I want to cry
And I don't know why
These feelings inside cant be right
I'm fighting myself to understand
The way I feel when I talk to you
I'm lost inside
Cant find my way
People pass by
Familiar faces
And no-one sees the pain behind my eyes
Nothing bad or dangerous
Just pain at being so confused
Jealousy lashes against my skin
Over things I don't understand
I'm working on nothing
With no map to find my way
I'm missing someone I cant tell
Afraid to lose again
Sometimes I want to be left alone
But in order to thrive I need them
My friends,my family
But no matter how much I talk about him
I'm still lost inside
And all I want is him
To talk to him
Just everything
Yet I don't think it'd ever happen
He may not feel the same
I'm trying so hard to hold the feelings back
To keep from being hurt again
I'm worried about a lot of things
Crawling in the dark
Searching for the light
To lead me the right way
Maybe he can turn it on for me
Or leave me in the darkness
Searching for something that was never there
For now I'll crawl
And hope for something good
Meanwhile fighting the tears
Thou I'm smiling thinking of him
I still feel a need to release
So on this floor I'll lay
Waiting for something
Crying for no reason
Aching to feel whole
In the darkness with my thoughts
I'll wait and think of him
Until that day
When the lights turn on
Showing me the way
