in your town, so let's all strap on some galoshes and get ready for another LIVE (on terrestrial radio) Opie and Anthony Show. Our pal Frank Vincent from the Sopranos will be checking in to give us the dirt on those last few episodes...and maybe he'll give us some tips on how to be A Man's Man... you know, 'cause he's the expert and all. Want to see the Opie and Anthony Show LIVE as it happens? Turn on yer friggin' Paltalk, because you never know who is going to get something thrown at their heads or savagely hazed from minute-to-minute. Just go to the 'Opie and Anthony LIVE' room, and if you're lucky, you'll gaze upon a bevy of lovely ladies, mostly naked, getting dressed, sleeping, or just parading around in their rooms in front of their webcams. NEW BOOBS ON RATEMYWOW: Thanks to the generosity of our west coast pal Brandon Iron, who is promoting his new sites Load My Mouth

Heart Beat
I want to make your heart beat just for me I want to love you for eternity I’ve looked for so long for a love that is this strong Then you came my way and brighten each an everyday I want to make your heart beat just for me Cause you an I was meant to be I have loved before but felt so cheated You are the one I always needed….

Peace
Have you had cold showers of pain My friend, you've stood in my rain Deathly feeling of loneliness No need to feel shameless I've been there before Not wanting to feel any more Your heart has been broken in half Mind still living in the past Cold dark thoughts of suicide Why don't I do it tonight Don't worry it will go away Learn to love another day Put it in the back of mind Let it rest and you will find Dark clouds begin to part New love will mend the heart Thoughts of suicide disappear Self- esteem will reappear One day you'll be able to say My friend you've stood in my rain © Andi 2007

People Get Ready...
Jesus is coming Soon you'll be going home! That song has been in my head since lunch. Not sure why it got there to be honest. I like the song actually. The interesting part (at least to me anyway) is that I heard it last week while I was watching a Mets game on TV. They were playing it for the crowd, not sure why though. I just happened to hear it behind the announcers.

Whispering To Me
Gentle whispers in the wind What is the message that you send? Calling softly, "Come to me." What I ask, am I to see? What is there that I will find In the recess of my mind? Are there lessons you will teach About the walls that I must breach? To find what I have hidden there And if I find, must I beware? Fearing all that I have sought Hoping all won't be for naught Trying to dispel all doubts In the dreams that seek me out I seek the answers in the night Hoping... praying... for the light. © Andi 2007

Stormy Love
A man sits alone, depressed, as the rain pours. Pounding at the roof he cries, hating the forbidden. The little girl inside her cuts at porcine flesh, making it easy. As the blood drips on the wood floor, making a puddle, she thinks of him. He breaths on the window and scribbles her name in the fog, as she whispers into her pillow his. Thunder grows and lighting guilt’s, she tares at her hair and he punches the wall. Blood stained sheets and a tear dampen face connect them.

Sudden Attack
sudden attack stabbed & hacked but no pain no death zone of silence sudden powered mute strangeness & awareness most awkward to the mind alive w/love & laughter &memory sweet of kinder times when we spoke & words had soft form by a fire Jim Morrison

Deleting My Profile 2nite
I am deleting my profile from here 2nite...i am grateful that i got 2 meet all of yall on here...and i will miss yall bunches...but some things have happened..and i need 2 delete my profile...take care...Ivy

Would Be The Coolest Date?
What would be the coolest date? What would be the coolest thing to do on a date, instead of a boring movie and dinner? Me I would love to take that date on a carriage ride. Then a dinner in the park then a walk in the park. Or near by the ocean.

Cleanse And Condition Your Complexion - Recipes
Restore your radiance with these simple, easy, homemade recipes: CREAMY CREAM For smooth soft skin, wash your face very day with plain, organic yogurt or buttermilk. Use it as you would ordinary cold cream, avoiding the eye area. It's gentle enough for all skin types and as a bonus, it contains naturally occurring lactic acid. This acts as a mild exfoliant to remove dead-skin buildup. BANANA'S THE BEST For positively glowing skin, mash a third of a very, very ripe banana in a small bowl. Use the pulp to wash your face and throat, avoiding the eye area. If your skin is especially dry or dehydrated, leave this on for approximately 5 minutes. Rinse, then pat dry. ROSEY CHEEKS To pamper mature, thin, dry skin, mix 1 tablespoon of heavy cream with 1 or 2 drops of essential oil of rose or rose geranium. Use as you would a cleansing lotion, massaging well into your face and throat. This can be used on the eye area to remove eye makeup and mascara. This blend smells exquisite. A

Is It Just Me
So it could just be that I'm imagining things but does Montana have a unusually high rate of kidnappings? I only ask cause I've got the amber alert thing on my page and I swear 1 out of every 3 kids seem to be from Montana. Now I love Montana and have nothing against it as a state but whats with all the kidnapping? It puzzles me. I'm to lazy to actually look it up but if any one knows the kidnapping stats for montana in relation to the rest of the country I'd be curious to know if its all in my head

Mandy Jo Is Outta Fucking Jail!
OMG!! Its been so long since she went into jail.. I think... Seven or eight months now.. She is finally out!!!!! And comming back to fucking ARIZONA!!!!!!! HELL FUCKING YEAH!!!!! =) Thanks for all your prayers!!!

Loss
I can't sleep because you're not awake. I can't eat missing you this way. But you are better off where you are. Deep down in the dirt, where no one can see your scars. No one can see the pain on your face. They won't point at the suffering that you toted at your waist. I'm glad you're not here, but so upset that you are gone. You so often spoke of going home...I hope that you make it home. Save a place for me in the peaceful dark. Light a little candle to lead me to where you are. Over my head and under the influence. I miss your lips. I miss your fingertips. I miss the way your hair fell in your face. But you are gone and there is nothing that I can do to change that fact. I'd give anything to have you back. Kill anyone to get you back.But you are better off where you are. Deep down in the dirt, where no one can see your scars.

Sometime I Just Want To Ugg
today is just a really sh*tty day i want to pull my hair out and scream. my mother in law makes absoultly no sense what so ever. yesturday she was complaining about not having enough money to pay bill my husband gets a job somewhere that is to far to ride the bike to and she complains that he shouldn't have drove the car like he knew it was going to break down or something. I can't wait to move out i hope it's soon. i'm about to go crazy nothing anybody does is ever good enough. we should always know whats going to happen before it happens and keep it from happening. she said she would watch the kids while me and my husband works and i would pay her 400 dollars a month but now she's saying that she needs to find a job. I'm probably going to be late for work today and i don't know what to do but scream intill i can't scream no more. she don't understand that everyone has problems and hers aren't worse than everyone else at least not in there eyes she need to just keep it to herself. if

Tuesday 6 /5/07
I'm sitting here kinda bored because there is no one online that I feel like talking to at the moment and I'm just doing the usual routine which is getting dull as well. I'm waiting to see if a friend of mine is getting skype, because he has been bugging me on msn trying to send me voice clips although I keep telling him that I can't hear him very well and that skype has better audio quality, so I guess we'll see if he gets it or not. Other than that, it's been pretty much just an average day for me. I guess I'll go ahead and end this here and hopefully I'll have something more exciting to report tomorrow lol, although I seriously doubt it. Have a great night all.

Tuesday
Hey there my naughty cherry friends. Whats Up? I am doing good I am getting alot done this week. Lots of clips and more clips. have a good one whats left of it. hugs..Lorie http://www.southern-charms4.com/lorie for adults only!!! Sexy & Romantic glitter graphics from Sexi Luv.com Sexy & Romantic glitter graphics from Sexi Luv.com

Karaoke
> At first I was afraid, I was petrified. > When you said you had 10 inches, Lord I almost died! > But I'd spent so many years just waiting for a man that > long, > That I grew strong, > And I knew that I could take you on... > > But there you are, another lie, > I was ready for a Big Mac and you've brought me a French > Fry! > I should have known that it was bullshit, just a sad > pathetic dream, > Should have known there was no Anaconda lurking in those > jeans! > > Go on now - go, walk out the door, > Don't you promise me 10 inches, then turn up with only > 4! > Weren't you a brat to think I wouldn't find you out!? > Don't you know we're only joking when we say size don't > count??!! > > > [Chorus] > I will survive! I will survive! > Cuz as long as I have batteries, > My sex life's gonna thrive! > I will always have good sex, > with a handful of latex! > I will survive! I will survive! ..Hey! Hey! > > > It took all my self control not to laugh out lou

Treasures
I wrote the original version of this in June of 2006. I have since revised it and altered it. I hope you take the time to read it and gather from it the meaning I was trying to make. Sitting here, I ponder just what it is that makes the world go around these days. I keep wondering if perhaps it's the laughter of children at the simple and amusing pleasures in life. Or perhaps it's the look of love one gets from the significant other in their life from across the room. Whatever it is that makes the world go around for you, I think we all tend to take those things for granted. We go through life, day after day, without really taking the time to stop and watch the world go by. We never take the time to relax and enjoy life for what it is, a gift given to us from whom ever the higher power we believe in is. For some it's God. For others its Allah, Jehovah, Jesus, Thor, Mother Earth, Isis, Goddess, Buddha, etc etc. We never take the time to appreciate it though, never take the

Love
I Love you!!!!!!!!!!!! ¢¾ ¢¾¢¾ ¢¾ ¢¾¢¾ ¢¾ ¢¾¢¾ ¢¾ ¢¾¢¾ ¢¾ ¢¾¢¾ ¢¾ ¢¾¢¾ See How many People on your buddy list Love you back. If i don't get this back Then i guess you don't love me

I Wonder
Sitting alone in a darkened room My mind the only company. I wonder, Should I end this joke I call my life? Would anyone care? Would I be missed? Remembered as a friend, That crazy girl you used to know, A convenient piece of ass Or just the one who helped pay the bills? Do any of you even give a damn? You say you'd care if I was gone. Because I'm your friend? Or is it because you feel sorry for me? Because you don't want to be the reason I finally pick up that knife and guide it down my arm. You say you still want me here. Your actions say something else. You'll read these words someday. But will you really understand? Will you truly comprehend that after all The shit life has thrown at me, it was you. My friends, my family, my love That truly broke me.

Infantryman
Unknown Author He stands on the battlefield, his boots glazed with mud, His hand rough and callused, his suit stained with blood. His hair soaked with sweat, his eyes glazed with fear, He cannot cry out, nor can he shed a tear. A shell hits the ground to the soldiers' dismay, And blasts rocks, dirt and bodies all out of its way. The infantryman ducks and holds onto his gun, For he knows if he does not, the enemy has won. When the rain stops and sounds of fighting have died, The infantryman checks on what's going outside. He stays only a while, and counts most of the dead, Then ducks back knowing it could cost him his head. And when nightfall comes, 'tis not the end of tirades, They come into trenches and start dropping grenades. The infantryman tries to sleep and then dreams, But only to wake to his own comrades' screams. He lives day to day, knowing it could be his last, For his ancestors died in similar battles past. His cause might be country, for his chi

Love Is A Battlefield
We are young, heartache to heartache we stand No promises, no demands Love is a battlefield We are strong, no one can tell us were wrong Searchin our hearts for so long, both of us knowing Love is a battlefield Youre beggin me to go, youre makin me stay Why do you hurt me so bad? It would help me to know Do I stand in your way, or am I the best thing youve had? Believe me, believe me, I cant tell you why But Im trapped by your love, and Im chained to your side We are young, heartache to heartache we stand No promises, no demands Love is a battlefield We are strong, no one can tell us were wrong Searchin our hearts for so long, both of us knowing Love is a battlefield Were losing control Will you turn me away or touch me deep inside? And before this gets old, will it still feel the same? Theres no way this will die But if we get much closer, I could lose control And if your heart surrenders, youll need me to hold We are young, heartache to heartache we

Cant Fight The Moonlight
Under a lovers' sky gonna be with you and no one's gonna be around if you think that you won't fall well just wait until til the sun goes down underneath the starlight - starlight there's a magical feeling - so right it'll steal your heart tonight you can try to resist try to hide from my kiss but you know but you know that you can't fight the moonlight Deep in the dark you'll surrender your heart but you know but you know that you can't fight the moonlight no, you can't fight it it's gonna get to your heart there's no escape from love was a gentle breeze weaves it's spell upon your heart no matter what you think it won't be too long til your in my arms underneath the starlight - starlight we'll be lost in the rhythm - so right feel it steal your heart tonight you can try to resist try to hide from my kiss but you know but you know that you can't fight the moonlight Deep in the dark you'll surrender your heart but you know but you know that yo

Never An Escape
I am sitting here thinking of a lot of things that are running through my mind right now. The biggest one is missin my dad…. It's getting to me again and it's really hard for me to deal with sometimes. It's hard to believe that after almost nine years the hurt is still this strong. Is it because I can't seem to let it go or what? I don't really know. I know that it's hard for me to see others with their parents, parents who are there, healthy and able to witness their life's events. I just don't know what to do any more with this grief. A part of me feels like if I let it go then I'm letting him go and I don't want to do that. He's my dad and I already forget so many things about him. There are other things on my mind too…. I've been thinking too much again lately. About the past… about the future…. About today…. I think too much and then I become a raging bitch to everyone around me and that isn't fair to them. But what can I do? I just don't know. Sometimes I can'

Trying So Hard To Be Awake…
I have to get up at 5:45 in the morning now, to have little one ready for daycare by 6:30. She only goes one day a week, but it’s good to have her on a regular schedule. My only problem with this is that I go non-stop until she is in bed, and then I still need my wind down time. My wind down time includes touching base with Bran… and sometimes it’s really hard to let go of that. So… last night I was up, chatting with him… until I only had five hours left to sleep. I tore myself from the grip of his gorgeous and reassuring voice… only to be stricken with insomnia. I did sleep though, and I did REM. But… as some of you know, my ability to self-regulate my emotions is directly tied to how much sleep I get. No big surprise there. The relationship between insomnia and anxiety/depression is well documented. We all also know just how much stress I’m dealing with right now, not to mention the crushing self-esteem issues. Add no sleep to that, and I’m a fucking basket c

Real Women
LADIES - Cure for headaches: Take a lime, cut it in half and rub it on your forehead. The throbbing will go away. REAL WOMEN - Take a lime, mix it with tequila, chill and drink. You might still have the headache, but who cares! LADIES - Stuff a miniature marshmallow at the bottom of a sugar cone to prevent ice cream drips. REAL WOMEN - Just suck the ice cream out of the bottom of the cone, for Pete's sake. You're probably sitting on your ass on the couch, with your feet up anyway. And finally the most important tip.... LADIES! - Don't throw out all that leftover wine. Freeze into ice cubes for future use in casseroles and sauces. REAL WOMEN - HUH!!!!!!!Leftover wine?? REAL WOMEN R HARD 2 FIND, N IMPOSSIBLE 2 FORGET

Going Nutzzzz
with everything going on, i do not know which way is up. If it wasn't for certain people, i would have lost my mind. Funny thing is, she knows who she is..... lol love you babe..... Between doctor's appt. and people coming over, and family driving me batty, i would be a basket case, if it wasn't for her.... hugs to you hunny, ty so much.

The "x" Mart Greeter
You ever wonder if the world you live in is just a sugar coating on top of the way things really should be? Why do people wave at you when you drive by? Why can't I walk into a store without everyone wanting to greet me? Why do they give me a dirty looks when I don't respond to their greetings? Sometimes I just want to stop and say, "I don't know you! I just want to buy toothpaste and get back to my house!" It is not up to the conglomerates to decide how we should act. I will not be looked down upon for not saying "Hi" to the "X" mart greeter. In lots of ways, we as citizens have been duped by the media and conglomerate groups. It is not normal to go out of your way to smile and make eye contact with someone you don't know. Look at the animal kingdom (we're part of that, don't forget). If a lion was to look another lion in the eye and smile a big toothy grin, there would be some fighting going on. It is not natural for us to do these things. Don't get me wrong, modern culture all

Pet Peeve #219
If you're going to send me a message of any sort, please keep the following in mind: it's not "YOUR pretty", it's "YOU'RE pretty" it's not "THERE not here" it's "THEY'RE not here" Now obviously, this is not a complete listing of all the errors...but I think you get the general idea. I think they teach this shit in elemetary school.

My Ct Marriage To Lord Nightwing
Hey everyone just letting you all know that this Thursday my fiance and I will be getting hitched in lounge Tourture Chamber...all are welcome to listen in!!! He is the greatest and just wanted all to know! Love Bella

Led Zeppelin "dazed And Confused"
Been Dazed and Confused for so long it's not true. Wanted a woman, never bargained for you. Lots of people talk and few of them know, soul of a woman was created below. You hurt and abuse tellin' all of your lies. Run around sweet baby, Lord how they hypnotize. Sweet little baby, I don't know where you've been. Gonna love you baby, here I come again. Every day I work so hard, bringin' home my hard earned pay Try to love you baby, but you push me away. Don't know where you're goin', only know just where you've been, Sweet little baby, I want you again. Been dazed and confused for so long, it's not true. Wanted a woman, never bargained for you. Take it easy baby, let them say what they will. Will your tongue wag so much when I send you the bill?

Friendship, Or Not
Don’t want me to get hurt, don’t like to fall into dirt, over and over again, every time it is me they slain. Why can’t this pain just stop, why do I screw everything up, didn’t take care of her at the begin, but now it’s to late I committed a sin. I forgot that I was number one, she didn’t had any boyfriends at that time and now its gone, right now I’m aiming for her to be a friend, maybe we will near the end. I am not making any move, she shall be the one to help this friendship improve, I tried enough for now, I just hope she tries somehow. Damn I still care, today I saw her rare, but when I saw her, you could see the pain I had to endure. Friends say she is finding it difficult too, but when I see her I can’t believe that is true, I believe my friends no doubt, so I’ll believe without an cry or shout. I just hope she contacts me soon, I wish I was in paradise near a lagoon, hope she and I can be friends, and if not t

Another Loss....rip Debbie Ardito
I just found out that another close family friend passed away today. I haven't seen her in years being that she moved to Florida a long time ago. She loved all of us kids sooooo much! She was there from the day I was born and I was close to her kids growing up. I will miss you Debbie!!!! Wish I would have had the chance to say goodbye...I'll love you always!!! RIP... Debbie Ardito

Motorcycle Riders
Just to let you know we care. For all who Know Motorcycle Riders I saw you, hug your purse closer to you in the grocery store line. But, you didn't see me, put an extra $10.00 in the collection plate last Sunday. : I saw you, pull your child closer when we passed each other on the sidewalk. But, you didn't see me, playing Santa at the local mall. I saw you, change your mind about going into the restaurant. But, you didn't see me, attending a meeting to raise more money for the hurricane relief. : I saw you, roll up your window and shake your head when I drove by. But, you didn't see me, driving behind you when you flicked your cigarette butt out the car window. I saw you, frown at me when I smiled at your children. But, you didn't see me, when I took time off from work to run toys to the homeless. : I saw you, stare at my long hair. But, you didn't see me, and my friends cut ten inches off for Locks of Love. I saw you, roll your eyes at our l

Gibberish
Her heart races as she pulls the cloak tighter around her. "I will take his place, I will take his pain," she announces as she hopes this will work. A commotion ripples through the crowd in confusment. A stern, cold voice echos out, "Your pain is not worth his, woman!" "Really," she snickers as she removes her hood, "Are you sure?" Gasps and sighs break out as her identity is revealled. "I will take every blow and every detail of torture as long as he will have none." "This is not what is done, begone from here. Your kind does not belong." The crowd begins to stir. Her reply is merely "What don't believe that you have the strength to hurt me?" Knowing this would surely get them going but also that this would make it worse. "Fine! Let's begin," As several hooded figures move closer as the glints of metal reflect off the moon light. As they begin she turns to him and begs "Darling, leave. You don't want to watch this." He just shakes his head.

Welcome To The Internet I Didnt Write It But I Think Its Funny
Welcome To The Internet No one here likes you. We're going to offend, insult, abuse, and belittle the living hell out of you. And when you rail against us with "FUCK YOU YOU GEEK WIMP SKATER GOTH LOSER PUNK FAG BITCH!1!!", we smile to ourselves. We laugh at you because you don't get it. Then we turn up the heat, hoping to draw more entertainment from your irrational fuming. We will judge you, and we will find you unworthy. It is a trial by fire, and we won't even think about turning down the flames until you finally understand. Some of you are smart enough to realize that, when you go online, it's like entering a foreign country ... and you know better than to ignorantly fuck with the locals. You take the time to listen and think before speaking. You learn, and by learning are gladly welcomed. For some of you, it takes a while, then one day it all dawns on you - you get it, and are welcomed into the fold. Some of you give up, and we breathe a sigh of relief - we didn'

More Randomness
How tall are you barefoot? 5' 2 3/4" lol Do you own a gun? no i don't Rehab? no thanks Do you get nervous before “meeting the parents”? no not at all What do you think of your friends? love 'em What do you prefer to drink in the morning? water Do you do push-ups? sometimes Are you vegitarian? somewhat What is your secret weapon to lure in the opposite sex? thats for me to know ;) Do you own a knife? no Do you have A.D.D.? not that im aware of... Date Of Birth? 05/07/87 Name the last exact thing you bought? pop What time did you wake up today? 11:30 Current worry? lots Current hate? nothing in general Favorite place to be? anywhere in colorado Where would you like to go? Longmont Do you own slippers? somewhere What do you think you’ll be in 10 yrs? hopefully happily married with a couple of wee ones...in COlorado Do you burn or tan? tan Last thing you ate? toast Woul

How To Start Each Day With A Positive Outlook
HOW TO START EACH DAY WITH A POSITIVE OUTLOOK 1. Open a new file in your computer. 2. Name it "Hillary Rodham Clinton" 3. Send it to the trash bin. 4. Empty the trash. 5. Your PC will ask you, "Do you really want to get rid of "Hillary Rodham Clinton?" 6. Firmly Click "Yes." 7. Feel better. PS: Next week we'll do

The Passage Lead To Answer~ ( My Daughter Wrote This )
The Passage Lead To Answer~ I love you for you, the mist of your words is meaningful. You treasure a soul for your love and faith. Time passes everyday your not in my mind. You create such deep passion for the one you love and cherish. For what has been created in such month's, will love last between us? Does our hearts have the strength for a life time? If so what to believe in such time spent. Losing one an another will cause fate of a lost. Does life know what to give us? Do we know what will come ahead? The heart will only tell and the days that pass By Amber Kestner

Ex Lovers
Ex Lovers You think you still love the ex but they still try to come back for you. You tell them back off they don't. You hide from them oh what do you do? They think you love them, you look at them an say "Are you out of your freaking mind!" You go to a new lover they still come back no matter what you do. You try to be friends with them but they keep telling you "I Still Love You" and "I Miss You" or "Please Come Back,I'll Treat You Better" Same words that you don't like to hear every time you try to be nice. Ex's don't need to be pleading to you for there love back once you or them left don't crawl back, mistake by tons cause it'll just happen again and again. They may love you like they say they do but foolish enough not, if they have cheated or used there not worth taking back or whatever you did to leave them for that reason. Ex's aren't worth time or day if you can avoid it no matter what. Find a new love that is worth the life than the ex cause it's alot better. by

**huge Party Saturday Night!** Prizes!! Music!!! Friends!!!!
8:00PM EST Click banner to enter lounge Turn-It Up Trivia Rules The game starts at 8:00pm EST and ends at 10:00pm EST Players will pick a number between 1 & 50 Your number will correspond with a Rock trivia question The DJ will read the question, if you get the correct answer to your question, you're a winner! 1 prize will be given away every 15 minutes. 1 prize per winner. Players must be present in lounge to win. 10:00PM EST Click banner to enter lounge Evil Escapades Rules The game starts at 10:00pm EST and ends at 2:00am EST Each player will pick a number between 1 & 50 The number they choose will correspond with a song title Pay Attention! Because when your song plays, you're a winner! 1 prize will be given out every 1/2 hour. 1 prize per winner. Players must be present in lounge to win. 2:00AM EST Click banner to enter lounge After-Midnight Madness This game will start at the intermisson of the Bewitching Hour and will e

The Bull Stops Here !
Now I've been unmasked and my secret identity is no longer secret ! Yep ! There's new pictures of me posted now ! (as of 6-08-07) I'm no drop dead gorgeous dude , so I'll just have to do ! LMFAO !!! LATER !

Some More Gibberish
Pulling the cloak tighter Doesn't even make a dent In the chill that has sunk into her bones As she walks through the fiending crowd He is bound by wrist and ankle She can see the fear in his eyes His eyes fall in protest To her claim to take his pain He knows she won't change her mind She knows as a demigoddess, she shouldn't do this But she would do anything for love Laying there upon the wooden cross He is all she sees The steady pounding echos in her ears The cool metal of the spike seems to burn As it slices through flesh and bone She felt like the earth was trying to draw her in as they raise the cross His eyes filled with horror as the piles of wood grew Shear disbelief ripped through him Like the igniting flames at her feet Tears crept forth refusin to give in Amazing, the Gods listened to his pleas The sky broke forth with rain and lightening The earth sudders under foot

Everyday Struggles
I have a hard enough time trying to be positive when things are going right. And an even harder time being happy with how I look. This extra weight is killing me and I know I do look different though most tell me I look fine. I don't get drinks bought for me at the bar anymore or compliments anymore. It isn't the same on the net cause well it is the net. It is hard to love when you feel like no one loves you and no one believes in you. Plus when nothing ever goes right and people keep telling you that you can't do anything right it is hard to believe you can. When you have been put down your entire life by everyone that was suppose to care about you it is hard to believe that you deserve anything that is good.

Please Help
Hubby is in his first contest, and losing his ass well in second---please give him a chance.. Bomb for a little bit with us---oh and rate too http://www.cherrytap.com/viewimage.php?u=877010&albumid=382701&i=3958529643

Viral Humanicide Your Comments Inspired Me
Possibly one of the funniest things about stupid people is, invariably they think they are brilliant. For instance, the worthless piece of shit who comes along and leaves the stupidest fucking comments on your page. I would never remove them, I prefer people see the stupidity. For humor sake if nothing else. I wish someone could at least come up with something good for a change.

Popping My Blog Cherry, With A Blog About Cherries...on Cherrytap...
Ok, if I could be any kind of fruit....I would have to say Cherry. It's somewhat innocent, but secretly dirty. I am often seen wandering around in a pair, but I am just as enjoyable by myself. I can be a tart but I can just as easily be as homely as pie. -Me!

Yes... I Am Pathetic
I MISS being wanted... I miss phone calls... I miss Im's of love... I miss being cared for... I miss being hugged... I miss being adored... I miss being fawned over... I miss being someone's guilty pleasure... I miss all of it...

Don't
Dont Don’t smile at me, If you don’t want. Don’t hold my hand, If you plan on breaking my heart. Don’t make me frown, If you don’t plan on fixing it. Don’t make me laugh, If you’re going to make me do a nose dive. Don’t say you wont, If secretly you know you will. Don’t play with my emotions, If that was your intentions to begin with. Please just don’t.

Brick By Brick (another To My Mom)
Brick by Brick Here we go again, Adding the bricks back up. Cutting all sources of contact. All over a stupid blog, Dated November 1st, 2005. I finally figured it out, I cant be the one taking, The wall down, If all you'll do is add it up twice as fast. So brick by brick, We'll block out the years. And continue to hide from our fears.

Vanish (poem)
Vanish Current mood: discontent I want to dissapate, I want to dissapear, I want to vanish, To a different place, Far away from here, Away from people, Away from money, Away from problems, I wish there was a cure, For inanimate pain, The problems in my head, The problems in my heart, The problems in my life, Everyone thinks they can relate, Im just being a bitch, They dont know, They dont understand, They dont feel, What I feel everyday, My life is my problem, No one elses to hear, No one elses to solve, No one elses to live, I want to go somewhere else, Somewhere I belong, A comforting place, A lucid place, A problem free place, If anyone knows where that is, Please let me know.

I Get To Keep My House
Yeah! I get to keep the house! I can only give her half of what I owe but she is going to work with us on the rest. Thank god! I was so worried and stuff. I feel so much better right now. I feel like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders and the world is a better place. Plus the excitent is building from Ernie may be getting a much better job. They said he is like number one for the job so cross your fingers and pray for me that he gets it, plus the kids birthdays are coming soon, so I am excited about all of that. You have no idea how much better I feel. Thank god!!!!

What Is Love ?
What is love anyways? To me it's just a pointless game. It has no true meaning. It's full of lies. It's something that's pleasing. But how is it pleasing when you just want to cry? I wish I could believe in love at first sight. But I know I couldn't handle all the fights. But I want someone to hold me through the night. Love isn't true, not to me atlest. I want to believe. I want to be free! But if love isn't real, and love is just lies, how can I be myself all the time. I need a coax. To believe it's not a hoax. Then maybe I can give love a try.

Soul To Soul
Though were far apart, I feel like your here, Lying next to me, Were connected soul to soul. The distance between us, Doesn't seem that much, When I'm asleep, I can feel your touch. There are hundreds of miles, Between your heart and mine, But in the dark, Our souls are attached all the time. Whether far apart, Or close together, I belong to you and you belong to me, As our souls connect forever will be. Written by Me...Little Lee

What Do Your Eyes Reveal About You?
You scored as Eyes full of Pain, People tend to overlook you, which makes you feel less worthy of their attentions. You sometimes wish you could just disapear from the world around you. You have been hurt very badly in the past and you just wish that someone would understand you, and what their cruelty is doing to you.Eyes full of Pain100% Mysterious67% Passion8% Diamond Eyes0% What do your eyes reveal about you?(PICS!)created with QuizFarm.com

Eisbrecher-vergissmeinnicht (live)
Dein Herz schlägt am Abgrund die Nacht verhüllt dein letztes Wort So grausam.......So achtlos... reisst dich das Schicksal von mir fort Ich lass dich los muss mich befrein denn meine Sehnsucht holt mich ein Auf ewig dein.... Verzeih mir ...bleib bei mir und ich sagte noch vergissmeinnicht... Ich schenk dir zum Abschied ein letztes Licht Vergissmeinnicht Vergissmeinnicht Vergissmeinnicht Vergissmeinnicht Vergissmeinnicht Dein blick sinkt ins nachtrot ich reiss mich los mit letzter Kraft So grausam .... So heilig liegst du vor mir es ist vollbracht ich lass dich los muss mich befrein denn meine Sehnsucht holt mich ein [Vergissmeinnicht lyrics on http://www.metrolyrics.com] Auf ewig dein... Verzeih mir ...bleib bei mir und ich sagte noch vergissmeinnicht Ich schenk dir zum Abschied ein letztes Licht vergissmeinnicht Vergissmeinnicht Vergissmeinnicht Vergissmeinnicht Bleib bei mir! Vergissmeinnicht Diesmal wird es für immer sein auch dies

I Am
I am yours totally With a whisper My soul turns to fire With a light touch of fingertips Utterly, I belong to you To have an To take In a way like no other With a smile an a glance I am trapped I am captivated By the very essences of your being I long to belong to you To have you take me with Your power Has me pinned up with pure desire Your will Is all that matters for you are my master....

Boot Worship (bdsm)
Boot worship is a term for the practice of extreme adulation of boots in BDSM. It is related to foot worship in a derivative way, in that the adulation may really be attributable to the proximity of the boots to their owner. If the foot is usually considered one of the "lowest" and least appreciated parts of the body, the "sub"'s reverence for the footwear that encloses her or his dom's foot is a concrete admission of inferiority. Thus boot worship may include sniffing or inhaling from worn boots, as well as licking, kissing or cleaning their exteriors. It may also consist, more passively, of the woman or man lying prone and being "trampled" by her or his dom. Heeled boots may lend themselves to sucking, in an approximation of fellatio. See also: foot fetishism, shoe fetishism, mysophilia

My Muscles Hurt
today was really nice. had a wonderful outing and went to breakfast with sissy and lil sis. (mmm mimosas) after which we did a little window shopping. you know stores that you don't usually go in with kids and such. this afternoon they both came to my place with the kids and we all went swimming. those kids have some energy, after some major eating of the bbq'd hotdogs, they all played a little more while we (grownups) watched a movie on tv. my kids are now watching grease which then reminded me I liked the broadway version much better so I downloaded the album, since I lost my copy ever so long ago. soon as the movie is over I will send them off to bed, and I am sure hubby will play his new video game he bought today and relax with that. I am thinking I will eat some watermelon..because it sounds good

I Love My New Toy.
Get your head out of the gutter! Hubby bought me a Nikon D80 SLR Digital Camera! That's right, this crazy woman just got herself an AWESOME camera and I am damn happy about it too! Yeah just thought I'd share.

The Choice...but The Hesitation
Virginia.. my home and where all my friends and my family are.it feels dreary....and somewhat dead sometimes here...but no matter.... I've decided to finish my GED as soon as possible and get the diploma then find another job to aide in being able to pay for a colledge to go to ya know?.....but I wish to either disappear or just...leave....and do something with my life....HARDEE'S ( and fastfood in general) ain't a way to go in the working world...atleast that's how I feel. I want to start a family but ...I will work to prepare myself for such an occurance ... but I love him...and he loves me...so it's worth it right?

Time Is Short.....
Well, the plans are finalized and ticket is purchased. I will hopping on a plane and headed for Tennessee for at least the summer, possibly longer. No longer will I be a California girl!! I am a transplant anyway. When and if I return the this state, I will be talking with a slightly different accent. Something about that southern twang seeps into my voice very easily. It will be a huge change for me, but it one that I am looking forward to. I will be spending time with my mom and that pleases me a great deal. Here's to a different kind of life.....

Paradise With You
I’m walking somewhere I don’t know where exactly But I know it’s somewhere on this planet. I see flowers, trees and happy creatures The sun is shining and there’s a rainbow in the sky But it isn’t raining, not even a single drop But even that single drop Would make a difference in our lives Just imagine… Around me only the birds are singing, The wind whistles in my ears And you, you kiss me from nowhere. I walk along with you next to me Hand in hand we walk there With a smile which will never go away Just you and me And I just know where we are right now We are in paradise

I Screwed Up The Other Day....
i was a bit upset and working.... well being a bartender i can drink as well. a friend of mine came in and proceded to buy me shots the rest of my shift and offered me some valume to brighten my day... got done work and hoped in his car.. poped the valume and started to feel a LOT better... then he started rubbin my thigh and we began to get touchey with each other. things escelated from there and i seriously fucked up. i betrayed my Master's trust and this blog is only part of my punishment. i know it should have been worse. i have to pay for betraying him.. He has forgiven me tho... pending i do all that he required for punishment. little one is sorry Master. she knows she fucked up big time. all she wants is Your forgiveness. zero

Why God Made Moms --
BRILLIANT Answers given by 2nd grade school children to the following questions!! Q: Why did God make mothers? 1. She's the only one who knows where the scotch tape is. 2. Mostly to clean the house. 3. To help us out of there when we were getting born. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Q: How did God make mothers? 1. He used dirt, just like for the rest of us. 2. Magic- plus super powers and a lot of stirring. 3.God made my Mom just the same like he made me. He just used bigger parts. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Q: What ingredients are mothers made of? 1. God makes mothers out of clouds and angel hair and everything nice in the world and one dab of mean. 2. They had to get their start from men's bones. Then they mostly use string, I think. ---------------------------------------------------------------------

The Return Of Forte!
finally!!!!! my car is home. she does look fabulous with her shiny new parts and fabulous paint job. (something about wet sanded?) anyway, I am just thrilled my baby is home safe and sound. Oh happy day, I rejoice! and they replaced both headlights on my insurance to match! woohoo! and the day just gets better. the kids are going to their grandpas for the night! YAY! I am kinda hoping he picks them up before hubby has to leave for work ;) However, I will settle for whenever, no complaints on it. I do need to clean out my car however, as shiny as she is on the outside....inside she is still a mess (how metaphoric, moving on!) She needs a good detailing, thats all..lol I should clean my house a little too, it was pretty clean yesterday before I had 5 kids and a baby here, not that I am complaining, it was a nice time, just a fact that kids cause messes (mine included) and things need to be cleaned. laundry and such, all the pool towels need to be washed. *******personal update

A Poem I Like
When Is A Man A Mason? When he can look out over the rivers, the hills, and the far horizon with a profound sense of his own littleness in the vast scheme of things, and yet have faith, hope, and courage which is the root of every virtue. When he knows that down in his heart every man is as noble, as vile, as divine, as diabolic, and as lonely as himself, and seeks to know, to forgive, and to love his fellow man. When he knows how to sympathize with men in their sorrows, yea, even in their sins knowing that each man fights a hard fight against many odds. When he has learned how to make friends and to keep them, and above all how to keep friends with himself. When he loves flowers, can hunt birds without a gun, and feels the thrill of an old forgotten joy when he hears the laugh of a little child. When he can be happy and high-minded amid the meaner drudgeries of life. When star-crowned trees and the glint of sunlight on flowing waters, subdue him like the thou

To All My Friends!
To all my friends over the last month and a half I have made some very nice friends.This will be my last blog on ct as I am deleting my ct account. It has been great meeting you all I will miss you all but by the end of the week I will be gone. Many of you I talk to on a regular basis it is those of you I will miss most. I will leave final comments and write some of you letter but please know none of you will evbe forgotten! all my love always shelby mayyou all be happy for many years to come.

From A Distance
If You were not so very distant then I would love you in an instant, but you remain so far away, and I believe you are there to stay. From a distance I can see your smiles, but I can't hold you across the miles. From a distance you speak your love, but stay as far as stars above. I send my love from a heart that's pure and hope the distance will not endure. From a distance I hear from you that in your heart you're hoping too. If distance makes the heart grow fonder, why do those distant lovers wander in search of one that they can hold, and let their distant love grow cold? From a distance I'm wishing for you. My heart wishes that you were wishing too. From a distance you read the line that tells you I am doing "fine". If the distance were taken away, My heart wonders what you would say. From a distance, to me it seems I'll only hold you in my dreams

Penis Snatching
ACCRA, Ghana. (Reuters) - Ghanan newspapers report that angry mobs have lynched or beaten to death at least 12 self-proclaimed sorcerers over alleged Penis Snatching. The deaths stem from a scheme where the sorcerers touch men, then tell the victims their penises will shrink or disappear unless they pay for an antidote. Many victims seem to have little tolerance for this and take revenge on the spot. The Inspector General of Police has ordered increased police patrols and vows to call in the army to maintain order if the crisis doesn't abate soon. In addition, medical experts are trying to calm the panic by going on television to explain in detail why penises increase and decrease in size, but so far such assurances have been of little help.

Goodbye
I knew this day would come Dreaded it still Never thought it would be so quick I barely just got you back I know this is what you need You must not worry about me For I can't ask you to stay Knowing that this will be the last time I will be gone when you return Always figured it would be a women or mountain To take you away I should have known better though I try not to cry but can't think of a reason not to My best friend The greatest man I ever knew Fare thee well I wish you luck and happiness I know you will find what you are looking for Don't worry you don't have to lie to me I know you won't be back for me I love you I will miss you more than you shall ever know Goodbye

What Is Left?
What is left When nothing matters anymore What is left When you only hurt the ones you love What is left When no one loves you What is left When the world is dark and cold What is left When the numbness sets in What is left When there is no one to give you hope What is left

Cows With Guns!!!
[Am]Fat and docile, big and dumb They look so stupid, they aren't much fun [G]Cows aren't [Am]fun They eat to grow, grow to die Die to be et at the hamburger fry Cows well done Nobody thunk it, nobody knew No one imagined the great cow guru Cows are one He hid in the forest, read books with great zeal He loved Che Guevera, a revolutionary veal Cow Tse Tongue He spoke about justice, but nobody stirred He felt like an outcast, alone in the herd Cow doldrums He mooed we must fight, escape or we'll die Cows gathered around, cause the steaks were so high Bad cow pun But then he was captured, stuffed into a crate Loaded onto a truck, where he rode to his fate Cows are bummed He was a scrawny calf, who looked rather woozy No one suspected he was packing an Uzi Cows with guns They came with a needle to stick in his thigh He kicked for the groin, he pissed in their eye Cow well hung Knocked over a tractor and ran for the door Six gallons of gas fl

Power Of The Spoken Word
We all wish we could do something over in our lives. Maybe it was a mistake we could of avoided or a decision we could of thought about a little more. Sometimes we even beat ourselves up over the choice we made – for days, weeks, years and sometimes even a lifetime. They, who ever “they” are, say we are our own harshest critics. This is true for me. I still remember everything about “The Day” and the events that followed – its hard not to because they changed my life and my family’s’ lives forever. Growing up Dad and I were always pretty close. I can confidently say that through childhood he was my best friend and my hero. He struggled to provide for his family and when he got sick, it was hard for him to accept the fact he had limitations to what he could do. At a young age I learned what mortality was all about. The knowledge of it came to me in the form of Dad having a heart attack and an emergency quadruple bypass. At eight years old, I stood at the door of ICU and s

I Don't Understand
Is it ever wrong to feel? Is what one feels inside able to be judged by another? When someone says what they feel should anyone have the right to complain about it? It is how someone feels so it can't be wrong. It might hurt but it is someones feelings. We don't choose how we feel.

Hope
If you want to give me hope Take me by the hand and show me something to hope for Take me in your arms and tell me it will be alright Wipe away my tears And give me a reason to care Make me smile, make laugh Show me there is something in this world for me Show me there is something good left Prove to me I am not alone for talk is cheap

7 Years, 14 Seasons, 150+ Games.......
The Knights can finally be called Champions. Goddamn right. It was a hell of a day Sunday. We upset the Number 1 team In the division at 11:00 and at 1:00 we played till 3:30 in a triple Overtime game, finally ousting the #2 team and taking home the Championship. I may walk around with a title belt and call myself a champ, but I really am one now. This is something some of us have been working at for 7 years, and goddamn if it didn't fucking feel amazing. I am tired and sore, bruised and beaten and would do it all over again. Congrats Knights, WE ARE THE FUCKIN CHAMPS BABY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

If I Lay You Down...(hott As Hell, Whew)
If I Lay You Down... If I lay you down what would you do Would you let me rub you Up and down your body The way that I used to Would you let me play with your ass and tits Oh yeah and that sweet pussy too If I lay you down what would you do Would you let me suck on your nipples Till they got hard and long too Would you let me lick your pussy Till you get wet and start to cum too If I lay you down what would you do Would you let me lick your cum Till your body shook from the sheer emotion That I put it through Would you hold back to stop the pleasure Or would you open up and relax As I ate your sweet endeavor Oh, if I lay you down what would you do If I bent your knees and opened you up Licking you from the front to back too Licking your ass as you squirmed with passion Wondering in your mind what more I would do to you If I lay you down what would you do If I licked, sucked, and made slow love to you

The 1996 Vintage, Part 5
The BOFH becomes a contract killer as he undoes some damage caused by the boss ... I'm not happy. True, that's not such a rare occurrence, but today I'm VERY unhappy. The boss has just dropped a bombshell in that he has single-handedly negotiated a bulk deal maintenance contract from one of our hardware suppliers entitling us to a 50 per cent discount on the maintenance of a machine. Now I'm as much in favour of maintenance discounts as the next Systems and Networks Administrator who believes that most maintenance engineers should be struck about the head with a rugby sock full of thin-wire terminators, but this sounds a tad suspicious. The boss, well known for having problems negotiating hallways, has somehow managed to cheat the highly skilled, money- grabbing, shafting professionals that make up the maintenance sales team at 'Rob-me-blind' Corp. Uh-huh. And while he was at it, he found his office without asking for help. I don't think so. S

Chicano Genie
-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- CHICANO GENIE A Mexican lady was walking along the bank of the L.A. River when she stumbled upon an old empty cerveza bottle. She picked it up, rubbed it, and SNAP!!! a Genie appeared. She talked with him awhile then the Genie told her he would grant her ONE wish. She said to the Genie, "I heard from mi prima that I could get three wishes if I ever found a Genie." The Genie then said, "Oh no, sorry, esa. Three-wish genies are story-tale myth. I'm a ONE-WISH Genie, Uno, no mas! So...que quieres?" The lady didn't hesitate. She said, "I want Peace in the Middle East. See this map? I want these countries to stop fighting with each other and I want all the Arabs to love Jews and Gringos and I want all the Jews and Gringos to love the Arabs. It will bring world peace and harmony." she continued. > The Genie looked at the map and exclaimed, "Orale! BE REASONABLE!..... Those fools have a pedo that

The 1997 Vintage, Limited Edition Part 6
The disaster recovery budget proves to be a sore point, until the BOFH and PFY stage a little one of their own ... The Pimply Faced Youth and I are poring over computing catalogues when the boss bursts in. His mission today is to reclaim some of the budget that the PFY and I have allocated behind his back to the white elephant of disaster recovery. We've been especially good about it too, recommending that we install a 'redundant' satellite dish on the rear of the building, selflessly proposing a test angle that saves the company money by using an established 'test-signal' generated by a Dutch TV company. "What the bloody hell do you think you're doing?" he blurts, waving the chunky wad of disaster recovery proposals recently given to all and sundry by the PFY and my good self. "What do you mean?" "Recommending another satellite dish. We don't even use the first one." "Yes, but with one at either side of the building, we have a redundant path in case t

Fuck U All
Listen: If you got trust issues or can't be a real person and talk to someone when something is on your mind regarding that person and instead choose to do immature things such as delete them from "cyber life" or just have 500 different personalities on any given day...then please don't talk to me or try to friend me. I'm done...I'm tired...I'm through with the bullshit. I'm 28 years old and don't do soap operas...I have enough stress in my life without adding an unfaithful/uncaring/untrusting friend into my life. I'm as real as it comes...I don't play games and I'm just looking to live my life happy is all.

Wtf Is Wrong With Men?????
Why is it that when a guy starts talking to you (a woman), you tell him that you are involved with someone or whatever........WHY OH WHY do they automatically want and try to get you into bed?????? What is wrong with these guys???? I just don't get it!!!!!!!

What I Love About You
What I Love About You I love the way you look at me, Your eyes so bright and blue. I love the way you kiss me, Your lips so soft and smooth. I love the way you make me so happy, And the ways you show you care. I love the way you say, "I Love You," And the way you're always there. I love the way you touch me, Always sending chills down my spine. I love that you are with me, And glad that you are mine.

Quotes ...read The Last One!
I dialed a number and got the following recording: "I am not available right now, but Thank you for caring enough to call. I am making some changes in my life. Please leave a message after the Beep. If I do not return your call, You are one of the changes." ~~~~~ Aspire to inspire before you expire. ~~~~~ My wife and I had words, But I didn't get to use mine.~~~~~ Frustration is trying to find your glasses without your glasses. ~~~~~ Blessed are those who can give without remembering And take without forgetting. ~~~~~ The irony of life is that, by the time You're old enough to know your way Around, you're not going anywhere. ~~~~~ God made man before woman so as to give him time to think Of an answer for her first question. ~~~~~ I was always taught to respect my elders, But it keeps getting harder to find one. ~~~~~ Every morning is the dawn of a new error. ~~~~~ The quote of the month is by Jay Leno: "Wit

How To Make Candles.
You need to obtain the following supplies: * 2-4 pounds of Paraffin Wax (the kind used in canning) or beeswax (which is usually expensive). * Candle wick (available at most hobby and craft stores) * oils and herbs (for scent and magickal goals) * candle dye (also expensive) or crayons (for color) * wax paper * a wooden spoon * a double broiler Begin by melting the wax in a double broiler. If you don't have one, you can use a large pot filled half full of water and a large coffee tin with the wax in it, sitting inside the pot. Heat the water to boiling first and cut up your wax so it will melt quickly. Once the water is boiling, turn the heat down and place the tin of wax inside of it. Keep the water hot enough to keep the wax melted but not so hot that the paraffin catches fire (which it has been known to do over high heat). While the wax to melting, stir with a wooden spoon (never use metal) & make sure it all is completely melted. Also,

Broadcast Treaty Could (still) Kill Podcasts
We thought the provisions in the WIPO broadcast treaty which would add a layer of intellectual property rights were kaput, over, dead-as-a-doornail. Wrong. In May a new version of the treaty was introduced and, contrary to widespread belief about the changes which had been planned, language still exists in the WIPO treat which -- if passed -- would create a brave new world of copyright madness. As currently written, the treaty would remove fair use rights on things like excerpts of television and radio broadcasts for the purpose of explanation, examination or critical commentary; something even the DMCA hasn't torn asunder. Also at stake is your PC, the all purpose content creation device in front of which you currently sit. Signatory countries -- which include the "G8" -- would be required to enact legal protections for content which could easily mean that your PC's feature list falls squarely under the control of government, rather than innovative developers. This part of the

Breaking Point
Images of the past flood the mind Standing upon the dividing line Almost too late to turn round Glancing back to say goodbye A rush of feelings Turning quickly to stop them Now is the time to choose another step forward Turn around Maybe it is time to move forward Ready to leave all of it behind To never again know those feelings Never again to care

6-13-07
Supposed relaxing summer break? I think not. I hate it when my sister is away with friends and such since I'm the only one left to help with mom since on weekdays dads at work. I haven't had much chance to relax, I've been running from place to place helping mom with things. Somebody just put me out of my misery lol.

Let Me Just Say
That the mini taco's from my works vending machine are the best fucking food EVER!!!! They're like gods gift to people who eat. . . I want more except I"m not hungry at all but still next time i get paid I am going to walmart and buying a case of those thing. . . I'm still reeling from the fantasmic experiance of eating. . . see I even had to make a word to describe just how good those little taco thingy's are. . . God the were soooo good

Ashes Of Eden
----------------- Bulletin Message ----------------- From: BILLY Date: Aug 10, 2007 8:35 AM ----------------- Bulletin Message -----------------From: Kim/ P1 Rum DrinkerDate: Aug 9, 2007 6:24 PMCLICK ON THE PIC....AND IT WILL TAKE U TO THEIR MYSPACE PAGE...I HOPE THAT I WILL SEE ALL MY FRIENDS..ESP..THE P1's THERE...LET ME KNOWTHIS BAND TOTALLY KICKS ASSAlright folks heres the deal, our last show at Southports went off like a BOMB!Everyone that turned out was great and we thank you for coming. Now we need everyones help to PACK that place full again. We would like for EVERYONE that came out last time to cum again(hehehe) and this time bring a friend or three! Lets make this show better than before. We will do our part by bringing the rock, do yours by coming out and drinking a beer with us...

Fun...not...
so on the way home I stopped to buy a pack of cigarettes, which turned out to be very expensive... my truck did start afterward, but it sounded odd... so for the remaining few miles I watched gages more attentively than i might otherwise do. lo and behold, the battery gage was slowly moving toward the 8 volt marker... a pretty good indication that something is wrong. got it home - YAY - and started checking it out... that took all of about a minute... while running, disconnect the battery... and... DEAD TRUCK alternator, easy as that... so now i'm off to the local AutoZone to grab a rebuilt unit. the moral of the story? who knows... i really didn't need any more bad karma at this point, i don't think, but then i;m not in charge of the universe, am I? *flips off the Gods, irrespective of gender or culture of origin and heads off to spend money that had other places to be...*

Master..
Your eyes...watch over me..and keep me safe.. they also see into the depths of my soul.. keeping me aware that there is nowhere..i could ever hide anything from you. Your arms...wrap around me..keeping me protected and warm.. Your voice...stern but gentle..echoes your love to my heart... Your hands..softly caress any pain within me.. Your kisses..melt my lil body into puddles in your lap Your...touches...sooth any fears i might have... Your nibbles..send shivers cold as ice through me.. Your bites..send waves of fire across my flesh.. Your smacks..remind me of the punishment you could enforce if ever needed... Your..stern looks.. remind me everyday of the reasons i chose You. Without You...i am nothing.. if this is not a true Master...i have yet to meet One...

A Quote I Live By...
No Man Or Woman Is Worth Your Tears And The One That Is WIll Not Make You Cry... I have lived by this quote for a long time and it has gotten me through a lot of things with men so I try to remeber this when another man uses me or mistreats me...I hope that if someone read it and think about it it will help someone else out...

Damn This Is So True
Virgo You are shy at first, and because of that, it is hard for you to find lots of random sex partners. You are very intelligent and very into sex. You will only have sex with clean people, because you are afraid of getting an STD. You are also very kinky and imaginative in the sack. Your partners always have a hard time keeping up with you. Sex matches: Taurus, Capricorn, Scorpio Take this quiz at QuizUniverse.com

Happy Hour Contest Need All Of Your Help Please On Commenting Bombing
HI EVERYONE THIS IS MY FIRST CONTEST AND ITS ONLY FOR AN HOUR DURING HAPPY HOUR TO WIN A 7 DAYS BLAST SO IF YOU CAN PLEASE EVERYONE COME HELP ME WIN I COULD USE ALL OF YOUR HELP....COME ON NOW THIS IS MY FIRST LETS MAKE IT A GOOD ONE.THANK YOU ALL IN ADVANCE THAT HELPS ME.

To Those Ive Hurt, And A Warning To The Rest
in my past, i was a horrible creature, and to this day, i still retain i am, i want to apologize to those in the past that i have put through hell, i apologize from the bottom of my heart to those who i have wronged and still stuck by me, my life is a horrible place to live in and it gets harder and harder each and everyday......i just wish that in the future, those that i will realize in the future before i wrong any more people........i learn from the mistakes a make and cry for everything wrong in my life.......to those in the past that have been hurt by me, and those who to this day continue the punishment just to see that im okay, i want to also tell you that what i have told you is a lie, the doctors first told me that i have dsythimia (major depression) and then eventually they said that i am bi-polar, last week, i found that that was only half truw, i have dsythima, but i also have a illness that makes it hard to function in any kind of relationship, its know as borderline pers

What's The Problem??
U.S. polygamist community faces rare genetic disorder By Jason Szep 2 hours, 5 minutes ago In a dusty neighborhood under sheer sandstone cliffs studded with juniper on the Arizona-Utah border, a rare genetic disorder is spreading through polygamous families on a wave of inbreeding. The twin border communities of Hildale, Utah, and Colorado City, Arizona, have the world's highest known prevalence of fumarase deficiency, an enzyme irregularity that causes severe mental retardation brought on by cousin marriage, doctors say. "Arizona has about half the world's population of known fumarase deficiency patients," said Dr. Theodore Tarby, a pediatric neurologist who has treated many of the children at Arizona clinics under contracts with the state. "It exists in a certain percentage of the broader population but once you get a tendency to inbreed you're inbreeding people who have the gene there, so you markedly increase the risk of developing the condition," he said. The

Slavery Is...slavery Is Not
slavery is not about suffering . . slavery is about service. slavery is not about humiliation . . slavery is about humility. slavery is not about pain . . slavery is about being present. slavery is not about being used . . slavery is about being of use. slavery is not about control . . slavery is about letting go. slavery is not about you . . slavery is about giving to others. slavery is not about abuse . . slavery is about acceptance. slavery is not about proving anything . . slavery is about being real. slavery is not about contempt . . slavery is about respect. slavery is not about how things look . . slavery is about how things feel. slavery is not about denial . . slavery is about being open. slavery is not about punishment . . slavery is about discipline. slavery is not about being unable to escape . . slavery is about being committed. slavery is not about submission . . slavery is about obedience. slavery is not about sex .

What To Do?
Girl and Guy start talking to each other, but girl has boyfriend. Then the after talking yo guy he decides to leaves him for sure. But during this time they just talk. Things happen and the girl leaves her b/f and the girl and guy are closer. The only thing that is stopping them is the girls fears... What should she do?

God's Boxes
God's Boxes God's Boxes I have in my hands two boxes, Which God gave me to hold. He said, "Put all your sorrows in the black box, And all your joys in the gold." I heeded His words, and in the two boxes, Both my joys a nd sorrows I stored, But though the gold became heavier each day, The black was as light as before. With curiosity, I opened the black, I wanted to find out why, And I saw, in the base of the box, a hole, Which my sorrows had fallen out by. I showed the hole to God, and mused, "I wonder where my sorrows could be!" He smiled a gentle smile and said, "My child, they're all here with me.." I asked God, why He gave me the boxes, Why the gold and the black with the hole? "My child, the gold is for you to count your blessings, The black is for you to let go." We should consider all of our friends a blessing. Send this to a friend today just to let them know you are thinking of them and that they are a joy in your life. A ball is a circle,

Attention New Comers Don't Know Where 2 Go After You Join Then Check Out Club Far It's Fun And Easy
attention new comers don't know where 2 go after you join then check out club far it's fun and easy if ya wanna join let me know and i will them then know just leave your url here

The Heart Of A Woman
They smile when they want to scream. They sing when they want to cry. They cry when they are happy And laugh when they are nervous. They fight for what they believe in. They stand up against injustice. They don't take "no" for an answer When they believe there is a better solution. They go without new shoes So their children can have them. They go to the doctor With a frightened friend. They love unconditionally. They cry when their children excel And cheer when their friends get awards. They are happy when they hear About a birth or a new marriage. Their hearts break when a friend dies. They have sorrow at the loss of a family member, Yet they are strong when they think There is no strength left. They know that a hug And a kiss Can heal a broken heart. Women come in all sizes, In all colors and shapes. They'll drive, fly, walk, run or e-mail you To show how much they care about you. The heart of a woman is what makes the world spin! Women do

Just A Little About Me
OK HERE IT GOES, I AM 26 YEARS OLD. I HAVE 3 KIDS. BRANDON IS 4, ETHAN IS 2 AND HAILEY IS . I AM 6 FOOT PLUS SIZED BEAUTIFUL WOMEN. I HAVE A FIANCE HIS NAME JASON. I LOVE HIM TO DEATH. I LOVE TO TAKE PICS OF MY KIDS. MAYBE 2 MANY. BUT I DONT GIVE A DAMN. I HAVE 8 PIERCINGS AND WANT MORE I JUST DONT KNOW WHERE. I HAVE MY TOUNGE, 2 IN MY CARTLIDGE, ONE IN EACH EAR, NOSE, EYEBROW, AND MY LIBREA! I AM A VERY FUNNY, SWEET, CARING, FUN TO BE AROUND, OUTGOING PERSON. BUT IF YOU PISS ME OFF I CAN BE A REAL BITCH!!!

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How To Last Longer In Bed
Stamina is something every man in the world seeks… and every woman. Many women don't want to go 7 hours having nonstop sex - that is a myth. Women want sex that is "SATISFYING". That could be for 2 minutes or 2 hours and as long as it is satisfying then they will keep coming back for more. The only clause to that statement is: Even if she can be satisfied in 2 minutes it is not recommended to do that often. Lasting longer in bed or having more stamina is a great combination of both mind and body. You must first step aside from the belief that "supplements" are your best resort. Before we go any farther I will say right now that ED or Erectile Dysfunction is a whole separate story from just having a little more staying power every once in a while. ED requires a doctor's attention and decision to administer a prescription such as VIAGRA. I absolutely endorse any FDA approved ED supplement if it will help you to live an active and fulfilling sex life. BODY & SOUL The body

Hey Kids! Watch Me Make A Musician Disappear!
The people and things I want in my life haven't changed since yesterday, but how I go about achieving those goals from here on out may need to be altered. I spent a long time awake last night and most of today thinking about it. I haven't come up with much in the way of answers, but I have a plan. While it's certainly been interesting around here, often amusing as hell, and rarely dull, I'm leaving CT to take a vacation from virtual reality. I wish that it was coincidental with a vacation in 'real life', but... meh... I ain't that lucky... This sabbatical will last for at least a few days, probably longer than that, and may even be permanent. I wish I could say for sure, but I really just don’t know. The final decision on that is still out there, waiting to be made. That's all for now. Best to all! HEY!!! What's that behind you?!? *slips quietly out of the bar...*

Joke
(This joke is best told and not read. It helps if you can do dialects.) Time: late 1940's Place: New York There were these two elderly Jewish gentlemen visiting the Big Apple when they decided it was getting late and they needed to find a room for the night. As they passed one hotel, one man says to the other, "Why don't we try this one?" The other says, "Are you crazy? It says on the sign that this is a restricted hotel. You know what that means? It means they don't let Jews in!" To which the first man replies, "Restricted, reschmicted. Let's go in and have a little fun. Just let me do all the talking." So the two men enter and approach the desk clerk. Man: (in thick Yiddish accent) We want a room! Clerk: (Flustered. With a "Connecticut clench") I'm sorry, but this is a RESTRICTED hotel. We do NOT allow Jewish people to stay here. Man: What makes you think I'm Jewish? I'm just as Christian as you are! Come on, ask me a Christion question! The clerk deci

Fitness News
Everyone always wants to find the short cut. . . sigh. . . . . Over-the-counter fat-blocking pill hits South Florida store shelves By Tina Shah South Florida Sun-Sentinel June 15, 2007 For two years, George Hegedus has avoided expensive diet plans and made it to the gym barely three times a week. At 270 pounds, the Coconut Creek resident said he needs something to help combat the fat calories. So when alli, the first federally approved over-the-counter diet pill, hit South Florida drugstore shelves Thursday, he drove to a Walgreens store on his lunch hour and bought a starter pack: 90 pills at $59.99. "I hope it helps take calories off, but it's not a magic pill," said Hegedus, 42, a structural engineer. South Florida drugstores reported growing consumer interest in the new diet pill, which is being rolled out nationwide this week with an unprecedented $150 million marketing campaign. Although the drug has been available at greater strength by prescription since 19

Bad Medicine
Sorry, folks. I know that this is normally the kind of thing that should go as a blog, but after reading it, I thought that this is something that needs as many people to read it as possible. I know a few people that would say that health care here may not be good, but people do get treatment. I wonder what they would say after reading this article. I originally heard about it on 'Good Morning, America" and went looking for any information. This is what I found thus far. Please tell me what you think. In the emergency room at Martin Luther King Jr.-Harbor Hospital, Edith Isabel Rodriguez was seen as a complainer. "Thanks a lot, officers," an emergency room nurse told Los Angeles County police who brought in Rodriguez early May 9 after finding her in front of the Willowbrook hospital yelling for help. "This is her third time here." The 43-year-old mother of three had been released from the emergency room hours earlier, her third visit in three days for abdominal pain. She'd bee

The Young Cowboy
A young cowboy walks into a seedy cafe in Laramie, Wyoming. He sits at the counter and notices an old cowboy with his arms folded staring blankly at a full bowl of chili. After fifteen minutes of just sitting there staring at it, the young cowboy bravely asks the old cowpoke, "If you ain't gonna eat that, mind if I do?" The older cowboy slowly turns his head toward the young wrangler and in his best cowboy manner says, "Nah, go ahead." Eagerly, the young cowboy reaches over and slides the bowl over to his place and starts spooning it in with delight. He gets nearly down to the bottom and notices a dead mouse in the chili. The sight was shocking and he immediately pukes up the chili into the bowl. The old cowboy quietly says, "Yep, that's as far as I got, too."

A.a.a..d.d
Recently, I was diagnosed with A.A.A.D.D. - Age Activated Attention Deficit Disorder. This is how it manifests: I decide to water my garden As I turn on the hose in the driveway, I look over at my car and decide it needs washing. As I start toward the garage,I notice mail on the porch table that I brought up from the mail box earlier. I decide to go through the mail before I wash the car. I lay my car keys on the table, put the junk mail in the garbage can under the table, and notice that the can is full. So, I decide to put the bills back on the table and take out the garbage first. But then I think, since I'm going to be near the mailbox when I take out the garbage anyway, I may as well pay the bills first. I take my check book off the table, and see that there is only one check left. My extra checks are in my desk in the study, so I go inside the house to my desk where I find the can of Coke I'd been drinking. I'm going to look for my checks, but first I need t

"tower To Saudi Air 911
Atlanta ATC: "Tower to Saudi Air 911 -- You are cleared to land eastbound on runway 9R." Saudi Air: "Thank you Atlanta ATC. Acknowledge cleared to land on infidel's runway 9R - Allah be Praised. Atlanta ATC: "Tower to Iran Air 711 -- You are cleared to land westbound on runway 9R." Iran Air: "Thank you, Atlanta ATC. We are cleared to land on infidel's runway 9R. - Allah is Great. Pause: Static... Saudi Air: "ATLANTA ATC - ATLANTA ATC" Atlanta ATC: "Go ahead Saudi Air 911?" Saudi Air: "YOU HAVE CLEARED BOTH OUR AIRCRAFT FOR THE SAME RUNWAY!!!!! WE COMING IN OPPOSITE DIRECTIONS. WE ARE ON A COLLISION COURSE. INSTRUCTIONS, PLEASE." Atlanta ATC: "Well bless your hearts and praise Jesus. Y'all be careful now and tell Allah 'hi' for us..."

Something About Me
Something I've come across in the last few minutes, something about me, suggests that for a while I've been hiding in an illusion. I was someone that I am not, and now I'm someone I was not. Upon further investigation I came to the conclusion that a few of the key players in my day to day dealings have misled me. My bullshit sensors have been so fucked up, and so my perception of reality has faltered, resulting in this chaotic mindset that's left me questioning my own morals. I, however, have discovered this in time to correct the issue and have done so accordingly, at least the issue in my head. As for the stimulus to my response, I still have yet to correct the issue. I guess I'm a bit hesitant to make a move considering that at any given moment I could find that my sensors are off on this one, even just a little bit.

Two Weeks Or Less To Go...
1. Flying lessons (no.. not a kick to the ass and "here I'll show you how to fly"... real lessons... in the pilot seat) 2. To go bungee jumping... (off a high bridge over water like on "Saving Liberty") 3. To go sky diving... (yes, I know... "why on this green earth would you want to jump out of a perfectly good airplane?"... I still wanna do it) 4. To get another tattoo. 5. To get another piercing or two... 6. To get LAID... Crude I know... but VERY VERY true... 7. To color my hair a new color... (I was thinking Green). 8. To have a good time with some good friends... (drinking and whatnot... maybe something like paint ball or billiards) Pop Quiz: When is my birthday? (Hint: Sometime this month and hasn't happened yet) So... There's my wish list... In no particular order...

Proud To Be Muslim
well first off i'd like to say im very proud and happy to be a muslimah,for those who dont know what that is.it means muslim woman in arabic. no not all muslims are terrorist and anyone who thinks so is ignorant and plain out racist towards muslims.because im sure to remind that there have been bombers who in fact were christains.in no way am i putting down christianity i am just stating facts here. anyways in no way at all do i feel opressed or closed off from the world. yes i do pray 5 times a day and yes i read my holy Quraan every day.why does that make me a bad person because i believe in a different why of life,how does that make any of you who hate muslims better than me. you are just as ignorant as the ones who hate others based on the color of thier skin,my point is made us muslims will not tolerate hate and how we will deal with it is leaving it up to god to handle and no I AM NOT A TERRORIST OR KNOW ANY SO DONT ASK

Good Morning Friend...
There is a crispness to the morning air Magic within the promise of a new day A warmth and unseen beauty felt inside The dirt and grime through rain washed away. The birds sing love songs high up in the trees I swear at times they sing your sweet name I catch myself humming along with the song Joining them in harmony at each repeated refrain. The sun burns off the dew and fresh clean water And I breath deeply in a renewed content A freshness like a newly laundered baby blanket I basque in the coolness and wonderment of the scent. Within my mind I take the warmth of your hand Inside a daydream we walk slowly there The sunbeams dance in highlights upon your hair I float with you in a warmth that defies compare. There is a crispness to the morning air Magic within your heartfelt ways A warmth and unseen beauty felt inside The smiles you bring me every day. © 6/4/2007, CLP (Wolfie)

The 1998 Edition, Part 5
While the PFY's holding a torch for Carole, someone is putting a torch to the Welsh office. But nothing compares with the Master Plan... It's early morning when the Boss rips into the office in a foul mood. "All right, which of you bastards told the consultant in the Welsh office that you can't recover a hot database back-up from a cold tape?" "I beg your pardon?" I ask in all innocence, knowing full well that my conscience is clear. (In other words, it was the Pimply-faced Youth.) "Which of you told the Welsh IT consultant he'd have to heat the 8mm tapes up in a toaster before he could recover their billing database from it?" "I have no idea what you're talking about!" I cry, furthering my claim of innocence without implicating the PFY in any way. "Don't give me that crap! You almost set the office on fire last night after you told him to put a ream of printer paper on top and tape the toaster lever down!" "I did no such thing!" I shout, mentally

The 1998 Edition, Part 6
When does saying less mean making more? When the boss suggests adding needless desktop capacity and you're renting out any going spare. "...which is why I propose that we standardise on full-height disks to effectively make use of all the spare space we have in our desktop machines..." Something startles me and I wake to find myself in the middle of an IT discussion group meeting - one of the boss's great ideas to bring the minds of the department together. Sadly, there's no IQ barrier, the entrance criterion being the ability to find your way to the meeting. I comfort myself with the thought that if we go overtime I'll be able to hear what the cleaning staff have to say, which is bound to bring a bit of sanity to the conversation. "Ah, I don't think full-height drives is a good option in the new low-profile ca...aagh!" the PFY comments, as he gets cut short by an under-table blow. It's too late, of course, now that opposition has been raised to an idea

The 1998 Edition, Part 7
While the PFY's holding a torch for Carole, someone is putting a torch to the Welsh office. But nothing compares with the Master Plan... It's early morning when the Boss rips into the office in a foul mood. "All right, which of you bastards told the consultant in the Welsh office that you can't recover a hot database back-up from a cold tape?" "I beg your pardon?" I ask in all innocence, knowing full well that my conscience is clear. (In other words, it was the Pimply-faced Youth.) "Which of you told the Welsh IT consultant he'd have to heat the 8mm tapes up in a toaster before he could recover their billing database from it?" "I have no idea what you're talking about!" I cry, furthering my claim of innocence without implicating the PFY in any way. "Don't give me that crap! You almost set the office on fire last night after you told him to put a ream of printer paper on top and tape the toaster lever down!" "I did no such thing!" I shout, mentally

Oops
So I just woke up about five minutes ago and putting aside all the stuff I needed to get done today I've only just remembered that my friends bridal shower is today. . . .Or was today at noon. .. I'm pretty sure I've missed it.

Black Lace (books)
Black Lace is an imprint of Virgin Books that specializes in erotica and erotic romance written by female authors specifically for female readers; the imprint does not publish novels written by men partly as a marketing scheme, partly to better appeal to their target demographic. The books explore women's sexuality as well as such themes as BDSM, group sex and bisexuality. The imprint began publishing in 1993, has published over 250 titles and sold over three million books. Recently some of the older novels have been reprinted under a new imprint from Virgin Books, Cheek. Partial list of books List of Black Lace Books Title Author Year Odalisque Fleur Reynolds 1994 The Ninety Days of Genevieve Lucinda Carrington 1995 Moon of Desire Sophia Danson 1995 Gemini Heat Portia Da Costa 1995 Cassandra's Conflict Fredrica Alleyn 1995 Virtuoso Katrina Vincenzi-Thyne 1995 River of Secrets Saskia Hope 1995 Path of the Tiger Cleo Cordell 1995 Summer of Enlightenment

If Only ...
If only I could make you see how much you mean to me If only I could make you see how special you make me feel If only I could make you see how perfect you are to me If only I could make you see how loving you does feel If only I could make you see how much you make me smile If only I could make you see how much I want you to be mine If only I could make you see that my love for you is real If only I could make you see that this is like a dream If only you could make me see that you are really real If only you could make me see that this is not just a dream If only you could see these things through my eyes and mind If only you could feel these things through my heart and soul If All these Ifs may come true you would finally see that you're really meant for me my endless love to be

Mummification (bdsm)
Mummification as a BDSM bondage practice involves restraining a living person's body in a non-damaging way by wrapping it head to toe, or neck to toe, in materials like saran wrap, clingfilm, cloth, bandages, rubber strips, duct tape, plaster bandages, bodybags, or straitjackets. The end result is a person completely immobilized and looking like an Egyptian mummy. They may then either be left bound in a state of effective sensory deprivation for a period of time, or sensually stimulated in their state of bondage, before being released from their wrappings. Mummification is often used to enhance a feeling of total bodily helplessness, and incorporated with sensation play. Essential safety Partial mummification. When wrapping with PVC tape, stretch and relax the tape before wrapping on the body, or it will contract after application, making it difficult for the subject to breathe. Partial mummification. When wrapping with PVC tape, stretch and relax the tape before wrapping on th

List Of Bondage Magazines
This is a list of long-running bondage magazines. The longest-running bondage magazine titles include: Published by Harmony Concepts, Inc.: * Beautiful Bondage Scenes (1980 - 1993) * Bondage Adventures (1988 - 2001) * Bondage Fantasies (1990 - 1998) * Bondage Gallery (1986 - 1990) * Bondage Life (1977 - 2001) * Bondage Parade (1979 - 2001) * Bondage Photo Treasures (1981 - 1990) * Buxom Bondagettes (1990 - 1997) * Custom Bondages of Simone Devon (1987 - 1991) * Fetishette (1994 - 2000) * Love Bondage Gallery (1986 - 2001) * Love Bondage Scenes (1990 - 2000) * Love Bondage Treasures (1989 - 2001) * Simone Devon's Favorite Bondage Models (1987 - 1991) * Simone Devon's Tight Love Bondage (1991 - 1995) Published by House of Milan: * Bondage Classics (1972 - 1991) * Bondage in the Buff (1982 - 1999) * Bondage Photographer (1982 - 2000) * Bound to Please (1972 - 1999) * Captured (

Pain
Pain Eternal Pain changing colors Pain showing way through shadow. Hurt screams the heart Hurt showing through the soul Hurt paints pornographic pictures in the mind. Fear shoots through the abstract sorrow Fear follows my thoughts down Fear makes shallow the belief of man. Jubilation at the though of you standing there, the loss of your touch darkens my day. I feel you looking down at me, staring at me, the sharp daggers of your judgment stab through me. Music playing on the radio, Memories of the day running though my head. White, red, black, All merging together to scare us all into reality. I lose myself to the idea of you, We both die in the ecstasy of ignorance. Videos, like memories, flash across my eyes, I drown in the simple sorrow you bring within me. Pain Hurt Fear All exist within you, Within me.

Monkey's Paw - Ghost Legend
Monkeys Paw WITHOUT, the night was cold and wet, but in the small parlor of Lakesnam Villa the blinds were drawn and the fire burned brightly. Father and son were at chess, the former, who possessed ideas about the game involving radical changes, putting his king into such sharp and unnecessary perils that it even provoked comment from the white-haired old lady knitting placidly by the fire. "Hark at the wind," said Mr. White, who, having seen a fatal mistake after it was too late, was amiably desirous of preventing his son from seeing it. "I'm listening," said the latter, grimly surveying the board as he stretched out his hand. "Check." "I should hardly think that he'd come to-night," said his father, with his hand poised over the board. "Mate," replied the son. "That's the worst of living so far out," bawled Mr. White, with sudden and unlooked-for violence; "of all the beastly, slushy, out-of-the-way places to live in, this is the worst. Pathway's a bog, and the road's

The Cry - Ghost Legend
The Cry A long plaintive wail emanated from the cardboard box. Whether Jacob had seen the box or heard the cry first, he could not be sure, but he was certain that the pitiful sound came from the box. At once he was regretting taking the short cut from the Burger bar to the car park, he had always felt uncomfortable using it after dark. The passage between the Record shop and the Butchers was only just wide enough for one person and it was badly lit with a single bulb. Where it opened out behind the shops, anyone could be hiding in the dark out of sight of the High Street, hardly visible in the shadows from the vast empty car park. Still he had something else to worry about this time because there was that cry again, audible above the sound of the fans on the refrigeration unit at the back of the Butchers shop. It was a heart rending sound of loneliness, pain and hunger, that brought back memories of childhood punishments, when Jacob's mother locked him in his bedroom without any

My Thoughts At 5 In The Morning
I dont see the point in allowing anyone into my heart anymore when all it seems to end in is heartbreak. I cant stand the feeling of my heartbreaking because of someone that I love or have loved. All it does is make me have extremely bad thoughts that is best left unsaid. My name says crazy one and there is a reason for that. I am crazy just ask anyone that really knows me. So from now on no one is allowed to get into my heart anymore. So if you talk to me thinking you will find love here you are wrong. There is no love here anymore for anyone. I am tired of playing stupid games with people that lie and cheat and build you up just to let you fall again. I know how low someone can get and worse I have been there. I will not be taken back to that place again I have gotten out and not going back ever. My craziness is deeper than anyone knows even the people that think they knows me dont really know anything. They dont understand how I see no point anymore in anything. The only reason I do

Fathers And Daughters
I'm tired. Tired of letting my past control my present. The truth is, not all my childhood was bad. For a little while I had the childhood we all hope we can give to our children one day. So it didn't last. Does that make me a victim? Hell no. That's a conscious choice that we make. There's a difference between being victimized and being a victim. Lately I've realized that the thing that's been driving me is "not being a victim". The problem with that? It guarantees that you WILL become one....because your fears are wrapped up in being a victim. You inadvertently gravitate to it. So, as they say...if you close your eyes to see your future and you don't like what you see...change your future. It's really as simple as that. I could sit here crying over spilt milk...and for a time I needed to do it...to let the poison out. But I'm looking at things differently these days. My past, present, and future are like a car. My future is the headlights...it just shows me where I want to go. No

What About Me? The Reason Why I'm Alone
Read the list that's lying there Tell me what you see A hundred things to do today But none of them include me There's wood to cut, grass to mow And weeds for him to pull A car to fix, a tire to mend And a friend who needs his help He runs all day and works so hard He says it's all for the family And when the day comes to an end He's on the couch and fast asleep There is no time to talk to me To show me that he cares He can't remember what I say It often seems he doesn't hear I cry silently in the night When he has gone to sleep I dream of love and tenderness And some time that's just for me

Hey Guys Please
Post this and see how many messages u get....don't be scared!! (1) just friends (2) gorgeous (3) cute (4) hot (5) fine (6) sexy (7) amazingly sexy (8) we can be friends with benefits (10) i want 2 make u my bf/gf (11) i love u baby LET ME KNOW PLEASE THANK YOU

A Fucking Blog For Fucking Points
i want fucking points.....i need dem shits......i wanna get points for creatin dis shit....and i wanna get points for ppl ratin dis shit and points for comments on it....so i can get fuckin points.....fuckin points man...yeah.....gimme dem shits bitch..... FUCKING CHERRY POINTS BITCH....YEAH.....so hook it up wit some cherry fuckin points......DO IT....FUCKIN DO IT!!!!!

Actress
I am a actress.I play a role of happiness and appear stress free.This is the image people see. what they do not see is that i feel just like they do.I have pain and fears along with burning tears.But i hide it so it does not appear so clear,But i do believe that if you took the time to see deep with in my eyes you will find the pain that lives inside. So dont let my happiness fool you. It might not be a emotion that is true. So on the outside i am a actress and on the inside i am dealing with emotions just like they do. - unknown

7 Definitions Of A Cat
7 Definitions Of A Cat 1. A lap-warmer with a built-in buzzer. 2. A four footed allergen. 3. A small, four-legged, fur-bearing extortionist. 4. A treat-seeking missile. 5. A wildlife control expert impersonator. 6. A hair relocation expert. 7. An un-programmable animal.

Destroyed Love
You once loved me Not just for everything I wasn't But for everything I was My loved for you poured Like the rain bursting from the August sky So many years of wasted bliss And ignorance We kept thinking life Could never intervene And nothing would ever come In between You and I, with our love so Seemingly flawless Never knowing how lost Each of us really were You helped me through the roughest times You wiped away each tear I cried And now those days are gone They've passed us by Leaving me with no more tears To cry… With each new day I awaken My first morning breath is spent Just thinking of you… And me, and what can never be. It's funny… They say, "You don't really know what you've got Til it's gone." But I had you And slowly I began losing grasp It was a feeling I had hoped would eventually Surpass Now you're gone I'm moving on There's a new chapter it seems Inside the stor

An Entrapment
My love, I have tried with all my being to grasp a form comparable to thine own, but nothing seems worthy; I know now why Shakespeare could not compare his love to a summer’s day. It would be a crime to denounce the beauty of such a creature as thee, to simply cast away the precision God had placed in forging you. Each facet of your being whether it physical or spiritual is an ensnarement from which there is no release. But I do not wish release. I wish to stay entrapped forever. With you for all eternity. Our hearts, always as one.

Big News From Peter Britt
Hi everyone.... I wanted to share some news with everyone. Something my record label has been working on just happened today I found out. As of today, my music is live worldwide on itunes! I am very excited about it. Being on itunes is a very cool thing indeed and it offers a degree of exposure that is phenomenal. So if you have itunes, go get some Peter Britt music. If you don't, go download itunes, then go get some! I've been waiting for over 12 weeks for the record label to get this all in place, and it finally is now. You can get the cd, or a single track on itunes and there will be more there soon. I hope you go and check it out and download some music, but I wanted to share this news with everyone I know. Thanks to all my friends and fans for your support and for putting up with me and my messages. I do appreciate all the friendships I have and I thank you all for your continued support. :) www.itunes.com Peter Britt Click anywhere below to visit one of

Dominatrix
A dominatrix (from the Latin dominatrix, meaning a female ruler or mistress; plural dominatrices or dominatrixes) or mistress is a woman who takes the dominant role in bondage and discipline, domination and submission or sado-masochistic sexual practices, which are commonly abbreviated as BDSM. The male equivalent is Master. A common form of address for a submissive to a dominatrix is "Mistress", "Ma'am" or "Maîtresse". Note that a dominatrix does not necessarily dominate a male partner; a dominatrix may well have a female submissive. The term "Domme" (IPA:dɒm) is a coined pseudo-French female variation of the slang Dom (short for dominant). There is confusion on its pronunciation, with some pronouncing it identically to Dom and some pronouncing the final e as a second syllable, e.g. saying dom-MAY or DOM-may. The correct pronunciation is identical to Dom, by analogy to one-syllable French-derived words like femme or blonde. Older woman-younger man relationships are much mor

Mad As Hell
I'm madder than hell right now!!! I've been in a really bad mood for the last couple of hours and couldn't figure out why. While doing the dishes it occurred to me that it's not the everyday bull shit of life that's gotten to me, not the dumbass putting ashes in the sink, not my ex husband letting our son down again. It's the bullshit with Mr. Stalker. I'm having nightmares, afraid to even walk outside alone, not returning emails because they might be from him. Normally if someone emails me here or on My Space I write back and am friendly. I'm a very outgoing person and was thinking about meeting a few of my on line friends here in the real world. Now I'm second guessing myself and not sure if I should even return an email form someone who liked my My Space profile and would like to be friends here in the town I live in. This pisses my off so bad!!!! I feel like I'm trapped and can't really be me because of fear! This is so not fair and yes I know life's not fair so please don't tell m

Then We Have All The People On Ct Needing Help In There Lounges
I need help to but most of the ones u hirer are low life scum of ct they want the title and till u that morning they be there at nite then not show up for a week at a time.It's hard screening the real people and the wannabe's

***blog Things***
You Are Sex On the Beach When comes to drinking, you like it to go down smooth. You really don't like the taste of alcohol - just its effect on you. So, you're proud to get drunk on fruity, girly drinks. Because once you're liquored up, the fun begins! What Alcoholic Drink Are You? You Were Born Under: You have both a fiery energy and a warm heart. Your charisma and charm makes it easy for you to influence others. Lucky in life, you also have a reputation of being lucky in love. Power hungry, you are determined to get what you want - no matter what it takes. You are most compatible with a Monkey or Rat. What Year Were You Born Under? Your Love Life Secrets Are Looking back on your life, you will only have one true love. You're a little scarred from your past relationships, but who isn't? It's important to you that your lover is very attractive. You like to have someone to show off. In fights, you are able to walk away

The Tale Of A Werewolf
Light turns to shadows As day turns to night My presence is unknown I must stay out of sight I grow steadily weary The time is drawing near Slowly I am filled with dread I start to shake with fear I stumble to a room Lock myself in tight There's no way I can escape There'll be no killings tonight Suddenly the changes start In agony I scream This is way too much to bear I wish this were a dream The pain finally stops I slowly rise to my feet Power surges through my body I'm a beast that knows no defeat I race around the room Frantically searching for a way out Frustration grows inside me Until I want to shout A howl comes from my throat I hurl myself at the door I will not be trapped I never have been before The door splinters on impact Joyously I howl I jump through an open window To begin my midnight prowl I race through the woods The full moon leading the way The thirst for blood surges I must find my prey A smell drifts through

Limited Availabilty
Hi Y'all Just wanted to let 'all know i will have limited availablity for the next few days. I have family coming into town today and they will be staying for a few days, I will get online as i can but i didnt want anyone to think I was ignoring them. Kisses j

It Used To Be Common..
It used to be common ....that a man held one job for many, many years. He usually retired from that job after 30 years of service. It used to be common.... that a woman sewed, cleaned, cooked, did all the shopping, and still took very good care of herself. (All without modern conviences). It used to be common.... to have a toaster, vaccuum, or lawnmower repaired. It used to be common.... to see children playing outside. It used to be common.... to see families eating dinner together. It used to be common.... to play board games on a rainy day. It used to be common.... to know your neighbor. It used to be common.... for a mom to have kleenex in her pocket book. It used to be common.... for women to wear only mascara and lipstick. Can you think of anything that used to be common?

Before I Cheat
we've been together for 3 years, and now i don't know why but i'm at the saloon with some cheap bar fly not even thinkin bout my pretty lil souped up four wheel drive sittin out in the back of the lot while i think to myself whether i should try now i'm in the restroom dabbin on 3 dollars worth of that bathroom polo, but i dunno why i'm even gonna try to cheat before i cheat i wish you would have talked to me i wish those nights i wanted to get lucky you would have just givin it to me but now you're diggin your key into the side of my pretty lil suped up four wheel drive carvin your name into my leathers seats takin my louisville slugger to both headlights and slashin a hole in all four tires... i wish you would have talked to me before i cheat we had another lil fight now i'm walkin out the front door thinkin i might just get drink at the store but then i make that left on the old dirt road find that lil bar sittin all alone downin shots of that cuervo when

Choices
Choices We make choices everyday, they are inevitable. Who can I trust to keep my family safe? Did we elect capable leaders? Who do we call for help? Choices are an everyday part of life, our decisions affect not only the people in the family but the community as well. Sometimes are choices are regrettable, but a learning experience. Are we able to come to terms with our decisions. We made the choice to elect the President, but were forced to fight his war, some people would call the decision to elect him stupid. We elect our city officials by a vote, a decision, who we wanted to watch over us. Once again we may have made a bad choice, we hear what they have to say and trust them to do what they say they are going to do, we soon find that money and greed is all our decision got for us, once elected, our power is diminished and we are forced to choose whether to accept our decision or fight to retrieve our power. We choose to accept our fate and let them run over us, some

How Do I?
How do I express my love even more than I have. I don't know what to say to get you to understand that I will not betray you like everyone else has in your life. I love everything about you and all I can do is be there for you and hope that day by day you see that I am not out for anything other than your love. I would never do anything that would not please you. I could care less about anyone on this site or any of the other sites that I am on. YOu are the one and only for me and I really wish that you would open your heart and know that no matter what I am always going to be here for you my love. You are my best friend, my lover, and my soul mate. There is nothing I would love more than for you to know that no matter what I am here and you can lean on me for anything.

Weirdness
wow, two blogs on my profile, that I didnt write. thats kinda weird. first of all the title trust, then the description of "you will never know me" first of all I have friends on here that have known me for fucking years. and two who the fuck are you to come here and change my shit, fuck you, and fuck the rock you crawled out from. I am what I am, I am married... I am happy... you want to start that shit cause you have a crush on my husband bring it on hoe cause I would kick your ass any day, bring it on I dare you too.. I am in the mood right now.

Sagittarius / 22 November - 22 December
Sagittarius is a positive happy person, friendly and curious. People like to be around him and he’s always looking for people: either to play with, or to look for answers on some of his questions. If he can’t get the answers from people, he’s looking for them in books that can help him on his quest for knowledge. In that, he isn’t always careful, and sometimes jumps the conclusion too soon.He has a disposal of a tremendous amount of energy that he needs to get rid of, either playing games, or outdoor activities. If he can’t go outdoors, he is threatened to become silent.Sometimes he finds it hard to live inside the perimeters inflicted by others. His strong urge for freedom is putting him to this. He wants to be free in making friendship, and accepts no “orders”. He is disciplined and has a large self-control.

The Brick
THE BRICK A young and successful executive was traveling down a neighborhood street, going a bit too fast in his new Jaguar. He was watching for kids darting out from between parked cars and slowed down when he thought he saw something. As his car passed, no children appeared. Instead, a brick smashed into the Jag's side door! He slammed on the brakes and backed the Jag back to the spot where the brick had been thrown. The angry driver then jumped out of the car, grabbed the nearest kid and pushed him up against a parked car shouting, "What was that all about and who are you? Just what the heck are you doing? That's a new car and that brick you threw is going to cost a lot of money. Why did you do it?" The young boy was apologetic. "Please, mister...please, I'm sorry but I didn't know what else to do," He pleaded. "I threw the brick because no one else would stop..." With tears dripping down his face and off his chin, the youth pointed to a spot just around a parked car.

Why I Love You
I love you not only for what you are, but for what I am when I am with you. I love you not only for what you have made of yourself, but for what you are making of me. I love you for ignoring the possibilities of the fool in me and for laying firm hold of the possibilities for good. Why Do I Love You? I love you for closing your eyes to the discords and for adding to the music in me. By worshipful listening. I love you because you are helping me to make of the lumber of my life. Not a tavern, but a temple; and out of the words of my every day, not a reproach, but a song. I love you because you have done more than any creed, to make me happy. You have done it without a word, without a touch, without a sign. You have done it just by being yourself. After all perhaps that is what love means.

Morning Thoughts
There's always a reason why someone wants to talk to someone else. Sometimes someone may come along and wow you with words. Not nessicarily flirting but brains which not many show they have. That just once they prove they have the brain power to actually notice that beauty is not just what you see in their physical apperance but rather there mental and their ability to actually notice that theres more to a conversation other then"Oh youre hot." or "oh Id so do you." what world are we living where everything is based on a sexual level?

Maelstrom
Many, many times I feel as though the universe functions like a police department with a ticket quota. You know how it goes: The end of the month nears and the police force realizes they have not met their quota and so they begin issuing tickets left and right for anything and everything they possibly can. During those times of the month, most folks are very, very careful so that they don't present themselves as a target. It seems as though the universe works the same way. There is a prescribed number of bad things that are supposed to happen to each person during a particular time frame. When things have been going well for you, the universe realizes the end of the month is near, and bad shit starts falling out of the sky as the universe tries to meet it's quota. In the last 4 days, we have been struggling with how to pay for my schooling. We have learned our family has medical needs not covered by insurance, so we are worrying about how to pay for that. My dear wife's parent

How Much Sex Appeal Do You Have?
You Are 73% Sexy Your Sex Appeal Is: Extremely High You're very sexy. You just have that certain something that takes over a room. You know how to attract, entice, and keep whoever you want. You are truly appealing. How Much Sex Appeal Do You Have?

Cali Livin
I am a "CALIFORNIAN." That means... -Everyone hates cops, including the cops! -I live next door to mexicans -Our chicks are WAYYYY hotter than yours - I say "like" and "for sure" and "right on" and "dude" and "totally" and "peace out" and "chill" and "tight" and "bro" and "hell of" and "hella"(Nor Cal only) and "faded" and "stoked" and "fo sho" and I say them often - I know what real cheese & avocados taste like -All the porn you watch is made here, cause we fuck better and thats how it is - I don't get snowdays off because theres only snow in Mammoth, Tahoe, Shasta, and Big Bear - I can wear sandals all year long - I go to the Beach - not "down to the shore" - I know 65 mph really means 100 - When someone cuts me off, they get the horn and the finger and high speed chase cuz we dont fuck around on the road - The drinking age is 21 but everyone starts at 14 (legally 18 if you live close enough to the border) - My governor can kick your governors a

Newfoundland Logic
Two Newfoundland fishermen, Jim and Bob, are sitting at their favorite bar,drinking beer. Jim turns to Bob and says, "You know, I'm tired of going through life without an education. Tomorrow I think I'll go to the community college, and sign up for some classes." Bob agrees that it's a good idea, and the two leave. The next day, Jim goes down to the college and meets the Dean of Admissions, who signs him up for the four basic classes: Math, English,history, and Logic. "Logic?" Jim says. "What's that?" The dean says, "I'll show you. Do you own a lawn mower?" "Yeah." "Then logically speaking, because you own a lawn mower, I think that you would have a yard." "That's true, I do have a yard." "I'm not done," the dean says. "Because you have a yard, I think logically that you would have a house." "Yes, I do have a house" "And because you have a house, I think that you might logically have a family." "I have a family." "I'm not done yet. Because you have a family, then logically y

Heather Wrote This For A Close Friend Of Hers. Im Reposting It On Mine..:)
I just got off the phone with a very close friend and ever since I hung up the phone Ive been pondering one question! Why do people have to break hearts? I mean espically the one that are labeled the "good ones" that a lot of people oversee.. The ones that wouldnt hurt a soul! Those are the ones that get shitted on the most in life.. A human being doesnt realize these kind of situations until there faced one on one. When it happens its a real eye opener to everyone.. Shows you that not everyone is the same theres many different kind of people almost like a chamelon with all its colors.. People wear many faces some are hidden and others are exposed! The only thing I can really say is if your a man and your reading this wondering why you havent found the "Right WOMEN" and are sick of going through Trial and Error with your other selections.. Please let me know and I will lead you to the right one.. Im not saying her name right now because I dont want to make her vulnerable anymore I trie

The Lovely Smell Of Paint
i spent the most of my day painting my dinning room. it looks amazing even though im not a great painter. my sis helped me pic out the colors. its very dramatic too. BAM! I did some running around and shit with Jessie and played badmitten with the kids and jessie. Jessie poof is gonna go out tonight i was invited to go.. but im worn out. My new sitter is freakin amazing. Shes very willing to watch day or night. she called me asking if i was gonna go out and i told her no.. the great thing is she wont take any money from me. she loves the kids that much. ehh fine by me. these new meds im on make me feel fantastic non emo. HAHAHAA but very sleepy. well i am off i need some sleep. long day for me tomorrow. toodles and thanks for readin about my boring daily life. :P

Monsoon Season?
I was just checking the weather and I think monsoon season could be starting as soon as next week! We may get our first storm! I am sooo excited! I'll be sitting outside (under a canopy) recording some of it to send Miss Ali, then prolly go running around in the rain like a bone head... and of course getting some kisses in the rain! yay! I love Arizona summers... well except the damn ungodly heat! yeah it been dark for about 3 hours and it is still 96 degrees! Insanity I tell you! But tommorrow is expected to reach 114-115 in most of the Phoenix area. I may be a burnt marshmallow by sunset! As for now I am gonna sit here and eat my lil grape slushy in front of the fan and sympathize poor Ray who has to work 10 hours a day OUTSIDE in the heat! But on the up side of that the man has one sexy tan... lucky him... I spend as much time outside as I can... mostly in the pool (all alone *sadness*) and I am still looking a little translucent lol. It's almost pathetic lil Leah is tanner than me,

My So Called Ct Friends
yes its time again to deleat somemore "friends" from my listiam beginning to realize that this is a place to go just to see how popular you can get so i am only keeping the one's on my list i talk to or have taked to the ones that just added me and never said anything to me will be deleted.

Listen Up Peoples
HEY TO ALL THE CT PEOPLE I HAVE BEEN NOTICING THAT PEOPLE LIKE TO COME BY UR PAGE AND JUST LOOK Y DO THAT WHENU CAN EARN POINTS BY RATING SOMEONE TALKING TO SOMEONE AND EVERYTHIGN ELSE !! SO COME ON PEOPLE IF U DONT WANT TO LEAVE ANYTHING ON MY PAGE OR RATE ME OR FAN ME OR ANYTHING DONT EVER COME BACK PERIOD AND IF U LOOKIN AT ME CAUSE I AM KUSHMORES GIRL DONT HATE THAT JUST MAKES ME MORE POPULAR !! SO IF U A TRUE CT FRIEND OF ME AND KUSMORE U WILL SHOW SOME LOVE HOLLA!!!

Mastercard Wedding
Mastercard wedding You gotta love this guy; This is a true story about a recent wedding that took place at Clemson University. It was in the local newspaper and even Jay Leno mentioned it. It was a huge wedding with about 300 guests. After the wedding at the reception, the groom got up on stage with a microphone to talk to the crowd. He said he wanted to thank everyone for coming, many from long distances, to support them at their wedding. He especially wanted to thank the bride's and his family and to thank his new father-in-law for providing such a lavish reception. As a token of his deep appreciation he said he wanted to give everyone a special gift just from him. So taped to the bottom of everyone's chair, including the wedding party, was a manila envelope. He said this was his gift to everyone, and asked them to open their envelope. Inside each manila envelope was an 8x10 glossy of his bride having sex with the best man. The groom had gotten suspicious of them weeks ear

Car Accident
Just wanted you all to know I was in an accident this afternoon. Nothing really serious but I took my eyes off the road for a second and rear-ended a car. We pulled over and got out and the other driver was a DWARF!! He was pissed! He stomped back to me, looked up at me and said "I am NOT happy!" I said, "Okay, then, which one are you?"

For The Ladies....
A husband and wife are having a bitter quarrel on the day of their 40th wedding anniversary. The husband yells, "When you die, I'm getting you a headstone that reads, 'Here Lies My Wife - Cold As Ever.'" "Yeah?" she replies. "When you die, I'm getting you a headstone that reads, 'Here Lies My Husband - Stiff At Last.'"

Parrot
A woman went to a pet shop & immediately spotted a large, beautiful parrot. There was a sign on the cage that said $50.00. "Why so little," she asked the pet store owner. The owner looked at her and said, "Look, I should tell you first that this bird used to live in a house of Prostitution and sometimes it says some pretty vulgar stuff." The woman thought about this, but decided she had to have the bird any way. She took it home and hung the bird's cage up in her living room and waited for it to say something.. The bird looked around the room, then at her, and said, "New house, new madam." The woman was a bit shocked at the implication, but then thought "that's really not so bad." When her 2 teenage daughters returned from school the bird saw and said, "New house, new madam, new girls." The girls and the woman were a bit offended but then began to laugh about the situation considering how and where the parrot had been raised. Moments later, the woman's husband

Crescendo Of Thoughts - Andromeda
Opened wide, eyes to see, Within, beyond and behind Faces never seen, My mind is expiring, beyond all limits Impulses and thoughts torn into meaningless words The darkest of demons are hidden behind the happiest faces I wear the mask of fear Impulses and thoughts torn into meaningless words stained on this paper, like the liquid of life from a slit wrist I have nothing to say, yet I desperately search searching for the shadows of mine yet undiscovered, hidden within Opened wide, eyes to see, Within, beyond and behind Faces never seen I have nothing to say, yet I desperately search searching for the shadows of mine yet undiscovered, hidden within Impulses and thoughts torn into meaningless words stained on this paper, like the liquid of life from a slit wrist

To All My Friends And Fans...the Time Has Come....
Friends and fans.The time has come again which happens every year for me to be away. I will be leaving tomorrow AM on a trip for our company conducting safety measures and getting a better understanding how to make our company strong. I will also be in Washington State helping out my brother who shattered his foot. I will be back in CT land sometime around the 22nd-23rd of July. I will surly miss all my CT friends Whom I have grown very close to. I know this is an awful long time away and I'm hoping I don't get thrown in the "Forgotten Folder" Please keep my page alive while I'm away. It's aways cheery to see comments. My brother does have a computer, but is very addicted to a site called "Pogo" Im sure you've all heard of it. I will try from time to time to come on and check message and hopefully can leave some also. If not, I will at least post a blog when at all possible. Take Care Everyone and you all have a wonderful 4th of July!!!!!!! Will miss you all!

The Hardest Button To Button
The Best Myspace Survey* . . About You . . *Eye Color::green Hair Color::blonde/brown Height::5'6 Favorite Color::pink Screen Name::sugar_spun_sister Favorite Band::the white stripes Favorite Movie::hedwig and the angry inch Favorite Show::trailer park boys Your Car::n/a Your Hometown::yorkton Your Present Town::same Your Crushes First Name::mitchell Your Grade::n/a Your Style::indie/punk/hippie * . . Have You Ever . . *Sat on your rooftop?:no Kissed someone in the rain?:no Danced in a public place?:always Smiled for no reason?:meh hardly Laughed so hard you cried?:yesterday Peed your pants after age 8?:NO Written a song?:many Sang to someone for no reason?:yep Performed on a stage?:yes Talked to someone you don't know?:always Gone out of your way to befriend someone?:yes Made out in a theatre?:hell no! ruin the movie why dont u! Gone roller skating since 8th grade?:no Been in love?:yes

Gunpowder And Lead
what i need is to be needed. what i need is to be indispensable to somebody who i need is somebody that will eat up all my free time my ego my attention somebody addicted to me a mutual addiction. this is what i go by ;; it doesn't matter how good-looking a guy is, it just depends on his personality. if a guy can make you laugh && make fun of you, then that's what would win me over. talk to her ; she's a girl the reason she doesn't talk first, is because she has the vision of a boy who will go out of his way for her we fall to the ground laughing ;; almost peeing our pants - - - we sing into our hairbrushes and '*' take retarded pictures ; we love waving to random people in the' car and we walk around like we' own the place but HEY thats just who we are . best friends. Tell her why shes perfect for you. Protect her. Look at her like shes the Only girl you ever Want to be with. When She least expects it pull her in close & kiss Her

Hi There Friends And Family
im going away for about a week to sort some thing sout in my life. but im in a win a vic for month contest and i was hoping that all of you go and rate and comment it for me please. it runs from the 21st to the 28th of june til 5pm. once i get back ill do my best to help all out. this is the picture link to it thank you all so much richard

My Day Thus Far.
So I go into work, a friend gets fired. I get the highest upsells overall for the day. Again. ha! This weekend is going to be interesting. Above all this, something is going on. I dont know what but I know something is up.

Jessie Davis.
Jessie Davis. I've been following the story of Jessie Davis, the missing pregnant woman from right here, white bread, Stark County, Ohio. The focus of the investigation seems to be the wife of the father of her unborn baby. Worse yet, he's a cop. He says his wife, Kelly, knew all about his relationship with Jessie. She knew about the kids. (Doesn't this remind you of Scott Peterson saying "Laci was OK with it" when talking about his tryst with Amber Frey? Here's the backgroud from the AP: Nine months pregnant, Jesse disappeared from her home, leaving her 2-year-old son behind. She is due to give birth in two weeks. So far police have named no suspects and specifically said that Bobby L. Cutts Jr. is not a suspect. Now Stark County sheriff's deputies, two FBI agents and state agents spent two hours searching the home of police officer Bobby L. Cutts Jr. in a bid to determine what happened to Jessie Marie Davis. The search came five hours after Stark County Sheriff's

The Sex Poem!
Roses are red Lemons are sour Open ur legs and give me an hour Kissing Is A Habit Fucking Is A Game Guys Get All The Pleasure Girls Get All The Pain 10 Minutes Of Pleasure 9 Months Of Pain 3 Days In The Hospital A Baby Without A Name The Baby Is A Bastard The Mother Is A Whore This Woulda Never Happend If The Rubber Hadn't Tore!! Sex is like math You subtract the clothes Add the bed Divide the legs And Pray to god You dont multiply Roses are red Grass is green Open your legs And I'll fill you with cream Sex is good Sex is fine Doggy Style & 69 Just for fun Or gettin paid Everyone likes gettin laid

Blah Blah Blah
Okay so I've realized a lot of things this past week. 1.)I can do anything i put my mind to. i just have to push myself to fulfill my dreams and goals 2.) I can be with anyone i want too. i have a great personality, I'm funny, witty and i'm there for everyone when they need someone, and i stand by people through thick and thin 3.)I can have great relationships, i know in the past i haven't been open about my past and not open to my partners,but i need to, i realize thats why they fail. the fact of the matter is that I'm afraid. yes i said it. i just don't wanna get hurt and i know everyone is but when i let someone in it takes a lot for me to do so, so when i get hurt it hurts more.

Update On My Pc
turns out the problem with my pc was the hardrive, thats why it kept rebooting, so my friend took the hardrive out of my other pc and switched it everything was gone but oh well, maybe now i wont have to worry about it rebooting constantly lol thanks to all who tried to help me, you were great. its getting closer and closer to my birthday and the birthday blues are hitting me, so bear with me if i seem a little down love you guys

Pacman!
ok i hope he rots in jail... what an idiot he's like the kid that keeps getting slapped on the wrist but never getting any other discipline!. Pacman jones can get up to 12 years for his latest stupid act.. i hope he gets it

Come Party With Us!!!!!!!!
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A Few Pieces Left
I guess I wasn't good enough For you to fall in love with But I know you would have Caused me more pain with-in. You say you care but can't love me I think it's all bullshit and lies Cause if this feeling isn't love Then why do I feel ice cold inside? There's nothing left of hope & faith Only a few pieces left of my heart Just enough to love my children But I can't rejoin the other parts. There will be no-one to replace you I'll never give my love to another man For I gave all my love to you Now there are only pieces on the sand.

Eat My Pussy
I get so turned on just thinking about you ...would it bother you if I take off all of my clothes, turn down the lights, light a candle or two, sit back down in my chair, lift my left leg up and lay it over the left arm of my chair, lift my right leg up and lay it over the right arm of my chair, stick my finger in my warm wet mouth to get it all nice and wet, reach down with my left hand to gently pull and hold open my pretty pink pussy lips while my other finger comes out of my mouth and finds its way down to my hard throbbing clit to just gently rub circles on top of it...then to plunge itself deep into my pussy for a few deep strokes.. then back up to gently massage my clit...mmmmmm...Can I fantasize that you are on the floor between my legs looking up at me with so much desire in your eyes...you want to taste my pussy so bad...your cock is so big and hard.."Please let me taste you baby" I hear you whisper..."Yes" I whisper back as I look down at you...Slowly, you take your time...t

Lick Me
Stick your tongue Between my lips Spread them wide Wet heavenly bliss Stick your fingers Deep inside Feel my pussy Start to ride Lick me good Tease my clit Feel the movement From my hips Don’t stop now I’m almost there Feel my fingers In your hair Moaning and writhing I come undone Tongue me deeper Here I CUMMMMMM!!!

Tastey Herb Tea For Colds And Flu
My favorite herbs for flu care are diaphoretics, to stimulate sweating.* I like diaphoretics because they support the body's natural response rather than "fighting" the illness. Elderberry and ginger make a delicious tea that you might want to drink all winter, whether you're sick or not! To make pink ginger tea: Slice up 2-3 inches of fresh ginger. Put the ginger in a pot and cover it with about a quart of water. Add 2-3 tablespoons of elderberry (frozen, canned, juice, syrup or dried). Simmer the mixture until it tastes strongly of ginger—usually at least 15 minutes. (The tea turns a muddy purple-brown as it simmers. Don't worry, we'll fix it.) When it's ready, remove the tea from the heat, let it sit a minute to cool, and add good quality raw honey** to taste. (Don't boil raw honey. You'll kill the enzymes.) Now for the magic. Squeeze the juice from one small or half a large lemon. Add it to the tea. Watch the color change from muddy to clear pink! Dri

I Don't Care Anymore..
If every picture was meant to be 10s, there wouldn't be a rating system. As long as it's not marked NSFW, why worry about it? Even the top pictures have low ratings. If someone marks me a 4, fine. I guess I'm a 4 to that person. Does a 10 really make anyone more of anything? Touch the Darkness @ DarkCasket.com

The Queen
so pale... her skin... So dead set her eyes She Slumbers in Starvation So BURNING in hatred SO cold her Heart So much SHE must DEvOUr So little there is... Cast BEtween TWO worlds... Torn From this one to the next.... She Will Bring BLOOD to boil for her stew... inlcludes you... should you meet the Ravenous Queen

Vempyr Ritas Of Lady Dracula
mists hold the secrets of a thousand waves like a martyr on thunderous craves and anger was the mistress who never knew she could be and mists were all but fogs and to her she was the goddess only heaven could reach where hell is golden with hate we danced in a chora of murder she was a muse for blood sewn notes a chord struck in every heart of man i could watch and endure but in each emolition they were jealous and sour and mists were the bed of her death where the mists would hide her in drendge i slashed out my anger and raped out the pain only the sun would see her again and mists were all but fogs and to her she was the goddess only heaven could reach where hell is golden with hate am i damned for the love of her was only hatred for me i cant endure the moments where sex lies and betrayal are all but mists and the fog is a lie between heaven and hell this is where angels fell... a cry to the death of all things good and i laughed as

Random Thoughts
The beginning of anything is great, you learn how to incorporate something new into your way of life. We have all kings of beginnings in our lives, home, family, career, even death is a beginning. The most intrigueing of beginnings is a budding romance, this can be the most wonderful high a person can have. Think about it, your blood rushes, your heart pounds, your mind absolutely goes blank and all you can do is just look at them or listen to their voice. Sounds confusing, well it can be, but, isn't it a fabulous place to be. It's great and I'm lovin it and I thank the Powers that Be for putting me here.

86 Rules For Boozing
1. If you owe someone money, always pay them back in a bar. Preferably during happy hour. 2. Always toast before doing a shot. 3. Whoever buys the shot gets the first chance to offer a toast. 4. Change your toast at least once a month. 5. Buying someone a drink is five times better than a handshake. 6. Buying a strange woman a drink is still cool. Buying all her drinks is dumb. 7. Never borrow more than one cigarette from the same person in one night. 8. When the bartender is slammed, resist the powerful urge to order a slightly-dirty, very-dry, in-and-out, super-chilled half-and-half martini with a lemon twist. Limit orders to beer, straight shots and two-part cocktails. 9. Get the bartender's attention with eye contact and a smile. 10. Do not make eye contact with the bartender if you do not want a drink. 11. Unacceptable things to say after doing a shot: Great, now I'm going to get drunk. I hate shots. It's coming back up. 12. Never, ever tell a bartender he made your