an insult to you
i hardly think
but it is not i who rules that mind of yours
it was a song to honor me
and i never heard it played
a gift to you it was meant to be
because it is i whom the song was about
to bring me happiness
and something for you to enjoy playing
how silly of me to think you would take it as the compliment it was meant to be
and here i am tears streaming
sobs rocking my shoulders
as my world walks away
you tell me not worry about how you feel about me
that will not change
but you can not convince me of that right now
you just walked away
leaving me dying inside
questioning every word ever said
because if you loved me so much
why could you shut me out
you ask me to understand
but do not give me the means too
you asked for honesty
and you walk away
taking everything i have with you
shattering my heart
and begging you to talk to me
how fast leave
when it suits you
i guess i have to wait and see if you return
as if the distance between us is not great enough
you have to throw me into the abyss as well
pain never so great felt as right now
i give
i surrender
i give up
i will wait and see if you call
until then i will let the pain eat at me
tearing apart all that was left
and leaving the scars for all to see
i am hurting so badly
and no one cares
no one is there
i am at the bottom
looking up
seeing only darkness
hearing nothing but my own sorrow
and my own death will become me