CantSleepClownsWillEatMe's blog: "Back in the States"

Well tomorrow is 4 weeks since back in the states. I stopped counting the days and went to weeks, it makes it seem a little bit shorter. I did find a job, not the best job in the world but one that semi keeps me busy and keeps me sane from my own mind. What I mean by that is that I am a serious "thinker" I will analyze and pick everything apart and sometimes make a mole hill out of an ant hill. I am still missing my boyfriend like mad. Although we are able to see one another on cam, it just is not the same as being able to reach out and touch him. I think I am missing his touch and his looking at me as if I am really someone special. He still gives me the look on cam but it is so much more powerful when we are together. I remember when I was in Germany he told me that we are one, we pull together on the same string. Right now I feel that string is really stretched out, oceans apart...yet I do also know somewhere in that string is elastic and we will bounce back and bind even harder then we were. It is going to be so amazing being able to rediscover every about him from his thought down to his body. I still have about 8 1/2 more weeks till I can return to Germany. Now since I have been back I have also stayed with my sister, renting her couch...I do totally need to talk to her because I am not working 40 hours a week and need the so called rent lowered, because I want to be putting money away for Germany.