i wasn't sure what blog to put this entry under. so if it should be the other one, let me know. here we go!
i have become a spoiled child. i have learned as the middle daughter of my only mother that i must beg for attention. it is not a good thing. it's rather annoying to my friends and colleagues. i'm sure it annoys my family and those who are too close to me to say so as well. heck i even annoy myself.
i'm loud, rambunctious, and whiny. some days, it's all about me! i am the center of attention no matter what. i know we all have days like that but really, i have too many days like that - quit denying it. i'm not going to stop being your friend because you acknowledge the truth of the matter.
i have always accepted this as a part of who i am. as i'm writing this though, i am realizing that this is a part of what i lack. i lack the grace and decency to sit back and be in the shadows. my demands for attention and admiration must be met but they are not needs. they are simply tantrums of a child.
wow, what a revelation.
back to the subject of this blog! this spoiled child has tried to insist on being a slave. i will not rest until i am the perfect slave and everyone better just realize. in being the perfect slave, i deserve to get all that i want and more. and i should not have to wait for it.
please tell me that this does not sound right to you either lmao.
i'm spoiled. spoiled means that it has overgrown with bacteria, viruses, or mold of some kind and is past its usefulness. fortunately being a spoiled human instead of spoiled food, this can be reversed. hopefully without too much trauma i can still have a chance to be a well behaved respectable adult instead of an overgrown child.
yeah, self burn lol enjoy it while it lasts :D
so, this now becomes a goal that with my Master's and friend's help i would like to achieve. this and the whole snake thing. :P i am a princess but i want to be a good princess not mud.
now you see why i don't know which blog to put this under
