Fubar Blog Posts 2

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Hiding in my corner, hider in darkness the taste of blood fills my mouth. I must drink this liquid before it goes cold. It's warmth soothers my forgotten soul. It gives me life that no mortal can equal. Now as this corpse lies still in my lap my soul is content, for the time being. Running a couple fingers around my mouth to catch the last few drops of blood that dribbled down from the corners, I suddenly feel the aura of another that was born into the same world as I. After licking my fingers, careful not to miss any of the delicious liquid, I turn around to see who had come up behind me, disturbing my solitude. Before even seeing who it was I knew it was you because of the deep growl warning me not to turn to fast. Even though you knew you knew it was me you still gave me the warning. As I took the advise and turned slowly I wandered why you had seeked me out. As I faced you, the cold stare sent a shiver down my spine. As if reading my mind you said, "I have come to take you." "T

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What we never had, we never lost we never knew just what it cost; to love, to cherish, to hold, to give_ we've never known really how to live. We bought ourselves solitude instead, something inside us almost dead cries out in pain, cries out in vain from desert hearts where it never rains. Oh! something lost and something gained, we chose our paths that fate ordained_ will we ever know, how much it cost? that little something we never had and never lost.

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You touched my soul with yours, Took my heart and brand it with your sword. Kiss my lips and you will see, That noone else can compare to me. The day is comming for you to know, The hurt and pain from being left in the cold. All those times you just pushed me away, Well now you bastard, I'm here to stay. Pay Backs a Bitch, And now its your turn to Pay!!!

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In my heart I long to keep My love for you which is forever deep. Living life without you I would be very sad and blue. What else can I do to make you see That you do and will always mean the world to me. Though I know the sun will always rise I still wait for the day you'll forever be mine.

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I am a genius but i am naiive I am a fathers favorite daughter, but i am a screwup. I am a lover, but more often than not i am a fighter. I am a flirt, but only in my head. I am heartbroken, but i am mending I am strong of mind and body, but i am weak-willed. I am lost, but I am finding my way.

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I wonder if you'll ever know just how I really feel. And I wonder if you'll show me that this is really real. There's nothing left to lose, Nothing left to prove. Will you show me how to prove that this was never real. So tell me why I feel I need you. You always seem to drag me down And you make me feel so alive. I'm lost here with you, lost without you. Free-falling in the purgatory you've created for me. It's so hard to just believe. Chorus : And you force me to lie to myself It's not alright, but I'll fake it. Will this never end All the tonights have come and gone And the pressure still continues to grow I'm torn between myself and your lies. Take it back to the times I could feel on my own. You're a liar, poser, cheater, deciever And I hate this thing you call love. Verse 2: Building the world you laid out for me In the life I made to be... I walk around this cold, dark cell, and bleed the words I'll choose to never tell. I love you and

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Treading through the sunlight I burn with each waking step. Will my destination ever be reached Before my physical wellbeing gets Roasted to a pork rind crisp?!? Overcast the sky, mist oh precious darkness Shield me with thy midnight pitch. Yearning to eat Waiting for my prey to bleed In solitude I await For thee to lurk across my path. Your life mine for the taking Dowsed by the nectar of the living. Death imprisoned in the flesh Speaks thus for itself Despite all appearances Evil shares no part of me. However, others leave it due To their lack of better judgment. Bring me a fresh scapegoat The sacrifice has began Better not leave the God waiting For it has places to be and people to meet. “Your world is full of blasphemy” Said the appointed high priest. “We are of the same world are we not”?!? Finally I reply. Abstract deities, self righteous stupidity Begets in this world of religious chaos Live then in pursuit Blind faith, bound an

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friends surround me everyday, glad they are able to stay, you know i couldn`t go the day, without you here to even say, thank you for you all being there, if you weren`t here i`d pull out my hair, it shows me that you really care, we laugh so loud the people stare, wherever we go we have fun, you wouldn`t believe the things we`ve done , we even made fun of a nun, but that was really kinda dumb, for that we are surely going to hell, i hope you laugh,but please don't tell, i can here the mission bell, going down to find the things they sell, it seems to me that most friends come and go, in my mind that really does blow, the pain in my face lets it show , thats why i always drive to slow, don`t let life pass you bye, whatever you do give it your best try, i am your friend so why should i lie, even though i am a regular guy , so take these words and take them to heart, grabbing life would be a good start, if it goes to fast for you let it cart, you away and build a new part, so my friend f

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He watches as her body writhes against the sheets Jealous of the one who is consuming her mind His body hardens as her hips raise swirl an fall His breathing matches her as his eyes stay on her body Her sighs sing out in the heated air as her body shivers His throat dry his lips parched his relief lay before him His name comes out as a cry as her body beckons him close With a sigh he goes to her quenching his thirst with her lips He cries out in joy as he sides into her velvet heat Their cries fill the room as their release come fast and hard Her whisper fills his soul as he fills her body Your mine my slave Forever my mistress

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You have a life I know you do.. You have a wife I know this too.. You love me.. You told me this Unguarded in passion You gave me a kiss.. My heart you held beating for you.. So pure in that moment..so true. A moment cherished I wish to rewind.. Thoughts of you now Unwanted in my mind. A.Boudreaux 2007

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Ive never let anyone know How it is I truly feel My whole life's been a front My soul's an open wound that wont heal An uphill battle for solace Questions and emotions left unanswered Done in by others and my own devices Slave to an inner cancer The pleasure and the pain Have been my closest friends Alone in the dark Seething from within Fear and loathing a constant reminder Of the insanity I cant control I love and hate again and again As I contend for my soul Waiting for something or someone To help save me I cant do it alone For Im my own worst enemy

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Through my eyes of the endless sun Rebirth in my lost soul has begun All as one in the universe Under no resistant thought im cursed Live now my life in unconditional wealth No more worries, no more shelf The simple man i was destine to be I see now the things I could not see Sharing my soul to all that receive Giving them intent, hope and belief Live my life in universal harmony Face the thing not letting me be free With no unstiched fear or guilt Checkered feelings of joy i quilt Realizing my place, I was always there Not really knowing that i cared Stained by the negative way of the world The ways of nations shall wither and curd The blissful light was always there Through graceful eyes I shall stare Beleiving and feeling its already here Living life abundantly without despair Walking through the dark has brought me here The energy of the universe, O' so clear Trust in what u cannot see Believe whats going to be For its already embraced home with you Hold

Until You Earn It....
You might want to have a tissue close at hand just in case.... Very touching story..... Back in September of 2005, on the first day of school, Martha Cothren, a social studies school teacher at Robinson High School in Little Rock, did something not to be forgotten. On the first day of school, with permission of the school superintendent, the principal and the building supervisor, she took all of the desks out of the classroom. The kids came into first period, they walked in, there were no desks. They obviously looked around and said, "Ms. Cothren, where's our desk?" And she said, "You can't have a desk until you tell me how you earn them." They thought, "Well, maybe it's our grades." "No," she said. "Maybe it's our behavior." She told them, "No, it's not even your behavior." And so they came and went in the first period, still no desks in the classroom. Second period, same thing, third period. By early afternoon

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I want to scream! All this frustration inside builds up. I take a deep breath, Breating in, breathing out. Everyday the same old thing: Nothing ever gets accomplished. All this work, set in my mind, Never completed. The frustration gets bigger. I want to stop procrasinating; Do what I must now! Nothing happens. I breath in and out again. I slowly calm down. Everything looks brighter. I want to go and get things done. Motivation is up; laziness unknown. But did anything really get done?

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Good personality. Great sense of humor. Loyal to friends and family. Nice to everybody. Caring for the people that are loved. smiling and laughing most of the time on the outside. Crysing on the inside. Happy go lucky on the outside. Depressed on the inside. Out spoken, open and honest. Outgoing. Will talk to almost everybody. Determined but is held back. Knows exactly what wanted and how to get it but can't quite reach it.

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You might have noticed that I'm not on CT as much as I used to be. Well, I no longer Dj on here for starters, and that being said I've got some shit to take off my chest and say. If you don't like it, then don't read it, plain and simple. Here is the truth of why I'm no longer in Inferno, and why I no longer will Dj on here. Over the past while of Djing here, I've taken alot of bullshit. Things such as people not showing up to cover their shifts when I was on Nice and Naughty, and having to fill in for them at the last minute. But the last patch with Inferno just took the cake, and convinced me to say "fuck this BS". The last time I was Djing via Inferno the Dj who was scheduled to come on and take air from me didn't. So I went off air, the result was that a certain person (not naming names here) advised me that having lost/dropped air was "disrespectful to inferno", well you know what? It is not my fault that you and those involved that night were unorganized and allowed this

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I open my eyes I try to see but I’m blinded by the white light I can’t remember how I can’t remember why I’m lying here tonight And I can’t stand the pain And I can’t make it go away No I can’t stand the pain How could this happen to me I made my mistakes I’ve got no where to run The night goes on As I’m fading away I’m sick of this life I just wanna scream How could this happen to me Everybody’s screaming I try to make a sound but no one hears me I’m slipping off the edge I’m hanging by a thread I wanna start this over again So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered And I can’t explain what happened And I can’t erase the things that I’ve done No I can’t How could this happen to me I made my mistakes I’ve got no where to run The night goes on As I’m fading away I’m sick of this life I just wanna scream How could this happen to me I made my mistakes I’ve got no where to run The night goes on As I’m fading away I’m sick of this li

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Where am I? How did I get here? What is going on! I try to stand but I am tied to the chair, the rope cuts deeper into my flesh, and I feel the sticky warmth of my blood run down my hand... Oh god... help me, I was hoping it was just a dream... Slowly it all comes back to me, the party, the drinks, too many drinks.. then I see him... Brad? Mike? Why can't I remember...- Wait! What was that? I try to still the chills thats coursing down my spine... footsteps... slow and steady... Its him... he's come back again... I plead silently, please don't kill me! I am not ready to die!! I hear him getting closer... my mind starts racing with the fear of the known. I brace myself, expecting the worse, for the dreaded squeak, squeak, squeak of that horrid cart.. suddenly its not just a sound in my head, its there next to me, and suddenly I scream, Oh God, please, no more, please... though I know my screams are useless, it didn't stop him when he chose one delicate blade after another varying in

Until We Meet
Until We Meet Until we meet My nights will be a little colder My days a little shorter My heart will beat a little less rapid Until we meet I know that my arms will be empty My mind hurting from the constant thought of you Minutes will seem to be hours Hours will seem to be months While months will seem like eternity Until we meet The stars in the sky will not affect me with its gleaming sparkles of life Until I am gazing at them in your arms And the food that I eat will not be as fulfilling and nourishing Until it is you that I share the my food with And Until we meet I will not feel whole My world will seem incomplete Until that wonderful day When our eyes make first contact And our bodies and souls collide in blissful whirlwind The words will roll off my tongue like a sweet love song "Hello, my love, I couldn't wait to meet you

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Until.......... The moments are frozen - in the amber of time, the steel trap of memory. Our legs tangled together, hers between mine and mine wrapped 'round hers. The musky air is thick, drenched with heat and scented by us. We tangled, sweaty, and I couldn't possibly have wanted more. This memory I'll savor, roll it on my tongue until we meet again.

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low is the moon as alone I seek this place drawn here as time stands still for my troubles I seek to erase. mother earth now cradles her heavenly child with love as I find my place in shadows... for I find comfort in the night above. this place is my domain that which eases my weary soul lost now in the division of what it needs..what it wants hold- my arms reach out as I call to the shadows in the night help me- my kindred friends... guide me in my plight... I need your comfort and wisdom now in this time of want am I to go on forever alone.. will these feelings forever haunt...? I'm torn.. feel drawn apart inside- I want the pleasure of the flesh.. but must my soul fade out and die.....? my heart grows tired... for I've sought my peace in thought I've tried to find my comfort in the words that others brought.... yet something remains just out of reach for alone I feel inside... am I to go on as two for my one.. I can not

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Illusions of words form from the tip of your tongue...Distant words come from afar...Twisted minds think of the past...No future from beyond...Feelings of you starting to fade...Cries of pain and lonliness build...Bleeding from the wounds I created...Washing away the fears I have...Tormented in my own mind...Existence is weak...Future is futile...Time rushing forward...Mind slowing...Eyes closing...Life stands still...Forever.

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I stop to stare out at the ocean Toward the dark depths and crashing waves Remembering that one day as if it were yesterday Spirits now linger across the everlasting waves They call out to me wanting me to come to them Because cheating death on that day Has left me drained in both blood and soul. Don't you even dare tell me that I'm insane You do not have a clue the terror I went through My strength slowly becomes apart of my imagination This thick sense of confusion crushes my body Knowing sooner or later that it will be my time to go. I'm getting weaker everyday The spirits speak to me in a evil tone from the abyss Hours I'll spend my life glaring deep at the ocean My body wanting to rest for eternity This looks to be the end of my time here I'll walk slowly into the ocean To join my brothers and sisters And finally get the ice cream they wouldn't let me have. For then I'll get what I deserve from them all After selling them all out with a steel blade Now

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Veiled curtains flow, wrapped in spiral winds of confusion this darkened breeze will know how storm clouds breed illusion this empty room so torn by the storms of yesterday tempest dreams to blow, teacups filled with dripping memories whirlwinds moving slow stir the walls with jaded tapestries and roll the river wild when the treetops start to sway a winter garden grows lush with flowers of uncertainty moonlight tangled in the throes with the winding vines of jealousy and tend the bitter nectar deep inside falling petals filled with wounds hide their fragrance from eternity for the beauty never blooms in the rain of insecurity and the rainbow never shines in darkened skies

Until I Open My Eyes
When I feel sensuous Sensuous alone The blood flows The heart beats The feelings rise And as I rise I close my eyes And picture you I lay bare, exposed, Erect and alert of my hands Caressing my body Yet they are your hands . . . I see you now Coming towards me In silk, in lace, Your breath deep, unfathomable Caressing your breath Kneeling . . . Your sensual, supple mouth Around me, tender, right Then I am with you My lips caressing Your sex, taking in Pushing in, you moan I am in you . . . We do not move But remain as one As I hold back Hold back Until you move Slowly and then Then The moment I release Holding onto that image That feeling Until I open my eyes

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†She helped me to come out...And to feel what I never had before She helped me to understand...And I now understand myself She helped me to learn...And now I know She helped me to hold on...And now I cant let go! She helped me to love...And now I cant stop!!!!!! She helped me to live...But now I forgot You see...She said goodbye...And that it was time to go...But as you can tell....I did not know

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dark eyes illuminated by the nights moon look out upon the city.. seeming dead in its midnight hour red silk blows against black leather as alabaster skin radiates... her hunger calls from within and soon... she will appease it. such has it been for an eternity.. her un-life.. her curse. her fate to walk alone immortal within a dying race. her soul..old when the ancients were young... cries out for substance. her hunger growing as the night deepens... and there within the darkened streets will she find her prey.. those foolish with their mortality.. unrestraint in their passions. those who feed upon the decadent pleasures.. high will be their blood with lust when she feeds upon their soul. she now but waits.. for deep midnight to come... for passions to soar.. pleasures to wake... for then is the time.. her hunger she’ll appease. ~ ~ ~ ~ ~Candyce~

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Unfinished, untitled. I wish I had my muse back to help me finish this. :| All the things I feel inside when all my hopes and dreams collide into a chaotic, torrential wave thrust so deep, too far to save Washed upon a jagged shore shadows creeping upon my door the cold is seeping so deep within the light is growing ever dim have I lived my life in vain? the darkness drives my mind insane with ominous thoughts, and ominous dreams a life is shattered, torn upon the seams Is it to late to grasp a reed? to drag myself from this fateful deed. from beneath the depths, I cling for breath but why is it, that I am fighting death? A simple smile, a ray of light. will it save me from my plight? a ray of hope, a sliver so small a diminished dream, a strangled call

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You tell me you see Heaven in my eyes, But, what you really see are only lies. You tell me you see forever in my smile, But, I really only want you for a little while. You tell me feel the love in my touch, But, it will only ever be lust. The heaven you see, is a faded memory. The forever you desire, will die with the fire. The love you imagine in the dark, I cant give, as Ive lost my heart

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Too many words Not enough They speak volumes But not of truth They no longer serve my purpose These heavy droplets of mercury So minute but damaging when dispersed into the air Traveling, unconnected bits Fractions of the whole Poison, Polluting what was intended to be said. Disgusting The innumerous number of victim songs Melodies of the unfairly dejected And I think How many fit me? Reject these Devulge in more interesting past times: Self pity, Mourning the loss of my life. Pathetic. I am not dead , i have lost nothing I am still alive with or without others I stand alone Individual More than a facet of my pod, group, family, clique Not an easy burden to lift But so light, free Without the added weight of others Sustaining myself While giving to others While sustaining myself What joy- to have a surplus to give from what I hold within is so bright And to discover this... Jubilation And to share it with another... Sacred Something to be gau

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Have you ever sit to think upon the lost dream of love that is just out of your reach. Can my heart sorrow and song of lostness be heard upon the wings of shadows. Will there be a chance for me to find you within my reach before I must go forever away from this life of lostness? Does my tears fall upon your body of sin like cool rain of love fading away? Does anyone dare to see my lustful need to be touch? Will my cold flesh ever feel your touch That echoes within my haunting wish to Be love by you. Pain and torture is filling my soul Yet…. All wonder is about you. ©2007 Firestar

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Here she is still an adolescent, with the desire to be content! The vicious pain she's been through, the daunting things she's some to view! Without consideration she defiles her skin, the vacant space within her still it wins! A girl whose been pummeled time and time again, to other's is genuine! An extraordinary girl yearning to be free, wondering how eccentric is she? Plaqued she speculates how she is worthless, eminent sensations of hoplessness! To surmount her anguish, her life she does not cherish! Loathing that here she must abide, she wants to go and hide!

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its been a few days since i last saw you and each day that passes my heart breaks a little more i hate being apart it tears me to pieces i long to see your smiling face again to look deep into those blue eyes we've been together for so long we've had our ups and downs but we made it through i wouldnt trade anything for the time ive had with you my heart races whenever i think of you or when i even speak your name but since you've been gone ive done nothing but cry i miss you i hate the distance thats between us at the moment i cant wait til the day that you come back i just want to wrap my arms around you and kiss your lips just to go weak in the kness i cant wait til the day when i say i do sean you know i love you and that will never change your everything ive ever wanted the guys in my past are nothing compared to you you can make me laugh when all i want to do is cry or even when im mad at you nothing can take you away from me and if somethin

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Why has no one ever loved me?? Am I nothing?? I can't be everything you want I can't be everuthing you need Heartbroken and bleeding I cry for you Longing for your soft gentle touch The way you would touch my cheek Brush my hair out of my eyes Now looking at you those eyes full of lies The way they use to sparkle The way they use to look at me Now they look through me Seeing past everything I use to be I'm tossed away Thrown aside Waiting for the next turn in my life Waiting for someone to prove to me Not everyone is the same To prove to me you were the one that was wrong To show me I'm not crazy Prove to me that I can be loved Someone show me that I too can have someone stand beside me

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What is happening to me? Why am I so sad all of the time? Will this pain ever go away? Is it all in my mind? I ask myself these questions Every single day Yet still cannot answer them So every night I pray For God to tell me why And to help me get through I don't even know why I feel the way I do Is it past traumas Returning to haunt me Or is it from the present Something I'm unable to see I feel I could deal with the sadness That I'm feeling inside If only I knew why I feel sad If only I knew why I cry How can I make it stop? I just want it all to go away It's consuming my mind, my heart and every single day Some days I just want to give up I just want to die And some days aren't so bad But I still struggle to get by I'm terrified inside That one day I will act on my thoughts Which would hurt many others It would be all my fault God please help me through I'm not sure how much longer I can hold on Guide me into happiness I cannot do it

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Like a dark star rising This screaming metal messiah Obeys the slick black curves That otherwise spell oblivion To the one who ignores The cowardly yellow line And finds an asphault Rollercoaster crush Waiting to embrace His Captain's Courageous With a sinnister mile The turnpike smiles wide Describing this ritual With a brutal kiss That seals the coffin's lid On this final ride!

~until The Last Note Is Played~
((Read this.. then think about what your favorite song does to you when you hear it.)) :) ~ ~ ~ ~ it's there - I hear it the soft rhythme reaching within how it caresses it's way into places.. dark and still - I close my eyes and feel it there upon my skin I feel as it works its way over every inch. Slowly I let myself go I let it take me over.. let it reach into those places kept hidden in shadow. It begins to make my soul heat oh.. how I welcome it as it plays its song upon my heart the rhythm.. feeding upon my skin.. I become entranced - letting it consume me.. enbracing it.... until the last note is played. ~Candyce~

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Sitting in the darkness, searching for the light. Wishing someone would come save me, someone who will fight. Fight for my love, and fight for what makes me happy. I would gladly return the favor. I just want it to be real. None of this hiding nonsense, or pretending to love me. For pretending to love me hurts much worse then telling me the truth.

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Untitled Confusion is the most dominant emotion for me right now. I am stuck in this heartfelt rendition of killing me softly while I feel the sweet pain and ardent pleasure as I cut through the tender flesh to my quivering soul. Perfection to me is priceless. My perfect self would sit and feel nothing while gently caressing the scars that have created this momentis nothing. In nothing is everything. No pain, therefore no pleasure, no heartache, thus no love, No anger so of course no happiness. But are happiness, love and pleasure such a high price to pay for that sweet nothingness? And furthermore what are, love, pleasure, and happiness but the strangled confusion that has been lovingly enveloped in a mask of pain heartache and loss? So while you sit in your comforting silence staring out at the starry night sky rubbing away the tear of wonder that has unknowingly escaped at the sight of the ultimate beauty of what you are looking upon and thanking your lucky stars that your hap

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Her wings lay torn and tattered where they fluttered to the ground, Where once there was a song of joy there now was no more sound. The air was filled with silence for there was no song to sing, Gone was the love that lifted her...the Wind beneath her wings. Gone the inspiration, the laughter in her soul, She lay in broken promises with no one to make her whole. For when the Wind beneath her wings so suddenly was gone, The angel spiraled to the ground, falling broken and alone. The air around grew silent, not a whisper in the wind, Just the Fallen Angel's breaking heart was a distant sound within. A soft and plaintive weeping sound swirled and danced across the sky, As a single tear fell to the ground from the Fallen Angel's eye. The tear fell on a seed of love that lay within her hand, Clutched closely to her beating heart, so slowly it began. From that tiny seed of love a song began to sing, A song of a Fallen Angel and The Wind beneath her wings. The song sang of und

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The smoke and fog remains heavy on the grave A carcass burns where it was struck down Nothing will be truthful anymore Playing games that are sweet and innocent Shall be outlawed forever throughout time The dragon's flames writhes within all of us Streams of flesh that was burnt and cooked under magma Eyes of death will return to awaken into our world Drugs are not going to be your escape In this game of truth or dare. I believe that you and me will believe in many things Knowing that evil is the dominating force We all can believe that we will see Evil is returning once again to feed on our sorrow This is something I can believe. What will not kill the death uprising Can and only will make it grow much stronger It shall feed on me until it desires you The enigma owns a name that no one can dare say More carcasses will be spawned and layed out As a red carpet for the destruction that death will create. Can you trust anything with the hatred lingering around

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You changed my world with a blink of an eye That is something that I can not deny You put my soul from worst to best That is why I treasure you my dearest Marites You just don't know what you have done for me You even pushed me to the best that I can be You really are an angel sent from above To take care of me and shower with love When I'm with you I will not cry even a single a tear And your touch have chased away all of my fear You have given me a life that I could live worthwhile It is even better everytime you smile It so magical those things you've made To bring back my faith that almost fade Now my life is a dream come true It all began when I was loved by you Now I have found what I am looking for It's you and your love and nothing more Co'z you have given me this feeling of contentment In my life something I've never felt I wish I could talk 'til the end of day But now I'm running out of things to say So I'll end by the line you alre

Until We Die..
Burn your Gods of reason Hear the voices of the dying Reaching to breath the treason The land of the defeated Has risen to grab hold & take the poor to competed Now the blind has a sight & the vision is losing control The people are now in the light........

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I loved you—and my love, I think, was stronger Than to be to be quite extinct within me yet; But let it not distress you any longer; I would not have you feel the least regret. I loved you bare of hope and of expression, By turns with jealousy and shyness sore; I loved you with such purity, such passion As may God grant you to be loved once more.

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walk alone We watch as our lives pass us by the never ending pain of loss hidden faces among what we call us our souls filled with hatred and sadness nothing ever goes our way we walk alone through this cold life no turning back all we can ask for is hope our hearts are dark torture lifeless feelings living deep inside of us what we look for is no where to be found time wasted that is all there is nothing can save us we walk through a dark valley no future for me no future for anyone no prediction no guessing no hope we don't see anything we don't feel our blood turns into ice pain so flawless makes the shadows come alive no point in crying out there is no one to help us we walk alone, by ourselves we wish the end finding a way out but it's not there all we can do is wait wait for it to come take a risk, take a chance we walk alone

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its nice and sunny, a beautiful day but in my heart its dark and gray. Will this phase ever pass or will it stay like the last till i become what i once was unable to feel my true emotions save for heartache and pain will i stay and empty shell i see all the love around me but none of it is within me why must it be this way to make me feel nothing but lonelyness when i have some much love to give is like a death of the soul and heart.

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When you have found yourself lost Unable to find a place to rest your tired head Freezing cold temperatures with nothing to enjoy Surviving on the thoughts that you left for dead To think turning back would be impossible Quiet to admit when you got nothing to live for A loss to the meaning of waiting for tomorrow to come When you are still trying to locate what happened today. Search all you want for the safe zone You wont find it here begging at my feet Fortunes worth seeking that contain smells of death You failed to realize you had everything in your hands But you ran away when something just never worked A frightened dog who refused to accept help You're worthless with your face flat on the ground. Some people never will understand the treasures they have Greedy for their own good intentions to accept To find themselves walking in circles Traveling many miles without forgetting where the first step was You are no longer anything to the future of the world Th

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my fave songs to dance too jose cuervo - shelly west Ladies love country boys - trace adkins tubthumping - chumbawamba ten rounds with jose cuervo - john michael montgomery captian jack ddr style- captian jack take this job and shove it - dead kennedys chrome - trace adkins gasoline [remix] - daddy yankee honky tonk badonkadonk - trace adkins i faught the law - the clash hot mama - trace adkins walk it out - dj unk hillbillies like it in the hay - big n rich uncle pen - ???? should I stay or should I go - the clash swing batter swing - trace adkins save a horse - big n rich litty pretty one - ???? date rape - sublime candyshop - ???? all jacked up - gretchen wilson bbq stain - tim mcgraw blitzkrieg bop - the ramones

Untittled
it takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appriciate them, a day to love them, but then an entire lifetime to forget them. thats a phrase that was once said now the phrase wont leave my head meeting you made me realize how that could be true the minute it took me to find you i will never regret and it is you i will never forget you make me happy, but you cause me tears then i talk to you, and i have no fears what if i never took that hour to appriciate you? my life would be so different, i wouldnt know what to do this relationship that we have makes me a whole lot stronger and i pray to god that it will last longer being hurt again for me is a big scare i havent taken that day to love you because of my fear

Untitled 2-2-97
Sadness will find your eyes dry As your Arms Envelop my Body Your eyes are Downcast As our Lips Collide in Sweet Perfection Soft as the petal Of a red rose A single Diamond Tear Collects inside but refuses to fall You torture yourself As i Hold You Tell yourself To Hold Back You Slip out of Eden Garden of Sanity In A moment Of lost reality Relive an illusion Haunt your Own Dreams and Death make you Live Again.

Untitled So Far...
The stars shone brightly, almost blindingly, as the cruiser cut through that sector of space silently and menacingly. This sector was off limits to most but only those that were either foolhardy or brave dared to navigate this part of space due to the fact it was a gauntlet of eddy's and planetary fragments. But in this case, the pilot was a seasoned veteran and could out fly most other pilots with his hands behind his back and with his eyes closed. This pilot came from a family of pilots and he was the 4th generation to become one. Growing up, his dad taught him how to fly like his father before him did. In the beginning he was able to grasp the basics extremely quickly to the surprise of his father and moved on to the more difficult teachings in a short period of time. This is what the boy enjoyed the most. He found the basics to be boring and somewhat dull but he muddled through them to get them over that much quicker. As he learned each advanced skill, he thought

Untitled
Blue skies, Green Trees. Wish it was really that simple. Life, Death, Mourn, Rejoice, Love, Hate, Laugh, Cry Silly, Crazy, Young, Old, Stop, Go, Love, Hate Celestial fires, Waning moons. Wish it was really that simple. Love, Hate, Cleanse, Dirty, Purify, Again, Color, Sign, Breath Wanting, Needing, Having, Letting Go, Keeping, Giving, Loving, Hating, Wishing it was all that simple.

Untitled Poem
With mixed emotions of love and hate. becomes one symbol of heart and triangle. The heart may be strong but at times it will break. my mind so weak and mentally broken. Fearing thats the tears will start to fall again. My mind racing through various obsticles. At the end it crashes and the tears start flowing. As I close my eyes my world becomes dark. Then the candles blew and then dissapeared. The windows open and he appeared. Saying dont be afraid.

Untitled
yes i wrote this one Living in a darkness for so long now Hearing you calling my name turned that world upside down You lifted me from that deep dark hole How can i explain what youve shown me from within your beautiful soul You made me part of your world in turn became all of mine. Cherishing every moment with you wishing i could stop time. Holding you in my arms so close the outside world fades away No matter what happens, in my heart youll always stay. You have left your mark all over my soul You've made me complete you've made me whole. When ive needed you most, youve stood by my side Youve been my shelter, my anchor , my guide. The promise of my love a love never ending. Each day with you seems like a new beginning.

Untitled
Where in the world Can you find what you love; Have it uncorrupted; Have it for sure, or Have it as a cure For the nights spent alone; For all the days left ungrown. Where can I go where I know My weakness flows; Where I see what's inside of me, And, have it be true; Blasphemy. What I ask of me, too much; And, of you; not enough. Not a place I've been, Where my bad luck hasn't followed. Not a one I've known, Where it hasn't shown; And, all my life that will be known There it will be, to claim stake to my home. Forever strown thin, and, for all, alone within.

Untitled
Once you said my eyes were a reflection of my soul That I must have the most gorgeous soul ever created It was filled with love, peace, happiness and a unshakable wonder All that is now gone, taken away in a single moment of loss Does that mean that now my eyes are hideous? If you looked into them once more would they hold the same thrall? Or would you feel sickened by what you now see in them? Would they cause you to remember what you had once seen? Could you see glimpses of my past self in them? Is it possible you would plead for the beauty back? Its not something I can do for it was never really my soul you saw That soul was ours combined, your purifying mine I've tried so many times to recreate my perfect soul Every time I've failed, causing my soul to become more disgusting I beg to you restore my soul to its former glory Not for me but so you can once more see all that you loved

Untitled..
Untitled wrote on Feb. 14, 2005 (a certain someone will know this is about her if she ever views my blog) its not about love its about sucide that i almost did. When I'm with you I ache for your touch When I'm without you I hurt You make me smile You make me cry I want what I shouldn't want I crave what I shouldn't crave I need where I shouldn't need Like a drug that I'm becoming addicted too. I can't have you I can't live without you Even though we haven't been together I feel you beside me, in me, with me always I fear that I'm falling for you I'm afraid of being hurt What we have is special but dangerous A life lesson we both want A lesson we both need We get closer each day Closer than friends Almost lovers

Untitled 2
i dont know how to make this go away i dont know how to make this stop, i dont know how to hold up my hand. and in the end, i will cry myself to sleep, and no one will know. and i will die alone, scared of the ghosts that dont exist, of the deaths that havnt happened yet, pushing through the pain without any drugs, just like before, just like always

Untitled.....
You were there at my birth On the day I came to this earth You helped me through numerous things in life You lived to receive your congratulations But not your two yountests' graduations I know it wasn't your fault Everyone has to go sometime I just wish I could have said that one last good bye Even though you're gone I know you're in a beautiful place I know you're always with me And feel the pain of your loss

Untitled Poem
Sea of everlasting sorrow wondering if there will be tommorrow. As day turns to an endless night thoughts of you haunt me. Like shadows from the past how long could this night last. Restless and deprived is my soul that wants to fly. Trapped in a world of my own making. I can only blame myself for this undertaking. Suffacation leads to my desperation, heart, soul and mind are the hardest things to combine. For never where a three so contriary as these. I have learned when your heart is in it your bound to get burned. Heed my warnings and take them well to mess with the emotions of the heart is pure hell. Minds can forget but the heart always remembers. JAK 8-31-07 "mistress"

Untitled
The thought, in passing Was not so much And fled before recalled I tried to grasp Its fleeting form But found it out of reach I looked to you For confirmation Of all that came before But missed your glance So looked away And ignored your sorrow I sat-pondering How it came to pass That I could not recall How the chasm Between our souls Appeared without my help I reached out To breach the gap The one I did not cause Hoping for you To Understand Nothing remains to save.

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When you leave the stars collapse, space crumbles like a blasted tower, and the void itself is rent of blackness. What remains cannot be processed by the senses. All outward reactions are reversed. My head is filled with tears.

Untitled
My spirit soars with glee As my soul screams in agony My heart thuds a little harder As my mind pulls back a little farther Should I take this for what it's worth? Or should I not bother with all the work? Take a chance or see what happens Or miss out and later cry to a friend? These are decisions to make... Repercussions to take Life's not fair Not to those who really care

Untitled
he's carved his name into my heart and left me with weak knees and butterflies his touch sends my heart racing and his words make me come undone I've fallen again just to be left in pieces on the floor

Until I Met You
I never thought I'd find someone, Who knows me quite the way you do; I never thoughht I'd find someone, Whose love would be so true; I never thought I'd want to spend, Eternity with another; I never thought I'd find someone, Who would love me more than any other; I never thought I'd find forever, In someone else's eyes; I never thought I'd find truth, Instead of bitterness and lies; I never thought that wishes could be granted Or that dreams could ever come true; I never thought I'd find someone - That is 'till I met you. done by christine

Untitled 1999
I'm in your mind, But you can't sense me. In your blood, Circulating evenly. In your heart, Pressing buttons. In your soul, Pulling strings. I'm playing with your feelings, Your meanings and understandings. I'm surging through your body, But you don't know I'm there. I know just what you're feeling. It's funny, You don't know I exist. I'm decaying you from the inside out. Yet still, You don't feel it. I'm tearing strings and upsetting organs. You don't have a clue. Yeah, This is me doing this to you. 1999

Until You, Without You
Until You, Without You Always feeling alone, until you I didn't love myself, until you I didn't care about life, until you I never held a friend's hand, until you I never told a friend that I loved her, until you No one had ever held me for no reason, until you No one had ever truly known me, until you Lying in the darkness, without you I don't know who I am, without you I don't know what to do with myself, without you How did I ever get by, without you How did I ever find comfort, without you Would I have ever seen my true self, without you Would I have ever known true friendship, without you

Until It Gets Better
my internet isnt working im at a friends now even though i moved im still having issues with my wireless connection. soo im still gonna be on for a bit longer except when i can get to a friends house or a library whats gone on with me i moved into an a apartment with friends i lost my job and now am applying for food stamps i had an interview and hopefully will get the job unpacking sucks and takes a lot of energy and also life sucks im out of money i could cry a river leave me some love to come back to when i get on again either next week or in a few days love you all

Untitled
UNTITLED SOMETIMES WE LET THE THINGS WE WANT, LEAVE, AND WE REGRET NEVER STOPPING THEM. THEY MAKE YOU FEEL LIKE YOUR SOMETHING SPECIAL, WHEN YOUR SAD THEY LET YOU CUDDOL AND NESOL. YOU ENTERED MY LIFE AS A HELPING FRIEND, I NEVER KNEW YOU'D BE MY LOVE UNTIL THE END. WE MET ONE NIGHT AND NEVER STOPPED TALKING. NOW IM LEFT WITH YOU WALKING. YOU KNEW HOW TO COMFORT ME IN TIMES OF NEED. OUR RELATIONSHIP GREW LIKE A PLANTED SEED. I NEVER MEANT TO LET YOU GO BUT WHEN YOU LEFT SO DID MY HEART AND SOUL. WE NEVER REALIZE WHAT WE HAVE IN LIFE UNTIL THEY WALK RIGHT OUT OF SIGHT. TO MY BABYGURL AND THE ONE I LOVE. PLEASE FORGIVE ME. IM SORRY FOR WHAT HAS BEEN DONE. THE FEELING OF LONLYNESS ISJUST SO COLD. I WILL ALWAYS WAIT UNTIL IM SAD AND OLD. A WORD OF ADVISE TOTHOSE IN NEED, IF YOU MEET THAT ONE PERSON WHO MAKES YOU HAPPY. HOLD ON TO THEM FOREVER CAUSE YOU'RE NEVER SURE WHEN THEY'LL GO. LOVE YA........ EDWARD LEWIS 11-30-05

Until You Call On The Dark
by Danzig. I wanna be your misery, I wanna be the world you fear, I wanna be your emptiness, I wanna be the god who kills, I wanna be the christ who dies, Upon the fires, Of infamy. Cant you see it, Can you feel it. Until you call on the dark. Cant you see it now, How black your future will be, And every emissary that I send you, Will bleed. I wanna be your misery, I wanna be the world you fear, I wanna be the christ who dies, Upon the fires, Of infamy. Can you see it, Cant you feel it. Until you call on the dark.

~untitled~
life's nasty game of trick and of chance to dwell in your thoughts and within your dreams prance taking or giving what suits its demise life seems only to want what's unfair - and unwise tormenting and stealing that which you so crave leaving you empty confused and within - dazed. holding you captive to what you desire not caring or trusting if your soul does expire. life's cruel jest does play itself well for it uses your heaven to toss you in hell! ~Candyce~

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I ENCOUNTERED A WOMAN WITH A NORMAL 70'S TYPE GLOW, THAT HONEST, COOKIE BAKING, DINNER IN THE OVEN TYPE FLOW.SHE HAD ALL TE MAKINGS OF A CELEBRATED BEAUTY QUEEN.IT WAS'NT HER LOOKS THAT MADE ME PURSUE HER IN A WAY BEFITTING THE PEDASTEL I HAD HER SITTING ON IN MY MIND,IT WAS THE WAY SHE CARRIED HERSELF AND THE FACT SHE SURPASSED ALL MY EXPECTATIONS TIME AFTER TIME.HER VOICE IS LIKE AN ORCHESTRA SOFTLY PLAYING MOZART'S BEHTOVAN NUMBER NINE.I CANT TELL HOW SHE KNOW LIVE BUT I ALWATS HAVE MY OWN IDEAS. THE PIANOMAN

Untitled For The Moment
I sit back Wondering why Just sitting alone...thinking As my life goes by. People so cruel The world so cold Living in depression Wanting someone to hold. If only people could see me See all the way through But hardly anybody takes the time Only a few. People are quick to judge They don't look deep But I'm happy with what I have So that's what I'll keep. I'd rather wait For a decent man To look deep insdie me Since nobody else can. Living in pain Living in shame Having a rep because of family Everyone knowing my name. Depression sucks But it's hard to wear s mile Instead of accepting life It's easier to live in denial. I can't cry I can't hurt I've built walls around my heart To block the dirt. To cry Is to be weak To survive... Strength is what I seek. Look into my eyes Tell me what you see You'll see pain and sorrow No little girl inside of me. I had to grow up fast No time for fun Staying in trouble But not the only one.

Untitled
You expected gentle midnight, and found to your surprise. Thoughts that ran even deeper, and echoed in your eyes. You can not blame me dear one, I warned you at the set. That I was not so gentle, and my hungers were always wet. Roses on the sheets, the thorns my toy toy of choice. As I pulled you ever closer, and raised your passions voice. Pains will heal my darling, but I loved your sweet refrain. And I didn't hear you try to stop, when first you feel the pain. Just some little blood drops, in contrast on your ass. Will leave witness of tonight, and all good things that passed. You expected midnight, instead you found the sun. Now tell me as you're blushing dear, didn't you find it fun?

Untitled
I stood there in the darkness watching you toss and turn adrift in a sea of loss and lonliness you didn't know i was there i watches you agonize over the decision you had come to how you had chosen a safe haven over the risks of a heart still beating with life and all that it carries the good and the ill i listened to you damn yourself as silent tears rolled down my cheeks for you i watched as you shivered in the lonliness of being by a fire gaze cold, looking to a pair of eyes that no longer returned your gaze i agonized for the hard unfairness of life and wept when it happened nothing, less than nothing, a single teardrop on your fallen form nothing, more than nothing, a heart caring for another something, more than something, a quiet gentle hand on your shoulder something, surely something, to fill that endless void will i meet you still.....or will i too be left behind to wait...wonder...hope watching as you scream and purge your lost soul into the vast e

Untitled...
Another day another dollar staying on my grind. Time has past my friends at last are falling all behind. No time to chat or time to think everythings moving to fast, uncontrollable situations makes things that are dear to me fall in the past. Now all I can do is grab the brake and yank it fast, and rekindle everything before I miss my chance. To everyone who has fell behind me please catch up quick, for I am on a never ending journey that won't let me stall for long.

Untitled Thus Far...
My eyes burn; bleed into me lover, You violate my body, but can you sanctify my heart? Feel screams pour through my fingertips into you, scratching, I struggle with self Selfish things; make my legs tremble convulse hold you tighter until we both explode Our hearts slammed together, we couldn't be further apart You are my soul, and I am your bus stop So continue on your journey, but I reached my Destination

Untitled Works
It seems yesterday he was born Miniature features so perfectly human From fingernails to wafts of golden locks of hair Absolutely whole, yet so helpless and vulnerable I watched his clouded blue eyes gaze about this strange new world And lock in on me I let him root at my breast, his mouth opened- Eagerly searching for life The power of his suckle overwhelmed me at first As I felt him begin to draw out the only nourishment He would have for months to come His tiny hand, with its long, delicate fingers, wrapped around my hand His eyes, still holding my gaze, hypnotizing me At that moment, as I held my newborn son I was truly complete

Untitled Works2
Skin on skin – you let me in Close to you – time rings true Hold me tight thru the night Let it all ride on the inside Skin on skin – can it begin? One on one – something’s begun Once I knew – it would always be you Funny, the path life takes you sometimes The twists and turns and riding the lines Jump in now before you catch your breath Touch me soon – before nothing is left This isn’t a game you can toss away Don’t stop my feelings – and don’t beg me to stay Write what I write – on thru the night Say what I mean – don’t believe in a dream Words are just words – don’t believe all you’ve heard Until actions are formed – words do not harm Touch me too softly and I’ll shy away Hurt me one time and you’ll wish I had stayed So kiss me now before you go Or miss your chance – it’s yours to know

Untitled Works3
A voice can be heard through silent thunder A scream, a sob a sorrowful call Storms raging on as lightening pierces the sky Seemingly slicing the heavens in two O’er head the rain so suddenly falls Uncomfortably crumpling the rose petals Pain ripples across the sky As now salty seas swell within Devastation so great words cannot come No comfort for those who stand looking Doors close when there’s no one to answer The ringing keeps rhythm With raindrops Only the lonely know time so well As to test the fates by dancing Glitter and glamour too much to hide And it continues on like the moon in the sky

Untitled Works4
I’m not sure what to do here Unsure of what to say Do I keep going this direction Or should I turn and walk away? I’m not saying that I want this I’m just wondering what would happen To not think about anyone else But my own selfish pride I can see trouble rising Over the sunrise in the sky Oh don’t stand too close Let’s let these feelings pass on by Two people closely grounded In roots that cannot bend Will only cause a heartache That would take too long to mend To say the glass is empty Would be too much a lie But to say it could be more As if to multiply Would not do it justice Would say there’s nothing to see Perhaps time will change things Or perhaps we’ll let it be

Untitled Works5
I can’t say what I want – because you know what could happen I can’t keep it inside – or it will destroy me I wish everything were simpler – but that is not an option I can’t do this to me – I am too strong And words aren’t enough – I need more My heart longs for freedom – yet sadness weighs me down Can’t I just leave it all behind – and merely move on? I feel as if a part of me is gone A piece that will never return My body reaches out in hunger Yet hold it back in fear and pain If only I knew how to change things I’d release it all and be whole

Until The End
"Until The End" Breaking Benjamin So clever, Whatever, I'm done with these endeavors. Alone I walk the winding way. (Here I stay) It's over, No longer, I feel it growing stronger. I'll live to die another day, Until I fade away. [Chorus:] Why give up, why give in? It's not enough, it never is. So I will go on until the end. We've become desolate. It's not enough, it never is. But I will go on until the end. Surround me, It's easy To fall apart completely. I feel you creeping up again. (In my head) It's over, No longer, I feel it growing colder. I knew this day would come to end, So let this life begin. [Chorus] I've lost my way. I've lost my way, but I will go on until the end. Living is hard enough Without you fucking up. [Chorus] I've lost my way. I've lost my way, but I will go on until the end. U-uh, u-uh The final fight I'll win, The final fight I'll win, The final fight I'll win, But I will go on until the end.

Untitled
You have this charm, this certain delicate touch. The ability to reach into my day and affect it so much. My soul is disturbed, ecstacy results as a product of your love. I will return with packets of trust, what we have I hold in my clutch. Dreams become reality with kisses a must.

Untitled For Now...
Remain calm. Don't crack under the pressure on which I am about to put you. Throw down your sarcasm, cynicism, or any preconcieved notions. Place in the bag any non-sequential habits in small denominations. Kindly remove any values, morals, or ethics and seal them in the box provided. Toss aside any pure emotion or independent thought. You won't need them anymore. Move aside from your identity as it is no longer an authorized item. Step forward for processing into a society of sheep among wolves. Running headfirst against the wind, teeth bared with eyes wide shut.

Until The End
Time unravels like a kitten playing with a ball of yarn. Waiting for you has become an obsession now. Listening for your footsteps; hoping for the sound of your voice... Waiting seems like forever but time is moving ever so rapidly. Do you still think of me; do you sit and ponder on what could have been. I know I do... Reaching deep inside to do the simplest of things; I must force myself to eat. Sleeping only when staying awake is no longer possible and then waking at the slightest of sounds... What will it take for my world to right itself once more; or is it even possible. You seem to take all of this with such ease while inside I am slowly dying... It is only a matter of time before I give up the fight altogether. Knowing that when I do you'll be able to move on without a thought. So here I sit; and here I wait... Until the end...

Untimely Death.......
Death is certain but the Bible speaks about untimely death! Make a personal reflection about this..... Very interesting, read until the end..... It is written in the Bible (Galatians 6:7): 'Be not deceived; God is not mocked: for whatsoever a man soweth, that shall he also reap. Here are some men and women who mocked God : Tancredo Neves (President of Brazil ): During the Presidential campaign, he said if he got 500,000 votes from his party, not even God would remove him from Presidency. Sure he got the votes, but he got sick a day before being made President, then he died. ------------------ Cazuza (Bi-sexual Brazilian composer, singer and poet): During A show in Canecio (Rio de Janeiro ), while smoking his cigarette, he puffed out some smoke into the air and said: 'God, that's for you.' He died at the age of 32 of AIDS in a horrible manner. ----------------------------------- The man who built the Titanic After the constructio

Untitled
Looking at you from a distance; I adore you Touching your hand briefly; I yearn for you Conversing deeply with you; I need you Loving you near and far; I have you Standing alone searching my surroundings; I lost you Crying for the loss of you; I miss you

Untitled
Every passing minute Throughout the long day, You wonder through my thoughts And seldom go away Sometimes you just sit there A smile on your face, Other times you dance and sing Which sets my heart to race At times you even take my hand And we stroll along the beach, other times you tease me And stay well beyond my reach All in all you're constant An ever twinkling star, Although by day you're hiding I know that you're not far Time and time I find you A constant running thought, An ever lasting reminder O what my heart has saught

Untitled
Come hold me close Never let go Because this is something I cannot control My heart's beating faster As you take my hand I'm willing to do Whatever you command.. Kiss me once more Seems like so long There in your arms Is where I belong Dont leave just stay by my side For only in your arms is where I can hide.

Untitled
i've thought of how we wound up so hating towards each other. i can only think of one reason. we were never ment to be together. we were never ment to fall in love that's what we thought it was, now i think all it was, was lust a craving we bot h needed filled. something that wasn't ment to happen but did because we wanted it to work out so much that we forced to to be.

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How can we sit so close,and be miles apart maybe all this was doomed form the start all I ask for is your love and all you do is push and shove thenyou tel meyou sorry and it will never happen again and then the cycle starts all over again Love's not susposed to hrut or make you cry to cover bruses or fear youw ill die no longer open hand, fists pound my skin never screeming out , I keep the pain in Till I was healed, at home is were I stayed so the world wouldnt see the mess you made now Im damaged goods, because of your game how can I love another, when nothings the same How can I be happy and let my soul fly free when the nightmears of what you did still hunt me this book cant close, the story wont end when I thinks its over the nightmares start again but he loves me, and trys to understand all the damage done by your hand happy by day , alone at night finding peace in the twilight

Untitled
Everyday I wander what my life is worth. I wander why I am here on this Earth. Will there be a day where I can finally understand? Or will they always stand there and make a demand? My days are wonderful and full or fun. But when night falls, the pain throbbs my heart making me want more of that warm sun. Will there ever be a day where I receive praise? Or do they beleive that I am not fazed? I am not a walking peice of armor, I feel the hurt too.

Untitled
You were my north, my south, My east, my west, my daily work, My nightly rest, my poem, my song, My day, my night, I thought you and me Would last forever but I was wrong. Now your standing here with that Sad face crying out your final tears, From what I just said to you, I Don't want it this way because me and You are through. You'll see that it was all you and Do you remember when you said we would Remain forever true, You were wrong and now I guess This love will no longer go on.

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Sometimes when I am sleeping I dream of you I see your beautiful face and your eyes so blue I wish I could be a shield and protect your heart Seeing you in pain just rips me apart Your never alone I am always here All you need to do is say the word, I am always near Wish I could take away the shadows that haunt you at night Forever until they are gone I will fight Words can't describe the agony I am in I don't know where things end and where they begin My lonely soul just wanders around Because it cannot have what it has found Happy is all I want you to be Even if it is with someone else instead of me So I will sit back and hang in the shadows A silent shoulder that you can lean on Forever your friend I will be If there is no one else there is always me!

Until The Night
Milky white shoulders, Ebon’s Embrace, Velvet soft kisses, Moonlight on your face, Nibbles and caresses, Like crimson and lace, Love’s heartbeat evoking, Another time… another place, Feeling your heat, You search and you please, I moan and I cry… As you passionately tease, Mold me and shape me, Take me this night, Desire engulfs me, As my soul takes flight, I’ll keep your love with me, I’ll cradle your heart, As the sun whispers your name, We’re never far apart…

Untitled
In mourning, seafog Makes small things visible. Pearls cling to petals. Pine needles are fringed with glass. The sea breaks against rocks. Heaving back, it breaks again. What does the wild rose know of its beauty? Have you any idea what you've given me?

Untitled
Creature, creature double feature you look like a movie star from the future you look like a ham on an old west spit you look like a dime covered in shit you look like a man I used to know who drove his Dodge Dart into town with a special mission to find the girl who stole his sneaker and wore it to the river to catch the yellow fishies that swim by the shore that play with kids when the parents are bored of playing cards with a single decked out clubber that dances outside while waiting to get in to the clubbing of baby seals to wear for fur by rich old women of the sadistic u.s. of a tormented soul who uses all his power to refuse the dish that tastes like pissing on the white walls of the city bus that used to run well but is now just barely moving on to higher dimensions of the mind to reset the clock of the earth's axis that chimes like the sound of an alarm clock that wakes him up from a deep sleep when all he wants to do is stay in a bed of roses that the aphids have all chewed

Untitled
Who are you? Do you really Feel? Do you know what it's like to feel your soul shake When that perfect image reveals itself? Do you respect art for art's sake? Or do you pretend you are what you aren't? An unfeeling blob with nothing to give to this world we all hope to better. Art is there and you ignore it. You ARE a sheep and we all see it. Your red sheep's cunt. Put it out for the farmboy. It makes no difference to him. Put it out for the world. It really makes no difference. A red swolllen cunt you carry and you are... A sheep with nothing on her mind except eating grass and filling her cunt. Cunt or mouth is there a difference? Both of yours drip the blood of man Bite it hard and expect to live life as you think it should be. Spill your blood and spoil the plate. Hate yourself and bite him hard. Your infliction is your own self-denial. Hate yourself and destroy those who love you.

Untitled
Don't tell me you love me if you are not sincere, For a lie that strong can ruin my life and bring on a new fear. Fear to be loved, Fear to love ever again. It can cause my fragile heart to break, tear, and bend. Think of all in life that will be missed because of one small broken promise. So, when I put all of my trust deep within you, Please don't tell me you love me, Unless you truely do.

Untitled.
Let me die with a cold breeze upon my chest Let me feel the wind under my feet as my soul let fly Let me see my death in black and white Let me feel my heart stop and expire And let me see all that I love one last time.

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Written for a friend...what I heard through his words...just listen Brother when you weep for me Remember that it was meant to be Lay me down and when you leave Remember I'll be at your sleeve In every dark and choking hall I'll be there as you slowly crawl On every roof in driving snow I'll hold your coat and you will know In cellars hot with searing heat At windows where a gate you meet In closets where young children hide You know I'll be there at your side The house from which I now respond Is overstaffed with heroes gone Men who answered one last bell Did the job and did it well As firemen we understand That death's a card dealt in our hand A card we hope we never play But one we hold there anyway That card is something we ignore As we crawl across a weakened floor For we know that we're the only prayer For anyone that might be there So remember as you wipe your tears The joy I knew throughout the years As I did the job I loved to do I pray

Until We Meet
Until we meet My nights will be a little colder My days a little shorter My heart will beat a little less rapid Until we meet I know that my arms will be empty My mind hurting from the constant thought of you Minutes will seem to be hours Hours will seem to be months While months will seem like eternity Until we meet The stars in the sky will not affect me with its gleaming sparkles of life Until I am gazing at them in your arms And the food that I eat will not be as fulfilling and nourishing Until it is you that I share the my food with And Until we meet I will not feel whole My world will seem incomplete Until that wonderful day When our eyes make first contact And our bodies and souls collide in blissful whirlwind The words will roll off my tongue like a sweet love song "Hello, my love, I couldn't wait to meet you."

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sorry if i keep on hurting you sorry if you don't like the things i say or do sorry if with you i always put up a fight sorry i just can't do anything right sorry if i'm way far from being an angel except compared to an angel from hell sorry if you think my excuses are lies sorry if it's so difficult quiting my vice sorry if i'm not too understanding sorry for all the headaches and pain i bring sorry if often it's hard for me to swallow my pride sorry if often i'm too blinded by anger to see your side sorry if i'm so complicated sorry i keep making you feel frustrated sorry i can't fight back the tears sorry if i keep you away from your peers sorry if i always complain about you not meeting my expectations sorry if sometimes i can't fight all these temptations sorry if i seem like a joke to you sorry if i don't appreciate all those sweet things you do sorry if i keep on repeating the same mistakes sorry i say stupid things and i can't find the break

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Time stands still when no one understands you and you don't quite understand yourself. Today didn't have to be this way, tomorrow is another day, another chance to make things right..You know you're in love when you see that someone &your heart flutters, your stomach gets butterflies,& the rest of the world disappears. I'm not afraid to fall;it means I climbed too high. Either way it shows at least I tried. Everything we've gone through & everything we've accomplished can never be explained in words.You had me from the day you smiled. I just want a different ending to our same old story. Let's try & make it last this time & prove them all wrong. So what if I think too much or if I over analyze things. So what if I can't eat or sleep… At least you'll know why. You're always on my mind. Everytime i try to give up hope whispers "ONE MORE TRY…"Sometimes one smile means more then a dozen roses.

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The world changes her clothes While I watch A voyeur of epic proportions An innocent bystander To a natural phenominon Awed, impressed Embarrassed Belittled and overcome Put your clothing back on Mother Nature I am to young to view you nude

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Standing in a crowd, I knew you were holding my hand. Without a sound you effortlessly let go, tossing me into a sea of people, strange and unknown. If it were ever bright, the sun shown dark this day, cold and unfeeling. I screamed your name in a silent cry, drowned in the murmur of others dreams. Your unfaithfulness has caused my death, ever dreaming in still shrouds of dark. I loved you with all the passion a dead woman could, and you never, not once, thanked me for it. Instead I was left alone.

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How pompous and arrogant to think myself beautiful Now sitting on the sidelines I see beauty in its fullest Beautiful body Trance-like movements graceful and endearing Pulling the eye Searching the soul Invading the heart The pure essence of all that is creative I watch from my lonely perch and hope for the opportunity To compete To strive for such beauty excellence and grace. For Jamie Delgrosso one of the most gorgeous dancers I've ever known Summer of 2000

Until Tues...
my husband came home we had a great night, woke up this morning and he just started going off on me. i went to the doc today and she suggested couples counsuling we are going to try to fix this, or im gonna go crazy! i love all of my friends on here, i could never express just how much you have helped me. i guess im not going to win that contest but i want to thank every one that helped. i love yall and ill see u on tues! Muah! *Kimberly*

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When I am around you I can never be blue Being with you makes me happy but can it continue; i don't know sadly you have alot to think about I don't want to make you pout when you do you are day when you do, i become sad I wish i could make things better everything does get better you never know when or how it could actually be right now I wish that I could see If there could ever be something between you and me I will always remember you I hope that you will always remember me.

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What more is there to say I am not sure if there is You don't love me the same way The same love that use to sizz Is it another guy or just me You've been acting different Very different to me I am not sure what this has meant I would like to talk I would you see A person to person talk Just you and me I feel like I am holding you back Holding you back from fun If I am holding you back Then do what needs to be done I want to see you Just you alone I think I love you I don't even want a phone

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A glass wall separates me from my site. So that the world teasingly dangles in front of me, Knowing that I can't touch it. Knowing that I only await waiting to Waiting for the tiger, clawing fervently underneath my skin to find an exit, to find freedom, but mostly, myself.

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I talked to a man I thought was so sweet...And then to my surprise the real person comes out...He spoke those flowery words that make you feel so good inside...But the words were lies he kept trying to hide...Does he do this to many on here...I am almost certain , so you better beware...Don't wear your heart on your sleeve just always be strong...Then when the time is right, that right man will come along.

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I have this heart that wants the protection of love. Security of someone special, feeling safe in thier arms. Passion burning in the air. Feeling the closeness of eachother without even touching. Smelling the mist of the chemistry lingering around. Hearing two hearts pound as one. Seeing in his eyes the gaze of being in love. The sensation of wanting eachother,that all inhibitions are thrown out the window as you cave into eachothers needs and desires.

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It is a night of dark desire, a song of darkness, wolves vent their howls. The dark one stirs. Curling, icy wisps of death shrouds her pale form, an eternal desire. Her raven hair cascades over pale and delicate shoulders, and her full crimson lips part slightly, to taste the red tears streaming from the pale flesh beneath her. Now a night of shared vitality, I awaken.

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the one person I trust with talking too is no longer speaking to me because he had to choose between me and his girl. go figure he chose her. oh well right life goes on well now I am literally going crazy cuz I have no one that I can talk to about the shit that is going on. I just hope that she is happy with everything she has done. I don't know who to trust with anything and now my life is slowly slipping into insanity with all the lonliness and depression I am going through. Not even my best friend who is going through her first deployment with her hubby and she has two kids doesn't even know what the hell is going on cuz know one knows what I mean or how to translate the words. Half the time I didn't have to say anything and he knew. That in my opinion is a friendship to be upset about ending. OH WELL just as long as he is happy I will stay here and go crazy with my thoughts.

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well almost 8 years I lost my first love and best friend. Since then I haven't been able to be truly happy. There for almost a year I did meet someone that made me truly happy. He was the only one to make me smile when I was upset. Half the time I didnt have to say nothing and he would know what I was wanting or trying to say. And now we are not talking because of his girl. She got mad made him choose and well he chose her over my friendship. Yea I know what an ass right? But I know that is she didn't make him choose I would more then likely still have my friend my buddy. But oh well right? So as of now I am feeling used, like I have been stabbed in the back. He was the closed one to making my heart whole again since my first love and best friend died. Back then I was 14 and all and I have tried to get over all of it but haven't been able to fully. So for the time being I am going to go into hiding and just wait it out I guess. I don't think I will come out until I hear that he will wa

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I want to cry And I don't know why These feelings inside cant be right I'm fighting myself to understand The way I feel when I talk to you I'm lost inside Cant find my way People pass by Familiar faces And no-one sees the pain behind my eyes Nothing bad or dangerous Just pain at being so confused Jealousy lashes against my skin Over things I don't understand I'm working on nothing With no map to find my way I'm missing someone I cant tell Afraid to lose again Sometimes I want to be left alone But in order to thrive I need them My friends,my family But no matter how much I talk about him I'm still lost inside And all I want is him To talk to him Just everything Yet I don't think it'd ever happen He may not feel the same I'm trying so hard to hold the feelings back To keep from being hurt again I'm worried about a lot of things Crawling in the dark Searching for the light To lead me the right way Maybe he can turn it on for me Or leave me in the darknes

Until The End Of Time
Listen Verse 1 (Justin): I Woke up this morning And Heard the TV sayin' something 'Bout disaster in the world and It made me wonder where I'm going There's so much darkness in the world But I see beauty left in you girl And what you give me makes me know That I'll be alright Chorus: Cause if your love was all I had In this life Girl that would be enough Until the end of time So rest your weary heart And relax your mind Cause I'm gonna love you girl Until the end of time Hook: You've got me singing Oh whoa, oh whoa, oh whoa yeah Oh whoa, oh whoa, oh whoa yeah Everybody sing Oh whoa, oh whoa, oh whoa yeah Everybody singing Oh whoa, oh whoa, oh whoa yeah Verse 2 (Beyonce): No if you're ever wondering About the way I'm feeling Well baby boy there ain't no question Just to be around you is a blessing Sick and tired of trying to save the world I just want to spend my time being your girl And what you give me Let's me know that we'l

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My voice, unheard. My name, unspoken. The nothingness inside an empty box. Love and hate afaired. Speech and vision impared. Hushed by hope. Blinded by love. (Need an interpertation? TOO BAD! Figure it out yourselves. Each to his own, my friends.)

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Draw me in, pull me close Dangle my life on a string Attentions become altered in a second Cut my loose once again. Time goes by, you want to come back Things have dramatically changed. Feelings no longer the same. I'm not the same person I once was. What do you do now when u have nothing left to give? Everyone knows your tricks and secrets They know you'll never stop. Stepping closer to me, wanting to touch. I side stop out of your reach Your look changes instantly Remember, I am no longer the same person!

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Sitting in the dark So cold and alone Nothing to comfort me Not even a simple thought Rumors fly, but nothing really said Everyone in someone elses business No privacy allowed Why can't I get away?

Until The End Of Time
My word remains because it stains I belong in history so that you may see my mystery because of my ancestry will be my poetry Until the end of time I belong because of my song and tomorrow when my sorrow appears I will disappear to reappear until the end of time My word remains because it stains until the end of time will I belong Mark Frank Copyright ©2007 Mark Frank

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Untitled (still needs a name) I;ve got something to say I loved you Now Gone Far away Leaving me confused I can get over these fellings I had for you Is someone Loving You Is someone Loving you Have you found someone new I wanted to be there fore you You showed me what it was like to Be Unused Now I don't have you here anymore I wish I could run to you. My Life is a mess again Without you Is someone new loving you Is someone New loving Has someone Givin you what you want Making you smile everyday Happy In every way Goddamn I wish Is still had you G-Solo I wish I could Run to You Take your pain Kiss you again Make you see Its about you and Me I want to be there For you But now I wander IS someone new Loving You Repeat 1st Verse

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untitled (still needs a name) V1. Anger Fills me Changing me inside These fellings I can no longer Hide This love has grown old And we have become Cold the evil rises Eating away at me C. Turning black on the inside Growing Cold on the Outside Can you fell me I will love you I will hate you Kill me Hate me v2. The pain grows stronger I cant hold on much longer You have broke me down in this sorrow I drown You betrayed me Now I destory you c. Turning Black on the outside Growing Cold on the Inside Can you Fell me Hate me forever Love me Never Hate me Kill me v3. You cant fell me You wont defeat me You will see You are nothing now just a shadow I just walk away c. Turning black on the inside Growing Cold on the outside can you fell me Hate me forever Love me never hate me kill me

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Long have I sought thee Tortured years of aimless wanderings through an emptiness; Groping hopefully, tearfully, futility through the all enveloping mists of monotonaus tomorrows. For what? I know not. Something... Something... Something... Something... An elusiveness always seeming just beyond the reach of my outstretched fingers- I followed eagerly, excitedly, frantically- Wherever each new fantasy born of desire should lead- Empitness... Emptiness... Emptiness... And finally, despair- Please God, help me; I hurt... I hurt... Then You- written for my mother 1966

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Untitled 11-30-07 By: Travis Smith Sitting alone in the dark Searching for the spark To light up my life Possibly to even get me a wife Surrounded in fear and doubt Apparently in the end it all works out Soul searching and truth Man, it all went poof So my story began as it end With you gone like dust in the wind

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My mind is spinning, From all you have said. I sit and ponder, As I hold my head. I listen closely to my heart, And all the signs that I ignored. I wonder if maybe I should walk away from you. Knowing you has made me see a different side of me. Unconditional love I carry for you. I have tried to walk away before, But it has never done me any good. When I tired, I always have come back. There is a connection you have in my soul you see. A committment I made in another place with you. Maybe you and I will be in eternity, But right now you just are not healthy for me. Dee Parenti All Rights Reserved.

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You Are My Sterling Silver Rose Perfect in every Way The Reason I live for each Day When I think of you all fears fade Away A Smile permanently Stays You Are The Sterling Silver Rose Placed in the Center of my Heart That holds it together when it's ready to fall Apart You Are The Sterling Silver Rose I carry with me Everywhere To Remind me of the love we Share You Are The Sterling Silver Rose Floating through my mind Holding things nobody Knows You Are The Sterling Silver Rose Giving me goosebumps all over my Skin A Touch I hold Within You Are My Sterling Silver Rose Holding a Love Continuing to Grow

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She sits down by the willow tree looking at the sky Remembering days long gone She feels it, it's right there the wind blowing through her hair and the angel whispers stop your crying and start smiling good days are ahead She stands up, thinking about what the angel said It's too soon to smile, he just left last January She has been sitting at his grave Deep in her sorrow, she wont let herself carry on She wasn't there She loved him and he loved her too They were best friends He made her smile when everyone else made her cry Now she just wants to know why? She turns head up to the heavens and says real soft and slow God, why did you take him away? He had laughter and brightened so many days.. He loved like no one else. He understood me. It should have been me instead. I'm the one with the messed up head. I'm the one depressed all the time. He was just so alive. She sat back down as her tears hit the ground and the angel whispers stop

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Sitting on the bed all these crazy thoughts running through my head. can't sleep and don't know what to do...to busy thinking of you. Thoughts of long ago..fun and laughter.. Staring at your picture..how things use to be.. guilt coming over me..i shouldn't be thinking or looking at you.. dreamt of you and since I can't get you off my mind... the togetherness that we once shared is hard to find.. wondering if you ever thought of me...like I thought of you.. thinking of such times I can't help but smile. Those days were great. The love that we shared. Although it is no more. Forever in my heart it is stored.

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Looking out my window and thinking of you. Staring off into space, just picturing your face. Remembering the times we shared. The jokes you told and how we laughed. Right this moment I would give anything to have it all back. There is a pain still deep down inside and for some reason I can't let go. A vision running through my brain of the time we walked for so long. We had no reason remember we just walked and talked. It took us all night to get nowhere. Or how about the time we drank so much and you carried me home. It was times like those I was happy I wasn't alone. Remembering the first moment I saw you and at that moment I wanted nothing more than to draw you. My mind is all over the place but it doesnt matter because all I want is to think of you. I dream of you til this day. It makes my life go on since you are gone. There isnt a day that goes by that I dont think of the last time we embraced or the last time I saw your handsome face.

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should i push aside all my pride and always wonder where he is should i stay home late at night knowing another has felt his kiss should i leave and never come back or stay and feel my heart ache should i stand strong and see how much i can take should i wonder where he is or wut he has did should i push aside the pain and stay for our kid

Untittled 12/7/07
It has been far too long since the last time we spoke. But I have decided it is time so get this off my chest Hiding your problems behind the mirrors and smoke The time has finally come to lay this matter to rest I can no longer go on with our relationship this way Cause I’m tired of giving and getting nothing back I have stayed silent for too long now I have to say I miss seeing how you smile and hearing your laugh Now there is nothing but a shell of what has been The joy that was in your eyes has long since passed I miss that person you that you used to be my friend Always the victim now you’re forever stuck in the role So scared to feel you have become comfortably jaded Depressing to even be around you and your bitter soul Wanting to believe your so evil and by everyone hated Pushing everyone far away by being this angry asshole Now the light of your soul has almost completely faded Your love, warmth, and passion of the past is what I need Without it I ha

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cut it down to the bone this way there is no mistakes all the blood will flow and so will the tears u may think there is no one.. u may think no one cared but ur death ur pain has hurt others more than u because now ur dead, because now they have this void the lose of u....

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Somewhere I see a beautiful horizon ahead of me. Dreams whisper across the vast ocean of my tears. Alas, what is this I see? A new beginning just for me. Tiny hands grasp my fingers, the tendrils of love wrap around my heart. I hold this precious life so very close to me, as this life is what I give unto thee.

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Swelter in the heat of my own mind. It is not you trying to be sensual, You simply are who you are. I project the want and desire by things, Things I crave, craving you. It lacks imagination to want you above me, Have you crouch with me beneath you, Impale your senses as I part your lips. Still, I desire to have my body greet you, And enjoy every trip. Enter my key into your lock, Til I hear a sweet click, Unlocking great vocals of sultry bliss. Hands squeezing, tongue licking, Wet dripping kiss. Motion, stirring, shifting, squirming, Rthymic river flows free. Pumping action like cars and pistons, Warmth washes over me. Cool breezes, heavy breathing, Quick drink as more love flows. Heated lust is renewed, Once again, passion grows. Duane 'duke8me' Ellis copyright 2007

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all the glory of the morning. all the sleepy kisses of your warmth on my face. the unconditional love and the sometimes unreturned response. the knowing of what is to come by not the proof of this book but by my own tribulations and the price in which you have paid. i have never been more complete or without wanting. to be humble and without pride is an ocean that i swim in every day. sometimes the waves are many and often the horizon is close. i know everything and yet know nothing. the reason lies not in stupidity or ignorance but just in that i am human.

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If our lovers won't be friends and silence widens misrepresents the deeper truths we wish be known we leave behind old lovers Stripped of pretense we stumble through maybe seek a sign or wave the flag the intimate circle we gravitate to becomes a mass mirage and we play house long enough to get the footprints at the door If the door closes softly we walk through.

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Wrestling everything... Physical, emotional, baring all, Around my world were tall strong walls, built to keep out A safe place was there, alone i was and in doubt. Inside my walls my thoughts roam past, new, things I've explored and tried, What made me smile, want; what made me fly high Where is safety with peace happiness sought; owned, not leased Where is it, I remember past times.. then seek it, find it, crave it and renew my mind. Stinging leather, ropes binding, hotflesh bare, red always remind me... Happiness is serving Him, Pleasing, completing with a real love within. Fighting life is over and done, peace now, to Him I always sucomb. by teresa W.

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Lifelong ponderings; always wondering.... Is there more than what we see? Something or someone more to be? One day, i finally see... Past was just time; quickly gone like a dime.... Creation had came for this nothing; Real life from Him; the "more" that i finally see! God to me. kneeling before Him may all the world see! by: Teresa Williams, 1.28.07

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How it is we collide and find ourselves twisted in a wreck of emotions, but it is the heart that remains and never truly walks away without the injury of hurt. -Rod P. Stapleton A writer is not only a writer, a writer is an artist, for what a painter does with a brush a writer simply does with words. -Rod P. Stapleton It is not that I fear death, for I do not fear dying when amongst such beauty, it is that I fear to see such beauty die before me. -Rod P. Stapleton In life it is not ones heart that is in agony when violated, it is ones spiritual intellect, which takes flight to hide from the veracity of vitality itself. -Rod P. Stapleton Birds sing, I sing, maple runs sweet from its birthplace, I as well was born sweet. It was the wind allowing ripples to become waves amongst harrowing wild seas that has made me trivial to my mother and her unwavering nature. -Rod P. Stapleton Is there at all much difference between assassinating one by means of a bullet and that of

Until........
One kiss, one touch... these are the things I long for. the miles between us conspire to prevent me from making them become reality no matter the distance, i will come to you. there is no reason that stands to keep us apart. there is only love for you in my heart the first moment that i get to touch your face, i will never forget. a soft caress of your skin reveals to me your beauty within. until i get to see you, my mind goes in circles, trying to make sense of how strong is this thing. i know on your finger, belongs a ring

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There she goes, The girl i never knew existedShe came to me, And I knew i couldn't resistWe started as friends, Then became moreNow i know, That she is the one i adoreI have been hurt in the past, I'm over that nowEvery time I talk to her, She has me like wowEvery time I think of her, I find myself in a dazeI do know one thing, Getting to her will be a mazeThe day we do meet, Life will be great.Believe it or not, I think she is my soul mateI always wonder, Not sure if she feels the sameI know with her, There will be no more gameIf you are reading this, you know who you areI will always love you, no matter how near or far

Until Tomorrow
Yes, I love you. Yes, because the world is cold and the chances thrown to us are few and far between. so we've got to make our own it can be done so when I say I love you dont sit back, or look away in disbelief, life is too precious too brief for a long debate and lonely confusion because like a bolt of electricity either its there or its not. so I'll say I love you and I'll cry when you cry we'll write crazy sweet love notes we'll be romantic and you'll buy me flowers. we'll love one another just for one true moment for one last chance for today........ UNTIL TOMORROW

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Sometimes I want to be your lover And sometimes i want to be your woman I think I can give you all you need But somehow I think you scared You know that connection we have is strong Even though you distancing yourself from me You can't run from my love You can't run from it Its yours take hold of it Embrace it, love it, kiss it, breathe it Sometimes I want to your lover And sometimes I want to be your woman

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Living a love entangled with doubt Mournful times often come about For it is my love you do not believe I ask "How can thou not see"? Hath a cloud of darkness been cast upon thee As your words rain down As thy feelings are shared My face wears a frown Thou thinks i never cared Of thee I ask Look here ye will see written here lie words from me Wilt there be hope for us When flowers bloom and Amidst a sweet spring gust Where the sun's radiance shines Lies the key to two hearts combined Gaze into that brilliance And let our problems fade Returning worth to an otherwise hopeless day By those words AI heard u say The countdown has begun Together forever we'll sit In the warmth of an early dawn sun.

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As I went Surely, shall I go. Left one to the rain, Right into the heart of the storm. So I sit and I wonder Why I don't remember The thunder, And the soul That was you. Where did you go? Why are you gone? I feel better now. I feel good Better than you Ever Made Me Feel. I don't even remember you anymore. You are a face in the crowd. Don't do anything stupid. I am not there for you anymore. I don't remember you. What happened to that part of my life? I miss it like I think I Would Miss Cancer.

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Do it and i'll do it for you... would you kiss me? [] Yes [] No [] Maybe [] Already ***************************** Am I hot? [] No! [] OK [] Fine [] Of Course {}Cute {]Sexy ***************************** Would you hug me? [] Yes [] No [] Already did ***************************** Do you think I'm a virgin? [] Yes [] No [] Don't know ***************************** Name one thing you would like to do to me... ____________ ***************************** I look like.. [] A player [] One time thing [] Next bf [] A friend [] A friend with benefits [] A possibility [] Another somebody ***************************** If you saw me for the first time, would you talk to me? [] Yes [] No [] maybe ***************************** Would you rather... [] Hook up with me [] Cuddle with me [] Date me [] Friends [] Friends with benefits ***************************** On a scale of 1-10 (10 being the highes

Until The End
So clever, whatever, I'm done with these endeavors Alone I'll walk the winding way (here I stay) It's over, no longer, I feel it growing stronger I live to die another day, until I fade away Why give up? Why give in? It's not enough, it never is So I will go on until the end We've become, desolate It's not enough, it never is But I will go on until the end Surround me, it's easy, to fall apart completely I feel you creeping up again (In my Head) It's over, no longer, I feel it going colder I knew this day would come to end, so let this life begin Why give up? Why give in? It's not enough, it never is So I will go on until the end We've become, desolate It's not enough, it never is But I will go until the end I've lost my way I've lost my way But I will go on until the end Living is, hard enough, without you fucking up Why give up? Why give in? It's not enough, it never is So I will go on until the end We've become, desolate It's not enough, it

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When I'm with you, eternity is a step away, my love continues to grow, with each passing day. This treasure of love, I cherish within my soul, how much I love you... you'll never really know. You bring a joy to my heart, I've never felt before, with each touch of your hand, I love you more and more. Whenever we say goodbye, whenever we part, know I hold you dearly, deep inside my heart. So these seven words, I pray you hold true, "Forever And Always, I Will Love You g07

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I will let no one mess with you, Because Your My Best Friend, No matter who it is, Your the one who I'll defend. I always said I'd be here for you, Please trust me I'm no lie, Because I will always be here for you, Until the day I die. Even though we can't tell, At what our future may bring, We could lose touch and never see each other, But we'll remember everything. Well I hope you do, Because babe I always will, I'll remember our love life and friendship, Like a scar that never heals. I have a scar for life, Which will deeply remind me of you, It's on my arm so you'll always be a memory, Always no matter what I go through. I hope you'll always remember me, And all the fun we had, One day look back at our memory, At good times and the bad. No matter what happens to me now, And No matter what happens to me then, Remember always baby, Your My Closest and Best Friend

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Loving isnt a mistake. Its just the bad choices that we make that bring us down at the end of the day. Its what makes you look around and say: How did I let u do me this way? I cant point the finger soley at you, when deep inside I always knew, you and I weren't meant to be. I'm the one that did this to me! I heard your lies, never spoke my mind. shoulda just realized, I was wasting my time. So why is it, that I am so surprised, that here we are, on opposite sides? Once again, I'll make a mends: Seal off my heart, and be only friends. Keep it locked away, nice and safe. For someone true, it will forever wait. By: Krazie

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Sitting here with my head down Not knowing what to do All that was has made me frown Just thinking about you I've tried to heal these open wounds From the deepest of my soul And now that day has come too soon As i sit here slowly wiping the tears from my face I've come to realize ..dont let friendship go to waste

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Wanted alot then got nothing Tried my best and lost the worst I may give up but ill never give in Things are down but I always look up Seen many things desperate situations Becoming someone im not will never happen A long life so many flaws True Love? ...dreams of happiness

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Into the void my mind wanders thoughts of love are streaming As I sit and ponder do we all really have meaning? inside us there's a part of fate powerful and gleaming searching without peril for it's mate though it's only half of a whole it's strong and amazing I've found it in you, the rest of my soul.

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Can someone please tell me........ Why is love so complicated?? Why, Oh Why, do I keep fallin for the wrong guys? Why, Oh Why, did God have to give us feelings? Life would be much simplier if we didn't have feelings. I am just ready to give up on love, cause i am tired of gettin my heart broke adn trampled on. Can someone please tell me....... If Love, True Love, really exists?? If so i can't seem to find it, I'm so tired of trying to find the right guy for me. I'm ready to live a life of lonelyness, then at least I won't get hurt anymore.

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I'm in my own prison, finding my way out. I'm trying to find a reason to live. All I want is whats real, Something I can touch and feel. I'll hold it close and never let go. It seems my life is over, Reflecting on all my mistakes, To change it for whatever it takes. Maybe that is why I feel alone. Sometimes feel like giving up. I know I must go on, Although I hurt, I must be strong.

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i want to be in your arms i want to feel your kiss i want to know what it's like to be loved like this. to be in your life would make my every wish and dream come true will be the day when we say i do to put your lips on mine to hear you say i love you all of the time will make my heart skip a beat i want to be wrapped in your arms day in and day out i wanna say i love you baby and i am never going to go away. my love im here to stay my love is true and it's only for you.

Until We Meet Again
Sometimes I feel you here beside me but its just a memory a vision to vanish into thin air were the silence interrupted with the whisper of a prayer. I hear your voice when others speak a memory to leave me weak. I search for but a chance to see the smile that I depended on and meant so much to me. Day after day my heart does yearn as my soul awaits your swift return. Fond memories that I retrace must tide me now until we are heart to heart and face to face.

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A candle light guides my way back home, Can't believe I've been gone so long, I need to see your smiling face, And hold you tight within my arms, When I left you that Sunday mornin', I was gone without a trace, I left you there alone and cold, But now I see the error of my ways, (chorus) You were the strenth, when I was weak, You were the angel, that guided me, You were the love, when all I knew was hate, You were my life, my saving grace, Tonight I'm gonna make you see, Just what you truely mean to me, Dance this dance holding you tight, Promise to be yours till the end of time, (chorus) You were the strenth, when I was weak, You were the angel, that guided me, You were the love, when all I knew was hate, You were my life, my saving grace,

Until There Is...you
Until there is...you I will walk this earth alone No hand to hold in mine My heart all my own Until there is.. you True love will be just a dream Dreams of wonder and tears Dreams of hope and fears Until there is.. you My life will have no direction I will live on the road of uncertainty But will seek a journey out for you and me... And when the times comes I will thank my lucky stars And God from the heavens above For my heart and soul could never Feel the impact of true love Until there is...you

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Today is just another day Tomorrow is only so far away When our time comes to fly away We will spread our wings and go to the sky I want you to be forever mine through life Someday my only wish is to be your wife That day may never come it seems For you have her on your mind and in your dreams I may not be the best thing that has happened to you In my heart and mind I will always stay forever true I don't understand why things are the way they are Mistakes happen things go to far I keep telling myself that someday you will change The more I'm with you the more I am in pain I can't go on living my life like this Never knowing where your at or if I will get another kiss I love you so much but you don't love me back You tell me you love me in a different way that's not the love I lack Someday you will be mine I hope But something tells me what you say is all a big joke. By me....Stacie Arnold

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untitled what have you done to me? a smothering indistinctness of darkness as memories darken. once we savored paradise, untainted and wide-eyed, but your thirst soured. a dark pool of memory - tears follow rain, follow darkness, love burnt to ashes. in a torrent of bitterness, i reject you.

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Untitled Slender beams of radiance enter this darkened prison as I kneel, always silent, always alone, frozen here, waiting. Tortured forms wrought in panes of glass loom as dust dances in the air, forming an image in my mind, rending my darkened soul. Realization dawning on my face. I raise my head, now defying this uncaring light.

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As we sit in the snow white sand, And the waves crash upon the shore, I stare to the sky trying to understand, Why the stars seem brighter then ever before. Is it because the sky is so clear, That the stars are shining bright? Or could it be that love is near, On this perfect summer night? We laugh, we kiss, we talk, Draw pictures in the sand. Along the ocean we walk, Just her and I, Hand in Hand. Our night is almost finished, As the moon is fading fast, Another day will be diminished, Put with the others in the past. Everything seems to melt away, Faster then the drop of a dime, As night dissolves to day, We lose more precious time. Surely soon the sun will rise, As this is Gods command, I know he can see the twinkle in my eyes, As we walk Hand in Hand. gmw07

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In the danger of the hollow a lone candle shallow breathes air of consolation burnt short the tinder bent spirit flicker almost gone outsid looks in appearances deceive those who feed the flame believe it will burn forever a tempting glow curls long fingers licking lips whispers linger while tears hang on tears clinging to shattered glass impossible to be sure who holds what together a memory climbs me like cherry wood smoke melting my heart to nothing a drained candle where the wax has gone as a bitter wind belches spewing dreams on the wall yet the flame smolders deep to snuff it out before it's time cruel as the ruin of one silent goodbye

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When the daylight is ending & you start to dream away I hope you see me & remember my name My sweet baby..My beautiful lady I hope you see me & remember my name Pasts keeps calling Bringing bad memories Days best 4gotten & left where they are Dried up & buried You'll always wear the scars Dried up & buried You'll wear the scar Footsteps taken On roads less traveled Intentions mistakened Always unravels Will you hold me Make it all clear Or will you leave me Standing here...

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Nothing, but confusion in my head, soldering on, many things to tackle, feeling lost, considering what you have said, thus, can not talk nor think, Sitting lonely at my desk, a place no longer I want to be, wondering what on earth, is so wrong with me, in vain did I search for a solution, finding anything, but a link, tell me what to do, so as not my hopes will sink, Cannot understand, you, missing by my side, through the mist I peer, searching far and wide, try to comprehend what's going through your mind, feeling helpless, listless, somehow getting blind, Yet vivid are all the memories of moments, funny, precious, exciting, sometimes a little bit sad, much had happened the last few months, even at you, I had been mad, but all the drawbacks given, many a time pure happiness I felt, Unable to push away, the thoughts of your tender touch, for you I long, sometimes less sometimes much, your hands soft like a breeze, anything, but

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R.I.P. Brandon Earl "Boo" Knowles February 16, 1985-October 22, 2006 It has been nearly two months since you went away, The grief for you we can no longer keep at bay. You promised you were going to be here this year, You were everything that we held dear. You should of known not to be speeding, You did anyways and you ended up bleeding. Your death was tragic and a shock to everyone, In the blink of an eye your life was done. We miss you more than words can say, But we know that we'll see you again another day. We went to see that place today, It still hurts but we know that we'll be ok. Today is Christmas and you aren't here, Someday we won't think of you everyday and that we fear. We never want to forget your laugh or smile, To see you again we'd walk a thousand miles. So know that today we are thinking of you, And we know that we'll see you soon.

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I wake up this morning with a need to express my love so before I started writing this I said a prayer to the man above "God just help me call her what she means to me and these are the words I chose to show you how special you are to me. I don't know what I'd do without you. The sun would never shine. It would be cold and empty in this heart of mine. The world would stop turning I'm sure of this you see because I could never go on, if you weren't next to me. I hope you do believe me cause I swear this is true I couldn't live without you and I wouldn't know what to do. So this poem I'm sending I send everlasting love. I promise and honor you You're my girl my life and love forever. Written by: Phillip Gasca

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The tears that hurt the most are the ones that don't fall When you're so empty inside that nothing comes out The smiles that hurt the most are the forced ones Not the "how are you I'm fine" ones but the kind a good friend has to work for The laughs that hurt the most aren't the ones at you But the happy ones of other people that you don't want to burden The words that hurt the most aren't "I still love you" or "please don't go" or the bitter words of arguments The words of acceptance, cutting so sharply that they barely sting The thoughts that hurt the most are the knowledge that this is not the first time That it wasn't anyone's fault and you are alone again.

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The wind blows around us in an ancient lullaby This place we found with walls touching the sky. Our wedding inside from the world we'd conceal and wander off secretly to show what we feel. If only the statues from inside could talk They'd lead us to path's that others have walked. The stories of live such as ours would be denied. The halls are quiet now waiting in disguise The archways reveal morning light from the skies. Minute by minute the clock hands march on As guest start to arrive the silence is gone My heart beat is rapid as I long to say How much I love you on this special day. And ow that I knew it was you all along that gave to my heart a special love song. As I walk to the stairs and proceed down the way I feel the ancient spirits begin to play. You can detect a slight sent of Marr I see you there, oh how handsome you are. Standing above them, a smile on our faces we have love on our minds in far away places. We silently chat our way through i

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The emptiness and darkness is returning, that lonely feeling; the heart is burning. Once, I pushed those feelings away, they were gone for awhile, they're back today. This time could be the end for me, I could finally be gone-my sad soul set free. The empty hollowness in my chest gone forever, could it happen? please? no-never! I was so happy for a long time there, the pain disappeared, ran off somewhere. It didn't go too far, found its way back, right when my life was finally on track. Finally I've come to a harsh conclusion, all my hopes and dreams have been an illusion. So much heartache, pain and strife, what I want is to end this life. That won't happen, I'm not brave enough, tell me why this life has to be so rough. Your help, dear Lord, is what I need, nobody knows how my heart does bleed. Everything’s piling up, I'm quickly sinking, no rope to grab is what I'm thinking...

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Chill...they're just lyrics. No sympathy comments, please :P (Untitled) I've had just about enough Been silent for too long Never did a single thing to hurt you But somehow I'm the one who's wrong I've put up with your hateful words and still kept my spirit strong The whole time you claimed I was pushing you, it was you who pushed me all along Offered you friendship, an ear and a hand You spit so much hate maybe it's time I spoke in words you understand: F**k you--for making me feel like less F**k you for spreading your unhappiness I'm not the one to blame for all the $#!+ you f**ked up and don't know how to remedy F**k me--for giving a $#!+ about you F**k me for caring just a little bit about you I listened to you while you lied to hide whatever it is you didn't want me to see F**k this--I don't deserve this F**k this--I'm not wicked and worthless F**k you for thinking you know all about me when you don't ha

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Have you ever felt like the moments leading up to the future are moments that leave you in dismay? I've always known that life was about something About finding out who you're meant to be. Meeting new people, falling in love, heartbreak and so on. There are always situations in life that give you strife. Your confused, don't know where to turn, thinking maybe going back to your past can help you,scared to look forward to the future you know you can't predict. Everyone has a story; a story about the life they live, the people they met,But no one has a story about what may come, what things in their life help them realize that what may come is nothing what they wanted. Every new passing year is just a moment where people wonder "Is this year going to be different?","Am I going to fall in love?" "Have an life-alturing experince that will change my outlook on everything and point me in the right direction?" So I sit here now. Wondering what might come. What's there out i

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Well i here i go this is my first time here. My name is mary i live in Mo. It has been very very cold and snowing here. I am in hopes in to figuring out this site it is very interesting so far. Well it is late time to go to bed for now be back later on. Everyone have a good morning.

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hear i sit alone and crying inside you dont care as i cry i dress in black to fade into the shadows to you i suck to you im just a fuck maybe i should just cut out the one part of me that makes you stay i where black make up to make you undertand that i am human not hear for you to command i am a woman not a toy one day youll understand that i to have voice of reason and pain all i keep thinking is one day youll be dead and ill be free to be me

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there once was a man named Bobby Who had a chihuahua Bobby had a fun hobby It's called smoking marijuana 1, 2, 3 hits your out Only if it's good shit We're not out, so don't pout Just let me hit Pipes and Bongs Joints and Brownies High as King Kong But there are no frownies Laugh laugh ha ha Look at me rhyme Umm, yippity blah I'm done, it's nap time

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Everyday I need to see your face You put my happiness in it's place See you take away all the pain And all the tears that fall like rain I really do love you And will be through whatever you may go through I'll be right by your side In me, your dreams, you can confide Spending everyday in your arms can't be wrong Because what we have is so strong No matter what life might throw at us It will be me and you; our love our trust. By: Samantha Lewey

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A lover's Dream Is a dreamer's love Head in the clouds Heart in your hands My life now belongs to you Pray the days are long ad full Bloodlines merged, life continues My wings stretch wide Enclose around us Love embracing, holding so tight Crushing bodies and souls Gods behold this horrendous love Condemming tortured souls Into an eternal Hell May the Gods help us all...

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In the beginning our love was grand together we could stand with time it all blew away a fairy tale gone astray Now you are someone I never knew I relive the beginning in my mind there love isn't so hard to find pieces forming from then to now doing things I wouldn't normally do to destroy and rid my entire being of you the cut is so deep all it does is bleed it's a constant struggle to breath without you but I know my will is strong and I will painfully be able to move on This person I see now holds nothing to the man I knew then keeping that in me closes this tattered door and will break me no more

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The past is the past- But yet I can't move on- To move off this cloud nine, I shall never want To relive each moment we have ever shared- For you are the one I love and wish to be with- Your love is true- A love for me and no onter- I care for you and you care for me- Thats why I can say I am who was sent from a star- To find you- The one who would heal my broken wing- And help me find my path- To make me lkong and happy- To watch my flarm of love spark and grow in your eyes- You have renewed me- And made me whole again- I couldn't see what true love was- Till I meet you- Now that I can truly see- All I see is you. Copyright@2002

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Untitled I know of whom you love For I love him too Ask questions or you too Will be blue. Intriguing isn't he? Look into his eyes What do you see? Is it me? Or is it you? Believe his words Are they truth or lies? Follow your gut And you'll know Your gut's never wrong. Are his words those of truth? Longing what you wish to hear Are lies of new despair. Watch your heart Watch your soul For he's captured mine. And that has its toll. Every night asleep he falls Into my arms. Every morning waking To my smiling face. Does he think of You or Does he think of me? A heart torn between two Which he must choose. One or the other For the decision will Break the heart of one And make another soar.

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Standing amid smoke and ashes I cannot flee the thing I cannot see All thats left is scattered, grey and bleak My soul is burned away Too much time gone by Afraid to breathe Afraid to leave SS2006

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Anything for you. Did you ever notice? Never once did I fail you. Can you say the same? I appreciate your gratitude: Lies. Deceit. Pain. Is this all I deserve? A sack of rocks for my unfailing devotion? I take these same rocks and throw them back at you. They hurt just as much the second time around. ~SM written 6-10-95

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A voice can be heard through silent thunder A scream, a sob a sorrowful call Storms raging on as lightening pierces the sky Seemingly slicing the heavens in two O’er head the rain so suddenly falls Uncomfortably crumpling the rose petals Pain ripples across the sky As now salty seas swell within Devastation so great words cannot come No comfort for those who stand looking Doors close when there’s no one to answer The ringing keeps rhythm With raindrops Only the lonely know time so well As to test the fates by dancing Glitter and glamour too much to hide And it continues on like the moon in the sky

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I’m not sure what to do here Unsure of what to say Do I keep going this direction Or should I turn and walk away? I’m not saying that I want this I’m just wondering what would happen To not think about anyone else But my own selfish pride I can see trouble rising Over the sunrise in the sky Oh don’t stand too close Let’s let these feelings pass on by Two people closely grounded In roots that cannot bend Will only cause a heartache That would take too long to mend To say the glass is empty Would be too much a lie But to say it could be more As if to multiply Would not do it justice Would say there’s nothing to see Perhaps time will change things Or perhaps we’ll let it be

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I waited for you – but you never came I tried to call out – and speak your name My voice fell on deaf ears Yet – despite all my fears I still longed for you here Sometimes you have to let go of the reigns To see where this crazy ride will take you And yes – you might have to endure the pains And give up control to wake to something new Just know that your life is not in vain I’ll always be there by your side to see you through I know that today you’re not the same Don’t stand and hold your head in shame Don’t look back at wasted years Look forward as your future nears Remember, I’m still here When you wake to see the sun rise A new day has come for you It is now that you must realize Your dreams just may come true Look deeply in your own eyes To see the real point of view.

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You'd like to believe that after a while the pain becomes silent. With the time that passes, it eases, but A single word can bring it all back... A memory caught in a melody or a thought held in my arms Nothing is gone forever. Not even pain. And one day the words won't bring back moments shared with you and one day the heart won't break from a love that failed And I can hold the roses of a hope that never dies and there won't be any thorns to draw a drop of blood from my fingertip ~SM written 9/9/89

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The fear in my footsteps was mistaken for thunder I trembled at the thought of your touch. I was too shy to wonder if maybe it was you who was scared, assuming I was the only coward. I didn't like to think I wasn't self assured-- but it's true I knew not what love meant. (Catch me if you can!) Your eyes taunt me Your body teases me Your voice whisperes in my ear before I fall asleep (Catch me if you can!) But if I caught you, what would I do with you? I don't even know what love means.

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On my mind All the time Don't ever not Want you in my life Down for you, Down for whatever, For better or worse- I'm yours! Locked under your spell Baby I'd follow you to Mars Test me--you'll find it's true So happy to be yours! Just love me like I do you. ~SM written 4/25/05

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Compromising situations, Are battles of their own. Bullied by intimidation, I find myself alone. Breathe the anger in, Feel it singe your lungs. Exhale hatred’s sin, Let it roll off of your tongue. Peer deeper into your heart, Trough the screen of the smoke. Understand that you aren’t so smart, On your own self-righteousness, you will choke So holier than thou, You’re always on my case. Wipe your poisons from your brow, And know that you’re a disgrace. Gaze into a looking glass, Really focus on yourself. Take a moment to remember your past, Now set it ablaze and watch it melt. Still think you’re always right? Always know what’s best? Notice it’s you who starts the fights? Is it so wrong that I protest? So perfect are we, Please don’t let us go. I wish that you could see, And know all that I know. Cleanse yourself and be reborn, And I will do the same. Let go of all your scorn, Allow me to re-ignite the flame. I don’t want to live without you- But I won

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Scene: An Argument between two sides of a coin. Polar opposites, we each with conviction vent, each sure in our right the beliefs that we believe. How shall we advance? How shall we find consensus, find a common ground without resorting to might to settle the score? I suppose that the answer lies somewhere between. If only we could transcend, reach past pathetic invective and name calling, we might find it together. A wise man once said that if you are to make peace, you first must realize your adversary is not a villain in his own eyes. Perhaps there's a way, a middle path untaken, to achieve ma'at. There are many shades of gray in between the far extremes.

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too much pain, no more happiness... happiness costs too much too feel. way less of anger, never gonna hate... hate is a consequence of anger. my emotional stance gets the best of me... whenever where ever it hurts all the time. having no regret would be a lie... memories haunt my soul and its torcher. dreams scatter the floor... its been days since there was cleansing. readmission drives me insane... taking it out on someone is so easy. incidential remarks make me sarcastic... i prefer awkward silence. dreading the future, hits me high... but puts me at a all time low. hope there is the way... but irony is what i have.

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random thoughts of suicide as you think of what has happened, hearing her trembling voice apologizing over and over again, looking at the glistening blade when the lights shines upon it. eyeing the razors edge while replaying over in your mind the things she has said, is it the unwanted you find in her voice, can you hear the subliminal lies that come from her lips? remembering the look in her eyes as u rub the blade up your arms, to hear the words I'm sorry as the blood starts to flow, so full of rage and hatred as you hear your heartbeat slow down, thump-thump, thump-thump, thump, thump, remembering the last time you saw her smile as you take your last breath, kinda makes you smile remembering those days, thump, thump, thuuump,thuuump, thuu.

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small secrets and tell lies i have many small secrets and i will hide them from the world im lying to you about my secrets or do i have any all i can tell you is when i have a secret i can lock it my eyes

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January 19,2006 Untitled The place I love has turned to dust So,find another home, i must One where peace and serenity Has no price to pay No more living in the past Of shattered dreams And scattered glass I'll take myself down to the room Where candles flame and heated spoon Can help me acheive my fate All over now, its way to late So, into the abyss I gladly jump Just find a vein, one final bump Takes me deep into the black All bets are off No turning back 20LM06

~until You~
~Until You~ I never knew Love could feel this way The kind of Love that makes you always want to stay I never knew what a wonderful feeling I could get Just by Loving you and having you Love me back To have you do things for me And me to you And it be such a simple thing to do I never knew what it was like to have anyone Lay down beside me Just to hold me, feel me, Love me Until I met you How it felt to be wanted just for me I grew used to being whatever other people wanted Even though it wasn't true I never knew the feeling of having someone love me for me Until I met you Peace.

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You've been there for it all Even though at first you were with her You were still there for me In a weird way Then we both were single They all wanted us to get together And I really liked you Gave you my number You started coming around more Finally we hooked up You didn't care I had a lil one Instead you love her Treat her as if you were her daddy And me like a princess They all knew it would happen Before we even thought about it Seems almost meant to be For us to be together And for us to be by each others sides They knew it before we even thought of it!

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you're there Im here both alone with no one to hold wishing we were together holding each other tight yet knowing we're on each others minds the miles between us make things hard but I know no matter how close or far we are our hearts are always together and until we can be together again that’s all that really matters

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They tell me to move on To stop talking to you And stop thinking about you Yet it seems impossible Everything reminds me of you I cant get away from it You are all around me How am I supposed to forget Or move onto someone new When the only one I want is you

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Just some things I've come to think about life and its workings....... Life is messy. Sometimes things are just messy because they have to be that way. Because somewhere in the mess you eventually find some clarity.... Everyone knows the saying "Don't care what other people think about you." Well thats bullshit. You should care what people think about you and allow yourself to be seen in good light, and for who you are, what you shouldn't care about is how people judge you. Religion and faith are two very different things, yes I may be religious at times, and yes my faith sometimes involves looking to god, but faith in ones self, who the are, what they stand for, why they care has nothing to do with saying the Our Father. Be careful with trust, try not to hand it out to easy but do allow yourself to give it. Everyones definition of love is different. Listen to them all, though it may not be your way, you can always learn a new way to love. Relationships are hard. Any

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Locked in chains, in the end. From the weirdoes to the 9-5s we're all the same. Time to pay the piper, I keep my hands warm with my lighter. Kicking against the wind, Christians kick those who sin. From the filthy to the dirty, children born while people die. Line up the virgin sacrifices, its hard to grasp like the physical eye, everythings been compromisin.

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Stuck in this slumber The coma proceeds Moving further through Time’s cycle, before Expiration catches hold. Confined to permanent stagnation Experience no longer matters I’m still at the start. The nightmare is Only just beginning… Will all meaning be gone Whenever I awake? Or was there ever Such a demand To begin with? I tried to Convince you as to How you’re better off Not even containing ties to me. You insist it not to be so Even though the Cycle must end here, And carry on no longer. Do you get that? Can you accept it? That no good becomes of My inabilities and flaws Adding up so profusely… Leaving only so much space For my niches to Crawl through the Suffocated cracks, of despair. You need better than this There has to be better Out there than, myself. It just doesn’t add up How you can Love a thing With no purpose.

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I've managed to wait many moons and still come up empty handed as seasons change and I've become branded by every single prejudice you have ever held a martyr for all the blood you shed taste me and see I do not share your stink I despise all that is U and I despise all that is me 4 I find when it is all over we share the same body take the same life. JSDEUEL Copyright 2008

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You make me feel like the tattooist's needle bruised bleeding ejacualting hungry for more wanting less another scar upon my breast like it or not makes no sense but I know I will carry your sting with me forever till decay consumes all of me JSDEUEL Copyright 2008

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Curled in a ball drowning in the bloody rain snow flakes glisten off my halo and I feel like the king of saints Listening to all the marty's confess I wonder bout penance for my sin noone to listen to me So I proceed to go and sin again Cut myself on the razors edge but I can't bleed enough to make it right Shed my semen hoping instead the forgivness can be obtained tonight Will I ever taste light JSDEUEL Copyright 2008

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Each passing day shows me a little bit more Some days I wonder 'What am I here for?' With every argument, with every fight I realize, this isn't the way I want to live my life Every time you broke me down I stood back up to look around For every time you broke my heart I wished I could begin again from the start When love was all that mattered My heart, before broken and tattered Torn apart, broken dreams Is all that's left, or so it seems I wish you understood, my fears, hoes, and dreams I wish you knew, just what they really mean to me Look past my eyes, and into my mind Take a good look, see what you'll find Instead of looking at me, look inside You see, I've got nothing to hide Just close your eyes, believe in me Open your mind and you will see.

Until Next Time
Until The Next Time Ringing of the phone, brings me to reality My heart skips a beat as I hear your voice My entire being longs to touch you gently To feel your sweet lips on mine Tears well up, but I choke them back Answering your questions and assuring you I’m fine Listening to you speak of your dreams I tell you I know you can do it I give you advice and tell you I’m always here We carry on laughing and talking, But time passes all too quickly, Then I hear you say you’ll call back Silence as the phone goes dead And I wait until the next time Copyright ©2006 Sue Price Christmas, 2005

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I would walk a mile, Just to see you smile. How time flies, When I look into your eyes. There's nothing better, When we are together. The feel of your touch, I love it so much. When we make love, I feel like I'm flying above. There's nights, I wish you could stay, You make me feel special in everyway. You knock me off my feet, When you m ake my heart skip a beat. I don't know, if you knew, But, my heart melts everytime you say,"I love you!"

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Many, many years, many more to go Does she still remember? God, he only know I now become a savage, they chain me to a wall I still can see your body, I still can hear your call I'm nothing but a maggot, I'm locked away and lost The world it doesn't want me, my dignity is tossed And to the girl for whom I feel this doom Look here, fuck you and the moon

Until Tomorrow
Until Tomorrow The words I spoke, they were right, And the fear that they brought, It was wrong. I made one mistake by not seeing, And another by not holding on. Candle lit dinners, And movies along the way, How can it be that all these Would bring fear to the heart Of a man who is so in love? He has the strength to make it through, But fear of hurting her, It became true, His own fears and insecurities, Took the love that he feels, And made him let go. She's not like the others, He has lost control, And that she would even still talk Is something that he will never Understand. An Angel she was, and always will be, And the one that brought happiness To his heart and one that will Always be the one that he will love. He knows that until he admits To her that he loves her, And that he wants to be with her. He just needs to take the time to show her. He wants to show her. And until tomorrow, If she would let him that time, He wants to hold her in his

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Untitled May you find The ocean so vast In my eyes Feel the caressing Of the waves From my touch Recall the melodic sound With every whisper on your cheek Please remember the sun And the warmth of the sea As you bathe into my soul And drown in my embrace For when you hear “I love you” May those words Take you back To the world you left If just for a moment May you realize Your nature’s goddess Has been replaced By me… Miles away From any ocean Or the deep blue sea Written by: UnchainedMelody 3-27-08

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Use me Keep me bruised and broken Never be the same Scratched & Bloodied Words Unspoken never once complained Dirty, Filthy on the floor Bruised up knees begging for more

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Disturbed, insane, crazy, pain. The words one can discribe the relentless pestering of unhappiness. Childess nuisance, distraught lifelessness. Emptiness, hollow, egotistical demise. Using, user, usee. the words to discribe low selfesteem. I can't, means I don't want to, do unto others as you would have done to you. Lie, lies, liars. those of which reality has no preception to truth or vulnerability. Womanize, bring down the bearer of children and purity. Break a heart and steal a soul, what the hell is life worth anymore.

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I sit by the ocean, a quiet beautiful place. It’s hard to believe one Spirit chose this earth for His resting place. As you hear the waves..Isn’t it a beautiful sound? To hear the waves crash around you and hit the ground. I sit here and listen, eyes closed, with my face turned towards the sun. What a beautiful thing He has made, for each of us to enjoy and love. I feel the warmth surround me, a feel the wind swirl about me...if I sit still I can almost feel His arms around me. In the wind I hear Him whisper.."Everything will be okay..I know you lost someone who I know you cared about...it takes time for the pain to go away" Even though I trust Him, I can’t help but think it will never go away. I feel the sand sift through my fingers, the water hits my toes. I am glad I am able to feel this, to enjoy the makings of His earth. I wrap my arms around myself and rest my head on my knees and listen to the seagulls fly above me. I wish my friend was here to share this with me, I

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We are laying on the couch watching a movie. You are laying behind me with ur arms around me. I can feel your hard manhood against my bottom as I move closer into you. Your fingers trace lines across my stomach sending chills through out my body.My hand is caressing your manhood through your pants.You continue your search of my body going up to find my bare breast tracing circles around my nipples teasing as my core grows moist. You continue to caress and tease my nipples twith light flicks and pulls from your fingers. A slight moan escapes my lips. I turn to face you placing a kiss on ur lips. You return my kiss as our hands roam each others bodies exploring. Our kiss deepens but still remains passionate. You pick me up and carry me to your bedroom,where you set me on my feet at the foot of the bed removing my clothes and treading kisses down my body as my clothes fall away to the floor. I stop you as your fingers slide under my panties at my hips for removal.I brush a kiss lightly

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The room is cold and dark I sit and think A fever grows inside me My blood boils with thoughts of my wish A want to have you by my side I am ill . . . Outside, it’s raining ice . . . A coldness grows and a chill blows through my bones The warmth I felt inside my heart is gone My veins are icing too The darkness that was comfort grows in to unknown A want and yearning grows . . . for you . . . To feel you Your warmth Your touch Your breath Your kiss . . . The moisture of your lips Your caress upon my breast The heat of our bodies as they entwine All but memories of pastimes, dreams, and wishful thoughts Nothing tangible or real Nothing I can truly hold To feel you Hold you Kiss your lips . . . In more than just my thoughts My mind, my heart, my spirit . . . They hold you as my own But will I ever truly hold you once . . . Just once in my arms? Will you ever truly be mine . . . in every way? The darkness, once my comfort . . . Now a re

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---Not Titled yet---- Terrible feats, disarray or disobey, To the clients of whom which their wisdom we must not foretell. For rest the souls of the masters in knowledge, and the seekers who adventure through this life's secret cornage.

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Do you not see what and how things can be again In the end there is no tomorrow oh but ! There could be The very hope and the honesty lies within half truths of fear we suffer in the midst of silence forever One uncommon goal shared and heartfelt no one claims a monster unleased an awakend worn out soul but with no soul to unite to ? is emptiness Alone

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In the early hours when the seeds burst through, and life is but a blanket new With its mysteries to unfold a story waiting to be told and we are filled with hopes and dreams and youth will never end it seems but in a blink of an eye and here we are our travels long and very far the once new seeds that we did sow are making room for others to grow but when i close my eyes i'll not be gone but free, to run and play like the little seed for all eternity. Gina 2003

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" Untitled Poem" by Charles "DeAnte" Askew As I wake up this morning, there's a tear in my eye. I dreamed you had left me then I started to cry. It hurts me so much that I had hurt you so It hurts even more thinking you'll let me go Baby I love you with all that I am I'd give you the world if I possibly can But all I can give you is all of my heart I'd give you my sould and hope we don't part My love for you grows more everyday I feel deep insid that this feeling will stay You mean so much to me; you are my world Now I hope everyday that you'll always be my girl. I'll love you forever if you will stay mine I've never had someone who was so tender and kind You are devine like an angel sent from heaven You are on my mind, baby, twenty-four seven Youre my sexy love; I love you so much I love the way you talk to me; I love to feel your touch I love the way you laugh and I love your pretty smile. The things you do makes my heart beat so wild I never want to lose you;

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You were my light You were my happiness You were the sun in my day You were my love You were my heart You were my soul You were everything to me I never wanted that to change. Now you’re my darkness Now you’re my sadness Now you’re my grey skies Now I question my love Now you’re loosing my heart Now you’re loosing my soul Now you’re loosing everything I gave you. How did we let this happen.

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You were only thirty-four. I was only seven It wasn’t time for you to go. There was so much you need to teach me. So much I had to learn. We never got a chance. I lost my best friend the day you died. The friend I didn’t get know. I did give anything to have just a little more time.

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It's criminal no matter how subliminal, what you do to me denying my right to be free. You did it in a voice that made me feel as if I had a choice but you opened only one door since then I have been laying face flat on the floor. You give me your hand but the foot you place on my back will not allow me to stand, All the while you smile giving me looks that could kill and all this duplicity is making me ill. You are pretending to be the pill that is the cure but I am never really sure if this will be the one that kills me or fills me with the love I need and crave. So I continue to be an unwilling slave to the master of my heart that has turned hate into an art and is meticulously tearing me apart. Ripping me to shreds and discarding me leaving me incomplete and feeding me with deceit. I am the glutton that allows you to push every button and until I decide I will take no more you can keep on adding to your score.

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Do you know about the stuff dreams are made of? have you ever been to that level of joy? where true happiness is not a dream but a reality? where anything is possible nothing bad ever hapens I have been there many times my spirit rests there I go there when I can I go there when I'm with you. Christopher Wayne Rhea Copyright ©2008 Christopher Wayne Rhea

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On a cool and breezy night, We think to ourselves, how perfect is the atmosphere for such a deed. The alter ego needs a release, from the pent up energy, creativity and anger locked up inside. The black heart is spilling acid, destroying the patience and tolerance thrown into the hate. The first one who comes along to trigger the perverbial switch will perish first, being buried alive, and the night being drowned out by their pleas, cries and screams of torment. Suffocation will soon take them over. Soiled rain sanctify what they were before death.

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Previously posted in "Special things I have been led to" Brought by "Girlish K" April 18, 2008 * * * To live is to long for eternity, to plant a tree – to pave the way to another world which is in us – to drink up love to the last drop so to halt the fleeting moment – to bear a child under your heart so to prolong your longing – up on a sky-high silvery lily to climb to a star and there in the infinite to leave your footprints as a sign that we're bigger than ants. Translated by Lionginas Pazusis Written by Janina Degutyte (lithuanian) ------- Just wanted to share this poem with you today Hugs, K

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So many winding paths of thought Leading far from all conclusions Stumble over obstacles Shrouded by these endless shadows Wish I knew which way to turn Wish I could see past these illusions Of all the things I thought were true Everything I once believed in I don't want your map to guide me I'll find the way all on my own I'll do things just the way I see them Even if I have to walk alone So many liars telling me That they know which way's the right one Fall off the edge of this map Into horrors you can only feel Daytime dreams give way to nightmares It makes you want to turn and run In this dark that overwhelms Sometimes you can't see past yourself But I don't want your map to guide me I'll find the way all on my own I'll do things just the way I see them Even if I have to walk alone. And sometimes you do what it takes To follow their rules and not be a fake And sometimes it's all you can take To follow all their rules and not be a fake And sometim

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So broken, so cold Do you hear me anymore? I'm spiralling down so fast It makes your head spin What kind of world is this When not even the angels Will stoop to wipe away These burning tears When not even love Can fix this broken heart? Oh, ambiguity You've taken hold of me. I love you with The strongest apathy. So broken, so cold Having joy is out of style I'm running so damn quickly It makes your heart bleed What kind of world is this When not even the broken Can find a bit of love Within them for the hurting When not even money Can buy my happiness? Oh, ambiguity You've taken over me I love you with The strongest apathy. What kind of world is this Where 'I love you' means 'I hate you' Where smiles mean agony Where even Jesus love Fails to warm my frozen heart? I care not. Oh animosity You've broken all of me I'm drawn to this, Your lovely fallacy.

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They say love never dies But it does leave an empty space Where a heart should be. I cried a thousand tears I died a thousand deaths Will I survive? Will my love return? I danced a million dances And prayed as many times. Will it help? I think not. So, shall I live or die? Life’s so wonderful Despite the sorrow. I’ll live and remember And learn to love again. written by:(head enforcer)

Until I Met Her
I stayed until the end. So much of what we shared was like a nightmare...but I wouldn't give up a single minute i spent with her. she woke me up to things i never felt before, things i never knew i could feel.I never knew how dead i was until i met her.

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untitled Current mood: grateful Category: Writing and Poetry The look you gave to me, told me that you loved me. The way you held me close, told me you wanted me. Now your gone, forever gone. My heart still hurts for you. I love you still, I'll love you always. Noone can take that away from me. The memories I have of you and me, will always stay in my heart. I miss you oh I miss you, I love you yes I love you. Today is the day for hearts, and mine is yours forever. Forever in my heart you will stay. Forever in my heart you will stay.

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untitled Current mood: grateful Category: Writing and Poetry The look you gave to me, told me that you loved me. The way you held me close, told me you wanted me. Now your gone, forever gone. My heart still hurts for you. I love you still, I'll love you always. Noone can take that away from me. The memories I have of you and me, will always stay in my heart. I miss you oh I miss you, I love you yes I love you. Today is the day for hearts, and mine is yours forever. Forever in my heart you will stay. Forever in my heart you will stay.

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A lifetime spent in shadow deep- Peeking out cautiously. Staining ground with likeness of- Oh so sparingly. Walls of anger built high up- From distance far one can see. Safely kept is my mortal soul- Sheltered from reality. But upon this world I’ve left my mark- For very few and thee. You see this mark is only for- Those very close to me.

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They say that I'm a loser And perhaps that may be true, Since I don't have a lot of friends And my interests are but few, I'm not a worldly person Well versed in social graces, So I prefer to stay at home Than go to public places, I don't go out to parties Or places where you dance, And I haven't had a date in years Afraid to take a chance, People always make me nervous Because I'm rather shy, Lacking in the confidence To be a stand up guy, I'm not a very clever man Nor can I tell a joke, I'm neither tall or handsome And I always am flat broke, I have no sense of humor Or talent to create, Is it any wonder then That I don't have a mate, In spite of all that I am not I never get depressed, For I've accepted who I am Being second best, They say that I'm a loser And perhaps that may be true, But if I had to change my life I'd wind up being you!!

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Your messages make me smile Every time I get a message my heart beats faster I watch my phone every day hoping The sound of your voice sends chills down my spine Send shock waves through my body Flipping a switching, leaving it on I dream of you, of the time we will be together Wishing, hoping it will come true Your arms around me, holding me tight Falling harder and harder Hoping your doing the same I love you, hoping you do the same

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I sit here on my knees begging please save me from this pain. This is a pain only you can know and understand as you have lived it too. You say you understand my pain but do you really???? Do you understand that you are the air that i breathe and the water i drink. i need to be dominated by you but i also need to be loved by you.

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Each beautiful day, My light rises in the east; Shining with rays of hope, And the promise of peace. My soul has searched For many years, To find this gem That I hold so dear. Wandering aimlessly; Linked for an eternity; Finally an end to this journey, For I have found my destiny. Begin a new chapter In my life's tale, With my true calling Now unveiled. Copyright 2007 Missy Harrell

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Love hurts; But why? I write these words, And I cry. The silence around me Echoes your name, And I wonder; Do you feel the same? Should I walk away now- Break this bond somehow? Could I let you go, My one and only? If I let you go, I'd forever be lonely. You are my future; You possess my soul; The other half To make me whole Copyright 2007 Missy Harrell

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untitled Tuesday, October 09 2007 @ 11:26 PM MST Contributed by: Greg Views: 102 untitled If loneliness had a name it would be mine cast aside lost in an abyss of nothing I look for a rey of hope that will take this away they say that patience is a virtue I am the King everything I need is in three words Let me fly! as time slips buy, I wish for more I've got some things I need to do I hope I get the chance to get them done and so with my virtue, I will wait till I hear the word I'll be ready to go until then folks it's on with the show

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dispicable thoughts, burn in muh heart, muh conscious is lost, mystic smiles from the demons, shawdows darkened da cross, kno thur sum smiles im runnin after, impatient, waitin fer the rature as a spirtual bastard, i understand it, not gon make it 2 heaven, im standin, starin down the barrle of a loaded 357, prayin god would u take me, take me, before dey break me, seems muh past is comin back 2 rape me, now im heartless, but knowin u dont give a fuck, fuelin muh anger wit violence, dis world made me who i am, den hated me 4 it, gave em a piece of muh heart, den da bitchez ignored it, so distorted, dis picture of all obsession, feel like a whore, used at da worlds discression, muh lesson, becamin a blessin in descuise, knowin these hypocrites could never see through muh eyez, so i idolise, da pain that i felt, slowly find muhself, out between the beauty of an angel & da darkness of hell, the reincarnation of satan, within the womb awaitin, a mothers

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Thoughts like these shouldn't be although things, they were because of me AND I hinted along for your wonderful mind to jumble and for all those ragging thoughts was this action that took place a mishap? an act of passion? now. this image can't leave but no worries, I'm only freaking out every emotion possible rushing, gushing, and spewing

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This image keeps replaying and replaying in my head. Everytime I close my eyes, that moment is clear as rain. It makes me smile, but at the same time, makes my stomach turn and my head hurt. Somehow, I have to get over this. I just CAN'T...I made me happy. Now, as I go through the feelings of confusion, sad, mad, and happy make my feet swell and my bones ach. All those emotions, in the state I am now, making me act not like myself. Or, is this me? The new me? Who is "me"? Why must I think about your tender kiss that still rests apon my lips?

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My heart is dark and weary,for I have lost all control of moral being.Unleashed are the feelings of sorrow,of suffering,like a vast shadow of emptiness bearing down upon my soul. For the fires of hate and pain burn within me.All hope is lost forever in the pit of nothingess. The dreams and wishes which were once a constant memory have now become shattered,forever tormented am I of the past,haunted for eternity,for I am bound to these visions,to these memories.

Until It Sleeps - Metallica
Where do I take this pain of mine I run but it stays right by my side So tear me open and pour me out There's things inside that scream and shout And the pain still hates me So hold me until it sleeps Just like the curse, just like the stray You feed it once and now it stays Now it stays So tear me open but beware There's things inside without a care And the dirt still stains me So wash me until I'm clean It grips you so hold me It stains you so hold me It hates you so hold me It holds you so hold me Until it sleeps So tell me why you've chosen me Don't want your grip Don't want your greed Don't want it I'll tear me open make you gone No more can you hurt anyone And the fear still shakes me So hold me, until it sleeps It grips you so hold me It stains you so hold me It hates you so hold me It holds you, holds you, holds you until it sleeps (x4) I Don't want it want it want it want it want it No So tear me open but beware There's things

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As I travel down this road each and every mile. I think of you and it makes me smile. That warm smile your soft touch. Makes me know why I need you so much. Your sparkling eyes, your tender heart. Makes me regret moments we are apart. Your sweet sensitive kiss with its loving caress. Makes me thank god that I am so blessed. I cherish every moment that you are by my side. As long as my blood runs in my veins my love for you will never die.

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It is a night of dark desire, a song of ethereal pain, wolves vent their howls. The thirsting one wakens. Mist shrouds her gaunt form, an everlasting wrath. Her raven hair cascades over pale and tragic shoulders, and her full blood red lips part slightly, to taste the red tears streaming from the pale flesh beneath her. Now a night of darkness, I weep.

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i just wrote this in the 10 minutes before i posted it. i dont know if it will make any sense, but if it does, im sorry if you have ever had to feel this way. if you tell me it has ended ill try to hide my smile if you tell me it was you that did it and believe it was because you're wicked i will try to hide my internal desire that would be the chance to hold you in my hands its probably better this way i have only the wrong things to say i might tear apart your soul and you'll never be the same stay away from me if you love your self its pain in which i breed but if its pain in which you need let me take you in my wings we could see so many things i'd hope it wont distract me from attending the finer things i hope you learn to fly all on your own and know your own way home i cant seem to hold on to anything so just keep your everything i dont want to drop you plunging back to the earth i dont want to drop you this has been my curse

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Nothing, but confusion in my head, soldering on, many things to tackle, feeling lost, considering what you have said, thus, can not talk nor think, Sitting lonely at my desk, a place no longer I want to be, wondering what on earth, is so wrong with me, in vain did I search for a solution, finding anything, but a link, tell me what to do, so as not my hopes will sink, Cannot understand, you, missing by my side, through the mist I peer, searching far and wide, try to comprehend what's going through your mind, feeling helpless, listless, somehow getting blind, Yet vivid are all the memories of moments, funny, precious, exciting, sometimes a little bit sad, much had happened the last few months, even at you, I had been mad, but all the drawbacks given, many a time pure happiness I felt, Unable to push away, the thoughts of your tender touch, for you I long, sometimes less sometimes much, your hands soft like a breeze, anything, but

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* * * I have the feeling now that not your hands but flowers touch me. What a peal of spring dawns when you are beside me! The spirit dons the gentleness of meadows, the body makes no effort to resist it. And wholly pure are water, bread and fire. Let us speak softly or lapse into silence and just with glances grow an upright tree with rustling leaves of tender love and truth. The birds fly home, and I now also fly across the azure of your loving eyes repeating vaguely only these few words: The gods we sought to please let us forget. The offerings we made let us remember. Translated by Lionginas Paþûsis Written by Justinas Marcinkevicius, LT poet Brought by "Girlish K" April 18, 2008, in her Blog, "Love"

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I still feel a rush through my body every time I see you everything is different now, you may not believe it, but I never forgot you, never will the balance you looked for, you found it in me Today I am still looking for the balance in my life I never forgot, I still ask myself … Who knows how this life would have been with you There has only been one in my heart I remember the look in your eyes, it is engraved in my heart Live, relive it once again Relive the first time One more time You are still you When you talk, you still run your fingers through your hair Your fingers slide smoothly, soft, and gentle There is so much I wish I could tell you Never will Who knows how life would have been for you Knowing what we know now But it is all in the past, I remember when you were still here I always will Only you in my heart and that look in your eyes To live, relive our first time To relive it one more time Only one more time I remember every moment, and

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laying still as ever possible distorted breathing was all they heard thrown in tune with such obscenities if only to compromise themselves, wouldnt they just become your epitamy? and as their love lingered on to each other they were drawn fears kept locked deep inside with only exchanged keys to set them free the mistake was never the love they made but the explicity of their happiness the sad and lonely comfort others felt they knew of the hollow stories told, naive to beleive as truth teachings of cruelty surrounded them though no need for it to interfere dont you let it take you over because it will eat you up inside as his eyes shown as blue as the radiance of sympathy praying for an answer, threatened with the choice love or astray. there was no doubt to be with each other was what they now knew be true to themselves is what they beleived so with faith in their love, she was sure ridiculed they were, and opposed as much their love hadnt weakend then she

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Ever feel like you just don`t matter anymore, disgraced myself once again and feeling like a whore. I ask my shadow on the ground why you are here, always there to help take away the fear. Alone in my own head such a horrible place to be, so many bad places and people that I see. Jumbled up thoughts and words scattered my brain, and today all I do is pray for rain. Serenity and tranquility go hand in hand, or am I just an undeserving, insecure man. Outside I have shut down all emotions, inside my feelings are beyond all proportions. Another sleepless night but yet I am wide awake, life in general is a game of give and take. I am always my worst enemy, but thats just always been me.

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UNTITLED when i first met you i was afraid afraid of opening up afraid of getting hurt or worse getting my heart broke again i didnt think i could ever love someone again i didnt think it was possible till i met you Now I lay here awake thinking about you curled up in a ball in my bed all alone cuddled up to a pillow crying myself to sleep wishing you were here with me and wishing you knew how u make me feel when i talk to you i laugh i cry happy tears and you put a real smile on my face a smile that people dont see very often ,but when i'm talking to you i cant help ,but smile all the time. you make me feel loved like i'm the only one in the world that matters you make me get butterflies in my stomach every time we talk you make me feel like a little giggly school girl in love again i was so afraid to open up not thinkin i would ever feel like this again i am so glad i finally did you have shown me that there is love out there an

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Untill you come into my life it has been full of missory and pain. My world was crashing done around me and I felt my heart going cold and then the thought of you enetered my mind and all I could think of was you in my life. Now that i have you my heart has mended itself and has grown to love you. You are the very person my heart has long for and waited for to come and show me love again. You have come and turned my world right saide up and changed the course of my life for the good. My heart beats every passing minute to hold you in my arms. The thought of you makes me quiver with satifacation that i am the one you choose to have and hold. With every passing time were not together my heart longs to see you and my mindplays tricks on me. I will always love you with every breath i take you are my one and only true love.

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Our futures our not straight paths. They are all an infinite tree with all of its intertwining branches a mere choice away. Take care not to choose the wrong one as you climb, for this branch may be diseased and break under the strain. Nor should you climb too high too fast, lest you grasp a twig and fall. (January 12, 1994- 2:00am)

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*First a disclaimer: This piece was written in the depths of a three day, mind-altering extravaganza. If it is difficult to follow or understand or the imagery is just too bizarre, try reading it high. (just kidding, I am neither condoning or encouraging the use of illegal substances. but, i am not condemning it either. so, do whatcha like. lol) ----------------- Much happiness, In the Church of the Crickets. Green dragons fly. Little devils play. But, aren't we all, Fallen angels? 42nd string, On a universal guitar. Dancing naked, On the 12th point of a star. Drifting, yet still. Zombies of a commercial god, Lacking in will. Puppets sent silent to the mill. But, the potatoes watch, the corn listens, And the elephants remember, Man as a glimmer in the, Primordial stew. (August 21, 1995- 4:15am)

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untitled The weight of the years Refused to yield to the dawn Quite content to remain Until all hope is gone Scattered memories of bliss still linger Like cruel remnants of a dream Id long since forgotten Yet, now, all I can see

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As the smoke begins to clear And the sky isnt as grey I finally smile at the suns warmth For Ive yet to have my day The shadows still linger Making it hard to see Whats yet to some, what is And what could be

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You alone have held the power to move Me out of my shell and over these walls Kicking and screaming I fought to stay Locked in my tower where sunlight never fals Your beauty alone had scattered the clouds Smiling, I felt the suns warmth on my face Eerily familiar, though tragicly distant Like a dream time had erased So scurrying back from whence I came My walls offer their shadowy embrace As the sound of your laughter fades, Silence echoes in its place

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Firmly ensconced in my solitude Thumbing my nose at the lovers As they pass by my walls Smiling, laughing, and touching one another I prefer my isolation, and its echoing darkness At least my safety is assured For no love Ive known can bring me From where Ive been interred

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Jesus Christ Cared about humanity Wept for the souls Of humanity He bled for everyone Except me He did not care for me He did not weep for me He did not spill his blood for me Here I am . . . Alive, in pain, suffering And he is dead, in blissful heaven I am in Hell, I am a sinless sinner He is a Holy man without life Forced to stay in this place Where nothing is as it seems Holy Sinners are revered Unholy Practitioners are feared I am Hated He is Loved And no one is Worshiped Jesus of Nazareth IS NOT GOD!

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My impulses are closing in Like the sound of crashing waves Feeling as though I've been asleep up to this point No matter who tries to stop me This emptiness must be satiated No matter who cries I can't be sentimental when my heart is dry I've overcome despair many times And drunk up what was within my reach Criticize, despise, throw the first stone I've accepted that this is my happiness So don't reprimand those who long For something to cure disdain You of all people should know... When you try to accustom people to crying... They smile When you try to decieve by holding back... They trust again Tomorrow, warm rain will fall On the sands of this path I tread And I'll leave new imprints

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Love has turn out to be a thirst For each one’s life Love has turn into a breath Which is needed and wanted By every single soul In the world around us Which is the only Survival for each human being In this world. How love has the power to Bring back new life New beginning, new era New commandment in One’s hopeless lives Love is like a mother a A friend for all Love has adopted us As our hearts are like ‘ORPHANES’

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Take the time and open your eyes... Open your eyes and realize that all the pain you are going through...I have gone through before. Let your heart speak without interruption...without doubt. Everything is laid before us for a reason Don't fear the choices you make in life or you will regret them later. Take your time with things and make sure it is true Most of the time the things we want are right in front of us... yet we work so hard at looking in the wrong places to find it. The time is now and the place is here. Ask yourself how far you would go to get the things you want Measure your inner self and realize how enormous everything is Clear your mind of everything. All the days worries.. All the duties at work... All the chores at home... Clear your mind of these things... Close your eyes... The thing that you see once you close your eyes is what you want Do not hesitate. Do not resist. We only live once. Make the best out of life while you still have one to li

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Would anyone care if I died? My children would miss me for a while They would grow and forget The love I have for them My husband would go on with his life My parents would miss me But life goes on My father wouldn't bat an eye The love I have for everyone would die with me I hope that they will carry that love in their hearts There is no forever But everyone says it No one is immortal We will all fade Some will die with glory Some will die with shame Where do we go from there Will anyone care? Will you notice if I'm gone?

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A man once asked the lord where were you on my darkest day and the lord replied *I was the rain fore I shed my tears for you* But what about my happiest day where were you then again the lord replied *I was the sunshine on your face fore I shared my smile with you* And where were you when it came for me to die once more the lord replied *It was then I laid you in my arms and brought you home*

Until Tonight
Darkness falls across the land as you slowly guide me with a steady hand Our lips touch with fondest passion as our bodies move in a rhythmic fashion Our hands clench in wondrous desire as our love grows like the greatest fire Our pulse quickens with each caress for when we*re through in each other arms we will rest Our ecstasy has been taken to a new height as our secret affair is covered by the night So we depart to our separate places hiding our pleasure behind marble faces Thinking of our exotic flight wasting time Until Tonight

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My fingers run through her velvet like hair which is like the clouds hanging in the air Our moans and cries come with each thrust, our secrecy and restraint is but a must But now is the time for our fun we care not when or where it begun Her legs wrapped around my waist now she has control of our exotic pace Our bodies collapse with our ecstasy behind us dressing quickly so no one will find us And so we depart with deep sorrow But smile for it may happen again tomorrow

Until The End Of Time
Until The End Of Time by LateNiteFantsy© We stood there in front of family and friends professing our love to one another. Until the end of time. God smiled down from above. Flowers in bloom. Laughter fills the air. Flashbulbs catch every moment. i scurry away with my bride eager to claim my prize Reality check time. Bills come, a house, cars, then kids. Every waking minute spent making money. Less time for my lover and more time for everything else. Needing her so badly. Unable to tell her how I truly feel. Passion is fading. One day it will be our time. Time to say I love you and show her. One night wrapped in each others embrace. Tell the world to go away leave us alone family and friends have turned against us. Everyone wants us apart as the angels watch in disbelief. On again off again, to and fro. I love you! I hate you! now someone must go. So long ago it seems standing there saying I do until the end of time. Now we stand

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What steals the warmth of a soul's embrace But the icy grip of Death's disgrace The stains will spread the purest rage Placing your heart in the Devil's cage No light to save, no God to call No faith to grasp, no hope at all.

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I hate. I hate it all. Most everything around me I hate. The clothes, the shoes, the hair. All of it is nothing. The more I try to be strong, the weaker I get. The more I try to feel, the more it builds. One day, i'll go off. To the point of no return. You'll never figure it out. You'll never understand. What am I going through? What is wrong with me? You'll never know. This thing, builds. Growing larger and larger in size. You cant stop it. No one can. No matter how many fake positives you give, It will continue to rule. It crawls in my brain like a bug. Sneaking around corners. Making happy moments feel like nothing. Driving my most inner fears out. Bringing my insecurities to the front lines. Until one day, i'm gone. And all that is left is the hate. It rules me. I am hate. I've known no other feeling. And dont think I will. What can you do about it? Run. Run as fast as you can. B

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You said you would never hurt me like he did, but guess what, you did the same thing too, today i found out you played me and now i feel hurt and used, you are the one who healed my heart, so i let you come inside, but all you did was play games with me, and fill my mind with lies, i cant believe you hurt me like this, our relationship was doing so great, i tried to save it more than once, but now its just way too late, you always cheated, you always lied, you only apologized when i cried, so many people tried to tell me about what you would do, i should have listened to them, cuz what they were telling me was the truth, but instead you told me they were just haters, jealous of what we had, but now i see we had nothing, and that makes me feel so sad, theres nothing i can say or do, that will make you come back, but my heart will never feel the same, cuz its you that it will lack, so what do i do when the person who makes me stop crying,

Untimely Deaths
iam not much into religion yes i believe in god but u just gotta think hmmmmm! ID YOU KNOW THESE FACTS? I SURE DIDNT TILL NOW Death is certain but the Bible speaks about untimely death! Make a personal reflection about this..... Very interesting, read until the end..... It is written in the Bible (Galatians 6:7): 'Be not deceived; God is not mocked: for whatsoever a man sow, that shall he also reap. Here are some men and women who mocked God : John Lennon (Singer): Some years before, during his interview with an American Magazine, he said:

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This yearning in my heart This confusion in my mind The words left unspoken Haunts me all the time Everyday I watch pass by With an emptiness in my life And a hole in my heart Where only you belong There are nights I wake up crying And wishing you were here To hold me in your arms And kiss away my tears There is something that keeps me holding on - What I'll never know But one day things will go my way And I'll have you in my arms

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Staring blankly into the screen, as my thoughts collapse. I dont know whats happening, I need to relax my mind is shattered, my body is cold I'm alone in the darkness, I need her to hold. Cant explain my feelings. its hard to say everyone but her, should just go away I love her dearly, to this very day I dont want her to go, I need her to stay she is everything to me. mind, body, and soul. I wanna be there and reach my goal. I will be there, happy and free not here in Florida, but in Tennessee.

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Know thyself and life becomes smooth Know that like life even the brain has rules Never harm yourself till you deem the cause worth Never starve yourself even if ya ass says to hurry The glue for the rules that keeps everything cool, is truth No illusions just truth no confusion. Nothing to restrain cause like water its formless Nothing to change cause like geometry its exact No nack's for theory's just fact In fact if you ever find yourself in limbo If your think so you should know cause deep down you do know First reasons are excuse yet evolve into truth Yet not at all has changed except you You finally accept the shit you do Know what you used to "knew" And realize you don't change the truth, truth changes you For good or worse better or bad The perception of the change is like a whole in a bag You think you got that shit but what you got you never had. It was given and like all goods you must wait Be patient for the answers, or get nothing great Just sufficient

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John was cursing under his breath as he waited for the last of the customers to leave. Five before eight, he locked up the store and flew home in his Jetta. Sharon had promised him a 'special' night and he wasn't going to be late. He barely took time to eat an energy bar as he got dressed. Usually, he'd head to her apartment in his work clothes and they'd go from there. Sometimes she jumped him as he arrived, but usually it was dinner, a movie, or just snuggling by the TV. This time, he'd been told to be ready. He'd also been instructed on what to wear. He straightened his tie and his suit coat and then strode out to his car. His suit always made him feel distinguished and powerful. He'd had it tailored to fit his lean, muscular frame and it flattered him. The drive to Sharon's was far too long, a series of thoughtless drivers and ill-timed lights put him at her door at just after nine pm. He knocked and was greeted quickly by the door opening and a sight that brought a wide s

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He had walked over to her head and looking down at her ... "Did you enjoy that?" he asked with a slight smile on his face. She noticed that he had his soft eyes on now and was not the cold look she had witnessed earlier before the crop ... "I do not enjoy doing that, but you left me with no choice. You do not struggle when I do anything to you or you get 3 wacks with this crop, he put the crop to her face and she winced looking at it. Her buttocks were just so enticing, whilst she was thrashing and struggling, it took all of his willpower not to take her there and then, but that would have been a big mistake, she needed to learn what was punishment and what pleasures he could give her. The two needed to be separated or she would never submit fully to him. She could be a very dangerous adversary for him, even though he was a big man, she was strong and her anger was vehement. He watched as her breathing forced her ribcage to rise and fall and her buttocks and torso were sh

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He felt cheated, cheated that he had not been able to make her cum. She was definately a cool customer and he would have to be more careful with his own desires, otherwise she would never cum and he would be bitterly disappointed. He would admonish himself later for taker her and fucking her so quickly, next time he would take his time and be more measured in his passion. But god, he could only stand so much and she was such a turn on for him, unfortuantely even more now, knowing as he did that he would have to work exrta hard to enable her to cum with him. Her head was reeling and she felt quite dizzy, but he was looking at her with such tenderness, she could hardly stand up properly, after such a rollercoaster of emotions going on in her head. Her legs were quite wobbly and he noticed that she was losing the will to stand up. This was good in his opinion, she was a strong woman and needed a little extra persuasion than a regular petite woman would have needed and he was the man

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She lay back on the firm bed carefully. Her wrists were chained behind her and she didn't want to become bruised. Her long auburn hair was cast over her shoulders and draped around her breasts. Her eyes were blue-green but concealed behind a silken scarf. Pale, freshly washed skin blushed in the morning light. Her black bra and panties were all that were between her and the man that stood over her. She could feel his presence, his eyes, his power over her. Her lips parted in a silent, quivering moan as she thought about pleasing him. She squeezed her knees together, squirming on the bed, as she felt the throbbing insistence of her sex. She wanted him inside her, stretching her and filling her, but even more so, she wanted to please him with her mouth. Her lips and tongue, and yes, even her swallowing and gagging throat were her most useful gifts to her Master. She knew he was prowling around her, watching her, enjoying her anticipation. She felt his breath on her neck and his lips tick

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I can just picture myself at your mercy...... on my knees, hands tied above my head, my ball gag in my mouth so all I can do is moan and shake my head to answer your questions. I can imagine the glimmer of excitement in your eyes and the evil grin stretching across your face as you show me the rope you are going to tie my breasts with. You slowly walk over to me.....cup my large breasts in your hands and tell me it will only hurt a little.....and for me to be very quiet or you will tie them tighter and give me something to moan about!!! I nod my head in agreement as you start to bind them.....looking me straight in the eyes as you pull the ropes tight against my milky white flesh. My breasts are now bulging with the pressure of the ropes....and you flick my nipples with your finger to make them even more hard then they allready are. You pull on them and lick them....and put them in between your teeth and gently bite them until you hear me whimper with extacy. You tease me for what s

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The moon was shinning through the window glazing on her face as she laid there. My eyes was gazing at the beauty of the site of her eyes. It was a Friday night I felt we should be out dancing the night away instead We decided to stay in and watch movies. Although I had a plan of my own. She would never forget. I went into the bathroom and lit candles all around. Then turned on soft music to entice the the mood. I just could not wait to get the night going. I slipped into something really sexy and made my way back into the living room. There she laid so delicate so beautiful just a t-shirt and panties on. I walked over to her and leaned down and kissed her. Her response was was in the kiss. Then asked where did you get that outfit? As she slid her hand up my thigh.I Joined her on the couch giving her a small massage softly kissing her neck and back. I take off her T-Shirt reviling her 38dd as I placed them in my hands softly kissing her soft lips. I took one nipple between two finge

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The alarm went off I slowly opened my eyes pushed the button and got up. I had so many plans today but where to start. I got up went to the bathroom and brushed my teeth. Thinking as I went down the stairs in my little white see through nightie nipples still hard from the coldness of the room not remembering that a friend had stayed the night on the couch. I took a seat beside him thinking he was still asleep spreading my legs watching tv. I noticed him glancing at my pussy so I closed my legs. Good morning would you like breakfast? He sat up and looked up at me no thanks. As we sat there watching this movie that had lots of sex in it my pussy began to get really wet so i would slowly open and close my thighs showing off my hairy pussy not knowing that a hairy pussy is a turn off but i kept playing with him teasing him moving around moving my hands down lifting my nightie more and more rubbing my nipples making them harder. The smell of my pussy was just going around it was invit

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It was our first time in bed together. I just thought she was everything. I enjoyed her for what she stood for and who she was. So, when things hit off in the bedroom and the lights where down and the music was low, it was like we didn't know what to do. We laid there with our bodies nervously against one another. My mind pondering what was I to do. I tossed. I turned, I just wanted my hand to caress her soft body. My mind was going ninety to nothing wondering what would she feel like. I slowly turned toward her I glanced into her vibrant eyes that lit up my heart every time I looked into them. I slowly started to move toward her body. She moved to kiss me as my hand reached for her body. My body became numb as her lips touched mine. My body became limp like it was jello and my hands became a little damp but decided to wounder the top part of her body. As the kiss seemed like it lasted forever, my hand was caressing her breast softly gripping while pinching the nipple. All

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Untitled My hands are scrambling to hold on to What you choose to just throw around We can't escape this history we created So why are you trying to put us in the ground I never once desired this silence Nor did I want us to give up and choose death But here I am ignoring all reasons to cry And fighting this war to take one last breath I'm not ready to back down from any of this You can't force me to let go and feel as you do It's not as easy as you make it seem Because the truth is, I love you And I mean that more than you want me to I mean it more than I want myself to believe But now it's all out in the open And now it's my heart I need to retrieve You stole it the day you took my breath away Held it hostage in those hands of yours I can't believe how comfortable it got there And once it was my tears but now my blood pours It spills over what we once were And all the hopes and dreams we once shared But now they are all just a distant memory And I try to convince myself that you on

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I loved the taste of your lips after the wine They were hot against me with desire; I loved your eyes when you looked up at mine They were lit with this passionate fire. I loved your arms around me strong and tight You held onto me with this forceful embrace; I loved the feel of your skin, lips, and bite As you kissed me and held me, made me feel safe. For me is your hotblooded but calming kiss Of the most perfect man's love; For me is the most incredible bliss, From your heart; my gift from above. Since you give me your love so freely and true We'll smile as the world tries to stop us, We have everything we dreamed of, the car you want too :P Even my shattered heart healed, the pain's turned to lust. So kiss me baby with your soft wet lips, Still fragrant with that ruby wine, Lean closer to me, grip your hands on my hips Let me know your body and soul are mine. Grasp me closer, even if it's until May!

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do you love me the way you need to to keep me? would you trust me with your soul? could you cherish me even when i am ebil? or especially then? i'm not sure about myself how can i be sure about you? just hold on hold on hold on because i'm here really, i am somewhere

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I DON'T KNOW ALL THE WORDS I'M SUPPOSED TO SAY TO MAKE THIS EASY OR MAKE IT GO AWAY. TOO NEW THIS GIGGLE RESTS IN MY CHEST AT PEACE. NOW BIRTHING PREMATURE MY BREATH OF YOU AND I'LL SIGH RELIEF WHEN IT HAILS MY HEAVY HEART. LIKE AN ANGEL SINGING BEACON A HUM SWEET LIKE A SALT WATER SUNSET, YOU FEEL LIKE JUNE TO ME. ITS THE SUN, PURPLE TO ME IT'S ROYALTY DEMANDING RESPECT AND I AM ON MY KNEES WITHOUT HESITATION HOLDING MY IMUNE HEART IN MY HANDS I AM HEADLESS, STRUNG AND STUCK FROM THE SUCK THAT YOU NEED SWEET ROLLS ROLL FROM BENEATH MY SKIRT TO HUNGRY MOUTHS THAT YOU LEAVE UNFED SOMETIMES SO HEARTLESS REMOVE YOURSELF LIKE I HAVE REMOVED ALL SENCE IN YOU I'M A VISION IN ROSE WITH GLASSES OF DIAMONDS AND I CAN SEE YOUR PERFECTION IT'S A DEEP SHADE OF BLUE NAVY LIKE YOUR SOUL TRADITION RINGS IN YOU TRUE THERE'S NO WAY I CAN CONTROL THIS AND IT MAKES ME MAD THAT SOMETHING SO SIMPLE AS TRADITION MAKES A FIRE IN ME THAT COULD BURN SO DEEP LIKE THIS WHAT IS GOING ON? WHY WON'T YOU LET ME IN O

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Once there was a boy who thought of life as just a toy; one desaster after another, wanted to be like his older brother;But he decided to make due with what he got, a happy kid he was not. Your stupid and crazy his dad once said. YourDumb and lazy Now daddy's dead. Where is this man now grown up with a master plan? A plan of blood from the fields below. A plan of mercy that he will never show. Maybe when he is done and has had all his fun maybe then he can be happy.

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Im sick of crying all these tears. i havent felt like this in years. u made me feel like a queen untill you turned mean. u lied. cheated. and god only knows what else. what do u want me to say? that im coming back? i dont think so. not after all that u put me through. ure juss not worth all the pain that i have felt and the tears that i cried. if i could take the time that i thought about you, talked to you, cried over you and spent with you. i WOULD be happier then i was before. maybe meeting you was a mistake. the biggest one that i have made. or maybe you letting me go what yours. who knowss. it dont matter in the end. were are NEVER to be again and being friends is juss going to make it worse. not talking to you at all is hopefully the best choice that i have made.

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I lay here, Dying, Crying, Whying, I want you, I need you, I love you, But yet, I hurt you. You gave me, Good times, Bad times, Sweet love, And memories, We said always, And forever, We'd love each other, What Happened to us, The good times, The bad times, The sweet love, And the memories. I lay here, Dying, Crying, Whying, I want you, I need you, I love you, But yet, I hurt you. Your my one, My only, My true love, For eternity, I wont be, With anyone, But you, My heart, My soul, Both belong to you, I lay here, Dying, Crying, Whying, I want you, I need you, I love you, But yet, I hurt you. If I have to, I'd rather die, Than be without you.

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Like the stars in the sky I am calling to you From the heavens above I am looking for you In the depths of my soul I will live and breathe for you Sadness dwells inside you You have nothing to fear For I am next to you I can feel your sadness Let me be sad for you So you will feel love once again Worry not about life Let me worry for you You should always love life For it is a part of you I'll be there when you fall To catch you and say I love you

Untimely Death
You know? Life truly is precious,youth,is a gift...I lost a good friend this weekend,who didn't appreciate what he had apparantly.He is now,just another D.U.I. statistic.Don't let a day go by,that you don't thank someone who has touched your life in some way,no matter how hard it may seem,present a smile with sincerity,and above all...no matter how bad you might think things are,remember,tomorrow is another day! Spread the love ya all,life is too short!!

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the night falls as if slain by the sun, entwined are we. the emotion for which you lust flares once, then dies, taken by madness. all hope must end. your heart beats no more. how could you not understand? shadows surround us, crying, save us from ourselves.

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Watch as her glistening eyes take your spirit. She wakes you with "hi's" and "I love you's" in twos,with the most beautiful smile one can witness. With a child in her heart, a princess we confess deserving of it all,deserving of our best. In one drop all is said and done. Three drops she sheds for our repore. Another she bled for the times shared no more. Be known her affection is awesome is endless, a part of our life, a part of which we need. My heart, my head, my eyes, my legs grow weak, grow weary. I would die for her; no more, no less. But to LIVE for her, I can only do my best. For this wonderful woman, for this beautiful girl, for this innocent child brought to this world. I can only hope, I can only pray she'll shoot for the stars be with more than just astray.

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She thinks of him Of only him Longing for his voice To see his face & hold him close To just be with him near him To kiss him To touch him Would be a dream come true She cant explain these feelings run deep She knows they're true True for him and only him With every minute that passes Every breath she takes She thinks of him Always. To see his smile hear his laugh Watch him sleep Would be a dream come true

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You are a great friend I think we could be more You dug so deep within my heart and now you stick to my inner core You're like my true inspiration, you give me the strength to move on You're like the perfect picture but you were never drawn This is not a coincidence and it could never be a mistake Your words and kindness make my soul feel warm, off its embrace I can't wait to see you, for you to hold me in your arms For you to whisper things I want to hear and fill my cup with charm I was so empty and lonely when you weren't with me And now that I have you close, I want us to be so near I want us to be together, even though I don't know you well But maybe we should wait and see if time will tell I think this is the beginning of something strong and true Don't ever go away because I'm beginning to attach to you I wonder what will come of this odd and simple romance Maybe a first kiss and a simple embrace

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Not sure what to think Never sure what to say This whole situations Got me confused in every way I wanna back off Don't wanna come on too strong I'm always questioning If I'm doing something wrong I don't wanna push you away And I don't wanna let you go I wanna explain how I feel inside But don't know how to let you know I wanna tell you that I'm scared But excited at the same time I wanna show you that I can be Your friend and your partner in crime I want you to feel like I am someone you can trust I know if your reading this Your probably thinking I'm nuts I know I might worry too much And I might be confused on what to do But there's one thing I know for sure And that is that I really like you So if I act a little strange And maybe sometimes a little sappy It's all your fault Cause you make me happy

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Until I Break - Broken Sunday I’m not appreciated, though what is anymore? True feelings barricaded, make me what you want. If I keep quiet, no one will ever laugh or think I’m wrong. Listen close I’m screaming silently beside. Capable of so much more, than what I’m given credit for. Push me until I break, release, to make it better. I shot for the heavens but caught a falling star. Fragile self confidence and simply intolerant. The me I can’t avoid. Give back what you have taken. I cannot balance any more of these fickle situations waiting at my door. Clean your face and save your dirty looks for someone else. Angrily I clench my fist and grind my teeth. Capable of so much more, than what I’m given credit for. Push me until I break, release, to make it better. I shot for the heavens but caught a falling star. Fragile self confidence and simply intolerant. The me I can’t avoid. Can you keep us from breaking, refraining

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I thought you were perfect in my eyes, such "A good friend" who promised to stand by you people till the end huh? Your not standing by me at all now. I don't care if I never hear from the lot of you ever again. Why do I need you, why should I need you? am I that insecure in everyone's eyes? We talk once in a blue moon, nothing more then that, and nor will we ever. I'm out for good, away from you people. I'll keep living my life, and y'all can live yours, I'm not begging to talk to you any more. I'm out, I'm walking away & not stuttering, or stumbling. No more seeing you go back on your words while I keep my promises. All pieces of my past, nothing more. But maybe you never were really my people to begin with in the first place.

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One year and 4 months since I opened my mouth, nothing changed much, rearranged much. What good does love do if the person you love doesn't love you? At least its less painful then being stabbed in the back. If your better off with a user who screws you & plays games with you? Dare not ask if the feelings are still there, ask if you've got them. But its like that because you lie, you just don't care. Brother, sister, cousin, best friend. I've come to realize they're merely words spoken and written in the end. Everyone is out for theirs, so as this cigarette slowly burns down I ignore all the hurt, emotions, and times I've been lied to, and turned down. Never going to be your husband, but sure as hell I hope this ain't how you treat your best friends. With therapy hopefully these dreams'll stop, lead to a yellow brick road, a better place, and a means to an end.

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Title: Untitled 8 Date:8-16-08 By: Travis Smith Smile like sunshine, tears like rain Clouds above us rattles my brain Looking at you all sad n blue Makes my heart melt and yearn for you At times we're wrong, at times we're right Tell what you'd like me to do tonight The moon is full and so am I Together lets make you not want to cry For in the end, it's plain to see I'll help you, if you'll help me :)

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Shadows dance outside My window The past months Dance macabre In my head The world And this thing called life Seem so fey And pointless Kerouac was right Existence is pain We hurt each other Even when we try not to And we end up Destroying Those we love Its all a twisted dance In the twilight As we sink further down This twilight weighs me down I find myself Looking forward To the darkness to come ---------------------------- Shattered and broken My heart No longer mine All I feel is the painfull Emptiness and loss I write these words And try to find some kind Of reason Only to see my Empty hole Right through the middle of me As I continue to bleed

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What did she know when she gave the serpant kiss With his hypnotic eyes and his devilish hiss What a nieve, simple girl One bite of the apple that changed the world filling our minds with evil, death, and decay How one foolish woman changed it all that day Then handing it over to her trusting mate Sealing our doom, claiming our fate Down from the clouds a hellish boom He opened our eyes, now hate we comsume Now we cover our hearts spirits and minds Nothing left sacred, nothing holy we can find We hide in the shadows casting down on us all We continue to repay sins, yet still we will fall repenting sins that cut us to the bone Living in hell for no love can be shown Did not realize My soul was not free She handed it over to the serpant in the tree D.L Abrams

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i found a few books from back when i begain high school i believe..im no brilliant writer but felt like posting some of this stuff that i wrote way back then.. if u dont understand it its alright lol... Ever feel the instance of things being frozen in time Every frame of our lives,passes slowly by Every day another dream dies, Another person cries,as there song fades away, This is our story,and we cant change our fate, Blood,Sweat, and Tears are given, Before each prolonged date, Ever remember, The days when things seems to go so slow Like behind every black cloud, Never appeard that rainbow Just another black cloud Ever feel..likethe whole world was against you, Things just never looked any better, Some times you never win the battle and not always will the clouds be grey but hear outward,tones outspoken, be lost for our ownsake that if every word is verbably spoken then youve never felt anything at all....

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ntill you come into my life it has been full of missory and pain. My world was crashing done around me and I felt my heart going cold and then the thought of you entered my mind and all I could think of was you in my life. Now that i have you my heart has mended itself and has grown to love you. You are the very person my heart has long for and waited for to come and show me love again. You have come and turned my world right side up and changed the course of my life for the good. My heart beats every passing minute to hold you in my arms. The thought of you makes me quiver with satification that i am the one you choose to have and hold. With every passing time were not together my heart longs to see you and my mind plays tricks on me. I will always love you with every breath i take you are my one and only true love.

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I feel explanations don't really excuse so I'm just gonna post it lol UNTITLED Drowning in shallow water Take a pill to make me smarter Only, to sleep it off again Always running in place Feel alone in crowded spaces And dream, when I'm awake Nothing in my life now Makes much sense Waiting for my life To recommence And just try to carry on In spite of it all To walk that ledge Try not to fall Right now that is enough Having conversations with My imagination and Losing the argument To be continued...

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they call me the traveler a many yrs i roam to find the captive of my heart a soulmate of my own he comes to me in silence he haunts me in my dreams with a promise of the future and passion from his eyes that gleam Now the magic has taken hold my fears are placed behind I freely give my soul yet the story is uncertain this dream has not awakened forever is the feeling, love is my drug Its days since i've last seen him and my heart is beating, still wait until eternity, keep traveling, i will For the day has not been brought forth where I take himin my arms "parting" a word forgotten loneliness no more

Untimely Deaths Read To The Bottom....
DID YOU KNOW THESE FACTS? I SURE DIDN'T TILL NOW Death is certain but the Bible speaks about untimely death! Make a personal reflection about this..... Very interesting, read until the end..... It is written in the Bible (Galatians6:7): 'Be not deceived; God is not mocked: for whatsoever a man sow, that shall he also reap. Here are some men and women who mocked God : John Lennon (Singer): Some years before, during his interview with an American Magazine, he said: 'Christianity will end, it will disappear. I do not have to argue about that. I am certain. Je

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In a great love, a love so strong. I've never let go of how do I myself make himsee it, feel it, touch it, wantit? How do I take all I have inside my heart put it in a box and give it to him? I tried many times andmany times I have failed! I want to melt thehardened shell he has placed upon his lovingheart , I wan to open the flood gates to hissouland drownall doubt fromus both,but I fall short. How do I mend the wounds so many years have inflicted in him? How do I take away his fear and his sorrow? If I could take it upon myself I'd bare it alone for him, but such things are impossible. He is my soft place tofall,my fortress, yet he too needs these things and I try to be his everything,but again I feelI amfailing. How do I change things that I know not of? How do I express the urgency of communication? I cannot aknowledge what I know not of or haven't been told. I grieve inside for feeling of silence when words is allit would take. I wanna fullfill his every fantasy, chase away his

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She rises from the shards of a broken heart to stand amongst the glittering pieces; bleeding and tortured by memories. Eyes as clear as a flash of lightning Spirit illuminated with tears yet unshed. A proud soul seeks nourishment from the white hot pain of betrayal. Dreams scattered at her feet, In one hand: wisdom In the other: experience. She journeys forward alone, guided by the harmony of a song that once beat a rhythmic union and now is a distant melody... the mournful cry of the lost.

Until We Meet
Until we meet My nights will be a little colder My days a little shorter My heart will beat a little less rapid Until we meet I know that my arms will be empty My mind hurting from the constant thought of you Minutes will seem to be hours Hours will seem to be months While months will seem like eternity Until we meet The stars in the sky will not affect me with its gleaming sparkles of life Until I am gazing at them in your arms And the food that I eat will not be as fulfilling and nourishing Until it is you that I share food with And Until we meet I will not feel whole My world will seem incomplete Until that wonderful day When our eyes make first contact And our bodies and souls collide in blissful whirlwind The words will roll off my tongue like a sweet love song "Hello, I couldn't wait to meet you."

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It's so hard to sit back while you figure it all out, when nothing else makes sense we do beyond any doubt. However you are unsure of yourself and of life at the moment, so all I can do is be here with a sweet word or tender comment. To show you that I'm not going anywhere, and that if you put your love and trust and me you will be no worse for the wear. I never want to rush into something to try and make it real, it either is or isn't and that is just the deal. I'll fight for love and the one I care for, but true love shouldn't be a fight nor a war. It should be a blessing and a rare gift from God, where its just peace and comfortable with no need for a facade. There will be times when we drive each other insane, but ill always try to make you smile with the silly and inane. I know I'm not perfect or the prettiest girl you may have in mind, but I am real, caring, sensitive, and kind. I could be to you all that you never knew you wanted, in my mind and in my heart your hopes and fe

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written on August 13, 2008 Mistakes have been made on both our parts, but what does that truly say of our hearts When something feels wrong or out of place, instead of talking to me, you go to her to plead your case. You say you love me and really do care, how come when I need you, your not there. You act like I can't please you anymore, I walk on pins and needles, it's making me sore. I want you to be happy, but is it with me? open your eyes and heart and let me see. I want to feel happy and loved, tell me are you still my true love from above?

"untitled" One And Two
these next two have no titles. i wrote them months ago, and i still can't think of anything to call them. they're in the same vein so i'm putting them up here for you all to decide what they should be called. "Untitle" #1 you sold me a lie one you though was true but now i realize that you couldn't see through your own false life don't know what you want you wander searching for meaning desperately clinging to anyone who can give you their soul only for you to crush them just another victim of a psychic vampire that disguises itself as another lost soul in this fucked up world i bare the scars of your attack fucked up with no chance of going back my life has changed in so many ways i count down your numbered days i am stronger for having lived was left for dead, but survived but changed into a monster i don't recognize i am the monster we created from your bite and my blindness my soul turned brought this orge to the surface "Untitled" #2

Until The Sun Stops Shining
Sometimes we bicker, but if we were to stop and look at the reasons, they're foolish after a few days. However; the love that we share for each other runs deeper than any problem we might ever have. It always has; always will. I don't know how, but we have been in each others lives much much longer than we have known each other. And this is where we will remain until the sun stops shining.

Untitled (jeremy)
The touch of your hand sends chills down my spine And is in high demand everything seems so perfectly fine The kiss of your lips I want so much The stoke of your finger just on more touch And let them linger rapid hearts beat as one Sounds of satisfaction in just one moan You caress my skin and kiss my nose With one quick look you take your pose The scent of two lovers quickly feels the room No emotions left to hide only love to bloom We lay in ecstacy and look deep into each others eyes You kiss my lips and I let out a deep sigh Lying wrapped up in your arms is where I want to be Want to say I love you how can I make you see You said I love you while making love I want to believe you and fly like a dove You beat me to the punch by saying so much You said that you meant a whole bunch That if I didn't feel the same we would slow down I do feel the same and now I feel like a clown How do I tell you how I feel When I didn't th

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Born onto this world with a curse that's left a mental scar on me forever. I could've been so much more than this but God didn't really give me a choice. So I live with this fact everyday and The pain of living through this is killing me inside.

Until I Am Gone -poem
Searching endlessly for what is called hope Slipping, slowly but surely away Frustration and disappointment my daily companion Never have I felt so alone Reaching out only to be embraced by emptiness Contentment seems unreachable As my will seems to seep through the cracks of my broken heart The heart you refuse to rebuild and repair It feels as though I have been on this abandoned road far too long My soul is weary, my body is weak And no matter how loud I call out for you I am turned away countless times So I do believe its time for my uneventful surrender Maybe you won’t see the changes And you’ll remain clueless just as you have been Until I’m really gone….

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I love watching you sleep so peacefully serene so trusting and beautiful It makes me wonder why you chose me you could have anyone you want so why'd you chose me babe? We haven't been together all that long but already you trust me enough to fall asleep in my room and know I won't leave you that I'll always be close by As you lay here on my bed wrapped in my quilt arm wrapped around my leg and laying on my pillow with your face buried in my knees I sit here writing this poem and thinking of how much i truly love you and how much you mean to me and how lucky i am to have you Around you i feel so loved protected and trusted. No matter what i feel however you probably feel different of course you like me put friends over relationships even though i do that I absolutely hate it even when i do it i hate it i hate how protective your freinds are over you and how they seem to think that all i'm

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you use to be so beautiful i use to idolize you i wonder what happened now your beauty has disapeared and i no longer idolize you i see you as the ugly demon you are i don't wish to see you as you use to appear i like you better this way my rose colored glasses have been taken off and thrown away i see the world as it is in black and white i'm so much happier now i'll burn my bridges behind me so i don't go back to people like you manipulative, full of malice, full of scorn you tried to crash my spirits and sell my soul but you didn't realize that i was stronger than you you couldn't do it and i started to see your true colors i'm on my way to better people and a better life goodbye forever i'll never see you again i've buried your love 6 feet under and never coming back to dig it up i'm taking everything you ever gave me and burning it so i have nothing left of you except memory

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Harsh words, violent blows hidden secrets, no one knows eyes are open, hands are fisted deep inside, I'm warped and twisted. On my knees, alive but dead look at the invisible blood I've bled I'm not gone my mind's just drifted don't expect much, I'm warped and twisted Born out, wasted, empty, and hallow Today is yesterday's tomorrow The sun died out the ashes sifted I'm still here, warped and twisted.

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What did I say? What did I do? How can it be possible, that i deserve a friend like you. Just when i needed someone, when i thought I couldn't go on. I felt I just had no one, That's when you came along. You made me feel special, You made me smile again. I will forever be grateful, to you my dear friend. To know that you need me, as a part of your life. To help you get through, all of the struggles and strife. I just hope you realize, what you've given to me. How special you are, and how you'll always be. Please know that I am here, whenever you call. I am always beside you, I will not let you fall.

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Hell-hot tears streaming down my face A love for years ending in disgrace My love for you lost, after I gave all of me Such a hopeless cause, how cruel love can be Rain used to cheer these odd moods of mine Now it deepens the gloom of what's left behind Sunshine is the enemy to the place I dwell It should let me be, stay down where I fell Fell so far, fell so deep Cringing hard, as the blood begins to seep Trained to withold my pain My sorrow is my shame I keep it buried within I could really use a friend.

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I look into your eyes and I see myself in you I cannot look away for my life begins anew your smile fills me with something that I cannot describe what holds your interest now makes me feel alive every time I hear your voice it trembles in my heart I don't know where to stop I've forgotten how to start to take away the pain would mean the world to me please give me that chance to help you feel free I've forgotten everything that hurt me in the past my only hope for you is happiness that lasts thank you for this moment I will not soon forget you've helped my find myself the candle has been lit

Untiled
Cold rain falls in the lonely night If I close my eys, I feel your presence Our meeting was not by chance it was fate. Mightier than Power, one shred of Love can become unseen strength. The promise we made remains in my heart. Do not lose; You must not lose!!

Until We Meet
Until we meet, My nights will be a little colder My days a little shorter My heart will beat a little less rapid Until we meet I know that my arms will be empty My mind hurting from the constant thought of you Minutes will seem to be hours Hours will seem to be months While months will seem like eternity Until we meet The stars in the sky will not affect me with its gleaming sparkles of life Until I am gazing at them in your arms And the food that I eat will not be as fulfilling and nourishing Until it is you that I share the my food with And Until we meet I will not feel whole My world will seem incomplete Until that wonderful day When our eyes make first contact And our bodies and souls collide in blissful whirlwind The words will roll off my tongue like a sweet love song "Hello, my love, I couldn't wait to meet you

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Purity once had a name, And beauty once had a face. Life once had a meaning, And once I was safe. Once there was freedom, And once I could laugh. Happiness once was alive, And once I had another half. Once I shared her love, Once I was by her side, Once I felt I fitted, So quickly that died. Her grace so great, Her beauty so vast, All I ever wanted, Was for it to last. Fate maybe had another plan, Or maybe she had another love, But it all fell apart, The hand too big for the glove. Now it's all died away, Happiness, joy, love; all memories. Now I walk alone in this dark, dark world, With no light to guide my way.

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i've been sittin here for days by myself i've been waiting for you the whole time i was crying i swear that ur cars and everything else means more to you than i do i'm starting now and i won't stop till i'm done my life is worthless and no1 cares enough to stop me i can't stop it it's taken control of me i'm bleedin everywhere i wish you were here and actually cared bout me now i'm gone who will u ignor??? i hope someone shows you how it feels i hope you come and find me your the one who deserves to die i hope ur fuckin happy my blade is still in my hand all i wanted was to be beautiful and loved but now i see i'll never be or atleast you hope ur sad and go through what i had to go through

Untilted Nov. 22, 2008
I dont know. My days just run together now. My life... at the moment... Seem's meaningless. Everything I think about.. It's... not normal for me. Its like... Its like the past. I... I shouldnt be thinking like this. People would call me crazy for my thoughts. But I can not help it. I dont know what to do. I feel... abandoned sometimes. I know I shouldnt. But I cant help it I want to talk to him... I miss him. Everything is... cockeyed & crazy right now. God I love him so much. I know he's doing stuff for our future. But still.. my heart aches missing him wanting to talk to him. I feel like crying. But I have no tears to cry. I want to cry. But my body wont let me. ♥ Rylee Mier

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Every minute that passes without seeing you, I feel like a pain broke my heart. Every hour that passes without hearing your lovely voice, I feel like a pain broke my heart. Every day that passes without seeing your beautiful eyes, I feel like a pain broke my heart. I feel that life has no meaning without you, So if you could only know my feelings, Life would be better with you. If you could only know my feelings, I would make you the greatest woman in the whole world. If you could only share your heart with me, Share your love with me, We would be happier. But how could I tell you, If I don't have enough courage? How will I let you feel what I feel, If I don't have enough courage, If I don't have enough courage to tell you that... I LOVE YOU

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I'm an imp a warrior I'm genghis-fucking-khan Beaudelaire then VanGogh a silent Peter Murphy.. a vocal Boris Karloff a chameleon shapeshifting thru society & memoirs that make Picasso blush in his Cubic sarcophagus I've sent legions Conjured pixies muses technicolor know me by name--- Raised the dead and Torched the living Peter Sellers' wardrobe got nothin' on me, honey, All a floating visage Boom-town facade sheltering a wraith, Dormant spectre wary of showing his face-- Pantomime & penny speechless in a 2%, homogenized version of unleaded persona doing double-time cram for the theater of the Absent professor's mind. ...as I steal the degree in this covert curriculum She broadsides me like freight trains in slippers Bold Delicate Supernatural ( imp goes silent, picasso turns a deaf ear) Should I summon Casanova? Curl my lip & snarl? Maybe the Marquis.

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when you want something- everything seems all about using your hands to get what you want. i've crawled on my hands till they've bled, only to wake up and see the sun still hanging in its place. its the simple things like hearing a train pass in the middle of the night, and when i feel like i'm the only one who can smell the honest scent of love on your smooth skin...that can give me what i want. if i could run my fingers through your life for a minute, i would be there when the days seem too long or too short. but all of this seems to have been done with someone else. i want more time, more of you. i can break away from everything (i thought), when rain washes the streets you can start over. take a deep breath, will this all fade into rejection... sometimes waiting has more meaning, halfway across the room false beliefs, and a blanket of smoke.

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i was naive to believe i could fix it I did everything .. i forced the puzzle pieces to fit but the picture came out wrong not like the one on the box ~~ I sit and stare at my reflection in the mirror I wipe it off hoping to see myself clearer I try to see what u saw Pinpoint in my reflection my weakness for deception It is my conclusion that it must be an internal part But where is the mirror that lets me see my heart this is not finished i think i want to add more thanks for reading

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Its 3am and I'm laying here alone in the dark thinking about you again, Is this all true or Is it all a bad dream, I cant tell. My body is numb, my head is blank, my face is wet, my hands are shaking, my heart is breaking. Did you really leave, or am I just dreaming? I turn over, and try to get some sleep, but your face, your voice, your touch, your love, I cant erase it all from my mind. So now its 4am, and I'm still not over you

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The sparkling blue eyes have now turned to grey Once bright like the ocean, now dull like rain. Nobody sees sadness hidden within such beautiful eyes The secrets once held, the spiral of betrayal and lies. It is said your eyes are the window to your soul But my soul is not beautiful, it cannot grow For what my eyes have forgotten, my soul still sees The pain still lingers, my heart still bleeds. But now he has gone, must be left in the past But it now seems my life is moving too fast I need time out, a moment to reflect I feel numb, no emotions I am able to detect. My full life story, nobody will know Where I have been, no child should go I'll never understand why I was treated this way Their eyes were open but they looked away.

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A girl asked a guy if he thought she was pretty, He said...no. She asked him if he would want to be with her forever...and he said no. She then asked him if she were to leave would he cry, and once again he replied with a no. She had heard enough. As she walked away, tears streaming down her face the boy grabbed her arm and said... You're not pretty, you're beautiful. I don't WANT to be with you forever, I NEED to be with you forever. And I wouldn't cry if you walked away...I'd die...

Untitled...goes Out To A Military Friend Whos Deploying 12-27-08
Days are closing in Soon you will have to leave Not knowing for sure when you'll be back I try hiding the pain But its harder every day You will be too far away Letters will be far and few inbetween Hopefully you wont forget me Or the love I have for you No matter the distance You will forever be in my heart This here goes to a dear friend whos deployin just days after Christmas on his first deployment. Hopefully him and all the others overseas will stay safe and ocme home to their families safe and sound very soon. If you wat to know more bout this just ask

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Ohh, that look that voice it sings forbidden fruit that's temping me. tarnished curls, secret smiles Jewel blue eyes from tropical Isles You remind me of the Greek philosophers and Roman conquerors I see the lion in you all curled up for a nap. I see all his power and grace how I long to touch your face run my fingers through your mane Purr out your ancient name.

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Lost in the darkness, Starving in the night, knowing no ones coming To save me from my plight, still i wait for certain death to find me and take me away no matter how it comes to pass he will miss her on the way but whats the man in tears to do, waiting for his heart to burst she ran away, its nothing new, not for a man who is cursed

Untill We Love Again
With every tear I cry wishing for you in the night watching my heart far apart Missing you from the start Loneliness where it first began until I find you it will never end love and joy brought to my hart wising we would never part my life fall down with every tear I cry wishing never to say goodby wish some day we will meet again and Until that day my love for you never end Loneliness where it first began until I find you it will never end love and joy brought to my hart wising we would never part so I sit and cry and wish I can find you my love and never leave you behind Loneliness where it first began until I find you it will never end love and joy brought to my hart wising we would never part

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Untitled When you are gone so am I. I will not remain behind being groped by burning hands. If you shall return as you say, perhaps you will find me. Just look down the road where teardrops flood the broken promise. The shell you will leave me in may be in pieces but if you are true then your actions will restore me and I will forever be your possession. HA!! What the hell am I saying? There may be truth in lies but what lies here is broken promises. So tell me some more truths and utter your wicked laugh as you watch the pain shatter my pupils and leave behind puddles of broken dreams.

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Heart is heavy Mind is clouded Wishing for it to make sense again One memory One face appears One voice tantalizes my ears One smile that takes my breath away Hoping to have the memory remain One day One week Hoping to turn to months and beyond

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untitled waking in cold sweats again ears still ringing from the scream I try to still my beating chest and convince myself it's just a dream Why does it keep me up at night why do i get such little peace how many times do I have to fall before my life will finally cease I'm tortured now, both night and day cause thru it all my heart is breaking i cannot stop this flow of tears and I cannot stop my hands from shaking what do I do... what do I feel theres nothing there, I'm numb inside i feel like I've been hollowed out all the hours I've just sat and cried I cry for my g-ma, I cry for my father I cry for the anger thats boiling deep down fist shook to the heavens for the turn my lifes taken and for letting me lose the true love that I'd found

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at times when i can’t take it anymore i run to my angel to seek comfort he is like my shield,armor and protector from pain and wickedness in all sort My angel has always been there for me times when i’m hard to understand, bubbly or crazy as i can be you see him there holding my hand making me smile was never a problem healing my heart was always easy the thing i most admire from him is the faith he has in me i guess that’s what angels always do make you feel happy and free, guide,guard,care and love you the way you deserve to be my angel’s quite different from the rest he has his imperfections like many but for me he is still the best ‘coz even in hell he will never leave me but i did something so bad which shattered my angel’s wing and made him so gloomy and sad and countless tears it did bring i regret every stupid thing i cause and i’ll do everything to make him stay ‘coz i’ll be so helpless a

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As the sky has darkened and the lights across town fade. The eyes of the child become heavy and soon they drift off to a deep sleep. And the slumber only made better by the dreams of the smile you have left upon my heart! And the child in which I speak, is the child you've brought out in me!

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Now that we're apart I am just a mind without a heart Thought's go threw me around and around But without you I'm nowhere bound A person can live with just half a mind But with only half a heart Our life's soul is harder to find

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You played me and then tossed me aside like an old rag doll for your own sick enjoyment. You strung me around like i was a fuckin yo-yo. And when i could do your tricks you threw me away like trash. I've been bound and gagged like your voodoo doll that wasn't allowed to speak. I was a guinea pig that was only to be let out for your own amusement. I was your favorite little toy til you got everything you could out of me. Once i had nothing more to offer, you locked me up without any dignity to spare. Til you needed another "pick me up". You have me like a pet on a leash. Forcing me to go whichever way suits you.

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Everynight I look up at the sky and wonder What is going on through your mind do you think of me as i do for you? I dont think I will ever know As time passes I think I have it made The random messages I get light up my day Do you know this? I think you do Good friends are sure hard to come by Grab hold of the special ones and dont let go Cus one day you jus may never know

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I see her and want her I desire the way she moves Love the scent of breeze through her hair Her eyes flood me I know I'll never have her So many times I've wanted to tell her Her skin as smooth as crystal Her name gives me chills If you see her you'll know She is the shadow on the moon She is the shiver down my spine Please let her see me Please help me make her mine

Untitled And Unknown -_-
I shave my legs, I sit down to pee. And I can justify any shopping spree. Don't go to a barber, but a beauty salon. I can get a massage without a hard-on. I can balance the checkbook, I can pump my own gas. Can talk to my friends about the size of my ass. My beauty's a masterpiece and yes, it takes long. At least I can admit to others when I'm wrong. I don't drive in circles, at any cost. And I don't have a problem admitting I'm lost. I never forget an important date. You just gotta deal with it, I'm usually late. I don't watch movies with lots of gore. Don't need instant replay to remember the score. I won't lose my hair, I don't get jock itch. And just cause I'm assertive, Don't call me a bitch. ! Don't say to your friends, Oh yeah, I can get her. In your dreams, my dear, I can do better! Flowers are okay, But jewelry's best. Look at me you idiot... Not at my chest???? I don't have a problem, With Expressing my feelings. I know when you're lying, You look a

Until The End Of Time
I'M GoiNG To TRY To SPEAK THE WoRDS THAT MY HEART WANTS YoU To KNoW i WANT YoU To SEE WHAT YoU MEAN To ME && WHY i LoVE YoU So. NoBoDY ELSE CAN KNoW MY THoUGHTS && ToUCH MY SoUL LiKE YoU CAN No oNE CAN MELT MY HEART LiKE YoU Do SiMPLY BY HoLDiNG MY HAND. WiTH A LoViNG GLANCE oR A TENDER KiSS YoU MAKE MY CARES DiSAPPEAR WARM THoUGHTS SURRoUND ME && ALWAYS KEEP YoU NEAR. i NEED NoTHiNG MoRE FRoM YoU THAN THiS-- To KNoW THAT YoU'LL ALWAYS BE MiNE && THE PRoMiSE oF YoUR LoVE iN MY LiFE-- UNTiL THE END oF TiME.

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Time is tripped as emotions fly words are spoken in whispered lies heated glances passed through myst.. as passions curse subdues its tryst. long desired yet soon forsaken as greed now tastes what its awaken. shadows haunt the hollow inside for what now is... soon passes in time! ~Candyce~

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Darkness covers us Like a blanket of nature Roses are red Like blood Happiness is an illusion Like magic Love is a fairytale Like Cinderella Life is a dream Like Martin Luther King Jr’s speech

Until~for Jason Aka Craven Moorehead~
Until I never dreamed one smile could fill my world with warmth and light Until your smile made all my days so beautiful and bright. I never realized someone could change my life so much Until you shared your caring ways, your strength, your tender touch. I never thought that love could be this endless, deep and true Until the day I gave my heart and all my love to you.

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I awake in the morning Sun dancing on my face And my first thought is you I look over to the other side of the bed Wishing you were there Do you think of me like I think of you I feel as though we belong together But are so far apart Why can't anything work for us I know one day in life We will come together And I hope it won't be too late But I fear it may be My heart carries you every morning and night As well as my soul....

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Untitled 8/20/08 * * * * * * * * * * * * Your eyes are pregnant with thoughts your mouth wishes to give birth to. The words writhe and grow behind your gaze, and you glow like a new Mother, eagerly anticipating their arrival. Our Friendship is ultrasonic, allowing me an exciting glimpse of whats to come. Secrets, like the white zin we consume, only become more delicious as we wait for the moment to quicken. Just when I think you may have aborted the concept, it tearfully emerges from you in all it's glory. Filled with awe, and thankful you have shared something so important with me, I preen in an Aunt-like fashion as you clean the after-birth from your face with our self-absorbent laughter.

Untitled, 9/3/07
current blog rating: 10 (5) Click a cherry to rate this blog all ratings are anonymous. subject: New Poem post date: 2007-09-03 17:18:17 views: 16 comments: 0 ratings: 0 What cruel tricks love plays on the heart My greatest joys threaten to rend me asunder I stand in the eye of a hurricane Silence is all around me, but never in me Every shred of my being aches Pulse pounding, breath short, vision blurry Exhilaration was a temporary harbor But the sea, she stirs again I wished for the change And so I shall have it Grief keeps my words on my lips The bitter taste of my own guilt bubbling over The bow veers towards the rocks I swallow my dreams to keep them from drowning Come thunder, come rain, come hurricane I am not worthy of the silence with which you had once granted me

Untitled 8/30/07
subject: Untitled 8/30/07 post date: 2007-09-03 17:09:55 views: 10 comments: 1 ratings: 0 I float in a red sea A dead sea Drifting on the waves Ne'er to see the shores Of Love's final destination Package paid-in-full Naught but a scam of the heart And, oh, how I have been taken The Captain has left the ship Aimlessly it turns and turns No moor shall I find No anchor to set down Nor compass to guide me home Free to move about the cabin This vessel is an empty shell I jump the rail Not to drown, but to swim away To another ship or another shore Ahead, a stormy sea is upon the horizon The risk is great as I swim on into the night But the red sea This dead sea Will not be Love's watery grave

Until We Meet But Its Not That Simple
Until we meet My nights will be a little colder My days a little shorter My heart will beat a little less rapid Until we meet I know that my arms will be empty My mind hurting from the constant thought of you Minutes will seem to be hours Hours will seem to be months While months will seem like eternity Until we meet The stars in the sky will not affect me with its gleaming sparkles of life Until I am gazing at them in your arms And the food that I eat will not be as fulfilling and nourishing Until it is you that I share the my food with And Until we meet I will not feel whole My world will seem incomplete Until that wonderful day When our eyes make first contact And our bodies and souls collide in blissful whirlwind The words will roll off my tongue like a sweet love song "Hello, my love, I couldn't wait to meet you."

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Everyday that I spend with you it makes me happy Everytime you come around it puts a xmile on my face But at times I think of how great things are between us and I think it's a ll a dream. I'm afraid of caring too much I'm scared that I'm goona wake up and you won't be around I'm afraid of liking you a lot more than I had planned. But I think I am more afraid of falling in love with you, because I know that it's possible to be in love with you It wouldn't be a bad thing to fall in love but at the same time I'm afraid of getting my heart broken, but I'm gonna take the chances and take it as it comes, hopefully it will be a good outcome for the both of us feel free to comment

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Isolated in his own pity, the young man lays and waits Awaiting his angels arrival, to take the life he hates. People can be so cruel, disregarding others hearts In this case, a love was lost and it tore him into parts He lays there on the floor, with his wrists a bloody discrace He will soon feel no pain, judging by the look on his face He wears a wicked grin, stairing deeply into the sky In just a matter of minutes, he will soon be ready to die His eyes slowly shut and the scene fades to black He is on his way to hevon, never looking back He now stands before the lord, asking to be forgave But his defiance of gods great gifts sent him falling back into his grave He wasn’t greatfull of what he had and dwelled on what he lost Stuck in his own pergatory, sadly was the cost In conclusion, keep your faith, hearts will always mend Doing the lords work and taking your own life, will make hell your only friend