Not Tellin McLovely Ladybug's blog: "I may have lost my mind."

I want to grill some chicken tomorrow...

I was debating wrapping it in foil with some lemon ..does that sound good?

Gimme some low fat low cal ideas fuckers

I know I blogged this question before...but I need assistance again

The weather is breaking and I want to start running outside...I need new songs to keep me moving and motivated

I also need angry music for punching shit and fast paced stuff for cardio.

Help fuckers. Help now.

Oh, I love you all!

I am going to make 39 my bitch, and wear it like a pair of boxing gloves.

I love that I am getting into the best shape of my life. When most people slow down, I am just getting started.

I am not aging, I am merely getting better.

For my birthday I got some of the coolest gifts. I got hand wraps for under my gloves, punching mitts, a speed jump rope, lifting gloves, a bag for my gloves, and a shit load of SMALLER work out wear

My friends and family are amazing :D

Thank you all for the birthday wishes..looking forward to my best year yet

I am going to make 39 my bitch, and wear it like a pair of boxing gloves.

I love that I am getting into the best shape of my life. When most people slow down, I am just getting started.

I am not aging, I am merely getting better.

For my birthday I got some of the coolest gifts. I got hand wraps for under my gloves, punching mitts, a speed jump rope, lifting gloves, a bag for my gloves, and a shit load of SMALLER work out wear

My friends and family are amazing :D

Thank you all for the birthday wishes..looking forward to my best year yet

She says to ask her a...

oh wait

Ask me a question and if I still feel like it I will answer it (h)

hehehe

Ok, for those of you that care...

In regards to the surgery...I changed my mind. Through hard work and diet I have lost 31 pounds..

I think I was seeing a big loss fast as my only option. I have a very different view of the surgery than I did a year ago.

I thought it was my only option, but then I found kick boxing..I am addicted. Plain and simple, addicted.

Once I lost 50 pounds I will take some new pics, so on and so forth.

I want to thank all of you for being so supportive, and I hope you will still support me in this decision too

ps..I hate it when my friends get signifigant others and just stop talking to me..sheesh

Friday I worked...then I went to kick boxing...we do mitt drills, and perfect technique on fridays... I worked my ass off...learned a new elbow

Gosh I love throwing elbows, punching and kicking things :D

Then I went bowling with a few people I graduated with, we had a ball!! Then we went to a local bar and had a few drinks ( I drank water...DD and all that)

Then Saturday I got up, went to kick boxing where we learned yet another elbow!!!! I can beat the shit out of people legit now! Then I came home, took a lil nap and went to my bowling league...had a pretty good night then my family and I went out for a late dinner...

That brings us to today,,

SHUT UP!!

Best day in ages!!

Kick boxing..worked my damn ass off...literally

Then one of my friends in the class (we went to high school together) asked me if I wanted to go to the shooting range with her, her dad, and her sons...so I hesitantly said yes..

FUCK ME!! I LOVE SHOOTING!!

I shot a semi automatic 22, a dual action 22 revolver, and a 9mm glock

I did the best with the glock...

Her dad called me dirty harry

I have never touched a gun before today...and I am officially addicted!

Came home took a lil snooze, then went to dinner and a movie with my bestie...during the movie I look up and see a guy I have known for years on the big screen!! I sent him a text cussin him out for not tellin me :D

Best day ever!

My sister is awesome and surprised me with a gym membership

So on the 2 (class 4 days a week) days I do not have class I work on machines and 6 day a week I do at least two miles on the treadmill.

I am sleeping like a human again! I am too worn out not to sleep

Miss you guys

what's new?

A high school friend passed away today.. I am way too young for this shit.

It reinforces my desire to become healthier...which causes me to be happier (who the fuck knew??)

I went to sit with his widow for a bit...she seems numb :( Then when she had to go to the funeral home, I went to my kick boxing class. I really worked hard... hard enough to need my inhaler ( I almost like when I have to use it...I know I am working hard)

It is cathartic to work out, I just realized that......

Every bit of pent up emotion went into my punches and kicks, I mean sure I am still sad...but I am at peace with it.

I work hard to better myself, and my instructors (who I am thrilled to also call friends) push me. Just when I think I can't do it, they come gimme a shove

I love those sadistic bastards.

Tomorrow I am going to push myself even harder. There is NOTHING I cannot do if I work hard and keep pushing myself.

Stab me in the face so I forget how badly my thighs and shoulders hurt...please and ty!