Happily In Love's blog: "more thoughts"

Never meant to hurt him Didn't want to make him feel the pain But he doesn't understand Why I still hold on to others And now he's not sure Probably thinks he's nothing to me It's just so hard They say you have to hurt one to love one But I don't want to hurt him Yet can't seem to stop loving the other I never meant to hurt him

Sitting alone The tears fall Not wanting to end But I have to hide them Can't show the real pain Nobody would understand So long it's been hid away Can't let it come out now Trying to burry it deeper But it wants to come out So many are willing to listen Yet they know so little And would probably hate me Don't know where to turn Or who to trust So many turn away So many don't really care Sitting here alone I feel as if nobody can help

Trying so hard to let go Not let him hurt me any more But I love him so much Wanting nothing more than to make him happy Yet I don't know how Nothing I do seems right And I can't figure it out What am I doing wrong? I gave him space Tried being there when he needed me But that's the only time I'm good enough When he wants something Than he comes to me Not seeing the pain in my eyes Or feeling the hurt I feel What more can I do? I'm trying so hard!

Laugh it off Not letting the pain through Say what they wanna hear Burrying the truth deep They think they know me Think Im so strong But Im really weak And dying inside Each day that passes Each night I spend alone The hurt seems unreal But I know it is Each time I fake a smile Or say it doesn't bother me It takes a little more of me away Breaking my heart a little more

Fake a smile during the day Not letting them see the pain Letting them think its all fine And nothing gets to me Don't show the tears That fight to fall all day Can't let them see the weakness Or the hurt one can bring Tears at night Fake smiles during the day

Look at me, What is it that you see? A smile of happiness A life full of joy? Well step back And look deeper Its sad what people miss How much they dont want to know They claim to be a friend Think they really know you Yet dont look deep down To see whats really in your heart Nobody sees the pain Hid deep Covered with smiles And fake laughter Nobody sees the tears That fall late at night They simply see a shine You force during the day What makes one think they know me? When will they see? All they know Is what is on the outside

Things have gotten so outta hand. They weren't supposed to end here but now I feel as if I have to make all feelings go away, have to make it seem as if everything I feel isnt real. I dont want to be the reason they end but I dont know as that I can hide it if the feelings continue to be strong. Everything is falling apart and I dont want to see any of it happen. I have been trying to go a different way to make things so much easier but now I dont know what to do or think. I have found myself a hole...one that I cant figure out how to get out of. He says so much yet I just dont know anymore. I feel so lost and so left in the dark to everything. I just want things to go back to how they were. Want it all to go away, dont want the drama or the stress of it all anymore.

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Ok so i just recently joined Soldiers Angels and I realized that not enough of our deployed men and women are getting the love they should recieve from those of us back home. So i was thinking maybe if i could get a few to help me out, we could gather the addys of our fellow fubarians who are serving and send them a letter and/or care package once in a while. it doesnt have to be anything big just something to let them know that there are people around who care and give them a lil bit of home while they are there. Please let me know what you think and any suggestions you may have or even if its something you would be interested in helping with. Thank you!

NAUGHTY APPLICATION" CUT AND PASTE AND REPLY IN A PRIVATE MESSAGE. DONT BE AFRAID. YOU NEVER KNOW WHO WILL REPLY OR WHAT ANSWERS THEY WILL GIVE. LET THE FUN BEGIN......... 1. Your Name: 2. Age: 3. Favorite position ? 4. Do you think I'm hot? 5. Would you have sex with me? 6. lights on or off? 7. Would you have to be drunk? 8. Would you take a shower with me? 9. Have you ever thought about having sex with me? 10. Would you leave after or stay the night? 11. Do you like cuddling afterwards? 12. Condom or skin? 13. Do you give Oral pleasures? 14. Do you like to receive Oral Pleasures? 15. Have sex on the first date? 16. Would you kiss me during sex? 17. Do you think I would be good in bed? 18. Ever had a threesome? 19. Ever used a sex toy? 20. How many times would you like to cum? 21. Would you use me as a booty call? 22. Can I use you as a booty call? 23. Do you like foreplay? 24. What is foreplay to you? 25. Can we take pictures of the act? 26. Would you call me the next day? 27. Will you post this so I can fill it out for you?