Not Tellin McLovely Ladybug's blog: "I may have lost my mind."

The funeral and viewings were horrible, I can't even believe how many tears were shed.

He was such a good man.

So many of my friends are broken..I am not sure how to fix them.

Last night I went ut with 3 of the first to respond to the call...they are shells of their former selves...

I felt better knowing I could be there for them in some small manner...but I wish I could do more for my friends

My graduating class is having a small fund raiser for Derek's family saturday...

I have never wanted to go back in time so badly...

*sigh*

How do I fix my friends? Hell, how do I fix myself? I have never lost someone in such a violent way, much less someone my age :(