you left me alone when i needed you the most
i hope you can live with yourself
dont try and make yourself feel better by saying i never asked you to stay
i did
and i shouldnt have had to ask
you left me alone on the floor crying in pain
i had surgery because of you and you left me alone
so that you could go drink
when you came home instead of checking on me you took the tv out of my room just so it could sit on the floor in the living room and not get used
then you made me move me stuff out the next day even though i wasn't supposed to because it could hurt me or make me bleed and you got mad at me when i said i had to stop because i started bleeding really bad. you even got pissed when i didnt come to get the rest of my stuff the next day because i had to go to the hospital to get checked out because i was bleeding to much and told me you were going to start throwing my stuff away.you used to be a better person then this. i cant believe how much of a jerk you were and yes i did and said some things that werent very good but you have done so many worse things i cant even begin to tell you how much you hurt me.you threw me against a wall when i was pregnant and you threw a tv at me. everywhere i go i see you.i have memories of all the things we used to do and i cant make it stop and i wish to god i could.at one time you were a very nice man but now your a horrible childish person and i hope that one day you'll be able to stop drinking and be someone with a little bit of honor and dignity. i hope you remember all of this and i hope you never do it to anyone else because it hurts more than you'll ever know. you said you didn't want it to end like this but your the one that made it this way. you push all the people who care about you away. i know i push too and i have since i was a kid i hate letting people get close to me because i don't want to deal with the same shit i dealt with as a kid . its people like you that make me keep pushing. i let you get close to me and you hurt me really bad. maybe i will end up alone and i can live with that.im afraid to try and be with anyone anyways. thank you so much for just making it more clear to me how much people suck.
