I love him so much but I just dont know as that I can keep this up anymore. Every time I turn around hes sayin he cant come over for some reason or another. Yet he tells me he wants to see me and be wih me. How do I believe it when he doesnt really show it? I dont want to let him go because I honestly love him with everything I have. He's honestly replaced the one person I thought nobody would ever come close to in my heart and that scares the shit outta me cuz I dont want to get hurt again. I was hurt enough in the past and I know exactly how much he could hurt me without really trying. He's always telling me he would never hurt me and that Im supposed to tell him if he ever does but I just cant do that. I dont know how to tell him that his stubborn stupid ass is breakin my heart a lil more every day. I dont want him to think I dont understand but I'm startin to wonder if Im not understanding what I want and not whats really going. I think I have cried more this week than have since I lost the last one who I truely loved....which was almost a year ago, well actually it was over a year. Just once again I sit here lost in heartach not knowing what to do
