So I am sitting here thinking of the potential relationships I coulda had recently. The sappy songs playing prolly ain't helping. I've always said I am a hard person to deal with. I haven't always been this way. I guess from past failed relationships and years of living my life around work, my kid and putting any type of a personal life on the way back burner, I have become the way I am.
I have become extremely demanding and impatient in my personal life. For some stupid reason I seem to want to define things or know exactlly what is going on. I hate the whole waiting thing where you gotta wait for the other person to figure things out. I've also said I am my own worst enemy when it comes to potential relationships.
I don't know what else to say. My mind is full of rambling thoughts and I wish to type and type on and on, but some stuff in my head just pisses me off. I guess that's the controlling part of me, I hate not being in complete control of my emotions. I hate that someone can actually effect that stupid chemical in my brain that turns me in to mush. However, when it is reciprocated, it is the most wonderful feeling. I guess that's a catch 22 huh?
Oh well.. here goes another day almost gone..
