wow he swore hed never hurt me. yet right now i feel like my heart is being shredded into lil pieces. ya know it wouldnt have mattered much if it was him i heard it from...hell at least i would have heard from him. but no i hear from a friend that he went to his wifes house to see the baby...which fine hes spending time with his daughter thats great. but i still havent heard from him and well if hes there hes been there all day. and now his phone is shut off....he tells me not to worry that hes not going anywhere but what the hell am i supposed to think. right now all i can think is hes with her again...i dont want to beleive it i dont want it to be true but my mind and heart are telling me something just isnt right here. why the hell would he be with her all day and not get ahold of me at all. what is he hiding? every time i let a guy in i get hurt im so fucking sick of it. and then men wonder why im a bitch.....
