What do you want? Really truly deeply what do you desire? If you examine this question i guarantee you will surprise yourself.
i'm not referring to the simple little things that would be nice for the moment. Like threesomes, there are some things that you experience and the desire is gone. You simply want to experience the moment, not retain it as a lifestyle change. These are not deep seated desires, they are just flippant thoughts of grandure.
i have recently been confronted with the decision of what i want. This has led to some deep thinking and consideration because of my princess nature and slave nature. They conflict in many ways and therefore, i thought I had to choose which i desire i wanted more.
Yes there are some desires that will conflict with each other. They are constant needs of change in our lives. Like a switch. While they desire to be dominated, they also desire to be dominating. It is not a fleeting wish; it is a constant change that occurs in their lives. Sometimes these desires can coexist as they do in a switch. Sometimes one of these desires must overcome the other.
In my case, my princess nature and slave nature coexist. My princess nature is what leads me to want the beautiful adorable dressed up prim and proper lady to come out and be noticed and cherished. My slave nature desires nothing more than to serve my Master in any way that i can. In this fashion, the two desires can coexist under only one condition – the Master i serve wishes me to be a princess because he himself is a Prince. There is still conflict remaining in the fact that a princess is in possession of servants and followers. The slave would be the lowest of the people, not the highest.
Wonderfully under the care of a good Master, both sides can come to an agreement. Let me become the respectable, cherished, honored slaveprincess that i was born to be. Let me learn to respect those who wish to serve me and adore the Prince who gives me all that I need and desire. Let me be slave to a crown and the Man who gave it to me. This is what i desire most of all.
