Angel In Chains's blog: "My Dad"

but it's harder to continue everyday watching someone you care about and knowing they don't feel the same...wanting to be here just to say hi once in a while...knowing you're presence isn't really necessary...and realizing it's time to let go of a dream that will never become reality...maybe because of your own fears...maybe because you're not ready to admit to anyone least of all them how you feel...and i never have and never will...i'm disappearing across to the other side of fubar...cutting my ties with a lot of people who have done nothing but hurt me...taking advantage of my inability to stand up for myself...i've let myself be walked on...used...broken...and it's time to say no more...i made several very close friends this time around on fubar...and losing you will be the hardest...but i won't forget you...i couldn't if i tried...but the pain of losing my dad...combined with all the fake people on this site has taken it's toll...i come here to bury myself in the world of make believe...to get away from the reality of my normal life...i've been called a "drama queen" by people who have no clue what i live with everyday...and when i log in here and put up with the crap some people seem to dish out on a daily basis...it hurts like hell...cuz all i've ever done is try to be a friend...and i've had it thrown back in my face more times than i can count...i'm still here...on another profile...made when i thought of seriously deleting this account before...some of you have found me already...either because i went looking for you...or you figured it out on your own...anyone who says they are my friend and can't find me...well it shows how little you really pay attention to what i do...and most likely you treat your other "friends" the same...just remember...fubar is supposed to be fun...a place for friends...family...and instead it feels like the hell that i'm already living everyday of my life...as always...peace luvs and hugs to you...i'll always be your friend :)