CantSleepClownsWillEatMe's blog: "Broken"

I need to shake this funk BADLY! Was so close to walking away from fu and NO this is not a cry for attention, this blog is set to family only. I feel broken, like I can't be fixed. I know that doesn't make a lot of sense but to me it does. I feel like I am totally spiraling, my phone will be off this weekend, the snow that is coming down sucks, I am afraid to tell new people all about me for fear they will judge me. It's all hitting me tonight in a big way. My wrist feels like its getting worse, yesterday, the pain was going up to my elbow. Today when I was cleaning squeezing the trigger on bottles hurt. I so badly want to be out of my mom's and back on my own, yet I am scared there as well. I honestly don't know what I am doing anymore, but the one thing I know are these damn tears need to stop. I should hear from the medical clinic by Wednesday or so to see if I get the medical approved for at least the electrode test with the neurologist. GOD!! //end rant