tears fell from my eyes this morning my love
your song playing on my alarm
yet you were not here
and many things i left unsaid
when i get angry i shut down
all i feel is hurt and pain
every logical approach i take
lead me to a wall i could not get over
without your help
how can i fight ghosts?
how can i fight your past?
how can i make you believe what i feel is real?
that i am real?
words said in anger can be very destructive
harming not only you and me
but us as well
so i choose my words carefully
as not to offend
and hurt the man i love so much
but yes i was angry
at the situation
for we deserve better than that
we earned this magic we have found
i am not impractical when it comes to love
very much a realist who would love to have her head in the clouds
but knowing truths of the world
and the pain caused by callous words
spoken in the past but echoing in the present
i have my own confidence issues and some of which has been brought to the surface
now i feel i must be cautious
instead of care free of my expressions of love
for i am unsure of how they will be taken
i know you did not mean to come across as you did
but i feel as i was called a liar...
and everything i told you is what is true
you amazed me
never kisses so gentle
or a look so hungry
passions stirred that have laid dormant for years
woke so throughly it left me shaking
you left me shaking and hungry for more
to explore all the possibilities
then your words left me feeling meaningless
and that devastated me
and part of me is hiding now
waiting to see if it will be safe again to come out.....
or is it better to stay hidden away from rejection....
time will tell i guess
just know i love you
i miss you
you are what gives me life
i could have played it safe
instead i am here out on this limb
waiting to see if what i see
what i felt is real
or are you another illusion
and i am the fool yet again
i am left unsettled
trying to let go of the anger
a poem or two more
maybe then i will be able to breath
with out fear of drowning
in it
i shall let you read those as well in due time
when it is not so fresh
and can be seen by new eyes
in fresh light and to be seen for what they are
just words of this unicorns tears
Ironezzz Lady
the woman who actually wants nothing more than to love you
and perhaps be the mother of your children
nothing else really matters
you, ally, drew, this is my world this is my life
i love you
i desire you
i need you
i want you
i crave you
i adore you
please accept these humble words as truth
because i write from my heart
and they are echoed in my eyes
I love you
