Well, since it is a crappy morning, thus far, I guess I can blog for awhile. I need about 4,500 points to level up, once again. So I am biding my time and waiting for happy hours, so that my efforts won't seem so ONE POINT AT A TIME useless.
Please, don't get the wrong idea. I am not looking to be one of those folks who has a zillion points and is a Fu-Godthing... I only want to make it to level 20 because the whole "highlighted name" thing appeals to me for some odd reason. Level 20 is the goal I set for myself, and it what I am concerned with achieving. After that I won't care, and will just take points as they come, instead of spending hours getting them.
I made what I think will probably prove to be a poor decision, a couple of days ago, by letting a few Fu friends get added to my Myspace profile. It's not that I have anything to hide. But there is a difference in how I interact with each sight.
Fubar is where I came to escape much of the drama of my everyday life.
Myspace is where most of the people involved in my day to day drama, happen to be.
Makes for a totally different dynamic. Imagine the difference between a party that is hopping, and one that is woefully dead. Fubar is the HOPPING party for me. I don't let most of my negative feelings show up here.
Myspace, on the other hand, being the last real link between my ex, her social circle, and myself, is a place that rarely sees me say anything positive at all.
Besides, with friends, there, I can discuss issues about my battle with depression, and PTSD, without worrying about judgment.
Here I am not so sure. Here I am already a stranger to everybody. A stranger with "problems" is more than the average person would keep an open ear to, if that makes sense.
Oh well, the cats out of the bag. And it's no real biggie. If my little Fu world falls apart, I do have a real life to involve myself in, even if I have been somewhat escapist as of late. It's not a bad life, for the most part, and I could easily get wrapped up in it and forget either FU or Myspace exist... Even both.
That's enough rambling for now. Time to drive to the store and get some smokes...
