Man, I guess I'm growing up (whatever that means). This weekend has been an eye-opener of sorts. I have a friend (or ex-friend as it may be now) who is getting married, probably for all the wrong reasons. And it has put our friendship in a weird position. It's a long story, but the long and short of it is now that we can't be the type of friends we thought we were.
All I know is that there was a basically naked woman in front of me a few hours ago, and I actually turned her down. Now if you knew me or my nature, you would know that turning down definate pussy is just mission impossible for me. LOL. But I did, and I haven't been laid in MONTHS, which probably makes the situation more amazing. Even as friends, we had our "more than" moments. But it came to a head tonight, and I made a firm decision.
And the thing about it, I don't feel guilty or bad about it, and I really feel I made the right decision. I might be the biggest asshole in the world to her right now, but in my heart, I am the bigger person. I could have taken advantage of the situation for my own selfish reasons. And trust me, I am a very sensual person. And I'm single, but this is deeper than a romp in the sack.
Man, am I maturing? Shit I hope not. LOL. Anyways, I feel like I'm in some other world right now, because it just feels like this night didn't happen. Man, my head is just swirling. Maybe I just need to leave home and get back on the road. I don't think I belong here anymore. LOL.
Oh well, I'm just rambling. Don't mind me.
