Im doing my best to trust him. Tryin to believe the things hes telling me but its so hard. I have this feeling that something just isnt right. Hes changed....a lot and i dont know why. I didnt think I did anything wrong but maybe I did. All I know is I cant take much more of this. Its tearin me apart inside. Our ex's sure as hell arent making it any easier and I dont want to let go of him but Im sick of being so paranoid all the time with no way of really shutting it out. When we are together I believe its just me, that Im his only one but then something comes up and all that paranioa comes back...100 times stronger. I act happy around everyone cuz I dont want them to know Im really falling apart. Just incase it is just me over reacting I dont want them to hate him or think he did something wrong. Hes never really gave me a reason to doubt him but lately things just havent seemed the same. I really dont understand any of it and its not something I can really talk to him about when we are together in person and cuz of work its hard for us to get that time. All I want is to be his girl, his one and only. He made me feel special all the time when we first got together. Now I feel it when we are together...sometimes. I just dont know what to do anymore. Im so sick of doubting everything in my life.
