I hate this feeling of not knowing whats going on or what I should do. He acts like he really does want me when we are together tells me he loves me all the time but then he ignores me....Something just doesnt feel right. Maybe Im just paranoid but I dont know anymore. Usually when I get this feling something isnt right and I end up bing the one to get hurt. I dont want anyone home to know whats going on because they all like him and if Im wrong then I dont want them to be mad at him. But its so hard to hide the hurt that Im feeling. He swears Im his only girl but then his best friend acts like hes her man and his ex just randomly showed up a the new place only a day after he moved it making me wonder how the hell did she know where he was living. I just dont know what to do anymore.....I feel lost and alone, like nothing matters anymore. Almost as if hes tearing my heart in shreds without even knowing it...
