As many of you all know, Tuesday I will be moving into a transitional community living type of place. I won't be allowed to have my laptop there, so my time on here will be minimal. I will be letting someone control my account while I am not on, so if you shout or send a message and are not answered, don't be alarmed.
I am scared to death of this change that is going to become. I keep asking myself, what if these women don't like me? I have isolated myself so long that I am scared to jump into the communtiy type living. I am also hoping and praying that this is going to be what I need to get a jump start to get back on my feet and back to normal.
They have suggested that I apply for a temporary state grant to take care of my depression and to get help with the antidepressants. I am kind of reluctant on that, but I may just have to do it temporarily.
I feel like I am totally diving into this head first, hoping I can hold my breath long enough till I can swim properly or with the assistance of a raft. Ya, I know what a way to compare it, but its really the only thing I can think of as a way to describe what I am feeling.
I love you all!