Midgit RIP TEDDY J's blog: "sleep?"

Torn from the heavens, they fall from the sky And walk the streets among mortal men They hide in shadows, keepers of the night Mortal life is weak, can't hold back the demons The blood pours as rain And soon you'll be alone Descending Angel woohoh Descending Angel Stand by my side Woohoh Descending Angel We'll face the night Descending Angel Guard the gates of Hell just one more night For in the morning... will bring the light Born and created in the image of a God Fall from the heavens Descend from the sky No one to guide us, alone we face the night Mortal life is brief for the rebel angels They make their final stand And soon you'll be alone Descending Angel woohoh Descending Angel Stand by my side Woohoh Descending Angel And face the night Descending Angel Guard the gates of Hell just one more night Descending Angellllllllllllllllll!

ii hate this shit i wish earls was till open 24/7 it sucks i dont have place to go anymore i remember when we all used to hang ther jonnie ryan and everyone else fun times... before swenie moved to ireland that prick why did he get to leave before me .... fuck this music time later people

i waswalking down the street alone at night like i used to do when i was younger wow i was ballsy i went into this place an it was crackdonalds it was closed noone was there so i go to the kichen and open the freezer there are chicken nuggets and pies and sauces and stuff a new sauce llike cinnamon and some other shitand i reach for the nggets and a guy walks isn so i leave and i endup at home i guess and tonicia is there and this guy i guess he was my bf this pic i saw of tonicia was so strange she was naked her nipples had been pierced but she didnt have jewelry in she had a pink ribbon running through the holes and this guy with scraggly hair was nextt to her i fucking laughed my ass of and then we weree all getting ready for bed and come to think of it they didnt even do anything i was freaking out we were all gonna sleep inthe same bed and i freaked i started crying and i went outside but naked in my sheet i was gonna go lay in th grass and look at the stars but he came and asked me what was wrong and i asked him why he didnt want to be with me and he said he did and to go back into the house and go to sleep and he went in the other room and got pillows and blankets and he putt her on the floor i cried again cause i thought he was gonna lay with her but instead he came and layed with with me and we were naughty... what the fuck .. i rarley remember my dreams anymore and the ones ive been remembering latly have been really fucking wierd

i had a dream ..i came home and i looked in my my rear view mirror and there he was by the big rockin the grass in the yard. he took my breath away i told him i was going inside to get changed and walked away searching mmy closet for something but all the clothes were different they were not mine .i heard footsteps hes comeing for me .he grabbed my hair and put one arm around my tummy as he bit my neck before turning me around and when he did it was like we hadnt sseen each other in forever we hugged for a minute this tight never let you go hug ..it was nice and then my alaarm went off hahahaha

its times like these when i feel like shit and im all alone that i really wish you were here like when we were kids and wed take care of each otherwhen id cry youd cry because ypou felt bad or youd cry and cry .hopping the fence to come sleep next to you late at night waking up to you holding me tight..you were my best friend . i wish i knew where you were i miss you man i think about you a lot.we were soo little and we shared so many things bdays and presents and young kisses loland even burning my ass on the slide at palace park ony your 5th bday lol remember riding inmy barbie lambergini?hahah well where ever the fuck you are alex ill always love you man

so ii had this dream last night i was walking down dark hallways with beautiful women into this area with all these dresses gold green silver white cream all fuckign just amazing i put a couple opn and then they handed me onto where then i walked away i was outside now at this party with a bunch of guys with engluish accents music playd and i was dancing around and someone asked me aquestion and i answered and they all laughed andthen it was like i had slept or blacked out and when i came to people weree playing games and there was this list with everyones name on it and money they had won or earnd and i didn see mine on there and i looked and mine was at the top my name was midgit love lol or thats what they were calling me and i made 18,000 hioly shit thats a llot of money i wenmt to see what they were doing playing a game in a tent running around laughing i go and everyone yells midgit love how are you give us a hug love lol it was so crazy i gave one guy a hug and a kiss it was wild ..lol i wish it was like that.. a fucking party all the time ..with that glorious d and b music omg id be happy for the rest of nmy life just fucking dancing in my fucking head

theres a rave saterday night suinder needs a ride and said hed pay for half my ticket if id take him so... ireally wanna go ..i hope i feel well enough to go

gelotto ? however the fuck its pelled omg ryan took me to aplace and i had some it was so yummy i wanna learn how to make it heheheh yea i know im a freak with a sweet tooth lol

life.. is it meant to be this way forever .. we become friends and bond and all these wonderful things happen but when they end do we ever really recover ...loss .. a falling out or maybe just dissapation ..is that a word it makes sence ...we experience it always or at least i have ...am i looking at it wrong .. we become friends ...part of families and eventually people die .. or move on to a different stand on things they once beleived ever changing ... taking on the evolution.. that is life ..i understand i just dont know if it will ever feel like i will recover mentally from it all ... this sounds like im crazy yes ?not to say that anyone is truly sane its just that .. i think about these losses often ... obviously gaining new companionship ..but still with happiness gained there is never full releif of things lost.going back to paradise kiss George and Caroline they were so raawr and then just shut lol or .. i guess it really is just part of growing ... and dieing ..after all when living things take there first glimpse of life they begin there journy to die

i talked to my friend ryan about going to a show last night and i fell zasleep and had a dream that i was performing heheh it wasso fun i miss it sooo much and my friend percy want me tyo come work with her in hollywood as some fucking naughty chick at the place she works heheheh i must say im very temted it sounds fun.ive been thinking about naughty ); i havent felt good becauseof my ear so no naughty for me.in my dream i also went through this area of peope who wouldnt except outsiders how crazy like 20 different groups. and i ended up at this store mostly girly shit like fuxxy pink books and then i came to this section where they had really pretty dresses and toy guns so i took my pants off and got 2 guns and put the gun belt on it was fucking awsome and then my friend i was with played with them and i tried on a couplre dresses with my boots hahah yea tankgirlesk i guess hahah it was strange... im horny