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~Darkest Gift~ It is a night of ethereal pain, a song of dark desire, wolves vent their loneliness. The thirsting one wakens. Evil shrouds her pale form, a brooding agony. Her raven hair cascades over translucent ivory shoulders, and her full scarlet lips part slightly, to taste the red tears streaming from the pale flesh beneath her. Now a night of new awareness. I remember her. cr~Jon~
20 Something
Obviously I'm not 20 something anymore , no rockin body or even fake anything but what I do have is the wisdom (how ever much it is) that comes from age n bein an awesome single mom . I have alot more than alot of people so I'm ok with it . keep on keepin on
Lost On The Net
I wonder about people … Why they get caught up in this fantasy called the internet? How many have met people on line who can’t see the real from the un-real? There is desperation of the soul about such people. It makes me desire to shake them and help them see that no one can spend their lives on a machine. All the net is really there for is to enhance our live and if there comes a time where it takes over our lives it should be treated as alcohol is treated by recovering alcoholics ! but this like any rant can be taken too far ! To ilustrate this watch the foamy video . As you can see most problems are purely do to the selfish nature of man ... Oh for the days when we learn to overcome ourselves and become selfless ! Untill then we will all have to deal with rude people or people who can not distinguish between what is real and what is not.
Time, Pressure, And Inevidibility; The Tale Of Captain Blindside And The Mutiny On The Mutiny (i.e. Aptly Named)
I guess I made you hate me and then asked for your love. I guess I charged you from behind then fell to my knees and started begging you not to do what I'd just been trying to get you to do, and all of this before you'd even turned around. And iit's quite clear that I'm not in my right mind and I make too many mistakes then try to hide behind the fact that you shouldn't know; while some would stop, I read this as a license to go. I guess if I was a singer in a band on a stage, I'd be frozen afraid ntil they started throwing tomatoes. At that point, let's face it, one is truly free, he can run for the exit or he can earn the hatred that they are going to cover him anyway. There are times, to be honest when I am shocked at the fact that I have made it this far, knowing me like I do. I used to think I was just lazy because I was never forced to work that hard. Now I know that I am downright resistant and serve my uselessness like some kind of discipline and work harder than anyon
Love Sucks
Show me the most beautiful woman in the world......and I'll show you a man who's tired of her shit! Just sayin.......
What An Experience
Now that I have had time to truly digest all that occurred while I was in DC, I can write about it. First and foremost, I intended to blog about my time in DC but I was always rushing around or so dead exhausted I really didn't have time to do much of anything other than live the experience. I was also never really patient enough to figure out how my free internet in my room worked so I just gave up quickly. I had an absolute blast in DC. It was one of the most life changing experiences of my life. I was there with one of my best friends in the world and we truly had the time of our lives. I am going to divide up the whole experience in to different blogs because there is just too much shit to put all in one.
10 Years- Beautiful
For Those Who Live Or Are From Montana.....
You might live in Montana... By Jeff Foxworthy If "vacation" to you means going shopping for the weekend in Great Falls, Billings or Bozemen (while the kids swim at the Comfort Inn), you might live in Montana. If parking your car for the night involves an extension cord, you might live in Montana. If you consider it a sport to gather your food by drilling through 8 inches of ice and sitting there all day hoping that the food will swim by, you might live in Montana. If you're proud that your state makes the news primarily because it houses the coldest spot in the nation, you might live in Montana. If you have ever refused to buy something because its "too Spendy", you might live in Montana. If your local Dairy Queen is closed from November through March, you might live in Montana. If someone in a store offers you assistance, and doesn't work there, you might live in Montana. If you have worn shorts and a parka at the same time, you might live in Montana. If your town has an
January 26th 2009:i Had A Dream
i had a dream last night of falling in love, i fell in love and fell out of love once more. I keep thinking i should give up on it, why? you ask. Well i cannot keep riding the coaster of heartbreak each time someone breaks up with me due to my lifestyle and my ways of living. I party to stay happy to stay alive, yeah i drink, but on ocaasions and socially...occasions are birth days mine especially and holidays especially New years eve. Yet most ladies i meet up with have something against that, and they leave me. Yes it hurts still even tho they say..i do not want to hurt you...they do but im strong enough to not let it show, why should i? yep ican cry but there are no more tears for those who dont wanna share the pain i feel at times. But if you want me to share them with you then be there for me as friends,TRUE friends not just someone who says they are.
Check This Out
A short trailer from the "B" movie I was in....Copy and paste....I could not embed it.
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The Apple Iii
She gave him one more a time a condescending look, which he accepted with great pleasure and even a hint of a smile, since it meant that her feeding pattern was disrupted by his refusal cave in and give her material to gloat about for the rest of the day. After a brief moment of shock and disappointment, she straightened out and walked out of his cubicle, finially giving him personal space to go back to his daily routine and occupy his mind with yet another thought of what happened that night. He started guessing who the strange woman was again, jumping from one idea to another: a ghost perhaps? Or maybe he was drugged and somehow she took advantage of him by altering his mind and making him see all those things? That did not make any sense since he knew that he did not go anywhere , and clearly remembered going to bed for good. He rubbed his face with palms of his hands in an attempt to clear his mind and body of unwanted thoughts and skin cells, and decided to wait and see how things
One Person Survives
Dead , delted, Knifed in the chest, Bring it, Hard or soft, One person survives, In wounds, Battles, Cars & planes, Keep yourself sane, Before somebody pulls a gun, Teardrops fall solid, For all those who left, In combat.
What's Left Of The Flag!!
Just a Little Celtic Punk to get the blood pumpin'. Even if you are uncertain have a listen it's great stuff. (NOt to mention the chick on fiddle is SMOKIN hot!!!)
Random Thoughts
You kiss my lips and bite my tongue I'd like to fight but I know I'd be wrong You are everything I've ever wanted But you are still nothing that I need I'd like to hate you for breaking my heart But I am not that strong You run your fingers through my hair You stick in my brain like glue I don't have words to describe the pain I see you standing there And my heart skips a beat Because I want you that much You think that you want me I find myself asking why not You have nothing better to do Why not since I mean nothing to you Why not if you won't fall for me With just one night in your arms You turned my world inside out I've got to believe in something It might as well be you I want to forget what you do to me But you always remind me My heart and soul are your slave
Oh The Humanity!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Friday, December 22, 2006 Alright now I am pissed...I odered my food at 6pm they told me I would get it 45 minutes from then...Here it is at 7:44pm and I just called the chinese place and they told me it would be another 10 to 15 minutes for my fuckin chinese food to get here...I can under stand the 20 minute delay a another fuckin hour...and on top of this tragedy its my chinese food man...I LOVE CHINESE FOOD!!!!These people suffocate me with there delays and all this other bullshit...I cannot understand how a buisness can run like that I mean I really just can't it is so upsetting to not think about this and so iritating to forget about it at the same time...I was even contimplating on getting pizza and cheesy sticks...If I would have ordered from papa johns then everything would be ok and i would be eating my pizza right now...Oh let us not forget the sympathy I have to show when the driver shows up when you just wanna strangle them....GGGGGGGGGGRRRRRRRRRR
The Spilled Drink!!!
Sunday, December 03, 2006 And there she was standing at the end of the bar...Looking so sweet and innocent...BULLSHIT!!!that chica is the devil man...She looks so calm and very collected, but man she is ready to rock...I saw this girl cool as ice cream grab a Vodka and Cranberry...No problem easy drink to make and nice going down...With calm and ease she went into her purse to get out her money and payed the man...She asked for a couple of cherries like every good girl should...When she recieved her drink again with the cherries she started very very smirkingly smiling on the right corner of her mouth...She raised the glass up to her lips, those full red lips and parted them to insert the straw into her mouth...She decided to take only a sip of her newly poored drink and then set it back down on the doing so she lit a clove cigarette and started to enjoy the scented smell the clove gave to the air around her...She then sit her purse down on the table and sit her cl
Admitting And Realizing Mistakes!!!!!
Saturday, December 29, 2007 I feel like kickin around a new topic that I havn't disscused yet...And yet I know all of you have wondered or even felt the cold hands of memmories when we were all younger and the winter was actually winter with snow and vodka...I wonder what would have happened if I would have never met any of you all who consider me a friend or brother...I mean I know a lot of you who wanted to kick my ass and well you probably would have succeded if I owuld have had my friends there to protect me when I was so drunk the world started spining...You know there are a lot of other people that wanted to tell me that I needed to slow down stop partying so much and relax...I just wasn't ready for that...I thought I could have all and anything that I wanted for I was so good at what I did and if you really knew me and what I could get then you know what I was good at...I have come to understand that when you look back on a life filled with nothing but liquids and more
Dr Tran
Some people just don't know when to stop. Take Ashton, for example. This is the kind of guy who sings stuff by women to make a complete ass of himself... and when someone suggests lowering his pants for a gansta song, goes a bit far. Hence why I couldn't sleep last night. The image scarred me. On a nicer note, when I said nice dancing to a really hot girl on the way out who did basically every corny dance move in the book, unashamedly, she called out "I love you too!". It's a match made in heaven, I tell you. Now I hope she comes back. Fortunately (or un) she was with Ashton's group, who have become semi-regular since the end of last year (ie: they just turned 18).
I Want To Love Again
I slowly and silently gather the remnants of my shattered heart Trying to feel again Searching for my own soul Do I dare let myself love again? Can I hope? Will you keep the promises made? Can you succeed where others have failed?
What Is Love
What is love? To Love Is Nothing To Be Loved Is Something To Love And To Be Loved Is Everything. True love is knowing a person's faults, and loving them even more for them.and helping them over come them To truly love is to have the courage to walk away and let the one who wishes to be free go. No matter how much it hurts. True love comes once in a lifetime. It is revealed subtly and appears without warning. So when you see it grab and hold it and never let go. So open your heart and feel it, for once you do, nothing will ever be the same. To truly love you must put all of your heart and soul into it because if it doesn't hurt than it can't be love, but if you give until it hurts you will be rewarded in the end. This is the measure of love; When we believe that we alone can love, that no one could ever have loved us before, and that no one will ever love us in the same way after us. True love is not something that comes everyday, Follow your heart, it alwa
Cowboy From The West
It wasn't his genetics or some fabled cowboy deed. His rock-hard ranch existence had spawned a different breed. He was indeed a different breed- this cowboy of the west. It wasn't how he walked or talked or how the cowboy dressed. And it was more than how he roped, or how the man could ride. His rock-hard ranch existence had branded him inside. So deep inside the brand was burnt, it set the man apart… more inner strength; more stamina; more steely grit and heart. Just like Montana cattle, a breed that has survived when other stock have languished, or dropped somewhere and died. It wasn't his genetics or some fabled cowboy deed. His rock-hard ranch existence had spawned a different breed.
I Wish
Sometimes I think it would be better to just lay down and die, I think I could be more happy, and I'll never cry. I think finally I don't need to hurt and hold in all my fears, I could just end my life now, I won't feel tears. But what if I were wrong? And there's no such place, What if we just die and our souls erase. I think about this all the time, maybe it is true, Imagine if it is, and end what I've gone threw. I can't suffer any more, this is not the real me, This is a risk I'll have to take, I have to go and see. I can't just say I'm happy, and say that it is real, I can't just hide in the shadows, and don't even try to heal. I will not comet suicide, but I wish I will, That is way to easy, and don't want to kill. I'm waiting for that day, when I say good-bye, The day of joy and laughter, the day when I die.
"will I Ever?"
Will I Ever Will I ever make my peace with you? One I should know so well Often trapped by chains you just can’t break, in the deepest pits of Hell Struggling hard, you sometimes seem, to crawl out of that place But still I do not recognize a once familiar face Will I ever get to share a laugh, or a pleasant hour with you? A moment when the clouds are gone and the skies are deepest blue? When the forecast never says aloud that there’s any threat of rain A normal day when just for once you’re not fighting back the pain Will I ever get to hear your hopes, your visions, or your dreams? Because lately all the sounds you make are hollow empty screams The sad refrain of a driven man, one often torn apart How many times I wonder, can one survive a broken heart? Will I ever get to see you love the simple things in life? Instead of things that fill your soul with pain and hurt and strife Those sad and cruel reminders that always make you ill That keep you pushing your ma
Player Baby Come Back
Spending all my nights, all my money going out on the town Doing anything just to get you off of my mind But when the morning comes, Im right back where I started again Trying to forget you is just a waste of time Baby come back, any kind of fool could see There was something in everything about you Baby come back, you can blame it all on me I was wrong, and I just cant live without you All day long, wearing a mask of false bravado Trying to keep up the smile that hides a tear But as the sun goes down, I get that empty feeling again How I wish to God that you were here Baby come back, any kind of fool could see There was something in everything about you Baby come back, you can blame it all on me I was wrong, and I just cant live without you Now that I put it all together Give me the chance to make you see Have you used up all the love in your heart Nothing left for me, aint there nothing left for me Baby come back, any kind of fool could see There wa
Woooooo Hoooooooooo
Both Sides
Bury all your secrets in my skin As I have kept so many of yorus and never questioned Come away with innocence, and leave me with my sins For truest love forgives all The air around me still feels like a cage I never meant to trap you And love is just a camouflage for what resembles rage again... Forgive me and let go of your anger go So if you love me, let me go. And run away before I know. I do and while I hide in the shadows I cannot run from you My heart is just too dark to care. I can't destroy what isn't there. It is there I wouldnt be hearing it if it wasnt unless Im mad Deliver me into my Fate - If I'm alone I cannot hate Then hate me if that is what it takes to walk you to yoru fate I don't deserve to have you... It is I thats undeserving My smile was taken long ago / If I can change I hope I never know We both changed the day we said hello I still press your letters to my lips And cherish them in parts of me that savor e
Be My Valentine
Be My Valentine A man walks into a post office one day and sees a middle-aged, balding man standing at the counter methodically placing "Love" stamps on bright pink envelopes with hearts all over them. He then takes out a perfume bottle and starts spraying scent all over them. His curiosity gets the better of him; he goes up to the balding man and asks him what he is doing. The man says, "I'm sending out 1,000 Valentine cards signed, 'Guess who?'" "But why?" asks the man. "I'm a divorce lawyer," the man replies.
Effort Is Important,
But knowing where to make an effort in your life makes all the difference. "Even the word 'IMPOSSIBLE' says 'I M POSSIBLE' " When your successful, Your well wishers know who you are When you are unsuccessful, You know who your well wishers are Ship is always safe at shore... But is is not built for it Falling down is not defeat... Defeat is when you refuse to get up...
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For The Fake Ass Ppl Out There
for all the fake ass punk bitches that think they are better then everyone else and are only power hungry get over yourself no is that good or innocent so dont even try specially to the ones that have a lil power and need to have it go to their heads try again cause you will wind up dead or hurting worse then the ppl you offended
Its Official
im so not crazy
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I'm not mad anymore...that was yesterday. See, told ya I'd be over it! I'm more sad than anything right now. Sad, that after years of being a friend to someone and finding that they just don't care, is unsettling and saddens me. You would think people change after nineteen years of knowing them. You would think that growing up, responsibilities,knowledge and just plain life would make someone see their immaturity but in actuality, it's only if they've been faced with all those things, that they see their true selves and just plain "man up"! I know now that I've far surpassed my friend in maturity. I know now, I'm much further in knowledge. I know now, I'm stronger than I ever was to handle anything he does or doesn't throw at me. I'm no longer controlled by the silence and lack of communication. I've made it past the ignorance. I've accepted the apology and I'm ready to move on. It's just a sad day when they don't see it the same way. When they're stuck in the past
Military Service And Chat Rooms
Let me start off by saying that I have nothing but appreciation and admiration for those who serve and their families, who also make a great sacrifice. I also think chat rooms are a good way for those over seas to keep in touch with the world and kill some boredom on their off time. Which I'm sure we all couldn't even imagine without being their ourselves. With that being said, I'd like to voice an opinion on a related matter. In my honest opinion I find it I find it damn shameful that anyone would pretend to be in the service and serving in a dangerous area for attention or sympathy in a chat room. I personally don't agree with actual service members constantly whining about being deployed to a crappy location like Iraq, but if they did the time then I guess they deserve it. People that are or were close to me who served, never complained about Iraq over and over , maybe a word once or twice but other than that... they simply stated that "Wars arent fought on
My Wednesday
Today I met up a friend, Sara and got to meet her new baby who is 7 weeks old. Also met up with a friend that I haven't seen since Elementary School. Had lunch at Sharies then went over to Sara's place for a while, chatted, played a board game and played with the baby. Later on in the evening, I went to a concert. Cradle Of Filth was the main group playing and they totally kicked ass. The other two weren't so bad. It was Satyricon and Septic Flesh. I got one of their autographs. Yay! I stayed mostly up in the balcony but when Cradle played, I went in towards the mosh pit. I was trying to get closer photos taken, some dude saw me trying to take pics and he offered me to stand in front of him up front. He actually put his hands on my waist for a bit....ha ha ha ha...Took a few pics, said thanks and I moved out of the way. Did some moshing, head banging and stuff... Went back to try to take some more close up photos and he offered to have me up front again. LOL How sweet... T
Family:feb.5th 2009
in these past few years i been thinking about my family and how much we have triedto be together. its funny to think that each member has their own lives andgotten distance till the holidays roll around andwe gather with friends and such. then we go back to our drudgy lives again working to keep going and going....not realizing thatthere re members who miss each other, i lost mom year and half ago, dad in 85...aunt and uncles few yrs ago, a cousin in Nam...grandparents on both sides, friends in Nam tht i knew in high school, and yet i keep going cuz they asked me to, yet i break down and cry cuz i see my moms picture hanging on the wall and hear her last wishes for her..."dont cry hun" yet i broke down at her funerl att he end nd i stood there at graveside after everyone left for the cars, i turned slowly and as the tears fell from my eyes, realizing now he is gone from me, but still with me like dad is in my heart and how i laugh,cry and being strong for my fam. till ast night i rea
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Things To Do In Vegas...besides
He asked what I wanna do....any other suggestions besides listed?: (Keep in mind we are young, and not rich) *Bingo (we love bingo) *Casino (first time gambling in a casino) *Bellegio fountains (cuz I hear they're cool!) *Gondola ride (cuz we gotta do something romantic) *Strip Club (never been to one before) *Circus del sul (or however it's spelled and this is a maybe.)
My Simple Recipe
[ - *Glitter Photos*] this is one tasty yet quick recipe... gonna love it".
Meeting New People
I just want to say that I have met some very interesting people on this site. Some are really nice and then there are some that are really mean. But I guess you will have that. This isn't really about anything in particular. Just wanted to say thanks to my true friends on here.You know who you are!!
Wonders Sometimes!
I know I've been talking alot about my problems lately however my mother is do here in 3 days although everytime I call to talk with her shes either sleeping or to busy now in some way I feel as if shes ignoring my calls & don't want to talk with me, it's hurting me to know that she'd do something like that but what would you think if you had asked your mother to be there for you while you go through a procedure? And not want to talk about it or pretty much ignore you, it'll make you feel worthless... I did call a few times & she said I'll call ya back but never did so what would you all think??? Anyways I do hope that I'm not bothering her with my problems, seeing she has some of her own an all. My sister just got out of surgery a few days ago an she was there for her another sister of mine is in some deep shit with the law & of course she's there for her now that I'm in need it seems as if I'm left alone to deal with it myself which is hard because I know my husband won't be able to
How Many
I cant remember how many days or times i have cut my skin and hurt myself but for the first time i can remember something in life. I remember two things how many days i havent cut myself (1) and how it was the best feeling in the world. For the first time in 13 years i have not taking the cold steal of a knife and hurt myself with it. It is the greatest feeling every i truly think i have beaten this shit. Hell i hope i have this is the first time ive ever stoped doing it. The first time someone too the time to say hey you dummy wake up look at what your doing to yourself everyday for what to so said let stress go. Uh ah it dont work like that. For the first time i am able to think free minded and be open to people i would have never been open with before. I truly dont want to do that to myself anymore. And for once in my life i am strong enough to say fuck the knifes i wont do it again.
Dish Network
Thank The Queen Bee, The Two Apollos, And The Three Free Meals
Usually I put a list one of my online friends wants me to fill out at the end of my epistle, but today I’ll be different and do it at the beginning (where you’re more likely to read it). So here goes … first, my name David was given to me at birth by my parents and I was named for my grandfather, my dad’s dad. At most of these places online I’m either David A (A being the first letter of my last name) or David1211 (12 and 11 being my birth month and day). Second, I have a lot of chest hair, more than any male on my side of the family according to my dad (who died in 2006, so you can’t ask him!). Third, I collect older books and almost anything Star Wars. That’s one, two, and three “random and/or weird facts about” myself so far, and I’ll get to the others, trust me. It’s a stretch to say I’m proud of myself, but last night after the five of us – my wife Martha, our kids Sarah and Jeffrey, and Martha’s sister Mary – sat down on a blanket and had dinner from Burger King, we found
I Am Sick
I am constipated. I have a cold. And my nads hurt. What the Hell is going on ? Duh , I know I am sick. But what could cause all 3 things ?
Long Hard Ride #3
Songs for the Long Hard Ride #3 "Hurt" I hurt myself today To see if I still feel I focus on the pain The only thing that's real The needle tears a hole The old familiar sting Try to kill it all away But I remember everything [Chorus:] What have I become My sweetest friend Everyone I know goes away In the end And you could have it all My empire of dirt I will let you down I will make you hurt I wear this crown of thorns Upon my liar's chair Full of broken thoughts I cannot repair Beneath the stains of time The feelings disappear You are someone else I am still right here [Chorus:] What have I become My sweetest friend Everyone I know goes away In the end And you could have it all My empire of dirt I will let you down I will make you hurt If I could start again A million miles away I would keep myself I would find a way
So the saying goes what happens in vegas stays in does that mean since I'm movin there it is true? I happened to go there... Now I will be stayin there... I love you hope u have a good will talk to u soon. muahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
You feed me through this IV Your nutrients are razor sharp You words cutting my skin You take flight up my arm Marked left, as u travel You enter my core Thorns are bloomed Torn from inside Suffocation from your lies You feed me
When It Rains, It Fucking Pours!
WARNING! The word "Motherfucker" is used quite a few times in the following blog entry! Motherfucker. I've been using that word A LOT today! Not only is my relationship slooowly going down the drain with Lane (he says I'm being MEAN to him!) but some motherfucker broke in to my car and ripped out in the ignition while trying to steal it! Motherfucker!! Now that I got that out of my system, saying that I am PISSED would be the understatement of 2009. Not only does my relationship need to be fixed, but my motherfucking car does too! Do wonders ever cease? I can't frigging believe always happens this way. When one thing happens, everything else happens. It was like this last year when I had my nervous breakdown. One thing happened, and then, just as quick as that happened, everything else came tumbling down. My relationship. My family. My friends. I don't want to go down that dark place again, especially since I have Piper. I won't go to that dark pl
Nothing Special
I know that I'm nobody Nothing special at all So please don't cry for me I'm just another one of the many faces praying to the rain Take away my eyes and drown out my voice It doesn't matter anymore Don't cover me with laurels or decorate me with diamonds I'm not worth it anyhow I can't care anymore I know I'm worth nothing not even the love you give to me I'm just a broken one a crushed little toy soldier swept underneath the rug No one cares about me because no one knows me So why even bother crying? Just leave me alone and make the world go away I won't make you happy anymore All I do is bring pain to those I love the most and cripple myself all the while Just hate me like all of the others It'd make things so much easier What good is love anyhow When it brings only heartbreak time and time again? I don't know how to be genuine I've lost the real me somewhere in all of that trivia. Everything now is just a reflection a reflection of a broken soul
Picture Perfect
What the Hell happened to me? When did I go from someone who was so mighty so strong and fade into the person I am today? I used to know how to smile for God's sake but somehow I forgot and I haven't remembered for some time now.. The simple things that once brought me joy have all been turned into guilty pleasures and all the memories that made me smile are now too faded to enjoy I've gone from being a person whole and complete to being someone trapped within his own mind a prisoner of my feelings How can I run away when I don't have the heart to stand? How can I fight this when I can't rouse the energy to care You've won I'm a slave now I hope you're happy You've caged the bird and grounded him for life You conquered me scorched me destroyed me and now you have me on display like a picture just an image of what once was flat, motionless but easy to hold and own I hope you enjoy your picture my dear I'm sure you have me in a nice frame. How much patie
The Relationship
I met a terrific man in July, We started out just as poker buddies, and it bloomed into something I will never forget. While playing poker with a female friend of mine she introduced me to a man who i thought was absolutely gorgeous the only flaw I seen was he lived in London, a place that I have only dreamed of visiting, and seems light years away from me. We started flirting and talking way into the night. itold him I am married albeit not happily and he told me he had a girl friend who lives in Germany. Our talks progressed from the poker tables to messenger to computer calls to late at night phone calls (the late at night phone calls were not due to discreation but because of the time differnce). We talked about everything including the thought of me leaving my husband which I did, but not for his benefit, but for mine. I needed to get out of this marriage and make something of myself, he helped me believe in myself again. In October we started dating online for we both knew th
Trying To Maintain
Here I sit,sad,hurt,lost,confused and in pain. Its so hard to sit here and pretend that I am fine,when my heart is breaking and my life feels that it is coming apart at the seams before my very eyes. Do I reach out when I know that it's not wanted? Do I sit here when I feel that its needed? I have to pretend and while pretending every second that passes I lose more of myself,more of what kept me alive,I watch as others get attention and I'm the very last one in the longest line ever,so long in fact that I don't even recieve the attention,I can't voice my opinion,because I can't,but I can't sit here and pretend that things don't affect me either. What does one do when every choice is the wrong one? Why is this yet another night that I am made to feel this way,yet another night of my heart breaking,yet I am to sit here and pretend that I am unaffected,I can't voice my feelings in status changes,I cant voice my opinions at all,I have no one that I can turn to to tell of this pain and sadn
Valentines Day Shoot
Hey all! First I want to say this isn't really nsfw but I didn't want it to get tagged since I talk like a sailor haha. So I hate Valentines day!! HATE IT! haha I just think it's another way to manipulate people into buying candy flowers and 50 cent cards to show their love. I'm not a cheesy girl and I'm not into the whole love thing so it just annoys me. I have blog pretty regularly(don't HAVE to but it helps) on the Suicide Girl site and wanted to do a short self shot set for Valentine's Day. I was thinking an anti-love theme for those of us who will be alone on V-day and think that it's a useless holiday...for the cynics like me. For my background I am making hearts to stick on the wall that are about a foot tall by a foot wide that look like valentines. Then I came up with the idea to put saying for V-day haters instead of loving comments. I would love ideas from anyone who wants to help me out for phrases that I can write on a heart that size that you will still be a
New Here.
Hey everyone. I'm new here. I have no clue what i'm doing just yet so give me time, lol. Not sure what else to write. So later!
Forgio Your Name
Sexy Comments & Profile Graphicsi wrote your name in the sky,but the wind blew it away.i worte your name in the sand,but the waves washed it away.i wrote your name in my heart,and forever will it stay.everymoring i wake up in our old bed,everymoring i wake up with regret and words left unsaid.everyday i feel you like you were here,everyday day i see you like you are near.everynight your in my dreams,everynight i cry myself to sleep.i saw your face in the sky,but then the wind blew it away.i saw you in the sand,but then the waves washed it away.i see you in my heart,and forever will it stay................................................................Rhino
Very True Right Now For Me
I hear the screams I cannot quiet I feel the pain It will not stop So much resentment But so much more love I want REVENGE I need you to hurt like I did But I cannot cause you pain I want to see you fall But I will want to catch you You need to lose Cry Fail
Kiss Me
There is at least one person on your Tagged list that wants to kiss the hell out of you. So lets play the "Kiss or pass!" Game... the rules are simple... if you want to kiss the person who posts this, send them a message saying "yep, I'd kiss you. SCARED? YOU HAVE TO RE-POST THIS and see who replies
you gaze at me from a crowded room our eyes meet my heart flutters my heart skips a beat you walk toward me eyes still locked you reach out to touch me you caress my skin not sure i know where this night will end your touch sends shivers down my spine your fingers send pulses through my skin oh how i need to feel your touch you pick me up carry me to the bed you take me im your arms and carress my skin more later
I Miss You!
I'm not sure where to start, I don't know how to begin, I guess I'll start with i miss you, Cause that's what I'm feeling within, I miss you like a cloud with no sun in the sky, It has nothing to look up to and so it cries, Crying raindrops fall onto the ground, To just fade to nothing, nowhere to be found, I miss you like a tree with no leave, Nothing to move and drift in the breeze, Leave scattered and sodden, Walked upon, a broke soul down trodden, I miss you like a mouth with no tongue, It cannot speak, all these words left unsung, They just hang in the moment, caught up in the mind, Words left unspoken and all left behind, I miss you like friends all alone, Each missing each other, calling them on the phone, It's like no ones answering your endless calls, Please echoing along deserted halls, I miss you like a lover torn away, From the one she cares for and thinks of each day, When she reaches for his hand, and when she reaches for his kiss, And the
Ok, the new name isnt a freaking typo. After sorting the universe looking for someone to die for and dealing with numerous tards and liars and flakes and assorted other junk. I found someone real right under my nose.And I am definitely glad I did because she makes me the happiest guy alive. Get ready for the new and improved SPG because married life is gonna be a blast.
In Case She Had Any Doubts
Autism Symptoms, About My Son...
Extreme difficulty in learning language. Inappropriate response to people. A child with autism may avoid eye contact, resist being picked up or cuddled, and seem to tune out the world. Inability or reduced ability to play cooperatively with other children or to make friends. Inability to understand other people's feelings. Need for a rigid, highly structured routine -- and being very distressed by changes in routines. Extreme hyperactivity or unusual passivity, and extreme resistance to change. Repetitive body movements including pacing, hand flicking, twisting, spinning, rocking or hitting oneself. Insensitivity to pain or lack of response to cold or heat. Impulsive behavior and no real fear of dangers. An unusual attachment to inanimate objects such as toys, strings or spinning objects. Frequent crying and tantrums for no apparent reason. Peculiar speech patterns. An autistic child may use words without understanding their meanings. Abnormal responses to sen
How I Feel At This Point
Do you ever feel like breaking down? Do you ever feel out of place? Like somehow you just don’t belong And no one understands you, Do you ever wanna run away? Do you lock yourself in your room? With the radio on turned up so loud, That no one hears you screaming, No you don’t know what it’s like, When nothing feels alright, You don’t know what it’s like to be like me, To be hurt To feel lost, To be left out in the dark, To be kicked When you’re down ,To feel like you’ve been pushed around, To be on the edge of breaking down, And no one’s there to save you, No you don’t know what it’s like, Welcome to my life, Do you wanna be somebody else? Are you sick of feeling so left out? Are you desperate to find something more Before your life is over? Are you stuck inside a world you hate? Are you sick of everyone around? With the big fake smiles and stupid lies, While deep inside you’re bleeding, No you don’t know what it’s like, When nothing feels alright, You don’t know what it’s like to
Sexual Feelings
Rainy days and cold nights, These are days I need you to hold me tight in your arms, Hold me close and keep me warm, Tell me I'm your good luck charm, Look me in my eyes and tell me I'm the one for you , Tell me I'm your every wish come true, Lay me down very gently, Then make love to me essentially, Caress my body from head to toe not missing a spot, Lets play around like connect the dots, Lets make each other hot till our body heat rise like a rollercoaster ride, Take my body on a journey that never ends, It always seems to just begin, Make me climax like i never done before, Do what you want to my body its all yours, Rub me, lick me, kiss me, tease me do what ever you want to my body as long as its pleasing
Proud To Be White
Proud to be White Michael Richards makes his point......................Michael Richards better known as Kramer from TVs Seinfeld does make a good point. This was his defense speech in court after making racial comments in his comedy act.. He makes some very interesting points... Someone finally said it... How many are actually paying attention to this? There are African Americans, Mexican Americans, AsianAmericans, Arab Americans, etc. And then there are just Americans. You pass me on the street and sn eer in my direction. You call me 'White boy,' ' Cracker,' 'Honkey,' 'Whitey,' 'Caveman'... and that's OK. But when I call you, Nigger, Kike, Towel head, Sand-nigger, Camel Jockey, Beaner, Gook, or Chink .. You call me a racist. You say that whites commit a lot of violence against you... so why are the ghettos the most dangerous places to live? You have the United Negro College Fund. You have Martin Luther King Da y. You have Black History Month.. You have Cesar Chav
Whats It Means.. Means Its What
This one I am not sure why I wrote. I think it was written by the crazy people in my head I see clearly now They show me the truth you see I know when and where he will show I jump, skip and run They scream and shout in my head and I shiver The bed spins around the room and I scream Let me dream of better days and her lips She kisses my face and in her eyes I see her love for me He was betrayed by just one kiss We hope for life to be love The doctor says he's sorry, but there is no hope When I bleed, will you be my doctor I try to fly the path that will lead me there A father can only do what he knows and do his best...he will try My worst day is coming when God takes my Father These men that hammer day and night Black water, purple sky and roars of pink and blue men I find hope where I may upside down in the water Can't you see the spaces...empty in my soul\ My life is wandering, spinning and lost without you Why so long you take to put my self in
Let Me Be
your rock when the winds of fate seem relentless against you your water when the heat of fate seems to burn your soul your warm morning sun when the nights are too cold and too lonely your warm gentle rain when you want to cry and want noone to see your song when your heart is seeking harmony a steadying hand when you need to stand your fan when you need to fight alone your ally when the fight is too much to face alone your lover when your passions over flow your friend always Let me be your love
Its over for us Im at peace now Well peaceful as I can be But your still in my mind It's over for us I'm never going to be the same My life has changed For the good and bad Its like death Both good and bad Bad because it's gone Good cause the suffering is over Connect it with drowing Rough at first Cause your fighting it But once you give in Its then a peaceful ending But if you never loved You have never lived ------------------------ I used to love pain But loseing the one you love Is not the pain to enjoy But as the old saying goes Its better to have loved and lost Then never to have loved at all
Continued List Of People I Can Do Without!
Ok insted of going back and adding to my last blog i figured id just do a new one with the new additions... 27. People who dont know who George Carlin is. 28. SARA PALIN! (why wont she go away!!!) 29. People who dont know who Iron Maiden is 30. People who say all metal sounds the same. 31. Rappers 32. people who feel the need to shop right when a store is CLOSEING for the night. 33. people who are assholes to cashires 34. people who cut me off when im talking 35. People who cant seem to learn how to use a credit or debit card machine.. 36. people who pay ALL in change..(not sure if i already had this one) 37. People who feel the need to wish me a happy Valentines day (fuck off its not a holliday! do this on here u will be deleated off my list!
.damn April.
I never fucking wake and bake and today I did. I feel retarded. Lol So the whole damn I'm going to have a stupid grin on my face and think everything is really funny. Lol Omg... Anyway ummmmm I thought I had something else to say but I guess not. Hmmmm.... Okay Happy Valentines Day... Yup Rope...CSI....yeah lol
Home Lonely...
It's Saturday and I am assuming that half of the people in this country is out getting shitfaced somehwere, some party, some bar. Well here I am at home alone on a saturday. I have to admit, I quite love this feeling! I love being home alone alot because I never ever get to spend time with myself these days anymore. I am always busy at school, or doing my homework, but now I'm so happy because now i get to spend Fridays with my friends. Speaking of my girlfriend, her phone has been off alllll night so I couldn't find her. Oh well, maybe her battery died or something. Hence me being alone and loving it right now! Not that I don't love spending time with her, because I do, very much so.....but I think that it is good for EVERYONE to have some alone time to themselves. Away from distraction, you can focus more on your inner thoughts and feelings. Get a better picture of life and where you are, reflect on things. God I love it! Right now I'm trying to post this blog,lol, and
Owen Its So Dark
i sit here in this empty room and say why is it so dark why cant i see the light my life feels like there is no way out this room thre is no door or window to get out my head is gettion so filled with thought of how i suppose to live without my son that is why i cant see hes in the light but cant see him i go forwards i can start to the light is he there i hope so cause i cant take the pain with out him in my loife no more...
A Dream Come True
A single rose fully blossomed on a bush on a field covered with a blanket of fresh snow Her grace and charm are only surpassed by her smile Her smile stops all of earth and heaven Her touch is as silk her heart is a fortress of compassion to hide in She is a dream come true stylish and classy sweet and kind and completely sexy Sassy
I go into a deep sleep When the dream turn so real This beautiful girl appears along the beach She comes to me to guide her Along the likes of girls So slightly grab her hand to my apartment We walk into the apartment I leave a kiss upon her lips She returns it to me Which turns the kiss deeper More intimate As I run my hands down her beautiful hair Then down to her breasts As I remove her shirt I leave a kiss on her belly Deeply turning her on with each move I remove her lace bra as a drop to the floor I caress my hand on both her breasts Then slightly sucking each nipple with such a moan I hear As I stop right there I grab her hand once more Leading to my room As I put her upon the bed I kiss her sweet belly again Grace touch with my hand down to her pants With a unzip and unbutton they fall As panties do the same With a guide upon my hand Touching the nice soft pussy Of it's lovely shave I move my hand in circles with her clitoris With each moan I he
New Tattoo...
Been waiting almost 2 months to get it and today, is finally the effin' day. I might be late for working and totally fucking sore after getting it, but I'm sure my regulars will understand. Today just seems full of awesome since I've woken up so lets hope that holds true. Here's a crappy picture of what I'm getting simply because I was too lazy to scan the actual drawing. I got paid by a regular of mine at work to draw up a lightening bolt and get it tattooed. Well, I drew it up. Probably a little more girly than he would of liked, but hey it's my arm it's going on. o_o Needless to say I'm excited and if I stop to think about why I'm so excited to have ink pushed into my skin by some odd number of needles I'll probably have to question my own sanity so I won't! :D Hope everyone has a badass Monday.
she moves me like no other ever has she burns within my soul she gives me such joy such agony such bliss such passion in short she makes me feel as if for the first time like some gothic vampire forgiven seeing his first sunrise in forever and she knows this she feels me deeper than she has ever felt or allowed to like a ghost i pass through her walls and like she does to me i haunt her thoughts a friendly spirit a welcomed spectre and in our thoughts in our dreams we are one the connection natural instinctual eternal she is love and I thank god for every moment with her
Brilliant Hilarity
Hell explained by a chemistry student The following is an actual question given on a Washington State University chemistry mid-term. The answer by one student was so "profound" that the professor shared it with colleagues, via the Internet, which is, of course, why we now have the pleasure of enjoying it as well: Bonus Question: Is Hell exothermic (gives off heat) or endothermic (absorbs heat)? Most of the students wrote proofs of their beliefs using Boyle's Law (gas cools when it expands and heats when it is compressed) or some variant. One student, however, wrote the following: First, we need to know how the mass of Hell is changing in time. So we need to know the rate at which souls are moving into Hell and the rate at which they are leaving. I think that we can safely assume that once a soul gets to Hell, it will not leave. Therefore, no souls are leaving. As for how many souls are entering Hell, let's look at the different religions that exist in the wor
Soul why? Tell me why you must. You and me; one we are Our mind and body; but soul, we are not Bonded we are but fight you must Why do you torment me By working with me to achieve happiness But you did it only so you could take it away. This is how you always do it We are bonded to one as is the other So why must you stab me Pry tell I must know You allow pleasure for me Then replace it with immense sorrow Soul why? Tell me why you must. This poem is about everyone saying “in mind, body, and soul” but that is not true because everyone has inner turmoil.
Holes in Life A road is life It is filled with holes There are high spots But also low The holes shock you As do events in life. It cracks and crumples So do friendships and relations Life is a road full of holes.
Wanna Job
One Night Lover"can It Be You?
[ - *Glitter Photos*] It was a rainy night When he came into sight, Standing by the road, No umbrella, no coat. So I pulled up alongside And I offered him a ride. He accepted with a smile, So we drove for a while. I didnt ask him his name, This lonely boy in the rain. Fate, tell me its right, Is this love at first sight? Please dont make it wrong, Just stay for the night. All I wanna do is make love to you Say you will You want me too All I wanna do is make love to you Ive got lovin arms to hold on to So we found this hotel, It was a place I knew well We made magic that night. Oh, he did everything right He brought the woman out of me, So many times, easily And in the morning when he woke all I left him was a note I told him I am the flower you are the seed We walked in the garden We planted a tree Dont try to find me, Please dont you dare Just live in my memory, Youll always be there All I wanna do is make love to you One night o
Barney Song/ Poem
Killing Barney You love me I hate you I will beat you with my shoe. Your nose is broke This is a joke Barney is so fucking dumb It is funny to laugh at his stupid ass song You still love me Even after I beat you with my shoe How do I get rid of you I’ve got a uber awesome idea to fix that But first I’ll need my baseball bat Now I am going to put on a really kick ass hat. You love me I hate you too The shoe didn’t fix you So now lets see if my lovely little bat will do the trick Oh my god you are such a fucking prick Lol this is so much fun.  Guess I’ll go and get my gun Now it’s time you die you purple bastard Now hold still so I can feed you to the buzzard He loved me I killed him Now I am at the end It was so much fun to do this I will have to do it again But first I have to get paid by Satan
Peace And Whales Come In Pods
“Wars and terrorist attacks will always make headlines, but it’s remarkable how many of the world’s 6.7 billion people now live in peace. In recent decades, despite the growth in population, the number of war casualties around the world has declined, according to the Human Security Report Project from Canada’s Simon Fraser University. And despite a new fear of terrorism following 9/11, terrorist casualties have been declining in recent years. In some earlier generations, a quarter of the male population died violent deaths. Over the past century, even counting the world wars, a person’s chance of dying from war or violent civil strife was less than 2 percent, according to John Mueller, a professor of political science at Ohio State University. That means that the scourge of war is now comparable to the statistical risk of driving a car in the United States.” Point two of this month’s Reader’s Digest article, “It’s A Wonderful Life” makes a point to me that I don’t have to wor
Only - Nine Inch Nails
I'm becoming less defined as days go by Fading away And well you might say I'm losing focus Kinda drifting into the abstract in terms of how I see myself Sometimes I think I can see right through myself [x2] Sometimes I can see right through myself Less concerned about fitting into the world Your world that is Cause it doesn't really matter anymore (no it doesn't really matter anymore) No it doesn't really matter anymore None of this really matters anymore Yes I am alone but then again I always was As far back as I can tell I think maybe it's because Because you were never really real to begin with I just made you up to hurt myself [x2] I just made you up to hurt myself, yeah And I just made you up to hurt myself And it worked. Yes it did! [Chorus:] There is no you There is only me There is no you There is only me There is no fucking you There is only me There is no fucking you There is only me Only [x4] Well the tiniest little dot caugh
Drive In...
His fingers ran through her hair as she sat next to him in the truck watching the movie at the drive in. Her right hand was on his leg, then his stomach and rested on his now stiffening manhood. His fingers were twirling her silky brown hair faster in his right hand as she began to tease him with her right hand. The speaker wasn’t even on as the movie was playing but, she could hear the music from the stereo softly playing “Faithfully” as their eyes met her left hand touching his cheek begging him to kiss her. Their lips met softly her cologne filling his nose; his desire was increasingly growing as was his longing to enter her. Suddenly his hand was under her top feeling her breasts as she intentionally didn’t wear a bra; her nipples responding to his touch with a slow rise and a pulsation within his fingertips. Their bodies become entwined her hair on his shoulder his hands under her top, his pants unbuttoned her hands exploring his lower dimensions. The passionate touch
Weird Things You Would Never Know!!
Weird Things You Would Never Know!! 1 A shrimp's heart is in its head. 2 The 'sixth sick sheik's sixth sheep's sick' is said to be the toughest tongue twister in the English language. 3 Rats multiply so quickly that in 18 months, two rats could have over a million descendants. 4 Wearing headphones for just an hour will increase the bacteria in your ear by 700 times. 5 If the government has no knowledge of aliens, then why does Title 14,Section 1211 of the Code of Federal Regulations, implemented on July 16 1969, make it illegal for U.S. citizens to have any contact with extraterrestrials or their vehicles? 6 In every episode of Seinfeld, there is a Superman somewhere. 7 A duck's quack doesn't echo, and no one knows why. 8 23% of all photocopier faults world-wide are caused by people sitting on them and photocopying their butts. 9 Most lipstick contains fish scales. 10 Like fingerprints, everyone's tongue print is different. 11 If you sneeze too hard,
Our Economy
How Sad!! I heard this morning our economy has gotten so bad, that all the illegal aliens are headed back to Mexico. They feel financially they will be better off. The good news is that Mexico will once again have an Olympics swim team now that all their good swimmers are returning home.
I Crave A Blissful Life
You Crave a Blissful Life Your dream is to live a light hearted, carefree life. You don't want to be bogged down by stress. You'd like to recapture some of the playfulness and innocence you had as a child. You believe that life should be about celebrations and fun. The world needs more happiness. You want to focus on the positive and stay optimistic. It's too easy to get depressed. The Sunset Test
What Level?
What level do you have to be to be able to have an owner?
The Fire Within
It burns without ceasing theres no water or cold that can cool it down thoughts and words running incessantly quick write them down or you will forget words on a page telling your view of the world keep writing till the fire burns no more the more I write the more it burns tales of happiness and sadness stories of the ups and downs of life when I put them all together the picture gets clearer still no stopping the fire within
Just One Rate Needed..
Blue Eyed Brat Needs One Rate.. I'll Give 100 Fubucks For Giving Her One Rate.. Want 100 Fubucks? Rate This For Me.
You Are It!
Instructions...... Once you have been tagged, you have to write a blog with 10 weird or random things, facts, or habits about yourself. At the end, you choose at least 5 people to be tagged, listing their names Don't forget to leave a comment that says, "You're it!" on their profile and ask them to read your blog. You can't tag the person who tagged you. 1. Procrastinate Now 2.All men are idiots And I married their king. 3.In America Anyone Can Be President That's One of the Risks You Take. 4.Hard work has a future payoff Laziness pays off now. 5.Where there's a will... I want to be in it. 6.EARTH FIRST! We'll strip-mine the other planets later. 7.Alcohol and calculus don't mix. Never drink and derive. 8.I wear the brains in the family. 9.No sense in being pessimistic It wouldn't work anyway! 10.I'm sorry My fault I forgot you were an idiot. okies you peeps get to do this to 1. Mz.JaXx 2. westcoastkay 3. .•°♥°•.Bright Eyed Angel.•°
I Am Looking To Trade Some Fubucks For A Month Vip
Just A Week
Until my birthday- the 27th. So far, my plans are to MAYBE go to the Margaret and the Nuclear So-And-So's with george, go out to lunch with Brad, my aunt, and my mom, and then saturday jeremy's takin' me and george out to B-Dubs. then, i gots a game saturday night. It should be interesting. Also, They had a cheesegrater for FEET at cvs. WTF? that thing looks dangerous.
Something I Made For My Future Wife
To My Sis And Great Guy(and Father)
About Me
Okay so today is an extremely confusing day for me.. i have alot on my plate and am at a loss for what to do so I think I might have it figured out... My problem is not the ignorant people in my life its the fact that ive lost the most important people to me over the last 5 years and I am hurting and taking it out on the people I love... Except my kids they make me laugh when i want to cry'' lol So I just really want to go to sleep and wake up on the 26th if you know me then you will know the importance of that day... But anyways I just had to get that off my chest even if it doesnt make sense to some of you'' I will always know what this was about and that it made me feel better...
A Show I Worship (strangers With Candy)
"haunted" - Disturbed
You're broken, So am I I'm better off alone No one to turn to And nothing to call my own Outspoken, So am I Explosive words that Your world wouldn't understand Turn away again You're beaten, So am I I've got a heart of stone No medication Can draw what has taken hold You're hurting, So am I When I awaken, Remember why I've been Running from your World Dishonored by your world Your world I'm haunted by your world My blood is cold as ice Or so I have been told Show no emotion, And it can destroy your soul Another sacrifice To a tormentor Your world wouldn't understand Turn away again You're angered, So am I A thousand fires burn A land of darkness From which I cannot return You're aching, So am I When I awaken, Discover that I have been Damaged by your World Dishonored by your world Your world I'm haunted by your world Remember and you might be welcomed Amongst the heartless monsters You surround yourself with Feeding
About Me
Hello. I.m a single Mom of 3. 1 boy and 2 girls.I was born In Ft.Lauderdale and raised in West Virginia. Moved to Upstate NY in 1992. Can't wait to go home to WV. That is where I call home.My son is 18 and 1 daughter is 5yrs and th other one is a yr. They are my life.
Crank It
Men to be the absolute best, you don't have to be undressed. Course that don't mean much, senses say have care behind your touch. Excitement is soaring, up you come, its easy you'll get it I want some. We could be great us two together, all I ask is for acceptance and truth forever. Decisions a lot are tough few are hard, one foot or one third of a yard. Have you got twelve inches of fun at your command, try my way one in the bush and two in the hand. Being with you was fun it felt right, lack of self confidence in me there is a fight. Very much I still want you to feel and prove, quiet love still holds a chance to put the needle in the groove. Realize that I may act simple but I am not easy, friend you can feel it while I crank it to what I know it can be.
if your car can go the speed of light, will the headlights work?
15 Facts About Me
1. I have two wonderful kids 2. I am married to a soldier 3. My husband is deployed 4. I work for an oral surgeon 5. I am a FUBAR addict !!!!! 6. Horror movies are my favorite 7. Purple is my favorite color 8. I have 4 best friends 9. My number one is one of my besties 10. I drive a '07 Mustang 11. I have had major surgery 12. I LOVE Key Lime Pie ... haha 13. Is my lucky numer 14. I can be the biggest bitch you will ever meet 15. I love road trips!!!!!!
U Got What It Takes
Smile Through The Rain
one thing i have found that is an inspiering side of my personality is my eternal optimism...which some ppl may take for being cold...which is hardly true i just try to smile through the rain even when a smile is the furthest thing from my mind...because eventually it will be a real smile...yesterday was a long and very hard day for me alot of things went horribly wrong and finding a reason to smile was very hard...but alas i will wake up and it will be a new day and this bad day will be in the past where it should long as i have my faith in the possibilities of tomorrow i will always be ok.
Silently I Die
Silently I Die Current mood: cold Category: Writing and Poetry Wh..spered Shadows haunt my dreams S..lent Screams ..nvade my conc..ousness Lonel..ness and Despa..r my fa..thfull compan..ons S..lently .. D..e A L..fe once l..ved A Future once faced A Past never S..lently .. D..e A Tear never shed A Laugh never heard A never felt S..lently .. D..e Darkness all around Ravenous Anger ..n a ball Mortal Terror hold S..lently .. D..e One Last breath One Last scream One Last cr..mson drop S..lently .. D..E
In The Heat Of The Moment,
In the heat of the moment, wild passions flare. Tongues, teeth and finger tips, aching to touch and share. Invisible boundaries designed, to quell this heat with a shiver and a chill. Anticipation the red flame, that melts an iron will. Passions born of hell, yet known to God as pleasure. Finger tips burn skin, while touching lighter than a feather. A dance in near darkness, awakes once more this passion. Erotic this crucifixion, outdated by modern fashion. The world slips away, as we dance in the fire. Lips touching skin , animalistic this desire. The tempo grows quicker, hips interlocked not breaking. Hearts pound, brain whirls at this risk we are taking. The CD a rumble, like distant thunder. Passion riding the storm, of this spell I'm under. Lips along jawlines, passion threatens to burn us. Forged far below, in Hades' own furnace. Lips brushing lips, searing the flesh. Bodies interlocked, as to the music we mesh. The beat so st
King Of The Fools
Look around me all i see Thousands of faces wanting me How can i lead? How can i rule? When i'm the king, king of the fools What kind of kingdom has no throne? No crown or castle do i own I don't have silver, gold or jewels Yet i'm the king, king of the fools And i can't help believin´ The world is on my side No i can't help believin´ In my heart But i can't stop this feeling That i should run and hide So before i die i'll sit and wonder why Oh I´ll wonder why King of the fools Who face the world defiantly King of the fools Understanding less than me King of the fools I'm the king, king of the fools The outside world can't understand Just who we are or what i am Well we don't want their life of rules I'll be the king, king of the fools King of the fools I'd proudly rule for all to see King of the fools There's nothing else i'd rather be King of the fools Yes i'm the king, king of the fools King of the fools King of the fooooooooooools A
Blaze Of Glory
my friends and i are moving out to a very dangerous area in a few days, i ask all who read this to please pray for our safety, and for all of our troop's safety, it's going to get ugly out there and we need all the prayers and support we can get, thank you in advance....
Chaotic Mess I Am
My day seems to end before it even begins these days....same shit everyday...wake up take care of my responsibilities, never time to do what i want...cook,clean,cook,clean thats it thats what my life has come down to...never anyone asking if maybe i need help, nope they know ive got it handled or at least thats what they see on the outside....i have many relaltives right here, next door, around the corner,no one asks... I dont blame my 83 year old, leukemia ridden aunt for any of this...i was brought back to this place to care for her,she needs me,theres no one else that cares like i do, to do what i do for her each day...ive given up my life at this moment to give her hers back... does this make me selfish for thinking i want to leave,its just a thought id never leave her,she would die...ive been doing this now for well over a year,24 hours a day 7 days a week... i feel like im losing it slowly,im so tired i want to lay down and sleep for a day or two,i only say it i never do it...
Under Raters
Why in the hell is it always is it the fat, and ugly people under rating peoples profile and pic's? I don't get it, but I will put all you cock suckers in the Street. So have at it.
I Like Dreamin'
In my mind I have held your hand. We've walked along the beach in the sand. Holding each other close at night, I've often wondered where you are at night. I'm lying here under the stars all alone, Cause in my mind is where I can't go wrong. I know I love you, I know I care. I just can't seem to find you near. In my heart, in my mind, Is the loneliest place I'll ever find.
So Far
I'll tell you how the stories told comon' oh I'll tell you how the stories told I always wanted so much more And way on down the road I caught a glimpse of the sunlight Working on my favorite thing using every piece of me Drinking, and smoking, and fucking, and making nothing I didn't do it for money, I did it all for free I did it all to fill the fucking hole inside of me So far it's working out, everything's different now So far na... Think about what you know forget about what your told See how your story grows and let it come from your own mind Do all your favorite things cover it with all your dreams Breathe it, and smoke it, and fuck it and make it something I didn't do it for money, I did it all for free I did it all to fill the fucking hole inside of me So far it's working out, everything's different now So far na... So far the mean machine hasn't got the best of me So far na..... I'll tell you how the stories told I always wanted so much more
Guessing Your Admirer...
Have you ever felt like I do, when you get that exciting note from the powers that be, stating that "You have a secret admirer", only to guess incorrectly? Not only are we wrong, but the 6 hot people we thought would like us, indeed did not! Quite humbling in fact. This just happened to me...again. Unfortunately, I had a page full of pretty girls. So I was screwed from the get-go. I guessed, guessed again, guessing again 4 more times only to find out that those 6 girls in fact do not admirer me. Ugh. So in the event you have sent me a secret admirer message, and I haven't matched with you yet, please send again. It's nothing personal.
Another By Me
~human underneath my skin~ do you see me? is that what you said? really the girl with a heart...offering it to you when you laugh? im not dead! do you see me? do you know what you mean...what you hold in your hands is not a plaything please show yourself to me i need to know what you see...toss me aside i see your intentions you cant hide...i cant let you hurt this heart of mine im losing the pieces each time...i dont want it back just toss it away im tired of letting my heart hurt me soul is lost you took it away...keep what i gave you and give it away...nothing more of me is left for you...dont damaged from loving too much my pain you can not touch...i may cover the damage you have done but my hearts downfall has already begun.
From My Friend Babe Thanks sweetie My friend Heath had this posted as a blog. It's been a year since it was originally posted, but I figured something like this can continue to be posted for years to come. Thanks Ashley Whether you are homosexual or not, you should repost this in support of your friends and loved ones who are. Love is not defined by color, creed, or gender. I am the mother who is not allowed to even visit the children I bore, nursed, and raised. The court says I am an unfit mother because I now live with another woman. I am the boy who never finished high school, because I got called a fag everyday I am the girl kicked out of her home because I confided in my mother that I am a lesbian. I am the prostitute working the streets because nobody will hire a transsexual woman. I am the sister who holds her gay brother tight through the painful, tear-filled nights. We are the parents who buried our daughter long before her time. I am the man who di
New Beginning
When you begin something new It makes you feel good inside and out Cause your body feels relieved I have had new beginnings myself Some have been good and some have been bad But in the end has been really good Even changing some of yourself Can leave a good result It has me for sure No one can change who you are But you can start a new beginning Of life by figuring out who you are An where you belong I have in short time An I am full of smiles New beginnings is a blessing for anyone Anyone can do it just have faith in yourself Made by: Amber M. Kestner
Call Me When You'er Sober ~ Evanescence
Don't cry to me. If you loved me, You would be here with me. You want me, Come find me. Make up your mind. Should I let you fall? Lose it all? So maybe you can remember yourself. Can't keep believing, We're only deceiving ourselves . And I'm sick of the lie, And you're too late. Don't cry to me. If you loved me, You would be here with me. You want me, Come find me. Make up your mind. Couldn't take the blame. Sick with shame. Must be exhausting to lose your own game. Selfishly hated, No wonder you're jaded. You can't play the victim this time, And you're too late. Don't cry to me. If you loved me, You would be here with me. You want me, Come find me. Make up your mind. You never call me when you're sober. You only want it cause it's over, It's over. How could I have burned paradise? How could I - you were never mine. So don't cry to me. If you loved me, You would be here with me. Don't lie to me, Just get your things. I've made up
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Victim's Auction over on March 30th
My Yahoo Gangs"
looking at this picture, i remember my vacation to the Philippines last year, i really had a good time with my family, and i had chance to really go around, and one of the most memorable was a date and night out with my yahoo 360 gang , i t was a blast, we stayed in a hotel, went to comedy bar to the malls and had one night of laughter and fun'... missing them so much, coz am not as much on line as i used to be.. but i will be meeting them again this coming July when i visit Philippines again!
Hated/loathed Sayings...
How many of us have used the phrase, "I'm going to be honest with you"? I've been guilty myself, but it has recently struck a nerve with me. By saying this, does this mean that one has been lying to us the entire time? Why does that individual feel that they need to say this? It's crazy and dumb, and I would love to hear someone at some time say, "I'm full of crap, I've been lying to you this whole time, or I'm going to completely screw you over this time." Thanks for hearing me rant. I think it's my old age. But I'll be honest with ya, it feels really good to get this off my chest.
One More Goodbye
I thought you'd always be there, Always be there waiting. Everything we sacrificed, you threw away. Now I'm prepared to walk, Too tired, too numb to talk. Every step I take, can't hide the pain. What we had, it's over. I don't wanna see - I don't wanna speak, I don't wanna hear - Your lies. I don't understand and I don't even care, Cuz it's over. I send you. One more goodbye. (This is our last goodbye.) This is the last letter I write. One more goodbye. You can forget about it. You can just forget about What we had. As I lay here in this candle lit room, Reminiscing about those what could have beens And will never b's now. I am tattered, torn, and bruised - Alone, Heart broke, and used. But you'll never bury me with your shattered Dreams and your never afters. I don't wanna see - I don't wanna speak, I don't wanna hear - Your lies. I don't understand and I don't even care, Cuz it's over. I send you. One more goodbye. (This is our last goodbye.
todays posting is a short one. its just simply this: New GLBT members who stop by GLBT lounges are so excited to find a nice place to talk. So... I'm going to post the links to the 3 GLBT lounges that i know of on fubar. kind of like an easy resource. CLUB TWISS: INFINITY: END OF THE RAINBOW: RAYNEBOW BENDER: The preceeding was provided as a public service. Any GLBT lounge that was omitted from this list is simply because i do not know of it and non-inclusion from this list in non-intentional. Take Care, Jacques on staff at Club Twiss
- I Only Have One Story -
Poem I wrote for Cindy on Valentines Day 2/13/09 Here I am lost again in my world. I try to figure out where I am But seems like I haven't gone far. I'm just going round and round In my thoughts and dreams I just can't get it right I'm looking at the wrong places at the wrong time. However, one random day is all I need To change my insane worries about my life. All it takes is just that one split second A simple glance at first would just only lead Me wanting more, like I can't get enough of it. I can't deny it, but I'm afraid to buy it Its almost foolish to just pass it by, And its easy to let it slide. It was a risk I'm willing to take, So I said why not because I couldn't take This awkward pain anymore. I wasn't to sure that a women like you Would wait for a man like me. Because I'm scared to lose a someone A special someone who I didn't know was going to be hard to resist. From there, I knew you put a spell on me A curse cast onto my heart from
Brand Spankin New!
So, here's my first blog message here. I am brand new to Fubar, so it may take me some time to get back to you. I'm a writer, specifically novels and screenplays. I do indulge in bad poetry, and most of my subsequent blogposts will be eithe random insanity, writing warmups, and the aforementioned bad poetry. I love meeting new people so please feel free to drop me a line!
My Babies
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Who Watches The Watchmen?
Who Watches the Watchmen? Category: Movies, TV, Celebrities SPOILER WARNING: You know the routine, same old same old. If you haven't yet seen the Movie or read the graphic novel (Watchmen) and if you don't want to be spoiled then just stop now and run away... but if you wanna hear my funny banter and what I thought then by all means, please read on.. ____________________________________________________ I will openly admit before last Monday my knowledge of Watchmen was limited to the parody's on The Simpson's, and the occasional reference made by friends here and there, I would usually just nod my head, and pretend I knew who the hell or What the Hell my friends were talking about. But I have thrown myself into the world of Watchmen at full force this past week, and it has been well worth it. Originally I had planed on picking up the Blu-Ray of the Motion Comic and just watching it to get a full feel of the world I would stepping into this weekend. but after seeing the
My Apologies
im sorry for ever doubting you i shouldve never in the beginning can u ever forgive me?
He Is
He Is By Michelle (march 7 2009) He is my friend He is my lover When I am down I can turn to him When I want more than a hug he pleases me He is my protector He is my provider When I am introuble he is my shield When I am unable to care for myself he will be there He is my other half He is my darkside He makes me feel loved He makes me turn evil He is my boyfriend He is my master He makes me feel like the one and only He makes me listen to his every command I am the star that shines brighter than the sun He is the wolf who watches me from a far
Once on a yellow piece of paper with green lines he wrote a poem And he called it "Chops" because that was the name of his dog And that's what it was all about And his teacher gave him an A and a gold star And his mother hung it on the kitchen door and read it to his aunts That was the year that Father Tracy took all the kids to the zoo And he let them sing on the bus And his little sister was born with tiny toenails and no hair And his mother and father kissed a lot And the girl around the corner sent him a valentine signed with a row of X's and he had to ask his father what the X's meant And his father always tucked him in bed at night And was always there to do it Once on a piece of white paper with blue lines he wrote a poem And he called it "Autumn" because that was the name of the season And that's what it was all about And his teacher gave him an A and asked him to write more clearly And his mother never hung it on the kitchen door because of
Chance Encounter
Just before Christmas, I had the pleasure of serving a customer at work that happened to be a great conversationalist. Normally, I just kind of nod and smile when the conversation turns to religion, but for some reason, I felt compelled to chat with this gentleman about the subject. He's very much in love with Jesus, but not in the way I'm accustomed to. He isn't pushy, or condescending. He is 100% genuine, passionate, and very accepting of the fact that no one on this earth is perfect. We've had several fairly lengthy conversations since and every time I find myself wondering... I don't know that I'll ever believe fully in the Bible. I have no doubt there is some truth to it, but to what extent, no one will ever know. Fact of the matter is that it was written by man and man is inherently flawed. We are notorious for bending, twisting, and flat out breaking the truth to make things seem different than what they are. I believe in a god. I'm fairly convinced Jesus existed
Help Her Its Her 1rst Auction
This is my first auction me please :D Here are my offers. Join the lounge :D C'mon guys bid on me :-*
Dating Online
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Sadness Abounds
Death is but a shadow that takes all that you are, all that you know and all that you could ever be................... I found out late yesterday evening that my uncle passed away. Surprising to me I cried and have been on and off since. I was closer to him as a child, growing up every summer in my home town of Joplin. He was my mother's brother-in-law. But as I grew into an adult I could see him for what he was, a womanizing shit and a cheat/theif. He cheated on my aunt for God knows how long and stole antiques from my grandma. I didnt really care for him in the past few years because of these things. And yet I cried when I spoke with my mother. It really makes me sad when I think of all the summers I spent in my home town. He used to take me fishing as a child and tell me dirty jokes much to the chagrin of my aunt. He was not yet 65 when he died of a heart attack in his sleep. My aunt found him yesterday morning. I found out almost 9pm last night. I didnt like him much, but
Am I A Player?
I am on Fubar for fun. I’ve met some really wonderful women here and appreciate exchanging ideas and feelings with them. Some of these feelings get a bit heavy and even erotic at times. It’s natural, I think. I’m not in a relationship with anyone so when I talk with a pretty woman, there is a possibility that I will have sexual and affectionate ideas about her. Sorry, it just happens with me like that. I am a very passionate, affectionate man and being alone does me little good so I may flirt with you and even speak intimately with you a bit if that is where you allow the conversation to go. I never force such discussions and will always portray myself as a gentleman to you until you give me the message that you want to play. You should know that for me, it is all a game. I separate reality from virtual. There is a level of intimate feeling that goes with such passionate exchanges but please know that I do not give my faithfulness to a few images and words on my screen. If we meet
Really Long History Of Me
  I think most women never read a guy’s blog, you look a the pics and if you find me attractive you might get me a drink, LOL. Still I figure some of you may actually want to know more about me so this blog entry deals with my history in a rather quick nutshell.   From the beginning: A brief history-   I was born in Chicago, moved as an infant to Florence, AL. I lived there until ’76 and moved to Kokomo Indiana as my dad found a job at the Chrysler plant there. We moved up just before the huge blizzard and that was mind-blowing. The snow actually came up over the top of our tiny mobile home and it took us hours to dig ourselves out of it. To a kid, that’s pretty friggin’ sweet and I can’t even tell you how much tip money my brothers and I made digging other people out of their homes.   I lived in Kokomo until I was 19, met my childhood sweetheart when in middle school and then when my mom’s dad got cancer, we moved to Huntsville, Alabam
Hated Moments"
these are the moments where i have to be in the dark , and away from noises... terrible headache"... makes me feel so bad. giv me sum luv!
The New Art Of Online Communication...or
One of the reasons I admire Al Gore is not because of his work on global warming although much can be said about a man who warns us to sell our coastal property before it is under water and we get to wave at Santa's condo floating past our living room window after the North Pole has completely disappeared and increased coastal ocean shores by 25 feet. We may be in a recession but our homes are still worth more now than they will be when they sink into the ocean and become a large aquarium castle. No, I admire Al Gore because he "invented the internet, this marvelous tool that has become the social rave and a way to meet people from all corners of the globe without leaving the comfort of our home, much less actually go out and look someone in the face and hear them actually speak and see their mouth move at the same time. We have come a long way since those days when I shuffled my feet and tried to not look at the object of my affections breasts, looking her in the eye and then looking
Emotional Quicksand
In a pit of deep despair I cry for help but noone's there Slowly sinking in my pain Feeling nothing's left to gain Swallowed whole by my own sorrow Not wanting there to be tomorrow I lay here numb from all these tears That have been shed throughout my years Even though I put up walls Oh so easily the fall Am I at fault for how I feel? Should one not want something that's real? Through all the hurt I still have faith That one day by some awesome fate I'll meet the one who'll reach out his hand And pull me from my emotional quicksand No more gasping up for air At last there's someone who does care At last I feel I'm understood I feel loved, and I feel good
Some Lyrics I Wrote......
Writing a song but still have to come up with the chorus and title..... Heart attacked by fear and doubt won't be long till the truth comes out first impressions never last Lover's bonds they hold so fast I can sense trouble just around the bend, and it's been of my kind of making, I can't carry on with this pretence, when it's clear my love has been fading.
Get Your Geek On!
Yah...I wanna do Sheldon in a so bad it hurts way. Our whole universe was in a hot dense state, Then nearly fourteen billion years ago expansion started. Wait... The Earth began to cool, The autotrophs began to drool, Neanderthals developed tools, We built a wall (we built the pyramids), Math, science, history, unravelling the mysteries, That all started with the big bang! "Since the dawn of man" is really not that long, As every galaxy was formed in less time than it takes to sing this song. A fraction of a second and the elements were made. The bipeds stood up straight, The dinosaurs all met their fate, They tried to leap but they were late And they all died (they froze their asses off) The oceans and pangea See ya, wouldn't wanna be ya Set in motion by the same big bang! It all started with the big BANG! It's expanding ever outward but one day It will cause the stars to go the other way, Collapsing ever inward, we won't be here, it wont be hurt Our
The Brother I Wish I Have Known!
Your the brother I never knew. When I was in danger you were there at my side as my gaurdian angel. You are the brother I wish I knew. When mom and dad moved on from us four siblings, they still thought of their little man. You are the brother that I wish mom and dad saw growing up. My gaurdian angel you always be for me. The brother I do love even though your not here in person. The brother that I wish could have been here for graduating and a life. My hero that I wish I could have known after almost twenty years of your death that we do miss of you. Author notes This was to my brother Jason Michael Kestner he passed when he wasn't even a year old. He died of SIDS an with his 22nd birthday coming up May 22nd I figured this poem would help to see that I do love my brother and I hope he'll be here by my side and the families forever. Made by: Amber Kestner
Billy Beg And His Bull
Once upon a time, there was a king and a queen, and they had one son, whose name was Billy. And Billy had a bull he was very fond of, and the bull was just as fond of him. And when the queen came to die, she put it as her last request to the king, that come what might, come what may, he'd not part Billy and the bull. And the king promised that, come what might, come what may, he would not. Then the good queen died, and was buried. After a time, the king married again, and the new queen could not abide Billy; no more could she stand the bull, seeing him and Billy so thick. So she asked the king to have the bull killed. But the king said he had promised, come what might, come what may, he'd not part Billy Beg and his bull, so he could not. Then the queen sent for the Hen-Wife, and asked what she should do. "What will you give me," said the Hen-Wife, "and I'll very soon part them?" "Anything at all," said the queen. "Then do you take to your bed, very sick with a complaint," s
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Update About Cinn
she is out of her casts and is now fighting to be walking agen i know she is in a lot pain she being grinding her teeth with each step she makes i know she up around in no time she not letting this keep her down you learn a lot about some one when they are to overcome dont put her down and out yet i know she be dancing agen soon maybe be back and be a model agen the beauty is still there pale but not faded she always looked beautiful to me cuz i see into her soul which is more beautiful than what yo see on the surface the strength she shows is the testament of the beauty she is sporting under her skin she never forget her friends and her friends never forget her
Funny Stuff Right Here!!!!
i find it pretty interesting that some people these days find it neccesary to tread on ground they are unfamiliar with!!! do ya really know who you are messin with ??? you wanna come to my page here on the fu and harrass me and sb me .. and then block me???? are we in high school again ??? and to top it off this beoch think that i wanna steal her man??? are you seriously kiddin me??? so heres what i gots to say about all of this .... first of all i think that it should be known that if your man aint happy at home then you are soooo doin something wrong!! maybe ya need to re-evaluate your relationship !!! not my fault your "man" aint into you the way he wants to be into me!!! hate on me if ya want to but trust that i DO NOT want you drunken, wife beating, alcoholic man!!! i been there and OBVIOUSLY dont want him NOW!!! good luck with your trash ... if ya need help takin it out hehe let me know lmfao **HoTTy**
This Path
I walk this path As I walk this path each day Though the same path The paving stones face a different way Some days it leads me to a land full of love A land where people are happy Where love and peace is everywhere Other days it leads me to a land I hate This lands full of hurt, pain and tears Here you will see no smiles or love Each day as I awake I pray that maybe just maybe Today I will go to a different place, a place I like, a place where I can love So as I lay my head down tonight I close my eyes and imagine this place This place I love and can stay.
The Thing In My Heart"
MySpace Graphics i have given you my heart in vain, my body never knew such pleasure, my heart never knew such pain, but am letting go today, maybe i will then know, that emptiness can be such a relief!...myles
Auto 11's
My friend Sheila has auto 11s on BOMB HER PICS PLEASE sherab@ fubar
Ever Wonder Which Hurts The Most?
Have you ever wondered which hurts the most? Saying something and wishing you hadn't? or Saying nothing and wishing you had? I guess the most important things are the hardest things to say. Don't be afraid to tell someone you love them. If you do, they might break your heart...if you don't, you might break theirs. Your heart decides whom it likes and whom it doesn't. You can't tell your heart what to do. It does it on its own........when you least suspect it, or even when you don't want it to. Have you ever wanted to love someone with everything you had, but that other person was too afraid to let you? Too many of us stay walled up because we are too afraid to care too much...for fear that the other person does not care as much, or even at all. Have you ever denied your feelings for someone because your fear of rejection was too hard to handle? We tell lies when we are afraid... afraid of what we don't know, afraid of what others will think, afraid of wha
On that day you will cry out in dispear Calling out for your brothers and sisters I shall be there put you back on your feet There is so much evil in this world little one There is so much good in this hell I will always be ready to take that fear Hold and pray that you will never need me I will never leave you side Be reinsured I will be right there
You Know You Were Born In The 1980's If...
1. You ever ended your sentence with "psych" 2. You solved Rubics peeling off the stickers 3. You watched the Pound Puppies 4... You can sing the rap to "The Fresh Prince of Bel-Air" 5. You wore biker shorts under your skirts and felt stylish 6. You yearned to be a member of the Babysitters Club and tried to start a club of your own. 7. You owned those little Strawberry Shortcake pals scented dolls 8. You know that 'Whoa' comes from Joey on "Blossom" 9. Three words: M.C. Hammer. 10. You thought it would be great to have a friend named "Boner" 11. You can sing the entire theme song to "Duck Tales" 12. You played the chipmunks Christmas album all year long! 13. You Remember reading Kool-Aid man comics 14. You ever watched "Fraggle Rock" 15. You had plastic streamers on the handle bars of your bike 16. You remember when it was actually worth getting up early on a Saturday to watch cartoons. 17. You wore a ponytail to the si
Anatomy Of A Scorpio~ Original Site Deleted For No Reason
since my acct was just deleted for no reason Im moving to pimp in a$$ DOT com ID 343 and as always under ANATOMY OF A SCORPIO love you all plz come see me
Hail To The Chief
“Then the LORD said unto Moses, Go in unto Pharaoh, and tell him, Thus saith the LORD God of the Hebrews, Let my people go, that they may serve me.” The beginning of the ninth chapter of Exodus continues the pattern we see the LORD establishing with Pharaoh through His messengers Moses and Aaron on behalf of His chosen people the children of Israel. The afflictions the LORD sends upon the land and people of Egypt in response to Pharaoh’s stubbornness (and by the time we’re reading this, it IS one man’s stubbornness, a man who as occupier of the throne of Egypt is considered a god himself) come after he’s warned, and they all ultimately prove to have a double meaning. Not only is the land of Pharaoh getting trounced and probably not as much is getting done, all of what the average Egyptian chooses to believe in – the power of their magicians and their gods, many of whom are represented by animals or animal-headed beings – about life is getting held up to a mirror and found wanting.
Just A Thought.
What I Love About You
What I Love About You You make me smile with the things you do And give me reason to feel special too You give me courage to look forward to tomorrow And help lift the burden of my sorrow With you I can always be myself And can leave my mask up on the shelf Because of you my soul has grown And I no longer feel I have to walk alone Everything you say and do comes from the heart And from the others, this sets you apart You are always there when I call And there to catch me when I fall You have a goodness that’s above the rest And this is what I love about you best.
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New Love
i just want to say that love is great.i know that a while back i said it sucked . that was befor i meet a great lady.her name is amanda and she is the love of my life. she 26 years old and has a five year old son. i have been with her for two weeks now and it has been so woundful. i will keep every one updated on how it is going.
Native American Apache Shamanism: How To Pray
Lmw 331
LMW 331 It’s true, I was a kid once, sure it was a long assed time ago but the fact remains salient; there was a moment in time when I was a youth. We all have a story to tell, this is another snippet of my life; Being an Air Force brat is not a position that kids aspire to, it is more like catching the flu or some other childhood malady… it just happens to you. To be honest, it does not even become evident to those that hold the distinction until way after the experience is well ingrained, not until you find a reason that the title will benefit you in some way. You spend your life following around the sperm donor and your mom from assignment to assignment as the government utilizes the daddy asset as they see fit. If you get lucky the recruit will pass certain entry exams and land at Hickam AFB in Hawaii but more than likely you will grow up in the most diverse of communities in VERY low rent neighborhoods. This was our plight as the non-commissioned piece of work we were the na
I'm Back!
I cut my hair! I did it myself in a members show on the site ( before I got to the good stuff. People were impressed. I am impressive! Hmmm, I wonder if you guys have been wondering where I am. Well… I have had a hell of a time recently. On my birthday Feb 17th I found out that the house my apt was in was being foreclosed and that my landlord would contact me when she found out who the next owner was. Well then the electricity went out and water was turned off. I am still trying to find a new place. I don’t wanna bore you with this but if you are interested you can go to the the chip-in I started for it and read what happened. If you donate that’s cool but I’m not gonna hold a gun to you head:) Also I wanted to tell you I changed the way I post pics on my site so it’s like they are able to be viewed in the highest quality possible. Annnnnnd the new design for my site is almost done this is the preview:
Happy 32nd Birthday
Dear Dave, I’m here blogging instead of going to bed. I don’t want to face the thought of slipping underneath the covers then slipping off to sleep and then the dreams begin to flood my mind and I wake with tears streaming down my face. I ache to talk to you some place other then in my mind. I want to share the details of my day with you October marks 5 years since my ‘last day’ with you. Here it is March 18th and your 32nd Birthday. I have immersed myself in school and work. I stay busy.... KCC plays, watching friends in Michigan Idol competitions, spending time with my nieces and nephew, playing with Daisy and Hapi, watching DVDs on my laptop that make me cry and I have to quickly wipe away the tears before someone spots them, watching Goof play his XBOX, and laughing with Steph... anything to keep my mind off of what this time of year is. I’ve gotten myself involved in a few big projects, set some goals, and done all the things I’m supposed to do to make the t
Dove's Love Train Just Keeps Chugging Through Fubar (reposted Blog)
Filling fubar with LOVE... FREE HUGS HERE!!!I've decided it's time to start a real LOVE TRAIN here on fubar.Sure we all like to play the game and level, but what about startinga parade of HUGS. I know these little tokens of love do not add pts to your profile, or help anyone to level or rank... but they do make you feelLOVED just for the sake of LOVE.So, A/R/F the ppl on this list (add "Dove's Love Train" to add request) and then... send ea a simple HUG. After that, repost this bully and send me (Dove Goddess) a private msg to let me know you would like to join Dove's Love Train and I'll add your link and pic to this bully and you will become a passenger on Dove's Love Train!!!! You can also send a HUG to all your friends and invite them to join this lil love train... SMILES.That's it... no photos to rate, no bling to give... no money or extended amount of your time is needed. Just a few moments of your time and a few fubux and hopefully by the end of the day fubar will be filled with
Long Survey To Keep My Mind Away..
Where is the person who has your heart at the moment? He is at work. Could you handle a long distance relationship? I am honestly not sure.. When's the last time you said you were fine, but really weren't? Today.... Relationships or one night stands? Relationships... When was the last time you wanted to punch someone in their face? I honestly can't remember... Is there anyone who doesn't like you? I am sure there is and I really don't care. Do you laugh a lot? Yes. Do you consider yourself lucky? Lucky no. Blessed yes. You have to get a facial piercing, what do you get? Hmm..i've always wanted a monroe, lip and tongue..lmao. You have to get a tattoo, where and what do you get? If I knew the answer to that one i'd have more tattoos. Could you cry right now? I have been on and off all morning and for the past few days... In the past week, have you cried? Yes. Have
New Baby
I am a new aunt as of today. my new nephew weights 8 lbs 8 ozs!! looks just like his daddy.
What Matters Most
He weaves his way over the sunlit blades of emerald leaves, And the crystal stream babbles tales of certain dreams and hopes and loves. The air resounds with hidden wings, a gentle breeze Caressing Daisies and Buttercups, nodding softly to themselves entranced by the recital of the crystal ripples. Enchanted beams of purest light...golden.. dazzling reflect from the depths of passion filled eyes, lighting his way unto her. She weaves her way among the falling Blossoms, a striking darkness against the pure white cascade, of falling petals. Creating a carpet of silk for her to travel. The trees whisper tales of truest love, and the wind chimes gently sing Soothing songs of hope...patience...forever. Filling her soul and mind. Shadows lengthen, the first shimmering star pokes through the dusky haze of night Fireflies weave their way through darkened groves, creating a fairyland of dreams Entwined in a circle, flowers, fireflies and trees Gather to watc
Me & My Cancer!
I went into day to get tattooed, an to have CT Scan done, now I've gotta go in on the 24th for a simulation at 10:30am & then I have another appointment on the 25th for a PET Scan at 8:15a.m. time I have to be there is 7:45 a.m once that is done I have to go in for my first treatment of CHEMO is @ 7:30 a.m & RADIATION @ 2:30 p.m which I have to arrive there an 1/2 hour early for blood work... Once all this is done I have to go into south bend for my ineral RADIATION consultation with DR. DAVID HORNBACK & my cancer speacaliest Michael Method Appointment time for that is 12:30p.m. however seeing the time is different from ours it'll be 11:30 our time so I've gotta leave here around 10:00 a.m. all this running is driving me fucking insane an the testing/ tattooing/ ct scans/ pet scan it's so over welming. My husband went an got me a new set of ear phone so I'll have at least something to do for the 6-7 hour chemo treatment. Anyways I just thought you all would like to know more on whats
Emotions, we as humans are driven by them. The rest of the animal kingdom is usually driven by instinct, but because of our higher reasoning power we are often driven by our emotional, needs and wants. With all that nonsense said, I sit here wondering about my motivations, do I choose the things that I choose based on emotion or do I plot and plan based on instinct? The one thing I know right now at the very moment is that I am scared.... Fight or flight those are some of the instincts that rule the animal kingdom. I want to make a rational decision, but right now emotions cloud my judgments and I am left to trust my instincts, yep those things that we often ignore. The one thing I know is that I don’t know what I am doing, I have no plan, and beyond that when pushed I will make a decision. I am not sure what it will be, but a decision will be made, and the outcome is unknown to me.
I work as a therapist/counselor in private practice... ... working with individual clients, marriage counseling, substance abuse counseling, personality disorders, eating disorders, weight loss counseling... (I've found that if a person genuinely felt loved by a parent, while growing up, they can deal with some abuse or neglect, but when they didn't feel loved... the abuse has severe consequences), and I do trauma/abuse counseling... So much of the therapy I do with a client involves old painful emotional issues related to their parent... The whole premise of what I do is founded on the fact that so many of us are in the grip of emotional pain! Therefore, these issues are on an emotional level and thus they need to be dealt with on an emotional level - the "intellectual talk" approaches I've found do not resolve the "emotional" issue... For instance Cognitive Therapy & Rational Emotive Therapy, are both an intellectual approach at trying to change thought patterns, but the emo
Epic Awkward Moments
Don't you just love it when you're having a conversation with your ex somewhere online, in public... ...which to both of you seems perfectly normal... ...and then someone pipes up with * Nickname watches [your ex] / [you] flirting. ...and then a massively awkward silence ensues.
Idiots sex guide 1. Intercourse doesn't happen on a highway. 2. There is no need for dice in role playing. 3. Eating Mexican food is not the cause of gonorrhea. 4. If the woman engages in oral sex first, it's not called a head start. 5. If she says she's into "bondage," don't try and show her your financial portfolio. 6. You can lie down during a one-night stand. 7. Making out doesn't mean getting your money's worth. 8. Only sleep with someone you love or can say you love without smirking. 9. When a woman talks about waiting for the "right time," she's not referring to a commercial break. 10. Sex is like "The Club" - accept no substitutes.
What Body Of Water Are You?
You Are an Ocean You are impressive and fascinating. People are drawn to your glory. You are a profound and passionate person. You are boundless in your power. You have a philosophical and poetic soul. You take a lot of time to reflect. You are mysterious and captivating. You are too deep for anyone to figure out. What Body of Water Are You?
Stupid People
I don't know what you people think but i am getting pretty annoyed with all these people making fun of our service men and women. i served 3 years in the service and got made fun of alot. but the way i look at it until they fill our shoes they can kiss my ass and stay off my page. i have no respect for them at all. i just deleted a friend who made fun of them and i told where she can go i am against it period. i'm a nice guy and don't like to yell at people but when it comes down to it you don't make fun of someone who's shoes you can't fill yourself. i mean if it wasn't for us no one would be living the life they are living now, in a free world. I was proud to serve my coutry and there isn't anyone who can change that.
Home For The Day
hi all..just a note to let you all know your not forgotten. i have been on the road the past two weeks. started in albequrque then to kansas. back down to dallas and off to phoenix. thne did the west coast loop from santa barbara to bellinham washington to eureka calif and now on my way to phoenix again for monday delivery. so trying to do a thousand things today. will try to get on later tonite for abit. but thinking of my friends and miss my time on here. so hope you are all well and enjoying life. big cali hugs..marty
Who Are We
The follower puts the decission making in someone or thing other than themselfs. Afraid of making the wrong choices, being swayed from one idea to another with ease. Always seeking the counsel of others. consistantly second guessing themselfs! The leader will always seek to lead or is placed or chosen for the role. May not always be conventinal but not afraid of the responsabilties set before them. When a wrong decission is made that knocks them down, they don't stay down. They learn from it, get up and push forward!
My 2nd Blog
It was brought to my attention that my 1st blog was a downer.This blog is better.On the plus side of things I'm due for promotion at any moment,my wife n I got an awesome little house,our marriage is great and my daughter gets awesome grades in school.Life isn't all bad I just tend to dwell on the negative.
Man Refuses To Believe He Has Cancer
Man Refuses To Believe He Has Cancer This guy is an inspiration to cancer patients everywhere.
How To Booby Trap A Water Bottle
How To Booby Trap A Water Bottle The guy`s voice is a little creepy and Pedro-ish from Napoleon Dynamite, but he show you how to rig-up a doctored bottle
Eat My Shorts
My Pictures
FUCKING SERIOUS.... My pictures are updated at least 5 times a month and they are always NEW pictures, i'm not afraid to show you who i really am. this is me i'm a big girl and i'm fucking proud... so before you go running your mouth and acting like you know who i am, you better not let your big dog mouth override your puppy dog ass becuz bitch please you are posting 3 to 8 year old pictures of yourself becuz you are too afraid to show that you got FAT through the years! get off it, be a woman!
Hot N Cold
this is you for baby!!! hahaha You change your mind Like a girl changes clothes Yeah, you PMS like a bitch I would know And you always think Always speak cryptically I should know That you're no good for me 'Cause you're hot then you're cold You're yes then you're no You're in and you're out You're up and you're down You're wrong when it's right It's black and it's white We fight, we break up We kiss, we make up You, you don't really wanna stay, no You, but you don't really wanna go, oh 'Cause you're hot then you're cold You're yes then you're no You're in and you're out You're up and you're down We used to be just like twins, so in sync The same energy now's a dead battery Used to laugh 'bout nothing Now you're plain boring I should know That you're not gonna change 'Cause you're hot then you're cold You're yes then you're no You're in and you're out You're up and you're down You're wrong when it's rig
Mondy March 23rd 2009:thoughts
i just keep thinking about how i feel these past few days, playing my ww2 game online and chattin with the guys andgals of the clan i belong to. yesterday i got so pissed off that it just decided to take a much needed break from it and relax. im not that great in it but i do the best ican and it doesnt seem to be that at all. its only a game lol but still i feel like i should have to improve to last the game. That plus i need to get anew modem for my computer this one is outdated and old lol and i think its going to die on me. next month is the only time ican get it and ican make payments on it too since iam a good customer, i have been with these people since 1999..when they were located in they have an office here.
A Feeling
Take time and listen my heart beats for you and only you always in my mind its my dream I will not resign I love the way you make me feel Id make a deal with the lord himself to conceal this feel keep it always with me never to lose touch you'll be in my thoughts till I die never to lose something I love so much. Never to stop talking about what you do to me, always to let people know what kind of feeling is inside of me, warm sensation goosebumps appear tears in my eyes I hope you never disappear its a fear you could call it a nightmare. Ill be thinking about you always right till the day we meet until that day comes Ill never forget the day I seen..... MY TRUE LOVE written 03/23/09
Faktor 2
Something Silly........................
You can't read this and stay in a bad mood! 1. How Do You Catch a Unique Rabbit? Unique Up On It. 2. How Do You Catch a Tame Rabbit? Tame Way. 3. How Do Crazy People Go Through The Forest ? They Take The Psycho Path 4. How Do You Get Holy Water? You Boil The Hell Out Of It 5. What Do Fish Say When They Hit a Concrete Wall? Dam! 6.. What Do Eskimos Get From Sitting On The Ice too Long? Polaroid's 7. What Do You Call a Boomerang That Doesn't work? A Stick 8. What Do You Call Cheese That Isn't Yours? Nacho Cheese . 9. What Do You Call Santa's Helpers? Subordinate Clauses. 10. What Do You Call Four Bullfighters In Quicksand? Quattro Sinko. 11. What Do You Get From a Pampered Cow? Spoiled Milk. 12. What Do You Get When You Cross a Snowman With a Vampire? Frostbite. 13. What Lies At The Bottom Of The Ocean And Twitches? A Nervous Wreck. 14. What's The Difference Between Roast Beef And Pea Soup? Anyone Can Roast Beef. 16. Why Do Gorillas Have Big Nostrils? Becau
Just Today
It started off early got worse then even more so, then I spoke to Anna and realised I should look at things with a more positive attitude. So now everything is really cool
The Beach
The beach… It was late at night and Laura was walking the beach. She thought she was alone but soon noticed someone heading her way. It was guy, older, but he was cute and getting hotter by the minute as he approached. She was horny and could not help but stare at his crotch. He had a very short swimming trunk on and his cock was just poking out from the edge. Their eyes met as they passed and she winked at him, moaning softly enough to be heard, yet subtle. Her eyes went to his crotch and she licked her lips. The look of lust was heavy in them both as they passed each other. Their hands brushed against each other and their fingers locked. Hi he said, hi back she said and asked for her hand back. No he said, taking her hand and pulling her into him. Her fingers were thrust into his mouth as he sucked on them, swirling his hot tongue over and around. She wanted to jerk her hand out, but it felt good. I can tease too she said and grabbed his hand, her mouth going up and down his finge
What's In My Thoughts And Heart Right Now.
Myspace Layouts been in fubar for along time i cannot remeber.. but i wasnt on here for many mons. though, coz i wasnt feeling at home here, i feel like stranger here before.. i was invited by my jewish friend... whom i did not see for decades now, he decided to leave the net after his marriage... i cannot forget the fun that we had on line... we used to chat at late night , go to chat room play with people ... and browse sexy women and men on 360 those were the days"..., yeah he introduce me to fubar before he hit the road as he said, he told me ur going to have fun... at first i wasnt really interested... now , i love fubar and all my friends here... am an addicted fubarian now, i wanted to leave many times, but , my heart ache each time i wanted to do so, aside, i already worked hard on my page.. and all the pictures , and i have spended a real feelings and heart to heart friendship with people here. today , i deleted one precious friend of mine, i have to , i
I Want To Lick It.
want to lick it and taste it that clit under my tounge, i want to suck you and fuck you like your the only one, i want to pant my name on you with my cum, dip my penis inside your mmmmmm bum, i wanna fuck you...hard so hard, i wanna eat ur moist peach, so wet so wet, as u slide down my penis...i forget everything in the world just about your pussy as my cum boils...mmmmm i wanna hear my balls slaping against ur butt as i drive it home my sweet slut, please moan for me, call me your fuck buddy...i wanna smell your sex hanging in the air, i want to lick your snatch and taste your plum, i wanna fuck u hard! In ur bum, i wanna unload my seemen on ur milky skin, i want to taste u from within...ahhhh i want to lick it...mmmmm
I am exhausted. Normally I lead a pretty laid back life, I go into work when I feel like it, leave when I want. I only have a few weekly events that require me to be prompt, and my class schedule is pretty light as far as only going once a week. This week, though, has been the week from hell. This week we had students assisting us in a poll of the surrounding area so we could collect data and they could get credit for their classes. We do this twice a year, and normally it's just me and one of my co-workers organizing, administering, and cleaning up after this mess. The actual polling process runs from 6-9 PM three nights of the week, but requires several hours worth of preparation. We have to calculate error percentages based on population, stratify the data based on desired results, etc. We typically put in 100 hundred hours working on this between the two of us in about a week and a half period. Wouldn't be so bad if that were all we did. Sadly, I still have my other job responsi
Pointless Myspace Survey
Back to Back RandomnessTAKE THIS SURVEY! Take this survey What do you consider some perks of being your gender?everything Would you ever get a tattoo with someone's name on it?nopes What occupation do you find sexy?proctologist Would you ever get your nipples pierced?nopes What is your LEAST favorite type of alcohol?vodka Did you ever have tea parties when you were younger?nopes Have you ever shaved someone before?nopes Do you know anyone personally who is terminally ill?knew, before she died What is your favorite line from a movie?blah blah blah Would you rather be the opposite sex?sometimes Do you like spending time with your parents?sorta What would you do if you saw a guy hit a girl?shake his hand Have you ever gambled?sorta What would you NEVER name one of your children?Boris What is the coolest restaurant you've ever been to?Klas Do you have any analog clocks in your house?nope What do you do with clothes you've outgrown or don't want anymore?stash them in my cl
Master Calls~
"Hi Kitten. What are you wearing now?" She could feel the heat rushing to her face as she squirmed in her chair feeling the desire building in her. The funny thing was she hadn't realized how much she missed him to until just then. "Well let's see today I'm wearing black jeans with a green camisole and boots." "Ah babe you know just how to get to me." As always he was warm and soft yet so powerful. "Come on now tell me everything." Before she knew what she was doing she was telling him everything. Starting with the jeans she was wearing and how they fit tight in all the right places. She told him how they clung just right to her hips showing off her ass. Then describing the camisole she had on that was daringly low exposing her cleavage. She told him that she wasn't wearing a bra and how her pierced nipples were poking at the fabric. "Oh my dirty little slut." he said openly thrilled by her revelations. "Touch yourself for me." "I can't do that what if Missa comes in." "
That there That's not me I go Where I please I walk through walls I float down the Liffey I'm not here This isn't happening I'm not here I'm not here In a little while I'll be gone The moment's already passed Yeah it's gone And I'm not here This isn't happening I'm not here I'm not here Strobe lights and blown speakers Fireworks and hurricanes I'm not here This isn't happening I'm not here I'm not here
Need A Good Doctor?
he was injured...
Exit To Exile Dj Battle #2 Results
Dark won with 4 votes and Po got 2 votes Congrats to Dark on winning the Dj Battle
Broken Like A Angel (for Snoopz)
She was a queen Lost within a dream Misconceived that he was fit to reign Lies take victims Separate them at the seams Cause them to fall apart Then move along to better things now She Wants to fall in love again Don't you know that He's Satisfied to own her No time permits to open up When you've been hiding thoughts so strong She's been holding out for an angel to come along No reply from the sky But she just keeps looking up She just keeps looking up now She Wants to fall in love again Don't you know that he He's Satisfied to own her She'll never know love's true potential Lost in the open wind To his impatience Never feeling they would fall apart She let her feelings grow To tears she'll never show now She Wants to fall in love again Don't you know that he He's Satisfied to own her You know he couldn't see That she could be his everything Bringing light to everything now Oh She just wants to Fall in love again She's broken like an
Celebrity Morph
MyHeritage: Celebrity Morph - Blank family tree - Genealogy sites
More Silly Shit
Farts, We haven't discussed these in a while but we'll analyse what makes a fart a fart. Noise. Noise is obviously an important part of the fart. It lets your friends and loved ones, even strangers know that a stinky gas is about to enter the lungs. What makes the noise? It is the air passing your butt checks cause them to open and close quickly causing a clapping action. I refer to this as the ass clap. Animals don't have this luxery because they don't have opposible ass cheeks. Silent but deadlies do not have the same noise quality of dump truck fart because it is a leaking of noxious gases in the air with no force. It eases up in the air much like VX nerve agent. By the time you smell it, you are already gagging. Texture. There are many different textures to a fart. Wet farts are the most serious of the farts because this requires immediate action upon the farters part, IE Checking shorts. There is my favorite, Dry. Dry ones are pretty good.. they don't tend to le
I hate you like you hate me I love you like you wouldnt believe I adore you and wish to be like you I want you
Sliders: Pilot
Katy Perry
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I Love You
I love you. It's not a weight you must carry around. I love you. It's not a box that holds you in. I love you. It's not a standard you have to bear. I love you. It's not a sacrifice I make. I love you. It's not a pedestal you are frozen upon. I love you. It's not an expectation of perfection. I love you. It's not my life's whole purpose (or your's). I love you. It's not to make you change. I love you. It's not even to make you love me. I love you. It's as pure and simple as that.
Funding Ran Out For My Aunt
So as im calling yesterday wondering why my aunts MDS medication Revlimid is almost 2 weeks late,in the last 2 weeks they have told me numerous excuses as to why, from being lost in the system to some other bullshit I finally get a hold of someone that can give the answers I need.I think I have it all straightened out her meds are being delivered today at some they call me back after I think it is all good and tell me the one of the societies I go through for funding doesnt have enough to cover her copay which by the way they tell me its over 3k this month,so my heart sinks, but, I remember I had applied for co pay assistance through the Leukemie and Lymphoma Society so I do all my faxing bullshit and all my phone calls yesterday...and its covered but for this month my task today is to apply to as many co pay assistance programs I can find out there to cover her for the rest of the year...all this due to the fact that her previous med dosage was upped f
Common Man!!!
So here we are 2009, A year closer to destruction by creative design, A calender forward another step back for mankind, While scientists in their labs desperately trying to find, Another way to obliterate this common man, Whose a threat with his capabilities of uniting a stand, Whether it be wisconsins bitter winter, or nevadas baren land, With his beliefs he's entrenched in the sand, Using darkness to protect this common man, Inside us all, we'll never fall, Cause the common man is the backbone of it all, Unspectacular in every way the eye can see, Uniquely brilliant if you dig down deep, The outer shell is all people want to meet, They have no clue you shed tears over the middle east, And how my nation has becoming this raving beast, Leaving destruction where ever she goes, With my word though i intend to sow, Rays of hope, so my kids can grow, In a world of peace and love, without fear of
The war on terror is the patriot act... See the american people are under attack... Our lives and liberty snatched, there gone... Not by osama but the man with the crown... Admit it Bush is a dictator, he stole the show.. With the help of his henchman Karl Rove... Paid DBT 4 million for a fake list of felons... To stop those oppressed from votin and expression... Their displeasure and pain... Without honest elections there is no hope for change... Whether its CLinton Obama or Huckabee Mccain.. The end result will still be the same... Cause there is to much coporate money influencing the game... Their stuffin their pockets with profits... From bombs and rockets... Trying to spread democracy with tanks and humvees... Instead of peace and diplomacy.. See it dont matter whos next... The military
All About Bestmoviestar
I''m Jackeline Dalton,26yo from Las Vegas Nevada USA, sexy blonde wtih with a flirty personality, love to shopping n bring atention wherenever I walk on it.I like to hang out for dance  with my friends, for me expose my sensuality and sexuality its something that give me pleasure. I am very open mind and when logging in my live video chat  its because I am on a great mood for XXX.I hosting a single room,take a moment for look at my fan club and find everything for contact me here. If you wanted to know more about my shows, step inside my Video room so I can bring back your lost naughty smile. * Wink * Maybe we can learn 1 thing or 2 with with eatch other *
Depression Sets In:4/3/2009
well its friday april 3rd, my pay day, i should be happy but gain im just sinking into more depression. Why you ask, well to start being alone isnt ehat you all think it is, its not glorified to be something great its downright heartbreaking, all you can do is liten to sad music, watch sad movies, and feel sad and sorrowful for yourelf, and feel kinda worthless...nit good eh? well u are right.i get to feel this way most the times because ad everyone tells me i try too hard to find Ms right so when she comes to me she can do the same to me as  bein alone does lol. So i go look and find nada...not one is peaked to be with me on any site or offline for that fact....sooo more depression from that as well builds up and self esteem goes out the frain into the bay.....real this is why im so depressed and not feeling like doing anything but bury myself in the clovers and not doin shit..isnt life supposed to be cherries? well they came out terrible for me.....they all had pits in them
I Will
I Will Author: Shelley Khulman © Jan. 25, 2000   I will rise in the morning,and kneel at his feet I will serve him and please him, all through the day Whether service is easy or brings me some pain Im content with the knowledge,that with me he is pleased For the pleasure I find, that brings me my joy Is the pleasure He finds,in my service to him I will rise in the morning,and kneel at his feet I will serve him and please him,all through the day
Stranger Than Fiction ~five Finger Death Punch
It's stranger than fictionHow you've decayedIt must be so lonelyLost within your waysYou're born alone, you die aloneThe rest is your's to fill the gapThe world goes on without you hereAdjust or just collapseIs this what you wanted to beAlone standing by yourselfIs this all you wanted to beOr was that a cry for helpBy yourself, by yourself, by yourselfThrew old grenadesYou throw in vainI can't believe you'd stoop so lowOf all the things you took awayI miss my mind the mostIs this what you wanted to beAlone standing by yourselfIs this all you wanted to beOr was that a cry for helpBy yourself, by yourself, by yourselfIs this what you wanted to beAlone standing by yourselfIs this all you wanted to beOR WAS THAT A CRY FOR HELP!It's stranger than fictionHow you've decayedIt must be so lonelyLost within your ways
I Wished For Chicken
i wished for chiken, to immerse myself hotsouce and to wake a craving long afraid to eat..if dt wish wil b granted and if having that is tragic then give me tragedy.. because i wouldn't give it back to the hungry"..."" Caring is sharing. amen..
Decode Lyrics
Artist: Paramore lyricsAlbum: Other Song LyricsTitle: Decode lyrics       Lyrics to Decode :How can I decide what's right? When you're clouding up my mind Can't win your losing fight all the time Not gonna ever own what's mine When you're always taking sides You wont take away my pride No not this time Not this time How did we get here? I use to know you so well How did we get here? Well, I think I know The truth is hiding in your eyes And its hanging on your tongue Just boiling in my blood, But you think that I can't see What kind of man that you are If you're a man at all Well, I will figure this one out on my own (I'm screaming "I love you so..." But my thoughts you can't decode) How did we get here? I use to know you so well How did we get here? Well, I think I know Do you see what we've done? We're gonna make such fools of ourselves Do you see what we've done? We're gonna make such fools of ourselves How did we get here? I use to know you so well How did we get here? We
I Must
Stereotypes are usually exaggerations, but are often based on slight fact, and if Im to be honest, I am slightly overweight . However, as stereotypes are usually exaggerations and overgeneralisations, most of the ones listed below are pretty rubbish :)    Stereotype I'm SKINNY, so I MUST be anorexic.I'm EMO, so I MUST cut my wrists.I'm BLACK, so I MUST carry a gun.I'm HISPANIC, so I MUST be ridin dirty.I'm ASIAN, so I MUST be smart.I'm NOT LIKE EVERYONE ELSE, so I MUST be a loser.I'm JEWISH, so I MUST be greedy.I'm GAY, so I MUST have AIDS.I'm a LESBIAN, so I MUST have a sex-tape.I'm BI so I MUST want to fuck every guy and girl i seeI'm ARAB, so I MUST be a terrorist.I SPEAK MY MIND, so I MUST be a bitch.I'm OVERWEIGHT, so I MUST have a problem with self control.I'm RELIGIOUS, so I MUST shove my beliefs down your throat.I'm an ATHEIST, so I MUST hate the world.I DON'T HAVE A RELIGION, so I MUST not have morals.I'm REPUBLICAN, so I MUST not care about poor people.I'm DEMOCRAT, so I MUS
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I dont post blogs often, but sometimes you just need that release and vent.  I dont see the point and lashing out at people.  Most of the time the person you want to lash out at has enough on their plate to not need another person coming down on them.  I will only lash out when someone starts in on me, but then again I generally just let it slide.  My theory is people dont know whats going on in my life, so how could they understand my actions.  Though I am tired of bending over backwards to try to be nice and do what everyone wants, but never getting any respect in turn.  I do what I say I'm going to do, so why is it so hard for others to?  Yes I know I'm ranting but thats my choice today for this blog.  No one knows what my life consists except for me and a very few close friends.  I work and I take care of my 3 little boys, but thats's my right.  If you want to talk to me dont wait until I message you.  I'm mobile 90% of the time.  I'm either working or I'm with my kids.  I dont hav
Put Her In Her Place~ Part2
The next morning she woke up first. He was asleep in her bed and she smiled as she watched him sleep. Delicious thoughts, of him fucking her mouth in her office the evening before, wafted through her mind. The deep sense of humiliation and loss of control returned. She hadn't imagined the total feeling of liberation she had after giving control to him. His strength made her feel safe and secure, even as he used her as a receptacle for his seed. My God, what had she become? How will I ever be able to face him at work again? she wondered. I'll have to find a way to deal with it. We'll see each other on the job frequently even when he transfers to a different assignment. I'd never be able to control myself with him in my office all the time. Not after having been so easily dominated already. I was like putty in his hands. God, how I loved it. How I needed it. I'm scared. Can I still be what I need to be to do my job? I have to find a way to reconcile these two sides of myself. Rolling ove
I placed my hand in yours I placed my heart next to yours I placed my soul inside yours
Blue Foundation-eyes On Fire
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What is it about honesty that makes it so hard to to give?  I'm not talking just about Fubar, because lets face it, honesty is hard to find on the internet.  But even in real life, we are too often too quick to tell lies to cover our asses, with little regard to the price we may pay down the road.  And one lie is seldom enough, as we cover up lie after lie with more lies to keep the story going. I look at my own relationships and how they ended. In most cases, there were lies.  The one that lied about her age (twice). Of course it didn't end there - there was also the other boyfriend, and lies about her divorce.  Her theory as well was  that secrets are good in a relationship.  I really do find good ones!  Of course someone also had the nerve to try the witness protection thing.. just a temporary thing... since she was still married and not divorced.  And the list goes on. But the lie that hurts the most is when it is about how you feel.  When the feelings are gone, or fading, or jus
I Wrote A Mumm.
But I don't think I should publish it. TOS material?   "I have been dating this girl for a few weeks and one night we got pretty liquored up and we ended up having unprotected sex (meaning I didn't pull out *wink wink*). Well, I really didn't think too much of it, because well, I was drunk. Who cares, you know? Since then she became boring and I stopped seeing her. You know, get what you want; tag it and bag it. Well she calls me up this morning and tells me she is late on her monthly and passed a pregnancy test with flying colors. I am supportive of what she wants to do until she tells me she doesn't believe in abortion or adoption. She wants to keep it. I am not really down with this because I don't really want to pay child support and I certainly don't believe children should be born out of wedlock. What am I to do? Does my opinion count for anything? It should. So I don't really know what to do. I have a tough decision ahead of me as to what I should do." Should I: a. pu
Sports Car For Grannys Car
Many many years ago...on a pretty sunny day, I had bought a sports car. It was a 1987 Nissan 300 ZX. I had traded my Ford Escort for it. I had named the car, Grim Reaper.....Reaper for short. I have regreted getting him though.... The reason why I had gotten that car was Rich thought it was such a cooooool car, him and his buddy thought it would be awesome to get. I had though...well maybe if I get this sports car, I'd be like..coool...and our relationship would be better in some way.... Yeah Yeah...stupid I know... but that's what I had thought... After I had got Reaper, the guys drooled all over it, pimped it up some more and blah blah blah. For the longest time I couldn't get a simple conversation from Rich without it having to do with the car. Then all of a sudden, the guys put some money together and soup up Rich's car. They lowered it and put a bunch of shit on car hadn't been touched. I told them, "Uh, you guys aren't done with my car but yet, you're fixing his car?
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Four Days Away!
I've got four days left till I go into sugery in which I'm not ready for however I did get a call from my sister saying that her and my mother will be coming up on (SAT), I'd be grateful to have my mom here to be with me. Honestly she shouldn't be coming this way seeing she had just got out of the hospital herself not to long ago, I'm sure you've read the blogs about it anyways guys please wish me luck cause I can use it right about now... I love you all..
Have Yourself A Maundy Little Thursday
Those of us going to church this evening of the Christian Holy Week – our annual commemoration of Jesus’ final week of Earthly life from his (I’m not capitalizing the personal pronouns referring to Jesus here despite being a Christian because you never know who might be reading) entry into Jerusalem to his death on the cross – have probably heard this day three days before Easter called Maundy Thursday.  I know what “good” means (and Good Friday’s tomorrow), but it’s easy to scratch your head at “maundy” which sounds like “moldy”.  You could also call today “Holy Thursday” and some churches use the terms interchangeably, but in case you want to know, “maundy” comes from a Middle English word that in turn comes from French and in turn comes from Latin – in this case, the word “mandatum”, the first word in Latin of the thirteenth chapter, thirty-fourth verse of the gospel acc
Casual Comments Taken The Wrong Way
I spent last week working at a contaminated site on Robins AFB in central Georgia.  We were sub-contracted to another company who seems to take a special pleasure in making every task just as painful as possible.  This not only makes field work unenjoyable, but it also makes it take much longer than it would otherwise.   I mentioned to one of my co-workers that I would like to go to this other companies headquarters and burn it down (jokingly).  This was overheard by one of this companies employees, who complained, and now I have to go and talk to a psychologist.   DOH!!
She Loves Me   She Loves Me It'S Not Just In My HeadShe Loves Me Even Though It'S Not Been SaidAnd If Anything Means Anything ThenThis Means Something GoodAnd I Guess I'D Love Her Back If I Only CouldShe Loves Me I Can See It When She Smiles Ear To EarShe Loves Me And I'M Sure That She Can'T HearHow I Scream Out For Someone ElseWhen I'M Asleep Or By MyselfHow I'M So Sad I Hate Myself Don'TKnow Where To Go For HelpHer Love Could Never Grow SourBecomes More Pure With Every HourAnd I Never Wanted Anything Like That From HerBut Still She Loves Me She Loves MeShe Loves Me It'S Not Just In My HeadShe Loves Me Even Though It'S Not Been SaidAnd If Anything Means Anything ThenThis Means Something GoodI Guess I'D Love Her Back If I Only CouldShe Loves Me And I Know She Can Accept Me For MyselfShe Loves Me But I'M Sure That She Can'T HelpHow I'M This Close To Cashing InHow I Chase Dreams That Don'T ExistHow I Hate Girls And I Hate My LifeThe Pain That
New Credit Card Scam & How It Works
    New Credit Card Scam & How It Works   This one is pretty slick since they provide YOU with all the information, except the one piece they want.   Note: the callers do not ask for your card number; they already have it. This information is worth reading. By understanding how the VISA & MasterCard Telephone Credit Card Scam works, you'll be better prepared to protect yourself.   One of our employees was called on Wednesday from 'VISA', and I was called on Thursday from 'MasterCard'.   The scam works like this: Person calling says, 'This is (name), and I'm calling from the Security and Fraud Department at VISA. My badge number is 12460. Your card has been flagged for an unusual purchase pattern, and I'm calling to verify. This would be on your VISA card which was issued by (name of bank). Did you purchase an Anti-Telemarketing Device for $497.99 from a Marketing company based in ...(xyz etc)
It Happens
Honestly??? A want to be solidA need to be trueThought it was rightThen I met youMy questions had answersNot one more to askThese were my thoughtsNow its the pastMy blame was at youWhy did you do this to me?But this time its differentNothing it used to beTerrified at firstA blindside of confusionAll that now has passedNo trace of illusionI had to decideJust where I would standThen realized from the startI always had a planNo intentions of hurtingNot me or those aroundPatience and understandingHas steadied me groundThings happen for reasonsFar beyond our controlJust know that nothingSets itself in stoneNever will you knowThe strength that it holds. Nova_xx 2/25/09
Her Flaws Part2
Lara was twisting, squirming, convulsing on the bed. If I had not known any better he would have stopped the whole charade for fear this was too much, which reminded me how much I actually care for Lara. But she was actually enjoying it, her earlier screams were gone, replaced by the little helpless noises she always made when pleasure was rising strong inside her. I felt envious then, not jealous because I was pleased with her new role. The envy I felt just build new sexual desire for her that she would have to accommodate later. My fist balled without my realising it. I raised it to my face and promised myself she would eventually receive my whole hand inside her. I would move it and look at her face and at the look of utter surrender that she would have. While I had been thinking of that, Lara's orgasm had run its course and she was in the last throes of it while Mike was removing his hand. He lifted his hand, covered in her fluids to her face and mixed their juices. She was too out
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I once again open my self..... and everything i say i mean! with everything i can and will ever be!..... Bue i see dout in you text..... in your words..... why would i say something and not mean it!... Thats just not me..... Do i feel the same way for another! you dare ask me this?.... words that can break a heart.... Whats next?? Do i chase one that douts me?..... ........hhmmmmm
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My Bros Or My Job.
So.. my super at work blowin me up to the other formen... Tellin them. Don't worry I'll have Ben come clean up your mess.. Alot of the guys I work with are bros. Their gettin mad at me for this shit.. So I ask if your not doing your job is that my fault.. I'm no captin save a hoe.. I'm not gonna cover your ass. I was on a confrence all for 45 min over this shit.. I love my job alot.. my freinds are cool.. they don't feed my kids I do. Should I talk to the super and ask him to stop or have the bros step up and take care of shit?
One Before Bed...
Promise you won't lie?sure. Is there anything currently hurting on your body?my back is aching and has been for quite awhile What's the last song you sang along to with a friend?that would be before my best friend stef left for jersey... it was a hip hop song but i cant remember which tho... Have you kissed anyone in the past 5 days?absolutely How old were you when you stopped sleeping with a night-light?as pathetic as this sounds i still do.... Last person you gave a hug to?my babies Whose car did you ride in last?my own Last person you shared food with?dinner with a friend/neighbor friday evening Ever kissed someone with blue eyes?yes Who was the last person that made you cry?my husband indirectly Was the last person you flipped off someone you knew?i cant remember flipping anyone off in quite awhile, atleast not out of spite Do you believe once a cheater, always a cheater?i use to... but i grew up and have to come realize alot of things, especially on why people cheat, bu
BREEZE Felling a cool breeze as it moves across my body. Cooling my body on a warm summer's night. After a long hot summer's day, it feels like an angel kisses. So very soft and sweet. Refreshing my body with a gentle breeze. Looking towards the clouds that are in the sky above me. Whiling I could be flying among the clouds like a falcon. Flying in and out of the clouds. Just being the sky would be so very amazing. That experience would last a lifetime. Another cool breeze starts to move towards me. I can feel it start to move across my feet and it is flowing up my legs. Now I can feel it reach into my chest. It reaches into my chest and I feel it softly touch my soul. I can hear a soft and angelique voice telling me to relax. I start to smell the sweet scent of flowers after the rain. The breeze reaches my face, it feels like an angel is touching my face. The breeze is moving all around my body. Now as I start to open my eyes I'm no longer standing on the gro
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People Are People So Why Should It Be?
That people annoy me. Or maybe it's just my mood.
Yes, Please!!!
She knelt calmly on her soft pillow as she listened to the sounds. He was in the bathroom. She heard the toilet flush and the water in the sink running for a while. He must have been waiting for the water to run warm. She was naked and the air was chilly causing her to shiver and her nipples to perk up with soft little bumps rising on the areolas surrounding her dark, pink buds.He was so very good to her, so loving yet firm. What pleasures would he seek from her tonight? She looked down at the floor, not seeing anything, just lost in her thoughts of pleasing him. The intense love she felt for him filled her with joy and she smiled. Oh yes, anything her Master desired, that is what she would give to him. They gave those gifts, the give and the take, the sharing of being completely in tune with one another.She thought about dinner, how she had made a delicious meal and served his favorite wine. She had wanted to welcome him home with love, knowing he'd had a busy day. She had wanted to c
Tired Of This A-hole's Bs!
Last Thursday, I get an email from some scumbag on fubar.  It was a copy of what he sent ot a very close and special friend of mine.  Basically he was someone who wants to ruin her life and pretended to be someone he isn't.  So my friend is gone from fubar.  And the scumbag deleted his profile Today, I come home from a meeting.. and guess what.. another email.  he has sent the emails to others as well.  And was on my page with 2 profiles.. both of which he deleted after emailing me. I'm pissed because someone is trying to ruin the life of someone very dear to me. I get any more from the bastard and I'm just gonna close up here... that way he can't use me to hurt her anymore.    
In Honor Of Earth Day April 22, 2009 - Tomorrow's Goodbye
(I can't figure out this new posting system... so the youtube video is posted below in the comment section)   Tomorrow's Goodbye - Lynard Skynard *** I'm just a city boyBut there's a small town side to meAnd I feel it closin' inAre we too blind to seeThat she's dying more each dayAnd she's cryin' out to you and meChances come and when they're goneThey curse the fools who wait too longSo let's take care of what we haveBefore the good we know goes badAnd the beauty fades and just slips awayThe dirty air, they dying seasWill this be the world we leaveTo the wild and youngI say, just look at what we've doneAnd right before our yesToday's yesterdayCould be tomorrow's goodbyeHere comes the rainAnd it might wash her tears awayBut it doesn't change a thingLike my brother before meAll I can do is write this songAnd for her I singChances come and when they're goneThey carve in stone what we've done wrongSo let's take care of what we haveBefore the good we know goes badAnd the bea
Only In Michigan
Mich. mayor gets speeding warning, demands ticket Fri Apr 17, 3:43 pm ET WARREN, Mich. – A Michigan mayor says a warning wasn't enough after he was stopped for speeding. So he asked for a ticket instead — and got it. Warren Mayor Jim Fouts was pulled over Monday on the way to City Hall for going 45 mph in a 40 mph zone. The officer told him to watch it next time. Fouts says he was uncomfortable the entire day with just a warning, thinking it might be construed as favoritism. So he called the deputy police commissioner and demanded the ticket. Police delivered it to Fouts' office and Fouts paid the $100 fine. Fouts told The Detroit News that he "had to set an example."
For Us Older People Lmao
TO ALL THE KIDS WHO SURVIVED the 1930s '40s, '50s, '60s and '70s !!First, we survived being born to mothers who smoked and/or drank while they carried us.They took aspirin, ate blue cheese dressing, tuna from a can, and didn't get tested for diabetes.Then after that trauma, our baby cribs were covered with bright- colored, lead-based paints.We had no childproof lids on medicine bottles, doors, or cabinets, and when we rode our bikes, we had no helmets, not to mention the risks we took hitchhiking.As children, we would ride in cars with no seat belts or air bags.Riding in the back of a pick up on a warm day was always a special treat.We drank water from the garden hose and NOT from a bottle.We shared one soft drink with four friends, from one bottle, and NO ONE actually died from this.We ate cupcakes, white bread and real butter, and drank soda pop with sugar in it, but we weren't overweight becauseWE WERE ALWAYS OUTSIDE PLAYING!We would leave home in the morning and play all day, as lo
Bone Scan?
I've been having alot of back pain lately and the doctor in which I see for my radiation treatments believes that it is do to my muscles, however my cancer doctor wants me to have a bone scan done to make sure that the cancer hasn't spreaded into my back? I'm hoping that this isn't the case cause I'm not ready for no more treatments nor surgery although I've gotta do whatever they tell me in order to get myself better. I'm just thankful that I've got family & friends who care about me enough to help out an lend a hand whenever I've needed it the most. I'm really trying to hold on to the faith an keep my head up as much as possible but at times I get so tired & don't want to do a damn thing, my husband has grounded me from Says for me to relax an take it easy he'll do the cooking & cleaning and so on which I'm not use to an feel as if I'm a damn baby at times, though I'm thankful for having him to do all this for me... I'm not like I use to be anymore, the Jaime you
A Poem
Eager anticipation makes a long road longer The flow of time already slow, floats lazily in still waters It seems the world is against my every desire Things from so long ago, they should be gone I want to go home and so fate will tease me The future for whcih I dream is but a whisper I wish my eagle would spread it's wings Making times passage a wind in my face Untill that point, where life at last is whole Eager anticipation makes a long road longer The flow of time already slow, floats lazily in still waters  
Good Advise??
Don't close yourself off from the rest of the world.  If you find someone who can make you understand a little more, laugh every now and then, give you a new experience, then never feel guilty. You'll just have more to give back to those who are closest to you. Sounds like good advise......maybe I should try more to follow it myself.
I Need An Auto-11
I Don't Get It
I have been talking to my ex from HS on facebook and he's In Iraq. Well I was talking to him just now, and a rocket hit his base, And he acted like nothing. I on the other hand started shaking And he was scting like it was nothing. Apearently this happens offten.. I couldn't Imagin being a military wife/girlfriend, Now he went on patrol to make sure everything is ok. He knows my situation so He knows If I get on at night he can't IM me even thou he's on my friends. I'm so not ready for a friendship with a military guy, He get's leave in Sept and he's coming back to Philly But still He's right in the mix of shit out there :( He was my 1st boyfrined so nothing ever happenend between us and were strickly friends so get your minds out the gutter.
The Wisest Man In The World
The Wisest Man in the World is my 14 year old Grandson. The wisdom of the ages revealed by a teenager over chicken and potatoes... "I have learned it is best to never argue with a woman. She just gets mad at you, so even if you win the argument, you still lose."
Nun At Hooters
Nun in HootersA nun, badly needing to use the restroom, walked into a local Hooters.The place was hopping with music and loud conversation and every once in a while "the lights would turn off." Each time the lights would go out, the place would erupt into cheers.However, when the revelers saw the nun, the room went dead silent.She walked up to the bartender, and asked, "May I please use the restroom?The bartender replied, "OK Sister, but I should warn you that there is a statue of a naked man in there wearing only a fig leaf.""Well, in that case, I'll just look the other way," said the nun.So the bartender showed the nun to the back of the restaurant.After a few minutes, she came back out, and the whole place stopped just long enough to give the nun a loud round of applause!She went to the bartender and said, "Sir, I don't understand. Why did they applaud for me just because I went to the restroom?""Well, now they know you're one of us," said the bartender, "Would you like a drink?""No
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My Chapel...
"I'm goin' to church" is a phrase I've used more times than I can remember and to be quite honest, will probably continue to use it for the rest of my days. Because let's face it. It sounds rather odd to say, "I am now going to the building where the pastor speaks and we sing songs to praise Jesus." In my 45 years of living on this earth, I have heard numerous people share their spiritual woes with me. Many are frustrated that they are in God's waiting room and that He is just not moving fast enough for their taste. There are those who just can't seem to beat the demons who keep torturing them as they try to live their lives. But probably the biggest group is the people who struggle with not feeling close to God.   Maybe you've said it.   Maybe you've said it today.   Rest assured, just because you and I don't always feel God's presence or feel close to God doesn't mean we are far from him. Quite the contrary. My brother say to me: It isn't necessary that we stay in church in
A Little Information....
I posted several stash items through out the night. Most of them are Alvin and the Chipmunk videos...what can I say, I love that shit!The last 2 videos are from our Cruise video that we purchased from Carnival. The "Setting Sail" video has a couple seconds of my sons on it. I marked them in their spot and I even tell you the minute & second where the'll be in the title so you can just go right to it.The "Deck Party" video is about 10 minutes long and has a lot of me, Allison, Simon and my husband. I marked me a couple times and my husband once. Can you find me the rest of the time? I would rather you watch and comment them than to rate pictures and stuff...lolAnyway, take a look at them and tell me what you think!
for those of you who dont know me this is it i have lived in augusta ga my entire life thats a long freakin time i work non stop hang out with my friends and mainly just like to chill kick back have a guinness and throw darts at the bar as you can see from my pic i wrestled for a while and got decent at it but the time came to move on to other things anyway for those of you who read this i have a new toast for you always say a toast whenever you take a drink in a group its a barlaw may those who love of us love us and for those who dont love us may god turn their hearts but if he cant turn their hearts may he turn their ankles so well know them by their limpming cheers b*tch
What Pets Write In Their Diaries
WHAT PETS WRITE  IN THEIR DIARIES    Excerpts  from a Dog's Diary......      8:00 am - Dog food! My favorite thing!9:30 am - A  car ride! My favorite thing!9:40 am - A walk in the park! My favorite  thing!10:30 am - Got rubbed and petted! My favorite thing!12:00 pm  - Lunch! My favorite thing! 1:00 pm - Played in the yard! My  favorite thing! 3:00 pm - Wagged my tail! My favorite  thing! 5:00 pm - Milk Bones! My favorite thing! 7:00 pm  - Got to play ball! My favorite thing! 8:00 pm - Wow! Watched TV  with the people! My favorite thing!
Observations About The Bus
Well I was on the bus today...No real adventure today but more of an observation. 99.9% of the people on the bus look downtrodden and dejected. It's pretty sad actually. Anyway I was dressed for work. I wear a nice button down shirt and just some dockers. Oddly enough nobody would sit near me. And when the bus had filled up the one person who did got up immediately after the first seat away from me opened. I showered used deoderant. It was just odd. Maybe I am just that repulsive..Who knows.... Another day for me on the Bus...
Time valuable or something just to kill Does it move to quickly or just stand still People who want some of yours do they belong Or are they the ones are who waste yours like a really bad song  
Say You Love Me Back
You hide behind your mask and i can't make you come out most people only see what they wish yet most people aren't me you tell me to leave yet i stay and try to befriend you i miss you in your mask you hide in that mask of lies you hold me close and share your dreams yet i know you're only telling me what i wish to hear don't do this to yourself don't hurt yourself like this i could make it all better if you'd only believe i am the mask you were people only see me and people only see what i want them to see let me back in let me help you heal your hurts i only wish to encourage this person i see within so hold me even closer lover and let me heal your wounds let me be to you what no one was to me in childhood let me say the words i always longed for they to say i love you lover, until death do us part i love you lover so hold on tight i love you lover I'll never let them win the fight i love you lover just say you love me back
I was just wondering why is it that fat girls never seem to get attention on here? I help most all my fu friends and fans out to the best i can. and i help others if asked. But why dont i get attention?
Dream Or Reality
walking down the row thinking of the love that is waiting for you what a lucky life you have now.... wishing she was by your side now but she is waiting for you... is this dream or reality... as you walk you keep thinking of how she makes you feel...   bang bang you hear a knock on the door... as you look you know it was all a dream screaming no..... why did this dream have to end   looking around you think could that really happen to me as you look out the window you see the one you was dreaming about oh wow there she goes looking so good just standing there so lonely   bang bang thoughts go off in your head wow i could make my dream reality... seeing that delicous smile and sexy eyes your heart drops   how i would love... oh how i would love to spend my life with her  
birch tree, I see you stand all aloneIn a clearing, so far removed from others.You strive to belong in the woods with them,To be among your sisters and your brothersBut strong roots keep holding you down to the ground,All you can do is tilt your head and flail your armsHoping they will see your struggle, come to you,But they are attached as well, and can't abandon their realmsAs days and nights go by, you hear them whisper in the wind.You want to share your dreams at night, and celebrate beginnings of each day;But distance is too big, and they can't hear;You look at them with tired eyes, and quietly wonder what they sayThe day is coming to an end,The clearing and the forest stand in the darkYour green head is tilted down, you feel defeat,And clear bitter sap is running down your bark.You fall asleep and see the dreamsOf standing in the woods, with theirs your branches intertwine.You feel the wind caress your leaves,And bring your soul a little closer to divine.At night the clouds gathe
To The Asshole That Rammed Into My Truck
slight chance of you reading this but we will meet again in court! not only did ur stupid ass total my brand new truck, u fucked me up too!!!!!!!!!!!   and i thought id let you know how lucky u wher that that i wasnt able to kick your damn ass!!!!!!!!!!!! If i wouldnt of gottn a good hit like that i would of came out of my truck i would of made you shit your own teeth!!!!!!!! freakin retard!!!!! but it does do justice that you wont be to happy in the future knowing that you handled your cellphone and that caused you to hall ass into my truckyour luck i was the only one really injured!!!!!!!!!   Fuckin idiot!!! A BIG ASS TRUCK and u totaled it , the frame is completly fucked up! do u even know how much force it takes to do that? could of been dead!and my luck the incomin traffic wasnt to bad otherwise i would of ran down the damn ditch into the creek! oh man u guys have no idea how pissed i am about this!!!! and my neck, shoulders and back is messed up. long termn shit on my neck
Marriage Views
First, marriage should be loveall encompassing, total, and free.Love that grows stronger each daysoft murmurs of Thee, Thee, Thee.Second, marriage should be sacrificegiving of self, regardless of reward.Gift gladly given, with open heartshielded from life's harsh sword.Third, marriage should be commitmentutter loyalty, deep to the bone.Absolutely, no questions askedfaithfully promised, never alone.Lastly, marriage should be foreverfamily bonded, yet all still free.Lives joined with love, sacrifice, and commitmentan eternity promised with -Thee, Thee, Thee
Just Cant Win
I am always telling my kids you should never hate anything , objects , foods , even people. But I am sitting here after driving off from my own home pissed consumed in hate . Everyone has family issues I have two a brother and a sister who I have no idea how my parents could of produced . The divorce is taking a toll on me after 14 years of being put through verbal hell and losing friends and even being told by him to just stay away from my siblings because they are awful . Funny thing though as soon as divorce was said they are now his two best friends . He said to me tonight as your "friend" he wanted to tell me something that was said . LMFAO as my friend my ass , wasn't a husband ain't never been my friend but tells me something that supposedly I did that my sister's x boyfriend said . My oldest is ten and has had people in and out of her life and her x made a positive impact on her life and she asked me a few weeks back to stop and say hi to him . Knowing her missing him was genui
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Knights Honor
My fair one. Like the snow, Draped in sunshine. Alabaster. Smooth as silk. Eyes of sky. So inviting, Sensual. Evoking my smile. Lips, That beg my kiss. How I love thee. Need thee. feel you, Stirring in me. Want you. Beneath me. Deep within thee. Within my realm. My castle walls, Protect thee. My armour, Shields thee. My sword, Defends thee. My arms surround thee. In coiled heat. My chains bind thee, In your dreams. My collar brands thee, As mine. I wait patiently, Upon my throne. You, Kneel to me. Obeisance, For me. Obey, Me. Give all you are, To me. Trust me, Implicitly. Desire me, Above all others. Your loins, In heat, for me. You breath, For me. You only dream, Of me. Your body dies, For me. As I would, And do, Indeed, Die, For thee. I am your, Lord. Your Master. The one, Who holds, the key. Your hearts, Desire. The one, Who strokes your fire. With my, Salt sweet seed. I am your Knight, In Honor. And I, Complete thee. As thee, My heart. Complete me.
A New Tat
well i can not find a good tat to get to cover old scars on my upper arm. it will be my left arm from about shoulder to elbow. i have a couple ideas. i am trying to find like a faerie vampire thing.  of some kinda flowers but im not a flower girl.  i really dont know
Just Curious
Why is it when a guy goes to add another as a friend, there's gotta be a reason for it? It's not a gay thing so what's the deal?
Shoshonni Walker
made you look!!!!!
One Hot Momma(my Mom) Hot MommaMy Mom needs to level lets show her some love!!!
My Life
I am so sick of the way things are. I am stuck at home 24/7 with kids damn near all day. My other half and *the roommates* get to go out all the time, but me hell no. It's always can you watch the kids, do you mind watching the kids? For all that matters I am nothing more than a live in babysitter and a door mat. I am very tempted to move out and leave my other half with the kids damn near all day and let him know how I feel. I would love to be single and live by myself again. But can I really do that?
Wanting More
I see myself holding you close to me,Squeezing your body tight.But for all I see as I daydream-I know I'll get tenfold tonight.Running my palms across your breast,As you tremble and bite your lip.Feeling your hands upon my chest,The softness of each fingertip.Tasting your neck so sweet, so soft,And slowly lowering my kiss.Over pert nipples, across your navel,And finally into pure bliss.Looking upon your face from below-As you tilt back your head.Feeling your fountains begin to flow-As you ease back on the bed.Your "innocent little devil" look-Crying insatiably with the sensation.Lip to lip lapping up every drip-From the well of your creation.The way you pull me up by the hair-To the heat of your mouth, on fire.No other thoughts, no other cares,Just the quenching of mad desire.Riding the tide of passion,Pushing my love into you.On the waves of your emotion-In slow motion, so sweet and true.Pulse pounding in resounding rapture,Taken to the hilt, then just past.Rhythm growing, faces glowi
What Does Your Birthday Month Say About You? October From Facebook
Loves to chat. Loves those who loves them. Loves to takes things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care of what others think. Emotional. Decisive. Strong clairvoyance. Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Touchy and easily jealous. Concerned. Loves outdoors. Just and fair. Spendthrift. Easily influenced. Easily loses confidence. Loves children.
Not Reconciled That The Square Root Of Soon Is Never
Past the first three words of today’s title, that line’s from last night’s new episode of “Phineas and Ferb” on the Disney Channel, one of my kids’ favorite shows (and their parent’s too, I laugh).  I liked it when I heard it, go figure … this morning at church we not only had our men’s group Breakfast with the Boys meet and eat but also fed the church ladies helping out with today’s rummage and bake sale.  Pastor Gerald who’s normally leading the devotion was away with some family matters, and I got to present the devotion I’d read in my quiet time this morning, one of fifty in John Piper’s “The Passion of Jesus Christ” (ISBN 1581346085) about a reason Jesus suffered and died on the cross.  Today’s – there’s fifty of them, so I’m reading one a day from Easter to Pentecost – was that Christ suffered and died to reconcile us to God.  My big problem with the text I re
How Spicy Are You?
Your Spicy Score: Medium You enjoy letting loose and having fun, but you don't go overboard. You know that a little spice can go a long way. You keep yourself in check. When things are too boring, you really know how to bump up the temperature. When things are getting hot and completely out of control, you know how to pull back. How Spicy Are You?
What I Want From A Man
I want him to hold me....* when i cry * when i'm cold* when something is wrongI want him to kiss me....* in public* in the rain*when we wake up* when we go to bed* for no reason at allIf he Loves me tell me.....* every chance he gets cause you never know when it will be the last moment of my lifeI want him to show me he loves me by the things he does and the way he acts around not just me but his friends his family everyone we know. I want him to take my hand and hold it just because he wants to, not because I want him to. I want him to take me in his arms in the rain and tell me he loves me and wants me and will never let me go and kisses me until me knees go weak and my heart skips a beat.   Crystal M. Shea
02 May 2009
Only when you can see past the obvious will you see the true meaning of what I write.
Singin Simple Man
Waitin Is So Hard To Do~
Well I got up early, was very excited to see jJoy, we have talked many hours on the phone, and in MSN IM, as well as texting like two school kids...   Her flight was to arrive at 10:45AM on Monday, here it was 9AM Monday, I was like pacing, not nervous but so excited, ok ok I will admit I was, its just not the same as talking on a phone, this was like the breaking point..."what ifs" kept creeping up in my mind...   I arrive at John Wayne Airport located in Irvine/Costa Mesa area... I show up exactly at 10:45 AM with parking and all took a bit to get there, waiting around, then looked at the flight times, and my luck shes running late, I thought..."Dont that figure?"....   So she texts me from the plan as it taxis to the hub to unload passengers... Joy: Im here and im so excited... H.: well how much longer? Joy: its taking to much time H. well Im here waiting Joy: people are in the isles H. just wait let it clear Joy: here I come! then nothing for like 15 minutes Im like
This Or That
Do Woman Perfer....   A Man Who Has Children Or One With Out?   Older Or Younger?   Nice Guy or Bad Ass (/shady)?   With or With out Tattoos?   Anything Else You Can Think Of   Leave A Comment...
Here Comes Trouble!
lexus400@ fubar This guy is nothing but trouble he hates rules and feels lounges should b an everything goes and everything should b said! he's rude puts down staff and members!!! So if ya care about your members and staff watchout for this loser thank you!
Just A Funny Note!
i got this today and thought it was funny as hell and wants to share with people! kermit the frog just died of the swine flu! his last words: the fucking pig told me she was clean!
Roadtrip For Mother's Day
I'm heading to Cali to see my younglings for Mother's Day weekend....woohoo!  it's a long ass drive but very well worth it.  I even get to see my oldest son perform in his high school marching band. 
Happy Go Lucky! (please Read).....
Yesterday was my last external treatment, they all gave me hugs and said that I done a wonderful job.... Amanda gave me a ballon and wished me well with the rest of my treatments, I am just so glad thats over and done with, now tomorrow I have to go in for my 4th internal treatment and on the 7th my last chemo... Then I've got to go in on the 13th I believe for my last internal.... Whew I never thought that this would end however it's coming, I'm going to party like a I do have to wait at least a few weeks before the swelling goes down in my twat until they know for sure they got it all in which case they better have after all the shit I've been through... Well I just thought ya'll would like to know whats been going on with me, so I'll let ya get back to whatever it is your doing have fun and take care....   Much love always from your friend Jaime!
A True man does not need to romance a different girl every night, A true man romances the same girl the rest of his life..
I Deserve
I have made mistakes in my life, I have let people take advantage of me and i have expected way less than what i deserve, But i have learned from my bad choices, and even though there are some things i can never get back, And people who will never be sorry, I know better next time and want settle for anything less than what i deserve..
With society in this twist of genocidial hateforced to fear by a government that does nothing but regulateand propagate confusion within the weakto put words into motionreleasing kept mindsthis used to be our priveledgenow it is our crimeSILENT NO LONGER with ignorant mentalityup on a soap box with a plan for realityHow can one stand?How can one speak?and yet find the strength to go out and preach?to teach?to RISE againstNO MORE, say youshall we be lambs to the slaughterbleeding outto feed our fatherto fight his war which fuels his gainRISERISE, I beg youdon't be plaina wise man spokebefore he was brokeand said fear NOTHING but fearevery great man who has had a planhas been reaped in the prime of their yearthis power is scaredand the speaker can no longer be silencedfor his message was givenbefore they brought him violenceSo SPEAK i say youtell all who will listenthat it is our dutyand our missionas a peoplered, white, yollow and blackto rise upand take the power back!
Wuts Up
    So ive had some shit been goin....fuckin no job. been single for awhile. usually i sit at home but i was kidnapped recently lol...not in a bad way of course. Ive recently just rejoined fubar and i missed it a lot. Im happy to have the friends i have on here. i hope for more of course...but this is just my first blog entry that id figure i would write. so hope everyone is doin well
Black Wolf Story
 Wondering wolfThe wolf wonders the land looking for that special that the wolf has found her she is gone just as fast.She was taken way from him even though she says she keft on her own.Now the wolf wonders around lost in this big curel world.The wolf's soul is still with atht special female wolf even though she dosent want him. The white wolf fallows the black wolf around.she is always beside him no matter what happens.the white wolf would be lost if anything happens to the black wolf.whitout the black wolf in her life the white wolf just would fade away.even when the black wolf is aw2ay from the white wolf she dont know she is the frist and the last thing on his mind.The love the black wolf has for his white wolf knows no distance his love for her is what keeps him going everyday.even though they are not together the blac k wolf waits for the day they are reunited and are together again.But untill then they can only see each other in their dreams.The black wolf wake up every
My Days", My Moments.
been busy lately.. and my world here and there has different stories.... but i guess, i am happy these days".  my life here at home is smooth sailing' so far, ceasefire!!! no arguements, no discussions..   i am living pretty quiet these days.. and am happy too, coz , i am learning how to really assert myself to do the things that i want.without really asking my hubby's approval".. and i am glad he is starting to let me do things that i feel  i enjoy doing".  so i wake up early morning, send my kid to school, have my breakfast.. rush to my class, then  spend few minutes chatting, talking non sense with my classmates, and rush to the gym for an hour of aerobics.. then again rush to  do some shopping, by 11 i shd be home...  a little bit earlier than cinderella's curfew,... and of course i will be busy cooking lunch... within one hour, i shd have my lunch ready  coz my son will be coming home from school , and u know, his lunch must be on time.. or else, he will  not really compromise o
Answer Me This
1)Q. Can you cook?1)A. 2)Q. What was your dream growing up?2)A. 3)Q. What talent do you wish you had?3)A. 4)Q. If I bought you a drink what would it be?4)A.5)Q. Favorite vegetable?5)A. 6)Q. What was the last book you read?6)A. 7)Q. What zodiac sign are you ?7)A. 8)Q. Any Tattoos and/or Piercings? Where?8)A. 9)Q. Worst Habit?9)A. 10)Q. If you saw me walking down the street would you offer me a ride?10 A. 11)Q. What is your favorite sport?11)A. 12)Q. Negative or Optimistic attitude?12)A. 13)Q. What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me?13)A. 14)Q. Worst thing to ever happen to you?14)A. 15)Q. Tell me one weird fact about you15)A. 16)Q. Do you have any pets?16)A. 17)Q. What if I showed up at your house unexpectedly?17)A.18)Q. What was your first impression of me?18)A. .19)Q. Do you think clowns are cute or scary?19)A. 20)Q. If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be???20)A.21)Q. Would you be my crime partner or my conscience?21)A. 22)Q. What color e
07 May 2009
Unnecessary are my words in the end.
Sitting in the dark, I can't forget. Even now, I realize the time I'll never get. Another story of the Bitter Pills of Fate. I can't go back again. I can't go back again... But you asked me to love you and I did. Traded my emotions for a contract to Commit. And when I got away, I only got so far. The Other Me Is Dead. I hear his voice inside my head... We were never alive, and we won't be born again. But I'll never survive with Dead Memories in my heart. You told me to love you and I did. Tied my soul into a knot and got me to submit. So when I got away, I only kept my scars. The Other Me Is Gone. Now I don't know where I belong... We were never alive, and we won't be born again. But I'll never survive with Dead Memories in my heart. Dead Visions in your Name. Dead Fingers in my Veins. Dead Memories in my Heart
My Rant
One thing that I can absolutely not understand is how people can take a half naked or naked pictures of them self with the room they are in nasty.  I mean come on do you really think that people are going to be turned on to that and if they are they are probably nasty too.  What it take to clean your dang house get off fubar and CLEAN because more than likely you aren’t clean either.  That shows people that you are not willing to take care of yourself.  Lastly edit the dang picture there is something called a cropping tool when editing pictures.  Crop that nasty crap out...........Oh and one other thing don’t post a dang picture where you are naked or half naked where your baby or kid is in the room.  That is just plan degrading to the kiddo and CPS should be picking that kid up because bottom-line you are more worried about you and your body than you are your kid and house.    
It's Gonna Be My Bday!
it's gonna be my bday this sunday! first bday here in USA. and i bet it would not be fun. friends not around, and bars closes until as early 1am, sux! it's gonna be way way different. but wish it's gonna be a good day though!!
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A Million Dollars And An Immigrant
If I had a million dollars i'd employ an immigrant. I'd pay him to sit by my pool. I would serve him drinks all day. However the second he learned any english I would fire him.
New Owner And Auto 11's!!!
DJ Van Helsing RR Member Fu & R/L Hubby of Anna Valerious OWNER OF ILL 105.9 FMVan Helsing has auto's on show him Love Please!!!BigRickBigRick my new owner show him some Love As Well!!!
Good Enough
Under your spell again.I can't say no to you.Crave my heart and it's bleeding in your hand.I can't say no to you.Shouldn't let you torture me so sweetly.Now I can't let go of this dream.I can't breathe but I feel...Good enough,I feel good enough for you.Drink up sweet decadence.I can't say no to you,And I've completely lost myself, and I don't mind.I can't say no to you.Shouldn't let you conquer me completely.Now I can't let go of this dream.Can't believe that I feel...Good enough,I feel good enough.It's been such a long time coming, but I feel good.And I'm still waiting for the rain to fall.Pour real life down on me.'Cause I can't hold on to anything this good enough.Am I good enough for you to love me too?So take care what you ask of me,'cause I can't say no.see blog to follow ... if you dont care then please leave me alone ...
What Family?
So yeah this blog goes out to my family you know who you are. I think it's so fucking sad how you can be so fucking cold and just put someone out just like that when you know my situation. You are all fucking hypocrites and much much more just fake like fuck so much for TRUE family huh? Just so fucked up that I don't have fucking shit from my divorce and I am working so hard to get back up there and you guys do anything in your power to TRY to pull me down again...notice I said TRY because you guys never succeed I always come out on top not YOU fucks. Yeah it hurts me like fuck but you know what you have done showed me your true colors for real because check this out you are all going to need me for somthing rather no matter what it is, and I'm am straight up going to say...FUCK NO. And then one fine day you're going need me so bad and I'm going to say FUCK NO. YOu try to hurt me by taking what I value most away from me but you know what in the end you are going to suffer hard and I'll
Once More With Feeling
I'm doing it again. I'm back peddling. This is not where I saw my life. It's not what I want per say. Now that it's happening and it's fully sinking in I want to shout wait wait - this is not how it was suppose to go. I cannot even bring myself to say "it's for the best" ~ but the past 6 months have been rather stagnent and I just I wish I was truely given the chance to work on things. But you cannot change the past only work with the present. This time I was more prepared. And yet it still brings me such sorrow. I want thing to be better, differnt, have hope. I feel very little hope. I am dissapointed in myself. Frozen in fear unsure where to go from here. He stated he did think I should take that one room but it's only for 3 weeks so I'm unsure. But he wants me to move out, but still go to couples counsiling - still trying to make sense ouf of that one. Do I get a place close by in order to keep having my son the three days a week I'm currently home with him if that's the case pla
Oh Noes......
Well I just got the news today that I have been waiting on. I will be losing my job, on the 15th of June!! Thats just great. Times are hard, right now and the job market here is bad!! A lighting plant closed its doors last month, a long with so other businesses, so now I have to compete just to get a job. Guess I could always go back to cleaning shitters.......maybe not. Not sure what I am going to do, but I will land on my feet, like always....or just end my suffering, na that will make to many people happy. Well wish me luck on the job search I will need it.
Bestmoviestar In Whale Wars
I was watching tv ANIMAL PLANET, the other day and I couldn't believe what those suckers japaneses whalling are doing in antartica. Son' of B******. Only one group stands between a 750-ton whale-killing machine and its prey. Whale Wars follows the Sea Shepherd Conservation Society as they seek to end Japanese whaling once and for all.             DID YOU KNOW? The Ban on Whaling: The moratorium on commercial whaling didn't go into effect until 1986, even though it was passed by the International Whaling Commission (IWC) in 1982. Find out what the United States did to help enforce the IWC decision. HOW STUFF WORKS Whalers and Conservation Many whale species have been profoundly impacted by whaling -- some to the point of near-extinction. International regulations and conservation efforts have helped many whale species bounce back from the brink of extinction, but some species are still in danger and some countries still allow commercial whaling. Learn more about whalers and conservatio
Tisk Tisk....should Have Learned Better...
I'm just your average 19 year old girl who lives in the only town in PA. I dream the future, work hard to get by, and my family and a few friens help me along the road. I just live my life day by day, try not to have a care in the world, but care about everything. I put other's before myself and happiness is what I strive for. I get to know someone before I make judgmets, I'd rather listen then talk. Like I said, I'm just everyone else, but realy I'm not. I'm just me and that's who I love, being...myself.However, you grow up...things change, people change and whether you like it or not, you aren't the same person you used to be when you were little. Maybe it's for the better or maybe it's not, either way you've become someone. As for me, I've changed more than people know. Now I'm not one to complain and I'm not ere to do it but I can honestly say I like who I've become and I wouldn't go back in time to change it.Growing up, I was the only child. I don't really remember a
Back Out Your Door
Back Out Your DoorWell I don't like it muchWhen I'm away from youHere lately, that's all that I've beenAnd I don't like waking up aloneI don't like the shape I get inCause when I'm aloneMy mind winds up blowingTo a thousand pieces on the floorAnd you are the oneWho can put them togetherBefore the world sweeps meBack out your doorI am the oneWho is forever searchingFor rainbows and pockets of goldAnd you keep reminding meThat none of that mattersAs long as we have each other to holdBefore the world sweeps me back out your door
Have U??
i always wondered where rainbow endsalways wondered where rain come fromand always wanted to know where air come fromalways wanted to know where all hidden treasures arealways wanted to know where sun,moon,and the stars gets their lightalways wanted to know what is happinessalways wondered whats lovenow i realize it allbecause,rainbow start and ends in your eyesrain comes of your tearsair comes of your breathshidden treasures are hidden with your lipsstars,moon,and sun takes its light from your brightnessthe spring of happiness splash of your heartand finally found lovewhen i found you==========================W.B: FAR7AN
I met a man who kicked my front door downHe blew in with the Santa Ana windsAnd a half cocked houndHe fits my body like a one horse townAnd I was drunk like a vagabond on his streetAnd I lay face downAnd I rode his joy like a child on a merry-go-roundI was young in his eyesI was sweet on his thighsI was profoundI was shot like a free bird in flightTo the ground.On the breezeMy scent will find youLost by degreesFrom time to time you’llSingWith my lipsOr my handsOn your hipsOr my tongueLike the sunIn your mouth
Twiztid Ft. Blaze- Bussyoheadopen
[Verse 1: Jamie Madrox]D town fitted, turn to the back With that east side repping ready for the attack Checking the attire, all white and black With the black Twiztid embroidered on the back Guess who's back, yep, it's the tray side And we put it down for life and ready to ride Madrox and Monoxide, you ain't heard Got people who were all anticipating our return With everywhere you look, it ain't looking good not at all And everybody looking is waiting for you to fall Now we design and dominate that's just mans natural instinct And put it on the line like reputations and pink slips We got the music, let it do what it do And this stress carrying the world, we gonna carry that too And we gonna bury them fools and the rest in a cloak at night And strike like vengeance upon parasites [Chorus: x2] Now don't y'all, not for one second Think I won't just BUST YO' HEAD OPEN Give me a reason to leave you breathing That's a point blank message to all the non-believers [Verse 2: Monoxide Child]
Just Hope It Makes You Laugh
Abbott: Well Costello, I'm going to New York with you. You know Bucky Harris, the Yankee's manager, gave me a job as coach for as long as you're on the team. Costello: Look Abbott, if you're the coach, you must know all the players. Abbott: I certainly do. Costello: Well you know I've never met the guys. So you'll have to tell me their names, and then I'll know who's playing on the team. Abbott: Oh, I'll tell you their names, but you know it seems to me they give these ball players now-a-days very peculiar names. Costello: You mean funny names? Abbott: Strange names, pet Dizzy Dean... Costello: His brother Daffy. Abbott: Daffy Dean... Costello: And their French cousin. Abbott: French? Costello: Goofè. Abbott: Goofè Dean. Well, let's see, we have on the bags, Who's on first, What's on second, I Don't Know is on third... Costello: That's what I want to find out. Abbott: I say Who's on first, What's on second, I Don't Know's on third. Costello: Are you the mana
A Man Without A Country
EASTON, Pa. — A man who previously claimed Pennsylvania courts have no jurisdiction over him because he's his own country has been sentenced to jail. A Northampton County judge sentenced 44-year-old Scott Allan Witmer to three days to six months in jail Friday and fined him $2,500 for driving under the influence. In March, Witmer appeared in court wearing a Coors Light sweatshirt and said Pennsylvania laws didn't apply to him because he is a "sovereign man." Later, he pleaded guilty to driving under the influence. On Friday, Witmer acknowledged it was "definitely wrong" for him to drive on the night of his arrest. Wearing a Coors Light sweatshirt in court, nows there's a PR idea!
Missing You
Harely is in Big Bear with our boy this weekend and i am really glad they are getting time together... I do miss him so .... spent some time with our boy the other nite and he is such a special kid .... our family isnt complete without all our children happy ... *sighs I MISS YOU!!!! My day is less without you Master ....
3 Questions Game Huh
3 questions each a round u cant ask the same i asked on the same round u have one pass to use once lol u dont have to answer ur questions that u ask em any other rules [will tell u when i come up with more ]lmao muahhhhhhz
I dont do this kinda thing very often, but i need an out. im tired of these feelings of hate and and destruction. these actions of anguish and dispairty. Im tired of feeling alone in the world.  im tired of all the deciete from people who are supposed to be my friends and love ones. you know who are. i bust my ass to try and make something of my life and then you have some people that just like  to see people suffer.  all i have is one thing say to you ungrateful pigme you know what thats not nice to say so i'll say it like this. NO MORE GAMES. YOU NO LONGER CAN AFFECT ME IN ANYWAY. so  try your lies and games it wont work. im a strong black man that came from the gutter. ive been to much to let you take me back down. so in the end im not mad at you. im happy you opened my eyes and let me see who you all really were and for that i thank cause you brought out the person im am today. So to end this blog and i just wanna say to you all who have done wrong in my life or manage to get me to
Solid As A Rock
“Wherefore the people did chide with Moses, and said, Give us water that we may drink.  And Moses said unto them, Why chide ye with me?  Wherefore do ye tempt the LORD?”  Upon settling in their encampment in Rephidim after traversing the wilderness of Sin, the Israelites and mixed multitude who’d left Egypt and crossed the Red Sea on dry land, been miraculously supplied quail and manna (and would continue to be until they actually got to Canaan, see 16:35), and were once more on the lookout for water.  When it didn’t readily spring up – for about two million people and their flocks and herds, it would take a lot – the start of the seventeenth chapter of Exodus shows us that the people were ready (under some careful guidance from a few rabble-rousers, I’d expect) to turn on Moses who had been the one the LORD used to lead them out of Egypt. Apparently the people in their thirst had forgotten that it was the LORD and not Moses (he just acted at
Darkness,Hatred and despair what are these but a vast swamp of waste a self made sheet of black serving no purpose other than dropping ones soul bringing it to the depths of a bottomless pit what is it that brings on such a shade? It eclipses even the brightest lights It cant be the overwhelming loss of a love one that fairer than those of fairy tales no its not the lack of wealth that can break even the strongest into tears its not even a never-ending yearning of that which cannot be obtained this vile sludge that contaminates the soul seeps in from a source so great greater than the eyes can percieve its affect is intoxicating the blackness spirals around and around from the peaks of the mind, racing through the veins it breaks down anything in its path a cancerous vermin gnawing its way crawling down the web of an intricate system corrupting even the most innocent of a beautiful creation its enough to make the sane flip their lids it creates words out of heav
Seventh Void - Broken Sky
Sanguine addiction - a lyric from Type O Negative. A fact of life for a little boy that had the burden of leukemia as part of his life. He relied on the blood donations of others. He fought like the fiercest tiger, everyday, with smiles, laughter, a few roars (I always pretended to be scared). He was blessed. I saw the angels gathered around him. Eleven of them. I looked with my heart, it can see beyond IV poles and chemotherapy and see the miracle. So now there is a new band Seventh Void - I like it. They had a song called Broken Sky - and what wonderous things can be found when you go beyond what you can see. Harper knows. He is part of the movers and shapers now, though he moved and shaped the lives he touched while he was still bound by the sky. Take the silence at the end of the video and just enjoy it. It is amazing what you hear when you stop to listen to yourself. God bless and keep hope alive, in the face of aliens, angels, demons, and even me - Chi Chi, Amma Lullaby, Moni
In The Begining
Ok so I will only write here when I am totally shit faced andt i cant think of anthing better to do i will not edit and i will not spell check so some may be nt readable. Today in this blog ive had two shots of jack three long islands and about 3 pitchers of beer its my weekend so fuck off if you disaprove I like to drik OH YEAH the only reason Im writing is becse im waiting for some friends to get here so we can drink some more so your lucky ha ha I wont be here writing often maybe never again but i just wanted to take the time to tell all the readers of this blog That IM DRUNK AS SHIT so there you have it imdrunk and you should be so Cheers and salutaiones and all that ood stuff ima go drink more my friends are here PARTY!!!!
Crow Caw, Owl Hoot
This poem was written during an abortive attempt to write an entire poem using only words that started with the letter "c". That, unfortunately, drove me round the fuckin' bend, so I took the first two words - "Crow caw" - and built from there. On the upside, the exercise certainly got my writing muscle flexing: I wrote about 40 poems that day. This is just one. It is obviously environmental in theme.     Crow Caw, Owl Hoot   Crow caw, owl hootFox scramble, farmer shootThunder rumble, raindrops tumbleNature nurture,Man stumble.Ice melt, hail pelt,Tanner slice, butcher dice,Hunter capture, dinner table raptureNature stumble,Man mumble.Rubbish rustle, trash to stashDiggers dig, miners mineRape the soil for a glass more wineCorn grow, stocks lowSky grey,Far off thunder rumble.No man listens,While silver glistens:Dig, dig, dig,Bury head;Garden shed, garden gnome,Replace the place where pretty things grow.Dust billow, storm growShake your fistAt fortunes slowNo man may plant where n
Woman Dies After Using Jackhammer As A Dildo
It's a few weeks old but I was just sent this....WTFFFFF?!?!?!!?!
What The F***
I am so flippin' done!So i'm single now, w no intentions of lookin' 4 a man this time,he can find me.I have been through some much bull shit,i try and i try but it never enough..
I didn't get much sleep last night. I think I fell asleep sometime after midnight, woke up a few times during the night and finally woke up at 4am when my alarm went off. It seems like every night I get bad dreams. Bunch of random ones. I remember the other night I was having some arguement with my dad in one of my dreams and I was talking in my sleep, yelling a few words and i growled a few times...well that's what Rich said. He said he heard me from upstairs. Last night I had some stupid dream...not really a nightmare I guess...kind of odd. Something about I was in a family with people and it could of been some new Freddy Kurger movie...I hadn't watched any of those movies in a long time. Lots of deaths and blood in it, some sex too in it....ok weird. So I'm sitting here, drinking my coffee, eating breakfast and texting someone. I'm not ready to go back to work. I want to go back to sleep....I'm wondering if today will be the day we find out if there will be any lay offs? The fisc
Had a big meeting at work today this morning. They gave us the update on the company and the lay offs. 1,700 nike employees world wide are getting laid of or laid off already. 500 employees in the beaverton nike head where im at are getting laid off or losing their jobs.... I didn't get laid off...I'm safe :) *happy*
Jerk Off~
Paul bit the cornered portion of his toast after having first dipped it into the runny yoke of the egg. He preferred his eggs 'sunny-side-up' as opposed to anything else. He had smiled at the waitress as she freshened his coffee, grinning politely, managing the words "Thank you" as she did.Penny, his wife of barely a year sat beside him. She preferred pancakes smothered in rich thick syrup, perhaps overdoing it, but she'd explained that it reminded her of the way his cum sometimes slithered down the side of his shaft when he climaxed. Penny was always comparing things like that, finding eroticism in nearly everything. Just as she was doing now as her hand slowly, quietly, secretly continued stroking his hard erect shaft beneath the table.They hadn't wanted the honeymoon to end. And as such, went on a monthly retreat, usually within a few hours drive, just someplace to get away for the weekend, be together, and explore their secret little fetish.Paul as well as Penny were true 'Masturba
My Definition Of Beautiful
Some people don't know the concept of beauty, The qualities a person needs to have to be that, Some people can hear beauty but not see it, An extraordinary kind of person and heart.Mom always told me, "It's not what's outside;It's what's inside that counts." Remember?Some people use their outside beauty-As a disguise for what they have inside of them.As defined, beauty is- qualities of pleasure, That you can hear, think and even see, Delighting to the senses and to the mind,Of any human being impacted by them.Most of the time, I can see beauty in the eye, Eyes on a person can tell you a lot about them,If you really look and observe closely, you'll see, Exactly what I'm saying and what I mean.Lying, stealing and cheating isn't a sign of beauty, It's the exact opposite of beautiful, it's ugly, It's not appealing to the mind or my senses, Sometimes people can be beautiful outside.But, most times people are hideous looking, On the inside- I see it a lot these days, Very seldom do I come ac
Y Do I Write Nobody Views Anyway
here i am again nothing to have to think about school over finish done for this year nothing to think about but my own just my own troubles i have now others problems seems tiny as to compare to mine own my bff is getting better she has no more problems to be concerned about soon she be running off finding a place to be dancing my problems become top thing its just too much for me to think i want things the way it was i want my nanay here she was my only friend only one to accept me the way i am i miss that from her
Fuck You Kunt
Saturn is probably blamed for more problems than any other planet; this is one of the first things we hear about when learning astrology. If I had a dollar for every e-mail or comment I get having to do with Saturn problems, I would be the world’s richest astrologer. And, Saturn is traditionally known as the Great Malefic, indicating that our ancestors really disliked Saturn as well. The malign influence of Saturn has been blamed for everything from bad teeth to heartbreak, even old age and death. So is there some way to fix our Saturn problems, so that we can avoid these problems once and for all? It turns out that people have been thinking about exactly this problem for centuries, and more like millennia. Below is a list of suggestions I found in traditional texts for dealing with Saturn issues: 1. Saturn is good to his own kind. Therefore, if you have been dealing with Saturnian problems, the key is to become more Saturnian yourself. Embrace a life of isolated contemplation
A Small Token
My Heart And Soul
i lay in bed thinking of no one but you you are the love of my life even though i know i have messed up that chance of us ever being together. you are on my mind all the time every day and every nite. i smile when we talk  dont know what it is but i feel like my heart belongs to you and no one else will ever have a place in my heart like you do you have a very special place in my heart.   Nothing i do mean nothing will ever change that.  no one will ever change that.     i love you very much and always will. nothing or noone can ever change that
Nothing Important
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This Is What It Is To Live With Out Love In Your Heart
  The lonely feeling in your life and heart your soul is crying for love but you can’t even feel it in your heart it is crying for love the only thing you see is pain. and to see the love that you need is the one thing you can’t have in your life because of the past. The past is a big part of your darkness in your life and the one thing you lose is the one thing you can’t get back and the one thing you need is the love you lost and part of your heart died that night and than you put up a well telling your safe that you will not lent any one get that close to your heart and every love that came in your life fall part and you say to your safe is this what I want to feel like this all my life and to feel lonely and to feel like I will never feel love and to see all my friend’s in love you feel like I don’t be long in this world and you pray to dog to take this pain away and if you can’t than pleas kill me and I now you wont do that and I say I will do
*UNTITLED* I sit here with nothing but you on my mind, All i can tell myself is your one of a kind. You may blush, you may laugh, All i feel is your my better half. Every moment that passes without you by my side, Is overshowed by they kisses you try to hide. When im with you i feel complete, I can stare into your eyes and just lose myself, Without you now i feel alone, Without you here i feel lost, I cant stand being away for more than a few minutes, As i sit here wide awake and alone, You read my mind and call my phone, The sound of your voice so soothing, much needed, But the distance between us is unbareable, I dont know what else to say, But the look in your eyes tells a story more than words can describe, I miss you so much. I want you here right now *WHAT I LOVE ABOUT YOU* I love the way you look at me, Your eyes so soft and deep. I love the way you kiss me, Your lips so tender and smooth. I love the way you make me so happy, And the way you show
Healthy Living On The Go
  Times have changed. Our lifestyle today is a lot different from what it used to be 30 years ago. People worked the farms and the food was fresh and home cooked. Life was carefree and the only things that concerned people were everyday meals and community affairs. The most exercise people did was hard labor and walking from one point to another until they reach their destination. Needless to say, industrialization happened and along with it came a fast paced lifestyle. We now live in an age where career is at top priority and meals are “to go”. If you’re not driving a car, you find yourself chasing trains and buses to get to where you need to be. People go about life so fast they realize they’re losing their stamina and find themselves on the look out for ways to keep them going and succumb to various anti aging products available. How do you keep up with these changes? Stay healthy. The question how is met with a long list of health tips to choose from. But
My Heart
my heart melts when i hear your voice my heart melts when i talk to you on line my heart melts when i think of you now with not having you by my side i feel my heart slowly dieing my heart slowly dies as i know i cant have you back knowing my heart will eventually stop i force it  to keep going it will always have the love for you no matter what.  
She got eyes that cut you like a knife and lips that taste like sweet red wine And pretty legs go to heaven every time She got a gentle way that puts me at ease When she walks in the room I can hardly breathe Got a devastating smile knock a grown man to his knees She got whatever it is It blows me away She's everything I wanted to say to a woman but couldn't find the words to say She got whatever it is I don't know what to do Cause every time I try and tell her how I feel it comes out "I love you" You got whatever it is You know I've never been the type that would ever want to stay Bring 'em home at night and they're gone the next day But that all changed when she walked into my life And people askin why it is I tell them I don't know Just something about the woman makes my heart go haywire And she's gonna be my wife She got whatever it is It blows me away She's everything I wanted to say to a woman but couldn't find the words to say She got whatever it is It blows me away She's everyt
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Club Encounter - My First Lesbian Expereince
I was gyrating wildly to the music and missed the first approach. A hand, gently laying upon my naked shoulder …but the volume of the band, the floor full of dancers, and the proximity of so many other people caused me to miss the intent of the touch. But I didn’t mistake when I felt two soft hands my bare mid-riff. I turned…and in the flashing lights of the dance floor, I saw a smiling young woman with long brown hair, black skin-tight, leotard top, long black slacks, high heels and a wicked look of delight upon her face.Why hadn’t I noticed her before? Was she at the bar? Hmmm….I thought to myself as I stared into her dark eyes - What should I do now? I smiled, and in smiling, confirm what she had already taken for granted…my complete cooperation. She led me with her hands on my waist… I danced….following her hands. Her moves were feminine, yet unmistakably in control. I went where she wanted me to go. After the song, she leaned f
Part Two: The Collar
It took over a week for her to email me:Richard has filed papers. I have nowhere to go. Please help.I emailed back a meeting time and place, this time at a Barnes & Noble in my home city. I agreed to meet, but made no other promises. I arrived well in advance of her, taking a seat in the coffee shop window where I could scan the parking lot. I almost did not spot her. Despite the early-June Florida heat, she was wearing a long-sleeved heavy cotton blouse. I expected this, but was still mildly disappointed.I greeted her near the door. A flurry of emotion played across her face upon seeing me; hatred, desire, love, fear...all within seconds."Coffee?" I asked.She nodded, and we went to the counter to place our orders. When hers arrived at the counter she began to reach for it with her right hand. As she did so, the blouse, which was slightly too short for her, rode up her arm, exposing three or so inches above her wrist; three inches now alive and solid with beautiful color and design. Th
Lady China - Balor's Bottom Bitch
(This story is MY story. Well, a part of me. My dear Lady China, the wife of the Merc's Guildmaster, Balor. In some convoluted way she lost her place in the affections of Balor, when her mistress - Monica (me) met and married the Master of Balor. Poor Lady China. To be so alive, and yet pretend. She must be how a ghost feels when it tries to interact with the living world. So ineffectual, so powerless, so ephemeral. And yet so many jumped at her throat when she laid it bare in flung taunts and giddy laughter. So who is truly powerless? Perhaps not she...) Once upon a place without time there existed a creature who's purpose had been removed. She'd been downsized. The current economy had no need of her product. The supply was immense because the demand was nil. She was going bankrupt and the only creditor banging on her door was herself. "I have no alms for the blind..." - she told herself when she opened the door to see what all the banging was about. She fashioned a sign out
Nookie Days
Now that ur Nookie Days are over and your Pilot Light is out. What useed to be ur Sex Appeal is now ur Water Spout! Time was when, of its own accord, from ur Trousers it would Spring, but Now u've got a Full Time Job to find the Blasted Thing! It used to be Embarrassing the way it would Behave. Every Singld morning it would stand up & watch u Shave! As ur Old Age approches it sure gives u the Blues to c it hang its little head & watch u tie ur Shoes!
Here We Go
after a week off and talking to my former boss several times. they made me a deal tht is worth trying. going back to work on monday. but getting more money, and only running the west coast. if that holds up it will be ok. will be home on weekends and at least one night during the week. will run mostly between so-cal and seattle. a side trip to phoenix or salt lake would be ok. as long as they do this i will stay. we'll see...hugs..marty
My Interal Radiation Doctor!
  David Hornback, M.D., received his medical degree and completed his residency in radiation oncology at Indiana University School of Medicine, and served his internship through the Transitional Residency Program at St. Vincent Hospital& Healthcare Center Dr. Hornback specializes in stereotactic radiosurgery, high and low dose rate brachytherapy and prostate seed implants. He has extensive clinical research experience and maintains memberships in a number of professional affiliations, including the American Society for Therapeutic Radiology and Oncology, the American Society of Clinical Oncologists and the American Medical Association. This is just one of the doctors thats taken care of me throughout my sickness & I have to say that he is a very good looking man... I've told him time after time to come home with me but his face gets all red an what not but I know it's wrong in a way because he may lose his JOB in which case would suck ass..... Cause he has shown the up most respect
Taken By Surprise
  101 again today.   I was walking down the road to the store, past the fenced-in yard with the horses, when someone clamped one strong hand over my mouth, wrapped another arm around my waist, a woman’s voice hissing,”just told what the fuck I tell you, when I fuckin’ tell you, and I won’t hurt you.”   “Too much,” she added, dragging me along, moving her hand from my mouth to wrap that arm around my throat, forcing me into the brick house next to where the horses were, kicking the front door shut behind her.   I caught a glimpse of her, as we passed a mirror over the mantelpiece...I will always remember those cold blue eyes, the long, curly, unkempt red hair, the round face, contorted in hatred, the athletic figure.   I heard a baby crying, the woman shouting,”hush up!” as she dragged me down the hall, towards the master bedroom at the end of the hallway, the woman pausing to kick another door shut, before throwing me onto
Hello All
hello  just a quick note on this subject as you all know by now i work with the child rotection community for las vegas nevada i post missing persons amber alerts and child abuse cases if you know of anyone who needs help in this area please let me know so i can point themin the right direction to get the help they need if someone is missing and nees help posting pics and info as to where they may be ill post that as well any help i can give i will myspace/cpcnevada, and emails at either way help is there for the taking just ask well take caree and be safe   captn steve
Social Distortion- Footprints On My Celing
Everybody wants a loverNobody wants to uncoverwhat may lay deep beneath a sometimes painful pastwanna go without a carepull Gardenias from her hairI think of a time we didn't have a care in the worldcaptivated by her beauty I knew it was my life long dutyshe had all the grace and charm of a radiant queenHow do you talk without speaking? yeah!How do you hear without listening?How do you live without feeling? yeah!How do you take without giving?And keep it all inside?There are footprints on my ceilingI can't help this fucked up feelingsomething's wrong, you ain't coming 'round here no moretry to get my thoughts togetherI think of a time when things were betterthis miscommunication is breaking me downHow do you talk without speaking? yeah!How do you hear without listening?How do you live without feeling? yeah!How do you take without giving?How you treat your new best friend?Everybody wants a loverNobody wants to uncoverwhat may lay deep beneath a sometimes painful pastmy heart is heavy sl
I will be busy in these next two weeks due to college work and appointments I will be online just mainly hanging in the Naughty House as well doing college school work for Psychology and Career Skills I will not have time for to many chats due to how much of the class work I have to do an working in two classes is hard I did it once in Febuary for Career Skills and Stragies for Success which I passed those an hope to pass these two semesters so please forgive me if I do not reply. On June 10th I am having my heart checked so if you want update on it leave me a comment here and I will be sure to send you a messege when I find out.
I went and signed up for food stamps, yea me. Next week I have to sign up for unemployment. Sucks that you have to wait a full week after you lose your job to apply!!! Being out of work sucks. I am soooo bored! I just dont have nothing to do. While I am applying for my benefits, I am going to get signed up so maybe I can find a job. I don't want to use the system, there are enough people doing that. But unlike them I dersevre to use the system. I have been paying for others all my working life! But still I feel a little guilty for being in the place where I need the help.
I Don't Know?
If I've told you all about my check up with my interal radiation doctor however he felt no more signs of the tumor however he said do not quote him on it because there is still alot of swelling there do to the brachytherapy an a little raw, although I can go back to having (SEX) yay, damn it's been over a year and lemme say it only took me like 2 f'in seconds to Yeah well anyways just thought I'd let ya'll know whats been going on with me.... Much love always & forever your friend Jaime!
Is Nsa Wrong
if a man is really trying to get his shit and life right, is wrong that he looks for a NSA type relationship if he is upfront with you?
Reason Some People Shouldnt Have Kids
Mother charged with feeding child feces 09:59 PM CDT on Wednesday, June 3, 2009 Associated Press AUSTIN, Texas -- An Austin woman has been accused of repeatedly feeding her 3-year-old daughter human waste, potentially causing life-threatening infections.   Video Slideshows Blogs Emily Beth McDonald, 23, was charged with felony injury to a child. According to an arrest affidavit, a surveillance video at Dell Children’s Medical Center captured McDonald on Sunday placing feces in her daughter’s feeding tube. McDonald was released on a $100,000 personal bond Wednesday. The Austin American-Statesman reported she must wear an electronic monitoring device and comply with a police protective order that prevents her from seeing her three children. She faces up to life in prison if convicted. It was not immediately clear if McDonald had an attorney. The child had been hospitalized to be treated for “serious infections” caused by organisms consistent with those fo
Once In A Life Time..
once, in a life time,Some one special enter's your life.You don't know how it happens,or where it might go.You welcome them with open arms appreciating them for who they are.Don't care where they have been;You're just grateful for their friendship,and that they were sent to you...
22 Ways To Make A Girl Smile
1 . Tell her she is beautiful (not fine, or sexy)2 . Hold her hand at any moment . . . even if its just for a second.3 . Kiss her on the forehead.4 . Leave her voice messages to wake up to.5 . When she is upset, hold her tight and tell her how much she means to you.6 . Recognize the small things . . . they usually mean the most.7 . Pick her over all the other girls you hang out with.8 . Write her notes. (she loves them)9 . Introduce her to family and friends . . . as your girlfriend.10 . Play with her hair.11 . Pick her up, tickle her, and play-wrestle with her.12 . Sit in the park and just talk to her.13 . Tell her funny jokes, tell her stupid jokes, or just tell her jokes.14 . Let her fall asleep in your arms.15 . If she's mad at you, kiss her.16 . Give her piggyback rides.17 . Bring her flowers18 . Treat her the same around your friends as you do when your alone.19 . Look her in the eyes and smile.20 . Let her take as many pictures of you as she wants.21 . Kiss her in the rain.22 .
Previous Employment
In the event I’m not good enough, let me know. Take me out and let me down. Show me I’m as worthless in your eyes as I’ve always known I was. Don’t make it easy, make it accurate. Don’t let me guess, don’t let me wonder, just tell me I’m noting to you so ill know how little I am to the world. Judge what you want ill need the practice, because if I’m not good to you I’m not good for the next one I love. On and on, over and over, constant standing to be knocked down. Be alone for awhile. Learn to love you. Learn to let it go. All good advice for someone whose been happy before or who has never been let down by the love I’ve felt for you. Just move on and get over it. Just open yourself up to the next predator. Take me for who I am, take advantage of me for the same. Take me in a day and abuse me for a life. Take what you want even take what you don’t.  Just take me so I won’t have to. Every word of beauty meaning
Random Stuff #2
I love it when old friends/co-workers call me out of the blue to tell me they miss me and wish I still worked with them.  It's also nice to hear how my old charges are doing. I miss being a nurse aide.  I don't miss the dirty parts of the job, but that's only a tiny fraction of what you really do.  I miss the interaction.  I miss listening to stories of wise old men and women.  I miss learning about their experiences and incorporating their knowledge with my own.  I miss the smiles I could put on their faces by simply walking in and saying "Hiya, Sunshine, what can I do for ya?".  I miss helping them go through physical therapy after heart attacks and strokes, and watching them defeat the odds to get better again.  I miss all the little trinkets they'd give--little beaded bracelets, pins made of glued-together popsicle sticks and paint, beanies that they worked so hard knitting for me.  I keep everything and cherish it.  The sentimental value makes such simple little trinkets priceles
Turisas- Saahti Waari
Music I love  
War Y
Some people fight for other people to live, even if they don't know it so the next time u see a service member just go up and shake there hand. Because of them u are able to do so, and show them u care it's hard over hear ok.
All I Gotta Say Is: He's Speaking The Abosulte Truth
Here are the links since I can't put the videos on here cause it didn't work :( :  
"third World Penis Shortage"
So, a friend of mine, female, just called me up a little while ago to give me her report on recent sexual escapades. I don't ask her for this info; for some reason she thinks I want to know. On the upside, there's always something hilarious she tells me. Her latest guy "friend" is apparently huge in the penis department. They had sex for the first time last night and she relays to me this. After about a minute of penetration, he starts getting a little rough. She rather likes it rough, but also, like most women, does not consider liking it rough to mean "please bruise my cervix with your penis". So he goes in too deep, she winces, and this is what she told me she said to him in a state of high annoyance: "Fuck! It's not like there's a dick shortage in the third world so you have to feel bad about not using it all!"  
Things That I've Learned
  ’ve learned that you cannot make someone love you. All you can do is be someone who can be loved. The rest is up to them. I’ve learned that no matter how much I care, some people just don’t care back I’ve learned that it’s not what you have in your life, but who you have in your life that counts. I’ve learned that you shouldn’t compare yourself to the best others can do, but to the best you can do. I’ve learned that it’s not what happens to people that’s important. It’s what they do about it. I’ve learned that it’s taking me a long time to become the person I want to be. I’ve learned that it’s a lot easier to react than it is to think. I’ve learned that you should always leave loved ones with loving words. It may be the last time you see them. I’ve learned that you can keep going long after you think you can’t. I’ve learned that we are responsible for what we d
I'm Yours For The Taking
im urs for the taking i close my eyes and for a split second i felt you touching me all over breathing on my neck ever so softly... whispering into my ear what exactly ur plans are for me... sweet temptations forbidden indulgences im urs for the taking.. our mouths grow closer hearts beat together bumpbump..bumpbump...bumpbump pulses race fire ignites and i reach out for u i open my eyes you're not there
Random Thoughts
Now for some randomness. I love big breasts that are not full of additives. I love women with hips and ass as well. I dont even mind a little tummy on them. I love speed/thrash/death/grind music. Fuck all that radio/mtv shit. Its worthless and just geared to make money. I mean come on, Britney cant sing a fuckin note. Its all digital, and when she performs live, she fuckin lip synchs. I hate all religions. Seriously, every fucking one of them. If it works for you, thats cool, keep it away from me. I actually talk to people on my friends and family list, even if i doubt they will respond. Im a lot better at it if you pm or sb me first
Scent Of A Woman
Just before dawn breaksThe room greyYou lie awake tranquilWith hopes of more sleepDeep breath followed by a subtle sighOnly provided a stimulating scent to take hold of youWith her back to you, she lays, still within the grasp of nights sleepStarring for a moment; taking in the sight of her silhouetted curvesBlanket cascaded along her lower back - teasing you, tempting youThe faint fog of sleep has liftedAnother deep breath followed by a subtle sighLifting the blanket, moving inYour arm wraps and pulls her inRemoving the space between youHer skin rushes the blood within youYour head pillowed by her neck melts youThe hold of her scent swells youThe squirm of her hips pressing against you, signals youHer shoulder welcomes the touch of your lipsHer body loosens within your graspYour teeth provide a pinch of desireWarranting the faint moan of your nameHer breast cradled in your handAgain her ass presses against you…leading youQuickly movingSurprising herNow you straddle her backTowe
it doesnt matter how i say how i feel.inside my head its pretty confusing.i close my eyes and i can see your face,when im awake i cant stand being on my own.i can sit with friends,but i no longer hear what they say.i cant function without thinking of you,but everytime i do i miss you always make me feel alive,and an unconditional acceptance for who i am.yet my childish fears make me think you'd walk give up everything i have and know,because in my heart i know whats best.i trust myself to do something so life changing,because ive never listened to my heart before,and my life sucks with some of those decisions,yet it shines through my son
Hate Me-blue October
(If you're sleeping are you dreaming If your dreaming are you dreaming of me? I can't believe you actually picked me.) ("Hi Justin, this is your mother, and it's 2:33 on Monday afternoon. I was just calling to see how you ware doing. You sounded really uptight last night. It made me a little nervous, and a l... And... Well... It made me nervous, it sounded like you were nervous, too. I just wanted to make sure you were really OK, And wanted to see if you were checking in on your medication. You know I love you, and... Take care honey I know you're under a lot of pressure. See ya. Bye bye") I have to block out thoughts of you so I don't lose my head They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed Dropping little reels of tape to remind me that I'm alone Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home There's a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain An ounce of peace is all I want for you. Will you never call again? And will you never say that you l
For My Princess
> Dear World, >   >  I bequeth to you  today one little a crispy dress... > with two blue eyes...and a happy laugh that ripples all day > long... and a flash of light blonde hair that bounces in the > sunlight when she runs.  I will trust you will treat her well...>   >  Shes slipping out of the backyard of my heart this morning...and > skipping off down the street to her first day of school....and > never again will she be completely mine....prim and proud she will > wave her young and newly independant hand to say "good bye"....and > walk with little lady steps to the schoolhouse.>  Now she will learn to stand in line ....and wait by the alphabet > for her name to be called.  She will learn to tune her ears to the > sound of school bells ...and deadlines... and shell learn to > giggle ... and gossip... and look at the ceiling in a > disinterested way when the little boy across the room sticks out > his tongue at her....and shell learn to be jealous. And shell > learn how it
**nsfw Story*** Beyound Phone Sex
I have always loved sex. Phone sex is my most popular form of entertainment. I think it's because of the secretiveness. I like being able to imagine my partner as I hear him and pretend to feel him without ever really knowing who he is. I have a few phone partners. All of them have a vivid imagination and I enjoy the sensual time we spend together. It's my form of masturbation without feeling alone. I usually find someone I like talking to online and in a few weeks we make a decision to take our fantasies to the phone or not. I have only a couple of rules. You must be willing to participate, I'm not going to reach through the phone and stroke it for you. You also must have a feather handy and have an open mind. No bullshit or I'm done. And, we won't be talking again. Without an open mind, neither of us will get off. The feather is because I have long hair and find it sensual to drape it along a man's chest as I make my way down to his groin. There was one guy I had talked with online t
Up For Auction
go here to bid go here to bid on me
So it's been nine whole long years. I miss Rene today. I miss her every day at least a little, but today, it's really bad. I have a history of not telling anyone, not a soul, and I'm starting to think that's a really bad move. I don't need sympathy or anything like that. I just think I need to have it on the outside, because keeping it all on the inside is just stupid. I miss her. She used to sing to me. I miss that. I miss so many things and this is the kind of day where I feel soul-crushingly alone, even though I'm really not... there's a lot of people who care. Even though I don't always see it. It's hard to see when you feel so alone. Nine years... doesn't feel like it today. And I feel guilty because... I hope it does tomorrow. Your normal insane Dagorath will resume service shortly.
Still Here....kinda
well, I am still here...kinda. I am so busy these days with the kids home from school and getting the house and things in order around here getting ready for my surgery on June 18th.  I jump on fubar to check on friends and family about once a day. I usually don't speak cause I got the kids hollering at me or the dog is ready to go outside or the clothes need to be folded or it's time to cook.....well, you get the picture.    Plz say special prayers for my girl VIVI as she goes in for some surgery on the 18th also. I won't go into details but you can go by and see her and leave her some love and support.  I know she would appreciate it!!   Like I said I go on the 18th for surgery will be reconstructive surgery to fix 'the girls' after the lumpectomy I had last year.  I will loose about a cup size (dang it!!) but I will be even again and I will feel better about my appearance (I hope).  I will update some pics later on after some healing.  In the mean time, leave lots
The Night That Was
I waited the night spent it in your eyes with my fears on my lips a prayer in my heart in doubt of my fate i spent my night in your eyes.   tired of the wait i reached for your name in the sounds of your laughter in the soft morning dew i sought you again in the morning light   clueless to my wanderings my days go past me i collect the dust of my travel waiting for a word from you my mornings my nights waves in my life they break me, i make them i spend my life in your wait in your eyes   close them once so I may hide so i may be yours secure just for a moment for all other times i will spend my night in your eyes in waiting for you just you    
Just Because
Think back to your most important relationship, was it all your fault it's over? some Your last kiss probably meant nothing to you, right? nope....something more Is there anyone you would seriously punch right now if you had the chance? hmmmmm sum wat Do you think blondes are stupid, honestly? nah not 4real Who are the past 4 people to send you a text? iono i hav no fone Do you love where you live? yes my confort zone What were you doing 12 AM last night? bed dreaming Last person you were on the phone with for more than 20 minutes? iono i dnt remember....havent been on the fone Can you get over people easily? nope not at this moment Have you ever regretted letting someone go? yerp Would you go out in public looking like you do now? of course why not Where did you get the shirt you are wearing? mall Does your ex miss you? iono??? If the last person you kissed tried to kiss you again, would you kiss back? yup Did you sleep alone last night? always do Do you believe that th
Hi, Im Sara. I'm divorce and i have 3 kids ( 2 boys * 1 girl ) Their my treasure. I love and like alot of things. And i do have in mine ,that if i just got my High School Diploma now i will try to get my degree to became a Teacher.I know that it will take me 4 years to make that ,but thats something i have dream and im doing for my kids and also for my own self. I also want to get a small caree and that its Medical Codin ,seen i know that will not take me long to take it so ,i will start with that so that i can start working on a better job. Know a little about me, i love to cook and keep my home clean.I love sports and music and dance and alot of more things . Their is something i don't like and that is drink alchole and drugs .  will God Bless Evryone Here. Sara Rubi
Grow The Fu-uck Up
ok heres the thing: women,i dont care if you can put your legs behind your head(curious),but not impressed guys,you need to stop telling the girls what you could do to them if you could,you wouldnt need e-sex,hahaha some people get online just to hang with friends and have fun they dont need the constant bombardment of sleaze do you treat your mother like that,i didnt think so i know that everyone is trying to level up,but people try leveling up your dignity and selfrespect guys,ask a girl how her day was,let her know shes special,let her know that shes unique,but not alone in this world. ladies,stop offering to show your goodies for "fu-cash" or e-bling(WTF?) COME ON PEOPLE GROW THE FU-UCK UP!!!!!!!!!! this place could be alot more fun if we didnt have to worry about whos gonna e-molest us next PEACE AND MMFWCL
Monday June15th,2009
Started my day with great news my lil brother coming home and I am excited.  Not sure if this is what the blogs are supposed to be.  I am enjoying fubar and my friends rock and so does my cousin.  So excited to see my little brother and having a great monday.
Is The Bible A Christian Novel?
Doesn't the bible teach forgiveness?Didnt Jesus say turn the other cheek?An Eye for an Eye?Isn't that the message in every church?If so, Why are there so many fake christians out there?Why is everything based on the "Christian" way?How do we know how Jesus acted?What if there is no such thing as Heaven or Hell?Could one one person really save us all from sin?wasn't one supposed to be judged by their soul? or by their conscious?No one's perfect RIGHT?Whatever happened to being judged by your actions?Could your own brother stab you in the back?Could you answer honestly?What if there was no "GOD" to judge you?Does anyone know The Nine Noble Virtues?With these thoughts in my headMakes me see how fake "Christianity" issupport the higher powersWe might not be the only ones out there!
The Peephole(work In Progress
  The PeepHole   I am going to die soon. I want to come clean I need to tell someone what I did. Even if no one finds this I need to at lease make some kind of try. My name is not important because I learn my life was never was. The ghosts of my past, of my wife and daughter hunts me. I abandoned them the both of them and I never looked back. This is that story the story of the two people who didn’t need to die.We were at home eating our supper in front of the TV like we have for a week now ever since the news came public with the outbreak. It started in the ghettos of the city no one really cared that bums and hookers came up missing or dead, who would? All and all I didn’t believe the outbreak story anyways I just thought it was some kind of rich vs. poor kind of thing a class riot and being mid class I had no place in this and I didn’t care. How foolish I was that’s me the guy who waits to late. I seen my first murder when I was at the office me and my bes
I'll Get Over You. It's taking the longest timebut my broken heart will healfor what I once had felt so deeplyis now, no longer real. You played me like a foolbelieving all you saidwhen deep down all that you didwas hurt me more instead. I'd like to really knowif seeing me cry that wayhad any effect on youon any given day? I told you how much I loved youwith each and every dayyet all I meant to youwas someone with, to play.
Live Like You Were Dying-tim Mcgraw
He said, "I was in my early fortiesWith a lot of life before meWhen a moment came that stopped me on a dime ""I spent most of the next days, looking at the x-raysTalking 'bout the options and talking' bout sweet times "I asked him when it sank inThat this might really be the real end"How's it hit 'cha when you get that kind of news?Man, what'd ya do? "He said"I went skydivingI went rocky mountain climbingI went two point seven seconds on a bull named Fu Man ChuAnd I loved deeperAnd I spoke sweeterAnd I gave forgiveness I'd been denyin ' "And he said, "Someday I hope you get the chanceTo live like you were dyin ' "He said, "I was finally the husbandThat most the time I wasn'tAnd I became a friend, a friend would like to have ""And all of a sudden goin 'fishin'Wasn't such an impositionAnd I went three times that year I lost my dadWell I, I finally read the good bookAnd I took a good long hard lookAt what I'd do if I could do it all againAnd then ""I went skydivingI went rocky mountain cl
A Love Without Goodbyes
A lifetime filled with cheating hearts,all echo from my past. The "promise ture's" and "I love you'd, each one was meant to last. So fine was the line of sharing build with honesty and trust. Each vow now left inside my head, to slowly gather dust. I struggle to tomorrow, searching hope yet walking blind. While broken dreams and silent screams play re-runs in my mind. I try to shake each past mistake, and meet what lies ahead. While hearing cold reminders of these promises once said. It's hard to feel whats wrong from real, when shadows dim the light. I close my eyes and dream a dream of heaven every night. It's all i know, this history, i hold a guiding hand? These scars they show, a lesson that i yet dont understand. Another day awaits me, in this life i call my own. A cruel delay frustrates me, as i face this world alone. Let words said and tears long shed, rest peaceful in this heart. I know the pain of love in vain, will always play its part. With open arms i welcome such new drea
There was a timeWhen skies looked blueWhen rhythm and rhymeReminded me of youSunny every dayDespite the weatherLove the only wayI'd stay on a tetherThat's unfair of meI'm not on a leashLove can beThe best of treatsFor the heart and mindFor the body and soulFor two people to bindAnd shatter the moldI've seen sunny daysCome and goI've cherished the waysThey've made my life wholeAnd rainy daysAre what really defineThe brightness of raysWhen the sun does shineFor lightness is onlyDefined by the darkNeither one separateNever do they partWhen you thought I was the lightAnd you were the shadowMistake what was rightMade the words so hollowBecause the other way aroundIs what was rightI was the darkAnd you...were my light.
Please Come And Join My Brother And My Sisters Wedding
Letter Of Reality
Nothing ever becomes real till it is experienced—Even a proverb is no proverb to you till your Life has illustrated it.   -John Keats
Surley Government Sadists
EvanescenceGood Enough Music Video Codes By Music Back in the day, when humiliation was something I put up with so that my children could eat - you used to have to take paper vouchers to the post office so that the window clerk could give you back monopoly like money - for food. Food Stamps, Food Currency. Anything but a discrete card that comes to you in the mail and is recharged monthly. No, I used to have to catch the bus from my trailer with my two adorable children, who had a mother that happened to be very good at being friendly to people in a business setting - and yet had the misfortune to not be totally necessary to a company who was in the middle of a recessionary crisis. So off to the post office we went. Bundled up snug in the winter, on to the bus, down to the local post office where the most incredibly rude old man did his very best to make sure that I knew what a pain in the ass it was for him to take my voucher and give me the means to buy so
I couldn't help but think of my adventures lately I've had with being a part of the firefighter team and such and having my wonderful husband by my side to give me this strength:   "In times of terror, In times of fear, Remember you got two strong legs You should get up and use them walk forward. Should you find your unable to do this hold out your hand Someone will always and surely extend their warm hands to you."   As long as you smiled and held my hand,I felt like I could go anywhere and do anything.   -Ayumi
Sex Application (also Stollen From Bewbs Lol)
Love For A Season
Once you open the receptors to receive what the Universe has to offer, the eyes to your soul will be opened wide with amazement. There is a love at first sight that only comes once in a life time... in the blink of an eye. Guided by the beacon of the lighthouse directing their course, two souls join together as ships passing in the night momentarily joined together, moored to adjoining piers.This is a love not often experienced by most, regrettably. Whether it be for a lifetime, a season or a moment, it's a love to cherish for it's gift brings harmony and peace sought by many, yet found by so very few.Your eyes meet, and you are gazing into the vast beauty and richness of eternity. You feel the tenderness of the touch, hear the softness of the voice, and embrace the compassion of the spirit.Your souls have crossed paths in the Universe at some point prior to this moment, which brings a comfort in knowing this journey will be enhanced and enlightened by their presence again, in it's spa
Out Of There
Sometimes I don't really know wtf is this reality makin out of me. Fuck life fuck you & everything that scatter livin unlifely matters. People bother everyday is always the same shit happenin. N i don't feel less more then special. Cuz I'm not n i don't think i am. This life's lesson of a reason of a cuz i'm brain dead n have no mind. Feel blind with guilt left all inside. I'm crazy insane with rage fillin no one gets or understands me speakin how i feel. What am i left to do n it's all a big fuck you to all these businesses kissin up co taxin companies n shit's not funny. Why the way things are I hate it i hate this i hate living not knowin bout my father or does this stupid shit happen all the time & i'm to fucked up out of my own mind. I don't feel i wanna kill less not seemin to what i'm tryin to givin not to give in from where everything is comin. To be spoked can't breath n i just choke suffercate with all the hate that mates worlds undisirable places to strange unknown strange f
The Big Party!
I will be out enjoying the big party!  Back on 7/6.  Those of you in Skee- town - I might see ya there.  But if I don't have a blast! Night 1- Burn Halo -- Pop Evil -- Saving Abel................................ I got an Autographed CD, and drum stick!  
Livin Nekkid Prevents Global Warming?
“Living more hours naked each day results in a dramatic drop in my laundry, which in turn reduces my water and energy use (along with my related bills),” Ms. Blanchard wrote. “It also reduces the amount of soap I release, in my case, into the Puget Sound.” Hmmmnnn Would 'saving the earth' be a legit defense in court against indecent exposure?

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