((This is something I wrote a while back..but wanted to share anyway. ))
When one has a life where things don't seem to matter anymore - should they just say hell with it and give... accepting that nothing they do or say will matter at all anyway?
And when it comes to 'love' within that life...
the love of friendship.. of that there's no doubt.. but when 'love of the soul' is no longer there... does it really matter anymore?
Does love matter anymore if it's just something that causes pain?
and when love no longer matters.. should life then matter at all?
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Many thougts now go through my head - from something I read that a dear friends wrote...
They said - "Love - it's the choice we ever get no choice in."
Indeed such is true - for we can't help who we love.. it just happens.
Whether it's planned or it caught you completely off guard.
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I've come to wonder as well if the word 'love' really means anything now-a-days when it's told to someone.
That the words 'I Love You' seem more then not to be used for ones personal gain.. thus taking the treasured meaning and tossing it away.
LOVE to me is something special- it's not a materialistic thing.. bought and sold... but something that touchs deep within. Something expressed in small ways... NOT FOR GAIN.. but for the pleasure of seeing one smile, of making them feel they matter - of wanting them for WHO they are.. NOT WHAT they have.
Love is something you feel, not just with your mind or your heart.. but deep down within your soul - your inner being where few have ever touched.
~It's the oneness in a smile.. A touch within a glance...~
*sighs*
There are those of us out there who don't USE the words..'I Love You' unless we truly mean them - deep down within - for many times we have been on the wrong end of those words...
SO we don't use them lightly.
When the time is right - - as it's felt so deep within it makes it hard for us to breath... then do we cautiously say them... for indeed they are truly meant.
So... indeed when I say it...
when I say I LOVE YOU... I mean it with all my being!
~Candyce~
