Fubar Blog Posts 3

"play Dead"
A moth into a butterfly And a lie Into the sweetest truth I'm so afraid of life I try To call your name but I'm Silenced by the fear of dying in your heart once again I see the seasons changing And in the heart of this autumn I fall With the leaves from the trees I play dead To hide my heart Until the world gone dark fades away I cry Like God cries the rain And I'm just one step away from the end of today I see the reasons changing And in the warmth of the past I crawl Scorched by the shame I play dead To hide my heart Until the world gone dark fades away I stay dead Until you veil my scars and say goodbye to fate Before it's too late

One Night Of Passion
She walked into the room and just looked at him. He looked back, taking in her full beauty. He couldn't stop himself from walking over to her, grabbing her around the waist, and kissing her. They kissed gently at first, but then they fully engulfed each other with their arms and the kiss grew more passionate and deep. They loved the taste and feel of each other's tongues pressing against theirs. She felt herself walking backwards and leading them until her back was up against the kitchen counter. He lifted her up so she was sitting on the counter, and they never broke their kiss. They stopped and pulled away, each staring into the other's eyes. She looked down and began to unbutton his shirt. He tore it off and reached to remove hers. He lifted it over her head and started kissing her again, passionately. He pulled her off of the counter and they made their way to the bedroom, stopping against a few walls along the way to kiss each other more. They tumbled onto the bed, and he stoppe

Dream Only Of Me
"Dream of me", she said as she hung up the phone"Dream only of me my love, and me alone"And later that night, when his body hit the bed,Visions of her beauty danced through his headHis first dream of her was in Paris, along the Champs ElyessesDancing with the night, playing hide-and-seek with the dayThe beauty of her face reflected in his eyesNever before had he felt so happy, never before had he felt so aliveHis next dream of her was paradise, it looked like BelizeThere they drank Pina Coladas and lived a life of easeThe beauty of her body reflected in the sunIt was then that he knew in his heart that she was the only oneHis last dream of her was the best of the threeIt was a vision of the one thing that he hoped someday would beThe warmth of her body next to him, reflected in candlelightHe longed for it to be like this, each and every nightHe rose from his dream in the middle of the nightStretching out his arms and rubbing the sleep from his sightAnd as he moved slowly from his bedHe

I Want More
I see myself holding you close to me,Squeezing your body tight.But for all I see as I daydream-I know I'll get tenfold tonight.Running my palms across your breast,As you tremble and bite your lip.Feeling your hands upon my chest,The softness of each fingertip.Tasting your neck so sweet, so soft,And slowly lowering my kiss.Over pert nipples, across your navel,And finally into pure bliss.Looking upon your face from below-As you tilt back your head.Feeling your fountains begin to flow-As you ease back on the bed.Your "innocent little devil" look-Crying insatiably with the sensation.Lip to lip lapping up every drip-From the well of your creation.The way you pull me up by the hair-To the heat of your mouth, on fire.No other thoughts, no other cares,Just the quenching of mad desire.Riding the tide of passion,Pushing my love into you.On the waves of your emotion-In slow motion, so sweet and true.Pulse pounding in resounding rapture,Taken to the hilt, then just past.Rhythm growing, faces glowi

Do I Love You True?
You turned to me and asked, did I really love you true, would I love you always or one day make you blue? I must confess your questions caught me by surprise, so I held your hands, then gazed into your eyes. My love for you is stronger than mighty Samson's arms and so deep I could not bear to ever see you harmed. The sight of you elates me on those days I wake up sad and when I feel your touch, it's the best l ever had. I will love you longer than the seas caress their shores and beyond the day when the sun can rise no more. Past the day eternity will have to take it's final breath, my soul will always love you, even after death. You are the single flower in this garden called my heart, I planted you there in love and never will you part. So if you ever start to wonder if I really love you true, remember my love's forever as long as you are you.

Are You True?
I hate all these questions that keep running through my head. Someday I'll probly find out that the light was always dead. What is it you said to me that day when i was down? You said I was the best girl ever; Now I only feel like a clown. Do you really think I'm that dumb not to learn the truth? I guess it's true what they say you can't find love. If only you could tell me the answers I want to hear. I don't want this to be a wasted year. You said you loved me and you always would. I thought it was true but then what I learned wasn't good. You could never guess all the emotions you've put me through. But how am I supposed to know if you've really stayed true?

Smile For Me
come on now smile for meyou miss the one expressionyou forgot what it was to be happy the world hurt you many times beforebut we're not all the sameyou know you want to feel it again im not the samei wont leave scars of pain in your heartopen up to me and you'll see we'll both be fine forget those sad memoriesill erase them from youyoull be blank lets write a new storythis one will have a happy endingnot everything has to be dramatic sad ill put color in your cheeksill make you smile againill make you forget painful feelings i promise youll be whole againand you can give me the only thing i can ask formaybe too much to ask but boy, i dont want anything besides that let me have you by my side till the endi will never ask for anything elsesince the one and only thing that makes my life valuableis you and only you

I Just Want Answers
WTF??? I will never understand humans. We all say we love each other and miss each other and its always bull shit! Y even bother? If words in this world mean nothing then y even speak? I know my questions will never be able to be answered but I have to voice them some how to anyone who will listen! I just dont get it! Y does everyone always leave? They either run away from u, die, move or just stop all communication without any reason! WTF is so damn wrong with me that no one stays? Can anyone please tell me?

First In Line For Death
Every day while we go about our normal routine a lot of us are in a hurry to get things done. Bobbing and weaving in traffic just to get one car ahead honking at anyone who dares to not drive 15-20 miles an hour over the speed limit for fucks sake I am late get out of my way. We do this to get to the store or to our job or to drop our kids off at school or wherever it is we need to be which we left 15 minutes late for and has now become everyone else's problem. When we get to the store we have to find the closest parking space to get inside to walk down the isle taking every short cut we know to get what we need then go try and find the shortest line racing to get to it before the old lady with the 50 cans of cat food who we just know is going to write a check, pay with pennies or gasp engage the clerk in polite conversation taking up more of our precious day keeping us from getting just one car ahead. When we get to work we once again try to find the closest parking space because god

I'm Really Not Lying.
When my status says in a relationship... It means I am in one. *gasp!* are you serious? by george I am! I have a boyfriend, he is amazing. and I love him to death. He is a sweetheart and treats me like a princess. so please. No more asking to "hang" or to "hit you up" or if I have a webcam, and so on and so on. ...the constant nagging will only get you blocked. please. respect the redhead. I'd hate to block you. and this is not directed to one person...more so a plethera of testroteron overloaded men...ranging from 18 to 60 Thank you.

In My Mind
Why is it when I dream of you its always your touch that stands out the most? Its not the overly sexual one, but it's the most affectionate sensation ive ever felt. It has meaning and reassurance. It is safety and warmth. I could dream of rain covering me but its your hand in mine that I feel the most. Why is it when I think of you its your smile that I see? It guides the rest of the thoughts I have. I can think sad thoughts and I see those expressive lips showing me it will be ok. I can think of happy thoughts and see that smile and I know I have a friend. I can think of something to surprise you and your lips form a circle that your hand quickly covers. Why is it when I breathe I can see your face in the trails of my exhale? Sad, happy, loved, I can see every change in every muscle in your expressions. I see the warmth of the curves in your hair with your head pressed to my chest. And yet with every inhale, every nightmare, and every moment I lack an idea, it is always the worst.

Metalic Taste
Nothing more unique then the taste of metal. How a rosary feels so smooth, with all of its curves against your tongue. Chewing of a pen can be so jagged. The taste of the barrel of a gun can be so sweet. Tears rolling down sad eyes, running down old rough skin, down young smooth steel, to the hammer that I pull back. Warm breaths from my nose makes long mists of steam against the cold of the gun. Emotions from memories guide my muscles and tense around the trigger. "I love you" and doubt enters in "I won't hurt you" hate subsides "I shared with him everything" and adrenaline starts, my finger shaking squeezing the trigger. Gas fills the chamber and climbs to my mouth and death enters reprieve from the gun that jammed. Where was my luck when I met her, sarcasm in misery? Drop the clip, pull the chamber, eject the bullet and try again. Shaking worse than before. I hate the taste of that gas so let's try the temple. Cock back the hammer close my eyes and think of her. Her and her ha

Your Not Alone
Your friends and family may fail you but the love and patience of our God will always be there to guide you through what ever you may be facing in your life. All you have to do is have faith and dont worry about tmr live in his glory today and tmr will always be better. You are never ever alone.

Love
Love is good above all others. Which alone maketh every burden light. Love is watchful, and whilst while sleeping still keeps watch; though fatigued is not weary; though pressed is not forced. Love is sincere, gental, strong, patient, faithful, prudent, long-suffering, manly. Love is circumspect, humble, upright; not weary, not fickle, nor intent on vain things; sober, chaste, steadfast, quiet, and guarded in all the senses. Thomas A. Kempis

Truth
I am going to write. Words are going to appear on the screen as I write. These words that will appear are not my words, they are not the lords’ words, they are not satins’ words, and they are not a persons words. These words are the words that flow through my fingertips as they hit the keys on the keyboard to make them appear on the screen. Will it make sense? Will it flow? Will it be a story or novel? Will it be real or fiction? Will it be…true? No one knows, but the interpretation is within each of those who read this.Soft, Slow, Calm, thump thump…thump thump, soft, smooth, calm, silent, alive, and aware. Breathing in and out…living…being. I am human. I am with soul. I am with thought. I…exist…exist in the present. I exist in the recent past. I know not of the future. I am not of science. I am not of fiction. I am not of other dimensions. I am of the dirt and dust of the ground. The most high, the savior, the messiah, the one true

Random Thoughts
I saw the perfect graphic tonight I mean seriouslywhat DO you do when the only one who can make you stop crying is theone who made you cry? You try everything you can to make everyone thinkyou're not broken when everyone sees that you are.You keep going asthough nothing ever happened wearing that fake grin saying how muchbetter off you are without them when deep inside you...you wonder howthey are and if they think of you. When did "I'll love you forever"become "I'll love you if?" when did "I'm in love with you" becomesomething that you can just turn off? These days the word LOVE is justtossed around like it has no real meaning it's just something peoplesay to get what they need at that particular moment.I'm not sure thatmost people understand the impact that one little phrase can have on aperson's life it's like a saving grace...a finality on a long life ofpain.. a new hope of something and someone to believe in, but whathappens to that person when the one they thought would love them

A Man Named Owl
He was twenty six in ninety three living under that hot Louisiana sun Ripped apart from the inside and left broken by whom he thought was the one Chained and bound inside of his own mind a prison with walls of grief and dispair Alone no windows no light from outside just darkness in the middle of this cell he sat alone in a metal folding chair Fear has gripped his mind and totures his soul fear brings pain deep to the bone Its not a fear of death or physical pain that chokes his spirit but this crippling thought of staying numb in this phantom zone Freedom from this bondage is what he longs for liberty is the single though upon his mind praying to his god gives him no relief fully vexed he turns to the spirit of the earth the mother of all of creation took him into her self and showed him a true rebirth She opened the sky and gave him a guide a beautiful owl pure as mountain snow came out of the sky and flew into him to show him the true way Still in his mind he is chained in

Meet My Sister Bella Cullen
But please, do call me Bella. In 2005 I came back to Forks for the sake of my mother and her new husband, Phil. It all seemed so boring, rainy, green and cold. But there was more to Forks then meets the eye. Meeting Edward Cullen and his family change my life forever. Him and his family were beyond different then anyone in Forks ever thought of. And in only a short period of time, my life was filled with things found in what seemed like fairy tales. But all fairy tales has it's bad guys. Thus being the first time Edward and his family had to risk their lives to save mine. My "fall down the stairs" story convinced just everyone in Forks all the way to my Mother. Leaving me with a broken leg, a scar from dear old James, and still having to face prom. That night at prom Billy bribed Jacob to tell me to break up with Edward and I thought of it as a silly idea to do so, but Jacob did also get a dance out of it. That night Edward left me to believe he would turn me, but instead I had no

Come Meet My Better Half Emmett My Monkey Man
Emmett McCarty Cullen...Is my name, and my life is a hell of a lot more complicated then you would believe. I was born and raised in Tennessee, 1915 where I spent all my child hood and adult hood. I had my mother, my father, and my little sister. Though, I won't talk about them, since I don't even remember them at all. Being a teeneger was the most fun of all. You know what guys to when they get their heads into you know what? Well, yeah I did all that. Get drunk, partying, waking up beside girls I didn't know. Yeah, I was a good party boy. Let's see now. Oh yeah, 1935, I was 20 years old, hiking and hunting in the montains of Tennessee. When suddenly a big bear showed up and started attacking me. Maulding me, yeah I was mauled by a bear. The lights were going away, and I knew I was dead. I was only tweenty years old and I was going to die, riped apart by a bear!Then that's when I saw her. My angel. My angel had come to help me, to bring me to havean. I was flying, the air was wooshi

Untitled Song 5-6-2009
As I drag your body to it's final resting place I think about your slowly ripping open your heartAnd getting me a tasteof that Virgin blood that I all so adore licking and sucking I keep wanting more But I cant do that I need to stop Because before the end of night you'll be buried 6 ft below I look down upon your faceDirty and bloody, what a fuking worthless disgraceI grab you up by your hair pulled you closer and whispered in your fukin ear....( Chorus ) Im gonna take your life bitchYou gonna die bitch Choke and suffocate till you cant take another breath BitchIm gonna take your life bitch You gonna die bitch Choke and suffocate till you cant take another breath Bitch

Wondering Around
wondering around as i walk the streets trying to find what im looking gfor i hear your voice in my head that is lovely voice teling me that ill find what im looking for and that you still have your love for me. then something brings me back around and i relize that it is just a voice in my head and wishful thinking. then my phone rings and it is you on the other end wiht that soothing lovely voice of you. i just long for the the day to hear those three speical words " I LOVE YOU" to come over the phone from your end again. i just hope one day to hear those words from you again. but when we get off the phone they never come out from you. and i start to think that i will never get the one think that meakes me the happiest in the world and that one thing is you

Hollywood Undead- City
Let's watch it burn... Let's watch it burn... Let's watch this city burn the world. Chorus: Let's watch this city burn, from the sky lines on top of the world, Till there's nothing left in her, Let's watch this city burn the world. My body doused in ash, with two empty cans of gas, The only evidence they have is a police sketch of my mask. And it's hard at times to ask if you can save my heart for last, And it's hard to face the facts when the darkness fades to black. It's not just make believe when they make me take a seat, And they put amphetamines in the air and make me breathe. So come on and grab your children, look out for burning buildings, And villains who pillage, they're killin' by the millions. And billions of people die for a lost cause, So now I pray to my nation destroyed under God. It's the end of the world... All my battles have been won but the war has just begun. (Chorus) The city looks so pretty do you wanna burn it with me? Till the skies bleed ashes and this

Paramore- Misery Business
I'm in the business of misery Let's take it from the top She's got a body like an hourglass That's ticking like a clock It's a matter of time Before we all run out When I thought he was mine She caught him by the mouth I waited eight long months She finally set him free I told him I can't lie He was the only one for me Two weeks and we caught on fire She's got it out for me But I wear the biggest smile Whoa, I never meant to brag But I got him where I want him now Whoa, it was never my intention to brag To steal it all away from you now But God, does it feel so good 'Cause I got him where I want him now And if you could then you know you would 'Cause God, it just feels so It just feels so good Second chances they don't ever matter People never change Once a whore, you're nothing more I'm sorry, that'll never change And about forgiveness We're both supposed to have exchanged I'm sorry honey but I'm passing up Now look this way Well there's a million other girls Who do it just li

Dieing Soul
as my soul dies so does my heart why should i keep going with this hole in my heart. they say once the soul starts dieing tthat there is no truning back. my soul was saved once by the love of a woman. but she is done now and there is nothing i can do to stop my soul from dieing. i dont know what to think anymore. the voices in my head are not making sence except the one telling me that im just a fuck up and to let my soul go cause there is nothing i can do to change the things that i have fucked up. and will never have the love i had from the one woman that loved with everything i had. so tried of a bleeding heart. my soul is just dieing from trying to fix the bleeding heart. and there is nothing i can do about it cause i have lost the love of my life forever. i gues ill just have to deal with having a dead soul and wait for the body to die. i just feel like i would be better off if i just faded away that way i can hurt or cause the one woman i love with al my heart and what is left of

The Way I Feel .....
I can't run anymore, I fall before you, Here I am, I have nothing left, Though I've tried to forget, You're all that I am, Take me home, I'm through fighting it, Broken, Lifeless, I give up, You're my only strength, Without you, I can't go on, Anymore, Ever again. My only hope, (All the times I've tried) My only peace, (To walk away from you) My only joy, My only strength, (I fall into your abounding grace) My only power, My only life, (And love is where I am) My only love. I can't run anymore, I give myself to you, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, In all my bitterness, I ignored, All that's real and true, All I need is you, When night falls on me, I'll not close my eyes, I'm too alive, And you're too strong, I can't lie anymore, I fall down before you, I'm sorry, I'm sorry. My only hope, (All the times I've tried) My only peace, (To walk away from you) My only joy, My only strength, (I fall into your abounding grace) My only power, My only life, (And love is where I am) My only love. Constantl

Breathe No More!!!!
BREATHE NO MORE I've been looking in the mirror for so long. That I've come to believe my soul's on the other side. All the little pieces falling, shatter. Shards of me, Too sharp to put back together. Too small to matter, But big enough to cut me into so many little pieces. If I try to touch her, And I bleed, I bleed, And I breathe, I breathe no more. Take a breath and I try to draw from my spirits well. Yet again you refuse to drink like a stubborn child. Lie to me, Convince me that I've been sick forever. And all of this, Will make sense when I get better. But I know the difference, Between myself and my reflection. I just can't help but to wonder, Which of us do you love. So I bleed, I bleed, And I breathe, I breathe no... Bleed, I bleed, And I breathe, I breathe, I breathe- I breathe no more.

Demonic Hymn
Alone From childhood's hour I have not beenAs others were; I have not seenAs others saw; I could not bringMy passions from a common spring.From the same source I have not takenMy sorrow; I could not awakenMy heart to joy at the same tone;And all I loved, I loved alone.Then- in my childhood, in the dawnOf a most stormy life- was drawnFrom every depth of good and illThe mystery which binds me still:From the torrent, or the fountain,From the red cliff of the mountain,From the sun that round me rolledIn its autumn tint of gold,From the lightning in the skyAs it passed me flying by,From the thunder and the storm,And the cloud that took the form(When the rest of Heaven was blue)Of a demon in my view. Edgar Allan Poe

May Peace Find You Tonight
May Peace Find you Tonight - song by Reckless Kelly May peace find you tonightlike a breeze through your window,sit by your light.Let it warm by your fire,and laugh with delight.Like a heavenly choirmay peace find you tonightYou've got your God -- Sister, I've got mineAnd I know he's out there somewhere; he bails me out sometimesAnd I've always believed, but sometimes I question the truthall the proof that I need is the love that I found in youMay peace find you tonightlike a breeze through your window,sit by your light.Let it warm by your fire,and laugh with delight.Like a heavenly choirmay peace find you tonightMay your soul reunite with the one that you lost long agoMay a troublesome heart be a feeling you'll never knowMay your spirit be free as a wind on the wings of a doveMay your heart know the way loud and clear, like a voice from aboveMay peace find you tonightlike a breeze through your window,sit by your light.Let it warm by your fire,and laugh with delight.Like a heavenly ch

"com'n Get It From Me"
"Com'n shake it shake it 4 me, com' n work it 4 me shawty but dont break it 4 me, wiggle wiggle want u com' n get naked 4 me, say u like da dilly want u com' n take it from me, go'on twark it 4 me while i let da dick slide, com'n pop it 4 me mama show me know how 2 ride, now stop runnin from me, go'on hold dat phatty up n' let me beat it up until u say u had enough,let me show u how 2 work dat work dat, go 2 da floor but dont hurt dat hurt dat, take it from me if ya can show me how ya do dat, lick it so hard i got ya screamin fuck dat fuck dat, hit it so hard got soakin wet yea i bet, shawty let me inspect them thighs cuz i gotta new mutha fucken exercise"!

"fantasize"
"Is there something I can say 2 bring a smile 2 your face, Is there somewhere we can go 2 be all alone a special hiding place where theres room 2 roam, Where everything you enjoy is abundant & free, If I figure it out would u come with me". "We could run around enlightened by the openness of space, We could lay in silence as the sun washes our face, We could talk by the river as the water cools our feet, In this place it would be romantic simple n' sweet". "We could eat all the foods without a care in the world, We could light a fire and inside the blanket stay curled cheek 2 cheek, We could erase all that ails and weighs heavily on our minds, I'll find a place 4 us and in time everything will be just fine". "To escape the worlds pressured worries for seconds, minutes, or days, To revive all thats dead inside and attempt to find new ways, To see the beauty life has 2 offer from everything around, It is u that i seek, You r so beautiful when u smile it makes me weak

Bored
I'm a 23 yr old mother of a almost 2 year old. I also have a fiance name David which we are coming up on our 3 yr anniversary, and many more to come. I have changed so much, and my daughter and david have helped me. I live in Portland, and hope one day to move away again closer to family. I plan on finishing up my schooling persuing the life that i have always dreamed about. Owning a home, having a stable paying job, and our lil pug dog. An possibly my last wish is too give alisha a little brother. :). But for right now im content with just one as the terrible 2's come along. So what else? Oh i have moved into a bigger place, have a nice car an 05', and just loving life as tho im misserable where i live but oh well i can change that n a year. My daughter talks but isnt saying much sentances yet but she does when she doesnt relized it. Eatting for her is very annoying i try to feed her anything heathy and it just gets spit out. So i dunno what to do candy is the many reason that she doe

Play Time~
They are to meet each other for the first time and she's nervous. She wonders if she will be able to please him as he wishes. She dreams about how to serve him, how to please him.They are face to face for the first time...she stands before him dressed in a short skirt, thigh highs, heels and a skimpy shirt that partially reveals the creamy fullness of her breast. He commands her to remove her clothes slowly as he watches and examines his new sub. She reaches around and unzips her skirt feeling the heat in her body start to rise as she thinks of what this is going to lead up to. Her body starting to tremble as the zipper moves it's way down and she slides it off and steps out of it.She places her hands on the bottom of the shirt and raises it up over her breast, he watches as he sees them starting to come into view...her nipples already getting hard from the combination of the air against her breast and the passions and desires that are welling up inside her. He reaches out and t

Happier Than God
Sometimes I think its a shame when i get feeling better when i am feeling no pain those words from an old song helped me to realize my sober mind is my treasure its my prize wanted to drown what i thought was sorrows and drink full throttle but decided not to pay a visit to that devil in the bottle Relieved I am strong enough not to get drunk you may think that is odd for me my friends it helps my mind to function better to make me happier than god.

Powerful Words...
1.) Don't cry because it's over. Smile because it happened. 2.) Be the change you want to see in the world. 3.) One day, your life will flash in front of your eyes. Make it worth watching. 4.) The most eloquent silence; that of two mouths meeting in a kiss. 5.) Be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind. 6.) Don't worry - Why worry about things you cannot change? In the time it takes to worry about things you cannot change you may miss the things in life that change you. 7.) Don't be yourself - be someone a little nicer. 8.) A fellow who does things that count, doesn't usually stop to count them. 9.) We have two ears and one mouth so that we may listen twice as much as we speak. 10.) Never think of the future - it comes soon enough. 11.) Weakness of attitude becomes weakness of character. 12.) We can't solve problems by using the same kind of thinking we used when we created them. 13.) Not every

Spinning Around In Circles
We live our lives from day to day Forget the past; it has nothing left to say We never learn from our mistakes We just keep pushing, ‘till our sanity brakes We’re running ourselves into the ground Destroying our world… soon there will be nothing left around A lost world with nothing left to give A desolate place where we once lived Just spinning around in circles We bury ourselves up to our necks Even as our lives turn to complete wrecks We shut out everything that bothers us We make new friends we can never trust We’re running ourselves into the ground

Plain White T's- Natural Disaster
She said she saw me on TV This girl's a legend in the late night scene And you can see she aimed to please Cause she just wouldn't take her eyes off me She made the music come to life She moved her body like a butcher knife Chopping up every guy in sight She was mysterious I could not resist to save my life I don't know what this girl was after She's a natural, natural disaster She's so sexy I had to have her She's a natural, natural disaster Natural disaster Now when she left me on the floor She knew I'd follow her right out that door She'd always leave you craving more Just the addiction I've been waiting for She made the music come to life Staring me down with those electric eyes And when she said 'Your place or mine?' I was delirious, I could not resist to save my life I don't know what this girl was after She's a natural, natural disaster She's so sexy I had to have her She's a natural, natural disaster Natural disaster All my love What's your name? What's your game? Show me

Mindless Self Indulgence- Straight To Video
All aboard Hit the road All the bullshit Can't be ignored It's hard to place In my face No emotion All the problems Make me wanna go Like a bad girl Straight to video Little darling Welcome to the show You're a failure Played in stereo Hiedi ho Here we go No solution Strong undertow Quite unfair Quite a pair No box office All the problems Make me wanna go Like a bad girl Straight to video Little darling Welcome to the show You're a failure Played in stereo I never noticed No, never noticed You're so amazing So amazing I never noticed No, never noticed You're so amazing So amazing All aboard Hit the road All aboard Here we go All the problems Make me wanna go Like a bad girl Straight to video Little darling Welcome to the show You're a failure Played in stereo I never noticed No, never noticed You're so amazing So amazing I never said it No, never said You're suffocating Suffocating I never noticed No, never noticed You're beauty's fading Fading

The Irs & Your Money
I just helped a friend of mine prepare for an IRS audit and it wasn't fun. It looks like she isn't going to get more of her money stolen from her and that's the good thing. The bad thing is that she had to show her personal information to people she donesn't even know. George Harrison was right when he sang the song Taxman. Who said crime doesn't pay? It pays when you are the government. Hey, let's have some fun and tune in www.live365.com/stations/blastcasterfm.

I Will Be There For You
I love the way you laugh,I love the way you smile,You have a way of warming up a roomWith your laughter, wit, and styleI love to hear your voice,I love to hear you sing,Your heart can turn a simple songInto such a magic thingI love the way you give a hug,I love the way you kiss,The passion in your lipsFills my heart with joy and blissI love to have you in my arms,I love to hold you tight,I love to listen to you breatheIf I could hold you through the nightI love you every moment,I've loved you from the start,Its you I gave my heart.We traveled through a mazeTo the finish line we gaze,Will you be there for me?I will be there for you.

Content
Life is finaly peacing together as it should be.I consider myself a well lived learned and lucky individual...I've two beautyful ladies in my life .who'm love me uncondisionaly in spite of being,well me at times, they boh have a smile that can brighten any moodwe've a stable safe and loving enviroment good friends and family.Everything else is amazingly coming together rather smoothly.It may have taken thirty some odd years, alot of fuck upsand heart aches but I think I'm starting to get life. I used to think being in the spinning spotlight always on the go with what or ho'm ever was in equaled adventure aka ''Living'' ''Life without adventure isn't living'' when right before me adorns with all the simplest joys a grander venture then I've ever chased... Respect and Aproval from fad scenester drama soaked spirals along with poison filled cocktails of miguided lust..loves drugged up misadventures and alcohol induced idiocies has aged me well. I glance at my reflection and am amaze

Surrounded
Morning comes to early and nighttime falls too late And sometimes all I want to do is wait The shadow I've been hiding in has fled from me today I know it's easier to walk away than look it in the eye But I will raise a shelter to the sky And here beneath this star tonight I'll lie She will slowly yeild the light as I awaken from the longest night Dreams are shaking Set sirens waking up tired eyes WIth the light the memories all rush into his head By a candle stands a mirror Of his heart and soul she dances She was dancing through the night above his head And walking to the window he throws the shutters out against the wall And from an ivory tower hears her call "Let light surround you" It's been a long, long time He's had a while to think it over In the end he only sees the change Light to dark Dark to light Light to dark Dark to light Heaven must be more than this When angels waken with a kiss Sacred hearts won't take the pain But mine will never be the same He stands before the wind

Bob & The Blonde
BOB & THE BLONDE Bob, a handsome dude, walked into a sports bar around 9:58 pm.. He sat down next to a blonde at the bar and stared up at the TV. The 10 pm news was coming on. The news crew was covering the story of a man on the ledge of a large building preparing to jump. The blonde looked at Bob and said, "Do you think he'll jump?" Bob said, "You know, I bet he'll jump." The blonde replied, "Well, I bet he won't."

Sunbathing
A man was sunbathing naked at the beach. For the sake of civility, and to keep it from getting sunburned, he had a hat over his private parts. A woman walks past and says, snickering, "If you were a gentleman you'd lift your hat." He raised an eyebrow and replied, "If you weren't so ugly it would lift itself."

Basic Definition: Bdsm Community
BASIC DEFINITION: BDSM COMMUNITYBDSM—bondage, discipline/dominance, sado/submissive, masochismBondage —the art of restricting the movement of someone through physical, mental or emotional methodsDiscipline —a tenant of BDSM, discipline ranges from the discipline of the Dominant to ensure the safety of the submissive, and self-control, to the discipline of a submissive in obeying the Dominant. Discipline remains one of the pillars of BDSMDominance/submission —the power play that physically & mentally occurs in a BDSM relationshipSado-Masochism (S/M)—Sado Masochism is the giving and receiving of pain for erotic pleasure. A Sadist is one who gets pleasure out of giving the pain, and a masochist is one who derives erotic pleasure out of receiving the pain. The pain may be physical or mental, and may vary from very light (a bite, a pinch, a name-calling) to very heavy (caning, intense bondage, etc)Lifestyle, the Community—the term often used by people to

Random Thought
Before my head started spinning. I knowI had a begining. I see sanity melting down the walls of the brain inside my head. Yes I am sick thats what the doctors have said. What happen to the pretty colors in the light prisim that once danced in my dream. Oh wait I think the Gnomes tossed them into a ocean or stream.. You may think I have just lost my mind. Hell I told you fucks it was only a matter of time. What the hell did you think I was superwoman or something. Penguins are stealing my chicken soup as we speak. them assholes they like to sneek. Sometimes the voices tell me Its ok to repeat the things they say to me, but a dumb dead bitch is what I would be. counting 1.2.3.4 everything must be even or my brain has a problem computing. A fear of odd numbers is where that comes from Ok I'm not really like this I am just bored out of my mind thanks for reading though

Math Teacher Part Two~
Brent blinked a couple times and finally came to his senses. He could not believe what he just saw. "You have to let me fuck her! You just HAVE to!". Jason looked at him and said "No way! She can suck you off, but *I* am fucking her." The went over to her, and Jason made her aware of their presence, but assured her it was ok. Brent sat himself on the edge of the desk, facing the black board. Jason sat in her chair so she could ride him as she sucked his friends cock. Both men were so excited that in no time at all they were ready to cum, and before they could, Mrs. C asked if they would do something for her...She assumed her previous position, lying on her desk, both boys standing over her. She had a cock in each hand, jerking fast. Each young man was pinching a nipple...She kept telling them to cum on her...cum on her big udders...cover her with young cum...well, that did it for the boys, and at almost the same time, they began to spray her with cum...they got cum from her belly to he

How To Be A Good Listener And An Ideal Friend…
How to be a good listener and an ideal friend… Most Common causes of friendship break ups are; miscommunications or lack of communication, conceitedness, skeptical, and innate selfish attitude of self centeredness. It is always late to realize the importance of a person who comes to your life when he / she vanished from you. After all the damages have done… and left everything drooped… and the fact that nothing is done overtime… If you care for relationship… be AUTHENTIC… and save yourself from heartache and regrets… (Hope this message helps you evaluate yourself before you evaluate others) To really communicate, you must give up three things:1. You must give up your assumptions.

How Does The Heart Explain (for My Husband)
How does the heart explain My heart is trying to explain to my head and put into words the way it feels, but the thoughts, ideas and words are all messed up and trying to escape all at the same time. How does the heart explain to the somewhat logical thinking of the head: The happiness you have brought The unlimited love it feels for you, ((cause it continues to grow)) How complete you make me The feeling of belonging, How no matter where we are, I am home, safe, protected, and secure in every aspect of my life I feel by your side,, The peace that comes over me, with just a look into your eyes,, I see myself fearless and healed, With a smile the desire, want, and need for you I have never in my life had,, The faith and hope your love has given me,, How can you expect the heart to tell the somewhat logical brain, something as amazing and as awesome as the love I have for you my husband, Because it truly has no limits, no boarders, no end, and can not

What Makes You Specaial(from My Husband)
What makes You Special You know what makes u special??? I don’t I can try but I won’t ever find all reasons There is nothing in this world can make me so sad to cry and make me so damn happy But u There is nothing in this world drive me mad and calm me down same fast But u There is nothing in this world can kill me and bring me back alive But u There is no one can love me more Or me to love more But u See my love,, with all above and much more You are the one and no one is more special But u -------------------------FM

There Is One Thing Worth It (from My Husband)
There is one thing worth it Nothing in this world worth it nothing deserve Tomorrow everything will be gone How pretty you are when you are smiling even if you are sad inside It’s not the first time this life stand against us My dearest you will always be the dearest Dearest more than myself to me Your love is a light to my heart and fire I will always love you no matter what Leave everything as it is going Don’t awake this devil Please tell me who is perfect?? And who has never done wrong?? Everything became so damn hard and tough All we need is more love and more sweetness What a waste to waste our lives like that What a waste….. My dearest, you will always be the dearest Nothing worth it, nothing deserve tomorrow all of this will be gone ---------------------- W.B: MR M****A 30/4/2009

Happy Birthday!! From Mr. M****a
What I present to you while m poor man Peoples give each others precious things to prove their love What would it be for a poor man who doesn’t have much money? To present what he wants for his love Me,,, if I could I would give you all treasures on earth If I had the power would crown you a queen And the whole world would be under your feet If I ever could I would give you the spring of life To be eternal, mortal But what can I do While I am just human being Weak and helpless I can only present my heart at your birthday And hopefully you would keep it warm Because you are the reason why it keep beating ------------------------------ HAPPY BIRTHDAY MRS M****A --------------------------- W,B: MR M****A

Drowning Pool- Sinner
Bend me shape me misdirect me It's all the same to me Look at all this useless talk [x3] Upon the cross [Chorus:] You look at me but you don't see Understand I'm a sinner Don't corner me Don't lecture me Raise your hands you're a sinner Is this everything you wanted find another dream You never hear a word I say [x3] So pray [Chorus] I'm a sinner Look at all these people in front of me [x4] How?! [Chorus] You look at me (you look at me) Don't corner me You look at me Raise your hands you're a sinner! Understand I'm a sinner..

Untitled
Even that which is beautiful, Can sometimes bring pain, So to love from the heart, Is to invite the rain. But to reach for the rose, You must fear not the thorn, So to love from the soul, Is to embrace the storm.

To Nick
i have loved you for the past 5 years. i have fought for you and i have won you a few times. i know 2 years ago me walking away was the hardest thing for both of us our lifes changed then. im sorry for doing what i thought was the right thing. but if i could go back to that night i would do it it differnet and i would have stayed. you mean the world to me and im proud to be your wife. i know we have had our fights and we stoped talking for awhile and in those times i realized how much you meant to me and that i was never gonna get over you. i love you then and i love you more than ever now that we are back together as husband and wife. i know that we were meant to be together. no matter what happens in the future i will be here always for you and i will never stop loving you

Talking About Bad Luck 2!
Well progressive came out yesterday to look an see how much damage there was, (HA) the DAMN (S.O.B.) only gave us a check for $600 an something like thats gonna pay to get anything fixed... I mean come on the prices of shit nowadays isn't cheap and well I'm not cashing that check till I find someone to come look to see how much it's really going to take to get all this shit fixed, cause I'm sure it'll be more than what he gave me... Just not our day nor is it anything else for that matter although I do feel better than what I did a few days ago, after my sugery I can at least walk like a human again...lol... was having a hard ass time as if I were a baby all over again, anyhow I've vented enough for now and hope that ya'll have fun and take care most of all try and have a wonderdful SATURDAY!

Christianity? No Thanks, Im Full.
I can say that I am a spiritual person, but I don't believe in organized religion. Why is that people think that just because my mother happens to be a preacher, that I must be a Christian? Especially, when it comes to living in the South and being black, I seem to be an anomaly. Am I supposed to be Christian by association?

Lies
Now your showing your true color's.They become you.The time has come & now I'm numb.You're holding her & not meIs this how we were suppose to be?I try to block it out.I'm so dumb for beleiving you.Guess the joke's on me but I'm not laughing.

Good Night
Good night my love, I think of theeAs I dream my soul will fleeThrough the clouds oh so freeYour handsome face I hope to see.Over land so far apartBut always close here in my heartAs I dream in slumber’s cartMy spirit has a trip to start.To take my love like golden strandAnd wrap your heart with gentle handMusic plays like Heaven’s bandAs our spirits frolic above the land.Lonely can seem so far awayThinking of you every dayBut at night let our spirits playAs so in love we both will stay !

My Friends
We all need someone To talk to in our life, A friend to whom we run In times of stress or strife A friend who's always there Throughout the years, A friend we know will care And take away our fears. A friend who's always near, Waiting for our call, To wipe away our tears, And lift us when we fall. A loving friend indeed, On whom we can depend To fulfill our every need - Thank you, precious friend

Song I Wrote 4/22/09
Sometimes at night when I lay my head down i wipe my tears on my pillow, and sometimes at night before i sleep I pray for you, and sometimes at night i cry myself to sleep, and sometimetimes i find myself alone in my dreams. And sometimes i find myself upon mu knees and sometimes at night when i cry i finf my tears rolling off my cheeks, and sometimes i wonder why i must be here alone and I wonder why it is your there alone when you said you loved me and you call somewhere else home. Sometimes at night I cry myself to sleep, sometimes at night I wonder why it is you choose to be with out me when it is when it how much I love you so. Sometimes at nightI cry and I pull your pillow close to me and it's those night remembering the wonderful times when i look up to the sky and those nights i cry and I wonder why, yes it's its those nights I remember and i look up to the sky, oh oh yes it's those night I remember and I look up to the sky and I cry. Sometimes at night I cry waiting for you

Can Kitty Get A Cherry Bomb Plzzzz?????
Kitty would love a cherry bomb bling. A11's won't really do me any good since i am not vip anymore. Offering: rate all your pic's 10's for a month add to top friends & family (if not there already) leave a comment on your page 2-3 days out of the week drinks daily weekly gifts a sfw salute plz help a kitty out. Mwahzzzzzzz

Online Horndogs
what the hell,does everyone really get online to cyber?shit ,thats not what im here for.i have waaaaaay to much self respect for that.it gets on my nerves,it disgust me,and if being a guy saying this makes me sound gay.....go fuck yourself!!!

Eyes
So many types of eyes around So many colors like blue and brown Some are crooked, some slant Some are as small as an ant. Even though give a loving wink Every single one still must blink. The eyes can tell so very much Tales of success,love and the such. When I look into your eyes I see a story of beauty and surprise

Too Late
I was ready to make my move but I lost my groove Someone else stole her heart now mine is torn apart It's my fault, my trouble My job to clean up the rubble. Maybe I'll get another chance This can't be my last dance

*hurt*
OKAY PPL REALLY iT'S NOT NiCE TO MESS WiT SOMEONE'S HEAD OR THEiR FEELiN'S SO DON'T DO iT, iT'S REALLY NOT THAT HARD, iF YOU WOULDN'T WANT SOMEONE TO DO iT TO YOU, WHY iN THE HELL WOULD YOU DO iT TO SOMEONE ELSE......................FEELiN'S AREN'T SOMETHiN' TO MESS WiT, THAT'S WORSE THAN ANYTHiN' ELSE, AND ALL iT DOES iS BRiNGS...........HURT..............SADNESS........AND MORE DiSTRUST FOR OTHER PPL WHEN YOU TURN OUT TO BE JUST LiKE EVERYONE ELSE........THANKS A LOT BTW.......YA GOT ME.......i THOUGHT YOU WERE FOR REAL COME TO FiND OUT i AM AN iDiOT ONCE AGAiN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!AHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!

Pissed Off
i think some people should stay out of mine and my husbands marriage and move on she needs to grow the fuck up and let go. im tired of all the kiddy games and the drama. my husband is very happy with his life he dont need you trying to put him in jail just bc your jealous it not my fault you look like a pig and cant be faithfull to one guy thats why you dont know who your baby daddy is. my husband should have left your ass a long time ago. i just wish this shit would stop

"mommy, Can I Go Out And Kill Tonight?"
1, 2, 3, 4 singled out the kids who are mean to me get straight a's but they still make fun i don't give a, i'll laugh last stayed in every night do my homework so i'll be smart girls all say i'm a little fucked mommy i'm a good boy mommy i'm a fuckin' savior mommy i'm alive mommy, can i go out and kill tonight rip the veins from human necks until they're wet with life razor-blades love teenage flesh an epidermoty i'll bring back a souvenir for it's my mommy's dream can i go out and kill tonight, kill tonight killed a girl on lovers' lane i kept her toes and teeth every night i stalk around until i find my keep i'll bring back a souvenir for it's my mommy's dream can i go out and kill tonight, kill tonight killed a girl on lovers lane i kept her toes and teeth every night i stalk around until i find my keep, mommy i'll bring back a souvenir for it's my mommy's dream can i go out and kill tonight, kill tonight kill tonight, kill tonight, kill tonight, kill tonight kill tonight, kill ton

"happiness Is Helping Others
What about me? What about Raven? People say I'm cold. They say I'm calculating. But they don't tell you about the philanthropy. They don't tell you about the humanity.' ' I take a guy like Kidman, a runaway, and I give him shelter. I take a guy like Riggs, who's lost the use of one eye, and make him feel like he can function in society again. I take a 7 foot plus freak like Reese and I make him stop feeling like an outcast.' "I should be lauded for these things, but instead, I'm scorned with derision. I should be named a humanitarian, but I'm not. So what about me? What about Raven? You be the judge

Meet The Big Girls Next Door
Meet The Big Girls Next Door FOXXXY NYLA ACID-CANDY FOXXXY LANA SEXXXY SIN-DEEMIIZ TORRI ICESEXY MIZZ E SULTRY SYTHE EROTIC EMBER KANDI KANE MIZ IVORI MIZ ONYXXXDUBBLE D MZ WETT WETT THE BIG GIRLS NEXT DOOR MYSPACE

To Urfavmistake♥ You Opened My Eyes
you're my world The shelter from the rain You're the pills That take away my pain You’re the light That helps me find my way home You’re the words When I have nothing to say And in this world Where nothing else seems so lost You're the hand I want to hold As I grow old You're the shore When I am lost in my self You're the only thing That I like about myself How long has it been Since this storyline has ben told And I hope it never ends And goes like this forever you were always ben there for me and always cared i don't know how but you did you showed me something more that no one could ever show You showed me your love and that you would never leave I fell in love when you first frist time we talY Like magic in a fairytale are love was unbreakable Nothing could take it away Somehow i just felt pure and myself when I'm around you I get goose bumps when i see your smile Laughing is all i do when I'm with you cause you make me feel so happy i cant really express the feeling i

My Life In 90 Questions
1. What was the highlight of your week?Hopefully getting mine & Brat's bikes fixed!2. Whose car were you in last? Mine3. When is the next time you will kiss someone?When I See My Brat Again!4. What color shirt are you wearing?I'm not wearing a shirt at the moment5. How long is your hair?Shaved very short6. Are you good looking?*Pleads the 5th*7. Last movie you watched?Can't remember8. Who were you with?My Brat!9. Last thing you ate?Sushi10. Last thing you drank?Don't remember11. When was the last time you had your heart broken?Don't remember12. Who came over last?Don't remember13. Are you happy right now?To a degree14. What did you say last?Something to my g/f about a movie15. Where is your phone?Next to me16. What color are your eyes?Stone Blue/Grey17. Are you left-handed?Nope18. Spell your name without vowels:ln r smth19. Do you have any pets?1 Rottie & 1 Russian Blue20. Favorite Vacation? Tombstone Arizona21. What do you dislike currently?Michigan's Economy and lack of jobs!22. What

More For My Own Benefit
capricorn saturn The Archangel Cassiel - The Planet Saturn - Kabbalistic Correspondances Kabbalistic Correspondences: Angelic Order: Aralim. Chief of Angels: Zabkiel. Archangel: Cassiel - Tzaphkiel The Angel of Spiritual Strife against Evil. Biblical Names of God: Elohim Personal Dedication: Not identified. Sefirothic Form: Mature Woman on a Throne. Sefira/Sephira: Sephira 3 Binah. Sephira Meaning: Understanding. Pronunciation: Bina Sub Creature Woman. Element: Earth. Planet: Shabbathai (Staurn.) Colour Black. Number: 3. Illusion: Materialism. Obligation: Virtue: Silence. Vice: Inertia. Spiritual Experience: Vision of Sorrow. Tarot: The for threes and Queens. Animals: Woman, Bee. Plants: Ctpress, Opium Poppy and Ivy. Gem: Star Saffire and Pearl. Perfume: Myrrh and Civit.

Capricorn : Disease Is Frequently Rooted In Inhibitions.
dark, poisonous and bitter herbs were ruled by Saturn Capricorn : Skin complaints and diseases affecting the parts of the Sign.Capricorn : Processes of preservation and reserve of energy.Capricorn : The knees, joints of the body and the hair. diseases of decline, collapse, wasting, blockages and contraction by Saturn; poisonings by Saturn Regarding the origins of the Black Death in Europe: 'When the learned physicians of the Medical Faculty in Paris looked for astrological confirmation... they found it: 'on 20 March 1345, at 1pm, there occurred a conjunction of Saturn, Jupiter and Mars in the house of Aquarius...notoriously caused death and disaster...pestilence in the air...and calculated to draw up evil vapours from earth and water...' '[in Griggs, 1981, p.30] 'Fracastorius [1483-1553] denied that Syphilis was introduced by Columbus...but was vague about its origins. It is carried by 'disease seeds' [semina morbum], is transmitted by contact [contages] or contagion, but is du

Myspace.com/phonexayc - Rooks!
I have a role in Rooks!!Category: Movies, TV, CelebritiesHey Guys! Just wanted to let ya all know that ur boy got a feature role in Rooks, the movie. This movie is gonna be the shit! My boy DY Sao is gonna be amazing! He's a WuShu champion and incredibly talented actor from Irvine California. Some of ya may not know who he is but when u see this movie, u'll know wat all the buzz is about!! Check out him & his kick ass martial arts videos on you-tube and his Myspace page on my top friends list along with Rooks... the movie!Now a lil more bout Rooks..... Director & Producer D. Miles has confirm me that I have a role in this movie and is working on speaking parts. I'll appear in sveral scenes!!....Rooks is a story of Khem Wu (Dy Sao) a martial artist sent to Japan to live with his grandfather. Responsible for killing a man during a boxing match, Khem wants nothing more then to leave his violent past behind him. But the past comes to haunt him. Caught up in the underground world of

"last Caress"
I got something to say I killed your baby today And it doesn't matter much to me As long as it's dead Well I got something to say I raped your mother today And it doesn't matter much to me As long as she spread Sweet lovely death I am waiting for your breath Come sweet death, one last caress Go Sweet lovely death I am waiting for your breath Come sweet death, one last caress Well, I got something to say I killed your baby today And it doesn't matter much to me As long as it's dead Sweet lovely death I am waiting for your breath Come sweet death One last caress One last caress, sweet death One last caress, sweet death Oh oh oh oh oh Oh oh oh oh oh oh oh Oh oh Oh oh oh oh oh Oh

Fetish
The scratches you left have almost healed.That means it's been too long,Since I’ve felt your nails against my flesh. What is it that hides behind those gorgeous eyes?Is it thoughts of men and women in leather, stretched across their thighs? You can tell me, with a whisper and a smilethat you can make my trip worth while. Although I can't deny I like it when you pryDeep in my dirty mindand perhaps in lost thoughts otherwise left behind. You’re a goddess in my mind, my lover lost in time. A short skirt and strap up boots Long legs wrapped around my waist.Up comes the skirt, perhaps I’ll take me a little tasteScratching and clawing at my back only makes me want more.Welcome back my scratches, isn't it great to be adored

One Way Relationship
So many miles seperate usWhy must we be so far apart.Staring at your pictureWishing you were here with me. I've come to realize your untouchableOne of god's gifts, but not to me.I know that i'll probably never see you face to faceNever feel your touch or your embrace. So untouchableLike a collectable put high on a shelf.Just slighty out of reachI offer you my hand.I know it'll be a long waitHell hasn't frozen over yet.At least i can still look and dream.

A Moment Frozen In Time . . .
A MOMENT FROZEN IN TIME the days go on but i cant for get that moment that moment frozen in time all i can picture is you your eyes all i can live is that moment that moment frozen in time you mean nothing to me but when i sleep i see your eyes they tell that story a moment frozen in time

Eh Im Sorry . . .
I'm sorry that I opened up to you, And told you that I [really] liked you.I'm sorry that I was [raised with respect, ] And that I don't sleep with every guy that comes around. I'm sorry that my body's not [perfect] enough, To 'satisfy' your wants. I'm sorry that I'm not 'hot'enough, To be [your girl].I'm sorry that I'm actually nice, And [not a bitch]. I'm sorry I like to spend quality nights at home [Cuddling with you, instead of goin out]. I'm sorry that I am always the one you need to talk to, But never [good enough] to date I'm sorry that I am there to [comfort] you, When you and your new girl got in a fight.I'm sorry If I start not being there, and being used as a [door mat], Only to be thrown to the side when a [hotter] girl catches your eye.I'm sorry If I don't answer my phone anymore when you call, To listen to you [wine] about how badly girls treat you. I'm sorry that you can't realize, I've been [the one all along]. I'm sorry If you read this, and [don't even care].But most o

Have You Ever . . .
felt so used so let down sooo pissed off just so confused and angery at someone? but still you keep trying? why do i even care it seems to me every time i do try i just get hurt so why do i try? im sick of everything im sick of the drama the lies the bs all of it! if you dont F***ING like me then dont make it out like you do

What Ive Done . . .
theres noone left to save me from what i've done there's nothing you can say or do that will fix it you cant change me or my past with all the heartachs and mistakes but i want to thank you for being there when i needed you the most for holding me through the rain and wiping away my tears when things were a little messy and telling me it was going to be ok even when its not

Losing You . . .
I'm losing you And its hurting like hell I'm trying so hard Though it may not seem like it I'm so scared I've never felt this way before It's been a while Since I have f*cked things up Just like I always do

Reaching Out To You . . .
i find myself reaching out to you but like always your never there i wish just for once in my life you could be my mother i wish that we could get along dont you realize that ive spent half of my life just trying to impress you and the other trying to prove im worthy enough to be called your daughter all you ever really do is bring me down

My Weakness . . . Goodbye
my weakness isnt the fact i cant trust people or that im afraid of getting hurt im not really that shy and i have no problem with opening up no my real weakness is saying goodbye! and for some reason it always happens like clock work normaly after i warm up to someone after i trust them and let them in to the real me!

Parished
Out on the snowy field lies deathDeath to all things that once inhabited the field. As winter approachedThe creatures and animals of the field made hasteTo prepare themselves for the upcoming winterBut the field, it just sat.Sat there in silence like it did last yearand the year before and so on.Winter creeping up like a thief in the nightThe weather changing from cool to cold in a moments notice.Once again, the field seem unpreparedIt knew winter was coming but did not care.Empty and desolite much like myself we sat together and watchedAs the winter months drew on.Layers upon layers of snow blanketing the ground.Hiding the beautiful surface of the field from the world.Everything beneath the snow has parished. Dead, but covered in such beauty.The field remains silent beneath the deep snow.Walking through the field, dragging my feet in the snowExposing the once beautiful green field.A whispering sigh mutters from my lips As I fall backwards into the snow.Awaiting new to fall and cover

Pseudoephedrine
I should be deador so the DR saidThis medicine is killingwhat's in my head.Is fate making It's own decisionsChoosing if I live or die. This poison I'm takinghas my body aching.It's the devil taking his dueI'll trade you this for thatBut at your expense. The decision was mineand I live with it.No it isn't fineand I hate it everydaycause it's changed how I live. My brain deterioratingBrain cells dying in drovesMy memory leavingI assure you it's not pleasingto lose control.

Ill Lyrical Damagin
I'm wicked with rhymes I spit you know i'm just the shit kick with lyrics that shouldn't be hard for you to get. Absolute to fabolus takin names dismantlin ya whole fhrames horrorcorish malnourish shit flourish. My style ain't nothin for you to fuck with get with what i am I don't give a damn no. I'm not signed ya couldn't get in even if you tried to fuck with mine like ya couldn't fhuck with one line. Gimme mine this is fine let shit untwine. Have you warped into the next zone you couldn't get on disown like if you was on the twilight zone. Kickin heiroglyphico i'm meterphoric shit kickin mind's tickin up for the pussy lickin. Quit to pull a trigga on a nigga that talk's shit you ain't it. What the fhuck is you thinkin eye's blinkin teeth clenchin rhyme linking. Admit it ain't no one comin fhresh as this ain't no one hittin then kris rhyme wreck intellect shit is real you couln't fheel slippin & fallin on a banana peel I'm as ill. Kick hype shit dispite don't even worry bout what i wr

Un-fair
Left with nothin but pain inside left with nothin but pain in my life. Left with nothin but my pride. Left with nothin but your distained. Left with nothin but your shame. Left with all bein insane nothin's ever plain. It's all the same nothin all changed in the game. Fuck your lie it's all the same.My life never meant anything. Your cause of a god flaud. I am anything but this. You take from me just let me be. You fool you don't see just let me be.Lifewaste shit takes you make you fake death wake this ain't a dream. So don't make it worth what it seems find something at means. All through life shit is what i had to take. Now it's your turn to break & take what's at stake await your death. Leave you dead in the ground with no breathe.Pry with what you try when all is a lie. You die why do you justify make all seem to real. Fheel what you can't fheel. I am gonna kill make you fheel my pain. Rain down insane pain rain down insane pain. Break what you thought you could take. Less not live

No Expectations
Someone told me Have no expectations and I'll have no regrets and shes so right. I have expected people I've met online to be true at heart as I am, Im easy to open my heart whether it be online or off and always treat them the way I would want to be treated, but Im relizing I can't put my guard down with everyone, because some are just out for self, As they say beware of the wolf in sheeps clothing.

Flashing Lights
ooh my, another friday, another 26er, another gathering, but theres gonna be a few changes tonight. Krys is staying in corner brook with his jaw still bleeding from sugery. I msis him so much its insane, I never thoguth Id be one of those couples who is like imu:# after 6 hours ofbeing apart but after 6 hours I missed his sweet ass. Its been since tuesday hes been gone now. I stumbled across a camera and decided to take some pics for him;) They are posted in nsfw, Im gonna send him fubars favs so choose wisely: ) The past month or so I've pretty much been living with krys (well hes been living with me in my house) and for that whole month every friday was the night i raped him, Im serious, last weekend lenroe left the room to him screamingher namme " lennnnooooooooooooOOOORRREEEEEE". The funny part is how i got him in the room, apparently ( I have no memory of this) I got my mom to help me drag him in the room tobe raped, apparently also mom was a good helper. krys has started call

Mountains...here We Come!
Leaving in about 4 hours for a nine day excursion into the mountains in Arkansas. Good friends, good times....ha.............bliss. One of these days we will be riding full time and I will be the happiest bikergirl ever! Tata fubar pals....see you when I get back. Please don't hate me cause I'm two-wheelin it...LOL

Watch Out For The Username Archlight Here On Fubar
ok this is a warning to all woman and men look out for the name Archlight he is a fake and likes to use woman he is a freeloader that moved here 4 months ago and likes to drink ALOT he has nothing in Michigan or NY so dont let him fool you. As far as sex goes well ladies I think he likes MEN

Live Broadcast Coming!
I talked with Will, owner of the Bella Cafe in Stafford, Virginia, USA, about doing a live musical broadcast from his deli once a week on Saturday nights. He's all for it and we are working out the details. We hope to have the first broadcast in two weeks on BlastFM. Lots of amatuer talent performs there. Stay tuned. www.live365.com/stations/blastcasterfm

Owners Manual Part4
As the sun rose on my tortured body, I could feel the juices of my never ending orgasms. The clamps on my nipples had kept me awake throughout the night, as the phalluses work their dirty deeds on my ass and cunt. The proof of their labors was dripping down my thighs and onto the deck. My cruel but loving Master knew that his ministrations would set me straight and make me see the error of my feelings of protection for my daughter. I now would allow Master full control of Lei Lei. As my body ached I heard stirring on deck. I turned painfully to see some crew members leading my daughter Lei Lei toward the forward deck where I was left to hang through the night. She was naked except for a simple collar. Her golden nipple rings, that adorned her newly enlarged 38FF breasts, sparkled in the morning sun. She was led right in front of me and knelt at my feet. Her tongue trailed up from my feet, licking my juices from my calves and thighs. When she reached my cunt my phalluses were removed, a

Dont Know
Im just sitting here at work, enjoying the quiet. You never know when we have to jump to action. lol. Its been a good week, I got a jump on the project truck, and a few projects at the house fininshed even with the crapy weather. Looking forward to hot doughnuts in the morning, and maybe even a ball game tom. night. Not much could be better.

First Sunny Day Of Summer
It has been raining every weekend for almost the entire year here. This weekend has started out beautifully. I went to Tugaloo state park today. I had never been to this park even though I have lived here for 10+ years. I hiked on the park trails and really enjoyed it. The trails loop through the woods for about 4 miles. Like many state parks in this area of Georgia, Tugaloo is nestled on Lake Hartwell. I believe this to be a better park than Hart state park which is in the town I live in.

"assume The Position"
Assume the position Don't make me wait.Don't dare hesitate.Assume the position.Its your destined fate.To please your Master.Assume the position.On bended knees.You may rest upon your haunches.Cuffed wrists behind.Breasts bound, pinched nipples,My fingers squeeze.Enough to please.And make you wet between.My cock fills your mouth.That head you love to suck on.Dripping precum on your tongue.My hands grip hair so lovingly.My balls slap your chin.As you begin to choke. I pull from your throat.And watch you catch your breath.But still wanting more.Always wanting more.Assume the position.No! on your hands and knees.I will not bind you.Nor blind you.Nor silence your gentle voice.But, you will stay silentYou will not move.You will only see,What I want you too.My strong hand,Lays pain upon your ass.So deep it stings your clit.So deep you hit.....the sky.In sweet burning ecstasy.My cock a rod of muscle.Is all your eyes can see.Wanting him more and more.Your loins a churning sea.Assume the positio

My---your
no foreplayno warningno sexual energy exchangedwhen I unzip your jeanspush them downtoss panties asidelay you on the side of the bedspread your pink lipsexposing your clitslowly circling with my tonguesmelling your excitementlicking just the clitup and downtwo strokes a secondsteady rhythmfeeling it growthrobbing hardsliding down to entertasting you fullysucking your engorged lipsback to clitstrong relentless tongueflicking against youthree male fingers enterso tight and wetlicking, licking, lickinga finger probes your anusslowly till halfwayfeeling your contractionswanting to cumneeding to cumpleading to cumbegging to cumhips like a carnival ridewanting, needing, pleading, beggingfighting back and losingsurrendering to the wicked tonguemoaning, groaning, screamingwaves of pleasuretingling of toes and fingertipsnipples ice hardpussy pushing my fingers outwetting the bed with cumturning your overfor a well deserved spankinga butt warming spankingintermixed with fingerssliding inside pin

Awakened~
Awakened by a kissshe feels warmthslide down to sleepynipples stirred by moutha line due south of kissesfeathery licks seekingsoft folds of her sexher body opens to touchmelts with each caressof seeking tongue nowlapping wide against sexshe shuts her eyesseductively rolls with the heated rhythm a curtain castupon all but pleasurewinding tighter about her sacred chakratill she pleadsfor Master's voiceto allow release ~W.H. 2009~

Circle Of Kisses~
Circles of kissessurrounds passioninescapable moansbleed hot against skinPressed downsmothered by lustfingers lockpalm to palm"Now," you begto be filledmade wholetaken hardLike a primal druma metered beatbetween silky thighsa musk wet wonderA knock againstflooded gatepink lips encirclea sweet burn slidesInside to hiltof soulful beinga withering wenchlocks her legsPulls deepera smear of kissas lips rockin a tossed seaOf unbridled lusta squeeze withinimpaled, then spitto trembling slitNails etch each strokehips heave to meetbone deeply buriedabove puddled sheetCome with meride this tide togethera duet of gaspssweet unwindingLeaving two breathlesssharing one lovetill the last star winkspast the end of time ~W.H. 2009~

Read This, Dammit!
For those on my friends list (who don't even bother checking me out) that have added me and just are oblivious to those who don't have BLING or SALUTES or whatever else...Just delete my ass if you don't intend to keep up with who's on your "friends" list. This is supposed to be interactive and networking right? So why is it that it seems only members who have their tits and pussy showing or other like stuff are the ones getting rates, comments, etc.? So..I'm here to MEET people ya know? Not get this fake-ass pretender reaction when you try to say "whats up" so to speak. So I'm not built like a Calvin Klein model..so the fuck what? I aint puttin my personal pics so that a future job gets screwed over. this is what you get! Got it? Now..rate and read what you see or jump off the fuckin ship!

Me
whats up people my name is jon im from nashville tn im 24 yrs old i like to hang out with friends and chill no drama though i dont hang out with those kinds ppl they are buzz kills lol im 6 3 medium bulid and im in the military currently headed for iraq so keep me and my family in your prayers well if you want to know more hit me up i love talking to ppl cutting up talking about anything

Zeromancer Lyrics That I Love.
How can I save you When I can't even save myself Oh, you want me A number of different ways Feel me, fuck me, hurt me, love me, Hate me, save me, kill me Feel me, fuck me, hurt me, love me, Hate me, save me, kill me Doppelganger I love you My pain is your pain Your pains are my pains Your chains are my chains, too.. How can I save you When I can't even save myself Now you want your Own sick requiem Cry, don't you? Oh, you want to.. Feel me, fuck me, hurt me, love me, Hate me, save me, kill me Feel me, fuck me, hurt me, love me, Hate me, save me, kill me Doppelganger I love you My pain is your pain Your pains are my pains Your chains are my chains, too.. Doppelganger I love you My pain is your pain Your pains are my pains Your chains are my chains, too.. How can I save you When I can't even save myself How can i save you When I can't even save myself Doppelganger I love you My pain is your pain Your pains are my pains Your chains are my chains, too.. Doppelganger I love you

Touch
A blind man is often known to be able to feel the printed word on a sheet of paper. It’s been fabled that one may even have fingers as keen as to distinguish the numbers on the currency in his wallet. To the sufficient mind, hands may be used to understand the form of the human face, ‘seeing’ contours and shapes that once only the eye could comprehend. Human hands can feel differences as minute as the thickness of a sheet of paper, and temperatures that are a fraction of a degree different than the surrounding air. There is a reason that touch is so important. With it we can perceive the things that no other sense can measure. It comes as little wonder then that touch can be so powerful, even in the dark. And the blessed complexity of the sense becomes so much more apparent considering that it is the domain of our whole body, whereas the other senses reside in specific organs. Every inch of our flesh is sensitive, though not always in the same way. But every part of

Rape Fantasies (not Porn)
As sometimes happens with me, a subject grabs hold of my interest and won’t let go until I’ve exhausted every publicly available resource on the subject. But let me preface this by saying that I find forcible sex on anyone a deplorable act, deserving of swift, merciless, and equally deplorable punishment. I have no compunction against ‘educating’ a man who would force himself on an unwilling woman. Ask me privately why I feel that way because I won’t post it for public view. We all know the social stigma associated with rape, and it’s one that’s well deserved. As a criminal act, it’s expected that 1-in-6 women will be victimized sometime in their life. Half of those will be repeat victims (www.rainn.org). And of the nearly two-hundred thousand assaults that occur in a given year, almost 60% go unreported, or so goes the best statistical guess. The real point of this post is to explore a poorly understood (and in my mind, surprisingly c

Diana Ross- Ease On Down The Road
Ease on down Ease on down the road Ease on down Ease on down the road Ease on down Ease on down the road Come on Dorothy, Don't you carry nothing that might be a load Come on There it is! Come on and ease on down, ease on down the road Come on and ease on down, ease on down the road Don't you carry nothing that might be a load Come on, ease on down, ease on down,down the road Come on, ease on down, ease on down the road Come on, ease on down, ease on down the road Don't you carry nothing that might be a load Come on, ease on down, ease on down, down the road Pick your left foot up When your right foot's down Come on legs keep movin' Don't you lose no ground You just keep on keepin' On the road that you choose Don't you give up walkin' 'Cause you gave up shoes, no Ease on down, ease on down the road Come on, ease on down, ease on down the road Don't you carry nothing that might be a load Come on, ease on down, ease on down down the road 'Cause there maybe times When you think you

Getting Started
First things first.I had to find some killer hopps. Well I did and they came from New Zealand! Man those hopps smelled soooo good. I knew then that I was about to make some killer beer. Second things second,I had to become a Maltser! Well I did this by using Barley and Oatmeal. I had to soak the Barley and Oats in water over night. Next I laid the Barley and Oats out in the form of a couch. At this point I waited untill I could smell a sweet aroma filling the room. Man did that sweet aroma come! Then I spread out the Barley and oats a little flatter, this is calle "Flooring". I then Kilned the wet malt. for one hour and thirty minuets, at 160 degrees farenhiet. That prosess had made me a Maltser! I might tell you more later if anyone is interested in making the best beer I have ever had!

Joys, Green Emeralded Eyes~
I want to see your silhouetteform a shaped 'S' with sensual jestI want your lips caressing my fleshtonguing my membrane, coming unrestI want your wrists before meand your mouth forming these words,"bind me, my master, send meinto a heavenly bliss of unknown strokes"dress in that leather, black wet the shinier bindings fit you the bestcome before me, then slowly begin to stripmake me believe i should take you can you be a naughty little slavefull of tantalizing delights and sensuous?be the temptress just once in these eyesand you will bring forth the hidden surpriseopen your wings, let the flower unfurlI want to take and sedate you like a harmless girlI want you to moan, then fight back the screamsas the strands make ribbons in flesh of creamcum for me, not witholding a single sighbring me the single tear of contentment from those green emeralded eyes... ~W.H. 2009~

Haters
If someone does not find you attractive and they rate you like a 1 or a 2, don't be a douch bag and rate them the same just because you happen to be old (like 80) or a fat slob (like 300lbs) with pimples all over your face and body! Rate them what you acctualy think they deserve. So...for all you that have done that to me, I just consider it a poor attempt of flattery because you know you could never get a dude like me anyways.

Is It?
Grumble,grumblingwhat's that sound?Tumble,tumblingall around.Crumble,crumblingsmashing the landRumble,rumblingbreaking stone into sandwhat could it possibly be?a volcano or a bomb?a childs temper tantrum in front of his mom?I think I knowSanta fell down drunkOr a leprechaunfight a rabid skunk.No,no that can't be itthat would just be nuts.Taking on a leprechaun?even a rabid skunk wouldnt have the gutsLook there it is!all tye-dyed red blue and greenI gotta admit thoughits the biggest bouncy ball i've ever seen

The Road Less Traveled
The Road Less Traveled glitter-graphics.com How often we must bear the challenges of life;The endless roller coaster between happiness and sorrow;The constant ups and downs of daily strife.And always the question remains .... why?Life is not an easy road for most;It twists and turns with many forks in the road,Although always, and inevitably, we are given a choice ...Do we turn to the right ... or the left?Do we take the high road ... or the low road?Do we take the easy path ... or the difficult one?Decisions are not easy for those struggling for direction ...And sometimes the many choices and signs become overwhelming.While standing at a crossroads in life,The urge is to take the most comfortable path;The road with least resistance ...The shortest or most traveled route.And yet, if we've been down that comfortable road before;Have gleaned its lessons in life, and learned from our experiences;Do we yet again follow the known?Or does our destiny lie in another direction?The fear

Help Pamela Stay With Fubar
motivesgirl@ fubar Search your heart, search your feelings, please. My friend Pamela is thinking of leaving Fubar. Lets help convince her to stay. Remember the times when you felt all alone online, remember all your heartaches, your pain. Friends dont let friends feel alone. Lets comfort her. Thank you for your time. motivesgirl@ fubar

Hello To Friends
I havent been here in so long. I probley made this account back when I was super young like 15 maybe 16. I'm 20 now about to turn 21 so to all my "friends" that i've added and we really talked. Hello and it's been a looooooooooong time. So I'm gunna do this text me at 1815-403-5613 I wanna see how many text I can get.

Wonderful Love
What more can I say. I've found the man of my dreams. And I feel like I am falling in love with him. I will do anything for him and I mean ANYTHING. He's stolen my heart. And I want to be with him the rest of my life. He means the world to me. I love him sooooo much and I hope to never lose him. I will be there for him through thick and thin. Through the good and the bad. He is my life. Babe, if you are reading this I love you with all my heart and soul. MUAH!! xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Do Not Watch Tv Right B4 Bed
MONDAY, June 8 (HealthDay News) -- Many generations ago, a dark night sky and fatigue probably signaled it was time to go to sleep. Today, Conan O'Brien, Jon Stewart and the Desperate Housewives are more influential in determining bedtimes -- and it may be contributing to many Americans' chronic sleep deprivation, a new study says. In the study, researchers looked at data about the sleep habits and bedtime rituals of 21,475 participants aged 15 or older who completed the American Time Use Survey between 2003 and 2006. In the two hours around bedtime, TV viewing was the most common activity, accounting for almost 50 percent of the activities undertaken in the time before bed, according to the study to be presented Monday at the Associated Professional Sleep Societies annual meeting, in Seattle. The finding means that TV -- rather than hours past sunset or biological signs -- has become the most important signal for sleep. And staying up to catch the end of a favorite

Perfect Love
I sit inside my head Looking out at all that surrounds mePeaceful as I reminisceThoughts, memories swirlWould I truly change anythingIf I did, would I be meFleeting moments of great happinessCountered by moments of great sorrowWishing to return to the time of innocenceAs a newborn safe in a mother's armsIgnorant of the wrongs of the worldWondering if I will ever find that perfect love again

Beliefs
Many have fought wars and given their lives because of certain belief systems. While I do believe we should stand up for what we think is right, I know humanity would be much better off if we could all learn to respect others wholly. Instead of saying my beliefs are better than yours, understand that we all have different viewpoints and backgrounds that make us who we are. I think my beliefs are simple yet many have trouble grasping the entire concept, because they are not ready to understand. I believe in all religions, yet I follow none. I understand everything, but I have knowledge of nothing. Every religion is based on following a path to divine knowledge and power, yet many have become distorted. In some people allow others to govern them and decide what is right and wrong; they have given control of personal spiritual power to someone who "knows" more than themselves. In doing so, they have forgotten that we all have the power to control our own spiritual development an

Erotica ... For You
You open the door and step through. The candles on the nightstands are lit, they offer up their fragrance to us. Just a hint of Jasmine and Rose, nothing overpowering, but enough to awaken the senses. Soft music is playing softly in the background, the notes wafting upon the air and curling around you. The drapes are drawn, but billow from the slight breeze coming in from outside.You look over to the corner and see the candlelight dancing in the full length mirror. You eyes return to the bed and you see that the comforter is turned down, the crisp sheets revealed and inviting. Your eyes move to me as I stand beside the bed in my short pink velvet robe, a smile spreads across your face, matching the one on mine. You turn and close the door quietly and walk to me. You stand before me and I tremble slightly as you lean down to kiss me. Our lips meet gently and my mouth opens slightly to welcome your warm, probing tongue. You take me into your arms and hold me close to you as our tongues

Some Things To Laugh At
Did you hear about the two blondes who froze to death in a drive-in movie? They went to see "Closed for the Winter." *************** Why did the blonde resolve to have only 3 children? She heard that 1 out of every 4 children born in the world was Chinese. *************** A blonde hurries into the emergency room late one night with the tip of her index finger shot off. "How did this happen?" the emergency room doctor asked her. "Well, I was trying to commit suicide," the blonde replied. "What?" sputtered the doctor. "You tried to commit suicide by shooting your finger off?" "No, Silly!" the blonde said. "First I put the gun to my chest, and I thought: I just paid $6,000.00 for these breast implants, I'm not shooting myself in the chest." "So then?" asked the doctor. "Then I put the gun in my mouth, and I thought: I just paid $3000.00 to get my teeth straightened, I'm not shooting myself in the mouth." "So then?" "Then I put the gun to my ear, and I thought: This is go! ing to make a lo

Nothing
My blog is short. I stay home with my kids and I am married. I am very new at this. It just seems really interresting to talk to so many people all over the place. That's pretty fucken cool. I'll finish my blog after I experience fubar for a while.

Our Love/my Heart
Our Love As long as there is love, I will cherish you. As long as there is life, I will love you. As long as the stars shine above, I will want you. As long as there are waves in the ocean, I will need you. As long as there is heaven above, There will always be our love.

My Brother Terry
To all my friends on here wondering what is going on with my brother Terry. Currently he has been in the hospital for a month. He is hooked up to a respirator and numerous tubes and wires. To give you a little on his history with medical problems... Terry has had both his pancreas and kidney replaced with donor organs. This was due to his diabetes destroying his body. After he recovered from that and lost his Dad last year he came down with Lymphoma Cancer. Terry has beaten that also.On May 14th he went to the hospital with a fever he couldn't break. Now mind you the anti-rejection drugs he takes are immune suppressants so that his body will keep the organs. The doctors have been unable to help him, he has pneumonia. Terry is a fighter, but every prayer will help. It is difficult to see him the way he is now, they have him knocked out. Today they have been having problems keeping the feeding tube down him. Tomorrow they are going to do surgery to replace the respirator tube with a trac

Babes, Babes, Babes!
On this site there so many sexy babes how can any guy choose just one. After a guy picks this one then another hottie catches his eye. Choices, choices choice. Just like BlastFM where there are so many greats songs to play and so little time. You hear one song you think is the best then another one catches your ear. Listen to BlastFM where you hear songs you remember and songs you only heard here. www.live365.com/stations/blastcasterfm

Argument And Then War
dear diary fuck you cunt, fuck you diary, your a cunt it is 12:19 in the dark i am spun out , and drunk,, and i was feeling hopeless and i want you to know diary, i dont ever think i will get sober for any real lengnth of time i am in the bag in the drink spend my time of just past knee deep in the pink fuck you diary fuck you god,, jesus christ fuck you cunt i want to destroy i want to rape i want chaos i want darkness i want money i want cars i want success i want to meet you behind bars a ;sldkkkkff k;jl'lkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkki black ed outi for a seciond ist so late adn i am listineting to dri and van healen and i want to snuff ot all the light

Gone For A Few
So as you could tell, I just lost my father. I will be gone from Monday until Thursday for the funeral and general R&R. If you need me, you know how to get a hold of me. If you don't and would like to, leave me a sb. Take care and have a shot or two for me.

Blackout
dear diary, last nigth i listened to the whole van halen catalog and drank blackberry brandy, brandy, some girl drink like mikes hard punch, and vodka...oh yah sevaral king cobras, until i blacked out..when i woke up today at four the black brandy was tipped over and dripping off my desk like blood, life is good. your friend Hood Mood

Rain On Me By Ashanti
Mmm...mmm...mmm...mmm... Mmm...mmm...mmm...mmm... Mmm...mmm...mmm...mmm...mmm... I�m lookin� in the mirror At this woman down and out She�s internally dyin� I know this was not what love�s about I don�t wanna be this woman The second time around �Cause I�m wakin� up screamin�, no longer believin� That I�m gonna be around And over and over I tried Yet over and over you lied Gettin� over and over my pride, yeah I don�t know why And over and over I tried Yet over and over you lied Gettin� over and over my pride, yeah I don�t know why Rain on me Lord, won�t you take this pain from me I don�t wanna live, I don�t wanna breathe Baby, just rain on me Lord, won�t you take this pain from me I don�t wanna live, I don�t wanna breathe, no See, I don�t want to hold my pillow late at night no more I�m tossin� and turnin�

Hott In Here By Nelly
Nelly]I was like, good gracious ass is bodaciousUh, flirtatcious, tryin to show patienceLookin for the right time to shoot my steam (you know)Waitin for the right time to flash them keysThen um I'm leavin, please believinOh, Me and the rest of my heathensCheck it, got it locked at the top of the four seasonsPenthouse, roof top, birds are feedinNo deceivin, nothin up my sleeve and, no teasinI need you to get up up on the dance floorGive that man what he askin for (oh)Cuz I feel like bustin loose and I feel like touchin you (ah, ah)And cant nobody stop the juice so baby tell me whats the use[Chorus x2](I said)Its gettin hot in here (so hot)So take off all your clothes[woman's voice]I am gettin So hot, I wanna take my clothes offOhLet it hang all outWhy you at the bar if you aint poppin the bottlesWhat good is all the fame if you aint fuckin the modelsI see you drivin, sportscar, aint hittin the throttleAnd I be down, and do a hundred, top down and gogglesGet off the freeway, exit 106 and

As Long As You Love Me By Backstreet Boys
Although loneliness has always been a friend of mine I'm leaving my life in your hands People say I'm crazy and that I am blind Risking it all in a glance And how you got me blind is still a mystery I can't get you out of my head Don't care what is written in your history As long as you're here with me Chorus: I don't care who you are Where you're from What you did As long as you love me Who you are Where you're from Don't care what you did As long as you love me Every little thing that you have said and done Feels like it's deep within me Doesn't really matter if you're on the run It seems like we're meant to be Chorus Bridge: I've tried to hide it so that no one knows But I guess it shows When you look into my eyes What you did and where you are comin' from I don't care, as long as you love me, baby. Chorus Who you are Where you're from Don't care what you did As long as you love me (Repeat to fade)

Incomplete By Backstreet Boys
Empty spaces fill me up with holesDistant faces with no place left to goWithout you within me I can’t find no restWhere I’m going is anybody’s guessI’ve tried to go on like I never knew youI’m awake but my world is half asleepI pray for this heart to be unbrokenBut without you all I’m going to be is incompleteVoices tell me I should carry onBut I am swimming in an ocean all aloneBaby, my babyIt’s written on your faceYou still wonder if we made a big mistakeI’ve tried to go on like I never knew youI’m awake but my world is half asleepI pray for this heart to be unbrokenBut without you all I’m going to be is incompleteI don’t mean to drag it on, but I can’t seem to let you goI don’t want to make you face this world aloneI want to let you go (alone)I’ve tried to go on like I never knew youI’m awake but my world is half asleepI pray for this heart to be unbrokenBut without you all I’m going to b

How Do I Live By Leann Rimes
How do I,Get through the night without you?If I had to live without you,What kind of life would that be?Oh, II need you in my arms, need you to hold,You're my world, my heart, my soul,If you ever leave,Baby you would take away everything good in my life,And tell me nowHow do I live without you?I want to know,How do I breathe without you?If you ever go,How do I ever, ever survive?How do I, how do I, oh how do I live?Without you,There'd be no sun in my sky,There would be no love in my life,There'd be no world left for me.And I,Baby I don't know what I would do,I'd be lost if I lost you,If you ever leave,Baby you would take away everything real in my life,And tell me now,How do I live without you?I want to know,How do I breathe without you?If you ever go,How do I ever, ever survive?How do I, how do I, oh how do I live?Please tell me baby,How do I go on?If you ever leave,Baby you would take away everything,I need you with me,Baby don't you know that you're everything,Real in my life?And te

Update
Just found out this morning that my brother only has 24 to 48 hours left. His lungs are giving up and the respirator is not able to do what it needs to do. Going to hospital to see him and find out what the doctors and nurses have to say. Keep him in your prayers.

Marriage
When your married and your spouse does you wrong constantly, What do you do? Now i know i should forget about this person but when your married you have to work things out. Ive tried to be an adult, I dont get that in return. Do i divorce her? I want to take her back, i dont want a divorce, am i stupid? Does love really get a hold of people to where they are blind?

Future Car Ride
We are both riding in the carI don't know where we are goingWhen the wheel is in your handsYou always have to surpriseI can't stop looking at your face in the mirrorAnd you feel every movementSending a touch to my lipsWe are both riding in the carYou tell me it's going to be a long roadAnd I can fall asleepAnd after you will tell me all that happened to meI am not sleepingCounting stars through the holes in the blanketAnd with a cigarette in your mouth you sing with the radioA love songKiss me hardKiss me until it hurtsAnd the sun won't go downYou are one of a kindMy wonderful loveAnd I love youWe are both riding in the carI wish we could go on foreverAnd you thinkThat I fell asleep long ago and I am not listeningAnd you are with a cigarette in your mouthSinging to me with the radioA love songKiss me hardKiss me until it hurtsAnd the sun won't go downYou are one of a kindMy wonderful loveAnd I love you

Math
From a strictly mathematical viewpoint it goes like this:what makes 100% what does it mean to give MORE than 100%? ever wonder about those people who say they are giving more than 100%? we have all been to those meetings where someone wants you to give over 100%. How about achieving 103%? what makes up 1005 in life?Here's a little mathematical formula that might help you answer these questions:If:A BC DEFGH I J K L M N O P Q R S T U VW X Y Z1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26Than:H-A-R-D-W-O-R-K8+1+18+4+23+15+18+11=98%And:K-N-O-W-L-E-D-G-E11+14+15+23+12+5+4+7+5=96%But,A-T-T-I-T-U-D-E1+20+20+9+20+21+4+5=103%And,B-U-L-L-S-H-I-T-2+21+12+12+19+8+9+20=103%AND,look how far ass kissing will take you.A-S-S-K-I-S-S-I-N-G1+19+19+11+9+19+19+9+14+7=118%So one can conclude with mathematical certainty that while hard work and knowledge will get you close,and attitude will get you there, it's the bullshit and ass kissing that will put you over t

Alone Again
Alone I drift away, Alone I walk a thousand miles, Alone I fall asleep, Alone I stare at the sky, Alone I sit under a tree, Alone I cry.Alone I dream of you, Alone I hope and pray, to God who is oh so merciful and powerfulto let me find my way.Alone I drift away, Alone I live today, and alone I'll die someday. Angela Ferrer

One Very Special To Me
This is a little something I wrote one night shortly after my father passed. DARKNESS It's dark outsideThe rain is pounding downI should probably hideThe pain is building insideI wonder why you liedWas it to save your pride I look aroundBut I am all aloneDarkness is all aroundI am the only one homeNo noises to be heardNo motion where you once stood I know you are aroundJust not for me to seeI know you are watching meBut from where I am unsure The pain is buildingFor I need you hereTo comfort me, to hold meTo tell me it will be all right Without you by my sideI have no one to turn toNo one to confide For you were the one I could always turn to Even when it meant that I criedYou always gave me your shoulder Even when we both grew older Now you are not here The pain is becoming extreme I know that where ever you are It is bright and sunny Isn't that funny It's dark outside I am dark and empty inside Without you here Please let me know That you are some where nearFor I can not stan

Heather
Yeah, your my diamond girl, blessed with the most beautiful smile in the world. Dont worry baby, I wont pay him any attention, talk to him all you want but its me that your missing. Did I mention? Your eyes got me blinded, lil mama I done lost my mind I cant find it.Many will attempt, try to duplicate, my Game, but Im James, all they can really do is h8.Its cool ma, they dont understand me Im trying to really make you mine, Im talking bout family. Thats right boo, shit we can do the math, you wanna find they way, Imma show you the path. Lil mama heres a toast to you, you dont even have to post this note, but it was wrote for you.I am Dot Bomb, and they are nonsense, I dont need a website to provide you sweet comments

Nobody Knows It But Me!
This song really puts what I am feeling out there.. Nobody Knows by Kevin Sharp I pretend that I'm glad you went away But these four walls close in more every day And I'm dying inside and nobody knows it But me Like a clown I put on a show The pain is real even if nobody knows And I'm crying inside and nobody knows it But me Why didn't I say the things I needed to say How could I let my angel get away Now my world is just a tumblin' down I can see it so clearly but you're nowhere around The nights are lonely, the days are so sad And I just keep thinkin' about the love that we had And I'm missing you and nobody knows it but me How blue can I get, you could ask my heart Just like a jugsaw puzzle it's been torn all apart A million words couldn't say just how I feel A million years from now, you know, I'll be loving you still The nights are lonely, the days are so sad And I just keep thinkin' about the love that we had And I'm missing you and nobody knows it but me The nights a

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Boyd Rice - Mr. Intolerance
I'm not a tolerant personIn fact I get more intolerant by the dayI just find it more and more difficult to tolerate assholesAs my tolerance decreases, their numbers seem to increaseEvery day there's more and more of themAnd every day I have less and less patienceI'm not a mere bigotBut I certainly don't cut any slack to anyone on the merit of their status as an oppressed minorityYour people were enslaved? Tough luckThe white man stole your land? Too fuckin' badYour fair sex is plagued by date rape? Grin and bear itThese days everyone has a sob story, and frankly, I don't careIt's no excuse for being an assholeWe live in the age of the excuseWe live in the age of the assholeThey're everywhereThey come in all shapes, all sizes, all colorsThere are black assholes, white assholes, women assholes, men assholes, queer assholes, straight assholes, smart assholes, stupid assholes, suburban assholes, inner-city assholes, homeless assholes, upwardly-mobile assholes, lazy assholes, incompetent as

You
i dont understand why i cant handle some truth ...when it comes to me and someone tells me somthing about my self i get defencive i hate it we all should able to learn from what people think about you it gives you a out look in how you are seen in the world. i am not saying to be all like oh my god i must be like this. i am saying how can you be real if you dont even know what you reflect

In Memory Of Longhorn And Mojo
This Goes Out To 2 Best Friends Any Person Could Ever Wish For You Guys Helped Me Through Alot And I Know It Was Time For The 2 Of You To Go. But I Know One Day We Will See Each Other Again But For Now You Guys Are In A Better Place Take Care And I Will Never Forget You. Mike "Hurricane" McCurley RIP Mark "Mojo" Pensoneau 1966-2009 RIP Paul "Longhorn" Stevenson 1982-2009

Fire Between Us
Flames from beneath the surface rise, As it travels a path of a spiraling line, Igniting everything within the radius surrounding, Filling the air full of smoky clouds. I follow in search of the fire’s origin, Letting it continue to burn as I step, Mile after mile I walk in a daze, Blinded by the ashes from the fires haze, Off in the distance I see the site, Of a figure that glows in the fires light, Where the flames rise higher amidst her presence, I’m stuck at a standstill mesmerized in place, As I move forward into her direction, The fire explodes more intensely, Completely incasing her in flames bright blue. As I get even closer I burst into flames too, When I grab her hand the fire diminishes, And is drawn within us both.

Depression
Depression: Condition of general emotional dejection and withdrawal; sadness greater and more prolonged than that warranted by any objective reason. This is my state right now I want to run, this is what I found But there is no place I can Since I have been bound You take away my pride And give back nothing You take away my choice Giving sadness gathering It is times like this I have a hard time to trust But you demand it Almost like it was lust

Would You Stop?
A black cat, lifeless in the road. A bright orange cat dodging the rest of the cars, to stand guard for it's fallen friend. Risking it's life and limb, to see that it's friend wasn't hurt again. A friend is someone who would do that, no matter what it mean't. For the driver that hit her, and the one's who were too busy to stop. I ask you. If you were hurt or worse, do you have a orange cat to help you in the end ?

Damn People
OK, I know its should go without saying but when the heat index is 105 STAY INSIDE!!! Of course there are plenty of stupid people to keep me busy, but I dont want to be out in the heat either. Getting excited about a little vacation this weekend. There will be plenty of beer involved, and (with finger crossed) a lot of trout in the frying pan. Of course good ole' fashin' hanging out with the guys.

Winds Of Fate
WINDS Blowing wind all the day through gusting and surging always to renew Increase in power and move the trees sway back and forth caught in the breeze unseen force that moves us on guided by chance and never done leading us on through winds of fate blowing us toward things so great cease to fight and accept what is to come along the way we will meet some who enhance our lives and make us complete the plan of the eternal will be without defeat living just as we are meant to live knowing that the day is ours to give and to make the most of where we are now the divine winds will take care of us now By R. Thomas Dinsmore

Leaving Fubar
I have decided it is time to move on from Fubar. If you want my yahoo, or msn messenger info please let me know. I am not on here very often anymore so it is time to go. Npw the question is WHO to give my fubucks too? I am giving this a few days so you can get me any info. if you want to keep in touch. I am also on facebook. Sherry

As We Grow Up...
as we grow up,we learn that even the person that was supose to never let u down probally will.You will have your heart broken probally more than once,and it's harder every time.You'll break hearts too,so rember how it fells when yours is broken.you'll fight with your best friend,you'll blame a new love for things an old love did.You'll cry because time is pasing too fast or not fast enough,and eventually you will loose some one you loved dearly.So take too many pictures,laugh too much,and love like u have never been hurt.Every 60 seconds that go by that u spend upset,is a minute u can never get back!

New To Using Fubar
Wow... I signed up to fubar quite some time ago, but never really started using it. There is a lot going on here... Hopefully I haven't stepped on too many feet, in the crowded bar, or gawked at things (women) to obviously. A little about me... well like most people, I am not that great about writing an "about me". I mean, I can say things like I am a single father of four kids, aged 23-13. I am single because my ex-wife divorced me in 2000, and now all these years later, I realize I should have divorced her years before she divorced me. We did not have a loving relationship, but my beliefs of marriage were that you married for life, and there was no such thing as divorce. I felt like a failure when I wasn't able to keep the marriage together. Since then I met a woman that I truly love. A woman that taught me what love is, and what was missing in my marriage. We were together over 5 years, and now it's been a year since she decided to "move on". I have dated other women. Dev

A Vanquished Heart.
The dark falls, the lightning thunders down...a single bolt illuminates the fallen figure. She struggles to get up...the rain pouring down too hard...so hard that she cant even think...how could this be? The weight of years of pain and misfortune, they happened once...why do they have to happen again? Why does my heart remind me of these painful events..why do they keep resurfacing in storms like this... My heart is bleeding to death...thats why...the wounds made by those events have scarred my heart and something opened them...perhaps an occurrence that shook my heart, such as someone trying to understand me...someone trying to mend the wounds and accidentally hitting the wrong spots at the wrong times... I feel dead, I feel like I dont exist, nothing makes sense and no thoughts are clear. How do I get them to go away! It frustrates me to no end! A man walks across the void to visit her, to help her up off her knees, his face is hidden, GET THE HELL AWAY FROM ME! she screams at

The Love Of My Life
As I've mentioned in my last blog, I've found an amazing man, even though he may not think he is, he really is. He IS the LOVE OF MY LIFE! And I want to spend the rest of my life with him. He means everything to me. No man has ever meant so much to me. I love the way he loves me, hell I love everything about him. His personality is the greatest. He is so sweet and loving. He truly has a heart of gold. He may not see it, but I do. I can't wait to go live with him. I look forward to the day I can.

The Perfect Love
All we had of laughs and tears,We both kept it a secret so no one hears,I thought we could stay together,But I knew these days wouldn't last forever,She first treated me like a friend,But I knew this couldn't be the end,I saw the sun rising upon the shores,Who would stay in while she could be outdoors,We used to have fun under the rain,Such moments were magical that words cannot explain,Till that day when we had our first kiss,That day is in my mind and I'll always miss,The love we shared grew strongly and fast, She was everything to me, my present, future and past,Words cannot describe the beauty of her eyes,She is perfect that she can never tell lies, The happiness of the world is felt in her smile,Describing it would take years and years, not just a while,All the love we felt was real,It was innocent, perfect and pure that no one can feel,Keeping us from each other would be tough,Even the strongest power on earth won't be enough,She was the closest one to my heart,Nothing in the wor

I Like You
"In my life I learned how 2 love, 2 smile, 2 B happy, 2 B strong, 2 work hard, 2 B honest, 2 B faithful, 2 forgive. But I couldn't learn how 2 forget U... Miss U" 7:11 PM 6/4 past is waste paper, present is news paper , future is question paper n life is answer paper. so do good in your answer paper , enjoy life how hard it may seems,though u have thousand reason to cry, show to the world that u have million reason to smile.

Hotel Adams
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In All Candor... A Slew Of Lyrics My Head Keeps Playing Over And Over...
Could you let down your hairBe transparent for a whileJust a little whileTo see if you're human afterall Honesty is a hard attributeTo findWhen we all wanna feel likeWe've got it all figured out Well let me be the first to sayThat I haven't got a clueI don't have all the answersAin't gonna pretend like I do I'm just trying To find my wayTryingTo find my wayThe best that I know how I haven't memorized all ofThe cute things to sayBut I'm workin' on itMaybe I'll master this art form some day If I quote all the lines Off the top of my headWould you believeThat I fully understand all these things I've read I'm just tryingTo find my wayTryingTo find my wayTryingTo find my way the best that I know how Well I haven't got it allFigured out just yetBut even if it takes my whole lifeTo get to where I need to be And if I should fallTo the bottom of the endI'll be one step back to you and Trying To find my wayTryingTo find my wayOh I'm tryingTo find my wayTryingTo find...my way... I'm

Myth
AS i lay here night after night,missing you here laying by my side. thinking to the day that i met you was such a slap in the face i was never especting, i didnt want anyone, didnt want love. But when i met you you turned my world upside down, maybe hyporcrytical so to speak sayin i have been in love before, but nothing like this. I have loved in my past, and thouht i have been in love, but with you you bring my world in a whole new perspective./ You make me see what i havent seen before and surpirsingly keeping at bay my worst side yet. In so many ways im scared to show you my true side,its my worst who can ever tell, if i can show you I can be very overconfident, protective, jealous, insecure, many things, more than the normal. But that whats makes me who I am, I can be so complicated but yet so simple its so ironic. I can contradict my self in so many ways but yet to speak so much simple truth if you look deep enough. I more than just words can explane but yet so simple to

What Would You Do
What would you do What would you do if you woke up tommorrow and i was gone.What would you do with all the hurt and anger knowing i was your best friend. You were my everythingWhat would you do to go on without me What would you do with all the memories and pictures I will always be there waiting for you,We are apart of each other NO matter where i am What would you do if you had the chance to say goodbye

A Perspective
A perspective by Walter Richters I see the world these days in a different light. It’s like a carnival ride with no safety harness. We’re all hanging on to the sides while some of us stand watching below, oblivious to the danger. Some of us disbelieve. We replace the facts with a comfortable fiction. A fiction made to resemble our happiest memories. Though our memories may be fictitious also. Some of us hang on to our ideals like a sword made of paper in a world that would burn it up in a flash. Some of us build a defense based on the truth that lye’s beyond the horizon line. But for that self protection, we have sacrificed innocence and the bliss that comes with ignorance. The knowledge burns into our minds and leaves a scar. And there are those of us whose inner peace can withstand an earthquake. Those of us who can know of the evils out there waiting for us; and accept it with an uncanny weightlessness. Maybe it’s because to those of us, death

6-28-2009
Hmmmm......well, recently there have been some major changes in my life. I lost my mother on the 11th of this month, working on getting her estate and affairs, yes-even after death, in order. Trying to move from one house to the next. Paying bills on two houses, while I'm getting out of one into the other. I have to go to court on the 30th for the final dissolution between my 5 year olds' (yes, she became 5 on the 23rd) mother and myself. She's being a real shithead because I suspended her open visitation with her daughter, due to the fact she could not keep her fucking mouth shut around her, about the upcoming dissolution (we were never really married). She would never deflect the questions to say, "that's between your dad and I, and it has nothing to do with you". If she had, she'd still be having visitation. Right now, she has to have supervised visitation, which costs about a 100 for DHS or FACS to supervise the visits (money she doesn't have). Too fucking bad, and with everything

Hurtin
Currently I've been using my blogs to vent about Drama in my life which seems to be something i'm good at writing out what's on my mind nad then letting others read it so here goes the latest peek into my drama and please feel free to write advice in the comments below..... A few days ago my sister came to my family saying she was RAPED and a few other things that happened that no one should have to go through and as usual because she is special needs we were inclinde to believe her and we took every step possible to help her and now she just wants to go back to the sick fuck who threatened to kill my 21 month old child as well as my elderly grandparents and now he's harmed my special needs sister and he has her so warped that she does not even trust her family and it's making me feel comfused and hurt and i don't know how to deal with the pain because i kno what it's like to be put through abuse and rape and alot of other unmentionable things that a person should not have to go thr

"ghost Of A Chance"
Chapter 1 The air’s heavily scented with mint, the sweet smell drifting on the late summer breeze. The old front porch rocker creaked back and forth, pushed by the wind, while the crickets chirped into the night. An old harvest moon hung in the sky lighting the area in a gray light. Old oak trees rustled and groaned their boughs praying for rain. The old house lay sleeping in the night, washed with the light of the moon. Late summer was here and with it no rain, leaving most people short tempered. The loan occupant inside dismissed the faint creaks and groans that went with the age of the house. Whitewashed and well-taken care of the house held its own against the elements. Through a window the person inside could be seen dusting, moving furniture and then returning it to the original position. She seemed constantly trying to do something, fidgeting and reorganizing each item on each surface, anything to occupy time. The room was clean, cleaner that

Mon May 18th 2009
well here is it monday 3 days after i found out that my matthew has spina bifida. of course as most people know time does not make it any easier to deal with. i do know that i am very glad that me & frank decided to keep matthew. we decided this manily because we don't believe in terminating a life. i mean here i am 5 months along and the dr's tell me i still have a week to choose if i want to keep him or end his life. like i told the dr there was no way i would end his life he is a living breathing human being. but to be honest this is one of them times where i wish my daddy was here. he always knew the answers he seemed to always know what to do and say at the right moment. i wish he would have been here to see matthews face on the ultrasound screen he's such a cute little boy. after i cried my eyes out last night i decided that i have to write in this atleast once a day just to help keep some of the pain out of my head. i know this may sound odd but i am really hoping that the dr's

May 21st 2009
I went to the doctor today and found out that the spot on Matthew's back is not as bad as the genetics doctor said it was. my doctor said it was only like and inch by two inches at the most. so that was good news. her concern was the fact that Matthew's head is not shaped normal and she fears that is due to the enlarged ventricles in his brain. so the next step is to see the perinatologist ( i think i spelled that right ) he will do another ultrasound and the amniocentesis so i am hoping and praying that it is not his chromosomes because if it is then there is a chance that there could be more wrong with him and there is a chance that he won't even make it to delivery. so for now i am thinking positive and hoping that his chromosomes are normal. i don't know what i will do if i ever loose matthew. but she also said it was a very good thing that he is as active as he is. but i think that's all for now i will give everyone another update as soon as i know something else..

Saliva- Your Disease
In one moment I'm goin all the way. I make my poetry everyday. And I'm frozen, comin right on time I froze my mind with that serious rhyme. And I'm open comin up inside you know my mind has got a grand design and I'm flowin, goin all the way I make my point to be everyday come on. And I wanna take you down, but your soul cannot be found. It doesn't matter much you see cause your disease is killing me. And you know its only right cause it feels like paradise. I know nothing is for free cause your disease is killing me. My minds broken, I'm goin up in smoke if you breathe my toke I'm guaranteeing you choke, and I'm chosen to testify to the masses wear dark glasses like the cops in Texas. All knowing its not a premonition kill the competition like a man on a mission, I'm blowin comin up inside like the Bee Gees cry I'm just stayin alive come on. And I wanna take you down, but your soul cannot be found. It doesn't matter much you see cause your disease is killing me. And y

Now I'm Really Lonely
i really would like to meet the right girl in my area in orefield PA, but i don't think that will ever happen cause every girl i ever went out with ended up being some pshycodict bitch, but if there is someone else out there as lonely as me, send me a message and maybe will go out somewhere and have a good time.

Survey#1
What is on your bed right now? stuff in a bag from taget When was the last time you threw up? last year What's your favorite word or phrase? legit Name 3 people who made you smile today? ariella, max What were you doing at 8 am this morning? Just Waking Up What were you doing 30 minutes ago? washing dishes What is your favorite holiday? thanksgiving Have you ever been to another country? no What is the last thing you said aloud? baby, could you please feed ariella for me What is the best ice cream flavor? mint What was the last thing you had to drink? caprisun What are you wearing right now? light blue jeans and yellow tee with smily face on it

You Never Said Goodbye
We grown up together, childhood friends *But I care for you more then that*We become different people *but we still remain friends*You fall in love, over and over again *I watch and hurt inside*But you always came to me when ever you were down *The only time I ever got to hold you*I could never describe what I was feeling *But I realize now*When ever I see you, a smile breaks my face *I think I love you*Three simple words, is all I want to say *even though they mean a lot*Look at me and tell me you think the same *I pray you do*Things began to chance *what happened to you?*You were no longer yourself *You were a monster*But those feelings never went away *I know I love you*I wish I asked you *Even though you never speak to me*I came to visit, to see how you were doing *the front door was open*I walked in and seen you *Laying on the ground, almost dead*I ran to you, held you in my arms *I missed holding you, but not like this*I stared down at your beautiful face *Even though the heroin

Survey #2
1. Do you have kids? If so, how old are they? yes she is 1 years old 2. Who do you live with? my man 3. Have you ever done something to an ex you regret? yes 4. What is your biggest pet peeve about other people? i'm not completely sure 5. Are you currently fighting with someone in your life? no 6. What is your opinion on the war? doesnt need to be any wars 7. Are you disappointed with where you are in life right now? not really 8. Do you believe in being in love with more than one person at a time? yes 9. Biggest regret in life? smoking cigs 12. Most embarrassing thing that has happened to you? idr

Killer Wolf
Killer Wolf I'm the wolf I'm the one you want I'm the killer wolf I'm 'onna pound you home Howlin' all night I curl up next to you When you're all alone When i go inside your little girl When i go inside your little girl Just one kiss [ Danzig Lyrics are found on www.songlyrics.com ] From my lips Rake your soul Over burning coals Just one touch of my love Make you howl 'til the sun comes up I'm the wolf Howlin' all night I'm the king wolf I put the chill in your bones I'm the wolf Hunting you down i ain't no back door wolf I don't scratch at no doors

Can`t Speak
Cantspeak Can't speak Can't talk Can't do anything they want Can't hide Or change your mind Gonna live w/ all my soul Inside Can't speak Can't talk Can't stop for the reeling cause Or love I told 'em all about it Can't talk Cause i'm already lost Can't think Can't cry Keep thinking of a suicide It's hard [ Danzig Lyrics are found on www.songlyrics.com ] I just can't forget it Gonna fade cause i'm already dead Can't think Can't dream Don't care if i live or die Don't talk I just can't believe it Gonna fade cause i'm already dead Can't speak Can't lie Don't go anywhere to hide Can't think Can't cry Keep thinking of a suicide Can't speak Can't talk Can't do anything i want Can't hide Or change your mind Gonna live w/ all my soul inside

Atheist Nexus
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Wild Vision
As I sit atop a hill, Watching the fight, I pray to heaven, To give me the might, I ask for strength, With each breath I take, And for the patience, So I don't make a mistake, Now I enter the battlefield, Awaiting my fate, Do I see another day, Or do I die late, As the battle ends, I see myself still standing, Wondering what just happened, As I wake up.

Friday, December 12, 2008
Blog blog blog Whats in a blog anyways? Simple poems or writings drawn from the deepest subconcious minds? A simple yet pathetic cry for help from those who desperatly strive for the attention of random strangers? Is it a persons last chance at self esteem and boosting their own lack of ego an belief in self importance? A nerds chance to vent upon the world and have the revenge he will never see in reality? A troubled teens last outcry at the the "Oh so harsh" realities in this cruel cruel unfair world. A lovers chance to redeem their infedelities without having the courage to do so face to face. A rebels chance to express their views of idealism which they have cleverly been tricked into believing are their own original thoughts, when in reality they are nothing more than pawns of the very thing they "rebel" against. A warriors outlet to vent about the horrible attrocities and acts they have committed or witnessed and can never erase from their broken minds? An activists chance t

F**king Bullsh*t
As most of you know, I am unemployed, well now that I am out of work, the people at the childsupport office have decieded that I dont need money, and are taking money for back amounts, that I am paying on in the first place!! So now I have to pay 680.00 a month for childsupport, when my unemployment is only like a 1000.00!! WTF?? And the only thing I am told to do is go to court and file a bunch of paperwork, and wait for months on end to get a court date just so I can be told there is nothing they can do!! I pay 183.00 to two mothers, and 280.00 in restituion on the back, now they want another 162.50 a month!!! Holy Fucking Shit!!!! Guess if I lied to them all the time like most do, or was a Crackheaded with 9 babies, they would bend the fuck over backwards for me! But I am not so I get fucked!!! What about all the ones who dont pay? Do they go thru this? No!! You know why? I do....Its cause they know they can't get anything from them, and what about all these women who spend the chil

Rip Daddy
rip daddy i love you and miss you oh so much!!!! 6-8-09 The Dash Poem I read of a man who stood to speak, at the funeral of a friend. He referred to the dates on this tombstone from beginning ….to the end.He noted that first came his date of birth and spoke the following with tears. But he said what mattered most of all, was the dash in between those years.For the dash represents, all the time he spent alive on earth. And how only those who loved him know what that little line is worth.For it matters not, how much we own; the cars, the house, the cash, what matters most is how we live and love and how we spend our dash…So think about this long and hard. Are there things you’d like to change?For you never know how much time is left, that can still be rearranged. If we could just slow down enough, to consider what is true and real. And always try to understand, the way other people feel.And be less quick to anger, and show appreciation more, and love the

Ugggg
So I ran into the person who gave the worst advice of my life today....He wanted to know how I was doing and what I was up to. Kept asking questions about how the last 4 yrs of my life have been....I just avoided the questions. On my way home all I could think about it how horrible I have been and of the awfull things that have been done to me. Really makes a person think about why people love n care about them...and for the life of me I cant figure it out. truth is I shouldnt be here, so the question is why am I. I dont supose I will ever know. But for tonight I I will remember my friends and family that have already gone on thier lives taken before their lives had truly begun.............I know this is jumbled and makes no since but please bear with me.

Lost Love...
I knew this was a great start From our first hello I didn’t want us to depart You told me that we should remain friends But why? When I know deep inside you want it to be more I’m not here to hurt you, all I wanted was to be a friend and perhaps your lover Just wanted us to explore See how love can be when two people who desire each other Two people who don’t want another Two people who belong together Just want you to know that if you were mine there will be no other I do wish you the best in love and life But I wont give up that easily without a strife Cause you are still the one I want Though it kills me to think that you found another But I guess this is just another dream of mine So as I lay here in my bed...wishing and hoping that someday he will not decline I will find my true love one day and he will know that what I say is not a line

I Will Send My Love Your Way...
If there was no sunshine to your day To those days when you feel aloneI will send my Love your way… Just remember I will be there soon to come homeTo run my fingers thru your hair Don’t worry I wont run away As I look into your eyes and just stare I will send my Love your way… Wrap my arms around you and hug you like a Teddy Bear I want to do that every weekday Than as I move away but yet still close Sneak a quick kiss on your nose I will send my Love your way… Lay beside you as we watch our favorite show Tell you that I Love You Because Bebe with you is where I want to stay....x0x0

Finally
I have finally found sum1 who has accepted me with all my faults.... He knows that even tho i'm busy I'm always there for him. He lifts me up and makes me smile everyday. He wakes me up in the most inventive ways and I am his queen. He lifts my spirits with just a gaze of his eyes and he holds me close each and everynight. Tho he may not physically be seen he is 100% real. He comforts me and lulls me to sleep each night! He iz my oove and I am his! So I'm sorry to all you ladies who are still looking for your mister right, I have found mine and i'm holding tight.

Winds
… from a rib you were maid, so it’s written creation writes… oh, oh.. my love, I adore thee and your beautiful ways… trance, yes.. the power of your stare, not of stone I become in your love’s eye view

P. O. R. T. R. A. I. T
You didnt have this face then..calm..and at times sad..and thin..nor those eyes that see seas so empty..nor those bitter thotz...that are not of good but as some good deedz you were misunderstood..you didnt have the strength then as you do now...strong and solid as a pillar..yet time crumbles you to the ground..you didnt have this heart then that you hate to bare today.. You were never aware of changing so simple..so certain..so easy...in a mirror then was your face lost...or now do you realize life...filled with roads to cross... nate fuego.. fuego poeticas...

Now You Know Better
Rating people's photos does make the time go by sometimes but lets be real people. Now I don't understand why people, you know who you are, who are not very interesting to look at tend to get bitter when I don't give you a ten or eleven. C'mon now I am trying not to be UGLY but this is starting to bother me just a tad. I just don't understand why certain individuals, once again you know who you are, feel or get offended when the rating which was given to ya'll was way higher than should have been expected. Ya'll should take this as a compliment instead of acting like all the food in the fridge was all out. You know as well as I do that your rating is not going to be as glamourous as you want it to be. I try to be nice and give you a good rating and what do you do? Act like i am the one who closed the cafeteria door's on you. You turn around and give me a very low rating. It is not like getting on a scale you know....when you get on of course the numbers are high and when i get

Don't Be Nervous, Little Boy....
He stands there, naked, hands behind his back, head bowed...She says nothing, but he can hear Her walking around him, looking at him, probably with contempt, other women do, and She isn't any different...She's probably thinking, just another loser to pay the rent, another pathetic little hentai who— "Don't be nervous, little boy," whispers Misaki-sama in his ear. "I-i—" he starts to stammer, tripping over what he wants to say, he always does. "You worship women," Misaki-sama says, not a question,"you are prepared to give yourself over to Me here, now, asking only for the privilege of serving, worshipping, fearing and obeying My every whim, asking only that I use, abuse and take what I want from you." "Very well," Misaki-sama, patting the slut's bare bottom. "Don't bother telling Me your name," She adds,"you no longer have one, you no longer are anything to me but a mindless piece of ass existing solely for My amusement." Firm hands press on the slut's shoulders, for

Awaken My Sweet
Awaken My Sweet The night wind whispers to the oak tree “Awaken my sweet, Rustle your leaves for me.” Then, and only then will she dance. Her spirit rising with every breeze. She’s longed for his arrival, Waited, ever so patiently, for his return. She craves the caress of his breath To fulfill her every desire. Her branches part Inviting this waft to enter her every crevice To fill her with his aroma - The scent of desire, The fragrance of lust, The sweet perfume of yearning. She craves him, Aches for him, Hungers for his touch, He is the source of her sustenance, Nourishing her every need. Though she cannot see him, She knows he is there. He consumes her, Envelops her within his soul, Swallows her whole. And she melts in this apparition, Inhibitions lost, No reserves to speak of, As she sees pleasure in his eyes. Sees that he is pleased with her dance, Her response to his embrace. And as quickly as he arrived, Is as quickly as he depa

Gift
Hey world i know positively that there are ppl out there who are aware of tha,nautral gift that is given from above.It has to do with our instincs,a tipical example is like when ur so hyped to go some where ,and all of a sudden,ur feelings for that trip,or that party just cease to give u that spirit to go.There and then u call ppl telling them u changed ur mind,they may be upset with ya but,u do not really care.And all of a sudden in tha morinin u hear this bad news of what happen amongst ur friends,which was not a regert,because the event was aborted due to a severe incident in which one of ur friend was hurt,which turned out to be fatal.and solooking back to that gift given to u as in tha form of instincs payed off very well,cause probably it could have bin u.In closing,I for sure anticipate that questions are being asked ?Where is this instinc came from?Aight it came from tha Mighty One above,he is responsible for all our ins and out,know every thing,pass present and future.Just

This Brings Me To Tears, It's So Pretty
Remember those walls I builtWell, baby they're tumbling downAnd they didn't even put up a fightThey didn't even make up a soundI found a way to let you inBut I never really had a doubtStanding in the light of your haloI got my angel nowIt's like I've been awakenedEvery rule I had you breakin'It's the risk that I'm takin'I ain't never gonna shut you outEverywhere I'm looking nowI'm surrounded by your embraceBaby I can see your haloYou know you're my saving graceYou're everything I need and moreIt's written all over your faceBaby I can feel your haloPray it won't fade awayI can feel your halo halo haloI can see your halo halo haloI can feel your halo halo haloI can see your halo halo haloHit me like a ray of sunBurning through my darkest nightYou're the only one that I wantThink I'm addicted to your lightI swore I'd never fall againBut this don't even feel like fallingGravity can't forgetTo pull me back to the ground againFeels like I've been awakenedEvery rule I had you breakin'The risk

Dancer
DANCER GLIDE ACROSS A MIRROR FLOOR...TOURING EYES LIKE NEW LANDS EXPLORED.... DANCER THIN GLIT PLAQUES ON EYGYPTIAN BODIES, FINGERTIPS REDDENED, BLUE LIDS PAINTED, LIFT OF VEILS NAIVELY SCENTED GRAVE MASS DESIRES.... GO VOICELESS AMONG THEM, HANDS ABOVE KNIVES, TEETH ABOVE ROSES, LAMPS BEFUDDLED BY SMOKERS SMOKE..MUSIC AND THE MOVEMENT FLOWS DEPRAVITY, FLIGHTS OF SILKEN STAIRS GLIDE FROM DANCER NOW ADVANCE, LEAP AS GRASSHOPPERS, ADVANCE, RECOIL, AVOIDING GLANCES IN CLOSED ROOMS, DANCER IS INCREDIBLE WHEN DANCERS IMAGE MOVES... DANCER DANCING HER DANCE NAKED, YOU IMAGINE UNCLOTHED IN SIGHT YET LUST OF COLD SHIVERED REALITIES..DANCER, PITIFUL SERPENT WITHOUT APPETITE IS A CHILD OF DAYLIGHT, ANEMIC ANGEL MADE OF HOLLOW...MELANCHOLY EMBALMS HER.... DANCER NATE FUEGO .. FUEGO POETICAS.. .

Love Anthologiez
DO YOU ALREADY KNOW MY NAVIGABLE BLOOD, MY GEOGRAPHY FULL OF DARK MOUNTAINS, OF DEEP AND BITTER VALLEYS THAT ARE NOT ON THE MAPS... PERHAPS... YOU HAVE VISITED MY CHASMS, MY SUBTERRANEAN GALLERIES WITH.. GREAT MOIST ROCKS... ISLAND JUTTING OUT OF BLACK PUDDLES, WHERE I FEEL THE PURE RUSH OF ANCIENT WATERS... FALLING FALLING FALLING FROM MY PROUD HEART... DOSE ALL MY LOVE BLEND COLORZ MARBLE SOLID, MY FRIGHTENING VOICE TOO THE HARSH CRY IN MY THROAT, ALL MY BONES MY ROOTS AND... THE ROOTS OF MY ROOTS ALSO THESE DARKE BRANCHES SWAYED LOVE ANTHOLOGIEZ DREAM... NATE FUEGO.. FUEGO POETICAS...

Relief From Pain
Sitting in this room,Alone and quiet.The walls are spinning,The silence is loud.Nothing but the (tap tap tap),Of the rain,falling against my window pain.The shadows on the wall,move in such a crawl.The light is dim,And the air is cold.Thoughts racing,One by one,Through this empty mind.No feeling,Numbness to all around.No more hesitation,Let it out.The feeling of relief,Bittersweet.

Love
Love is a Wonderful and Beautiful thing,A Ray of sunshine, it gleams of brilliant white.Around, it spins and twirls with a bright bling,High in the sky, in everyone’s eye, it takes flightFloating and whirling, spinning and twisting,Caught in a whirl wind, wondering, when will it end?Surprising when suddenly you’re not movingNot turning around, but down you ascend.With a loud slam and a thunderous clash,Spinning and twirling again and again.Thinking it will end, you bash, crash and thrash,Regaining consciousness, it will not end. Love is a round, never-ending circle,It follows you in an obvious cycle.

News I Just Found Out
Well I injured my knee on July 6th from falling out of a trailer and I was wearing boots with like 3 inch heels. And it has been bugging the hell out of me and I can't put any pressure on it. So I went to the doctors today and he told me that the band in my knee looks like it has been torn again. But he's not sure if its just from the surgery I had on it 6 years ago or if its new. So I have to wait 2 weeks and if it isn't getting any better by then, then I will have to call him and he will make an appointment for me with my orthopedic surgeon. So I may have to have surgery on my knee before too long...sigh!

Failure
NO MORE THEN THE BEING OF EXISTANCE AM I UNDERSTOOD TO SELF, THOUGH I YERN FOR PEACE.. THE VAILS PREVAIL ME IN FAILURE, DOUBT, MISUNDERSTOOD.. NO CLARITY AS I CONTINUE TO WALK I SEE STAGNATE REMEDIES APPROACH FREELY IN DARK THOUGHS.. WHAT I BELIEVE IS LOST, FAILURE IS MY ROOT WHICH IS ALLOWED BY DOUBT.. ILLUSIONS INTRUDE HAPPY TIMES OVER MY SOUL COUNTLESS TO CLOAKS, DAGGARS, GRAILS.. THEIR BRAIL AND ASHED AS DUST IN DISGUSTFUL TERMOIL..HEAD IS HIGH AS THE SKY PASSES OVER.. I SEEK AS I AM BLIND TO MY DESIGN EXISTANCE IS GRIM, BREATHE IS CLOUDED AND BLACK TO FADE ME SOON IN THE PLACES OF FIREY LAKES.. THE LONGER THIS IS THOUGHT, THE MORE IT CONCIEVES ME TO BE.. THREW MY FAILURE.. I BEGIN TO SEE CORRECTION, FOLLOWING THIS CORRIDOOR SHOULD HEAL MY FAILURE.. I BEGIN TO WALK.. NATE FUEGO.. FUEGO POETICAS...

A Lil Rhyme
I'm half ill blown out like lil retarts no fronts. Don't give where the shit starts. Checked what the fuck do i need checked nothin. Only thing i know is maybe you motherfkers actin like they don't kno they words it's disturb just keep to ur dayum self n smoke ur herb. Sick & tired of this world pickin & kickin on me. I've had it blunt brain smash the skulls i'm fucked up & life & never had any goals. So I failed. You wanna life story then go talk to some half-blonde gutted bitch name torrie. She give you all the facts the puzzles n pieces while i'm fucked tryin to learn telekinesis n pick up on every artist's releases for them to get through to see this. My name is a 4 letter word that begins with a k & ends in a s yes you guessed it. Now what the fuck you wanna cookie shut the fuck ur startin to spook me. Why the fuck do i have to go through so much bein screwed on this world n havin no life no kids no money or no gurl my brains dead n i can't hurl n its all just a tilt & twirl n i d

Broken Hearted
THERE ARE MANY A DAYS WHEN I JUST WNAT TO CURL UP AND HIDE AND LAST NIGHT WAS ONE OF THEM.... THERE WAS A HUGE FAMILY FIGHT AT MUH HOUSE WHICH MADE ME REALIZE THAT IT'S TIME TO LET GO OF THE PAST AND FOCUZ ON THE FUTURE

We Fucked At A Party While People Watched.
I love public sex and went to a party wearing a sarong slit to my waist. No bra and a transparent thong. I met a hunk and sat so he could see my thong/clit. I took him down the hill to a swimming hole and took off my sarong as people cheered. I jumped in and floated while caressing my clit. I came out and stripped and sat on a bench and pulled out his prick and sucked it as he finger fucked me and then I stripped him and sat on his prick as we fucked. He dressed but I stayed nude as we walked through the crowd. I stopped to suck pricks while guys stroked my clit and tits. Yay!

Salute
Well to those of you who wish to know more than I can say about the salute. my friends know my story but I will lwt the others who are curious know why I dont have a salute or many pics on my profile. Ok my eyesight isnt that great so maybe this is better. The reason I dont have a salute or more pics is because I cant download anything on my fricken computer. I have tried everything and ppl have helped me but its blocked.. As you know my man is out of town alot and found out I posted pics up. WHere? he doesnt know but some how the fker blocked me from downloading anything so. Im stuck. But after getting very angry because I couldnt figure it out trying to prove myself to some of you.. You know what I dont have to prove myself to no one. I am who I am and if you cant believe that,, then go on. I know some of you that I talk to regularly are not the ppl int he pics you posted but its cool Im here for a descent conversation not looking for love and a baby daddy or money or whateve

Please Send
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Tranquil Poeticas.....
…para que sirvern los verso si no es para esa noche en que un punal amargo nos averigua, para ese dia, para ese crepusculo.. hay tantas gentes hacienda preguntas por todas partes.. tu ves el mundo, las calles, el vinagre.. cuando el humo levanta sus ruedas decisivas hacia donde no hay nada sino algunas separaciones, piedras, forma tranquilo… …what are verses for if not for the night in which a bitter dagger finds us out, for that day, for that dusk.. there are so many people asking questions everywhere.. you see the world, the streets, the vinegar.. when the smoke lifts its decisive wheels toward where there is nothing but some separations, storm, tranquil form…. Otros ojos veran la primavera.. nadie de los que ataron esta hora, de los que conversaron con el humo.. se iran los crueles dioses con anteojos, y cuando este recien lavado el mundo.. nacereran otros ojos en el agua, otros ojos veran la primavera.. . …other eyes will see the sprin

Tranquil Form.........
… forma tranquilo.. dadme el silencio.. el agua, la esperanza.. dadme la lucha.. el hierro los volacanes.. acudid a mis venas y a mi boca.. hablad por mi palabras y mi sangre.. yo presigo una forma que no encuentra mi estilo, forma tranquilo.. …tranquil form.. give me silence.. water, hope.. give me struggle.. iron, volcanoes.. come into my veins and into my mouth.. speak through my words and my blood, tranquil form… .. . . .. …no quiere mas la silaba tardia, lo que trae y retrae el arrecife de mis recuerdos, la irritada espuma.. No quiere mas sino escribir tu nombre… Y Aunque lo calle mi sombrio amor mas tarde lo dira la primavera… .. . . .. …the world, it nolonger wants the slow-spoken syllable.. what the reef brings, brings back, from my memories, the churned foam..

07-19-2009
Well, here we are once again.....Again, with the exception of a few, VERY-VERY few, friends here; I have a plethora of friends on here that just seem to want to add me as a friend, as a notch in their belts. Well, boys and girls, THAT COMES TO AN END TOMORROW. I am DELETING those that have not stayed in contact with me, nor have even bothered with the occasional "Hello". Is that so trying? I know most of those in my friends list are on WAY late, but I am a father of 7, so I need my sleep. Even an occasional PM, letting me know you're ok and still alive, would be pleasant. OH WELL...Tomorrow, most of these are goners. I'm sick of this. Being a friend is not a GAME to me.

Very Unhappy
Hello there I'm in a lesbian relationship for 8 months now! I am very unhappy. More than I ever was. I have totally lost myself in this. Here's the stroy. I fell in love with this girl from England, she was married to another woman. She left the marriage for me and moved to Switzerland to stay with me. In the very beginning I started to have jealousy issues with her past (she has been with 6 guys and 2 girls) and I couldn't deal with her saying she's gay but she's had that past with guys. So, we had these problems for like 4-5 months of our relationship. We are both aquarius and of course, none of us would back down and we started to hurt each other with lies and exaggerations. One month ago she broke up with me for like 1-2 hours to go and sleep with a guy to get some release from all the drama we had. It smashed me to the ground. She blames me because I wouldn't stop talking about guys (because of my jealousy) and that I basically drove her into his arms. It was an encounter tho bu

My Life
Today is the day i begin my new lifeI spent so many years searching for a wifeI looked high and low near and farBut she won't appear tell me where you areI'm a nice guy who feels he deserves the bestSo till i find my one love i will not restPeople tell me that i should sit and waitBut most of the time i think i'm too lateWhat if my true love passed me byeWhen i was in and out of relationships that made me hurt and cryAll i want is a girl to like me for meAnd than finally and live happy as can be Another Poem By joe Blake

Part 1
The Hunter: Path of Atonement The growling is heard from the alley way, as two boys run through it, looking behind them as they run, their faces filled with the fear of death. One of them holding their arm as drops of blood fall to the dirty street. Under normal nights, the figure watching them would enjoy the fear, even revel in it. The figure sighs and watches the figures …this isn't any night though, he has a mission and a person to draw out. "Damnable sire....wish she would use me for more than this simple task…could be feeding right now" the figure grumbles, following the two boys as they run, making sure to stay visible enough for them to know where he is...and to make sure his target knows as well. Picking up speed as he jumps from the top of one building to the next, keeping his hunger in check, knowing if all goes well he will feed plenty tonight after this little adventure. He jumps from another building to the next, grinning as he senses the presence of anot

What I Really Hate!
I really freaking hate when a waiter/waitress takes the the bill after you paid and you haven't left yet. I don't know why but it just gets on my nerves. It makes me want to take my tip back. Don't get me wrong though I'm a great tipper but I just think it is plain rude. What do you think? Let Me Know!!!

So Sick Of The Bullshit
i'm sick of people telling me they think i'm pretty and they think i'm and they think i'm that.. but then they turn around say they dont want me.. well why not. what makes me not good enough?god damn i'd rather have you tell me the truth and say i'm sorry i just dont like you. than say all this bullshit about me being this and me being that and how you like me, but just dont want to date me. but have no reason at all.. way to make a girl feel real good about herself..

Madness
Been trying to keep the reins taut on the perpetual straining of freedom's head. What is jealousy? I don't believe it has green eyes. I believe they're red, just as red as hatred and anger, and just as ugly--but at the same time, heartbreakingly beautiful, captivating, tempting enough that you just might sell your soul in exchange for the secrets and pleasures they keep. They say sticks and stones can break bones, but words can never hurt. That's a big fucking lie right there. Words slice deeper, wounding the soul and heart, not the flesh. No pain is deeper or hurts more. Words captivate, enthrall, manipulate--words keep the puppet on her strings, dancing for her master no matter what the cost to her person. Why, he could dance her right across a bed of hot coals, dunking her in the molten lava at the end and keep a smile on her face. Such pretty, pretty words they can be. So why then when their speaker is no longer present, do they leave a taste in the mouth that's both a

Leaving Fubar Behind Me.
I'm Leaving All This Behind Me.This Is The Last Time I Leave.I Have College Soon Anyway So I Wont Have Time For Any Of This.Theres No Fighting With Me On This,Theres No Telling Me " Well Your Leaving Over THAT",I Leave Over Whatever The Hell I Want To Leave For. Im Just Done.Take It For What You Want.

For Kiwichi....i Know How Your Feeling
You never said, you never said, you never said That it would be so hard Love is meant to be forever, now or never seems to discard There's gotta be a better way for me to say What's on my heart without leaving scars Can you hear me When I call your name And when you fall apart Am I the reason for you endless sorrow There's so much to be said And with a broken heart Your walls can only go down but so low Can you hear me when I call your name Complicated situations are the makings of all that's wrong And I've been standing in the river of deliverance way too long There's gotta be a better way for me to say What's on my heart without leaving scars Can you hear me when I call your name So, can you hear me when I call your name And when you fall apart Am I the reason for your endless sorrow There's so much to be said And with a broken heart Your walls can only go down but so low Can you hear me when I call your name

Joke
In this life in this world i don't fuckin know Cuz i never ever fuckin do n people always gotta fuckin pick & target me like it's the only thing they can do in fuckin life make me fuckin sick make me fuckin sick make me fuckin tick lick a lick die or go eat fuckin shit. All i know is that i don't get people like you in this world. Always gotta fuckin get on my case be down my neck. Start your lil stupid shit n put me through it. You fuckin bitch hope someday i run you in & knock you straight the fuck out while ur passed out on the ground. Take ur panties off n fuckin rape ur lil pussy n ass n smack you the fuck round. Make you feel my pain i'm goin insane like i never had no mind. In my eyes is blind i could never fuckin see through out how this life to be. N everytime you always gotta target me n get on my case. Better hope we don't meet face to face beat ur shit out of misplace bitch that's not enough then i'll make you suck my 9inch dick make you fuckin gag on it down ur throat n m

Moments In Life
There are moments in life when you miss someoneso much that you just want to pick them fromyour dreams and hug them for real! When the door of happiness closes, another opens;but often times we look so long at theclosed door that we don't see the one,which has been opened for us. Don't go for looks; they can deceive.Don't go for wealth; even that fades away.Go for someone who makes you smile,because it takes only a smile tomake a dark day seem bright.Find the one that makes your heart smile. Dream what you want to dream;go where you want to go;be what you want to be,because you have only one lifeand one chance to do all the thingsyou want to do. May you have enough happiness to make you sweet,enough trials to make you strong,enough sorrow to keep you human andenough hope to make you happy. The happiest of people don't necessarilyhave the best of everything;they just make the most ofeverything that comes along their way. The brightest future will alwaysbe based on a forgotten past

Without End
Filled with myself..walled up in my skin by an inapprehensible god that is stifling me.. Deceived perhaps by his radiant atmosphere of light that hides my drained conscience..my wings broken into splinters of air.. my listless groping through the mire.. filled with myself.. gorged... I discover my essence in the astonished image of water..that is an unwithering cascade..a tumbling of angels fallen of their own accord in pure delight.. that has nothing but a face half sunken.. already.. like an agonized laugh in the thin sheets of the cloud and the mournful canticles of the sea..more aftertaste of salt or cumulus whiteness than lonely haste of foam pursued.. Paradox constrained by the rigor of the glass that clarifies it, the water with endless shapes take shape... without end... .. . FUEGO POETICAS

Far From Me
.....coming from a dark area knowing nothing but closed eyes, awake the mind from skin popped in a world filled of lies.. the cry of mouth in anger i learn to soon stop.. before the first sigh, before the first cry.. and all before that is me before time.. in between the plan, the two connecting one created new young hands.. where am i before that, and if they never met i'd be no soul returning back.. does this make since, far from me in conscience.. in between realities reels, always looking for a good deal.. then when the cards are dealt, the greed proceeds it's stealth self.. can this be far from me, me in between life and greed.. FUEGO POETICAS

A True Love Story!!!!
Swallows: Here his mate is injured and the condition is fatal. She was hit by a car as she swooped low across the road. Here he brought her food and attended to her with love and compassion. He brought her food again but was shocked to find her dead. He tried to move her ... a rarely-seen effort for swallows! Aware that his sweetheart is dead and will never come back to him again, He cries with adoring love.. He stood beside her, saddened of her death. Finally aware she would never return to him, he Stood beside her body with sadness and sorrow. Millions of people were touched after seeing these photos in America and Europe and even India. The photographer sold these pictures for a nominal fee to the most famous newspaper in France. All copies of that edition were sold out on the day these pictures were published. And many people think animals don't have a brain or feelings? You have just witnessed Love and Sorrow ... Felt by God's creatures.

Ur Madness Or Mine
step into my mind.. u wont find my truths nor my answers.. you'll find iam most definatly insane.. you choke on my wrds. my eyes pierce threw ur soul leaving u this hole of regret. but still i feel the same. watching u go down this spiral of madness. i spin it around and leave u a bitter taste in ur mouth.. Did u feel that slap of hurt i just gave you .. yea thats me and my mind.. ill leave u breathless and confused. spilling my secrets my flaws to the world IM NAKED .but still u return like an addict needing their fix. my kiss so deadly that it poisions ur toung. poisions ur mind. and again i feel no regret for the the things i have done. No shame in my heart nor my eyes. Seems wrong of me to watch u fall but like a movie i rewind and fastfrwd. the pain or ur face sends me a satisfaction that i just cant control. Its like frenzie i just love it.So i rock it with ur madness just before u come to the conclusion that im an illusion. i was never there at all. just somthing u tried to rea

Scared/afraid
I cant help but feel that something has changed between the love of my life and I. I live in Indiana and she lives in Texas. I know that long distance relationships are hard. We were in a long distance relationship with one another back in 2004. She had gotten scared and pushed me away. I know that she is probably just busy because she has two little boys and she is currently on the night shift as an LVN (nurse). We both had agreed that no matter what. We would tell one another how we are feeling. Especially if it is about our relationship. For some reason I feel like something has changed between her and I. And I dont know why or what. Maybe it is just my imagination. But I am truely scared that I may have lost her again or that I may have pushed her away. I've sent her a txt about how i feel and have asked her if something has changed or if I have lost her or pushed her away. And she hasnt answered back. I feel that this time its my fault.

Maybe It Was Me
maybe it was me/who foolishly/ followed the pipers melody/ more than i could withstand/running with sharp set of scissors in my hand/(your bound to get hurt)/ how in the hell did i not see it/ or maybe i did/ and refused to give a shyt/trying to box a god with arms/ intent to lose and do my self harm/ im my own bad luck charm/ why dont i listen? because of pride and ego/ no i just could not let go/ still want what whats not mine/ by any means/ anyplace, any time/ dont have to run a line/ yeap i done peeped the spiders trap/ not yet stuck in the web/ but my goal is stuck in my head....now how shall i etrieve what is not mine to achieve / muthafuck just beleieve/ in the end im a chris brown/ cant breathe/ do a asthmaic heave and hope for the best/ altho i know the sweetest poison is the perfume from her neck/ that will burn like acid in my chest.....

Dj Wreckless
Avian influenza (“bird flu”) is an infectious disease of birds caused by type A strains of the influenza virus. The infection can cause a wide spectrum of symptoms in birds, ranging from mild illness, which may pass unnoticed, to a rapidly fatal disease that can cause severe epidemics. Avian influenza viruses do not normally infect humans. However, there have been instances of certain highly pathogenic strains causing severe respiratory disease in humans. In most cases, the people infected had been in close contact with infected poultry or with objects contaminated by their faeces. Nevertheless, there is concern that the virus could mutate to become more easily transmissible between humans, raising the possibility of an influenza pandemic. look sweetie not a threat to most people! last time i checked i wasnt in a 3rd world country handling diseased chickens! you goof!

Dreaming
Dreaming I've been dreaming of you all nightOf how, to hold you so tight.We lay under the stars so bright.Dreaming, of dreamless sleep at night.Dreaming of how to tell each other each night.The deepest things in our hearts tonight.Deep in dreams, of you, are so right.Dreaming, of you again tonight.Dreaming, of you in the twilight.Dreaming, of catching your sight.Dreaming, of the night we don’t fight.Dreaming, of holding you tight.Dreaming, I got it right.Dreaming,I've got that right.

Dreams
Dreams. ( Second half of dreaming)Images Unclear by the light, The fog of this dream.It does seem so real though…The picture inside my head.The ideas are all so clouded.Is it fact or fiction?Real or make-believe?Is it just a dream?I want it to be so real.Dream!How can it be this real?The lights the fogBlocking the images of my dreams.Yes that’s the powerOf dreams. Leaving you wondering.Dreams.

Him
~Him~Your Hair,Your face,your Eyes,your lipsI see every DayYour fingers,your hands,your armsI can feel wrapped around meThe sensations I get from your breathon my neck or your scent. Your fingertipsgrazing my skin. Is the only thing I missBaby I need you in my arms.Baby I need to feel your love.

Holidays
HolidaysDays grow short and weather grows cold.As holidays grow near.Silver bells can be heard.Crowds begin to swell.Ho Ho Ho!Holidays are hereSnow covers balls of red and green twinkle under the moonlight.Oh what a holiday sightChristmas lights sparkle like the northern star. Lighting the way for Family and friends. To join in the holiday cheer.Here are the holidays just in time for snow.As the snow falls we are warmed by the hot sweet treat While watching the snowflakes.Dancing on the frozen window sills.

Inspire
InspirePonders Looking out the window Seeing a world of wonder Looking for something For something That just ain't there The music plays on and on but whereWhere are the words?Where is my sunshine?Where is my spirit? Where is the thing that inspires me? Lost-- I am at a no winning situationWith no way out

Is My Life A Game
Is my life a game?Is my life a game to you?Is my life a piece of toilet paperyou use and throw away.Am I not a real person with feelings to?Am I something to be used and thencast aside like yesterday underwear?Was I something to just pass the time?You never loved me.You only used me.You waited till Igave my heart to youthen you trampled it in tothe ground

My Inspiration
My InspirationShe is so smallshe is so brightshe is the reason I worry at nightshe is the reason for my breathingshe makes my life completeShe makes me smileshe makes me proudshe is my worldshe is my inspirationShe makes me laughshe makes me cryshe is my everythingShe is my worldshe is my inspiration

Not Just Me
Not just meI was once just mesad and alone staring out the windowwishing to find someone like youthen one day you walked in and itsbeen bliss ever sinceHaving met you has ment so much You openedmy heart to the ways of loveYou showed me a side of you no one else eversees that is compassionate I can't wait to spend my life with youYou are my life my lovemy heart my soulits no longer you its no longer menow its us for eternity

Smokey Bar
A smokey bar... a pair of sexy dreamy eyes... a heart skipping a beat.... our eyes meet the smoke is thick the smell is rank one will never forget 2 hearts beat for each other the music is loud the food is bad drunks picking fights. still I watch you night after night I watch over my frosty beer mug For those sexy dreamy eyes. Want to get close. Yet to afraid to move. A heart lonely and broken. sad and weeping Needs someone to hold.

Road I Won't Take
A mind wanders a heart strays another road I won't take. Choices made pointless atempts to get laidThings that matter seem to fadeAs night turns to dayI am still here. in the mirror.the crow caws there go the law.Sirens and light flashI better hide my stash. Cause there minds wander on my cash.I see my guy So fucken HIGHPressing up on some thighHis heart straysCause you know what Thats messed upAnother road I won't make.

Standing Before Me
Standing before meThere a man standing before meHes more than a friendHes more than a lover Hes my mind, body, and soulThis man standing before me Is my missing linkThe part that makes me holeThis man standing before meIs you your the one standing before me No one else could understand The things I say.This man standing before me Can take my breath with just a side ways glanceHe leave me with weak knees every time we touchThis man standing before me is the oneMy eturnal soulmate my partner in lifethe one I love.

Tears
A stinging forms Something catches in my throat Our friendship is on unsoiled ground.My eyes burn my heartbreaksInside I am not so soundA mask covers my pain When tears begin to fallTears roll down my cheeks like water cascading over the edge of a cliffThis pain is just to much to bare.My eyes red and swollen My face is blotchyMy cheeks are wet and itchy.

To My Babies
To my Babies:My children My lovesMy LifeMy BabiesI am always watchingwatching theein the morningin the eveningwhile you dream in sleepKeeping gaurdKeeping you safewatchingwatching you growbecome young adultsMy babies alwayswith every tearand angery wordI am proud of youI will always be watchingI will always be hereI love my babies I am watching you. ~Love Mommy

Pain
"Pain" Life, always bring the bitter edge of this Viceral Pain, Take it all into yourself.Is this life even consdered sane? It brings you in, grabs at you, tearing. Feeds on Fear. Is living worth the pain? After life, death comes near. It's the one constant, Takes you down. Will is ever end? Bring, bring the pain again Make me bleed, 'till I let this go Take from me, all that I could love Darkness come, release me now You walk through the halls of school, dead to them all. Their actions hurt, but you take it, trying to stand tall You belive in Karma, hoping they get theirs in the end But you also know that they hurt you, making you bend Will this ever end? No end in sight only the familiar hate. Bring, bring the pain again Make me bleed, 'till I let this go Take from me, all that I could love Darkness come, release me now The bell rings, you return home, the darkness seething Still the same. More fights and hate, occasional bleeding These walls should bring solace to you, peace, s

Smiling Child
“Smiling Child” Another broken dream, another time to close your eyes and cave, the beautiful taste of raw dark emotion Another fallen love by the wayside, the tears of the vain past become the future, broken blind motion the words "I'll call you" are always the last words of the night, you always know the hidden meaning Another night alone to your thoughts, no one to hold and know they care, now you're always seething What is wrong with you, why are you forever alone, you start to think of it as your own damn fault Pain everywhere, every path you look these dying bloody days, defeated See the burn marks of the flesh everywhere, the broken skin of your arm Just drop the pretext,just draw the blades as the blood trickles and flows No one knows it was ever possible of you, they all remember the smiling child Your past started this present future, the beatings and broken bones of those that once always loved you they said the same words over and over..I love you became

Pshhht.honey Please....
IM GOING TO SAY THIS ONE TIME & ONE TIME ONLY... UNLESS U KNOW ME,KEEP MY NAME OUTTA YA MOUTH!YA DIG?.I THINK ITS THE MOST CHILDISH THING EVER TO GO RUNNING UR MOUTH ABOUT SOMETHING THAT YOU HAVE NO IDEA WHAT YOU ARE TALKIN ABOUT... SO u little punkasses who ran ur mouth to me earlier.....TAKE THEM DAMN SHOES OFF YA TEETH AND QUIT RUNNIN THAT DAMN MOUTH....

Serial Killer
I am the serial killer I am the bloody hand I am the chief whore taker I am the chosen one. I am the red staight razor, The one who bathes in blood; I am the boogey-man, I am The empty yawning hood, Look not for pity, no; I am the heartless man, I come to fix all things, I am the one man band. You cannot yet imagine, How you will dance for me; But you will dance forever To the tune that I decree. The kingdom of the worm, Is all things to us all, But I will teach you many things, before I let you fall. I am the black dead nightmare. I bring a light so bright; To illuminate the path we take; I show the way that all hearts break, And I will see the old world's back be broken As we descend into the awful, Howling Night. I love this passage, cuz it seems to reflect my attitude toward humanity, and my hatred for the failing human race. Motorhead is fuckin god for this.

I Love U
With love so pureand a smile so brightwish i could take a tourof your body, i know it'll be a sightyou kiss my face and i smileand i know you see it and put one on your dialit's been one whole weekand boy has it gone quicki had the best weekand there's no one else i would have pickedi love you (*****) with all my heartyou got me now, just like a target & darti've never been so sure if someone really loved mebut with you i do, it's really just you & me(*****), please stay with my foreveryou're my world now, and don't you forget it ever

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Lost
My soul is hallowin deep in beneath the ground. Round from where I am I can see. What I came from to be this lifeless pain. I feel joltin me. This world I feel myself not in everything deep. All seepenin life what is worth all i dispurce. First mistake was bein born heart-shattered & torn. The world in what everyone wants/need. Disasterin life my life as it seems as it is. I give for what it take for whats at stake. Then hell what do i know I don't really know. All is out there & the lurkin shadows. Dream I dream I can't find a means stayin out of scenes. This war this world my soul hallowin beneath me underground round & round where my life goes/stops I don't know. Shit is nothin that i'll know that i'll never know that i should know. Nothin is all that i will know. This world I'm in disgust me feelin sick & ugly. Nothin is lovely this world around me is everything but above me. Can't remember how everything in the end will always remain drain. How the pain will show where does my lif

Putrid Excuse
You are a miserable excuse for a person.You prey upon others’ generosity, You attempt to charm your way into their hearts, You want to use their goodness for your own lack of esteem.You want to voice your own opinion, and be damned of the consequences.You want to spend others’ money, but to hell and perdition if you want to spend YOURSYou so do not want to hear advice.You do not wish to learn wisdom.You do not wish to care about anyone; except for yourself.You are the most vile of filthy scum I have every met.You claim to love people, but inside it’s all about YOU.You claim to care about people; but only when it suits YOU.You haven’t a care about hurting people- or their feelings, but the world be damned (!) if YOUR feelings-opinions-voice are hurt!Your laziness oozes from you like the stench of death, Your attitude of ME-ME-ME, is so visible as the sun’s rays.Your willingness to open your putrid mouth and spout your stupidity to the world, is on par with

The Slilent Scream Of Rage
I grew up not knowing the evils of this worldI had to discover them on my ownThe banshees of greed and avariceThe demons of hate and envyThe succubuses of lust and desireThe changelings of corruption and apathyWounds, gouged out of my heart, due to my ignoranceThe arnour of indifference now drapes my frameKnowing what I know now, my mouth opens in a silent scream of rage.

You Claim
You claim to love, Yet you are as loving as clayYou claim to be unconditional, Yet you soil us with your vilest filthYou claim to be faithful, Yet you beseech those you have supposedly forsakenYou claim to trust, Yet you search endlessly for the most minute of flawYou claim to help, Yet the help you give, is that of a cobra’s venomYou claim to desire, Yet you desire only yourselfYou claim to need, Yet the needs you yearn for, are beyond love’s scopeYou claim despair, Yet it is only your self-centered nature that deceives your true intentionsYou claim everything, Yet you reap nothing.You claim intelligence and wisdom, Yet only your stupidity and immaturity show.

Sound Of Madness ~ Shinedown~
Yeah, I get it, You're an outcast. Always under attack. Always coming in last, Bringing up the past. No one owes you anything. I think you need a shotgun blast, A kick in the ass, So paranoid. . . Watch your back!! Oh my, here we go... Another lose cannon gone bi-polar Slipped down, couldn't get much lower. Quicksand's got no sense of humor. I'm still laughing like hell. You think that by crying to me Looking so sorry that I'm gonna believe, You've been infected by a social disease. Well, then take your medicine. [Chorus:] I created the Sound of Madness. Wrote the book on pain. Somehow I'm still here, To explain, That the darkest hour never comes in the night. You can sleep with a gun. When you gonna wake up and fight... for yourself? I'm so sick of this tombstone mentality, If there's an afterlife, Then it'll set you free. But I'm not gonna part the seas You're a self-fulfilling prophecy. You think that crying to me, Looking so sorry that I'm gonna believe, You've been infected by

Cry For Help ~shinedown~
You've been hiding out For quite a while now, Living off of people you know Trying to raise a little money To pay off all the monkeys That you met inside the Rabbit hole You're taking candy from the white witch You're smoking tea with Mama Kin Well, there's a wolf outside A brick house screaming; "This time I'm gonna blow it in!" [Pre-chorus:] Because the mind is a weapon, see And it's got you on Your hands and knees Pull the trigger if you're gonna We all know that you wanna Count of 1, 2, 1, 2, 3! [Chorus:] You better pray that theres Another way out You better pray that Someones listening now (And doesn't wanna watch you drown) 'Cause when you lie like The devil himself No angels gonna hear your Cry for help! I know you must really think It's funny, you had everybody Fooled in the end But it's a little unassuming Considered how you knew me I'm the only one that called You a friend [Pre-chorus] [Chorus] Count of 1, 2, 1, 2, 3!!! [Chorus] For help [x3]

Help My Friend In A Contest Comment And Rate Her Daily.
Help my Friend SweetCherry bomb in a Naughty Nightie contest @ the Candy Shop , please read the blog on that site for the rules and help her out (click on pic to link to the contest ,you may have to join the Candy Shop to vote/comment)

Grieving
Adrift in a sea of pain,Lost in time,No longer moving forward,Unable to move back.No one to turn to,No one to love me,Pushing myself to the limits,Nowhere left to hide,Tears welling up,Depression kicking in,Everything piling up,Threatening to topple over,Needing some kind of release,The anger is building,The sadness growing,Until all that's left is an empty shell.How do I brush the cobwebs,That have become my life?How do i stop thoughts of death,From taking over my mind?

Friends
Friends are supposed to be forever,Never leaving your side.If something they don't like happens,Don't run away and hide.Stick to your side like glue,Through thick and thin.The bond you share together,Sometimes stronger than that of kin.So when they're not around,It makes me want to cry.I feel I've done something wrong,But not once did I ever lie.Madness gets you nowhere,So if you're lying spit it out.Speak the words truthfully,And I will believe you without a doubt.True friends are hard to find,I will always have your back.But please always be honest,And don't treat me like some kind of quack.

Emotions
I'm tired of all the hiding,the pain bottled inside.just wanting someone to love me,in no one i can confide.locked deep inside me,where no one else can see.a deep rooted pain keeps growing.why cant it just leave me be?i hunger for a mans touch,the feel of a warm embrace.but i can't let the feeling show,shame written across my face.i'm scared of all these people,my family and my friends.my panic keeps on growing,i just want it all to end.why can't i just let them out,show everyone what i feel.what exacly is wrong with me,surrounding my emotions a never-breaking seal.

Say Goodbye
How am I supposed to leave,While there's no way to stay.How can I keep you near to me,Without pushing you away.I love you dearly with all my heart,I don't want you to leave my side,But I can no longer keep you close to me,I have to run and hide.If I decide to stand by you,Then I'll never be able to part.I can't stick around and take the chance,Of you breaking my fragile heart.So I'm sorry to have to tell you,I'm going to have to say goodbye.I really don't want to cause any pain,And to you I don't ever want to lie.

Speaking Out
How do I tell you what I'm feeling,When I'm to nervous to say your name.I want to tell you what's in my heart,But it always end up so lame.I want to shout to the world,How much in love with you I am.The words just can't quite come out,I feel like such a ham.I feel like I'm flying like an eagle,Over the bountiful sea.But when I try to tell you how I feel,I come crashing to my knees.Basically I've lost all hope,Of ever telling you how I feel.I'll just stay locked up in my box,Until I've finally learned how to deal.

Truthful
Tell my what lies in your heart,And I'll tell you what lies in mine.If we're always honest to eachother,Then we will be just fine.I don't want us to be dishonest,Never cheat or lie.For if we're not completely truthful,Then my heart will wither and die.You know I'll always love you,From the bottom of my heart.But if you ever cheat on me,Then surely we will part.So heed these words I tell you,Listen to what I say.Never leave me in the dark,And tomorrow dawns a bright new day.

Master/slave Part One
There seems to be a common pattern of misconceptions about Owner/property relationships (also called "Master/slave" relationships, although I have issues with that terminology) - and the nature of persons who become involved in consensual slavery as the slave. A flock of comments in this regard cycled through one mailing list a while back, and spurred the following commentary. Thanks to Lenora for her thoughtful grist for the mill. Her name and comments are used with permission. M/s Relationships & the “slave” word Many, many people are involved in D/s of various degrees of control, using the terms “Master”, “Mistress” and “slave” for the erotic charge and symbolic meaning of it. Relatively few people engage in an M/s relationship in its original and traditional sense of owning obedient human property, using the words “Master” and “slave” in t

Part Duece Master/slave
I also recognize that, as happens with language, the terms slave and M/s have been absorbed wholesale into the broader kink community and are often used with little or no understanding of or regard for the current or older meanings of those words. I think this happens from ignorance, not an intent to co-opt or redefine terms, but it certainly adds to the confusion when people think the term “slave” has any meaning they want it to have. From oral history I have heard in various parts of the leather community, the term “slave” used to be used far less frequently than it is today. A dominant woman who is now in her 70s, who has been active in kink since the early ‘60s, told me once, "It used to be that a slave was someone’s slave. They were property. People don’t often mean it that way anymore.” So rather than thinking that the M/s community has taken its word “slave” o

Part 5 Master/slave
Can People Really Do This Stuff? Lenora: "I believe that i understand the concept of being completely owned by someone, but i'm not sure how much i really believe it works...and I feel... that when you are describing your meanings for the word slave as opposed to submissive that you are describing a fairly unrealistic thing." [Sidenote: Lenora is referring here to my essay regarding the differences between a slave and a submissive. See A Slave is Not a Submissive.] If you simply don't think it's possible to live in a committed state of obedience to a partner, I refer you to certain styles of traditional marriages the world over to see how "one person calling the shots" can work out in practice. It is interesting to observe that the elements of the Christian Right in this country promoting wifely submission to the husband - and those who live that way - are following M/s precepts in all but the chattel concept. However -

More Part 6 Omg Ugh Master/ Slave
It can be challenging to become more connected with the M/s community, this minority-within-a-sexual-minority. There are few organizations which draw M/s folk together (though MasT is one, Masters and slaves together; see their website for more info at http://www.mast.net). In my experience, the vast majority of M/s folk are either invisible – blending as apparently “ordinary” het couples into the mainstream community wherever they may live, and living secretively about their kink – or they are ghettoized and identifiable in numbers only in places where a minority bands together for support in numbers (such as in the gay men’s leather community in various cities large enough to support a concentrated population and hence a certain critical mass of Master/slave couples). Many M/s folk avoid the organized BDSM community entirely because they feel (often with good reason) that their lifestyle is not

Medical Update On My Eyes
Try to keep this short. About a month ago I started to have some irritation in both eyes. So I changed to a new pair of contacts. No relief so I stopped wearing them. Still no relief. They were red.. itchy... soree.. swollen.. and my vision was blurred. Thinking it was allergies, I went to the Dr. He agreed and gave me a prescription for drops. The drops didn't help a lot, and kinda burned when I put them in. Last week I was away at the beach and since I got no relief I knew it was not an allergy. Being at the beach would have taken me away from the trouble. I went to the eye dr yesterday. Not allergies at all. Far from it. I was shocked at the diagnosis and really didn't ask questions because I didn't know what to say. This Dr. says my immune system is attacking and destroying my corneas. Sounds strange.. and a bit scarey. He could not do a proper exam because my eyes are too swollen. I can't read anything on the screen with my right eye. The left is blurry but I ca

I Found My Ex On Ddhg.com...
Are you dating someone you are not too sure about? Is your best friend a COMPLETE loser who shouldnt be in the dating pool, and you want to warn girls to STAY away? Join dontdatehimgirl.com or at least browse. Maybe that guy from 3 years ago who left a bad taste in your mouth is on there already, maybe you think he SHOULD be on there. Guys: If you see yourself on that website, feel free to rebuttle. You have the right to stand up for yourself if the posting is falsified.

Thinking Of Leaving
Got to the point again for a second time , sick of the people on this dam site and how they act . If you are a friend of mine and want to stay in touch then stay in touch on my yahoo or like to stay in touch dont know how let me know , This is not for sure ill give it untill tonight and see what happens let me knwo if you like me to stay or you like to see more of my artwork , i get enough comments on this blog about staying then i will , if not the stuff above will apply. Rick

Why Females Should Avoid A Girl's Night Out
females should avoid a girl's night out after they aremarried..../If this does not make you laugh out loud, you have lostyour sense of humor. The other night I was invited out for a night with the 'girls'. I toldmy husband that I would be home by midnight , 'I promise!' Well, the hours passed and the margaritas went down way too easily. Around 3 a.m. , a bit loaded, I headed for home. Just as I got in the door, the cuckoo clock in the hallway started upand cuckooed 3 times. Quickly, realizing my husband would probably wake up, I cuckooedanother 9 times. I was really proud of myself for coming up with such a quick-wittedsolution, in order to escape a possible conflict with him. (Even when totally smashed... 3 cuckoos plus 9 cuckoos totals 12cuckoos = MIDNIGHT !) Th e next morning my husband asked me what time I got in, I told him' MIDNIGHT '... He didn't seem pissed off in the least. Whew, I got away with that one! Then he said 'We need a new cuckoo clock.' When I asked him w

The Patient
The Patient A groan of tedium escapes me, startling the fearful. Is this a test? It has to be. Otherwise I can't go on. Draining patience. drain vitality. this paranoid, paralyzed vampire act's a little old. But I'm still right here, giving blood and keeping faith. And I'm still right here. But I'm still right here, giving blood and keeping faith. And I'm still right here. I'm gonna wait it out If there were no rewards to reap, no loving embrace to see me through this tedious path I've chosen here, I certainly would've walked away by now. I'm gonna wait it out If there were no desire to heal The damaged and broken met along this tedious path I've chosen here, I certainly would've walked away by now. I still may. And I still may. Be patient. I must keep reminding myself of this... If there were no rewards to reap, no loving embrace to see me through this tedious path I've chosen here, I certainly would've walked away by now. And I still may. And I still may. And I still may. I'

Savior
Until you crash Until you burn Until you lie Until you learn Until you see Until you believe Until you fight Until you fall Until the end of everything at all Until you die Until you're alive Don't save me, don't save me, cuz I don't care Don't save me, don't save me, cuz I don't care Until you give Until you've used Until you've lost Until you lose Until you see, how could you believe? Until you've lived a thousand times Until you've seen the other side This is my chance, this is my chance Don't save me, don't save me, cuz I don't care Don't save me, don't save me, cuz I don't care Until the truth becomes a lie Until you change, until you deny Until you believe This is my chance, this is my chance I'll take it now because I can This is my chance, I want it now Don't save me, don't save me, cuz I don't care Don't save me, don't save me, cuz I don't care Save me, save me, save me Save me, save me, save me I don't care

A Blind Eye (act 2)
"I can't believe this shit." There was a pause for a moment. "Six months and nothing. We get nothing. He's walking out of there doing a dance and we're stuck here with out thumbs in our asses." Jeffery's head was pounding. The voice just went through his head like a steel spike that found it's way into the folds of his mind and his ears. He could have sworn that there was a gun somewhere going off, or so it seemed to him. Everything happened in a blur and he was still trying to catch up, even if there was an innocent man who had been rightfully angered sitting in Jail right now. "Yeah, well i guess we can't do anything because SOMEONE." Meaning his 'Partner' "Decided that they weren't going to include the ring in the Testimony. We could have nailed him." Apparently people were not too smart anymore. Their motives for whatever they were doing seemed to be irrelevant or unimportant anymore. A good Officer would have went balls to the all, full throttle to make sure that their man got

Speedy
I'm not quite sure what I'm suppose to blog about so here it goes. Speedy is an awesome guy that doesn't seem to be on a lot, unless it's during the time that I'm not, which wouldn't be surprising. Speedy is one who likes to try different things, which I think is great! He loves to listen to music, and play cards... Not much else I can really say at this time, really tired anyways :) Have a good night!

Sleep Disorders
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Purple Sky
I dare not dream lest my hopes be for naught because I know that a tear is just behind my eyes. I know that joy only distracts from the cold cruel heart of life. I can not smile because I know that it's a lie to say the least But I don't care right now because I'm staring at a purple sky stretching across the mountains… I think of loves I've lost and let the tears begin to fill my eyes I think of the cross I bear and the stones still hung around my neck and sigh I know only the pain of hate so spawned by hurt that grows within me But right now I feel no pain because I'm staring at a purple sky stretching across the mountains… Everywhere I walk, the cold hand of pain is not too far behind every step I make I walk with it beside. My dance with hate is constant as every breathe I heave is blown across her face. I walk in her shadow but not just now because I'm staring at a purple sky stretching across the mountains.

Love Defined
We waste time looking for the perfect lover, instead of creating the perfect love. When we're incomplete, we're always searching for somebody to complete us. When, after a few years or a few months of a relationship, we find that we're still unfulfilled, we blame our partners and take up with somebody more promising. This can go on and on--series polygamy--until we admit that while a partner can add sweet dimensions to our lives, we, each of us, are responsible for our own fulfillment. Nobody else can provide it for us, and to believe otherwise is to delude ourselves dangerously and to program for eventual failure every relationship we enter.” Our Similarities bring us to a common ground; Our Differences allow us to be fascinated by each other. We're our own dragons as well as our own heroes, and we have to rescue ourselves from ourselves.” Love is the ultimate outlaw. It just won't adhere to any rules. The most any of us can do is to sign on as its acc

Me
I TRUST VERY FEW, I DONT LET PEOPLE IN MY HEART OR MY WORLD....I DONT LIKE PEOPLE TO SEE THINGS I DO. I WORK HARD AND PLAY HARDER.....I AM A FORCE TO RECON WITH!!!! I DONT PLAY GAMES AND I TELL THINGS LIKE THEY ARE. I CANT STAND A LIAR OR A CHEATER......WHY LIE AND WHY CHEAT.......I LIVE TO HAVE FUN AND HAVE A GOOD TIME THAT IS WHAT LIFE IS FOR.....MY LIFE IS HARD AND ROUGH BUT IT HAS MADE ME WHO I AM......I AM A MOTHER A SISTER, A WIFE A EX A KIND GIVING PERSON WHO WILL DO ANYTHING FOR THE ONES CLOSE TO ME.....I HAVE TWO BEST FRIENDS WHO MEAN THE WORLD TO ME AND WHO I KNOW HAS MY BACK NO MATTER WHAT THE COST.....I HAVE TWO KIDS WHO ARE MY LIFE AND WHO WILL BE BACK WITH ME BEFORE I KNOW IT.....I AM STRONGER THAN MOST KNOW AND YOU CANT KEEP ME DOWN......I GIVE AS GOOD AS I TAKE AND IF NOT BETTER. I AM SWEET, KIND CARING AND LOVING WHEN I NEED TO BE.....I AM 20% ANGEL AND 80% DEVIL....I LOVE LIKE NO OTHER......AND I AM ALWAYS THERE IF YOU NEED ME..........I HATE DRAMA EVEN THOUGH MY EX H

Musings.
So, I was singing in the shower (yes, i admit it), and I got to thinking about something I watched on the History channel with brad today. The explosion in 1908 that devastated a russian forest, equal to.. i think they said 1,000 atomic bombs? There was no trace of meteor material. They found microscopic bits of nickel and iron in i believe sap in the trees from the site more recently. But people keep arguing that if it was a meteor it would have made a crater. No, it wouldn't. it exploded in the AIR. 5 miles above the earth's actual surface. if it actually IMPACTED, yes, there would be a crater. I'm more than half these scientists' agem how can I have more common sense than them? One of the old theories is that it was a UFO. Because of the power of the blast. there was no radiation, however, and there should be some form of trace, what with the atomic power. someting with that technology would HAVE to at least have SOME radiation, right? Well, it got me to thinking ab

Death Of A Poet
The sun shown bright in the mid-day sun, as the poet sat so still that a rabbit of no size strolled by. "What timely presence do I take who visits me so?" said the poet. "A humble and insignificant rabbit of no size at all who only wishes to stroll by." "Yes, I see but brave thou art for I am large and of hunger. You are small and insignificant; why stop to loosen gums." "I saw you standing and staring at the sun; why do you do such things?" Perplexed the poet thought... and he thought... and he thought and could not answer the gray insignificant rabbit. "And then he spoke, I wish to die." "But why?" "For the world no longer needs minstrils or merry men. They have given their souls to the needless clatter of auto and train. Listen for a moment how lonely the dardness trully is. Begone my friend before I lose hope of a better tomorrow."

Field Of Dreams
Having a hard time in life a young man takes a drive into the country. Driving down the road he finds himself so frustrated thinking about his wife and how he just found out she was banging his assistant daily while he was at lunch meetings. He hits the wheel and finds himself at a loss of the desire to live. He sees a pole and turns his wheel, runs into the pole and strikes it hard, he flys out the door and into the field beside him. He next finds himself wandering aimlessly through a field and not remembering who he is or where he is, he just walks. After a couple minutes he can no longer see the road, no longer see where he has come from or his footsteps through the high grass. He peers up a hill and sees a women leaned up against a tree. She has her horse tied to the tree beside her. To his shock as he gets closer, she is wearing just a ripped white wife beater, shreaded and hanging down low on her hip, as she rubs away , eyes closed at her warm wet uncovered snatch. He watches as

Friday Fantasy
Jack and a special girl talk off and on all week. She helps him out with some problems leaving him thankful as can be. Sadly she is working late Friday so they cant meet for dinner, but decide to meet for drinks afterwards, and see what happens from there. Friday comes around and the man calls her as he arrives. This time he is there on time and she walks in after. She walks up to his table and plants a kiss on him, almost knocking him over. He pulls her hair back and kisses her back. They sit down and a cute waitress comes up to ask them what they will drink. The man orders 2 dirty martinis for them to start with. They then continue to greet each other asking how their days have been. The drinks come and both drink up and order another within a couple minutes. This time the lady turns the table and orders a couple hurricanes for them. The man raises an eyebrow to this but when the drink comes he slips his shoe off and slides his foot between her legs. As they sip their drink he does

Wandering Bride Of Rt. 26
Spectral lady hitches ride, vanishesBy Mark LaFlammePublished: Aug 06, 2009 12:00 amIt happened like this: Shortly after midnight on July 11, a police officer in Mechanic Falls stopped to check on a teenage driver who was frantically flashing his headlights. When the cop approached the car, he found a 16-year-old named David who was badly shaken. The kid was in tears and babbling about something that happened moments ago in Poland.The story David told was a crazy one but not unique. For generations, travelers through this dark place have told tales of a young lady dressed in white hitchhiking along Route 26. Sometimes she's dressed in a prom dress and sits quietly in the passenger seat. Other times, she is a bride dressed in white or a morose young woman with a cautionary message to deliver.But our friend David had never heard those stories. He sat in his car stammering and trying to explain to the frowning policeman what had happened.Just before 2 a.m., David was driving on Route 26 b

Mare
You think you know me. You don't really know me. So how can you know me. Step the fuck off. Tryin to get on mine. Won't let you get me. Who the fuck do you think you are. Far from off. You ain't all so you really think you know me. Well you don't fuckin know me. You don't fuckin know me. So back the fuck on off me. Try to take mine no i won't let you. I won't let you Fucccck you little bitch get the fuck off my dick Make me so fuckin fuckin fuckin sick Whore Shame how today's society in this world is all fucked up. People don't know never happen to seem. To never have a mind & no sense. Everything in my life is densed. People really don't see. It's never ever what it is. Nor what it seem's. I'm so tired of the shit that i have to go through. Idk it's all that ever happns. Leave me alone don't fuckin bother me. Be on ur way fuck with the shit you say. Stay the fuck out of my Way I ain't dealin with ur mess always down lesser & Less Down down down Fuck with me i'll beat y

Misunderstood!
I feel as if my husband & myself are misunderstood in some fucked up way, O.k. I'm sure you all know by now that I am BISEXUAL? If not well there ya go I've said it now for the other part is my husband is also, I mean we haven't went to far into that issue but as I said before we're looking for someone who's into the same thing? Single (PLEASE) no couples theres to much DRAMA in that anyways I am going to say this if your interested in hooking up as friends first then go from there then by all means add wildcpl3338 to your list or even mine. Must be CLEAN & DISCREET an open minded. No (HEAD GAMES) this is a LONG-TERM thing we have been looking for, We're willing to swap pictures on yahoo if need be same name as our profile. I have said enough an hope this has let you all know what we're all about if not please feel free to ask any Q's? *Much love to all, your friends Jaime & John*

Is There Any Point In Fighting To Stave Off Industrial Apocalypse?
It is seriously well worth one’s time to read this short discussion. I personally think they are both correct, and both wrong, at the same time. (Just like in Logic-101; “The next sentence is a lie. The previous sentence is true.”)It is the reality that is being “allowed” to continue to progress, behind the fogging white noise of all of the political yelling, from all sides, about the much more trivial aspects of all of our lives, as the extremely-very-few, who are now wealthy far beyond your ability to comprehend, are “allowed,” by you, to continue to gather even more protective wealth, to “protect” them from... us, and from the coming multi-leveled crisis of the long fall of current human industrial culture - That we are all guilty of “allowing” to happen in the face of glaring undeniable evidence, and denied warnings.The simple complexity of the complex simplicity is beyond most Americans.The problem with the stupi

Don't Let Tramps Come In Between Your Friendship With Someone Else.
How can you claim to be someone's friend and then at a moments notice, turn your back on them? That is not a friend and especially not a "best friend". You would rather talk shit about the woman he loves because someone got ass hurt than to be a true blue friend to him. Well here's my warning to all you fubarians that have a friend(s) that are on here and you want to keep them friends....stay away from this chick named Silken Bagadonuts. She is a miserable person that likes to start shit with everyone she seems to come in contact with. She hates other women because she wants to be the center of every man's attention. She will try to come in between you and your significant other and when she can't accomplish that she will go to his best friend and start shit. She is really lucky that some people cannot get there hands on her or else she might be in the hospital. She thinks that she is so much better than every other female and trust me - SHES NOT! So beware and keep your distance.

Love And Care: I Sang The Sad Songs.
Ive been down that road..that takes you to the end..and i sang all the sad songs..one man could sing..ive cried in the rain..i tryed to belive..what others would not..ive been down with you..from day one..and still i am..sweet the roses are..in death..two lovers..one pine box..so sad..the bitter end..love like that of dreams..and like all dreams..it came to a tragic end..held in one anothers arms..life fading from each others eyes..oh ive been down that road..that takes you to the end..and ive sang all the sad songs..a man could bear..i know life is not fair..but with my broken heart..i open and share..what may not be clear to you..is crystal to me..ive been standing in the shadows..of two lovers..who one day..would die tragically..amongst the night's stars..so far away they felt..but so close to me they are..oh ive been down that road..that takes you on towards the end..and i sang all the sad songs..with my whole heart..each and every note..every range was perfected..but oh ive sang a

Survey
1. What do you think of the term "best friend"? It has never really ment to much to me . I mean in high school and middle school it use to be such a big deal to call someone your best friend. Most of my best friends and I don't even talk anymore , people just grow apart. 2. If you could go anywhere in the world and just spend un controlled time and money where would you go? I would maybe end up in Australia, they speak engish so not alot of issues there, and I like the ocean. I want to see the reef. 3.What do you want to be when you grow up? A Marine biologist , but realisticly I want to go to school to become a Dental Hygenist now. To make sure I'll always have a job, I can turn the other thing into a passion. 4. Show you love to hate but you still watch? I would not watch a show if I hated it. 5. Who do you look up to? I don't really look up to anyone, I've been pretty independent my whole life, I admire the work of others but I tend to go my own way. 6. Where do you see yo

True Friends Poem
True friends invite you over, fake friends screw you over. True friends always got your back, fake friends are haterz who want to walk in your tracks. True friends will do what it takes to see you happy, fake friends always want to see you sad. True friends has two shoulders for you to cry on, fake friends will see you crying and have the nerve to ask you for a loan. True friends will be there for you in life as you succeed, fake friends only come around when their broke ass is in need. To all my true friends i will love you for all eternity, To all my fake friends, get the f**k out of my life, your broke ass face I dont want to see!

Jealousy.
*sigh* I know I shouldn't be talking about my problems here. But... *sigh* While trying to reply to a text my friend sent me the other night, I discovered a plethora of messages to a girl from my boyfriend. Supposedly to his married friend (who, i'd like to point out, is SMOKING FUCKING HOT) talking about how attracted they were to each other, caling her sexy and shit like that. things he doesn't say to me. he claims he even says that to her husband, it's like their thing. But she's SMOKING FUCKING HOT. older than I am. Can drink. Everythign about her is an UPGRADE from me. and she's not pregnant. I know, i know, he's ALWAYS with me except on karaoke night, when he goes to hang with a bunch of his friends (all old enough to legally be there, unlike me), and I know that he woulda booted me a LOOOONG while ago for the jealousy if he didn't want to be with me. But all I ask for is a little romance from him, i mean, if he can talk to HER like that, why not me? *sigh* I

Obama’s Trust Problem
Published on Friday, August 21, 2009 by The New York Times Obama’s Trust Problem by Paul Krugman According to news reports, the Obama administration — which seemed, over the weekend, to be backing away from the “public option” for health insurance — is shocked and surprised at the furious reaction from progressives. Well, I’m shocked and surprised at their shock and surprise. A backlash in the progressive base — which pushed President Obama over the top in the Democratic primary and played a major role in his general election victory — has been building for months. The fight over the public option involves real policy substance, but it’s also a proxy for broader questions about the president’s priorities and overall approach. The idea of letting individuals buy insurance from a government-run plan was introduced in 2007 by Jacob Hacker of Yale, was picked up by John Edwards during the Democratic primary, and became

Life
What life is about It's those momentswhen you feel entirely carefree, like nothing can touch you.It's those moments that make the hard parts worth it.Those moments when I'm with you. There's nothing like the deep breathsafter a laugh that hard. Nothing in the world like a sore stomach for the right reasons-The perks of being a wallflowerfight for the things you love &love the things worth fighting for.In my opinion, the best thing you cando is find a person who loves you for exactlywhat you are. Good mood, bad mood, ugly, pretty,handsome, what have you; the right person will still think that the sun shines out your ass. That's the kind of person worth sticking with.[JUNO] We all hope for a boy who, as we smooth our hair, & tug at our clothes, will grab our hands, smile, & ask us "now, what the heck are you trying to fix, beautiful

The Ghost Of Fubar: The Hunting.
I am what one may call..a "ghost"..to some..i will be seen..to others i am just nothing..for me..i am as they say of me..im lurk inside the computer monitor..hanging around the many profiles..till sooner or later..you find me..and see the inner workings of my mind..this is where i live..the formation of words..i am no longer living..i am what they wanted of me..i am what they say i am..so i hang to the form of a ghost..you see what i allow you to see of me..if you can not hear me..then i am not living enough to reach you..so i hunt the sites i land upon..and the blogs are but my pleas..for somebody to see..the ghost of me..sit near you screen..and feel what i say unto you..so long ago..i was once alive with that of heart..emotions..and love..then due to the many times ive failed..and was broken..my body was no longer a matter to me..so i long lift my image..and body behind..and now i appear as that of a ghost..felt once you read me..i course through ink..and pad..such sadness..that i c

Survey 5
75 Random QuestionsRandomDo you have any pets?yesWhat color shirt are you wearing?whiteName three things that are physically close to you:salt shaker, soda can, purseWhat is the last book you read?how to lead a horse to murderAre you or were you a good student?not reallyWhat's your favorite sport?soccerDo you enjoy sleeping late?yesWhat's the weather like right now?warmWho tells the best jokes?gee i dunnoWhat was the last thing you dreamed about?my ex boyfriend visits me in my dreams quite oftenDo you drive? If so, have you ever crashed?noDo you believe in karma?yesDo you believe in luck?yesDo you like your eggs scrambled or sunny side up?bothDo you collect anything? If so, what?noAre you proud of yourself?somewhatAre you reliable?sometimesHave you ever given money to a bum?yesWhat's your favorite food?pizzaHave you ever had a secret admirer?yesDo you like the smell of gasoline?um yea, i know it's weirdDo like to draw?noWhat's your favorite invention?internetIs your room messy?yeaWha

August 25th - Whiped And Chained
Stretched out on the tips of my toes, my shoulders aching in my sockets, ropes adn cuffs biting into my wrists, the whip curled around my side, whistling through the air before the solid smack as it kisses my naked skin. I can not seem to be quiet this session, whimpers, moans, growls, and cries pour from me. I squirm and writhe under the lash, unable to channel my energy. I find myself pulling away covering my tender flesh. I pull my legs in to protect my agonizingly tender pussy. I've displeased my Master "Open" he commands and I try but fail miserably. "Open" My legs are forced apart and then his cock is there, teasing my hole. "Open" I moan as he slides inside my dripping cunt. Again and again I am thrust into. I am laid down and a vibrating toy is placed against my clit. My Master slides it up and down, driving my already adgitated state higher and higher. I whimpered and cried out, but he did not relent. He pushed on and on, making me squirt, again and again and again. Four ti

Cancer Man With Capricorn Woman
Cancer with Capricorn Match Making You break from routine in relationship with Capricorn. The accent here is on partnership, marriage, and public relations. Brings you out of yourself. The Saturn of Capricorn combines with your Moon significator to stress independence originality and new experiences. You are attracted to Capricorn but much in the manner that opposites attract each other.Capricorn inspires confidence; you are able to break the status quo. With Capricorn, you combine efforts, interests; the relationship could lead to marriage.You gain not only confidence with Capricorn, but also a greater sense of responsibility. You aim at achievement. Capricorn can cause you to be dissatisfied with what you have. You aim for greater heights. Capricorn make of the public, of reaction to your efforts. With you are not likely to maintain the same habit patterns. You see the new; you want to test your skills. You seek plaudit approval. Where previously you might have settled in niche, you

So True Opposites Attract.......cancer Man Capricorn Woman
If the adage 'opposites attract' holds true, then the love match between a Cancer and a Capricorn has sure shot chances of success. In most of the areas, the personality traits of both the individuals do not match. Capricorn believes in having a practical approach towards life, while Cancer lets his heart and his emotions rule his life. The latter is extremely compassionate and too much affected by the situations affecting other people's life. The latter, though considerate, never goes over the board and can maintain a detached outlook. The Crab may also not be able to understand the ambitious nature of the Goat and think of him as too impersonal and distant in a relationship. In order to make these differences act as balancing each other, both of them need to spend time understanding and appreciating one another. As far as the positive aspects of this match are concerned, both the individuals are consistent and believe in loyalty and faithfulness. With time, they may start appreciatin

The Rest Of The Year
Well this is whats going on in my life today.. My man of 8 years is working offshore which is nice but damn I miss him. We are getting along better. My son misses him deeply and that hurts me but its what needs to be done now. Trying to buy a house. Yesterday my mom went to the Dr. Because she has an abnormal growth on her overies. Those of you that know and talk with me know what Im talking about. My mom has terminal cancer. She is on chemo. They wont cut her any mor eshe already had her stomach open to get 17 pounds of cancer out. Shes doing good lost alot of weight. And I wont lie the only thing keeping her eating is her having her "medication" My mom smokes weed, has all her life. so what. Well yesterday at the dr they wont do surgery and the MF read her her last right! WTF! My mom is already screwed up in the head over all this. She is walking and talking and cooking and cleaning I mean she has her days when she stays in bed all day. throws up alot. But she is

Stress
why do i have to be a nice person to some people...most people i just tell to fuck off an go away but i cant do it to everyone...im like the baby sitter for all my husbands friends an i get paid shit money to watch kids who wont listen to a damn word i say and beat on my kids an take there toys an trsh my house... there parents are not paying for food or damages... im going fucking nuts with kids 24/7 an no one gives a shit as long as they get there time away...well where the fuck is my break...i have my boys every day all day... an i have the other guys kids from 5 am till 7 pm... i have no time for ME!! i just want to run away

Awaking A Vampire
The sun sets.The creatures of the nightcoming to play...to play with humans...naive humans...No one knows what will happen.You don’t know, either.Although it’s your lifethat’s going to end...tonight. The darkness is falling.And you’re still happy.You still don’t know what will happen.Still don’t know anything.Soon you’ll learn...You’ll learn to love eternal life.You’ll learn to love the night.You’ll learn to hate the day.Same as I did.And you’ll learn to love me.And maybe, someday, I´ll tell you...tell you why you had to die...tonight. The moon is rising.And I found you.I took all my hate...and made you one of us...Now you’re lying on the ground.The pain is for the moment...but it’ll let you go.And only the sadness will stay.The sadness of having lost your life.And maybe, one day,of having lost your love.But for the now it’s the sadnessof having lost your life...tonight.

A Little Caught Up
To Him,We met our freshman year of college. I was already in a relationship with my high school sweetheart and I would have sworn that me and him would never break up so I told you that you didn't have a chance.However I thought you were cool so we became friends. I'd bump into you on an occasional basis and our conversations would be memorable to me. Then all of sudden I realized I liked you...Wait a minute...I like you? How could this happen? I have a man already.But then I didn't like you. But then before I knew it I liked you again. You were the type to get your way with all the girls so I never thought you'd consider me after I shut you down only a year ago. But now you are telling me you want me?! I didn't expect that. Now you are telling me that you want to be my man...that you will take care of me and want to be there for me even if I do have a man? O my God...I don't like to say his name in vain...but what am I going to do now. I was so sure that the love of my life was the gu

Don'ts For Parents
Don'ts for parents: 1. Don't throw your 3yr olds b-day party with strippers and kegs. 2. use your kid to pick up chicks no matter how cute he/she is. 3. bet with kids and collect when they lose the bet. 4. help with homework when drunk because your kid will be put in special classes for thinking 2+2=chair. 5. teach your kid or anyone elses kid to fetch beer even if you are to drunk to make it to the fridge/cooler. 6. let your kid give the family pet a hair cut (fiddo will not be happy) 7. let you kid have coffee even if they say the other parent said they could it is a trick don't fall for it. 8. let your kid use aluminum foil instead of a bicycle helmet it is not the same. Know matter how much you put on. 9. let your kid stand on top of the tv in place of the antenna even if you throw cheez it crackers at them for food, if they have a sippy cup and you get better reception with the kid. 10. give the kid something to drink by opening the bathroom door and flushin

The Kiss Survey
Explain what triggered your last kiss?Some passion I thought was there guess not Where is the person who has your heart?Not sure where my heart is at the momentWhat do you want for your birthday? I'm not sure I'll be at my dads..... No one ever gets to spend it with me anymore so oh well When is the last time you said you were okay, but really weren't?A few days ago When was the last time you wanted to punch someone in their face? Last week after I looked at the bank accountIs there anyone who doesn't like you? Not sure but if so there is a reason they are not in my lifeDo you consider yourself lucky?yeaWho did you spend your summer with this year?Myself and Ryan for the most part happens when you dont know anyone really.Would you prefer being a millionaire or finding true love?loveDid you say "Me gusta sally parker" today? I sure hope not?Where did you get the shirt your wearing ?Hard Rock Cafe in ArizonaDo you believe ex's can be friends? Not friends but you can be adults abou

Every Time
Every time you smile, I see your heart. Every time you laugh, I see how happy you are. Every time you look at me, I see your soul. Every moment we spend together, we grow stronger. Stronger in life, love. Stronger together.

Never Forget
It was a cold september morning, Waiting to be ruined by mankind. 8:46 AM it happened, To us death was to remind. Flight 11 holding 92, That were now to be dead. It crashed into the North Tower, Then filled America with dread. Flight 175, A flight holding 65 human beings. The South Tower was hit, Not close to a sightseeing. 2,823 lives, That were to be no more. Hundreds jumped thousands of feet to end their lives, What a moment of gore. Flight 93, Ended the lives of 44. This moment will go down in history, Not a moment to ignore. 10:45 AM, All federal office buildings in Washington, D.C. are evacuated. But it was too late, This will not be sedated. The firefighters flee. The medics tried to cure. Then the towers fell, America won't endure. The blood on the streets, The smell of the decayed. Now look how god has helped you, After all the times you prayed. A man in the street, Was killed by the debris. 4 tons of solid steel, Now life he'll lack to see. Though his body won't be found, Jus

Work From Home
Has anyone out there found a genuine work form home program? I have been searching for months. To cut any assholes off i got a bum knee and am unable to find a "normal" job believe me nothing would make me happier that being able to play foot ball with my kids of run or work a 9-5 in a factory setting sadly i cant. Back to point I have been searching for months for a legit work form home program that dont cost hundreds of dollars. Now i understand that u have to spend money to make money but seriously most of these programs only work by selling shit on e~bay... no matter how cheap i sell it for there is always someone with a larger buying ability who can sell it cheaper not please tell me how i gonna make money doing that? The others are all add based for that i have to have a website already... problems with that are i have no content to put on a website and even if i did have have no money to buy the key words needed to drive traffic to my website using the search engines "its called

My Lyric Poetry Take Songs You Like And Put Them Together
You don't even know the meaning of the words "I'm sorry"?You said you would love me until you die??And as far as I know you're still alive, baby?You don't even know the meaning of the words "I'm sorry"I'm starting to believe it should be illegal to deceive a woman's heartWe built it up,To watch it fall.Like we meant nothing at all.I gave and gave the best of me,But couldn't give you what you need.You walked away,You stole my life,Just to find what you're looking for.But no matter how I try,I can't hate you anymore.Cause I want you,And I feel you,Crawling underneath my skinLike a hunger,Like a burning,To find a place I've never beenNow I'm broken,And I'm faded,But you can have whats left of me.I tried so hard to be attentiveDo all you wantedAlways supportive, always patientWhat did I do wrong?I'm wondering for days and hoursIt's here, it isn't here where you belongI got your ring around my neck And a couple of nights I don't regret You got a dream of a degree And a shirt that smells lik

Forever Has An End
I love you,I hate you,I want to hurt you,I want to save you.I want to run away from you,I want to run to you, I am so confused,Dont know what to do. You create me,You destroy me,YOu complete me,You make me feel empty inside. I want you to hurt like i hurt,but i cant stand to see you cry,I want to destroy you like you destroy me,but i cant stand to see the pain in your eyes. So what do I do?I dont know.Do I stay,or do I go? Will we ever walk in the rain again,hold hands under the stars,kiss at midnight,promise we will go far. Maybe this is it,the end of it all,Maybe this was written,on some far away distant star. So I turn and walk away,Look back once more,there are tears in Your beautiful eyes,but I really have to go.Please dont be sad,and please dont forget,that I will love you forever,But forever has an end.

Lies Given Names
Why do we say " I love You",when we really hate?Why do we say "I'm happy to have You in my life",when we really think it is a big mistake?Pasted on smilesPlayers in a play.Desiring to live in our perfect worlds,but life gets in the way.Masks of deciet,what's really real?Going thru the motions,but daring not to feel.The world is but a stage,and life is but a game,Watching the people around us,Lies that are given names.It saddens me to look around,and see what's going on.My sobs are carried on the wind,like a sad sad song.Pasted on smilesPlayers in a play.Desiring to live in our perfect worlds,but life gets in the way...........

Ode To A Dark Messiah
Dark eyes hiding a darker beauty,mysterious looks of a complex man.A cynical laugh to hide the pain,Walking thru life painfully aware,Faking a smile,A happy ruse,Unwilling to let people see the real You.Forced to walk alone,but it's better this way,No one should knowthis cross that You bare.A healer, A guide, A messiah of sorts,helping the undeserving, the uncaring,It hurts ,But still You walk on along this path,Always alone....always alone.It is better this wayBecause no one gets hurtAnd You can hide....Hide behind the cynical smile,the happy ruse,Serving the uncaring, the unbelieving, the undeserving......

Upcoming Activities For The Bad Girl Gone Worse...
Great band playing Vets Club Eugene/Willamette Street Sat. Sept 12th 9:30 be there! Even better the next weekend we have the Bike Bash at Spirits Biker Bar Main Street Springfield OR 09-19-09 Bike show 4pm, 7pm wet t-shirt contest (hmmm will I do it???) and then live music at 9pm. Come and take a walk on the wild side! Also, every Tuesday night about six my hot room mate and I go to Spirits for Taco Tuesdays $1.oo super yummy stuff come down and we'll sip some Jack and eat tacos!

All Because Of You
You have given me a second chance in life Sometime before you I couldn't cop with the strife You've given me that love I dreamed of forever Happiness I been united with now that we're together You've touched my heart so deeply with your gentle touch To world I will never deny that I love you so much Words can't explain how thankful I am of you You have brought my smiles to overcome my blue The moments that we have shared the memories we make I promise your heart won't shatter or even break My world has changed forever now that you are here I miss you so much when you are not near I've opened up my everything to you because I trust you The more comfortable I am with anything we go through The love you and I share has made us one whole You have made my life complete from once an empty soul You will always be the girl who will stand out from the rest I'll never forget each memory that you made the best Forever in my heart baby with this love I'll always keep I'll always have you in my hea

If Love.......
If love.... Current mood: depressed If love was a place, It'd be in your arms. Away from evil and fear, Away from any harm. If love were a tear, i'd never cry again. Unless it was joy or happiness, of a change: now since then. If love was a sunset, it'd be the most beatiful of any red. It would easily take your breath away, and that would be enough said. If love was a song, i would sing for all time. In the sweetest of any melody, and the prettiest of any chime. If love was a book, it would never end. The pages would always turn, and be dedicated to my best friend. If love was a dream, then i guess mine came true. Nightmares are forgotten, now that i've got you. If love can be seen in your eyes, then I guess thats how I know. That forever can be seen in you, through your eyes into your soul

Life
Life Life is nothing but a great big joke, you're born, you live, then you die. There's really no perpouse for living, all you do is feel pain all your life. After a while people jsut get sick of it, and they do something about it. Some people get so fed up with life, that all they do is go to partes, get drunk and do drugs. After a while it just builds up inside and they can't take it anymore. And turn to drugs and alcohol, or they just stay away form everybody. Lose their friends, family and even lose themseves. They're not going to tell people that they're down. They're just going to do what they think will help, All that life does is kill you. With every breath you breath, you're dieing. With every single step and every single move you make, you're dieing. People think that life is the best thing that could ever happen to them, they're wrong. The best thing in life is love, and the one and only love. They're first and true love, and most people don't ev

Annabel Lee
Annabel Lee. by Edgar A. Poe It was many and many a year ago, In a kingdom by the sea, That a maiden there lived whom you may know By the name of Annabel Lee; — And this maiden she lived with no other thought Than to love and be loved by me. I was a child and she was a child, In this kingdom by the sea; But we loved with a love that was more than love — I and my Annabel Lee — With a love that the wingéd seraphs in Heaven Coveted her and me. And this was the reason that, long ago, In this kingdom by the sea, A wind blew out of a cloud, chilling My beautiful Annabel Lee; So that her high-born kinsmen came And bore her away from me, To shut her up in a sepulchre, In this kingdom by the sea. The angels, not half so happy in Heaven, Went envying her and me — Yes! — that was the reason (as all men know, In this kingdom by the sea) That the wind came out of the cloud by night, Chilling and killing my Annabel Lee. But our

Labor Day - Disaster
I am stressed beyond belief... Dan and I got the kids together today and thought we would take them to the park... which went fine.. but then we decided to step it up a notch and take them to Friendly's for lunch and then to the movies to see UP. Lunch was a wreck... our waitress had clearly fell and bumped her head when we were ordering and asking her things case she seemed to have it altogether and when the meal came it was wrong. My three year old Gavin was well passed his nap time and starting to fall apart..when we left he had a meltdown cause he doesn't like the fact that we have to ride in separate vehicles but neither Dan or I have a vehicle that will legally seat all of the children and us. We were late to the theater... when we got there we rushed inside and fumbled to find seats all where we could all sit together in the now pitch black theater. We had to sit almost all the way up front which I hate. Gavin doesn't weigh enough to hold the seat down and thus kept squirming a

The Three Phases Of A Dominant
I think one of the most common questions a submissive has when considering a 24/7 relationship with a Dominant is, “What kind of behavior should I expect from him?” Conversely, many Dominants also wonder how to act in such a relationship. They may often be unsure as to what kind of behavior is expected of themselves. Are they are always “on stage” as Master? It’s a great question and one that deserves a detailed answer. The nature of a relationship, even one of long standing, will undergo a significant transformation as it progresses to 24/7. That's true of a vanilla relationship, and even more so of a D/s relationship. I understand that in many ways this article is an oversimplification of the nature of a D/s relationship. Please accept the necessity of doing so in order to focus upon the topic of this article, the phases of a Dominant

Debunking The Myth
What are they? What role do they fill? Are you being had? Protector or Predator? The D/s community has long acknowledged the need for mentors and with the sudden explosion in the numbers of people interested in our lifestyle, that need has grown dramatically. Novices need the support and assistance of those members of the community who have wisdom and experience on a practical level to help them develop in a healthy and well-balanced manner. The chat channels have been a spawning ground for a whole new generation of mentors who may not be fulfilling the role in an honorable way. How does a submissive learn to sort them out if she/he is not getting the right information to begin with? In this article we will shed a little light on mentors and how they can help or hinder a new submissive grow into their full potential Lor

To The New Submissive
Over the course of my time on line I have seen many people come and go from this lifestyle. I have seen people that had to struggle for every ounce of understanding they came by... others who it came quite naturally too. Defining who we are and what we are can only come from deep inside ourselves. This comes from the natural order of self-actualization. We strive for a better understanding of that which motivates us, what we need to survive to find contentment and peace within. What sets us aside from every other person and makes us unique in our own way. The focus today is on the growth of the submissive and finding a way in this vast and not always easily understood lifestyle. I have sat a lot lately thinking about the why's. I have thought about the lessons I have learned along the way on my own journey.

Do I Turn You On
Baby Do I turn you on When I kiss you DO I turn you on When I touch you Do I turn you on When you look at me Baby I deserve on more try Dont think I dont think about it When you make me cry When you let a stranger turn you on You make me Hurt Dont think I dont have regrets Dont think I dont know what I feel Dont think I dont know what I want Dont think I dont know what I deserve Baby I deserve on more try Walking through your front door I love you and want you even more Dont think I dont think a about it You made me cry You made me hurt When you let a stranger turn you on Girl You got me under your finger You're under my skin I am laying next to you My body aches for you I am the one you own Let me be the one to turn you on Life with you has never been easy But I try and you made me cry Loving you has never been easy But I try and you made me cry Living with you has never bee

Amateur Radio
Hey there , If you are reading this I wish to note that I am a Amateur Radio Operator , My call sign is KD8JNH currently , I have applied for a vanity call that should be in effect by the middle of this coming week , The call sign that I hope to get is WV8HAM , it was my main call that I applied for . Other things of intrest is tha I am registered with Log Book of The World , eQSL.cc as well as Direct on my QSL conformation . I also return Direct QSL's although my call sign will be changeing , I will send the original QSL's out with a note stateing the new call sign untill they are used up . I have made many contacts in the short year that I have been a HAM operator . You can find me on the FREQUENCIES of : 2 meter band 146.570 FM simplex 80 meter band 3.892.0 (LSB) 40 meter band 7.198.0 (LSB) 20 meter band 14.070 (digital)= PSK-31 10 meter band 28.340 (USB) A little bit about my station that I have in the shack .

A Real Friend!!
A REAL FRIEND IS ONE WHO WALKS IN WHEN OTHERS WALK OUT A FRIEND IS SOMEONE WHO KNOWS ALL ABOUT YOU AND LOVES YOU ANYWAY A FRIEND IS SOMEONE WHO ACCEPTS YOU THE WAY YOU ARE ...DESPITE YOUR FLAWS FRIENDSHIP IS NOT FRIENDSHIP WITHOUT TRUST A FRIEND IS SOMEONE WHO UNDERSTANDS YOU EVEN WHEN YOU'RE AT FAULT A TRUE FRIEND HAS NOT ONE BIT OF JEALOUSY TOWARDS YOU! A REAL FRIEND WILL TELL YOU WHEN YOU HAVE SPINACH STUCK IN YOUR TEETH THE FRIENDSHIP THAT CAN CEASE HAS NEVER BEEN REAL A GOOD FRIEND IS HARD TO FIND,HARD TO LOSE, AND IMPOSSIBLE TO FORGET A TRUE FRIEND IS SOMEONE YOU CAN TRUST WITH ALL YOUR SECRETS FRIENDS ARE PRICELESS MY BEST FRIEND IS THE ONE WHO BRINGS OUT THE BEST IN ME A TRUE FRIEND WILL GO OUT OF THEIR WAY FOR YOU ..WITHOUT ASKING ANYTHING IN RETURN A TRUE FRIEND WILL STAND PROUDLY NEXT TO YOU EVEN IF YOU ARE THE CENTER OF ATTENTION A TRUE FRIEND PRAYS FOR YOU NOT ONLY WHEN YOU'RE DOING BAD BUT ALSO WHEN YOU'RE DOING WELL A TRUE FRIEND DOES IS NOT FAKE WITH YOU A TRUE FRIEND D

The Issue Of Girl Friends And Wives
I've talked to a couple of men who have this belief that there are two types of women: 1) The girl friend that you have fun with, who indulges your wild fantasies and provides stimulation and fulfillment for that very real and very important side of men: that undeniable side they've chased and yearned for since puberty. 2) The wife who is safe, reliable, and domestic, the mother of your children, the one you allow yourself to love, yet she is almost asexual to you and leaves you wanting more (i.e. cheating husbands). However, there is this negative connation regarding "the girlfriend" (remember, the movie "Analyze This" where Robert De Niro's character has both a girlfriend and wife and makes a statement about how his wife shouldn't or doesn't give head because she "kisses the children with those lips.") (Now mind you, I've been both the wife and the gilfriend along the course of my life, so this more an observation that brings up questions more than anything else.) I think it's

Friend
A friend is like a flower,a rose to be exact,Or maybe like a brand new gatethat never comes unlatched.A friend is like an owl,both beautiful and wise.Or perhaps a friend is like a ghost,whose spirit never dies.A friend is like a heart that goesstrong until the end.Where would we be in this worldif we didn't have a friend.I prayed for you before we met,Not knowing who you'd be.I asked the Lord to send a friend.One chosen just for me.I asked that they'd be Godly,With wisdom of His ways.A friend to help and guide meIn the troubles of these days.So often in life, we need someoneTo listen while we talk.Someone who will not condemn or judge,But encourage us as we walk.The narrow road we choose to followMay sometimes make us stumble.But to have a friend to catch our fall,Teaches us to be humble.When I asked the Lord to send a friend,Thoughs many came and went.He gave much more than I ever asked,For you are the friend He sent.We cannot tell the precise moment when a friendshipt is formed. As i

Poems
"Dreams are given to youby GOD because he isbelieving in you to makethem come true."You helped me laugh,you dried my tears,because of you I have no tears.Together we live,together we grow,teaching each other what we must know.You came in my life,and I was blessed,thank you friend...you are the best.Release my hand and say goodbye,please my friend, don't you cry.I promise you this is not the end,because like I said,your my friend.Someone, somewhere dream of your smile.And while thinking of you....says life is worthwhile.So when you are lonely...remember it's true,Someone somewhere....is thinking of you.Tell your heart that the fear of sufferingis worse than the suffering itself....and that no heart has ever sufferedwhen it goes in search of it's dreams.Written with a pen,sealed with a kiss,If you are my friend,answer me this....Are we friends? Or are we not?You told me once....but I forgot.So tell me now...and tell me true,So I can say...."I'm here for you."Of all the friends I've ever

My Poems
Through humor, you can soften some of the worst blows that life delivers. And once you find laughter, no matter how painful your situation might be, you can survive it.All I need is my one star in the sky, to wish you a good day everyday. God must have known there would be timeswe'd need a word of cheerSomeone to praise a triumphor brush away a tear.He must have known we'd need to sharethe joy of "little things"In order to appreciatethe happiness life brings.I think he knew our troubled heartswould sometimes throb with painAt trials and misfortunesor some goals we can't attain.He knew we'd need the comfortof an understanding heartTo give us strength and courageto make a fresh, new start.He knew we'd need companionshipunselfish...lasting...true,And so God answered the heart's great needwith a Cherised Friend....like you.As we walk our path of life,We meet people everyday.Most are simply met by chance.But, some are sent our way.These become special friendsWhose bond we can't explain;The

Southern Men
The South - You Gotta Love It Alabama A group of Alabama friends went deer hunting and paired off in twos for the day. That night, one of the hunters returned alone, staggering under the weight of an eight-point buck. "Where's Henry?" the others asked."Henry had a stroke of some kind. He's a couple of miles back up the trail," the successful hunter replied."You left Henry laying out there and carried the deer back?" they inquired."A tough call," nodded the hunter. "But I figured no one is going to steal Henry!" Georgia The owner of a golf course in Georgia was confused about paying an invoice, so he decided to ask his secretary for some mathematical help. He called her into his office and said, "You graduated from the University of Georgia and I need some help. If I were to give you $20,000, minus 14%, how much would you take off?"The secretary thought a moment, and then replied, "Everything but my earrings." Louisiana A senior at Louisiana was overheard saying ..

Cry
take this heart and rip it out of my chest. let me bleed all over the floor of my sad lonely life. my dreams are gone never to be seen . sew my mouth shut not to speak of ur name are the words i want to say to u. sew my eyes shut not to see ur face are the world any more. here lies a a broke and dead girl how no longer lives in this body. she;s gone to the land of the broken hearts and bodys. can u save her for here? if u think u can try she is so far gone all she see's is death of love .

Passion
It is what I crave, eyes of hunger the undeniable embrace pulling a moaning gasp from deep inside as lips meet Flesh ignights suddenly alive to savor each electrifying connection of skin on skin souls uniting an all too brief moment forever changed

Thoughts
if you look into my eyes you see a faded light theres no glow so dull theres no life look past that you see a broken soula soul that has no life. i feel myslef getting stronger everyday im with you i feel my soul heal and the light come back into my eyes piece by piece my soul is back im not broken anymore for i am whole again

My Blog To My Most Beautiful And Wonderful Wife
I am longing for the day, longing for the time, that I can finally get with my beautiful, talented, most gorgeous wife for all of my life Tamara Taggart. When we finally do live together, full time and all of the time, I will finally have my live get real instead of how it sucks with all the bullshit that I have wrought upon myself by pushing her away for so long a time now. What I wouldn't do to make this so true that we live together once and for all without anyone in the way throughout the night and the day.

Long Distance Relationships
i was readingsomeone blog asking this subjectDo long distance relationships ever work? I mean really do they?------------------------------------------and this is what i saidyes they do but they are something you have to really dedicate you and the other person to really make sure there is something there try and make time for them either by talking on here or on the phone or some other way of communication and be honesty with one another and be understanding with one another even if they have kids you have to rember they come first before anything else like i have always said before it can work but so many people don't want to put up any kind of effort into things at all

Wandering Eyes
Hooked, Mouth still stinging from the rush Of lust. Fixated, intensely attuned life or death Breathe gasps, passion hunger. Once pulled intently, drawn nearer, grasped then mercilessly released. Underneith the waves still hunger as another is drawn in. Eyes no longer look upon me in want. I desire to be one with those eyes cold ambivilence a thick barrier of silence the hull protecting you from sinking. From releasing, from being with me.

Just Tired (originally Posted On Tears Of An Angel Profile)
Tired of being the strong one...and never having to have anyone to hold me and tell me things will be ok...tired of having to be the one to support this family by myself...and having an ex who won't do what he promised to help...tired of being the built in maid and chauffer...and having no one else to turn to when i can't be two places at once...tired of everyone else's stress being my stress...and having no one to take just a little bit of mine away...tired of always being the peacemaker...and never having any peace of my own...tired of being alone...tired of staying up until i can't see straight every nite just because i'm avoiding sleeping in my own bed...tired of not having another adult in the house to talk to...turn to and say help me...hold me...love me...tired of pretending that i still don't love my ex even tho i hate what he did...and thinking maybe the time has come to say the hell with it...go back and beg him to come home...even if it means sharing him with another woman..

Eminien's I Love You More
You still love me? Take this. You ready? 1.. 2.. 3! The more you, put me through, The more it makes me wanna come back to you, You say you hate me, I just love you more, You don't want me, I just want you more, I buy you flowers, you throw 'em at me, I know it's sad but it's making me happy, The more that you slap me, the more that it turns me on, Cause you love me, and I love you more. It's sick, but who could ever predict, We'd be doin' the same shit, We say we do it for our baby but we don't, We do it for us, it's lust, Cause neither one of us trusts each other, So we fuck 'til we bust, Then we cuss each other, out, We know what it's about, Shout 'til I throw you out the house, You throw me out the house, I throw you on the couch, Punch you in the mouth, Fist fight 'til we turn this mother OUT, And apologize after, Laughter, pain, it's insane, We're back in the same chapter again, And it's sad but it's true, When I'm layin' here with you, There ain't nothin' anyone could ever say

Learning To Not Trust My Heart
I have learned that trusting the heart is the wrong thing to do. As I get older I realize now that guys like me are pretty much the joke of society. In order for someone to love you or at least pretend you have to be either rich or all buffed out or both. My heart is taken by someone but I know she will never know to what extent and will never see me in the same light. And I now know what I have to do, just get on with my life and deal with being alone. Why not used to that shit anyway. I just wish things in this world were not so complicated and love actually meant something today.

Alaskan Girl
->alaskan_girl: so next time you tell people you accept them for who they are , dont lie cause in the end it make you look bad ->alaskan_girl: You tell people you dont judge people , and you have people to believe you but you sure do lie ->alaskan_girl: lease my main pic is draw by me and i am not shame to draw pics not like YOU alaskan_girl: you rate me what anyone would rate your shitty piece of art that you so proudly display alaskan_girl: why is this your business ->alaskan_girl: You block friend of mind MasterDaddySIR where he was goin to rate you 10 on your profile and 11 on your pics alaskan_girl: i dont know you or even what your talking bout

Look At My Reading Today You Cunt
Your recent dreams have been vivid and rather entertaining, but do they hold valuable insight into how you can find happiness? No. They're just ideas your subconscious is playing with, and nothing more. Be careful not to read too much into the numbers that keep popping up. You can play them in the lottery, but don't expect a big win. Your prosperity is much more likely to come as a result of your hard work right now. Money still has to be earned. i want to fucking puke and then die, and be reborn as a lipstick lesbian, funny that she is a capricorn too, why dont i know how to spell, why are these fucking letters so small, why does your pussy smell like salad dressing

Another Fuck Up
I sit here and hear all the bad stuff your going threw. knowing i cant do anything to make it better. i love you so much that I am willing to do what ever i got to do. but when we talk about it. i put it off like im pushing for you to be mine again. there is nothing in this world i would love more then for us to be us again. but i dont want to push you away again. your my wold my life and my whole being. I just wish i had not fucked up before so we wouldnt be going threw what we are. I LOVE YOU MY LOVE

Concerning My Gf ,that I Have Been With With Like Almost 3 Yrs Now . Read More
I have been with here for now 2 1/2 yrs. and I just cant handle it anymore with her. She is just so jealous of me ,and etc.... Long story but will tell ya if ya wanna know? yes I do love her and she loves me , but I did experience with other men and she experienced with other men alsowhile we were together and still are till day ,but she is so jealous of me on the computer, I think she needs to grow up and grow a back bone , What do you say? I am coming so close to leaving this woman , What ya say? Please tell me your thoughts. Thanks , Sincerely, David Michalski aka Coldwaters Finest

Too Early..
I think people are interesting. It's kind of interesting when you see a random person, then think about what they do everyday. Somehow it always seems more interesting than what you do. Although they may look at you and think the same thing.Need more riots. That always makes things more interesting.

Keith Urban - You're My Better Half
"You're My Better Half" Car door slams, it's been a long day at work I'm out on the freeway and I'm wondering if it's all worth The price that I pay, sometimes it doesn't seem fair I pull into the drive and you're standing there And you look at me And give me that come-here-baby smile It's all gonna be alright You take my hand You pull me close and you hold me tight [Chorus:] It's the sweet love that you give to me That makes me believe we can make it through anything 'Cause when it all comes down And I'm feeling like I'll never last I just lean on you 'cause baby You're my better half They say behind every man is a good woman But I think that's a lie 'Cause when it comes to you I'd rather have you by my side You don't know how much I count on you to help me When I've given everything I got and I just feel like giving in And you look at me And give me that come-here-baby smile It's all gonna be alright You take my hand Yeah you pull me close and you hold me tight [REPEAT CHORUS] W

Don't Think I Don't Think About It
I left out in a cloud of taillights and dust Swore I wasn't coming back, said I'd had enough Saw you in the rear view standing, fading from my life But I wasn't turnin' 'round No not this time But don't think I don't think about it Don't think I don't have regrets Don't think it don't get to me Between the work and the hurt and the whiskey Don't think I don't wonder 'bout Could've been, should've been all worked out I know what I felt, and I know what I said But don't think I don't think about it When we make choices, we gotta live with them Heard you found a real good man and you married him I wonder if sometimes I cross your mind Where would we be today If I never drove that car away? Don't think I don't think about it Don't think I don't have regrets Find More lyrics at www.sweetslyrics.com Don't think it don't get to me Between the work and the hurt and the whiskey Don't think I don't wonder 'bout Could've been, should've been all worked out Yeah I know what I felt, and I k

Emotions
Emotions OVER THE PAST FEW WEEKS YOU HAVE DONE MORE FOR ME THEN ANYONE YOU'RE ALWAYS THERE WHEN I NEED SOMEONE TO TALK TO.. YOUR THE ONE I RUN TO WITH EVERYTHING YOU MEAN SO MUCH TO ME AND MORE I ONLY HOPE YOU FOUND IN ME WHAT YOUR LOOKING FOR.... THERE ARE MANY STAR'S IN THE SKY AT NIGHT AND WHEN I THINK OF YOU I LOOSE COUNT EACH NIGHT THE THINGS YOU'VE DONE FOR ME ARE WHAT I HOLD NEAR TO MY HEART... WHEN I THOUGHT I HAD NO ONE YOU WERE THERE WHEN I THOUGHT I COULDN'T COUNT ON ANYONE YOU TOUCHED MY SHOULDER AND LET ME KNOW YOU ARE THERE... THE FIRST TIME YOU SAID MY NAME YOU WOULD BE THE ONE TO LOVE ME FOR ME... AS DAYS GO BY AND WE COUNT DOWN TILL WE SEE EACH OTHER I'M FALLING EVEN MORE IN LOVE... THIS MIGHT BE CRAZY BUT IT'S OH SO TRUE.. NO ONE WILL LOVE YOU LIKE I DO....DAY AND NIGHT I COUNT THE STAR'S THANKIN THE LORD FOR GIFT SENT FROM ABOVE.. THAT GIFT BEING YOU... EACH DAY THAT GOES BY I WONDER WHY.. WHAT DID I DO TO DESERVE YOU.. THEN I THANK MY LUCKY STARS FOR THE FAC

Live Strong
I WROTE THIS YEARS AGO WHEN I FOUND OUT MY MOM HAD CANCER AND LANCE ARMSTRONG PUT OUT THE BRACELETS TO HELP RAISE MONEY FOR CANCER RESEARCH LIVE STRONG I remember that day As if it were yesterday I got home from school and you were crying You told me the next day I was getting an award At school but you wouldn't Be there cause you had to Have a surgery, I was scared

Starlit Night
Staring at the brightest Star I start wonder where you are I think of you consistently Hoping you feel the same Lyin on the cool ground Wishing you would come around Time will tell as my heat Begins to pound I here foot steps all around I try to move to see who's there However I am tied down No where to go Voices, voices everywhere I feel myself looking left and right Then your voice sets me free I feel your arms wrap around me It's alright your safe is what you say Finally True Love has come my way You take the blind fold off my eyes Upon you horse, We kiss and ride We

Hey
I am: contentedly child free, self-made, self-aware, unpretentious, intellectual, analytical as well as intuitive, a pragmatic romantic learning to live more mindfully. Attempted balance of right-brain and left-brain thinking. A serious soul with a sometimes playful disposition. Contemplative night owl, valuing thoughtful conversation and nonfiction, perceiving in the mundane the spark of the divine. INTJ personality type in the Myers-Briggs/Jungian personality typology; the thinker type on the enneagram. Tolerant, progressive, a little artsy, with a strong sense of justice. Best known for my M*A*S*H-like (dry and contextual) sense of humor. Often turn to nature for inspiration, rejuvenation, and peace; canceled my television service years ago. Have the usual range of urban interests but also like to investigate the hidden out-of-the-way places. Earn my admiration and be prepared for more affection, respect, loyalty, and passion than mere mortal deserves. :-) Love is the shortest dista