I have been asked by people, freinds and acquaintances alike as to what do I want. I thought about this today as some of my recent actions has me asking myself exactlly what do I want. I ended up writting this 3 page thought while I waited to go in to work today. Here it goes..
I want someone who completes me. Tom Cruise said it best on Jerry MCGuire. I don't need a Man I want a Man. I want someone to share my life with. I want a Man who is a Man. I want to be able to share my thoughts with someone, someone that supports, encourages and challenges me. I've lived a majority of my life as a Single adult dues to past failed relationships and heartbreaks. Relationships scare the hell out of me. I fear losing who I am now and becoming the person I fought so hard to overcome. I am independent, stubborn, strong, outspoken and a pain in the ass. I am also a workaholic. You know it is sad when your employees tell you that you need a man to keep you from working too much. I want someone who will help me find the balance of work and me time. Someone who will take a hold of my hand, tug on it and say "Hey, enough is enough!"
I seek companionship. I want to be able to call you just to hear your voice when things just aren't going right that day. Or to see you and have you put your arms around me and hold me for just amoment and shield me from the world. I want to be vulnerable from time to time and know it will be ok.
I have a lot to offer someone who is willing o chisel away at many walls that surround my heart and soul. I am not looking to get married. If it happens, great. If not, that is great too! It means more to me just to know someone is there than a piece of paper that ties 2 people together legally. Not looking to start another family. I have already raised one child and do not wish to start over again.
I don't wish to be your entire world, just a major part of it. I want a 50/50 relationship. Where we both give and take equally and not one more than the other. I want to be your lover, your friend, your slut, your piece of mind, your sounding board, your partner in crime. I would like you to be the same. I want you to be you and me to be me. I am multi faceted. I can be good and I can be bad. I am not perfect. I don't want to be molded, I want to be taken as is. Don't try to make me in to something I am not. Just accept me for who I am and if I change, then it will be because I want to and not because you make me. I want passionate kisses. The ones that you can feel the want and longing.
I want someone that won't run at the sight of trouble. I want someone who will hang on during those bumpy moments and see it through to the end. I want someone who has their own mind and isn't easily swayed by the opinion of others and decides things for themselves. I want a comedian a romantic someone who does random acts of kindness, someone who has strong morals and family values.
When I fall, I fall hard, unfortunately, there are no in betweens for me. This is why I have sheilded myself for so long. I am blunt and outspoken. Been told I am demanding I like to know where I stand. I want someone who won't beat around the bush and gets to the point. Don't drop me hints or clues, just tell me what's up because I may not always catch on.
Tell me you want me, tell me you'll wait, tell me you are here to see things through and where it will lead and mean it. Too many people are only in it for the moment of the here and now. I've been there too. I no longer want the here and now, it isn't as satisfying in the long run.
I am a simple woman with simple wants and desires. Something done out of thoughtfullness goes a long way with me.
Are you man enough for me? Can you handle whatever obstacle I may throw your way? Because believe me, I am my own worst enemy. If I for even one second think that someone may actually be in to me on something other than a physical level, I run and hide and tend to sabotage it. I will give you the world if you can break through. i wear many masks, can you find me?
There is so much more to me. If you want to know more, just ask me..
You must know what role you wish to play in my life as I treat each one differently. You either want all of me or part of me..
