I missed our baby so on that day and cried wishing that I was still going to be holding our baby at the end of the day. I decided on what was to be my due date that it had to be a "be nice to mommy day" so that I could effectively grieve and remember AND celebrate that my child ever was and now is in heaven. I went and treated myself to a $50 facial so that I could talk and relax. I then took my 2 earth babies out to dinner. All in all it was a good day though it was sad. I can easily say that I cried about 3-4 times all in that day. I KNOW that I will never forget the day and I am thinking that I will be making it a yearly ritual to go out and do something nice for myself on that day. Thanks to all of you that have been reading what I write here. It sometimes makes it seem a little less lonely.
