i had a really good conversation with my boss and she gave me a really good perspective.she told me the story of her and her current boyfriend and how they were together years ago and broke up.During there time apart each of them grew and prayd for each other to become what they needed to be for themselves.after years apart they were able to come back together and make things work.she and her boyfriend are both religious and im not but the way they put it just made sence. they said while they were both praying for each other that god was working and trying to make them what each person needed. Now i don't really agree with the god part but i do agree with the fact that time apart gave them the chance to grow.based on that ive decided that people just aren't ready for a person like me.all the people in the world are just busy growing.Maybe im just too much for people to handle.