CantSleepClownsWillEatMe's blog: "Ramblings"

Well we did have the opportunity to speak a little more on cam and mic tonight. He was stressing on different financial issues, such as he will need another type of insurance for the work he is doing, right now he is paying like 600 euros for the current insurance and it will add an additional 300 euros a month, then he has child support, he is working on getting his license and a car for the business since he works a few hours away. At that time I told him I feel like I am a burden on him, the first thing QUICKLY out of his mouth was WHATS that for BULLSHIT. I told him that he keeps me in food, cigarettes etc. He said he wouldnt do it if he couldnt. He also told me the money he is saving in the jar can be used for my ticket back here to Germany. So that at least tells me what he wants. He asked me about getting an apartment in Spokane, I dont think he realizes just how much that costs. and when I told him I didnt have furniture or anything else, I think he was didnt realize that I had given that all away before my first trip over here. Yes I had high hopes and still do even though its very hard :(