do you ever get the feeling that life is just going to be one big dissapointment ?i used to be so optimistic ... about people, about life , about everything. but over the years ive been let down so many times.all i see now is failure and deceit. i wish i could go back in time and be the silly happy little hippie chick i used to be. i had so much potential. so much love to give and so many smiles to share.i welcomed people with open arms. not that i don't know.it's just that the way i think now is how is this person going to screw me over in the future.i try to accept things and people for who they are but time and time again i get dissapointed. i know know i didnt turn out the way my parents wanted me too and for that im dissapointed in my self. i wish i could be what they want and i wish that other people could fulfill there parents hopes and dreams as well but im tired.blah! i just wish things were differnt
