Angel In Chains's blog: "My Dad"

Thank you to everyone for your thoughts, prayers and words of support. As I sat here reading this, I thanked God for each and everyone of you.

As of last nite when we left, my dad was still strong and holding his own. The doctor said that they are doing they're best to keep him comfortable. During the time we were up there, he was clear for only about a half hour.

Last nite was a revelation for me in a lot of ways. And the most shocking one was, that I am unable to trust the woman who has married him only recently. I'm alone in a sea of confusion. In the middle of two women warring over a man who will soon be gone.

And all my kids and I are wanting is to spend time with him before he is gone. Peaceful time to talk, let him know how much we love him, trying to encourage him. 

And I am sitting here right now, not knowing what to do. Only wanting to see his wishes followed thru. And finding out in a three hour conversation that he has divulged those wishes to only one person who won't reveal them until after his death.

I don't understand the games people play. I don't know why others want to add to this pain, esp the woman who should only have his best interests at the front of everything, over her own and her kids. I don't know who to believe and it overshadows everything at this point, adding to the stress of what is going on. None of this has a happy ending no matter how many different scenarios my mind is playing out. Each one ends with only one thing. I'm losing my dad. And I don't understand why other people think that money and possessions could be any more important than that.