Midgit RIP TEDDY J's blog: "events?"

im in bullheaD AND i want to party....rave specifically

i cry in the dark so noone sees the tears you drain from me my heart keeps cracking your lack of love stings with each moment and each let down you take a little of my happiness im drowning in these tears i cry I loved you when no one else would i was there for you when noone else was and when i need you to save me the most your gone

another year another monster and great night of party times im so fucking pumped up cant wait to see you guys there

have you ever found the irony in the word funeral ? i broke down at work today and bawled my eyes out... and made my boss feel really bad.im going to my fourth funeral this year and let me tell you it doesnt get any easier.Do you ever wonder why it is we lose the people that mean the most to us? or why it is that the happy really nice people go first.not to say that anyone deserves to die... except jesse of course but i have my reasons for that.im just sad ive lost a lot of really amazing people this yeari miss them a lot

fuzzy was fucking awesome and totally made up for the shitty time i had at edc because of robert being a douchebag. yay for nice people

i just want to know. i can't go through another detrimental experience.i can't have you be nice and then turn on me, i can't let you hurt me like they have in the past so just leave before you end up changing.

nothing that was supposed to happen did but it was good. Next year im going to treat it how i started to this year im not going to plan on do anything.in fact i think i will just do something by myself.or just lounge around hahahha. to me a birthday is just another day. its not special because all it really means is your one year closer to your death. i don't know about you but celebrating the fact that you were forced out of your moms vagina is also kinda sick. hahah

i told a friend of mine that i wanted to you sky diving and he said i was crazy and that people die doing that. i looked at him and sad id rather die doing something fun than die old and hard.he looked silly and then i said, what? i dont have a thing to lose, so i might as well die young having fun. he was in total shock after i said this...but you know what?... its true

last night i slept in the sand at the beach under some kick ass stars... oh yeah and i kicked ass at glows tick ring toss heehhehe

i saw them last night at bunker... and it was fucking awesome and my friend jenna and i lickd hahah and then i danced the night away.