i just dont understand this shit anymore. i mean things were going great. maybe my mind has been working overtime and nothing is wrong at all but it defintiely seems like things arent the same. not since we got into it yesterday. its like i barely here from him and when i do it takes forever for him to respond...i mean like hours. i just dont understand it. how come everytime shit is going good for me something seems to happen and fuck it up. i know he tells me not to think like this but its so hard when ive been down this road so many times. im tryin to trust him and believe him but its so hard. i dont want to get hurt again but i am afraid thats exactly what is going to happen. and i know he can do that cuz well ive let myself fall for him. damn i just dont understand this shit anymore
