missing little feet running rampant
a storm brewing and waiting to hear
the voice i would know from my grave
for i gave him life
a little boy with blue eyes
playing his games
and wanting to hear stories read by mommy
the name i love hearing the most
i really wasn't ready to be mommy yet when you came along
but you brought a light to my eyes
and direction my life was lacking
you brought me full circle
to the place i am now
where we are a family
just the two of us against the world
i cry from missing you so much
one day with you running around or hearing your voice and i am lost
just like when the other love of my life disappears for awhile
i know you both come back to me
i know how much i adore you little man
you love me unconditionally
i never felt it before until i held you
little fingers gripping my hand
and looking at me with those blue eyes
there was a time when no one but mommy would do
how much you have grown and changed since then
and more changes are coming lil man
you and mommy are going to move
and add a few more to our world
and every day i pray i am making the right choices
for you and me
i am just muddling through this parenting thing
praying for the best
and loving you with all i have
just as i am muddling through my love life
but this time i think this right
my heart says it is
so does my head
so we are going to take a chance
and see if i can bring out the best in both of us
I love you Andrew
my son
my life
do not ever doubt that
I miss you so much my son
these tears today are for you
each a silent prayer
for your safe return
and to tonight when we can read eachother stories
and the tickle monster can bring that laugh to life
i love you my son
with out you i am truly nothing
with out you i would be dead
someday you will read this i hope
and understand that mommy owes you her life
and all of her happiness includes you
i am going to be adding to our family
two more to begin with
i hope you love them as much as i already do
and i hope they love you as much as i do
if not it will be just us again
because i will not do that to you
i love you too much to harm you in any way
to say our prayers and wish you sweetdreams tonight is all i wish for
all i wait for
mommy misses you
