Sitting here morning light giving some relief to the darkness that haunts me
my heart cries for you
it cries for your pain, fear, and the love you give
it cries for the chance at happiness
it cries because it dawns on me just how much you can now destroy me
a chance i am now taking
to love again, truly love
like i never have before
needing to hear your voice,
needing to feel your arms around me
needing that safe place to love freely
after never being enough before,
that is all i pray for
trying to face the fears head on
trying not to run
trying to breath through the pain the past brings forth
my life has not been easy
due to the paths i have taken
giving my heart where it is unwanted, nor needed
little man needing a father
mommy needing a friend, lover, someone to lean on
someone who has all the qualities i am looking for
not what i am willing settle for
because now that you are in my life
settling is not an option
it is you or nothing
so i breath through the pain of the past,
wait for morning light to see through my fears
and wait to hear your voice,
and great the warmth with a smile
the emotions that flood me when i think of you are overwhelming
but bring the smile you love so much to my face
because that fine line we walk
takes focus, and i choose to focus on you,
and our little angels
and the future we may have
so hold my hand my love
we will stabilize eachother
to walk our lines together
shakie as we maybe, the line will only get tighter as we go
and together we can do this,
you have the power to destroy me
to finish off what others started to do
or you can make me stronger
and allow me to lean on you
as i hope you will lean on me
to hear your voice, brings a glow to me
that i have never had before
and with the dawn
a new day and a new realization
of just how much I love you
and I just how badly I want to spend the rest of my life with you...
If you will have me and mine
*love you Ironezzz
