it fucking sucks the day can be going well and then suddenly turn to shit just by one little thing happening ..i try not to let shit get to me but i do i hold everything in and then small things set me off . drake wanted to see me before he left and i was pissed at him from earlier but i walked to the store and met him in the parking lot i sat in the car with him and he told me what happened and i started crying i really hate letting people see me cry especially guys it makes me feel like such an ass. he begged me not to be mad at him but i couldnt help it i told him why i was mad and i started crying and i looked away i dont know if he noticed . he asked if i wanted a ride home and i said no i felt like walking its warm out right now and windy so i walked home on the walk i felt like it was last time i would ever see him maybe .. its the end of a good friendship i have a headache now i think from being so tense all day from the situation .. i need to get out of california its not good for me here .. not to say that i wont ecounter the same things elsewhere its just i think change would be good .. what ever i guess ill deal with it until i can get out of here end up where i end up
