I have been getting a great deal of stupidity on here lately from people who just show up out of nowhere and expect me to be something that I am not and chances are will never be. So, here I go once again I will try to give you all a glimpse into who I am and what I am really like, trust me those who actually know me well can attest to the fact that this is who I really am all the time I do not put on some show online for people. So, here are some more useless facts about me, please try to follow along and not ask these things anymore.
~ My name is Jessica, people call me Jessie and Jess for the most part but honestly I don’t care one way or another what you call me
~ I am almost 30 years old, August 17th I will be 30 though I feel about 75 on most days
~ I really am a nice person in general it just takes some effort to get to know me well enough to find that part of me
~ When I get angry I get very angry and at times violent though I try to keep that at a minimum now-a-days
~ I refuse to hold onto anger anymore because I have enough negativity in my life that I really don’t want to add more to it
~ I took my job as an EMT because I am not affected by the sight or sound of the things that I run across . . . I can handle any situation that arises without panicking . . . It honestly wasn’t to help people that just turns out to be one of the things that come with the job
~ I am happy in the town I live in due to the simple fact that no matter where I go it will be the same just with different faces . . . I have friends here who care about me so I may as well just stay here . . . Though that doesn’t mean that I will never leave, it will just take a very good reason
~ I love my friends, my true friends, and there is not too much I would not do for most of them
~ I have a 12 year old son that will soon be 13 and really have no desire to have any more children, I am content with other people’s children visiting and then leaving when they get on my nerves
~ My mind never stops, it races constantly even in my sleep and the thoughts are not always pretty and you usually do not want to know them
~ I do not sleep very often I have Bipolar Disorder and it affects my sleep patterns . . . I do not have enough dopamine produced in my brain to slow it down and allow my body to relax . . . So I am lucky to get 4 hours of sleep at one time
~ Due to this lack of sleep I am always ALWAYS tired
~ I am not a girly type girl, though I do like some girly things
~ I never owned anything pink until a little over a year ago and now pink doesn’t bother me as much, I find it to be quite flattering with black
~ Up until about 4 years ago I never carried a purse, if things did not fit into my pockets then I did not need to have them with me
~ I stopped smoking 4 years ago and have no real desire to start again, though I do not care if others smoke
~ I love thunderstorms
~ I like to dance in the rain
~ I like to take long walks
~ I probably read too much
~ I obsess over things way too easily
~ I fantasize about things I shouldn’t and sometimes people I shouldn’t
~ I write to clear my mind, I can write about anything
~ I want happiness in my life the same as everyone else does, just am not so sure that I will ever find it
~ I hate being lied to and can’t forgive people who do
~ I am afraid of cows
~ I am afraid of never finding someone to love me for who I am
~ I will probably never want to get married though I do want someone to come home to at night
~ I like to talk to people who can speak intellectually and can understand my sarcasm
~ I am a very sexual person and people often mistake that for something other than what it is - it is just my personality nothing more
~ I speak what is on my mind and if I tell you something it means that I believe what I am saying (LowRider said it best once when he told me that he knows that I write about things that I am passionate about - the same is true for the things I say)
~ If I tell you I like you it is due to the fact that I really do like you but doesn’t mean that I want to fuck you, doesn’t mean that I am planning some future with you, doesn’t mean anything except that I like you - unless I tell you otherwise
~ There is a man I want to be with in my life right now but am almost sure it may not ever happen, but that is how life goes right?
~ I believe that what is meant to happen will happen and if it doesn’t then it obviously wasn’t meant to be
Ok so this some things as I am sure you all know there are many many more things I could list . . . And may very well do later.
