i have an interview on monday for the little store near the freeway which is good. i hope i get the job, i need money badly. i want to start making my car payments, and save up for an apartment. i hate having to live with others and not being able to just be independant. ok so i dont want to live alone, but i want to live with one person that i love and be able to control my own life.
i've talked to rochelle on the phone a few times, her voice is so familiar like i already knew her. i think perhaps i dreamt of it. i also watched a show that was a new episode yet i could have sworn i saw it a year ago. i always see shows and movies and swear id already seen it when i couldnt have. i dream of so many weird things and then they happen.
rochelle just textd me so i think she's gonna call which would be good. i recorded some music today which i havent done in a long time. i wish i could see her and know what this is, i don't want to hurt her and find i still love ravyn, well ill always love her, but i donno. sometimes i want to say "i love you" but i don't know if i do, so i don't say it because i don't want to lie. lost my train of thoughts so guess im done for now, but hopefully things are looking up.
