So... today was refreshing, if not confusing.
I started the day off having a vivid sexual dream about a girl I've known, and consider a closer personal confidant for quite some time.
She's the coolest. I'm hard pressed to find something annoying or bad about her. Problem... well, there's several, and I'm not getting into them.
She's a girl I've acknowledged as being attracted to, but haven't really allowed myself to be.
Guess my subconcious took charge for me.
And yes, I'm being intentionally vague, try not to wig out if you think it's you. I'd tell you if it was, don't be shy, its not a big fucking deal.
We can't control what foods we're allergic to, we can't control who we boff in our dreams.
No matter
HOW
enjoyable it was.
Hehehehe.
Anyway, the bottom line is, she's exactly what I need in my life right now, I'm wondering.. if maybe I can tell her without having this be weird, or hampering to our current situation, which really I don't want to sacrifice, it means the world to me to have this woman as my friend. I hope not, she's generally been a more mature person than that. I do rely on this woman for quite a bit of support, whether she would know that or not- even if its something silly or the occasional gripe, or just a good talk. I'm worried that maybe this experience, this unlock my subconcious tried to blindside me with, is going to screw things up. But if she's the ideal friend I think of her as, she wouldn't let it
right?
...right?
