CantSleepClownsWillEatMe's blog: "Mushy"

Tonight for some reason I am feeling extremely mushy. By mushy I am meaning in that romantic mood, the kind that warms you up and gives you butterflies in your stomach. I am missing Rudi more then anything right now. I know that I do talk to him everyday, yet everyday just doesn't seem to be enough. I remember first writing when I first came back to the states from Germany, I was a mess missing him. Now I am a bit more on the positive side, but still missing him. In my mind it is like playing constant re-runs to all the little things he did, all the little things that made my heart grow so fond. I have never in my life had someone so romantic and caring, I was always going after the bad boys, well in the long run I learned that the bad boys are the ones that cause a lot of pain. This time I have an equal, not someone that looks down on me, but someone that actual states equality on the relationship, and that is on a friendship level as well as the romantic level. But ok I am sitting here babbling again! Hope everyone that is reading is having a great night!