well here is my most recent story......
On Feb 3rd 2007 I found out i was pregnant.... Woo Hoo i was the happiest person around life was great... sure my bf and i had just split up but it was ok I love kids and wanted another one... My only fear was that I would either miscarry like I did in Oct of 2000 or lose my infant child like i did in 2004... ( yes i do have a 4 year old boy who is my life)...
I woke up suddenly at approx 2am i reallt was not feeling well and new some thing was wrong... As it had it I was right today on Valentines day of all days my fear came true i had another miscaridge.... I keep thinking that i should be the one who is no longer around but at he same time if i go my son is left without a mom... my only thing is how does one keep going after losing three kids.... Life is just not fair and sucks.... My life is so turned up side down right now... The only thing that is keeping around right now is the fact that i do have a 4 year old little boy who is my life at this moment...
If you want to post this on your blog it will be great.... sorry for this msg i just needed to write it somewhere and your page seemed like the right place...
Thank you for listening... Angel_Tears
I lend you for a time a child of mine," he said, for you to love while she lives and mourn when she is dead."it maybe six or seven years, or twenty two or three, but will you till i call her back, take care of her for me?
she'll bring her charms to gladden you and should her stay be brief, you'll have hey lively memories as solace for your grief
I can not promise she will stay , since all from earth return but there are lessons taught down there i want this child to learn
I looked this wide world over in my search for teachers true and from the things that crowd lifes lanes I have selected you
Now , will you give her all your love nor think the labor vain, nor hate me when i call to take her back again..
I fancy that I heard them say " dear lord, thy will be done. For all the joy they child shall bring the risk of grief will run
we'll shelter her with tenderness, we'll love her while we may and for happiness we've known will ever grateful stay but shall the angles call for her much sooner then we planned we'll brave the utter grief
that come and try to understand
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