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What are you waiting for?
you begin to wonder why the hell you keep trying...When a friend betrays your trust...Then tells you they didn't...You don't know who to believe anymore...You finally realize there's no one in the world you can trust but yourself...Blind faith in a human being brings nothing but heartache...You listen to their problems...You share their pain...You laugh with them when they are happy...You keep their secrets...Then in a split second all that is thrown away when you discover they didn't have the same respect for you...
My heart is full of more shared confidences than I can count...And in my heart they stay...Even when someone betrays my trust...Still I keep those secrets buried...In the darkness where they belong...So why is it that I have not found anyone that can do the same for me?
I open my soul to the people who say I can trust them...I let them into to my chaotic mixed up mind...And then become the topic for an afternoon discussion...So why the hell do I continue to care for the very people who make me feel the way I do now? Like a total fool...Someone who doesn't even count in a world full of users and abusers...
I don't play the games that some people know how to play so well...I don't know how to lie...I don't know how to pretend to be someone else...I'm just me...And I'm finally ready to admit that being a truthful, caring, and loving to person isn't important...When someone only wants you around when there's no one better...When you're the last one they look up...When your their last choice...The only important thing is finally realizing that you really don't matter at all...
