Reeka's blog: "Whatever"

I would defend my friends all over again if given the chance.  It's who I am.  I don't think I was wrong in what I said, but if I was, or if I *am* off base at some point - I would like to think a true friend would tell me so.  I disagree with lots of friends - I believe that debate is a great way for both parties to learn.  It doesn't mean I don't still like you, until or unless you step over the line to stab me in the back.

I truly don't need friends that toe the line and pretend to agree with each party on the sly and publicly state they have no opinion.  Choose a side, be yourself, let people know what you think - and don't make fun of me or call me names when you should know I'm an emotional mess and have been for a couple years.  

Yeah, I knee-jerked too quickly, and deleted a couple of people who've been around for a loooonnngggg time.  It was excessively stupid, so much so that I'm too embarassed to even apologize to the people involved.  I doubt they'd ever want to speak with me again, and I can't blame them for that.  *shrugs*  when it comes down to it, if they were really a friend they would have seen what I did for what it was - lashing out because I was hurt.  And they would have asked me about it, rather than taking someone else's word for what happened.

Imma stop typing now because I just don't know what else to say.  I'm sorry I'm such a fuckup.